Topic: I remember back before all this madness began and when My son and I was still at our home at the beach we watched the waves…. My son noticed some birds fly in the sky and then to my surprise he told me this story…there once was a lovebird named Hart and he was a beautiful lovebird, Hart lived in the forest with a large flock of lovebirds and as he grew up from a child he noticed all his friends, fell in love and had bird wives and soon became dominated in the blissful warmth that is called love. Eventually Hart was the only lovebird single within the entire flock, he felt this emptiness in his heart because although his friends and family didn’t shun him, something inside of him was missing and that pain he felt was so intense it devoured him whole and even though he soared the heavens that emptiness was always there. One day Hart had enough, he decided to soar the heavens until he met oblivion. So Hart flew and he flew far from his friends and family and far from his homeland, until he could not fly anymore. After resting and recovering hart was about to continue his quest for oblivion when he heard a the crying of another creature, when hart followed the sound of the crying he came across this beautiful female lovebird named Aphrodite. The moment he saw her everything changed….he had changed because in that very first second he saw her he fell in love with her. Hart had asked Aphrodite what was wrong and she told told him “I am sad, because I am surrounded by people who say they love me, people who call me their friends and even though they say that I feel so alone and so very scared” Hart had understood Aphrodite and so he walked along the branch close to her and he spread his beautiful green wing over her back and spoke “I used to feel that way too until I met you.” Aphrodite was surprised at Hart’s confession and then she realized that the pain she felt…it wasn’t as bad as it used to be and eventually the two loveless lovebirds found love in each other. For the next three months the two lovebirds were inseparable they had found their own piece of heaven within each other’s company proving that the heavens weren’t in the sky that they ruled, but in each others heart. One day as Hart & Aphrodite flew together, until Aphrodite had an arrow shot through her heart and she fell from the sky and landed on a beach not to far from here. Hart had landed beside Aphrodite and saw she was dead. The void Hart felt returned a thousand fold and hart had tried to live without Aphrodite, and even though he tried he could not live without her and twenty four hours later hart had returned to where his beautiful Aphrodite passed on and he joined her in death…. I remembered at the time feeling concern for my son and how morbid the story was and when I asked him “why tell me such a sad story boy” My son looked at me and smiled sadly “For every happy ending father, there must be a sad ending” I believe this Is my sad ending~ Date: ????? Dear Journal, Things seemed to be incredibly fast it wasn’t long after I arrived in Ocean shore, Washington that Bella and Edward returned with the human known as Charlie, with two foul smelling mongrels and a bitch….I believe I am using the right terms…to describe them. they call their species shape shifters or werewolves….they are no true children of the moon that much I can tell you that much.…their human names were Seth, Leah and Jacob. I do not like these creatures much they smell horrible, and what disturbed me was the fact how much my son seems to be getting along with the youngest of the three….Seth Clearwater. The two seems to have become best friends in such a short amount of time; I found it humiliating to watch when after one of their patrol’s Tobias asked if he could pet Seth while he was still in his mongrel’s form….perhaps this peculiar fascination my son has with the mongrel is because I did not allow him a pet when he was a child. Although I did take small comfort in the fact that my son didn’t like Jacob much, and it seemed Jacob did not like my son at all I believe he sees my son as a threat to his relationship with Renesmee, he views my son as a possible rival suitor to her. Rosalie of course keeps trying to separate Renesmee from Jacob seems my son found an alliance with Rosalie and Renesmee seems to be completely oblivious to the contest going on between my son and the mongrel. Tobias will defeat the flea bitten mongrel that much I know after all he is my son. I had tried over and over already to do this out of body experience again so I could get to Sarah, but I couldn’t do it I just couldn’t relax and concentrate at the same time not like I did before everything was so distracting, I could hear my son speaking downstairs asking Seth would he be offended if he asked Jacob to play a game of fetch, while Rosalie snorted a laugh, I could also hear Emmett chuckle and whisper “he is an awesome kid” that alone had me smile of course my son was awesome, he was my son after all he is a brilliant young man intelligent as he is perfect. I couldn’t take it anymore and decided to hold the meeting with Carlisle, Edward, Eleazar and Jacob. So I had left the sanctuary of my room and rejoined them all, I hugged my son and listen to him Grumble “daaaaaaaaad not in front of Nessie…I don’t want nessie to think im a wimp” I chuckled realizing my boy was turning into a man and listened to Jacob speak “Daddies boy” as he had Renesmee wrapped around his arms. “Jacob don’t be mean…besides I like a guy that shows affection to their parents it shows respect” she scolded him as I let go of my son, “wait you do” Jacob spoke surprised, it was that moment that Tobias wrapped his arms around me and spoke “I LOVE YOU DADDY” it had taken everything inside of me not to roar into laughter, I knew what my son was trying to do that sneaky little punk, he was trying to get brownie points with Renesmee. I let go of my son and he lowered his arms I placed my hand on his head as if to pet it, he is a good kid….no he is a fantastic kid. Carlisle and Edward had entered the room and I looked at them and nodded my head and then I sent Eleazar a text message telling him we would be hosting the meeting. It was within moments he and Carmen had entered the house, I had assumed they must have been very close by perhaps somewhere just outside. Edward glanced at Bella whom was speaking to Rosalie and she nodded standing up Bella announced “ok everyone I think its time we play a game of vampire volleyball at the beach Who’s with me” she spoke, everyone including myself was silent and we just looked at her as if she was nuts, Rosalie smiled “too bad we are all going to play” she walked to Jacob and pulled out rubber gloves and pulled them on, she touched Jacob and pulled Renesmee out of Jacobs arms and he had a mixture of a frown/glare aimed at Rosalie. Tobias left my side faster than the flash and was next to Renesmee “oh yeah this is gonna be shweet” he spoke nudging into her and Jacob let out a low growl “not fair” he grumbled, I had ignored Jacob and started to realize that my son’s loyalty to me had only been surpassed to the loyalty of women…I don’t know why, but I had this strange feeling that when my son grew up he would be a shameless flirt…someone that would use a quote like “I hope you're a poetry major because I need some help with my Longfellow” the very thought of that made me face palm…women at least the good kind did not want to be courted like that, it’s just not the way to court a woman at least it wasn’t back in my day….Damn MTV turning all the girls into harlots and loose ho’s. Everyone had left with the exception of Kate and Garrett, which had surprised me “Since they were there I thought they should stay, get their perspective from it.” Before I could say anything Kate had began into the story of how she and Garrett sneaked into the Volturi compound and stolen some spare cloaks and rubbed it over themselves to mask their scent and sneak into the throne room where they retold the start to end and the escape. Including the part where Sarah remained behind to stop them. I had awoken from my stream of thoughts when Carlisle asked me to look at the weapon Sarah had handed me. I pulled out the sheathed weapon “be careful it’s poisonous….Sarah told me the Volturi had intended to use it on your coven she wanted me to warn you and your coven and flee with you.” I spoke quietly. Carlisle’s face was blank for a moment and then he looked as sad as I felt, he was a man filled with compassion “She was truly remarkable woman…she defied the Volturi to protect us all showing, that even one person can make the difference if they try.” I couldn’t stand how he used the past tense so I corrected him “She IS truly remarkable….she isn’t dead yet…I am going to save her” Carlisle had apologized as soon as I had spoken he realized he was in the wrong “we will help you in whatever way we can…you’re Sarah has saved the lives of my family…and Eleazar's family by sharing this with us” He spoke raising the weapon “I will have to study it…to see exactly what this poison is and how it works…” He spoke, it was at this Jacob sat on the floor like the dog he was and folded his arms, I still didn’t understand why Edward insisted that he should be a part of this meeting “can we hurry this up I don’t like it when that brat is around my Nessie” he spoke and quickly added in no offence, but it was too late for that offence was taken. “what’s wrong afraid of a little contest” I asked the dog, Jacob looked at me “he is no contest I just don’t like being apart from Nessie is all after all what if you’re clueless son makes a move on her and makes her feel awkward” that was it I wasn’t going to let some mongrel bad mouth my son “I think you’re just afraid Jacob…afraid that Nessie will realize she has more in common and more of a connection with my son than you ever will and you know what they say is true….once you go fang you never go back, besides shouldn’t you be going out with girls your own age or does statutory rape not mean anything to you’re species.” I barked back at him and Jacob’s skin began to shake for a moment until he breathed in and he calmed down. I could see that Carlisle wanted to stop this, but Edward raised his hand to stop him, perhaps he was amused that two men were fighting about his daughter even though I was fighting on my son’s behalf. “to answer your previous question Jacob, you are hear because of Brian…from what Carlisle has told me and the thoughts I could gather in Brian’s mind…Brian had an out of body experience where his spirit has left his body…I am assuming Brian would like to learn how to use this ability and since You’re people descendants of the spirit chief Taha Aki.” Jacob didn’t let Edward finish when he spoke “yeah but my people can’t do that anymore the magic in our blood is too diluted and the only thing we could do Is shift into wolves.” He interrupted, I was curious as to who Taha Aki was and Edward responded “I am aware of that Jacob…but I was thinking perhaps if you could give us you’re theory of how Taha Aki was able to achive this in the first place. Maybe it could give Brian some pointers how to return to spirit form and maybe understand his ability…..and you know the sooner you tell us the sooner you can go back to Nessie…from the thoughts im picking up Nessie seems to think Tobias is awesome in her words…uh thoughts” Edward had responded. Jacob’s ears perked up “ok then…well my theory is you’re going to have to be surrounded by nature and you will need silence so you can relax your mind…focus on the peace and tranquility that’s pretty much all I can think of…if you excuse me I got to go” Jacob had picked himself up and bolted out of the room, and Edward finished “I forgot to mention she thinks of Tobias as a brother” he had that crooked grin on his face, but it was clear he enjoyed tormenting Jacob, I chuckled “don’t tell Tobias that….it will break his little heart…ok enough joking around…I am leaving” Eleazar was first to speak “what you can’t leave it’s not safe” Edward shook his head “nothing we can say will stop him Eleazar…Don’t worry about Tobias I will watch over him…I have grown very fond of him and the way he thinks so highly of my daughter.” I smiled and thanked Edward and after that I left without hesitation. I left the cabin the Cullen's had rented out and went as far from them all as possible deep into the forest where I laid on the ground and looked up at the blue sky. It was beautiful watching the dark grey clouds, there was a hint of the blue sky occasionally, the trees provided shading, and I watched the tree branches sway as the wind blew, it seemed like the wind was dancing with the trees, I closed my eyes and breathed in that fresh cold wind. “Take me to Sarah, let me be with her for when she needs me the most” I pleaded with myself. I kept my eyes closed and I began to feel lighter than air itself and when I opened my eyes I saw her…Sarah, she was wearing something new this time, a beautiful white dress. She was sitting up and looking at the door “hey babygirl” I spoke knowing she couldn’t hear me. Sarah looked so calm and I listened to her speak “The final hours of my immortality…I know I should feel fear, for I face the unknown…instead I feel relief because soon…I will finally be free, since regaining my memory…no long before that since the Volturi broke Brian and I apart I have felt like a caged bird watching the world from behind these caged bars…as I look towards that door I know that even though my life….my world has been darkness and suffering and god the pain I have endured soon I can spread my wings and fly” she spoke, I didn’t understand what she meant at first and then it hit me “No” I whispered in shock the door opened and Felix came into the room Aro behind him “Come Sarah everyone is waiting for you’re trial.” Aro spoke looking fancy in his suit, Sarah gave a bitter laugh “hah don’t you mean execution” Aro said nothing else and Felix carried her out of the room with Aro following. I ran out of the dungeon and watched in horror “Sarah” I yelled out, but then no one could hear me, I couldn’t follow I had no idea where I was going…I couldn’t even see them anymore…I was only a phantom….I then heard a strange voice “Follow with you’re heart and speak from you’re heart and even then a phantom can make a difference.” The voice was familiar and I looked around trying to see where it came from. I decided to take the voice’s advice I closed my eyes “take me to her…take me to Sarah and where she will be” I spoke out quietly when I opened my eyes I had appeared in a place high up on a roof and the scenery was beautiful.…I knew this place; it was the ruined monastery at Volterra this monastery according to history became abandoned when the crumbling cliffs caused part of it to collapse. I stood on the roof of the monastery and I noticed a lot of cars packed away from the cliffs. normally I would have admired the beauty of the scenery, but I did not come here to view the land, and the ruined monastery, I came to find my baby girl…at first I was confused I thought my power had worked on my desires…I wanted to find Sarah again…..to find out where they were taking her….and I realized this must be where they brought her. I had noticed there were vampires everywhere a lot of them were Volturi…the others were witnesses, there were even more vampire witnesses than the times of the Cullen trial, I saw familiar faces, Alec..Afron, Chelsea, Athnodora, Marcus, Cauis, Renata and, Jane I swear if Jane could eat human food she would be eating popcorn like one of those strange humans in the cinema munching down on their popcorn in anticipation of the best scene in the movie. I had floated down off the roof top it seemed none of them could see me, I had noticed everyone was wearing black. The witnesses had continued to speak amongst themselves, until a black limo arrived and parked not far from the witnesses the first one out of the limo was the driver it happened to be Felix he had walked to the door and opened the door leaning in he dragged out Sarah by her hair, my baby girl she looked so pale, so weak her beautiful blond hair was down her back. She wore a beautiful long white dress that touched the earth. I wanted to kill Felix…kill them all more than I wanted to kill anyone to save her. After Felix dragged her out he bent over to force Sarah to her feet and with effort she stood on her feet. The next to get out was Sulpicia and Aro both dressed in black, Sulpicia in a long black dress her hair was done up into a bun and Aro dressed in a black suit. “Prepare the stake” he spoke joylessly. Felix had dropped Sarah and she fell to the floor, and went to help Afron prepare the stake and stage they had set up, I wondered for just a brief moment how I could miss the stage had set up. Aro’s voice had brought me back focusing on him as he walked to Sarah, she was still on the floor so weak and feeble. “Sarah….Wife and mate of Marcus you have been charged of the following crimes, treachery…betraying your oath as queen, wife and mate of Marcus and aiding the escape of known criminals Brian Jacobson, Kate and Garrett Denali.,,” he had continued to speak when Sarah interrupted him “and….and just what were their crimes” she spoke feebly, at that remark Aro had ignored her and continued “you are charged with the murder of Volturi guard members Santiago and Demetri” I had gasped in shock she did it….she managed to kill Demetri…this meant, that the Volturi had no way of tracking us…Sarah had crippled the almighty Volturi by taking out their tracker. I had watched Sarah in awe, how could it be that she was strong enough to cripple to Volturi and now she is here…feeble and about to be executed by scum like the Volturi. “How do you plead” he asked in his fake sweet voice, “After living three thousand years…. Aro you are nuttier than a squirrel” she spoke it had taken a great deal of effort for her, I suppose you could say Sarah looked like she was exhausted like she desperately wanted to sleep. “I shall take that as a confession of guilt then….Felix come take her to the stake and bind her.” Aro spoke unaffected by Sarah’s statement even though there were hushed whispers among the witnesses. Aro had looked so cheerful it was really sickening. Felix had walked towards Sarah, he had lowered his hand and was about to pick her up, when she pushed his hand away. “No I can do this myself.” She spoke weakly and with amazing strength Sarah had picked herself up from the floor and she walked towards the edge of the cliff she stared off into the distance and the twilight, how the sky was mixed with blue and orange as the sun was not long from setting. I had followed her hovering after her and I floated behind her. I knew she wouldn’t be able to feel this but I wrapped my hands around her from behind and lowered my head to rest on her shoulder, I heard her gasp a little….she must have been struggling to stand on her feet. I was behind Sarah and I couldn’t see her smile, “I will wait for you Brian…at our beach you will find me there…you will hear my whispers professing my love to you and our son when the wind blows…you will feel my burning passion for our undying love to empower you…you will feel the tears I weep when it rains when you suffer trials and tribulations. You will feel whatever strength I have left when you walk on the earth and you will know my spirit will be with you for now and for always.” I didn’t know if she could feel my presence or not, I just wanted to cry, it felt like my heart was breaking and shattering into thousands and thousands of shards. “I will never let go Sarah I will love you for as long as I live.” I whispered into her ears “I am so very tired….soon I will get to sleep….forever….Brian my love…I hope with all my heart you will someday find your true mate.” she spoke, I knew she couldn’t hear me but I whispered back “I already have…I found her in you my beautiful baby girl.” I couldn’t keep my voice from breaking. “Thank you Brian I don’t know how you did this, but thank you for being with me in my last moments.” My eyes widened in shock as I realized Sarah could hear me she just had to. “Enough of this bind her already.” Felix arm had passed right through me as he pulled Sarah away from my incorporeal embrace and escorted her to the stage he tied her to the stake, normally a vampire would easily be able to break through the rope, but something had happened to Sarah to weaken her so badly she was weaker than a human. I followed after Sarah to the stage and saw straw all around and some form of fire accelerations. I was inches in front of Sarah and I looked into her black eyes. As Felix had tied her arms behind her back and steak and bound her legs to the stake “will you stay with me Brian….until the end” she asked sounding afraid. I nodded my head unable to speak and realized she couldn’t see me “yes” I managed to speak in a broken voice. Sarah’s frightened face turned into a brilliant smile “thank you” she whispered to me, Aro had lit the stick and flame attached to the stick. Felix was holding it, Sarah lowered her head, I don’t think she had any strength left, I listened in despair I heard words came from Aro’s mouth “Any last words Sarah” sounding so sure of himself. Sarah’s face remained down as she struggled “Yes….I Sarah Jacobson Pledge my love and soul from now until the end of eternity to Brian Jacobson and Brian Jacobson alone.” I felt touched, I think this was the first time she had ever taken my last name and just hearing her last words it was heart breaking I could feel my spirit die slowly, I felt so weak. As I looked away I noticed the witnesses and Marcus they seemed shocked, and Felix’s face seemed blank as he struggled with some unknown burden. “Let us begin the entertainment set her on fire.” Aro gave Felix the order, there seemed to be something as he couldn’t bring himself to do it “oh Aro…I have one more thing to say” Sarah spoke softly, Aro looked stunned “go on” he spoke curiously, Sarah looked up and she had that smile the smile of a mischievous goddess and determination in her eyes I knew now Sarah was giving every thing she had into her last moments “Go fuck yourself” she spoke defiantly. I had formed a weak smile, that’s my baby girl a fighter to the very end. Aro had lost his cool then, he snatches the flaming torch from Felix and tossed it into the fire and the straw immediately began to set fire. To the stage and the area around her, the flames surrounded Sarah, I could see her smile and I did not dare to look away, even as the flames reached it’s way towards her she looked at my direction for as long as she could…I wondered if she could see me, eventually her smile had faded as she breathed in her last breathes of air, before the flames consumed the oxygen, she wouldn’t need it because she didn’t have to breathe. Heard her scream and witnessed the flames starting to set fire her dress I could hear her screams echo the area and every fiber of me wanted to stay away “BRIAN” she screamed out in pain panting as she looked up, I could smell her flesh burn as she screamed and suffered slowly in agony she screamed, the entire time the Volturi and the witnesses stood there watching in silence. A wind blew Sarah’s beautiful blond hair back as it also increased the flames burning she let out an agonizing scream as her skin turned black from the flames consuming, my mind…my spirit and my heart was shattering with each scream and I had realized what she was doing, she was calling to me to see if I was still here. I heard her she screamed out louder than the last before screaming “BRIAN” she was suffering and dying and even as she was dying she was still a beautiful goddess to me ““It’s ok baby girl I am here….stay strong, soon we will be home together, just you me and our son.” I spoke as I felt like I was dying inside. I watched her smile one last time as she seemed to concentrate on that thought and allowed it to give her peace, she probably knew it wasn’t going to happen, but that hope had given her the strength she needed “no you have given he the strength she needed” I heard a voice speak, but I ignored it as I watched her raise her head to the heavens and she uttered the last words “I love you….Brian” the flames consumed her entirely leaving her body to turn into black ash that scattered in the wind. I fell to my knees clutching my side and screamed for Sarah as loud as I could, I thought my heart had shattered into thousands and thousands of shards before…but I was wrong, that was nothing compared to the fact of seeing my soul mate die and not being able to do a single thing. Those thoughts had entered my head and just as fast they entered my head another voice had entered my head “you are wrong…you have made a big difference.” I was still on all fours and I looked up in shock and horror to see who it was. Now that Sarah is dead, what will Brian do ? Who is it Brian is seeing ? Will this story ever have a happy ending ? Find out next time on Brian's journal Song that was playing while I wrote this entry The place of Sarah's death
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Marie Fleming
1/19/2012 05:06:07 am
OMFG WHAT HAPPENED TO HER AND BRIAN GETTING MARRIED AND LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER? Dammit............I want more now !!!!!
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InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |