Topic: I have awoken into a world of endless possibilities I see have seen everything when the rest of the world is blind
Date: ???? Dear journal I had opened my eyes and saw the stars shine in the sky of darkness the determination to save Sarah still with me and giving me strength, I knew the future and saw how it would play out, I saw the ending to our story, and It was not an ending I enjoyed or care to think of, I am going to change it... My power is to rewrite the mistakes fate has made by allowing my spirit to travel through time; I foresaw the death of Sarah five days from now. Now that my spirit has returned to my body I can use the knowledge I had Gained to save Sarah, I travelled fast through the forest running towards the Cullens & Denali’s, it probably would have been faster to call them and tell them everything over phone. Moving through the forest I could hear the rustling of the grass around me as the animals fled from me, I could smell the scent of the luscious grass and I could also smell the scent of animals near by. Moving as fast as I could all I could really think about was the need to see the Cullens and Denali’s along with the visions of Sarah’s execution and her death, it was horrible, it was something no one should ever have to witness especially when the one dying is someone you love. I had made it to the place the Cullens and Denali’s were together and the very first thing I said to them was “I am going to Volterra” being the idiot I was, I had failed to notice my son and Edward’s daughter in the room I could see the confusion in my son’s face, and Edward’s daughter looking anxious, it was at that moment Seth suggested that Renesmee and Tobias accompany him on a patrol with Leah, my son was reluctant, but after he left with Seth, Leah and Renesmee I had told them everything, they were shocked especially when it came to the death of Demetri “the Volturi are crippled, we can hide for the rest of eternity” Tanya had spoken, it was then Carlisle gave his two cents “or at least until they find someone to replace him like Alistair” everyone went quiet “I don’t have time to waste I am going to the nearest town with an airport and I am going to go save Sarah” I was about to head out of the door when I heard Edward speak “According to the information you gave us, you can’t do this on your own Brian…that would be suicide, you would be outnumbered by not only Aro's Guards, but his witnesses too.” I hated the fact that Edward was right, if I went alone, then I would only end up a dead man, but what choice did I have, I had to save Sarah or die trying. Edward had obviously read my mind when he began to speak “we will save her, but we have to think this through, Sarah is a innocent victim in all this and we will not let her suffer” I had wondered if he would be this calm if it was Bella in Sarah’s place and he shook his head “I wouldn’t” he spoke out in response to my thoughts. Tanya had taken a step forward, she was dressed in black and her hair in a pony tail “that’s just it, is she really an innocent victim…Sarah has murdered not one, but two members of the Volturi guard for us to get involved would put our family at risk.” She spoke out of concern for her own family, personally I felt rage “We are already involved Kate and I assisted Brian in his escape and we assaulted members of the guard….we are already a target.” Garrett spoke up for my side, Carmen had folded her arms and leaned on the counter, she didn’t look happy. “That was a foolish move for both of you; you have both put us in grave danger.” The Spanish Accent was usually nice to listen to, but this time I was frustrated, and I knew it was due to the fact I did not have time for vampire debating. Kate had stepped forward “Sarah would never have been put in that situation in the first place if Aro hadn’t threaten the life of her son and Brian’s, along with that they Murdered Irina….OUR SISTER over a small mistake and tried to destroy us all, and in case you doubt that they have spent all these years creating some sort of toxic poison that does who knows what to us….I believe it’s safe to say we were never safe….I agree with Brian, Sarah has saved not only garret and my life, but all of yours by informing us and giving us proof of the Volturi’s plan to wipe us out…the very least we can do is try and save her.” Tanya looked at Kate furiously, she didn’t like the idea of danger and to tell the truth neither did I, I didn’t want to leave my son fatherless, there was still many things I had to teach the boy, everyone began to bicker amongst each other when Carlisle cleared his throat “Kate makes a valid point, and I agree with her we owe Sarah a debt, so I will ask for volunteers…raise your hand if you wish to join Brian and I in rescuing Sarah” I had looked around and watched one by one everyone raised their hand, Bella was fifth to raise her hand and right after she did Edward raised his hand…the way those two moved it was like one would react to the other…like magnets. Everyone eventually raised their hand, Tanya was last “I will call the rest of my pack to come down….we will protect Renesmee and the brat” Jacob had spoken “His name is Tobias” I corrected him gritting his teeth, Edward thanked Jacob and Bella had spoken “I think we should gather Siobhan and the rest of the covens…we need friends to back us up.” Esme stepped forward “I will begin making the calls.…Alice can make the flight arrangements, Brian, I think you need to speak to Tobias so he doesn’t fret too much, Edward…Bella” it was at that point they both nodded they knew she was going to say the same to them. What should I tell Tobias, how would he react…when I tell him I am going away yet again, I have been so distant with him lately he is a smart kid he knows something is going on. I found Tobias with Seth during the patrol he was riding on Seth’s back, so when he came to hug me he stank of wolf, I put one hand around his back to hug him back “Tobias…I am going to make this short…The Cullens, Denali’s and myself are going to Volterra…while I am gone you have to listen to that friend of yours ok…” It is difficult to leave my son under the care of mongrels, but it’s not like the human Charlie could protect Tobias. I continued to keep him in my arm, and smelled my son’s sweet scent, listened to his heartbeat and then his voice as he spoke “don’t go dad…why are you always leaving” He asked me, he sounded upset and I held him close what could I tell him, I didn’t want to lie to him, but I also didn’t want to blow his world apart by telling him that I was going to rescue his mother whom I told him was dead…what if I failed, it would crush us both…at least this way I would be the only casualty to him if I failed in rescuing Sarah…because if I failed I would die with her. To live your life without the one you love is truly a fate worse than death. It shouldn’t be me here comforting my upset son…Sarah should be here comforting her son, experiencing all the good and the sad times, I wont let her miss anymore. Putting my hand on his head “It’s nothing to concern yourself with at the moment I will explain everything to you when I get home…I promise in the meantime why not look after Edward’s daughter…repay their kindness by protecting Renesmee” Tobias looked at me, he was reluctant to accept this, but he did he told me he loved me and hearing him say that made me smile, hearing your child tell you that they loved you is one of the best feelings a parent can feel, when I hear him say it I light up full of pride and feel pretty awesome I imagine it’s similar to feeling high on ecstasy. I told my son that I loved him, that he has brought me so much joy and purpose and that I was proud of him. it was hard to leave him there with the dog, I didn’t trust the mongrels capacity to protect my son, after all they were dogs…as I walked back towards the cabins I stopped and looked around, If I couldn’t have faith in the dogs….what else could I do…well I thought of something and as much as I hated to do this I did it “you said you could foresee everything….look out for my son old man.” I spoke out hoping Dracula would hear me…Dracula annoyed the crap out of me, but if it meant asking that jerk for help in looking after my son, put it this way I would make a deal with the devil himself to protect my son. I returned to the Cullens and Denali’s and saw they were already waiting for me, they were Silent and I asked them how we were doing. Alice stood still with jaspers arms around her “we have worked out a plan, if we stick to it exactly everything should work out.” She informed me immediately I wanted to know what their plans were “go on” Jasper held Alice tight he seemed to be a rad anxious “We intend on using Kate, Garrett and yourself as bait…you three have openly defied the Volturi so there is pretty much a bounty on you…so at the front lines of the execution site will be…Carlisle,Eleazar, Esme, Emmett, Rosalie, Edward and Bella…Bella’s shield will be up to protect us from Alec or Jane while Edward reads their minds to prevent pre emptive strikes…we have a cover story for our presence at the execution, Eleazar will be there as head of his family while Tanya and Carmen is with Alice and I, ….Carlisle will be there as head of our family he will announce that he had no idea of what was going on.” I had listened as Jasper continued, speaking on…how Jasper and Alice would lead another group, with all their witnesses they would stay out of sight. When Alice gets a vision of Aro arriving then she would lead her group of witnesses with Jasper…I would rush to the car and rescue Sarah from Aro, and Sulpicia and Emmett would be taking care of Felix. That was the plan we went over every little detail until everyone could memorize it. We drove by car to the airport and caught flight…not everyone went together Alice and Jasper had taken off to gather the witnesses who don’t have phones…it was an inconvenience after all in this day and age is it so difficult to have prepaid phones…even if you’re a nomad and travel…kill a human take their money and buy credit at the nearest phone store and there you go instant contact with friends. we had arrived in Italy with one day to spare and stayed one town away from Volterra, we had one day to prepare, everyone with the exception of Tanya spent it with the company of their loved ones….Tanya didn’t have one and mine was locked away in a dark dungeon in a weakened condition probably loosing her mind…Tanya had sat with me as I watched the sunrise, there was silence between us I felt uneasy and that was only natural with our past “tell me something Brian” Tanya had caught my attention and I looked into her golden eyes “are you saving Sarah for Tobias’s sake so he can meet his mother…or is it because you love Sarah” It seems this would definitely be an awkward moment “I do this for my son…and for me, I love her Tanya…I never stopped loving her even when you and I hooked up….I am sorry” was all I could managed to say to her, she was quiet and I wondered what hell would come next…females were irrational and frightening creatures at times “ I see” was all Tanya would say and then there was utter silence as we sat there watching the sun. It was midday that the clouds finally covered the sun and we could make our move towards Volterra the car ride was quiet…Carlisle, Esme, Bella, Edward and I were in one car. Bella was looking at her phone and going through the image gallery, I could see from over her shoulder pictures of Edward and Renesmee…Bella must have been missing her daughter and for a moment I wondered why Bella or Edward would take this risk to never see their daughter again. I remembered I was around Edward and I tried to stop thinking about this…Being around Edward can be so frustrating at times, having to watch what I think is a real inconvenience. As we approached the execution location I began to feel the sensation of fear and horror, the last time I was here…Sarah had died, I saw her burn away and smelled her flesh burn…I witnessed her death and even though I was determined to prevent that fate, I feared I would fail her. as we pulled over to the side Emmett came to my side of the car door and opened it he pulled me out and pulled my arm behind my back “what are you doing here” Caius spoke viciously Carlisle had stepped forward and responded “Eleazar and I have heard about Mr. Jacobson, and Some of the Denali’s behaviour towards your people I just wanted to offer you the offenders to show my family and Eleazar’s family in no way associate ourselves with this crime” as Carlisle finished Emmett forced me onto my knees, Kate and Garrett were at my side. Caius had asked about my son and I was about to get up and rip him apart when Emmett held me down. Edward had witnessed my reaction and she looked to Caius “Bella and I have spoken about it and we have agreed to take in The son of Mr. Jacobson, we will take responsibility for the boy” it was difficult to stay so still “well we shall discuss this with Aro when he arrives…speaking of which here he comes now.” Caius spoke It was time, I was going to stand and run to the limo “Bella” Edward spoke, I could only assume Bella was going to raise her shield, Kate and Garrett stood up while I stood up and ran towards the limo I could see the limo come to the stop as Felix pulled out, Emmett had charged passed me and threw Felix to the front part of the limo, I ripped open the limo door from it’s hinges and leaned in, Aro had moved towards me and I did something that most of the vampire population probably dreamed of doing…I punched the creepy asshole with such force that Aro hit the closed door of the limo out of the limo as the door came off it’s hinges. As I looked at Sarah and saw her shocked expression I could hear the footsteps of all the witnesses, everything was going according to plan, but at this very moment I didn’t care about the plan I cared about my baby girl she looked so weak and frail…exactly like my vision I hated seeing her like this. “no one is roasting my baby girl” I spoke out and I could see her beautiful smile, she seemed very tired as I held her in my arms. She buried her face in my chest and I grinned, she told me I should have left her and I looked down to her face and knew I had to say something “yo baby girl…for once let me save you ok...” Sarah kept on speaking she said things how fighting was pointless and I should let her die to end the madness and insanity…this wasn’t my Sarah…this Sarah was a quitter…I tightened my grip on her and knew I had to give her the message…Dracula was right Sarah needs this message. “I was meant to give you a message Sarah…at the time, I wasn’t sure if I should, because you fought so many battles that were not yours to fight…but now hearing you speaking like this like you have given up…that’s not you Sarah…listen if you don’t like the hand fate has dealt you…fight for a better hand, always fight for one and never give up.” I could see Sarah’s black eyes widen, she seemed surprised by my words. I watched Sarah and was broken out of my gaze when I heard Emmett telling me to hurry up, he must have been struggling to keep Felix at bay “Sorry Emmett” I spoke and Jasper moved with speed and agility as he ran to Aro and tossed him into Caius, I had to admit it I was impressed I knew of Jasper’s history as a solder, but to see him do such a feat it was incredible. Rosalie went for Sulpicia while Jasper assisted Emmett. Sarah was tight in my arms and I was vigilant I wasn’t going to let anyone take my woman now that I had her with me. I could hear Felix yelling at me asking what I was waiting for, that I should take Sarah and run…this confused for a moment I didn’t even have time to ponder the meaning of this as Sarah told me that Felix was a good guy and she asked me not to hurt him. Alice had joined us seconds later and confirmed Sarah’s statement that she had a vision of him not harming us. I was reluctant, but Jasper & Emmett released Felix and Edward joined us with bad news, he told me that Bella couldn’t keep the shield up for much longer with constant attacks from Jane and Alec…it seemed Bella was at her limits. I tightened my grip on Sarah trying to do my best to think of something…anything that could help us, how could I have not expected this…It was stupid of me not to have thought of this possible outcome and then I heard my soul mate speak…asking me to let her down that she would end this one and for all…I wanted to yell hell no that I had no intention of letting her give herself up, I tightened my grip “no Sarah, I didn’t go through all this to loose you again…this time you are coming home with me…to see our son.” I was determined to for that outcome even if I had to die for it to happen. Sarah had spoken again and I listened. “Brian…you awakened something inside me…let me fight with you for a better future too…not just for us, but for everyone..” I didn’t want to do it, no way in hell did I want her to fight especially in her condition, but I had no choice Sarah had proven herself time and time again to do the impossible….just this one last time I would let her fight after this fight never again. Felix had asked for Sarah’s plan, and without hesitating she announced she was going to the front lines to Bella. I knew what she was going do; it was a classic Sarah move. Sarah given the orders telling us that Felix would lead the evacuation of the witnesses who assisted the Cullen’s, Denali’s and I. Sarah had ordered me to take Sulpicia from Rosalie and when she was ready I was to bring her Rosalie. She wanted to make a trade it was an interesting concept to deal with the Volturi like that, I didn’t think it would work the Volturi were cheats but then Sarah knew the Volturi a lot better than me she must have some trick up her sleeve. I touched Sarah’s arm softly and kissed her on the lips smiling “ok baby girl…lets end this now, so we can go home to our son.” Sarah had walked off towards Bella and I approached Rosalie taking the bitch known as Sulpicia off her. I held Sulpicia tightly and watched as Felix left taking witnesses with him. Sulpicia was whispering in a hissing tone about how we were all dead that her beloved Aro would make us suffer for this mutiny. I wanted to gag the bitch, or threaten her instead I just fixated to watching my baby girl like a hawk. It’s weird to see the person you love more than your own life…struggle to walk, to appear so weak on the outside yet on the inside she was mighty she was like a pillar of strength the strongest vampire…no woman that I will ever know. I wondered how she was doing it, was she so used to doing things on her own that she developed perseverance or did she fight because she had a reason to…maybe it was all of the above. Edward had approached Sarah and allowed her to use him as a crutch to help her make it to Bella while Sulpicia was whispering “look at that she can’t even walk…so you really believe that pathetic weakling will be able to do anything to make a difference on her own…you should let me go and go cherish the last minutes of your immortality with that weak whore.” At that moment I wanted to kill Sulpicia rip her to shreds that not even she could recover from “you are mistaken…Sarah has proven time and time again that as long as one person is willing to take a stand that anything is possible…Aro feared Sarah’s power, he knew when she was still human that Sarah would one day become a powerful weapon that not even he could stop….watch Sulpicia watch as your Mate’s worst fear comes to life.” I snarled at her violently. We both watched as Sarah had grabbed Bella’s hand a smile had was planted on my face that was until she collapsed onto her knees, she was still holding Bella’s hand “Sarah” I yelled out, she had panted and told me that it wasn’t time. I could listen to Bella announcing how strong she felt. Aro had given the order to attack and Sarah had called for me. In a flash I moved still holding Sulpicia and I was at my woman’s side. Sarah had pulled Sulpicia out of my arms and she had her arm around Sulpicia she was cocky. Sarah had taken control telling Aro to demand that his people backed off when he remained quiet I was shocked that Sarah sank her teeth into Sulpicia’s neck and started feeding from Sulpicia savagely. Sulpicia was shrieking and her body was shaking venom was all over Sulpicia’s neck area and Sarah was just drinking it all up, never in my life had I seen something this unorthodox a vampire…drinking the venom from another vampire.. Aro had told Jane and Alec to back off Sarah had pulled back from Sulpicia’s neck and Sulpicia’s silvery black venom was dripping down from the sides of Sarah’s mouth. She had spoken asking me to take Kate & Garrett and assist in getting everyone else away …I had watched Sarah cringe she was hurting I had to make sure she knew what she was doing “Sarah if I do that we are going to be outnumbered” My darling baby girl reassured me telling me that it wouldn’t be a problem as long as she had Sulpicia as a hostage. I sighed out and knew I had to do this…Sarah wasn’t a fool she knew what she was doing and she was relying on me. After sighing I had told Kate and Garrett to take the next group out and Sarah had made Aro given a promise that he would leave us all alone before his witnesses and the remainder of our own in exchange for Sulpicia. Aro was furious but he had sworn to it, what I didn’t expect was to see Sarah ripping off Sulpicia’s head, I wondered if she lost the plot she just butchered our hostage. Sarah held Sulpicia’s head by the hair and she had a wicked smile on her face, she held a finger and reminded Aro of the vow he had made, she was clever she had never promised the condition of Sulpicia only that she would be returned. I was impressed that he actually kept his word, there was cheers from around us as I moved in close I wrapped my arms around Sarah “let’s go home baby girl” I spoke softly I carried Sarah in my arms as we left the monastery everyone chatted and I looked down to Sarah and Sulpicia’s head. I had asked Sarah about her intentions with the head of Sulpicia, naturally she gave a sarcastic remark to stuffing it and putting it on display. I knew Sarah was joking, but still a part of me had this weird image of trying to explain Sarah mounting the head on the wall to a curious Tobias. After she chucked the head at Felix and instructed him to burn it I climbed into the car and Rosalie was quick to join us, she was enthusiastic about meeting Sarah and it was my sincerest hopes that they would be friends. Sarah could use some good people in her life. I had offered Sarah my wrist to drink my venom and help with the poison, but she refused to do it I had wondered whether she was modest or not. There was a silence between us as she nuzzled into my chest and I enjoyed it caressing her blond hair, I remembered the first time Sarah and I were intimate on a personal level as well as Sexual on the 4th of May 2009 Sarah was catatonic mourning for the daughter she was forced to give up, and naturally I was rash breaking into her room picking her up and carrying her into the shower and turning on the taps…she was so furious, but something inside her changed just like it did for me…we were both ready for each other at least that’s what I think. Now as I hold her in my arms and make a secret pact to never allow anything to separate us I think about the life we will have together. My son will finally have a mother and I finally have my best friend and soul mate back. ~Brian Jacobson.
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Topic: If you don’t like the hand fate has dealt you….fight for a better one.
Date: ????? Dear Journal I had looked up in shock and I saw him, the man who had changed my life…the man who turned me into what I am today…my maker. He looked exactly how I remembered him. He had long blond hair and crimson eyes his skin was Caucasian, but he was paler because he was vampire, the only thing I could tell was different was his clothing, he wore tight black leather pants and a vest, it was unbuttoned and showed his chest. “Hello my son. ” He spoke his voice full of optimism. I didn’t know what to make of this seeing my maker after two hundred and seventy four years. At first I didn’t know what to say and then I managed to speak “what do you want” I asked him, he chuckled “what any father wants for his son…to see you happy” I didn’t know what to say…actually I knew what I wanted to say…I wanted to tell him that I would never be happy again, that I wanted to die with Sarah…for without her I suffer an agony far worse than death every moment of my existence. I wanted to tell him he is not my father…that he was nothing to me. I decided to ignore the man who had given me immortality and picked myself up, I hovered towards the burned steak “go away you’re no father of mine…you may have given me immortality, but that’s It.” It was to my surprise that I heard his laughter “Oh it is true…kids do say the most peculiar things” his voice had rung inside my head I turned from where Sarah was tied to just moments ago I was going to tell him what I really thought, but he stopped me in my tracks “BRIAN JACOBSON THAT IS ENOUGH YOU WILL BE SILENT” his voice was like the voice of darkness itself, it was commanding and had a powerful presence to it. It was like chills being sent down my back I felt the small amount of strength I have leave me as I floated there in silence. “My son…I know you grieve, you suffer great pain…I…I think it’s time we leave this spot” I was shocked he walked towards me “no” I sobbed at the speed of light he was in front of me he placed his hand on my shoulder and when he let go the scenery was different as soon as I saw the shores I knew where we were…we were home. This was the home where my Sarah and I had some happy memories…granted there is only a few, but in the short time we had together the memories we shared were powerful. This was the place I raised our son. This was my heaven on earth. “Now my son…let’s talk…” He sounded so normal and happy; well I suppose he would be happy he didn’t just lose his soul mate. “why…why did you leave so soon after you changed me” My maker looked at me “Well…my boy it’s rather simple….I served my purpose….after I changed you, and sheltered you during your transformation I knew that I would only be a hindrance…you had to forge your path and do things your way and become a man who was truly free.” Well I had to admit it sort of made sense to me, I had spent my entire life at the point serving others and having no freedom, in a way my life was reliant on my masters they gave me an order and I did it…granted eventually I ran away, that was just the start of my independence and so I realized that maybe if he had stuck around perhaps I would have stayed in that routine. I felt less angry at my maker for leaving me “What is you’re name” I waited for his answer and he watched as he had taken a moment to think about it “I have many names some call me Dracula…others call me Vlad the Impaler” What…that couldn’t be possible my maker was Dracula…“Get out” I uttered in shock watching my maker’s grin grow bigger, this was all so insane…first Sarah and now this…my maker is the legendary Dracula…this is utter madness I was starting to wish I never asked for his name “I know what you’re thinking son and no I have no relation to Bram Stoker or his vampire novel” to be honest I was relieved of that, but freaked out that he knew my thoughts I had a suspicion that he was telepathic like Edward “you’re reading my mind aren’t you” I accused him and again the strangeness in my voice was unfamiliar. Dracula nodded his head “Indeed I am and before you ask you’re next question. I shall answer it for you son…I am the voice you have been hearing” he answered astonishing me with the fact I hadn’t even thought of that question, but now that I did think about it, it would have been my next question “Fine then let me ask this…how are you doing this you’re answering questions I haven’t even thought about yet.” Dracula smiled, which at this point was starting to annoy me, and started to circle me “I am not what you would call a normal vampire... I have an ability known as Omniscience…I Know anything and everything my son…see if I wanted to, I could answer every question you ask without even thinking of it, because I have already foresaw it.” I raised an eyebrow as he circled me “Yeah right” I spoke skeptically. My maker chuckled and stopped “Very well, I shall prove it…You’re going to ask me the following questions. The first did I foresee Sarah’s death well yes I foresaw her death two hundred years before her birth” I didn’t allow him to finish I ran towards Dracula determined to destroy him. when I noticed his face get serious and in a flash I suddenly found myself on the my back with his foot on my chest, he was so fast I didn’t even see him take me down…this was insane, not even Felix is capable of this…it was like Dracula moved at the speed of light. Dracula’s face looked serious for the first time since our encounter and he had an icy cold stare “BAD BOY BAD” he spoke and I felt like a child being scolded for touching a cookie before dinner time. He kept his foot there and I felt the sand. “WHY DIDN’T YOU SAVE HER IF YOU FORESAW IT YOU COULD HAVE SAVED HER” I yelled at him in fury, Dracula kept his icy cold stare “It is not my place to get involved in my children’s business…Now.” He answered me and pulled his foot off me and in a flash he had his hand on my shirt and with incredible strength he lifted me up and held me off the ground “I didn’t bring you here to humiliate you my boy…I came here to help you to educate you as my grandson would say…Relax.” He was quoting Tobias which surprised me. I wondered how someone could know anything and everything and then I wanted to ask him that, but he was probably expecting it.”Fine what do you want to educate me in…I just want to get this over…so I can go back to where she…” I couldn’t finish what I was going to say, truth be told I had intended to stay at the place of Sarah’s death for eternity…Edward or Rosalie could take care of Tobias…besides Tobias deserved someone better than me…After all what sort of father could I be when I allowed my son’s mother to die. I watched Dracula's smile return as he lowered me onto the sand “look over there my son” He pointed behind me and at the dock of my beach I saw her…it was Sarah, she stood there in the long white dress she died in, the wind blowing her blond hair back as she had her hands cupped over her heart. “Sarah” I whispered smiling I felt this excitement and joy to see her again. She watched the ocean and to me she looked like an angel “She is at peace now even though she cannot move on to the afterlife” I barely heard Dracula, but when I did come back to my senses I asked him why and his words sent chills down my spine “she gave you an oath Brian…she swore that her spirit would always be with you…that she would be waiting for you at this place for an eternity…she is happy, and at peace.” It was mind blowing to see her there she looked so perfect. “I have a question to ask you, and even though I know the answer…I want to hear it from your words…from your heart…If you could save Sarah from death…would you do it?” he asked me, it was a stupid question “Of course” I answered without hesitation “Even if in the future it would bring Sarah terrible pain and heartache” He asked again, I nodded my head “Yes…Sarah is no stranger to pain, she can take it….and I would be there to mend her heart.” I answered him. I didn’t want to look away from Sarah I was afraid if I did she would vanish, but I had this feeling that Dracula was smiling “well then my son…I have good news for you…Sarah is still alive” I felt something inside me, it was like my heart became lighter I reluctantly looked away from Sarah and looked to Dracula and had both my hands on his vest “Don’t mess with me old man I have had a really shitty day I saw her die in front of me, I heard her screams and smelled her flesh burn…even if what your saying is true why wait till now why not tell me right away” I yelled at him with anger. My maker had just laughed “because like any other father I enjoy messing with my child…Brian what you saw is the future…seven days in the future…well actually five because you have been in the Astral world for about two days now.” I had released Dracula and fell on my knees, Sarah was alive…I had never been happier in my entire life, I looked up at Dracula he knew what I was going to ask…how could I go to the future. “Humans would call your ability Astral projection Brian, with your power you have the potential to be like me to know anything and everything…you could travel to the past…the present and the future and learn from it. But you don’t know how to use your power…so it’s unpredictable…you need to be specific when you use your power my son…take a moment to think what did you say…before you came to the astral plain” he asked me, remaining on my knees I did as I was told and I thought about it…I wanted to be with Sarah because I thought she needed me bad and then I remembered my words “Take me to Sarah, let me be with her for when she needs me the most” I thought to myself and at that moment Dracula has spoken as if he had read my mind “I can’t imagine a moment she would need you more, than the day she is going to die…wouldn’t you agree my son.” I nodded wordlessly. I felt Dracula put his hand on my head “you have the power to free you’re soul from the physical world….with it Brian you can travel through time and space go to any place you desire…and take anyone you want….but you need to be specific Brian….now my son…it’s almost time for us to part…You now know you’re mission…save the woman you love or that will be her fate” he pointed to Sarah at the docks waiting endlessly for me as a spirit, someone incomplete.” I stood up and looked at my maker as his hand traveled from my head to my cheek “one more thing if you manage to save Sarah…you must give her this message…word for word, If you don’t like the hand fate has dealt you…fight for a better one.” I wanted to ask him why, but instead I asked him “wait I thought you knew everything, surely you would know if I succeed” I asked him “Oh I do know, but I am not into giving spoilers away my son…I prefer to keep you in suspense…I know I’m a sadist aren’t I” he spoke with a chuckle “more like a weirdo” I retorted moving his hand away I knew how to get back, I had to focus on returning to my body Dracula had spoken again “Remember son….five days is all you have...use the knowledge you learned here to make a difference” Dracula started to walk away when I yelled out “HEY WAIT WHAT DID YOU MEAN THAT DAY….THAT I WOULD CHANGE THE WORLD OF OUR KIND.” Dracula stopped and turned to face me “I could tell you that son, but wouldn’t it be much more exciting to find out on your own….good luck my son, we will meet again in the future…we still have much to discuss” He answered in my head then he just vanished out of thin air majorly freaky and really annoying he would leave me in suspense. Looking back to Sarah I smiled “I am coming for you baby girl.” I focused on returning to my body and opened my eyes I could see the beautiful stars were out…my pain and my grief washed away with relief and determination according to Dracula I had five days to save her. Brian has learned the truth about his mysterious power Will he be able to change the future? Find out Next time on Brian’s Journal Topic: I remember back before all this madness began and when My son and I was still at our home at the beach we watched the waves…. My son noticed some birds fly in the sky and then to my surprise he told me this story…there once was a lovebird named Hart and he was a beautiful lovebird, Hart lived in the forest with a large flock of lovebirds and as he grew up from a child he noticed all his friends, fell in love and had bird wives and soon became dominated in the blissful warmth that is called love. Eventually Hart was the only lovebird single within the entire flock, he felt this emptiness in his heart because although his friends and family didn’t shun him, something inside of him was missing and that pain he felt was so intense it devoured him whole and even though he soared the heavens that emptiness was always there. One day Hart had enough, he decided to soar the heavens until he met oblivion. So Hart flew and he flew far from his friends and family and far from his homeland, until he could not fly anymore. After resting and recovering hart was about to continue his quest for oblivion when he heard a the crying of another creature, when hart followed the sound of the crying he came across this beautiful female lovebird named Aphrodite. The moment he saw her everything changed….he had changed because in that very first second he saw her he fell in love with her. Hart had asked Aphrodite what was wrong and she told told him “I am sad, because I am surrounded by people who say they love me, people who call me their friends and even though they say that I feel so alone and so very scared” Hart had understood Aphrodite and so he walked along the branch close to her and he spread his beautiful green wing over her back and spoke “I used to feel that way too until I met you.” Aphrodite was surprised at Hart’s confession and then she realized that the pain she felt…it wasn’t as bad as it used to be and eventually the two loveless lovebirds found love in each other. For the next three months the two lovebirds were inseparable they had found their own piece of heaven within each other’s company proving that the heavens weren’t in the sky that they ruled, but in each others heart. One day as Hart & Aphrodite flew together, until Aphrodite had an arrow shot through her heart and she fell from the sky and landed on a beach not to far from here. Hart had landed beside Aphrodite and saw she was dead. The void Hart felt returned a thousand fold and hart had tried to live without Aphrodite, and even though he tried he could not live without her and twenty four hours later hart had returned to where his beautiful Aphrodite passed on and he joined her in death…. I remembered at the time feeling concern for my son and how morbid the story was and when I asked him “why tell me such a sad story boy” My son looked at me and smiled sadly “For every happy ending father, there must be a sad ending” I believe this Is my sad ending~ Date: ????? Dear Journal, Things seemed to be incredibly fast it wasn’t long after I arrived in Ocean shore, Washington that Bella and Edward returned with the human known as Charlie, with two foul smelling mongrels and a bitch….I believe I am using the right terms…to describe them. they call their species shape shifters or werewolves….they are no true children of the moon that much I can tell you that much.…their human names were Seth, Leah and Jacob. I do not like these creatures much they smell horrible, and what disturbed me was the fact how much my son seems to be getting along with the youngest of the three….Seth Clearwater. The two seems to have become best friends in such a short amount of time; I found it humiliating to watch when after one of their patrol’s Tobias asked if he could pet Seth while he was still in his mongrel’s form….perhaps this peculiar fascination my son has with the mongrel is because I did not allow him a pet when he was a child. Although I did take small comfort in the fact that my son didn’t like Jacob much, and it seemed Jacob did not like my son at all I believe he sees my son as a threat to his relationship with Renesmee, he views my son as a possible rival suitor to her. Rosalie of course keeps trying to separate Renesmee from Jacob seems my son found an alliance with Rosalie and Renesmee seems to be completely oblivious to the contest going on between my son and the mongrel. Tobias will defeat the flea bitten mongrel that much I know after all he is my son. I had tried over and over already to do this out of body experience again so I could get to Sarah, but I couldn’t do it I just couldn’t relax and concentrate at the same time not like I did before everything was so distracting, I could hear my son speaking downstairs asking Seth would he be offended if he asked Jacob to play a game of fetch, while Rosalie snorted a laugh, I could also hear Emmett chuckle and whisper “he is an awesome kid” that alone had me smile of course my son was awesome, he was my son after all he is a brilliant young man intelligent as he is perfect. I couldn’t take it anymore and decided to hold the meeting with Carlisle, Edward, Eleazar and Jacob. So I had left the sanctuary of my room and rejoined them all, I hugged my son and listen to him Grumble “daaaaaaaaad not in front of Nessie…I don’t want nessie to think im a wimp” I chuckled realizing my boy was turning into a man and listened to Jacob speak “Daddies boy” as he had Renesmee wrapped around his arms. “Jacob don’t be mean…besides I like a guy that shows affection to their parents it shows respect” she scolded him as I let go of my son, “wait you do” Jacob spoke surprised, it was that moment that Tobias wrapped his arms around me and spoke “I LOVE YOU DADDY” it had taken everything inside of me not to roar into laughter, I knew what my son was trying to do that sneaky little punk, he was trying to get brownie points with Renesmee. I let go of my son and he lowered his arms I placed my hand on his head as if to pet it, he is a good kid….no he is a fantastic kid. Carlisle and Edward had entered the room and I looked at them and nodded my head and then I sent Eleazar a text message telling him we would be hosting the meeting. It was within moments he and Carmen had entered the house, I had assumed they must have been very close by perhaps somewhere just outside. Edward glanced at Bella whom was speaking to Rosalie and she nodded standing up Bella announced “ok everyone I think its time we play a game of vampire volleyball at the beach Who’s with me” she spoke, everyone including myself was silent and we just looked at her as if she was nuts, Rosalie smiled “too bad we are all going to play” she walked to Jacob and pulled out rubber gloves and pulled them on, she touched Jacob and pulled Renesmee out of Jacobs arms and he had a mixture of a frown/glare aimed at Rosalie. Tobias left my side faster than the flash and was next to Renesmee “oh yeah this is gonna be shweet” he spoke nudging into her and Jacob let out a low growl “not fair” he grumbled, I had ignored Jacob and started to realize that my son’s loyalty to me had only been surpassed to the loyalty of women…I don’t know why, but I had this strange feeling that when my son grew up he would be a shameless flirt…someone that would use a quote like “I hope you're a poetry major because I need some help with my Longfellow” the very thought of that made me face palm…women at least the good kind did not want to be courted like that, it’s just not the way to court a woman at least it wasn’t back in my day….Damn MTV turning all the girls into harlots and loose ho’s. Everyone had left with the exception of Kate and Garrett, which had surprised me “Since they were there I thought they should stay, get their perspective from it.” Before I could say anything Kate had began into the story of how she and Garrett sneaked into the Volturi compound and stolen some spare cloaks and rubbed it over themselves to mask their scent and sneak into the throne room where they retold the start to end and the escape. Including the part where Sarah remained behind to stop them. I had awoken from my stream of thoughts when Carlisle asked me to look at the weapon Sarah had handed me. I pulled out the sheathed weapon “be careful it’s poisonous….Sarah told me the Volturi had intended to use it on your coven she wanted me to warn you and your coven and flee with you.” I spoke quietly. Carlisle’s face was blank for a moment and then he looked as sad as I felt, he was a man filled with compassion “She was truly remarkable woman…she defied the Volturi to protect us all showing, that even one person can make the difference if they try.” I couldn’t stand how he used the past tense so I corrected him “She IS truly remarkable….she isn’t dead yet…I am going to save her” Carlisle had apologized as soon as I had spoken he realized he was in the wrong “we will help you in whatever way we can…you’re Sarah has saved the lives of my family…and Eleazar's family by sharing this with us” He spoke raising the weapon “I will have to study it…to see exactly what this poison is and how it works…” He spoke, it was at this Jacob sat on the floor like the dog he was and folded his arms, I still didn’t understand why Edward insisted that he should be a part of this meeting “can we hurry this up I don’t like it when that brat is around my Nessie” he spoke and quickly added in no offence, but it was too late for that offence was taken. “what’s wrong afraid of a little contest” I asked the dog, Jacob looked at me “he is no contest I just don’t like being apart from Nessie is all after all what if you’re clueless son makes a move on her and makes her feel awkward” that was it I wasn’t going to let some mongrel bad mouth my son “I think you’re just afraid Jacob…afraid that Nessie will realize she has more in common and more of a connection with my son than you ever will and you know what they say is true….once you go fang you never go back, besides shouldn’t you be going out with girls your own age or does statutory rape not mean anything to you’re species.” I barked back at him and Jacob’s skin began to shake for a moment until he breathed in and he calmed down. I could see that Carlisle wanted to stop this, but Edward raised his hand to stop him, perhaps he was amused that two men were fighting about his daughter even though I was fighting on my son’s behalf. “to answer your previous question Jacob, you are hear because of Brian…from what Carlisle has told me and the thoughts I could gather in Brian’s mind…Brian had an out of body experience where his spirit has left his body…I am assuming Brian would like to learn how to use this ability and since You’re people descendants of the spirit chief Taha Aki.” Jacob didn’t let Edward finish when he spoke “yeah but my people can’t do that anymore the magic in our blood is too diluted and the only thing we could do Is shift into wolves.” He interrupted, I was curious as to who Taha Aki was and Edward responded “I am aware of that Jacob…but I was thinking perhaps if you could give us you’re theory of how Taha Aki was able to achive this in the first place. Maybe it could give Brian some pointers how to return to spirit form and maybe understand his ability…..and you know the sooner you tell us the sooner you can go back to Nessie…from the thoughts im picking up Nessie seems to think Tobias is awesome in her words…uh thoughts” Edward had responded. Jacob’s ears perked up “ok then…well my theory is you’re going to have to be surrounded by nature and you will need silence so you can relax your mind…focus on the peace and tranquility that’s pretty much all I can think of…if you excuse me I got to go” Jacob had picked himself up and bolted out of the room, and Edward finished “I forgot to mention she thinks of Tobias as a brother” he had that crooked grin on his face, but it was clear he enjoyed tormenting Jacob, I chuckled “don’t tell Tobias that….it will break his little heart…ok enough joking around…I am leaving” Eleazar was first to speak “what you can’t leave it’s not safe” Edward shook his head “nothing we can say will stop him Eleazar…Don’t worry about Tobias I will watch over him…I have grown very fond of him and the way he thinks so highly of my daughter.” I smiled and thanked Edward and after that I left without hesitation. I left the cabin the Cullen's had rented out and went as far from them all as possible deep into the forest where I laid on the ground and looked up at the blue sky. It was beautiful watching the dark grey clouds, there was a hint of the blue sky occasionally, the trees provided shading, and I watched the tree branches sway as the wind blew, it seemed like the wind was dancing with the trees, I closed my eyes and breathed in that fresh cold wind. “Take me to Sarah, let me be with her for when she needs me the most” I pleaded with myself. I kept my eyes closed and I began to feel lighter than air itself and when I opened my eyes I saw her…Sarah, she was wearing something new this time, a beautiful white dress. She was sitting up and looking at the door “hey babygirl” I spoke knowing she couldn’t hear me. Sarah looked so calm and I listened to her speak “The final hours of my immortality…I know I should feel fear, for I face the unknown…instead I feel relief because soon…I will finally be free, since regaining my memory…no long before that since the Volturi broke Brian and I apart I have felt like a caged bird watching the world from behind these caged bars…as I look towards that door I know that even though my life….my world has been darkness and suffering and god the pain I have endured soon I can spread my wings and fly” she spoke, I didn’t understand what she meant at first and then it hit me “No” I whispered in shock the door opened and Felix came into the room Aro behind him “Come Sarah everyone is waiting for you’re trial.” Aro spoke looking fancy in his suit, Sarah gave a bitter laugh “hah don’t you mean execution” Aro said nothing else and Felix carried her out of the room with Aro following. I ran out of the dungeon and watched in horror “Sarah” I yelled out, but then no one could hear me, I couldn’t follow I had no idea where I was going…I couldn’t even see them anymore…I was only a phantom….I then heard a strange voice “Follow with you’re heart and speak from you’re heart and even then a phantom can make a difference.” The voice was familiar and I looked around trying to see where it came from. I decided to take the voice’s advice I closed my eyes “take me to her…take me to Sarah and where she will be” I spoke out quietly when I opened my eyes I had appeared in a place high up on a roof and the scenery was beautiful.…I knew this place; it was the ruined monastery at Volterra this monastery according to history became abandoned when the crumbling cliffs caused part of it to collapse. I stood on the roof of the monastery and I noticed a lot of cars packed away from the cliffs. normally I would have admired the beauty of the scenery, but I did not come here to view the land, and the ruined monastery, I came to find my baby girl…at first I was confused I thought my power had worked on my desires…I wanted to find Sarah again…..to find out where they were taking her….and I realized this must be where they brought her. I had noticed there were vampires everywhere a lot of them were Volturi…the others were witnesses, there were even more vampire witnesses than the times of the Cullen trial, I saw familiar faces, Alec..Afron, Chelsea, Athnodora, Marcus, Cauis, Renata and, Jane I swear if Jane could eat human food she would be eating popcorn like one of those strange humans in the cinema munching down on their popcorn in anticipation of the best scene in the movie. I had floated down off the roof top it seemed none of them could see me, I had noticed everyone was wearing black. The witnesses had continued to speak amongst themselves, until a black limo arrived and parked not far from the witnesses the first one out of the limo was the driver it happened to be Felix he had walked to the door and opened the door leaning in he dragged out Sarah by her hair, my baby girl she looked so pale, so weak her beautiful blond hair was down her back. She wore a beautiful long white dress that touched the earth. I wanted to kill Felix…kill them all more than I wanted to kill anyone to save her. After Felix dragged her out he bent over to force Sarah to her feet and with effort she stood on her feet. The next to get out was Sulpicia and Aro both dressed in black, Sulpicia in a long black dress her hair was done up into a bun and Aro dressed in a black suit. “Prepare the stake” he spoke joylessly. Felix had dropped Sarah and she fell to the floor, and went to help Afron prepare the stake and stage they had set up, I wondered for just a brief moment how I could miss the stage had set up. Aro’s voice had brought me back focusing on him as he walked to Sarah, she was still on the floor so weak and feeble. “Sarah….Wife and mate of Marcus you have been charged of the following crimes, treachery…betraying your oath as queen, wife and mate of Marcus and aiding the escape of known criminals Brian Jacobson, Kate and Garrett Denali.,,” he had continued to speak when Sarah interrupted him “and….and just what were their crimes” she spoke feebly, at that remark Aro had ignored her and continued “you are charged with the murder of Volturi guard members Santiago and Demetri” I had gasped in shock she did it….she managed to kill Demetri…this meant, that the Volturi had no way of tracking us…Sarah had crippled the almighty Volturi by taking out their tracker. I had watched Sarah in awe, how could it be that she was strong enough to cripple to Volturi and now she is here…feeble and about to be executed by scum like the Volturi. “How do you plead” he asked in his fake sweet voice, “After living three thousand years…. Aro you are nuttier than a squirrel” she spoke it had taken a great deal of effort for her, I suppose you could say Sarah looked like she was exhausted like she desperately wanted to sleep. “I shall take that as a confession of guilt then….Felix come take her to the stake and bind her.” Aro spoke unaffected by Sarah’s statement even though there were hushed whispers among the witnesses. Aro had looked so cheerful it was really sickening. Felix had walked towards Sarah, he had lowered his hand and was about to pick her up, when she pushed his hand away. “No I can do this myself.” She spoke weakly and with amazing strength Sarah had picked herself up from the floor and she walked towards the edge of the cliff she stared off into the distance and the twilight, how the sky was mixed with blue and orange as the sun was not long from setting. I had followed her hovering after her and I floated behind her. I knew she wouldn’t be able to feel this but I wrapped my hands around her from behind and lowered my head to rest on her shoulder, I heard her gasp a little….she must have been struggling to stand on her feet. I was behind Sarah and I couldn’t see her smile, “I will wait for you Brian…at our beach you will find me there…you will hear my whispers professing my love to you and our son when the wind blows…you will feel my burning passion for our undying love to empower you…you will feel the tears I weep when it rains when you suffer trials and tribulations. You will feel whatever strength I have left when you walk on the earth and you will know my spirit will be with you for now and for always.” I didn’t know if she could feel my presence or not, I just wanted to cry, it felt like my heart was breaking and shattering into thousands and thousands of shards. “I will never let go Sarah I will love you for as long as I live.” I whispered into her ears “I am so very tired….soon I will get to sleep….forever….Brian my love…I hope with all my heart you will someday find your true mate.” she spoke, I knew she couldn’t hear me but I whispered back “I already have…I found her in you my beautiful baby girl.” I couldn’t keep my voice from breaking. “Thank you Brian I don’t know how you did this, but thank you for being with me in my last moments.” My eyes widened in shock as I realized Sarah could hear me she just had to. “Enough of this bind her already.” Felix arm had passed right through me as he pulled Sarah away from my incorporeal embrace and escorted her to the stage he tied her to the stake, normally a vampire would easily be able to break through the rope, but something had happened to Sarah to weaken her so badly she was weaker than a human. I followed after Sarah to the stage and saw straw all around and some form of fire accelerations. I was inches in front of Sarah and I looked into her black eyes. As Felix had tied her arms behind her back and steak and bound her legs to the stake “will you stay with me Brian….until the end” she asked sounding afraid. I nodded my head unable to speak and realized she couldn’t see me “yes” I managed to speak in a broken voice. Sarah’s frightened face turned into a brilliant smile “thank you” she whispered to me, Aro had lit the stick and flame attached to the stick. Felix was holding it, Sarah lowered her head, I don’t think she had any strength left, I listened in despair I heard words came from Aro’s mouth “Any last words Sarah” sounding so sure of himself. Sarah’s face remained down as she struggled “Yes….I Sarah Jacobson Pledge my love and soul from now until the end of eternity to Brian Jacobson and Brian Jacobson alone.” I felt touched, I think this was the first time she had ever taken my last name and just hearing her last words it was heart breaking I could feel my spirit die slowly, I felt so weak. As I looked away I noticed the witnesses and Marcus they seemed shocked, and Felix’s face seemed blank as he struggled with some unknown burden. “Let us begin the entertainment set her on fire.” Aro gave Felix the order, there seemed to be something as he couldn’t bring himself to do it “oh Aro…I have one more thing to say” Sarah spoke softly, Aro looked stunned “go on” he spoke curiously, Sarah looked up and she had that smile the smile of a mischievous goddess and determination in her eyes I knew now Sarah was giving every thing she had into her last moments “Go fuck yourself” she spoke defiantly. I had formed a weak smile, that’s my baby girl a fighter to the very end. Aro had lost his cool then, he snatches the flaming torch from Felix and tossed it into the fire and the straw immediately began to set fire. To the stage and the area around her, the flames surrounded Sarah, I could see her smile and I did not dare to look away, even as the flames reached it’s way towards her she looked at my direction for as long as she could…I wondered if she could see me, eventually her smile had faded as she breathed in her last breathes of air, before the flames consumed the oxygen, she wouldn’t need it because she didn’t have to breathe. Heard her scream and witnessed the flames starting to set fire her dress I could hear her screams echo the area and every fiber of me wanted to stay away “BRIAN” she screamed out in pain panting as she looked up, I could smell her flesh burn as she screamed and suffered slowly in agony she screamed, the entire time the Volturi and the witnesses stood there watching in silence. A wind blew Sarah’s beautiful blond hair back as it also increased the flames burning she let out an agonizing scream as her skin turned black from the flames consuming, my mind…my spirit and my heart was shattering with each scream and I had realized what she was doing, she was calling to me to see if I was still here. I heard her she screamed out louder than the last before screaming “BRIAN” she was suffering and dying and even as she was dying she was still a beautiful goddess to me ““It’s ok baby girl I am here….stay strong, soon we will be home together, just you me and our son.” I spoke as I felt like I was dying inside. I watched her smile one last time as she seemed to concentrate on that thought and allowed it to give her peace, she probably knew it wasn’t going to happen, but that hope had given her the strength she needed “no you have given he the strength she needed” I heard a voice speak, but I ignored it as I watched her raise her head to the heavens and she uttered the last words “I love you….Brian” the flames consumed her entirely leaving her body to turn into black ash that scattered in the wind. I fell to my knees clutching my side and screamed for Sarah as loud as I could, I thought my heart had shattered into thousands and thousands of shards before…but I was wrong, that was nothing compared to the fact of seeing my soul mate die and not being able to do a single thing. Those thoughts had entered my head and just as fast they entered my head another voice had entered my head “you are wrong…you have made a big difference.” I was still on all fours and I looked up in shock and horror to see who it was. Now that Sarah is dead, what will Brian do ? Who is it Brian is seeing ? Will this story ever have a happy ending ? Find out next time on Brian's journal Song that was playing while I wrote this entry The place of Sarah's death
Topic: My talent is a curse, I witnessed something monstrous and I was powerless to prevent it…How much more can she endure, before her soul shatters?
Date: June 18th, 2019 Dear Journal After getting off the plane, Kate, Garrett and myself walked out to the waiting area, I excused myself from the two and told them to wait for me in the waiting area while I went to customs, I had to get the knife Sarah gave me…even I with all my wealth couldn't smuggle it onto the plane this weapon…it’s useless to vampires, but Sarah told me other wise…this harmless knife actually contain poison on it, poison that could do untold damage onto vampires apparently. It seemed Aro had his own projects that went on during the years. After getting Sarah’s knife back I returned and found Kate and Garrett waiting with Eleazar and Carlisle standing moving casually, but quickly I approached the four “we have to go now” I told Eleazar, he nodded his head and Carlisle pulled out his phone and called someone “None of the Volturi were on the plane, but the colder our scent is the better” I spoke keeping my voice quiet as possible, he nodded “Carlisle is calling Alice now… we had to take extreme caution, everyone else left right after the call in Volterra while Carlisle and I remained behind…we have everyone moving from place to place to make it harder for Demetri to find everyone, while Carlisle and I stayed out of the loop "just in case Aro followed you,” he spoke calmly. I had nothing to say this was my entire fault, the lives of the Cullen's, the Denali's were all in danger because of my actions. All I wanted was Sarah…and I failed at rescuing her….again. Carlisle hung up the phone and he told us to follow him, which we did we went to a black SUV with tinted windows. Carlisle was driving “Edward, Bella and Jacob are going to Forks and La Push…Bella is getting Charlie while Jacob is assembling his pack.” Carlisle informed me of his kids and his pet’s plans, but to be honest they were not my concern “If Edward and Bella are heading to forks…what about my son, Where is Tobias.” My voice must have sounded distressed to the others because Eleazar was telling me to calm down. I leaned forward and saw Carlisle was speeding, “Tobias is fine, and he is with Emmett, Alice, Rosalie and Renesmee. They are heading towards Ocean Shore, Washington from there we wait there until everyone returns…none of our previous homes are safe anymore…Aro knows everything about us, so we had to have taken refuge in some place safe…Esme, Jasper,Tanya,Carmen are spreading the news to our friends…anyone that has been an ally to us in the past is now also the enemy of the Volturi and chances are if the Volturi can’t find us they will be heading towards each of them. It would take us two days and three hours give or take a few minutes to get to Ocean Shore, Washington that’s only if we stop for petrol, lucky enough we vampires do not need sleep so we can drive all night. The trip is roughly 4000 Km, and I have forty eight hours to figure out what to tell my son…forty eight hours…I don’t think that’s enough time…it actually felt better telling myself I had two thousand eight hundred and eighty minutes. How could I tell him that I lied to him for his entire life, that his mother wasn't dead, she was alive that she sacrificed herself not once, but twice…What Sarah did was a noble thing sure…but still her nobility it has caused me guilt because I couldn’t protect her, what would it do to Tobias, would he blame himself because Sarah did this for him too….would he listen to me when I told him it wasn’t his fault….he is just a child, he may look like a teenager and he is a genius, still I know this is something he can’t handle…I have to protect Tobias too….there is no right time to say “hey guess what I lied to you because I thought your mom was a cold hearted ho, she’s not dead she is actually alive and she is being held prisoner by three twisted old coots” yes journal as you can see I am in a sticky situation, the best thing to do is not tell him anything, I'll save Sarah first let them meet and hope for the best. I opened the window and watched the scenery and felt the wind, wind ever so fulfilling and comforting. I watched as wind blew the trees back and forth making the snow on the branches fall slowly. The scenery was beautiful, the ground pure white from snow and the wind blowing against the trees to make the snow fall. The more I watched the scenery the more my eyes opened, not physically, but metaphorically I could see the beauty of the scenery, but I felt something in my heart…I felt this ache and pain, I am not exactly sure how to describe it or why I feel this way…I breathed in the fresh air it was soothing and it made this mysterious aching in my heart fade slowly, closing my eyes I laid my head back. Carlisle and the others were speaking at first I was listening intently fixated on their words, but slowly my mind began to wander off. I breathed in the air slowly and exhaled it the wind was so darn good and refreshing; it reminded me of one of the many reasons I loved nature over civilization. The more I breathed in the more relaxed I felt and every conscious thought started to drift away as if it was taken by the wind. Soon the words stopped completely, which brought me out of my relaxed state. I had open my eyes and found myself floating high in the air I gasped in shock and of course the only thing on my mind at that moment was how the hell did I get in this situation. Could it have been a day dream of a fantasy of some sorts. As I watched the scenery from the sky I could see everything was the same, with the exception of the car I was previously sitting inside of was driving off into the distance while I floated in the sky. It was strange, but I felt so free here and at peace I felt like I was free from every single stress in my life, that nothing in the world mattered. I laughed as I floated in the air. For a moment I wished Sarah could feel it, it was just at the thought of Sarah that everything changed….the wind, the sky the beautiful scenery was gone and replace with something dark, the air was stale and the room was naked with nothing inside, it wasn’t exactly a room it was more along the line of a dungeon and on careful inspection I noticed two figures standing over someone else, one of the figures was the size of a child. When I stepped closer and leaned over the two figures shoulders I could see her….Sarah. She looked so weak and helpless it was heartbreaking to see her this way, the adult figure turned around to show it was Aro, I expected Aro to do something to react surprised that I was here, but he didn’t react at all. He actually walked right through me as if I was a ghost. I watched as Aro walked out the door and listened to a child like voice speak “master has rewarded me for my good service and allowed me to play with you” Jane’s voice had sounded so smug as if she really thought she was better than anyone else…she was a sadistic imbecile. I smiled when I heard Sarah speak “I’m sorry Jane…..Im not into children” she had struggled to speak, I wondered why she was this weak, I didn’t have much time to think anymore. When I heard a loud scream fill the room, the scream was high pitched and unbearable to hear, I had placed my hands to my ears to try and block it out, but still I couldn’t block out all of Sarah’s screams. “STOP IT JANE STOP IT NOW” I yelled out over Sarah’s scream, but Jane did not hear me, I tried to push Jane to the ground, but my hands went right through her. It was like I wasn’t even there like I was a phantom. I tried to stand in front of Sarah to protect her, but still she cried out in pain screaming in agony, the entire time. When shielding Sarah didn’t work I bent down to her level and tried to encourage her “come on Sarah fight this…you did it before, you can do it again fight through Jane’s gift…come on baby girl believe in yourself” nothing worked, it was like I was there beside her witnessing everything and yet I could do nothing to help Sarah all I could do was be there with her in this phantom form and witness how Jane had tortured Sarah. It seemed to go on and on forever, it was impossible to tell the length of time. There was no natural light in the room and no clocks for all I knew it could have been days. Something shocking did happen, Sarah stopped screaming, at first I thought it was because she had enough that she mustered up the strength she needed to take out Jane, but Sarah didn’t do anything at all. My heart pounded out of fear as I realized the possibility that maybe she was dead. I tried to touch Sarah, but of course I couldn’t this damn spectral form…all I could do was witness the brutality my baby girl had to endure, when I looked into Sarah’s black eyes…I saw nothing, but a void she was probably thirsty, but if she was then why wasn’t she showing it…all I saw was nothing…she was a shell. I heard Jane’s cackle of sadistic laughter and looked at the bitch as she walked out of the room and closed the door behind her leaving Sarah and I in a black void of darkness. I remained next to her trying to touch her shoulder I just wanted to comfort her, to ease her pain. She was gone…at least that’s how it felt…if Carlisle was here he would have told me that it appeared that Sarah was in a state of catatonia caused by the mental anguish she has gone through…to me it looked like Sarah’s soul was dead…maybe it’s the same thing just different words and thoughts, but I decided I couldn’t just sit here and do nothing…maybe if I tried hard enough deep down Sarah would come out of this “Hey baby girl you don’t look so well…it looks like you’re having a bad day.” My voice spoke to her softly, I chuckled for a moment “Sorry baby girl…for a moment…I heard your voice in my head…it was saying ‘no shit sherlock’ yeah you would probably say that if you were up to speaking…and you’d probably be wondering how I got here….actually I am wondering that too…I like to think of it as my spirit flying on the wings of love…reaching out and transcending the limitations of the physical plain just to reach you…” I whispered to her softly as my eyes fixated on Sarah intently I moved my hand slowly to her hair and tried to stroke it, but I couldn’t. Instead I pretended that when my hand went through her hair it was stroking it and I continued to talk “I sure have changed…there was once a time when I thought love was nothing, but a trick of nature to get humans to reproduce….and that I was not meant for love…my life it was empty and hollow…I had this pain in my heart and everyday it would grow stronger and stronger. Then I met you Sarah… you were hurting like I was…you gave me something to believe in and I fell in love with you my beautiful baby girl…you healed all of the gaping hole in my heart Sarah and gave me salvation…we have so much to talk about. ten years worth of discussions to talk about...so many evenings where we watch the stars together and see the tides of the oceans wash away the sand on the shores of the beach back home…just us for eternity and our son…can you imagine it Sarah…a perfect world with just us and perfect happiness…a world without fear, pain, doubt, a world where my heart wouldn’t be broken without you…and a world where you have a place to belong…a place where you could just be yourself my beautiful babygirl.” I spoke softly I felt a pain in my chest as I spoke, god I missed her so much, it seemed so cruel she was in front of me and yet she was so far away in her state of catatonia and I was like Casper the friendly ghost…only no one could see me. I was brought out of my thoughts of despair when the door opened and I could see a dim light in the distance, I saw a member of the Volturi walk into the room his name was Felix. He approached my woman as he called out to her, My gaze shifted from him and onto Sarah as she whispered my name, her voice was so weak, I smiled when she called out my name and I was still next to her “ I am right here baby girl…” I answered her, but instead of hearing her speak it was Felix “no Sarah your delirious… it’s Felix” I could see this gaze of confusion fall on Sarah’s face…Felix was right Sarah was delirious and she looked like she was stark crazy. Each passing moment here with her I felt my heart break, It was so painful, but I couldn’t bare to leave her here alone I loved my baby girl to much to leave her. “Sarah pleaded with Felix not to mess with her and I looked away ashamed. It was when Felix spoke “I’m sorry… Sarah, hey I have something for you” I looked towards Felix curious to see what it was, but then I felt something hard hit me in the chest before I could see it and I gasped. Everything melted away…and I opened my eyes gasping for air. I felt so many complex sensations run through me and I looked around to find the car was parked next to a hotel…”what happened why have we stopped” I asked confused, Carlisle watched me wit concern “Brian….we are here…it’s been a full two days since you last said anything…” it was impossible, I couldn’t even begin to imagine how to make sense of this…I have been in a catatonic state for two days…was everything I witnessed in that time a dream…no it felt to real to be a dream. I climbed out of the car and in a flash I felt something smack into me, before I could make sense of what hit me…I instinctively wrapped my hands around it “Hey boy” I spoke with a smile looking at my son I hugged him tight “hey dad I missed you” Tobias spoke back, putting everything I witnessed out of my mind I told my son I missed him too. I Spent some time with my son at the beach, it was nice but it wasn’t as nice as the beach back home and Tobias was the first one to comment on that too. I spent the entire afternoon with my son. Tobias was a surprising source of comfort to me. I know I should be the parent I should be the one comforting him, and being honest with him but at this moment he wasn’t asking me any questions like why we were here. So why should I stress the boy out. Eventually Rosalie came and distracted Tobias she has taken a liking to Tobias, but then again he is my son so what’s not to like. I decided to spend some of my free time confiding in you like I always do and now that I have informed you of what happened I am left with these questions. What happened to me to be able to leave my body Did what I see really happened? How can I help Sarah? How do I even begin to explain all this to the others? I can’t answer any of these questions right now…so I think I will read over Sarah’s diary again, when I read her diary it’s like I can hear her voice, feel her touch and for a short time…I can remember what it’s like to be with her and to feel the joy that I felt when we were together…after that I should go to Carlisle and eleazar and explain everything that happened maybe they can shine some light on it. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Lesson of the day, reflect before you snack for it may save the one you wish to snack on.
Date: June 15, 2019 Dear journal, It has been a few hours since my last entry and it is now officially June 15th 2019 after some time to think about everything I can say without doubt. I thank the stars above that vampires do not sleep, because if we did I would believe without a doubt that this was all a dream; that the woman who ripped out my heart and wounded me more than any other being possibly could, only did it to protect our child and myself. The entire plane ride home, I was left somewhat in a state of shock, my body functioned like normal, but my brain was scattered into thousands of different directions. One of the many things on my mind was Sarah, of course. She sacrificed herself and deceived not only myself, but Aro a man that’s impossible to lie to then again she had a knack for the impossible I know this not because of her selfless sacrifice time and time again, not because of the unimaginable strength she has clearly displayed, but she did the impossible, she taught me what it was to love another. I have a lot to atone for, I thought the worst in the woman I loved, I thought the worst of her and believed her to be a lying rat bitch. I was wrong, and I blame myself for the horrors she must have gone through, the pain she felt to miss out on watching our son grow up into the intelligent, gentle and somewhat quirky individual he is today. She missed out on so much it’s not fair to have gone through this once with her child, but to go through this again with our son. The fates they are indeed cruel, the plane ride was long and dull I could hear Kate speak in a hushed whisper about the events that transpired, Kate was still in awe about Sarah and how well she did taking on the Volturi guards on her own. It was almost no surprise to me, Sarah always was strong, but I had to admit she had changed… not just her outside appearance, but she was different… it’s difficult to put my finger on. I was distracted for a moment, by the scent of a human. Someone had just indeed cut themselves, because the scent of blood was intense. I could hear Garrett gripping the chair sides with his hands and let out a low hiss. I myself had found it difficult to handle, I was thirsty and god did I need a drink I needed the good stuff human blood… animal blood just wouldn't satisfy me not now. The scent of blood kept on enticing me, daring me to come and claim it for myself that it rightfully belonged to me, what were humans to me… pests, parasites. They were below vampires just meat and bones. I could have gone and killed the wounded human and drained them dry, I could have killed everyone else on the plane too. What did I have to lose; I already had a death sentence on me so what would it matter if I broke a rule or two... I unbuckled my seat belt and Kate grabbed my hand, my cold black eyes looked at her and she let go. After I stood up, I examined the amount of heads I saw, there were so many humans. The seats they sat on were maroon brown and walking down the isle so casually like a lion who was stalking his prey. My footsteps were soundless and my throat burned, it was on fire as if the fire in my throat was screaming for me to take the blood, draining everyone dry. The scent of blood grew stronger eventually I reached the human and I saw it was a female, the female was a grown woman, yet she was tiny compared to a man such as myself, after a moment’s glance I could see this was a woman of elegance, she had her hazelnut brown hair down, and very stylish glasses on she wore a long black skirt while her top was white with short sleeves. She wore a beautiful silver necklace around her neck and on the necklace was a purple opal; it was very beautiful and expensive by the look of it. Examining her pale hand I could see a ring, and I learned two things about this woman, the first she could use a tan and the second she was married. I also noticed she was thin like a twig and fragile, no one was beside her and so I decided to work my magic see if I could lure her away into the bathroom cubicle for what the humans call the mile high club. After examining the human I could see she had a paper cut on her finger, and a book in her lap it was Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, the first thing I thought of was eugh. I hated harry Potter and was thankful Tobias didn't have any interest in that tragic excuse for a book. “Are you ok?” I asked the woman with concern, she looked up at me and I glanced into her eyes, I could see something in them something gentle and easy going. She smiled and nodded “yeah I’m fine just a paper cut.” I pretended to act a little iffy at the sight of her blood and sat in the empty seat beside her, she asked me what my problem was and I explained... lied about being iffy around blood, to my amazement she spoke “Suck it up princess” how sad, that my intention was to do more than just suck those drops of blood, I intended to devour her and drain her dry. This woman’s choice of words, however distracted me it sounded like something Sarah would say, it was bold and fearless so I decided to get to know this bold woman. I spoke to the woman, and asked her for her name, she responded distantly that it was Kylie Stevens and that I should get my butt out of her husbands chair before he throws me out himself. I chuckled at the thought of that, a weak human man trying to make me do something, it was hysterical. I asked him where this husband of hers was and she told me that he was in the bathroom that traveling often upset his stomach and I rolled my eyes. We spoke a little longer and it came to the topic of that abomination in her lap I asked her about the book and why she would like something about a boy living in a closet, she responded “it beats liking Justin Beiber” I nodded my head in defeat I had to give her that one, after all he is still an adult and he still hasn't gone through puberty, but then this Kylie Stevens answered the question seriously “The story is well written and I like the characters, the characters have distinctive personality traits, and when you read the book you know what to expect from certain characters.” It was a wise answer clearly the woman had wits as well as beauty. The more I spoke to this woman the more I found myself unable to kill her, I suppose it’s because I played with my food started to think of her more than just a human candy bar. I wished her a safe journey with her husband and left. While she returned to reading the book I returned to my seat, and pushed all thoughts of Kylie Stevens out of my head, and thought about Sarah and my next move. What would I tell my son, where could I take him that would let him be safe and out of range from the Volturi’s retaliation. In fact how will I find him, when Garrett told the Denali’s and the Cullen's to flee from the residence. That everyone was in danger and none of them was safe anymore. I found myself thinking more and more about my son, was he alright ? Was he frightened? I hated the thought of my son being frightened I just wanted him happy to live every day with a smile on his face…that little punk….my son deserves it all I believe that with all my heart. The sad thing is my son is also a victim in this cruel twist in fate, and after a lot of thought I decided I need to find a way to put everything into perspective…everything is so scattered right now and when everything is scattered nothing good will come of it….I need some serious time to think which is why I am not going to tell you everything I am feeling at this moment. That will have to wait for another time. The only thing I can say for certain is, the broken family my son and I had is about to end, I am going to fix my family and get Sarah back…my son will grow into a man, he will know where he comes from and just how powerful his mother is…his mother will know just what a special and amazing being she brought into the world…this isn't just Sarah’s story anymore it’s mine too and I will fight so we can have our happy ending….together. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: I thought I saw it all... I was wrong
Date: June 14, 2019 Dear Journal, I had taken a look at the back of the picture and I saw the truth in two words “I LIED”. I looked at those two words for what felt like an hour, Sarah had lied…she lied, the day she left she told me she had never had Jayne that it was a ploy to get me to feel sorry for her….Yet here I was holding a photo of her and Jayne. I couldn’t believe it I was looking between those two sides back and forth between “I lied” and the photo of that young Sarah holding her child, god even then she was beautiful. I didn’t know what to do so many thoughts and questions entered my mind. What is the truth? Is Sarah just messing with me? Why did she do this? So many more thoughts were in my head and I had no idea what to make of it, I knew there was one way to clear everything up. I went to Sarah’s box and rummaged around and finally I found it, her diary, when I opened it up I saw it was only one entry…it was impossible I had seen Sarah write in her diary loads of times…I used to consider reading her diary while she slept, but I never did…even after Sarah stomped on my heart I didn’t read her diary I didn’t want to expose myself to her dark heart, but now I had no choice I read the entry a hundred times it was short. Dear Diary, Being a mother and being a newborn is very difficult, I honestly can’t wait for Marcus to take me away from everyone so I will never have to see Brian or the child ever again I don’t mind my bedroom though, things would be perfect if Brian could move his ass and fix the loose floorboards under the dresser, maybe he should just pull the blasted things out, knowing his luck he would probably find buried treasure the rich vamp. anyway I have to go I am freaking thirsty and going now, I need to make sure the little brat goes to bed and such I'll read him Alice in Wonderland he seems to like that, and maybe I will dance with Brian, give the poor fool some memories to value. ~Sarah I closed the diary and was shocked, the words in her entry were odd, there was nothing wrong with the floorboards back home, but the dancing... that made me remember something….it was around 11 pm and Sarah was standing on the kitchen terrace the radio was turned on very low so Tobias could sleep. Sarah was troubled she made a fist and I wrapped my arms around her. That night she made me promise her something in these words she spoke “promise me you will protect Tobias with your life, that you will always put him first and remember he is still half human and that you will be strong and.........." I remember when I made that promise the song Hero by Enrique Iglesias was playing… I was in shock…I can’t believe I never thought of that until now…Why did she say such a thing...what is her reasoning behind it…if she cared about Tobias, why would she tell Jane to attack him, constantly put him at risk…if Sarah cared why would she do that…she knew I would protect him from Jane, but what if that was the point. She knew I would protect Tobias so she told Jane to attack him so it made it look like she didn’t care…It is a possibility it’s a small one. I decided I needed help, I needed advice, so I called Eleazar and asked if he could come to my place. Then I called Carlisle and requested that he come over along with Edward if possible. I figured the three of them knew Aro and the Volturi a lot better than I did. Carlisle told me his shift would end in an hour; in the meantime he would phone Edward and ask if he would come over. I knew Edward was spending the day with his family and Tobias hopefully Edward wouldn’t bring Tobias home yet. I waited an hour and in that hour I thought about the possibilities of what she meant. An hour went by and the three arrived together I greeted them and let them in, I watched the three of them and explained everything that I discovered and showed them the picture and diary, I desperately needed their advice, Carlisle looked at me “I don’t know about this Brian, I don’t think Sarah could outwit Aro, as you know he has the ability to see every thought a person has ever had at the touch, one small touch and he would have seen what she was up to.” Carlisle's words made me realize how foolish I was being he was right, of course Sarah couldn’t outwit Aro. Eleazar had his arms folded as he leaned against the wall, Edward looked at him curiously “that’s rather interesting Eleazar and I agree it could be a possibility.” I looked between them “what could be a possibility what is it.” I asked, Eleazar took a step away from the wall “years ago Carmen and I went to Volterra and we visited the Volturi…I saw Sarah, she was still in the phases of being a newborn, and she held on as long as she could then of course she snapped she charged at us and had to be restrained. One of the people restraining her was Aro, I remember his surprised expression at the time I did not think much of it, but now that I know this I believe there is a possibility Sarah had sneaked something past him and maybe just maybe Sarah pulled off the impossible.” Carlisle seemed to be thinking hard, I on the other hand felt excitement and hope…hope that Sarah actually loved me after all. I realized that even though Sarah did trick Aro it did not change anything only more questions came into my head... What was her trick? Why did she have to resort to trickery? What did this mean for me? Why resort to such extremes? I couldn’t figure it out “well even if she tricked Aro so what, what does this have to do with the diary and the photo.” I asked feeling frustrated Edward looked at the Diary entry “it could be everything…read past the obvious listen. 'Things would be perfect if Brian could move his ass and fix the loose floorboards under the dresser, maybe he should just pull the blasted things out, knowing his luck he would probably find buried treasure'…it almost sounds like instructions.” Edward had spoken and I knew there was a good chance he was right I could feel it. I picked up the photo on the table and looked at it I wondered what sort of plan Sarah could come up with that could fool the Volturi. I bit my lip “I am going back to New York” I announced, the three of them looked at me surprised “I will join you, if that is alright.” Eleazar asked and I nodded my head it would be good to have backup, just in case things got out of hand. I thought about Tobias and wondered what to do about him, I knew I couldn’t tell him that I was going to go hunting the truth about his mother…not when I told him she was dead…yet I couldn’t leave him on his own, Edward interrupted me from my thoughts, “Don’t worry about Tobias I will take care of him as if he was my own.” I thanked Edward for the offer and accepted it, I knew my son would be safe with Edward and the Cullens. Carlisle nodded “yes he will be safe with us, but what would you like us to tell Tobias should he ask where you are.” I thought about that for a moment “Tell him I had some business to sort out, I will be back as soon as possible…that I love him and will see him soon.” Carlisle told me he would tell Tobias that and left with Edward, Eleazar went back to his place to collect his passport and while he was doing that I was getting my passport ready… I didn’t plan to stop at just New York I had plans to go to Italy one way or another I will have my answers. Eleazar had finally returned and we left to the airport, by the time we get to New York it would be night time. While waiting for the plane to arrive I had called for a rental car to be waiting at the air port, when I hung up I saw Kate and Garrett both of them had plane tickets and Kate had with her a duffel bag “Kate…Garrett what are you doing here.” Eleazar asked surprised “Alice told me she saw you going to Volterra after New York… I am going too…I have a score to settle with the bastards who killed Irena” Eleazar did not look happy he told them they shouldn’t get mixed up in my business. That they should just stay here, Kate had kicked up a fuss before finally giving up. The two saw us off and I thanked Eleazar for getting them to change their minds, the last thing I wanted was for the encounter to turn into a blood bath, but I knew there was a very good chance of that becoming a possibility. I asked Eleazar how Carmen felt about him coming with me, He was quiet for a moment and he looked at his wedding band “she wanted to come with us, but I did not want her to get involved, Brian… I am afraid New York is the only stop I can go with you…if I provoke the Volturi then everyone I love would be dead…I will go with you to your old home and that is all.” I told Eleazar I understood and I thanked him for coming with me. I would occasionally pull out the photo of Sarah and Jayne. I looked at Sarah, I wondered how different her life would have been if she was allowed to keep Jayne…maybe she would still be in Seattle, we would never have met I would still be living without love and never have had my little miracle…my son. The trip was quiet, but eventually we arrived in New York. We had left right off and found the rental car. I was speeding like a manic to my old house, watching the road I could see the white line on the sides pass in a blur. Sarah was on my mind, I had spent the last ten years trying to forget her and here I am now opening the door I worked so hard to close, memories of her flooded my head and I gripped tighter on the steering wheel, I remembered when we first met, how she had told me she didn’t want to be saved when the driver almost ran her down…I remembered the first time we went on a date and I remembered how she had gone all medieval on a human whom she challenged to a Karaoke contest…I smiled at that memory she was a devious little punk much like her son. I remember telling her I was a vampire, she was so pissed and freaked out she compared our love making to necrophilia only Sarah would realize that the moment she finds out her boyfriend was a vampire and of course I remember her playing the song she wrote for me and sung for me. The words she spoke before she played “I wrote this song for you Brian, it’s based on how my life was before you and how everything has changed since I met you and mostly how I feel about you now.” I felt so alive and inspired when she sung that for me. I had found myself thinking about Sarah too much, getting my hopes up when for all I know I could be going into a dead end. I decided to distract myself by turning on the radio and was shocked by the music that was playing, of all the rotten luck it was our song….All Yours by Metric. The first thoughts that came into my mind when hearing this song was actually a memory…Sarah was heavily pregnant and we had just finished a dance, she wanted one more dance and I caved into her wants and as we danced slowly she told me “This will be our song Brian, Promise me, whenever you hear this song you will think of this moment and how much I love you and our child.” Come to think of it I remembered asking her what she meant by her side of the promise….she never answered, Tobias thought it would be fun breaking mommy’s ribs. The more I think about the memories the more I am starting to have hope that not everything was as it seemed in Sarah’s departure from my life, that she loved her son and she loved me. The drive home felt like an eternity, Eleazar asked me what was on my mind that certainly was a strange question. I knew my home wasn’t too far from here “Sarah…I keep thinking back on the past, remembering the memories…I tried so hard to block it out and yet here I am allowing myself to think of her…and I am troubled, the puzzle pieces in my head is coming together, Sarah’s behavior before she left…it was frightening and then the day she left she was brutal, and mean, I actually just remembered something Sarah said I had asked Sarah why she was leaving me…one of the things she said “I would say I am sorry to you for letting you think you would have a picture perfect family, but I am not...I excel at not giving a shit….What if it was a clue Eleazar, what if Sarah was trying to give me a clue I mean she made a photo reference and I find a photo of her and her daughter telling me she lied…I remember asking for the engagement ring back from her, she turned her back from me and removed it…why couldn’t she do it facing me...I see the puzzle pieces coming together, but I am afraid I am over thinking it…what if it’s all in my imagination.” It felt strange to vent my thoughts and feelings to Eleazar. I eventually slowed the car down, because we were getting closer to my place “Brian you must try and put things in perspective, you are getting all worked up, all these thoughts aren’t good it will cloud you’re judgment.” I had asked Eleazar what I should do and he told me to try and focus on one thing to find my focus, It had only taken me a moment to find my focus to keep my mind on one thing….my son I thought only of Tobias his smile, his heart beat and his soul. I felt calmer and thanked Eleazar. We eventually made it to my place; I parked the car right next to the door and jumped out barely remembering to turn off the engine and put the parking break on. I ran inside with Eleazar behind me and ran to Sarah’s old bedroom, the cabinet was still there I picked it up and moved it to the side and looked at the floorboards and got on my knees I didn’t have the patience to open it up the traditional way so instead I punched a hole into the floorboards and pulled out the broken floorboards on the area I cleaned it out in a frenzy and there it was my answer, Sarah’s secret was in my reach. Out of the remains of the floorboard I pulled out a dusty book, it was identical to the diary I had found in her box and with the diary was an envelope. It was dusty, but I could see my name on it. I sat on the ground and opened the letter Eleazar was towering over me as I began to read her letter. Dear Brian, If you are reading this then I have already left, I pray that you were able to figure out the clues I gave you before my departure. I have so much I want to tell you, so much you need to know…but I cannot tell you in this letter heck I can’t even think about it because of Aro. I want to beg for your forgiveness for the horrible things I have said and done, I am truly a monster for the horrible things I have done, but I have no regrets, what I have said and what I have done I have done to protect you and our son. The thought of being away from you and loosing out on seeing our son grow up…it is ripping me apart, the only comfort I have is knowing you will do a good job raising him and when I miss you both I will look at this engagement ring you gave me and I will be able to imagine the life we should have had. I have enclosed my True diary to you Brian; it holds my story, and the reasons behind my actions. If you have discovered this right after my departure I ask that you take this diary with you and replace the diary with the fake diary…It’s the only way to trick Aro. He may be able to see my thoughts, but the last few entries hold the truth…this is evidence against Aro. Speaking of which I have discovered a loop hole in his ability…Aro has the ability to see every thought you have ever had, but he cannot see the things we don’t think about, if we think things half way through, then he won’t be able to complete the picture…Read my diary Brian you will understand, don’t come after me I am doing this to protect you and our son…if you want to do something every night Tobias goes to bed give him that extra hug for me….I love you Brian and I love our son…stay safe. One last thing... Take Tobias and run from here, run as far as you can and don’t turn back, I fear this place is no longer safe for either of you and I know I won’t be able to hold off the Volturi for long I doubt their the type of monsters to keep their word. ~Sarah I was in shock, I had read the letter over and over in shock, I handed it to Eleazar “it’s her handwriting.” I mumbled, I should have been happy, but I wasn’t. Sarah had sacrificed herself for Tobias….she sacrificed herself for me. To top it off the only comfort she would have had and I told her to give me the engagement ring I finally understand why she couldn’t look me in the eyes when she removed the engagement ring…her heart was breaking. I had opened Sarah’s diary and read the entries from page to page, I saw her sorrow, her anger, her bitterness and her joy. Her thoughts and emotions…no her very essence was in this diary. I liked how I was a feature in her diary it made me feel like I was the center of her universe just as she was mine, and then I came to the entry that completed the puzzle that explained everything. The Entry dated the first of June, 2009 I was outraged that The Volturi threatened my life and the life of my son and saran’s life…Sarah had done something that had taken so much courage to do…I continued to read on reading until the very last entry she made, I was sad she had to resort to sacrificing herself…but then I smiled as I realized what it meant, Sarah loved me. I picked myself up and knew what had to be done. I had to rescue my baby girl. I handed the diary to Eleazar “Eleazar… I am going after Sarah, I can’t leave her with the Volturi…will you do me a favor.” I asked him, Eleazar had looked at me surprised. “just ask my friend.” I smiled and handed him Sarah’s diary. “If I don’t return look out for Tobias…I know Edward said he would take care of him, but Edward himself, it’s just I trust you Eleazar, I trust you so much I am leaving Sarah’s diary with you…If I don’t return give it to Tobias he should know how incredible his mother is and not a lie” Eleazar was kind enough to agree and we walked out of the house. We were on our way to the airport he was going home, I was going to the center of hell to save the only woman whom I truly loved two men in one car going down very different paths. I drove the car and had imagined what would go down. I would rush down the hall and reach the throne room, I would place my hand out as if I was offering Sarah a life helping hand I would tell her to come with me she would be loved and safe with me, I would protect her for a change. She would run into my arms and I would hug her, would I let her go…never, we would run from the Volturi leaving them behind us, Sarah would be free from their darkness. We would go back to Denali. I would introduce Tobias to his brave and selfless mother…I realize I am getting ahead of myself. We arrived to the airport and my plane was the first to arrive, Eleazar had wished me luck and I thanked him. Once I boarded the plane I found my seat and I sat there and for the first time since reading Sarah’s diary I was able to let all the entries sink in…her thoughts, her feelings holding her diary it was like holding a piece of her soul…She asked me not to come for her, but fuck it if there is anything I have learned from Sarah, no sacrifice is too big when it comes to love. For most of the plane ride I thought about the future the life I would have with Sarah and Tobias, I had gotten way ahead of myself I imagined Sarah and I would take Tobias camping we would go fishing…maybe we would do it the human way, naturally Tobias would do something totally unexpected and get into trouble…he takes after Sarah in that way. I would scold him and he would just do his own little thing, the defiant little punk. Eventually I would enroll him into high school, and together Sarah and I would see our son go off on his first day of high school…Sarah had missed so much of his life, but I will be damned if she misses his first day of high school. I had arrived at the airport and I had taken a rental car and drove off to Volterra, I thought about Tobias and Sarah a great deal of the time I also did my best not to think of anymore questions which is almost impossible to do. I drove and I arrived in Volterra. For a moment I was tempted to just barge in there and demand to have Sarah's freedom restored and threaten them if they ever came near me and my family again I would end them, but instead I returned to my holiday house to compose myself. When I returned to the house I was not surprised by how dusty it was. After all it had been ten years since I was here, it was natural for it to be dusty. I walked through the house slowly and I stopped at the shower, this place was special, it wasn’t just where we had sex for the first time, but it was where we connected where Sarah told me about her past. I think one day I will bring Sarah and Tobias back here and we could live together of course that depended on how things turned out with the Volturi today. It was nightfall around 6 pm when there was a knock on the front door. I had opened to see Demetri, Santiago and Felix standing there “you’re presence is requested before lord Aro” Demetri spoke quietly. I looked at the pair and walked out closing the door behind me and followed them. We walked down the streets with Santiago and Felix walking beside me and Demetri followed behind. We were walking to the castle in silence and I spoke “I know the truth; Sarah never went with you bastards willingly.” I spoke out in anger, my voice was low so low that human ears could not hear it, when Felix spoke “you’re a fool, you know the sacrifice she made for you and yet you return here…everything she has done and endured is now for nothing!” He hissed sounding a little angry. I had listened to Felix’s words when he mentioned endured it had caught my interest had she suffered did those sick bastards hurt her. I wanted to ask more, but Felix hissed and told me to be quiet. We arrived at the tower and made our way through the sewers and I saw a new human assistant. It seems Gina, or whatever her name was, was promoted to lunch. Felix nodded to the human female before we walked in to the throne room, as expected there was the Volturi kings Caius on the right, Aro in the middle and the soon to be corpse Marcus on the left. The four of us were not alone in the room, Felix and Santiago were at my side, while Demetri was behind me. Some of the other guards were there too they had all shown their faces with the exception of two that had their hoods up to cover their faces. I looked at Aro and pointed to him “you and I have much to discuss Aro” I spoke out keeping my voice calm, but barely. Aro kept that fake smile on his face and spoke calmly “Brian Jacobson my old friend how have you been…how is you’re son?” He asked curiously, when he mentioned my son I wanted to rip his tongue out and shove it down his throat. “He is better now that he is about to have his mother back.” I spoke out with a snarl. Marcus was about to say something when Aro raised his hand to silence him “Brian my old friend, I am not sure what your implying.” I felt my anger boil and I yelled out “I KNOW EVERYTHING ARO AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS!! SARAH DOESN’T LOVE THAT BONEY OLD BASTARD AND SHE DESERVES TO BE WITH THE ONE SHE LOVES!” Marcus stood up “She is my wife and MY mate Brian, she chose me! Not you! GET OVER IT.” He spoke out I snarled “she did not have a choice Marcus, I know all about you’re deal with Sarah…You and Aro spoke about killing my son and I….you’re corrupt with power” I yelled out my rage still building. Caius watched with interest as if he was watching a soap opera. Marcus looked at me with hatred “you choose to fight for her then...a weakling like you against us, the Volturi.” He asked and I looked at Marcus “Sarah taught me something important about fighting for the ones you love, to do anything to protect them that gives you strength and with that very strength I will destroy you all to have the woman I love safely back where she belongs…with her SON and her soul mate.” At that moment Jane had left the room and Aro spoke “the Sarah that you knew Brian, she is no longer there….Sarah has changed for the better, she has moved on and forgotten you.” I yelled back that it was a lie and a few moments later Jane had returned, I wondered where she went. “I will fight for Sarah and I don’t even care if it costs me my life I will bring her back to her son…to her family where she belongs.” Aro looked at Jane and she nodded her head, he returned his gaze on me and then he spoke “such a waste” he snapped his fingers and Santiago and Felix grabbed me and held me down. I struggled, but there was no way I could over power these two. I looked at the Volturi with hatred, I was once their ally and I believed in their cause, but my eyes have been opened to what they truly are, the very darkness in our kind, upholding a twisted sense of justice, Those who have power seek to use that power, and the Volturi kings had that power especially now that they had her….they had my mate Sarah hostage and she is because I know my soul mate better than anyone else could. I stood before the three kings Restrained by Felix and Santiago and watched as the doors behind the throne opened Athenodora walked out first wearing a long black dress with a golden necklace that held the Volturi crest on it, looked the same as when we last met, she moved to stand beside Caius’ while he sat on his throne, The next to walked in was Sulpicia she wore an emerald green dress and the same necklace as Athenodora. I had noticed all members of the Volturi wore the necklace with the crest, pretty little dog collars to show the world that those people belonged to, Athenodora stood behind the seated Aro. Of course I knew this would happen, but I still could not believe it my eyes opened as she walked in a few moments after the two queens it was Sarah I had gasped when I saw her, I could barely recognize her, her hair was blond…not the spray dye blond in a can she used when we first met, but the real blond the type of blond that you gained from bleaching your hair. She came and in dressed in a long silk, skin tight dress, she had a leather jacket on covering her arms and back, and there on her chest hung the golden necklace with the Volturi crest…I looked at her face, her beautiful face and I saw no emotions at all, it was as if she was dead….truly dead, there was no soul no life at all. “Sarah my pet…give me a kiss.” Marcus spoke as he looked up at her, to my horror Sarah obediently leaned down to kiss Marcus on the lips and I could see a slip of his tongue and felt anger and disgust. He pulled back and spoke “Sarah this is Brian Jacobson the vampire that attacked you all those years ago.” He couldn’t finish as I interrupted “That’s a lie Sarah I would never hurt you.” Santiago tightened his arms around me and I was silenced and heard Marcus continue to weave his web of lies. “That man was exiled from Volterra yet he has returned, thus breaking the law….how should we punish this law breaker.” Marcus asked. I watched Sarah as she broke Marcus' gaze she turned to look at me and lifted her hand and pointed out a single finger her eyes were dead “Off with his head” she spoke emotionless, her voice left an echo in the room and her tone reminded me of the red queen from Tobias’ book, I could feel Felix hand’s on my neck. “SARAH!” I yelled out desperately. I looked at Sarah and she spoke “Stop” I smiled, I knew she couldn’t do this. She leaned in to Marcus’ ear and whispered something, I could see a smile come onto his lips “since you have been a good girl I'll allow it as a treat my pet.” I watched her pulled back and she smiled Marcus looked to the guards “Step down” Santiago and Felix had let go of me and walked off to join the other guards. Sarah had left Marcus' side and approached me I didn’t move an inch, she was an angel that was approaching me. She had an unfamiliar smile on her face, it was almost cold and fake…no emotions. She stopped inches from me and placed her hands around my neck “I don’t remember you Mr. Jacobson, I was fortunate enough to loose my memories including the night you tried to assault me, I am finally able to get revenge, for how much you destroyed my life Mr. Jacobson.” As she spoke her hands tightened around my neck. The Sarah I knew was gone, what would I do could I bring my self to harming her…no I had failed to protect Sarah, she was right it was my fault she was here I destroyed her life because of me she is a slave to the Volturi. Sarah’s grip tightened around my neck she asked me if I had any last words and I closed my eyes for a moment thinking and then I opened to look in those crimson red eyes of hers “Sarah…the real Sarah I know you're there deep down inside…If you can hear me….I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn’t protect you I am sorry that because of my weakness you have suffered so much and missed out on so many years of good memories. Forgive me babygirl please.” There was so much more I wanted to say to her. Sarah seemed surprised her grip loosened “babygirl…that’s one of the nicknames Marcus calls me.” She spoke I looked at Marcus in rage he couldn’t even think of his own fucking nickname for her. I moved in to Sarah close and I had my hands on both her cheeks and leaned in to kiss her passionately. Sarah fought at first, and then she then she stopped completely my tongue was rubbing against hers and she began to kiss back her arms wrapped around my waist. I had missed her touch so much I felt like we were inches from entering our own personal paradise. I heard an angry voice yell out “Sarah” it belonged to Marcus, Sarah stopped and in a flash she had pulled back and stepped in front of me with her arms stretched out as if she was protecting me. “Marcus it’s over between us, from this day forward I want nothing to do with you…you lied to me, and you have allowed some horrible things to happen to me in the last ten years…I will not allow you to harm my child’s father I forbid it.” Sarah spoke with such authority, but something about her still seemed different. Sarah turned to face me “lets go home…baby boy” she spoke with a weak smile I asked if she remembered me and she told me she had a lot to explain. We were about to walk out of the throne room when I heard Marcus yell out “Felix, Santiago, kill Brian.” I had suddenly felt something hit my back leg and I fell on my ass I realized it was Sarah's foot she stepped on top of me and I watched as Felix and Santiago approached her from both sides she caught their fists and actually stopped them in their tracks. I couldn’t believe this how was it Sarah stopped two of the strongest guards in the Volturi just by catching their wrist. Sarah continued to just stand on my gut “I don’t like it when people attack my loved ones, I get kind of testy” she spoke clearly sounding annoyed she turned in a circle and tossed them back. Felix crashed into a wall while Santiago was sliding against the ground, on his feet he looked at Sarah as she stepped off my gut, I started to get up when I heard Aro speak “Jane” I watched as Jane stepped forward with that usual sadistic grin on her face in a matter of moments Sarah or I would be on the ground in agony, but that never happened. When the Volturi member with their hood on placed their hand on Jane and she fell to the ground screaming and twitching. Everyone looked to Jane in shock. And the cloaked member the guard pulled down the hood to reveal Kate “KATE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE” I yelled out, Kate smiled “please as if I was going to let you have all the fun.” Kate jumped onto Jane’s gut and bent down to keep shocking her. Jane was screaming and Santiago turned from Sarah's direction and ran towards Kate, all I could do was watch as Sarah charged off and tackled Santiago she leaned down and bit into his neck pulling a huge chunk out before pulling off his head completely. I looked as I heard Alex gasp he was picked up by the second hooded Volturi member and thrown into a wall, I watched in shock as the cloaked member revealed himself to be Garrett. “Sarah Catch” Sarah had looked at Garrett surprised as he threw a match box. Sarah caught it and got up, she pulled out a matchstick and light the stick up before she threw it onto Santiago and he caught fire. I was in shock at how this had all turned into a circus. Aro stood up “don’t just stand there seize them and destroy them all” Kate got up and ran towards me and Garrett joined in he was right behind Kate, Sarah joined us “we have to leave now.” She spoke she grabbed my hand and started to run, I followed after her with Kate and Garrett behind us, I couldn’t believe those two defied Eleazar and came to Volterra. We ran and Demetri followed after us, Sarah and I looked back back Demetri was right behind us he had something in his hand a purple vial. He threw it and Sarah let go of my hand and shielded me from the vial, it broke and touched her back and she yelled out in pain I was about to stop when she spoke “keep running.” Sarah spoke, Sarah stopped punched Demetri she punched down one of the pillars and the ceiling above us began to shake. We had stopped running to see Demetri pick himself up as he charged to us Sarah stopped him and threw him into the other pillar forcing the ceiling to tremble it was beginning to collapse Sarah looked at me and she pulled something out from between her breast it was a sheathed dagger she chucked it to me and I caught it. “Brian….this is a weapon covered in a deadly poison the Volturi have been working on a poison to get rid of the Cullen’s coven…you have to warn them get them to run….take Tobias and flee with them.” She sounded like she was in serious pain. Sarah looked back at Demetri “Sarah how can we run with Demetri…he will be able to find us wherever we go.” She told me not to worry about Demetri to just go and protect our son. Kate grabbed my hand “we have to go and trust that Sarah knows what she is doing.” She told me. I still didn’t want to go “BRIAN SAVE TOBIAS” she yelled out sounding a little pissed “Ill take him somewhere safe and then I'll be back for you babygirl.” I told her. She looked back at me and smiled “I know you will…I love you Brian, now and forever” she spoke before the ceiling in front of me collapsed blocking us off. Kate grabbed my hand “come we have to go, we need to warn the family.” She spoke I nodded and ran with the sheathed dagger Sarah had left me. We ran to the air port and kept a look out for the Volturi, we had to keep our guard up and watch out for a retaliation. While we were at the airport Garrett had called the Denali’s and Cullens and told them to leave immediately and run into hiding. I briefly spoke to Edward and he told me not to worry he will keep Tobias safe like he promised, I asked him not to tell Tobias what was happening and he told me he wouldn’t say a word. Garrett had resumed to talking on the cell phone, while Kate sat next to me “you know I got to tell you this Brian I don’t know Sarah, but I like her she has mad flavor and mad ass fighting skills, she’s a tough cookie.” I smiled sadly “yeah she is the strongest women I ever met.” I spoke knowing it was the truth. I intended to keep my promise to her, once I get Tobias to safety I would be back to rescue Sarah that’s a PROMISE! ~Brian Jacobson The moment has arrived what you have been waiting for after 10 years of being apart Brian and Sarah come’s face to face Will Sarah remember Brian, Will Brian be able to save Sarah from the darkness that she allowed to consume her to protect her soul mate and child. What will happen only time will tell what will happen, but one thing for sure is certain someone will not make it alive; someone will suffer the true death.
Spoiler I looked at the Volturi with hatred, I was once their ally and I believed in their cause, but my eyes have been opened to what they truly are, the very darkness in our kind, upholding a twisted sense of justice, Those who have power seek to use that power, and the Volturi kings had that power especially now that they had her….they had my mate Sarah hostage and she is because I know my soul mate better than anyone else could. I stood before the three kings Restrained by Felix and Santiago and watched as the doors behind the throne opened Athenodora walked out first wearing a long black dress with a golden necklace that held the Volturi crest on it, looked the same as when we last met, she moved to stand beside Caius’ while he sat on his throne, The next to walked in was Sulpicia she wore an emerald green dress and the same necklace as Athenodora. I had noticed all members of the Volturi wore the necklace with the crest, pretty little dog collars to show the world that those people belonged to, Athenodora stood behind the seated Aro. Of course I knew this would happen, but I still could not believe it my eyes opened as she walked in a few moments after the two queens it was Sarah I had gasped when I saw her, I could barely recognize her, her hair was blond…not the hair dye blond in a can she used when we first met, but the real blond the type of blond what you gained from bleaching your hair. She came and in dressed in a long silk and skin tight dress her outfit she had a leather jacket on covering her arms and back and on her chest hung the golden necklace with the Volturi crest…I looked at her face, her beautiful face and I saw no emotions at all, it was as if she was dead….truly dead there was no soul no life at all. “Sarah my pet…give me a kiss.” Marcus spoke as he looked up at her, to my horror Sarah obediently leaned down to kiss Marcus on the lips and I could see a slip of his tongue and felt anger and disgust. He pulled back and spoke “Sarah this is Brian Jacobson the vampire that attacked you all those years ago.” He couldn’t finish as I interrupted “That’s a lie Sarah I would never hurt you.” Santiago tightened his arms around me and I was silenced and heard Marcus continue to weave his web of lies. “That man was exiled from Volterra yet he has returned, thus breaking the law….how should we punish this law breaker.” Marcus asked. I watched Sarah as she broke Marcus gaze she turned to look at me and lifted her hand and pointed out a single finger her eyes were dead “Off with his head” she spoke emotionless, her voice left an echo in the room and her tone reminded me of the red queen from Tobias’ book, I could feel Felix hand’s on my neck. “SARAH” I yelled out desperately. Topic: even after she left me she suprises me
Date: june 12th 2019 The future may not be set in stone, but the past is so why bother looking back on that what cannot be changed, look to the future because that is where you will spend the rest of your life. ~Martin Gubecka Dear Journal, It has been one full day since Tobias went to stay with the Cullens as a guest in their household. I am not sure how I should explain the emotions I am feeling, I have a strong conflicting feeling. I am glad my son is socializing with others, forming bonds of friendship and finding an extended family for him, but I also worry about my son I think it's my parental instincts, a powerful instinct every parent has to protect their child... it's very primal. The one thing I am not used to is the silence it's eerie and haunting. I remembered feeling this just after I became a vampire, right after I killed my master and entire family. It was the quiet at first it was awkward, but then it came a friend to me. I adjusted to the silence and embraced it as peaceful. Then I met her... noise was reintroduced into my life. When she left, I was left with Tobias my little punk... He brought sound to my life, with his abnormal heart beats, the sound of his breathing, the sound of the way he would speak... I learned to get used to it, to love having it in my immortal life every single day, but now well... it's just too damn quiet. In this one day I seem to be stuck on an endless loop I regularly pace the house, checking Tobias' bedroom and then checking my own. After another round of pacing the house I went to Tobias' bedroom and laid on his new bed. I looked up at the ceiling. The ceiling was a creamy white color and I considered painting it or hiring some sort of painter to paint something interesting for my son to look at before he goes to bed. After a lot of thought, I decided to have someone paint the solar system on the ceiling. I think I may make it the light bulb is the sun... I'm not sure I will have to think about it... I think Tobias would like that. I have also come to realize that without Tobias my life was extremely empty, I tried to think of the things I did before Tobias' time, All I could think of was work. I used to have such fun working, but now, compared to spending time with Tobias... it's nothing compared to my son. Right after I realized that I went to visit the Cullens, when I arrived I noticed Tobias was no where to be seen. The only people at the house were Esme, Emmett and Rosalie. I could smell the stench of food in the kitchen and knew it was Esme as I heard her greeting from the living room. Emmett was sitting on the couch with Rosalie on his lap the two seemed to be watching football. I asked them where my son was. and Emmett answered "Well Carlisle is at work, Alice and Jasper have gone to the movies." Emmett thought he was being funny in avoiding my question and I scowled at him only to see Emmett laugh and point at me "Rose Rose, look he has the exact same scowling face as Tobias the way Brian and Tobias facial expression look exactly the same is freaky." Emmett spoke out snorting a laugh. I gave a low growl and Esme came into the room, she was wearing jeans and a black Floral blouse. She had on a plain white apron over her attire. Esme's heart shaped face was clearly her main feature since her caramel colored hair was tied into a bun she looked at Emmett and Rosalie "Emmett don't be mean. Brian, Tobias is spending the day with Edward, Bella and Renesmee they have gone to town, I believe Edward said something about visiting a book store and taking the children out to lunch, Esme then excused herself she was apparently cooking a feast for Tobias and Renesmee's dinner. I followed after her and sat on the stool. Esme Explained that she is cooking the children some sort of food, she pronounced it over and over, but I gave up on trying to figure it out, Tobias should be happy for desert he would be having chocolate cake. I told Esme that if she kept feeding Tobias junk food he won't want to leave and she laughed. Esme mentioned that Renesmee did not like to eat human food very much. I knew the feeling when Tobias was younger he just wanted blood. I suggested to Esme that she used blood for side meals for Renesmee maybe even mix in some of the blood with the food. I offered to give Esme some recipes, when I thought about one of the earlier recipes I tried when my son was a young one. there was this time I tried to make Pizza and use blood to mix in with the tomato spice with oregano herbs and a little bit of sweet chilli sauce... when the food was done, Tobias took a reluctant bite and when he hated it he threw the slice of pizza to my face. i remembered the dirty look as the pizza fell off my face and it was all cheesy. My son just laughed his head off, he could get away with bloody murder and he knew it. I was brought out of my memory when Esme asked me how I thought to use both blood and human food. "his mother thought of it." I told her quietly, as soon as I brought Sarah up i regretted it, she has become a phantom in my life she haunts me and I have no doubt I will never get over her. I loved her with all my heart... I still do, but she never loved me that woman never even loved our son. I thought about her a lot... and I realized while that woman... she lied to me from the start, and I did the same, I lied to her and I was selfish I placed my needs above hers. I was selfish with her. The difference between us is I loved her... and I still do. I thought about that liar too much. I should be thinking what to say to Tanya... we had sex,but it didn't mean anything because I didn't love her. I knew that now the only problem was, I did not know what to do or say to Tanya. I needed advice and Esme was there the last time it was her husband who gave me insight on my son. I wondered if his wife could do the same, but then you know what they say behind every great man there has to be a great woman. So I told her everything. Emmett obviously overheard me as I could hear him snickering and whispering to rose "about time Tanya got to score." I frowned and Esme smiled telling me to ignore Emmett. Esme asked me about my feelings for Tanya and I told her I liked her as an individual, but that’s it. Esme was quiet for a moment as she placed the cake in the fridge and she told me "There are many types of love in this world Brian, some love is instant like it's destined... and some love takes time. It starts off as meeting someone, liking them as a friend, like turns into friendship, friendship turns into respect and respect will eventually turn into love... I believe that sleeping with Tanya was a way of your heart telling you, that you are ready to move on." I was in awe of Esme's wisdom and asked her what she would do if she were in my shoes. "Honestly I would go through everything you owned that belonged to Tobias' mother... keep what you want to pass on to Tobias and the rest you throw away make a new start Brian you deserve it." she spoke with a loving tone. The words of Esme well, it was incredible so sincere. I knew she was right, so I left The Cullens' and returned home to the box of her belongings and opened it up. Her scent immediately filled the air and brought me many memories of her. Inside the box there was a photo of us on top of her clothing I picked it up to look at the photo. and held it looking at the beauty of her... Just looking at a photo of her made me furious I threw it to the wall and watched as the glass shattered and the frame fell apart, I expected to see one photo fall to the ground with the shattered photo frame and glass, but there were two. I immediately found myself curious and walked to the broken frame and photos picking them both up, there was the first photo of us, but the second one... it took me by surprise. Two flashes entered my mind, both of them was of her. The first flashback I had was of myself asking her if she had a photo of her daughter Jayne, she told me she didn't. The second was a memory of the day she left where she told me she did not have a daughter, she made it up to lure me in so she could use me for my wealth. I looked at the photo of her, she looked so young in this photo and she looked happy with Jayne in her arms... I couldn't understand anything and when I looked on the back of the photo my eyes widen with shock with what I saw next... ~Brian Jacobson Hey yall it's Martin here, I decided to leave with a cliff hanger. lol. I am interested in seeing your theorys on what will happen, so feel free to post on the twilight diaries facebook group and let us know what you think is going to happen. I also want to wish you all a happy new years, have a happy and safe holiday. ~Martin Gubecka Topic: this is just going to be so weird being without tobias, i guess i need to this time alone to sort myself out
Date: June 11th,2019 Dear Journal I had plans you know, I wanted to get Tobias settled in to this new house only problem is he is not here, I need to tell you what happened recently. Right after my last entry I packed a sports bag with some of Tobias's clothing he was sleeping over at the Denali's because our new furniture did not arrive. When I arrived I found Tobias fast asleep on the couch tucked under the blanket he slept. He seemed so peaceful when he sleeps. I wanted to wake him up, but Carmen told me to let the boy sleep. I Left the bag by the couch and walked outside to get some fresh air. I stayed within hearing distance, hearing my son breathe softly inhaling and exhaling. Since becoming a father there is a lot of things I love, here let me give you a list of my favourite sounds 1. My son's heart beat 2. The way my son breathes 3. My son's laughter 4. My son's attitude 5. My son's voice 6. My son's table manners [Lack there of] 7. My son's snore 8. My son's sleep talk Yes if I could make that into an album I would, maybe I am getting a little obsessive, but I can't help it he is my world. You will never know or understand love until you have a child. because when you have a child you realize how insignificant your life is until you have a child, because you realize that you are no longer the most important person in your life, you have a child that depends & relies on you to look after them, to feed them & clothe them & make sure they have bathes even though they try to bail. Tobias is the most important person in my life. He is sacred to me, and as I keep trying to describe how much I love him there is no words for love, there is this feeling inside me it’s a warmth I feel and I can't imagine my immortality without this warmth inside me. I swear one day I will find a way to describe the magnitude of this sensation & the emotions. Tanya eventually came outside and joined me, being in her presence was a little strange I guess it's awkward because of that incident that happened last time we saw each other. We were close to having sex, but I couldn't...I was still holding onto my memories of the woman I loved. Tanya told me about Tobias behaviour he had used his gift to blind Kate. I was shocked Tobias would do that, he knew better than to use his gift on others to harm them I made sure he knew to only do that if it was self defence...I am going to have to ground him once we are settled in. Tanya told me she received a call from Rosalie Hale earlier wondering if they could bring Tobias over today. I asked her if my son would be safe there and she told me of course he would be the Cullens were a gentle coven that knew the meaning of Love & family. I told her I would think about it, Letting Tobias visit the Cullens would give me time to set the house up for when the furniture arrived & it would also allow me to go food shopping for Tobias. If he was with me he would probably be bored out of his mind. I told Tanya Tobias could go and visit the coven as long he is with Eleazar. I trusted him enough to care for my son at least for today; I don't think anyone could protect my son or care for him like I do. I waited for Tobias to wake up and when he finally did I hugged him good morning and proceeded to scold him for blinding Kate, Tobias frowned and I petted his head trying to reassure him that I loved him. I just wanted him to know what he did was wrong and that he should lean from his mistakes. I mean how will he grow and mature if he never learns from his mistake. Tobias told me he was not hungry so I gave him the sports bag and told him to go to the bathroom and get changed; he was going to meet the Cullens today. My son seemed very excited he bolted off towards the bathroom with the sports bag and closed the door a locking sound could be heard, I thanked Eleazar for taking Tobias off my hands for today and Eleazar told me he did not mind, he found Tobias to be a delightful child. I was glad Tobias had managed to charm everyone around him. Tobias came out a few moments later dressed the boy had forgot to comb his hair he looked scruffy this would not do, I pulled out the comb from the sports bag side pocket and moved to Tobias and began combing his hair "Dad stop it you're embarrassing me" he complained, "well next time you will think to comb you're hair before you claim to be ready...you wont go out as some scruffy punk." I told him, Tobias frowned as he kept trying to push my hand away & Tanya chuckled watching while Kate, Carmen, Eleazar & garret were quiet. I finally finished and looked at his face and saw a smudge on his cheek "here let me get that" I spoke pulling out a tissue from my pocket, I suddenly felt Tobias stomp my foot and I hopped back to watch him bolt "That HURTS you little punk." I roared. Tobias chuckled darkly and I glared at him, "it was either that or let you clean me and that’s just creepy dad" I glowered at him as he gave me attitude....I decided to drop it "Fine...he is ready to go now, but be on you're best behaviour and no showing off." I told my son, I watch my son smile and everyone, but Tanya seemed to be getting ready to go. Tobias left out the door "Hey where is my hug" I yelled out, in less then what would have been a human heart beat Tobias returned and gave me a hug I placed my hand on his back "Love you dad" he spoke "Love you more" I replied and watched as he let go and ran out of the door. To catch up with Carmen, Kate and Garrett. Eleazar promised me Tobias would be fine and left to join them. I asked Tanya if she was going with everyone else and she told me she wanted to help out. I found it odd, and thanked her for the offer Tanya told me not to bother fighting her that she wanted to help me I accepted her help and thanked her and we went back to my place. She told me more about the Cullens which was good it reassured me that my son was safe there and would probably have a blast with them. eventually the furniture arrived and with Tanya's help I had the house set up in no time, the phone company were sending out someone from technical support to come and get my internet all set up, Tanya surprised me "your eyes are black, I think we should go hunting." I did feel thirsty, but I thought I could handle the thirst, but decided I should have something to eat first before Tobias comes home from the Cullens place. I went hunting with Tanya; she was indeed fast it was hard to get in front of her I spent a lot of time watching her from behind. The entire time I was watching her ass in those jeans, I wondered if she was trying to seduce me, I remember Eleazar once telling me that Tanya, was referred to as one of the Original succubus an interesting fact. This is not the first time I have known a historic vampire. I met a vampire about 50 years ago who called himself Alex He was born in the year 1401 in France, his parents were very wealthy and he was turned in the year 1430. Alex witnessed Joan of Arc being burned at the old Market place in Rouen in 1431 I had to admit that was incredible to have met someone who actually saw Joan of Arc & her death, he did a lot of other interesting things but what he told me next was something out of this world, he witnessed Jack the ripper's first murder back in 1888. Alex told me out of boredom he taught Jack how to kill effectively without leaving evidence. Alex actually considered jack to be a nice young man with potential. As soon as Alex told me that I learned Alex was squirrels short of a tree. Alex told me he had every intention of turning Jack; thankfully Alex failed and ended up killing the human. To this day the humans have no idea what happened to Jack the ripper as for Alex I have no idea where he is now days. Anyway enough about Alex, I was following Tanya & we spotted a brown bear we both pounced the brown bear together and with a thud the bear hit the ground. Tanya and I both fed from the bear, the blood tasted foul compared to that of a human, but at least this creature tasted somewhat human I guess it's because bears eat other animals unlike deer. Tanya & I pulled up and looked at each other we watched each other for a moment and before I knew it I pounced Tanya and started kissing her. I Had her hands pinned by her wrist sitting on top of her and kissing her, I did not understand why I was doing it, I still don't understand it. I ripped Tanya's clothing off and passionately made love to her Tanya was just as passionate as I was, she was fierce and well she insisted on being on top. The strange thing is while the sex was passionate things between us was awkward. I thought I would have felt different afterwards, but I felt nothing at all. I felt nothing because it meant nothing I mean when I was with...Sarah it meant something because I loved her and wanted to be with her forever when we made love it was like we were one being, with Tanya it was just spur of the moment mostly. Tanya laid her head on my arm and I laid beside her she praised my skills and told me she enjoyed herself she asked me how it was for me, I thanked the stars above I did not have to answer the mobile in my pants went off I got up and answered the phone it was Eleazar. Eleazar told me Tobias wanted to speak to me, I asked Tobias what was wrong & if he was alright a concerned and he told me "Relax dad I was just wondering if I could stay over at the Cullens for a while Mr. Cullen said it was alright." I asked Tobias how long he wanted to stay there and he told me and get this in his own words "Just 10 days" I could not believe this "Just 10 days are you kidding me, no Tobias you are sadly mistaken if you think I am letting my only son be out of my sight for 10 whole days that’s almost two weeks", Tobias tried to interrupt me with "but dad" I would not allow it "No Tobias and that’s my final word, ten days is just too much."Tobias continued to plead with me and told me he really liked the Cullens and they did not mind him staying to get to know them better. I sighed and asked him to put Carlisle on the phone, I asked Carlisle if he was sure about this and Carlisle told me it was no problem and offered me a place to stay as well if I wanted to. thought about the offer and asked if it was alright if I had daily visits & phone calls, Carlisle answered "but of course that is no problems." I thanked Carlisle and asked him to put my son on the phone I told hemi he was allowed to stay on the condition that I visited him & He behaved and of course his response was "but dad" I told him I would be over shortly to pick him up and he quickly gave in. I smiled and hung up the phone after he told me he was going to go play baseball with the Cullens & the rest of the Denali's. I looked at Tanya and she just smiled she told me I sounded adorable, thankfully she forgot her question. I honestly did not want to hurt her feelings, after getting dressed in what was left of our clothing we popped around to her place first Tanya had to get dressed into a new outfit, while she got changed I grabbed the sports bag I brought over. Then we returned to my place where I got changed and packed my son a weeks worth of clothing in the sports bag, I must be nuts to agree to this, but Tobias wanted this and I think I need to sort myself I mean I just had meaningless sex with Tanya. Anyway here I am telling you what happened and like I told you it's a lot to process anyway I have to go I need to take this clothing over to the Cullens. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Leaving our home and hopefully the bad memories behind
Date: June 10th,2019 Yo Diary It's been two days since my last entry so I am going to fill you in on everything that's been happening, Right after my last entry I went hunting and caught my son a deer...I went to the forest a few miles away, I did not want to leave Tobias alone for too long, I knew we were safe, but still I did not want to take any chances. I killed the deer and drained the blood into an empty waterbottle, that would be enough for him he also had human food to snack on, I moved onto the dead deer and fed off the blood that was left in the deer the blood was foul, it just tasted wrong, I imagine it would taste like expired produce. I knew Tobias was going to complain today about the blood, it would have to do until we moved, I returned home and started to cook Tobias his breakfast the smell of the bacon and eggs was putrid to me, I don't know how the boy tolerates this crap. I was just about finished with Tobias' breakfast when I watched my son tumble from the hallway he was rubbing his eyes and he looked around, still in his silk black pj's "Morning" he grumbled and went off to the garage. I smiled and greeted him a good morning even though he was already in the garage, there are times when Tobias is not a morning person, it seemed today was one of them,I turned off the stove and placed his plate and cup of blood on the table and placed a fork on the table beside his plate, and after buttering his toast I placed them beside the bacon "Tobias come chowdown" I called out, I braced myself for the stampeed, but I did not hear him run from the garage, "Yo Tobias, come on" I said walking to the garage, when I came in I was shocked. I saw Tobias in front of a box marked S stuff...inside that box, for a moment I panicked, I dont want Tobias to see that stuff, because he would know I lied to him...I told him everything that we had of hers burned in a fire, the truth was I packed it up, I could never bring myself to throw away her things. I asked him what he was doing and he told me that he was looking for boxes. "Boxes can wait, go eat and I will find you a box ok." My son grumbled and went off to the kitchen. He was going to be a barrel of laughs today, I remember thinking that at the time. I picked up the box and opened the back seat of the car and packed it in there. I had told Tobias that he could only take up to five boxes and I would just buy whatever he wanted when we got there. Tobias ended up packing two boxes. While I took three boxes including the box of her things., Once the boxes were packed in the car we were ready to leave. Our last day in our home it was hard for both of us, but I made sure Tobias had as much fun as possible. I took Tobias fishing, vampire style, basicly we went into the ocean and I caught a shark, Tobias went nuts, he loved it. After we went fishing we dried off at the beach, while Tobias was happy with a shark's tooth he had asked me to take from the shark....he is a strange boy, but he says it's really cool to have a shark's tooth and I shrugged it off figuring it must be his weird human part thinking that. I made Tobias put on a hat and sunscreen and he frowned "that stuff smells like rotten eggs Dad." I frowned and told him to do so anyway, he grumbled and stormed off inside and I sighed, he returned a few minutes later in sunscreen and hat and we started to build a giant sand castle, the castle was huge it was like a kingdom of a castle, it was very detailed, the rest of the day went by too fast for either of our liking. After giving Tobias' dinner to him I allowed him to stay up to 8:30 pm and then sent him off to bed. He tried to defy me of course, he is a spirited young man, but he lost and went to bed. While my son slept I made sure everything was packed, I moved all the boxes to the garage and cleaned the place up, I was all set now, with nothing to do so I went to watch Tobias sleep. He slept somewhat peacefully, he tossed and turned alot meaning he was probably still uncomfortable about moving away. My mobile suddenly began to vibrate in my pocket and I stood up and walked outside to the back and answered. The phone call was from Eleazar, I was on speaker phone with the Denali's on the other end, they asked me how everything was going and I told him, well, that I should be able to leave tomorrow morning and make it to the woods area for cover, Eleazar was kind enough to tell me that Alice Cullen saw that we would be fine for traveling tomorrow that she saw us having no problems, I thanked the Denali's and they told me it was no problem, the women in the background started chattering. I could hear them easily with my vampire hearing, they were asking about Tobias. Kate thought she was being funny when she asked if they should put away their valubles and I chuckled and assured them that Tobias would behave himself well this time. Kate gave a scoff sound and I smiled. We spoke for a little while, mostly about the Cullens it turns out that they're living only a few miles from the place Tobias and I are moving to which will be interesting, I have never heard of three vampire covens living so close together within the same hunting area....it will be unique to see this three covens working in harmony. I thanked the Denali's again for allowing me to move onto their territory and they told me to forget about it, that they could not wait to see Tobias or I, we finished our conversation and I went back to check on my son, when I looked on him I could see he was deep in sleep now, he wasn't moving an inch, he actually began to snore, I smiled and left my son to sleep. I waited on the balcony watching the night pass away and eventually morning came and I gave Tobias his breakfast and watched him chow down and after breakfast I threw the plates into the garbage can and we walked outside, it was time for us to leave. I leaned against the car and thought about the idea of leaving this place behind. I thought about her and our time here together as soon as the thoughts came to mind I looked down in shame I promised myself I would not even think about her, but I couldn't help it. I would constantly wonder what she was up to, she was probably living it up as Marcus's new bitch...I heard about her wedding to Marcus, apparently it was a huge event. According to Eleazar at least, he, nor anyone from his coven attended the wedding, but he had friends that did. Sometimes I wonder why...why would she be married to him, why would she want wealth and power over love and living a life of joy, but then I remember her words...she never really loved me she was just using me for my wealth...if I never got her knocked up would we still be together I wonder?. I haven't told you this either, but Eleazar met her. It wasn't long after Tobias and I left that Eleazar and Carmen went to Italy to go shopping, one day they went to see the Voltori when they visted their city, they met her and she was fine..they spoke briefly and Eleazar told me she was distant the entire time, until she snapped and tried to attack them. She had to be held down by Marcus and Aro before she calmed down. Eleazar remarked something must have been wrong, because Aro cut the meeting short, gave them permission and just left. I did not really care I no longer had anything to do with that manipulative harpie, at least that's what I tried to tell myself, maybe if I told myself enough times, I would start to believe it. I watched as Tobias looked at the house, one last time and turned to climb into the car, he did up his seatbelt and I got in after him and did my seatbelt up. I know it may seem foolish being a vampire I couldn't get hurt even if we were to crash, but I wasn't doing this for my safety at all...I was doing this to set an example to my son, It is my job as the parent to teach my son to be smart, to put safety first and set an example and so I did that whenever I could. It was a very cloudy day today, Eleazar was right, I had no problems with the sun. The sun was completely eclipsed by the clouds, it was safe for me to drive which meant I could drive around in daylight and save more time then I originally thought. I noticed through most of the trip my son kept checking the back to see the boxes he seemed interested in that box, but it didn't matter...I would never let him see the contents of that box, one day I am going to get the courage, I'll destroy it or at least bury it somewhere far far away and never return for it, until then, I will keep it with me wherever I go. Our drive was long, Tobias and I played I spy which drove me nuts, because he kept on going for things I would never guess what he was seeing, the little scamp cheats too, I am pretty sure its against the rules to use things in the rearview mirror, still if he was cunning enough to think of it I guess I would let him get away with it. I drove like a maniac while Tobias slept, I figured if he was a sleep I didn't have to be a good influence, when he was asleep its not like he would see it. So I drove and drove going about 200 miles an hour, way over the legal speed limit, I did not worry about police, being a vampire, I could hear a great distance away, hell I could have smelled their scents, it was easy. The drive gave me a lot of time to think, I know what you are thinking, I should concentrate on the road while I drive, but being a vampire I don't have to, when a human becomes a vampire the senses are enhanced, but so is the mind too, we are able to process so much more than humans, we can think of multiple things at the exact same time while a human can only concentrate on one thing at a time. So I thought a lot about what life would be like living close to two big covens of vampires, I hope Tobias would be able to fit in and make friends with the Cullens. Esme and Carlisle did not seem to mind him, now that I think about it Esme handled Tobias pretty wellm I guess she had a lot of practice with that hybrid of theirs. We were ten minutes away from the Denali's and I told him the last time he was here he trashed the place, thinking about his behaviour back then it made me laugh. He sure was a wild child. Tobias looked nervous and I tried to calm him down, I told him that they could not wait to see him and I heard him mutter "yeah to get revenge" I chuckled and leaned to the side to hug my son with one arm while I kept my eyes on the road. We finally arrived at the Denali's. I pulled over to the side and climbed out, the entire coven was there to welcome us, I was shaking Eleazar and Garret's hand and looked back to the car, Tobias was nervous about getting out, as soon as he mustered up the nerve to get out and walk towards me he was tackled to the ground. I could hear Carmen say "oh Dios mío Tobías que han crecido."I knew spanish well enough to know that she said"oh my goodness Tobias you have grown." I could see Tobias reaction his expression was nearly identical to the one he made the first time the girls bombarded him. Carmen dragged Tobias away fom my range and took him away with Tanya & Kate. I could hear them all talking, they were clucking away like hens in a chook house. Carmen came back and told me she and the girls were taking Tobias hunting and I felt a little worried, Carmen assured me that she would take care of Tobias as if he were her own. Carmen left to join her sisters and Tobias while I knew he would be safe I still couldn't help but worry about his safety. It's got to be some sort of parent instinct. Eleazar and I spoke for a while, before I decided to go unpack the boxes at the new place. The house was massive two floors, it had five bedrooms, I plan on giving the biggest room to Tobias, he is going to have so much crap in it anyway it's only fair for him. I would turn one of the spare rooms into an office for myself. I might buy a local shop just to pass the time when not tutoring Tobias, I am going to have to tutor Tobias myself. I don't think there is any tutor good enough in this area, so it's up to me to tutor him, the only problem is he is smarter than me, it would have been depressing if I wasn't proud of the little man. In a few years when Tobias growth has slowed down to an unnoticable rate to the human eye I will allow him to go to high school, With the other rooms, I will keep one room for me and the others will be empty for now. I was personally I haven't been had the chance to be around Tanya yet...things between us kind of got hot and heavy last time we were in each company. The thought of being around her well it's kind of strange, while I finished the last box I could smell the scent of several vampires near by and I could hear the sound of the twigs on the ground snapping in the distance. I immediantly went to the door and waited, a few minutes later I saw Carlisle in jeans and a black shirt, he had his usual blond hair combed back and his golden eyes, I recognized Bella and Edward immediately. Edward had a white T shirt on with a black jacket and jeans, his hair was messy and an unusual shade of bronze. His topaz eyes glared at me hesitantly and I watched him, he was just over six feet tall and had a slender body, his wife Bella wore a black jacket and jeans, she had straight dark brown hair and liquid gold eyes there was one more female, a blond female she was beautiful, she was tall and statuesque she had an elegant body as she wore a black dress, her hair was long and wavy that went to the middle of her back and her liquid gold eyes watched me. I could see just by the look of her eyes she was curious. "Greetings Brian it has been a long time."I nodded. "Yes it has Carlisle, how are you?"I asked him he answered well, and introduced me to each member of his family, Edward, Bella and Rosalie. Carlisle thought it would be best for me to meet his family in small numbers. It was polite of him, I invited them inside and apologised for the lack of furniture everything was coming tomorrow, but they did not mind standing which is fine, as vampires we could stand forever and its not possible to get exhausted. The one known as Rosalie looked around she seemed to be curious when Edward spoke, "He is not here Rose." Rosalie seemed to be disappointed and I asked"who is not here?" I was concerned and the tone in my voice showed it. Carlisle was quick to jump in had Rosalie wanted to meet my son, and I sighed "he is at the Denali's, he is sleeping there tonight seeing as the stores don't deliver until tomorrow." I answered, Rosalie told me she hoped to meet Tobias soon and I wanted to know why she had taken such an interest in my son and Bella told me that Rosalie just had a crazy idea of setting my son up with her daughter, I raised an eyebrow curious "What! It's better than the mongrel and at least the boy wouldn't have fleas or stink up the furniture"I watched Edward hit his head with the palm of his hand. Bella was about to say something when Carlisle interrupted "Rosalie, please not when we are a guest in someone's home" I chuckled and told them it was alright I did not mind that if they wanted to meet my son they were welcome to meet him, after examing my watch I saw it was already nine pm. Tobias would already be asleep now, So I asked them if they would like to meet Tobias tommorow at the Denali's around 9am, to give my son a chance to wake up, get dressed, have breakfast and so on. Rosalie was the first to accept the invite and Carlisle told me that he and his family would be delighted to meet Tobias at that time tomorrow. The Cullens left and I looked at the last box that had her things. I picked up the box and went to the room that would be my future office opening the wardrobe I placed the box at the very top and in the corner so my son couldn't find it, with that done I came to type to you and tell you of the events that happened. I think I am going to go now I don't feel right being away from my son for so long even if he is asleep right now, I need to be where I can watch him so I know he is safe. Brian Jacobson |
InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |