Topic: My talent is a curse, I witnessed something monstrous and I was powerless to prevent it…How much more can she endure, before her soul shatters?
Date: June 18th, 2019 Dear Journal After getting off the plane, Kate, Garrett and myself walked out to the waiting area, I excused myself from the two and told them to wait for me in the waiting area while I went to customs, I had to get the knife Sarah gave me…even I with all my wealth couldn't smuggle it onto the plane this weapon…it’s useless to vampires, but Sarah told me other wise…this harmless knife actually contain poison on it, poison that could do untold damage onto vampires apparently. It seemed Aro had his own projects that went on during the years. After getting Sarah’s knife back I returned and found Kate and Garrett waiting with Eleazar and Carlisle standing moving casually, but quickly I approached the four “we have to go now” I told Eleazar, he nodded his head and Carlisle pulled out his phone and called someone “None of the Volturi were on the plane, but the colder our scent is the better” I spoke keeping my voice quiet as possible, he nodded “Carlisle is calling Alice now… we had to take extreme caution, everyone else left right after the call in Volterra while Carlisle and I remained behind…we have everyone moving from place to place to make it harder for Demetri to find everyone, while Carlisle and I stayed out of the loop "just in case Aro followed you,” he spoke calmly. I had nothing to say this was my entire fault, the lives of the Cullen's, the Denali's were all in danger because of my actions. All I wanted was Sarah…and I failed at rescuing her….again. Carlisle hung up the phone and he told us to follow him, which we did we went to a black SUV with tinted windows. Carlisle was driving “Edward, Bella and Jacob are going to Forks and La Push…Bella is getting Charlie while Jacob is assembling his pack.” Carlisle informed me of his kids and his pet’s plans, but to be honest they were not my concern “If Edward and Bella are heading to forks…what about my son, Where is Tobias.” My voice must have sounded distressed to the others because Eleazar was telling me to calm down. I leaned forward and saw Carlisle was speeding, “Tobias is fine, and he is with Emmett, Alice, Rosalie and Renesmee. They are heading towards Ocean Shore, Washington from there we wait there until everyone returns…none of our previous homes are safe anymore…Aro knows everything about us, so we had to have taken refuge in some place safe…Esme, Jasper,Tanya,Carmen are spreading the news to our friends…anyone that has been an ally to us in the past is now also the enemy of the Volturi and chances are if the Volturi can’t find us they will be heading towards each of them. It would take us two days and three hours give or take a few minutes to get to Ocean Shore, Washington that’s only if we stop for petrol, lucky enough we vampires do not need sleep so we can drive all night. The trip is roughly 4000 Km, and I have forty eight hours to figure out what to tell my son…forty eight hours…I don’t think that’s enough time…it actually felt better telling myself I had two thousand eight hundred and eighty minutes. How could I tell him that I lied to him for his entire life, that his mother wasn't dead, she was alive that she sacrificed herself not once, but twice…What Sarah did was a noble thing sure…but still her nobility it has caused me guilt because I couldn’t protect her, what would it do to Tobias, would he blame himself because Sarah did this for him too….would he listen to me when I told him it wasn’t his fault….he is just a child, he may look like a teenager and he is a genius, still I know this is something he can’t handle…I have to protect Tobias too….there is no right time to say “hey guess what I lied to you because I thought your mom was a cold hearted ho, she’s not dead she is actually alive and she is being held prisoner by three twisted old coots” yes journal as you can see I am in a sticky situation, the best thing to do is not tell him anything, I'll save Sarah first let them meet and hope for the best. I opened the window and watched the scenery and felt the wind, wind ever so fulfilling and comforting. I watched as wind blew the trees back and forth making the snow on the branches fall slowly. The scenery was beautiful, the ground pure white from snow and the wind blowing against the trees to make the snow fall. The more I watched the scenery the more my eyes opened, not physically, but metaphorically I could see the beauty of the scenery, but I felt something in my heart…I felt this ache and pain, I am not exactly sure how to describe it or why I feel this way…I breathed in the fresh air it was soothing and it made this mysterious aching in my heart fade slowly, closing my eyes I laid my head back. Carlisle and the others were speaking at first I was listening intently fixated on their words, but slowly my mind began to wander off. I breathed in the air slowly and exhaled it the wind was so darn good and refreshing; it reminded me of one of the many reasons I loved nature over civilization. The more I breathed in the more relaxed I felt and every conscious thought started to drift away as if it was taken by the wind. Soon the words stopped completely, which brought me out of my relaxed state. I had open my eyes and found myself floating high in the air I gasped in shock and of course the only thing on my mind at that moment was how the hell did I get in this situation. Could it have been a day dream of a fantasy of some sorts. As I watched the scenery from the sky I could see everything was the same, with the exception of the car I was previously sitting inside of was driving off into the distance while I floated in the sky. It was strange, but I felt so free here and at peace I felt like I was free from every single stress in my life, that nothing in the world mattered. I laughed as I floated in the air. For a moment I wished Sarah could feel it, it was just at the thought of Sarah that everything changed….the wind, the sky the beautiful scenery was gone and replace with something dark, the air was stale and the room was naked with nothing inside, it wasn’t exactly a room it was more along the line of a dungeon and on careful inspection I noticed two figures standing over someone else, one of the figures was the size of a child. When I stepped closer and leaned over the two figures shoulders I could see her….Sarah. She looked so weak and helpless it was heartbreaking to see her this way, the adult figure turned around to show it was Aro, I expected Aro to do something to react surprised that I was here, but he didn’t react at all. He actually walked right through me as if I was a ghost. I watched as Aro walked out the door and listened to a child like voice speak “master has rewarded me for my good service and allowed me to play with you” Jane’s voice had sounded so smug as if she really thought she was better than anyone else…she was a sadistic imbecile. I smiled when I heard Sarah speak “I’m sorry Jane…..Im not into children” she had struggled to speak, I wondered why she was this weak, I didn’t have much time to think anymore. When I heard a loud scream fill the room, the scream was high pitched and unbearable to hear, I had placed my hands to my ears to try and block it out, but still I couldn’t block out all of Sarah’s screams. “STOP IT JANE STOP IT NOW” I yelled out over Sarah’s scream, but Jane did not hear me, I tried to push Jane to the ground, but my hands went right through her. It was like I wasn’t even there like I was a phantom. I tried to stand in front of Sarah to protect her, but still she cried out in pain screaming in agony, the entire time. When shielding Sarah didn’t work I bent down to her level and tried to encourage her “come on Sarah fight this…you did it before, you can do it again fight through Jane’s gift…come on baby girl believe in yourself” nothing worked, it was like I was there beside her witnessing everything and yet I could do nothing to help Sarah all I could do was be there with her in this phantom form and witness how Jane had tortured Sarah. It seemed to go on and on forever, it was impossible to tell the length of time. There was no natural light in the room and no clocks for all I knew it could have been days. Something shocking did happen, Sarah stopped screaming, at first I thought it was because she had enough that she mustered up the strength she needed to take out Jane, but Sarah didn’t do anything at all. My heart pounded out of fear as I realized the possibility that maybe she was dead. I tried to touch Sarah, but of course I couldn’t this damn spectral form…all I could do was witness the brutality my baby girl had to endure, when I looked into Sarah’s black eyes…I saw nothing, but a void she was probably thirsty, but if she was then why wasn’t she showing it…all I saw was nothing…she was a shell. I heard Jane’s cackle of sadistic laughter and looked at the bitch as she walked out of the room and closed the door behind her leaving Sarah and I in a black void of darkness. I remained next to her trying to touch her shoulder I just wanted to comfort her, to ease her pain. She was gone…at least that’s how it felt…if Carlisle was here he would have told me that it appeared that Sarah was in a state of catatonia caused by the mental anguish she has gone through…to me it looked like Sarah’s soul was dead…maybe it’s the same thing just different words and thoughts, but I decided I couldn’t just sit here and do nothing…maybe if I tried hard enough deep down Sarah would come out of this “Hey baby girl you don’t look so well…it looks like you’re having a bad day.” My voice spoke to her softly, I chuckled for a moment “Sorry baby girl…for a moment…I heard your voice in my head…it was saying ‘no shit sherlock’ yeah you would probably say that if you were up to speaking…and you’d probably be wondering how I got here….actually I am wondering that too…I like to think of it as my spirit flying on the wings of love…reaching out and transcending the limitations of the physical plain just to reach you…” I whispered to her softly as my eyes fixated on Sarah intently I moved my hand slowly to her hair and tried to stroke it, but I couldn’t. Instead I pretended that when my hand went through her hair it was stroking it and I continued to talk “I sure have changed…there was once a time when I thought love was nothing, but a trick of nature to get humans to reproduce….and that I was not meant for love…my life it was empty and hollow…I had this pain in my heart and everyday it would grow stronger and stronger. Then I met you Sarah… you were hurting like I was…you gave me something to believe in and I fell in love with you my beautiful baby girl…you healed all of the gaping hole in my heart Sarah and gave me salvation…we have so much to talk about. ten years worth of discussions to talk about...so many evenings where we watch the stars together and see the tides of the oceans wash away the sand on the shores of the beach back home…just us for eternity and our son…can you imagine it Sarah…a perfect world with just us and perfect happiness…a world without fear, pain, doubt, a world where my heart wouldn’t be broken without you…and a world where you have a place to belong…a place where you could just be yourself my beautiful babygirl.” I spoke softly I felt a pain in my chest as I spoke, god I missed her so much, it seemed so cruel she was in front of me and yet she was so far away in her state of catatonia and I was like Casper the friendly ghost…only no one could see me. I was brought out of my thoughts of despair when the door opened and I could see a dim light in the distance, I saw a member of the Volturi walk into the room his name was Felix. He approached my woman as he called out to her, My gaze shifted from him and onto Sarah as she whispered my name, her voice was so weak, I smiled when she called out my name and I was still next to her “ I am right here baby girl…” I answered her, but instead of hearing her speak it was Felix “no Sarah your delirious… it’s Felix” I could see this gaze of confusion fall on Sarah’s face…Felix was right Sarah was delirious and she looked like she was stark crazy. Each passing moment here with her I felt my heart break, It was so painful, but I couldn’t bare to leave her here alone I loved my baby girl to much to leave her. “Sarah pleaded with Felix not to mess with her and I looked away ashamed. It was when Felix spoke “I’m sorry… Sarah, hey I have something for you” I looked towards Felix curious to see what it was, but then I felt something hard hit me in the chest before I could see it and I gasped. Everything melted away…and I opened my eyes gasping for air. I felt so many complex sensations run through me and I looked around to find the car was parked next to a hotel…”what happened why have we stopped” I asked confused, Carlisle watched me wit concern “Brian….we are here…it’s been a full two days since you last said anything…” it was impossible, I couldn’t even begin to imagine how to make sense of this…I have been in a catatonic state for two days…was everything I witnessed in that time a dream…no it felt to real to be a dream. I climbed out of the car and in a flash I felt something smack into me, before I could make sense of what hit me…I instinctively wrapped my hands around it “Hey boy” I spoke with a smile looking at my son I hugged him tight “hey dad I missed you” Tobias spoke back, putting everything I witnessed out of my mind I told my son I missed him too. I Spent some time with my son at the beach, it was nice but it wasn’t as nice as the beach back home and Tobias was the first one to comment on that too. I spent the entire afternoon with my son. Tobias was a surprising source of comfort to me. I know I should be the parent I should be the one comforting him, and being honest with him but at this moment he wasn’t asking me any questions like why we were here. So why should I stress the boy out. Eventually Rosalie came and distracted Tobias she has taken a liking to Tobias, but then again he is my son so what’s not to like. I decided to spend some of my free time confiding in you like I always do and now that I have informed you of what happened I am left with these questions. What happened to me to be able to leave my body Did what I see really happened? How can I help Sarah? How do I even begin to explain all this to the others? I can’t answer any of these questions right now…so I think I will read over Sarah’s diary again, when I read her diary it’s like I can hear her voice, feel her touch and for a short time…I can remember what it’s like to be with her and to feel the joy that I felt when we were together…after that I should go to Carlisle and eleazar and explain everything that happened maybe they can shine some light on it. ~Brian Jacobson
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InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |