Topic: no words can describe the pride I feel, my son is incredible and anyone who says other wise will be corpse
Date: June 4th,2019 Yo Diary, It has been ten years since my last entry, today is a special day it's my son's birthday, he is growing up so fast, and he is no longer the little terror he once was. He is now a intelligent little man, granted he looks like a teenager, none the less he will always be my little man. I have been very busy lately, I have been doing the paperwork and working on a settlement for my company, I have decided to sell my mining business, I have had those mines now for a long time now, but it's time to move on and break the last link I had to my human life. I of course will have money to last until the end of time probably, I have a few billion in banks across the world, So I never have to worry about Tobias's college fund, I have planned for my son to go to Harvard or Dartmouth. He will get the best education I can buy, but he will also earn his place there, which is why I have private tutors for my son now to nurture his mind. Today for Tobias' Birthday, I bought him an X-box 360 and a stack of games for it, along with a new TV and I bought him a notebook compter. I don't want Tobias to have unsupervised access to the internet so it doesn't have the internet, I told him to use it as a diary, to write down his feelings and thoughts he can't share with me just so he has some place to express himself. My son seemed pretty pleased, we were playing with his gifts for ages. I had to drag him away from his room to have the lunch I prepared for him, I watched Tobias wolf down his food and I told him to slow down the last thing I want for him is to choke. While Tobias ate his food I went to his room, it looked like a bomb went off in there, clothing all over the place and dvds and books all over the floor. I sighed and began to clean his room. My son needed to learn to live organized. The only book that wasn't on the floor was Tobias's copy of Alice in Wonderland, it was something SHE! had given him, I never told Tobias this, he assumes its just a childhood book. Tobias finished his lunch and I told him to help me clean up, while cleaning I asked my son why he liked that book so much, I was surprised at the indepth answer he gave me "How can I not like it, when I read it it's like I leave this world and enter that world, it's an adventure and it's all about the loss of innocence, the need for escape and the search for ones identity, to discover not just who you are, but who you become." it was an indepth answer for a ten year old, the tutors must be doing their job, I remember thinking to myself at that time. I told my son it was time that he became a man and learn to hunt for his meal. I took my son hunting and did something I never did in front of him before, I killed in front of him, I killed mercilessly and the women suffered, oh yes she did. I drained the life out of her. I could feel her heart and hear it stopped. I finished her off and drained all her blood long after her heart stopped beating. After she was dead I ripped off her flesh and felt nothing for her, she was human, she was under me, nothing but dinner, see being a vampire we can turn off morality and I liked keeping it off, it made life simpler, I felt nothing for the human, she was nothing at all after ripping off the females flesh, I pulled out a glad wrap plastic bag, I would burn the flesh later, but for nowIi had to clean my mess. I placed the human in the dumpster and looked at my son. I saw the fear in his eyes, and I knew my son was at an impass in his life right now, it was up to him what path he would choose now, he could choose to live off human blood or if his concious is strong enough he could go to animal blood, either way I would be proud of him, I would love him for what he was and not judge him and most of all I would support him because he is my son and that is my purpose in life. To love him, to guide him and accept him for what he is no matter what lifestyle he lives. I could never judge my son because he means so very much to me, he is everything to me and I will always be proud of him. I told my son it was his turn and I waited for his answer. Tobias just looked at me and with courage he told me "I am sorry dad, but I can't....I don’t want to hurt anyone." I asked him if he was sure about this and he nodded his head, my son he had such a pure heart, I wonder who he got it from...he did not get it from his mother nor did he get it from me. I smiled and guided him to the car, it was time to take my son home. I thought about my son's choice and I had to know what his reason was for his choice. "I am sorry father, but seeing the pain and the terror on the human's face it was horrible." my son became quiet for a moment and he spoke "I don’t want to drink blood anymore, I think from now on if I do I would only see that person's face." I nodded my head and at that moment I made a choice "well if your going to commit yourself to not drinking human's blood then there is another way son." I told him, I kept my eyes on the road and saw he had his seat belt undone. and I told my son to put his seatbelt on. I told my son about the Cullens and Denali's, that they fed only off animal blood, I told him he could the same if he wanted and become a vegetarian. He thought it was worth a shot and I wanted to do anything I could to surport him so I told him I would join him and commit myself to drinking animal blood too, even though it taste like shit compared to human blood. I would make that sacrifice for him, I would not hesitate because I accept his lifestyle, he is my son what he likes doesn't matter as long as he was happy....I have to support him....no, I don't have to, I want to support him....It's funny, I am trying hard to explain how much I would support my son, but there is no need its just an instinct. I believe anyone who doesn't want to support their child, help their child or show their child love shouldn't be a parent. They should be locked away some place and kept as far from their child as possible so it dosn't fuck them up and make them think they're damaged goods. My son thanked me and I told him it was no problem, I felt that way because it was the truth where my son went I would follow and protect him. We arrived home and I sat him down and told him that I sold my company and I also told him we were moving. So I explained to my son that it was needed, that we needed a fresh start. I could see he wanted to stay, he had sentimental feelings for this place, even though he never met his mother, he knew she was once here that she once walked down these hallways and sat in this very lounge room and that being here in this place somehow made him feel closer to her. I should have moved us out of this place ages ago, as soon as she left me, I should have just packed up and took my son away from this cursed place, but being here...I felt close to her too......even after all she said and did, I loved her and a big part of me still does love her. If she came to me today at this very moment and begged for forgiveness and to take her back, I would take her back without hesitation, but I know Sarah well, she won't be back. I told my son to let go, that being here would not bring his mother back, it was hard being cruel like that, but I had no choice it was for his best interest. I hugged my son trying to make him feel warm and safe and told him he would have lots of new friends and I would introduce him to someone like him a little hybrid girl named renesmee. I watched my son and he accepted it, it was hard I could see that this was the only home he ever knew, he left for his room and I told him not to stay up too late, I wondered what went on in his mind. so much had happened to him, how did it really impact him?, I sat on the couch on the lounge room and closed my eyes, I could never sleep again, one of the perks and curses of being a vampire, so I listened to everything around me. I could hear Tobias feverishly typing on his notepad, I guess he liked the present and I was glad I at least managed to get this right. I continued to listen to him type and wished I knew what he was typing, was it a story....a diary entry, I could check if I wanted to when he slept, but I could not do that to my son. I waited and heard the computer turn of. I went to his room and knocked on it, I asked him if he was still awake knowing full well that he was, he told me he was and I watched him with that damn Alice in Wonderland book in his hand, I told him I would be in the lounge room if needed me. So I went to the loungeroom and looked at the hallway, the light finally went out and I waited for an hour, when I went to check on him I sat at his desk chair and watched him sleep, he was growing so fast...too fast for my comfort, my biggest fear is losing him...I can't lose him, he is all I have. I watched him uptil an hour ago, I finally left to tell you about our time together, I have to go its six am and I need to go get his meal ready, which means I need to go hunting. Brian
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Topic: Time to go home
Date: June 21st, 2009 Yo Diary I was surprised to see who Eleazar and Carman brought with them it was Carlisle & Esme Cullen, I asked Eleazar why they were here and they told me they were visiting too and I found this incredibly awkward, I mean I was a witness to their destruction and now they're standing right in front of me and sharing the same roof as me. I introduced myself to Esme and Carlisle and apologised for baring witness to the wrong people. Carlisle told me he held no grudge and understood what I did and for what reason. I looked at the vegeterian vampires, they were all so understanding, it was strange, I heard a smashing sound in the next room "Tobias" I said in shock and ran to the living room. I moved to see my son standing over a broken coffee table, I sighed "BAD TOBIAS BAD." I scolded and he shrugged, my eyes twitched as I continued to watch the little punk. Esme joined us and saw the mess "Oh my, is this your son?" she asked and I nodded "yeah this is the little punk and all his destructive glory." Esme chuckled and asked if she could hold Tobias "if you can catch him, go for it." I told her. Tobias did not like the sound of that and jumped from the ground to the couch and from the couch to behind the couch. He began to run and Esme ran after him, I folded my arms and watched as Kate came to see the commotion "not the coffee table, Brian your kid needs a leash." I was about to argue about that, but she made a valid point. Kate joined me in watching Tobias run from Esme, Esme seemed to be having fun chasing after Tobias. Carlisle, Carmen & Eleazar joined us in watching Tobias, he sure had a knack for evading adults. Tobias was snickering while he ran, my son was looking back at Esme snickering what he didn't see was him running into a wall and falling flat on his ass. I laughed hysterically seeing his disgrunted expression, Esme went to Tobias and lifted him up, at the same time Kate was cleaning up the mess from the coffee table . "Our house won't last another day of this child at this rate." Kate grumbled. Tobias struggled desperately to get free, Esme wanted to let him down. "No, no don't do it" I said calmly and Tobias scowled at me, I looked at him and half smiled. "Really Esme, I insist you feel free to hold him as much as you want." Esme thanked me and held Tobias close. I excused myself from them all telling them that I needed to prepare my son's meal. I left and a few moments later Carlisle joined me in the kitchen alone, I did not say anything to be honest it felt weird being around a guy I was witnessing against. I continued to make the meal and heard him speak "is you're son always so energetic?" I looked at him "yes he is." I answered, "and has he always been so destructive." He asked again, I looked at Carlisle "it's just a phase?" I answered him. Carlisle continued to watch me, "I think you're son may have hyperactive attention defisite disorder." I told him no that's not it, Tobias did as he was told...mostly, I explained to him he has been a little off since his mother left us and I did not have any idea what was wrong with him, to be honest it was a little frightening. Carlisle suggested that Tobias was acting out wanting attention from a specific person, I looked at Carlisle "you mean he has been destroying everything in sight, because he wants attention from his mother." Carlisle nodded and it made a lot of sense to me at that moment. My son was acting out, wanting his mother...how could I not see the signs. Running away from me, the scowling at the women's affections, it was the wrong woman...he wanted his Mother. I made a fist and slamed it on the counter, careful not to break it there had been enough damage in the Denali's home. I was royally fucked, how could I make Tobias understand that his Mother didn't want him....or me. I thanked Carlisle for his insight and asked him how he knew and he told me "having children teaches you a lot my friend and you will see that for yourself, you learn and grow as they do the same it is indeed an enriching experience." He said and I remembered that he considered the rest of his coven his children. I finished preparing Tobias' meal and placed it on the kitchen table. I had no idea why they had a kitchen, it's not like they bring their dinner home from their hunts, but still today it would have some use. I went to the room to see Esme still holding a disgruntled Tobias. The way my son looked at me, let me tell you if looks could kill I would be dead seven times over already. I went towards Esme and asked her if I could have my son back, she nodded "of course." she handed me Tobias and I held him close in the right way, with my hand ,I rubbed his back and walked to the kitchen, Carlisle sat out and joined the Denali's and I sat alone in the kitchen with my son on my lap. I started to feed him slowly and spoke to him, "Tobias..I know your suffering, you hurt inside, and you feel alone without her don't you." I asked him he nodded at me and I could see the surprised expression on his face. I smiled "I know how you feel son, because I feel that way too. I loved your moma more than you will ever know, she had my heart and my soul, but moma is gone now son and she won't be coming back son." I looked at Tobias' expression his eyes showed so much sadness, it was unbareable, I tightened my grip, holding him close to me, "So it's just you and me little man just us against the world, I have you and you have me. I promise I will never leave you son, you know I love you don't you." I told him. Tobias stopped eating and moved his arms to wrap it around me, his tiny arms could make it all the way around me, but I felt his tiny fist clench onto my shirt "I love you too Papa" he said softly. I was surprised to hear Tobias speak, the last time he spoke was when she left, I was also pleased because he said Papa. I mean it's not his first word, but still he said Papa. I felt such pride in my son. "I know you do." I said feeling joy. I finished feeding my son and looked at him, he really is a perfect child, there is no one like him. I rubbed my son's back and smiled "ok now that we have all that sorted out, promise not to trash the Denali's stuff." T obias smiled and nodded his head "that's my boy." I spoke again with pride and carried him out to the room with the Denali's & their guests. Tobias looked at them and waved and I thought I heard Esme gush. "What a cute boy we should introduce him to Nessie." Esme said, "yes ,it could be good for them to be friends seeing as how their both hybrids." Carlisle added. I thought about it and it did make sense, but right now I want to look after him and I think that means keeping him away from other vampires for a while. I decied that Tobias and I had stayed our welcome. I let Tobias play with Kate & Tanya while I had began to pack our things, Eleazar told me we were welcome to stay longer. I thanked him for his offer and told him that I thought some bonding time with Tobias is probably best for the boy. He needs to learn to rely on me and not a ghost. Once everything was packed I put the kiddy leather jacket Kate had bought Tobias on him and set him in the seat next to me. I thanked the Denali's for the hospitality and told Carlisle & Esme it was a pleasure to meet them. Tobias seemed a little sad to leave, but I petted his head, my little man was an interesting fellow. We drove all night, I made sure Tobias was wrapped in his blanket and the car heater was on for him. I was forced to stop driving when the sun came out and made a pit stop at a hotel where now we are waiting inside the hotel room. Tobias is sleeping in the bed wrapped around the blankets and I am writing to you, I have to go I need to find the food I prepared for Tobias for today. Brian Jacobson. Topic: at least Tobias seems ok
Date: June 20th, 2009 Yo Diary My son returned from shopping with the women, he was dressed in a sailor's outfit and I could not help but laugh at him. For the first time since she left, I was laughing, in hysterics,just to see my son's disgruntled expression. Kate had her arms folded "poor bugger was demasculated by my sisters, before he even had a chance to become a man." I Looked at Kate and asked if she was against the sailor outfit and she nodded "Of course, but do not worry I bought him a little leather jacket." I thanked Kate and she nodded her head then went off and picked up Tobias, I watched as Tanya & Carmen carried endless shopping bags inside. Tobias seemed to be relaxed in Kate's arms, she lowered him down and I bent down and opened my arms "Tobias can Papa get a hug?" Tobias looked at me and walked up to me and opened his arms, as soon as he got close enough he stomped on my foot hard and ran. I frowned and looked at my son, I guess he was pissed that I cancelled rule four. I watched Tobias run off pulling the sailors outfit off him as he ran away "come back here you little nudist" I yelled at him and ran after him. I caught Tobias and took off my jacket to cover him up, I looked at my son, he was still being a little trouble maker. I put some clothing on my son and opened up one of my backpacks and pulled out some blankets & a pillow from the boot of my car, while I was at it, I took Alice in Wonderland book from under the car seat too. I did not want to let my son out of my sight, so I held him. I wondered why he has been acting so strange. I put him to bed on the Denali's couch to have a nap, but the little tyke refused to have his nap. I sighed and told him I would read him Alice in Wonderland if he promised to go for a nap. The little one nodded his head and laid still as I read to him. My son eventually drifted off to sleep and I tucked him in. I watched him sleep peacefully for a while, I noticed Tanya wave to me and I stood and went to he,r she seemed happy and whispered "the little one is sleeping." I nodded answering her and she pulled me into the office and silently closed the door behind me, she sat me down on the office couch and pulled out a plastic bag. "I did not want Tobias to be bored so I bought him a few dvds." I examined the dvds, there was Stuart Little, Kung Fu Panda, Nanny Mcphee , Homeward Bound, and some other movies. I thanked Tanya for the kind gesture and she said it was no problem. I asked Tanya where Eleazar & Carmen were and Tanya told me they went to visit some people and would be back soon. I asked about Garrett and Kate and she told me that they went out, I looked at Tanya and watched as she sat next to me. She snuggled close to me and I looked at her and raised an eyebrow. Tanya and I talked about the 'evil heartless manipulitive bitch'. I still can't bring myself to say her name, I told Tanya everything about her, how we met and how much I fell in love with her, how the Voltori came and how she left. Tanya listened to me the entire time, She was so supportive and caring I felt a lot better after talking to her. But I was surprised when Tanya started climbing onto my lap. I watched her and she leaned in to kiss me, she placed her hands on my shirt and pulled it off my torso, she rubbed my chest with her beautiful small warm hands, it felt so good, she indeed had the magic touch. Tanya leaned in and kissed my neck and moved onto my lips, I was hesitant at first, I don't know why I should be, she never loved me so why should I be loyal to her. The thoughts echooed in my head and I leaned in kissing tanya wildly. I ripped off her top and she pulled back and looked at me her golden eyes had looked hopeful and then I pulled her close to me and kissed her wildly. I struggled to remove Tanya's bra, and fumbled around, her forehead rested on mine as she laughed. Tanya unzipped the zipper of my pants and looked at me, I looked at Tanya and found myself not wanting to continue, I could have had Tanya right then and there I could have nailed her and she would have blown my world away. I did something I will probably regret latter on, I told Tanya to stop that I could not continue. It did not feel right, I felt I was betraying her....how stupid is that, I mean the cold hearted bitch manipulated me and used me, but I cannot bring myself to do this. I think it's stupid I mean she breaks my heart and instead of moving on with my immortal life with my son, I can't because I feel as if I am betraying her. Tanya told me she understood and said nothing else. She put on her top and I zipped up my pants and shirt and heard a shuffling from the other room I stood up and excused myself from Tanya and went to check on Tobias, I watched my son and smiled as he looked around, Tanya came up to me and peeked in too. "Could you watch him for me Tanya, I need to go to town buy some food for him...I also need to go and hunt." Tanya nodded and I went out leaving my son behind, I went to the store first and bought a plastic bottle along with some fruit and veggies. My thirst was fine seeing as I just fed recently, I left everything, but the plastic bottle, I took that with me to use it to drain blood into the bottle. I found a deer and snapped the creatures neck, pulling out the plastic bottle I bent down and bit off the flesh of the deer and placed the bottle into the hole of the deer, I placed my foot on the deers gut and applied preassure forcing the blood to pour out into the bottle. I finished with the deer and drank the rest of the spare blood so it did not waste. I returned back to my car and drove back to the Denali's place. I returned to find my son watching the adventures of Milo and Otis. Tobias seemed to love the movie, I could see him smile watching as the cat was sucking on the teet of a pig. Seeing my son smile and watching the movie it was priceless to me, I could not put a price on my son's joy. I went to the kitchen and used the Denali's kitchen for what must be the first time ever, Tanya joined me in the kitchen and told me how well behaved my son was during my absence. I went to check on Tobias and asked if anyone came and swapped my son with a doppleganger that was well behaved. Tanya laughed and told me she thought my son was perfect the way he is. I thanked Tanya and she told me it was no problem, I finished preparing Tobias' meal and gave it to him while he watched Nanny Mcphee, I told him not to get any ideas and he just ignored me and watched the movie. Tobias actually behaved really well for the rest of the day and did not struggle when he went to bed. I read him more of Alice in Wonderland and wondered what other books were suitable for my son. By morning Kate & and Garrett returned, Kate seemed a little ruffled up, "good night?" I asked and she nodded. "Oh it was quite enjoyable" she answered smoothly and Garrett nodded. I knew that look on his face, I used to have it every time when I was with that lying bitch. I was glad to see Carmen and Eleazar return, but shocked to see who they returned with, I need to go now I am going to speak with Eleazar and Carmen and the two that they brought back with them. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: He may be a little terror, but he is my little terror
Date: June 19th, 2009 Yo Diary We arrived at the Denali's this morning, before we arrived within hearing distance I looked at my son and saw he was awake and looking at the damn book. "Tobias" I said to him, my son looked at me "its important that you behave yourself while we are here, we are visiting some of my friends, do you think you can do that son." He looked at me and did not make any response. "Tobias, I need an answer son." I said again. He nodded his head and I moved in to kiss his forehead and he pulled away and I sighed. "One more thing son...don't use you're talents on them ok, it might surprise them." Tobias had this look on his face, it lasted for only a moment before it became blank, I banged my head on the steering wheel and sighed. I recalled reading something about children on the internet, they were meant to become a terror and general pain in the ass at the two year stage, he wasn't even on one year stage and he was aleady driving me round the twist. I guess to be fair on my son, he is growing faster than normal children and he is maturing a lot faster than them too. I looked forward, we were almost there and he looked ahead ignoring me. Within distance to the house I saw Eleazer and his mate Carmen step out of the house along with his sister in laws Kate & Tanya. They were all beautiful women, but none of them could compare to her. I looked at my son "Stay here son." I stepped out of the car and looked at the coven of vampires, I walked towards them seeing the vampires and stopped and raised a finger. "One moment" I said to them and ran back to the car and leaned over the window to grab the keys from the ignition. My son looked at me "yeah as if I am going to leave you alone in the car with the keys little man." Tobias rolled his eyes up and he reminded me of his mother. Tobias reminds me so much of her, he is so defiant and mischievious. I put the keys in my pocket and approached the Denali's and greeted Eleazar, his mates and sisters-in-law. Eleazar kept looking over my shoulders and saw Tobias holding that damn book, Carmen leaned over to see my son. "Is that a...?" Carmen asked. Kate leaned over to inspect with Tanya right behind her "No I hear the heart beating" Eleazer spoke, "Who is he?" Carmen asked me. I looked back to my son and smiled, "my son," I answered. They all looked at me surprised. Tobias looked at us, I was amazed he could actually pull his eyes away from that stupid book. Tobias undid his seatbelt and moved to the driver's side of the car and I was thankful that I removed the car keys from the car. I doubt he would have done anything, but I could not help myself from thinking he would start the car and drive into a tree or something. Tanya & Kate moved to the window and Tanya instantly picked up Tobias, Carmen's curiosity got the better of her as she went to my son and said "Mi lo que un hombre pequeno y encantador." She petted my son's head while Tanya pulled at Tobias cheeks and I watched Tobias scowl at all the female attention. I made a mental note. I needed to teach him females fawning over him was a good thing. Tanya asked if they could take Tobias inside and I nodded, being out in the cold was probably not a good thing. The three women went inside. Kate said these exact words, "what an adorable child, I could eat you up, oh yes I could." I watched Tobias' eyes widen, alarmed, as the door closed behind Tanya. "You have a son. how very interesting and truth be told, unexpected, Brian...weren't you the one saying love is nature's trick on the mind." I frowned and expected as much to happen from Eleazar. "Alot has happened" I answered him, we stayed outside as I told him the entire story how it all went down. Eleazar listened to me the entire time without interuption and he said "so it seems the Voltori's life of moral curruption knows no limitations, and the woman you spoke of, Sarah has played you well." I did not like hearing her name, I said nothing as he made his observations "It's interesting, from what I have heard and seen today, the Mother and Son are both Enhancers." I stared at Eleazor. "My son is a what?" I asked, curious, of course I knew my son was gifted, I had experianced it first hand, but I did not know there was such a name for it. Eleazar spoke "sometimes when a human is turned, they carry a powerful trait with them into their next life. Now this human....Sarah, as a human she was able to inspire those with music, as a vampire, she brought with her the ability to inspire...if you think about it, inspiration motivates us, it gives us a surge of energy. Now with Sarah you take that gift and magnify it, that surge of energy, that inspiration, she gives us is magnified, that energy pulsates inside us inspiring and giving sensations of ablility to do anything. But the energy does not stop at that, for those who are gifted, I believe that the energy that we feel from inspiration magnify's the gift simply because it is magnifying the energy we feel...I guess in simple terms, her gift is a form of empathy that enhances an ability by motivation, but of course this is all speculation. I can not say for sure since we have not met." I listened to the complex and then simplified assumption of my friend, it did make sense to me since when your inspired you do feel motivated and produce energy to do what your inspired to do. To tell the truth it was all too complex to me I just told myself she inspires and supercharges gifts that's it. I asked about my son and Eleazar folded his arms and leaned against the car his words are still ringing in my mind. "Your son's ability is difficult to understand even for me, from what I gather he too is a enhancer. While the Mother enhances gifts, his gift is a flip of her gift, you told me your son has the ability to supercharge the senses of another vampire drastically. I can not say what the full potential of his gift is because you have not told me much about it. He may have the potential to enhance his own senses someday or not...all we can do is wait." As soon as Eleazor finished tha,t some glass shattering inside the house could be heard, I immediantly bolted inside and followed my nose to my son's scent. I looked around seeing the three women and shards of the chandeliar crystals on the ground there was also shattered crystal near the coffee table "Where is my son." I said alarmed and Kate pointed up I saw Tobias swinging from the Chandeliar. "TOBIAS!" I yelled out of anger and fear. I could still see that stupid book in his free hand my son let go and I caught him. I held onto him tight and thanked my lucky stars my heart could no longer beat, because if it could I would probably have had a heart attack. "What the Hell happened" I snarled Tanya looked at her sisters then spoke "the little one wanted to be let go so we let him go and he jumped on the coffee table and kicked down our crystal we were cleaning then jumped on the chandeliar" I looked at my son and he had a smug look on his face. I did not want to spank my little man, I loved him far to much to hurt him so I instead took the Alice in wonderland book away from him and lowered him to the ground. He started reaching for the book. "I asked you to behave Tobias and you misbehaved on purpose, I am no pushover son, I am taking this book away as punishment." My son started to fret as he continued to reach for the book. The women and Eleazor continued to watch and finally my son gave up, the little punk kicked me in the shins and ran off. I was about to excuse myself to go get Tobias, when Eleazor told me he would go get the boy. I nodded and watched him leave after Tobias. I sat on the couch and apologised for my son's behaviour and offered to replace the broken crystal and the chandeliar. I told the women "The only one who could get the kid to behave was his mother." Tanya approached me "and where is she" she asked in a curious voice she came up close to me, "Dead" I answered it was a lie of course, but she was as good as dead. Tanya looked sympathetic and came to me and hugged me. "I am so sorry for your loss," she said softly, there was something else behind that tone of voice, I don't know. Garret came out from the back and Kate hugged her mate. "Finally back from hunting" she said, "yes, but I am alarmed, I saw Eleazor running after a terror. is Eleazor having him for a snack?" That little 'terror' as you so kindly put it, is my son." I said. Garrett apologised, claiming he did not wish to offend me, I said to him "no you were right on the mark, he is a little terror, but he is my little terror" I said with affection. I loved my son with all my heart and while it's true, his misbehaving has annoyed the crap out of me, a small part....very small part finds it amusing that he is so feisty another trait he shares with her. I stood up and walked to the window and saw Tobias run fast with Eleazor behind him. Carmen came over to me at the window and watched as Eleazar tried to tackle Tobias, but missed and went through a tree. Carmen's laughter echoed around the rooms of the house, Eleazor looked directly at the window and smiled, seeing his mate Carmen. "I should go out there and help him" I said out loud but Carmen placed her hand on my shoulder "no, no, allow me" Carmen said and went to join Eleazar in chasing my son. I watched Carmen run to my son and Kate & Tanya along with Garret walk to the same window. "Wow your child is fast." Garrett said. I nodded my head and could not help, but feel pride as my child outran two adult vampires. Tanya looked at me and I glanced at her she was an attractive female. "I think we should go help Eleazor & Carmen, besides I wish to play with the child." Kate & Garret went outside to join Carmen and Eleazar "good luck, your gonna need it" I said with pride. Tanya placed her hand on my arm and smiled "you love your child very much." I nodded, "of course" I answered her. I watched my son get cornered by the four adult vampires they each ran at my son, he jumped up and the four ran into each other. Tobias landed on the tree branch and I sighed, "wow smart child" I nodded, "damn straight he is." I said with pride. I had to admit ,I was nervous with my son evading the vampire coven. Tanya kept rubbing her hand on my arm, her touch felt nice, I smiled. "Has your son always been so energeti?." she asked me in a friendly tone. I shook my head "he is always quiet, I have only heard him speak on one occasion, he used to be extremely well behaved, but since Sar....she left, he has gradually become more and more chaotic." Tanya moved in close to me 'oh I see, he seemed to be distressed that you took that book away" she spoke. I nodded my head "Tobias' mother used to read the book to him all the time." I spoke my voice becoming cold and emotionless. Tanya rubbed my back comforting and I thanked her and left her to go outside. I looked at my son he was still standing on the tree branch while the four vegetarian vampires looked up directly. I placed a hand on my hip annoyed. I was still afraid that Tobias would fall and hurt himself. I went to the tree "Tobias you get down this instant." I yelled my voice full of Authority, it was a parental tone. Tobias looked at me and shook his head, "Come on little man" I said, my son looked at me and we both failed to notice Carmen climbing the tree. She jumped and tackled my son out of the tree. "Tobias" I yelled out of concern. Carmen fell onto the ground she broke the fall and held Tobias so he was safe, my son gave what I swear to be an evil little chuckle. I ran to Carmen and Tobias and thanked her, before I could snatch my son out of Carmen's arms ,Kate took Tobias and hugged him tightly "Such a mischievious child, but completely adorable none the less." She ran inside with my son, I was about to say something, when Eleazar suggested that I leave Tobias in the women's care. I looked at my son as the women walked off toward the house with him, Tobias looked alarmed as the females resumed smothering him with affection. I smiled and hoped he suffered all the incessant female babling and pointless gossip that should be a good punishment for my son. I watched as they were at the doorway I waved to Tobias with my own mischievious smile on my face and he scowled at me. I went to the car and asked Eleazer to jump in and at the same time hid the book, Alice in Wonderland under the car seat. Eleazer asked why we were getting in the car and I told him so we could go hunt, he told me that when he meant hunt he meant wild animals and i sighed. It was so easy to forget that the Denali's were not right in the head. I climbed out of the car and left with Eleazer. While we hunted we did not comminicate much, when hunting, we vampires tend to unleash our instincts to kill, I found myself a Wolf and ran towards it and fed off it. The creatures foul filthy blood touched my mouth and I consumed it, I disliked the blood of this animal. I finished hunting my thirst wasn't gone, but it was at satisfied for now. We finished hunting and returned to the car. I could hear Tanya speaking to her sisters "He is such an adorable child and so big, are you thinking what I am thinking?" It was Carmen who was next to speak "Clothing shopping for the child, what a marvelous idea....lets take Brian's car it is big enough for all of us. I heard a low grunt and realized it was my son, I had a dark smile on my face, The ladies ran out carrying Tobias he was struggling despretely to get free and I said "My, my, what a perfect Idea ladies." I pulled out the car keys and threw it, Kate caught it "Just a few rules I ask you to remember 1. Do make sure Tobias has his seatbelt on in the car. 2. Drive at a reasonable speed. 3. Never leave my son unattended. 4. No dressing him in Pink or sailor outfits or dresses this includes Kilts. 5. ..." Before I could finish Kate grabbed Tobias and placed him in the car, Carmen climbed in beside's Tobias "For crying out loud any more rules and we can send him off to boarding school or something."Kate said, at that moment I considered it, it sounded tempting. "you know your right, forget rule four." Tobias looked at me horrified and I chuckled "Have fun ladies and remember rules one to three," The ladies were all in the car with the seatbelts on they drove off to go shopping. I searched through my bags to look for my laptop and decided to spend sometime on my own reflecting on today's events and my son's behaviour, I wondered what the women were doing with my son now. I would find out soon of course, I am afraid I must leave now I am going to go spend some time with Garrett and Eleazar. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: a much needed break
Date: June 18th, 2009 Yo Diary I couldn't stand being in my home, everything reminded me of her, after a lot of thought i decided that Tobias and I needed to get away from this place. I spoke to Eleazar a week ago and asked him if I could come and visit him and he had no objections. I thanked him and we ended the conversation. We mostly spoke about life, catching up on life. I found out Eleazar held no ill will against me, he understood my reason behind my choice for supporting those backstabbing bony old bastards. I did not tell Eleazar about her or Tobias, I wanted to surprise him, he will be in awe when it comes to my son. No one has seen anyone like him; he is a genius and will surprise everyone. There is no one vampire or human that is smarter than my son, no one can compare to him he is the most important person in the world to me, I did tell him I had a surprise for him. I watched my son sleep peacefully in his new bedroom. He is always such a quiet child and has grown so much in this last week. Tobias runs around now like a little manic, he is so energetic and everytime I try to hold him he squirms free and bolts, he hasn't spoken since she left. I know he misses her, the fact that he haven't spoken or called for her proves it. I am hoping that getting away from this place would do us both good; I told Tobias that we were going away on a holiday and were going to meet a friend of mine. Tobias looked at me for a moment and then kicked up a storm, the little terror ran to his room and locked the door. I felt annoyed and folded my arms before I went outside and climbed through the window, Tobias was holding that book she used to read to him, Alice in Wonderland and sitting on her bed. "Come on little man we won't be gone for long, I promise." I told him, Tobias just looked at me and I smiled encouraging him to believe me and he sighed and climbed off the bed. He left the copy of Alice in Wonderland on the bed and hugged me. I picked up my growing son and smiled "you will like Uncle Eleazar, he is an interesting man. I carried my son to the kitchen and got him some blood and fruit. Tobias refused to touch the formula anymore, so I cut up varius fruit or some healthy food for him to eat. I tried to keep the balance of blood and human food for him. While he ate I went and packed a case of clothing for him and also went to pack a case for myself. When I finished packing the bag, Tobias was drinking his blood. I wondered if he was going slower than usual to try and delay us from leaving home,. Tobias finished his food and I told him to go get dressed and he did. He left and returned a few minutes later wearing a black shirt and blue jeans. He was also holding that book SHE got him!!!! I looked down at him and he held the book close to his chest and I hid my pain. I took our bags to the car and returned to find him sitting on the couch looking at the cover of the book. He traced his hands over the book image and I grabbed his shoes and socks and put them on him. I petted my son's head. "Tobias we are going to have so much fun." Tobias looked skeptically at me and I was determined to prove I was right. Tobias carried the book with him to the car and climbed into his seat. I locked the front door and I got in to the car and checked on Tobias, he did not have his seatbelt on. "Tobias put your seatbelt on son." Tobias looked at me and did not move, it seems Tobias was going to have one of those tantrums. "Come on Tobias be good for papa." Tobias looked at me for a moment longer and jumped out of the car and ran off leaving the book in the seat. I banged my head against the steering wheel a few times and sighed. "Come on son, your gonna make Papa cry." I spoke out knowing he could hear me, The thing is I couldn't cry even if I wanted to. I was just hoping he did not know that and he would feel guilty. Tobias actually came to the side of the car and I climbed out "That's my boy" I placed my hands out and moved in to hug him but as my arms closed he ducked out and ran off, the Punk was messing with me he ran off towards the beach and I could not help, but groan and complain "I am getting too old for this." I ran after my son, I had to give the boy credit he was fast. I ran after my son and he ran from the front of the house to the beach at the back of the house I ran after my son watching him run as fast as he could, he turned back while he ran he had a smile on his face, I was so surprised he had a small grin on his face, yes of course he was enjoying himself all children enjoy messing with their parents heads. I finally got within distance of my son and jumped to tackle him only to be eating the sand in his dust. I placed my chin on the palm of my hand as my elbow rested on the sand he stopped and looked at me standing so still. I got up and looked at him, he just looked at me and said nothing of course. Tobias bolted again down the beach and I ran after him, the little punk had a good head start on me "Tobias Stop" I said, raising my voice to my son for the first time. I jumped up through the air and landed in front of him, i picked up my son and he started to kick and make a fuss. I walked with him towards the car and sighed. What was wrong with him? Why was he kicking up such a fuss? I sat Tobias In the car and did the seatbelt up myself and gave him his book that was still in the back seat. "Come on son, be a good boy for papa." Tobias looked at me and frowned he held the book close to his chest and I did up my seatbelt and we drove away. I drove for the entire day and night until the sun came back out. I stopped for Tobias often, he needed to stretch his legs and eat and I made sure he did not bolt on me like back home. Tobias is currently sleeping his head resting on my knee. I feel bad for raising my voice to him, but he is acting so strange...I should be at the Denali's soon, maybe Tobias will settle down when he meets them. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Where do I go from here
Date: June 11th, 2009 Yo Diary Ever since her depature my heart has been shattered. I haven't been functioning without her, time seems to be moving even slower than normal. I miss her, it's like half of me is missing now that she is gone. I can't do anything without her, hell I can't even say her name, every time I do, I feel undiscribable pain. That bitch! She tore my heart apart, but I still love her and I still want her dead at the same time, it makes no sense to me, the only thing keeping me going is Tobias. I have been concentrating on him completely for the past week and trying to keep her out of my head. The only good thing she left me with is our son. I have already decided on what I am telling Tobias once he is older. I am going to tell him his mother was a beautiful and intelligent woman, she was brave and fearless and she loved him with all her heart. It may be a lie, but the child deserves to have memories of a good mother rather than learn his mother is a heartless manipulitive bitch. I haven't even given any thought on how to destroy the Voltori & HER! I have thought of two possibilities though, the first possibility is to create an army of newborn vampires, that was done recently to take on the Cullens or so I heard. I believe the leader of that coven was a nomad vampire by the name of Victoria. My second option is to find the romanians that the Voltori overthrew centuries ago and team up with them. The problem in my way is my own son Tobias. I don't want him to be around the likes of the Romanian vampires and I also don't want him to be around the newborns either. I guess I should just let go of revenge, but I can't. I want that bitch to have her heart ripped apart and torn asunder like mine was. How could she do this to me...to our son? How can she not love him? Our son, he is the most incredible child on the entire planet! He is beautiful and smart and he will grow to be a good man. I will see to that. I guess the only thing I can do is train Tobias when he gets older. I will teach him how to fight, to survive, no one will harm him because he will hold his own and I will be there to protect my son, but for now I will give him a happy childhood one where he will have good memories full of love I owe it to my son. Today while Tobias slept I spent the morning cleaning out her room completely and placed it in the garage. I could not bring myself to throwing her things away, I am not ready for that not yet. I locked everything away and cleaned the room completely there was not even a single dust bunny left. I finished by opening the window and closing the door the fresh air would hopefully get rid of any trace of her scent. I also closed the door so the wind would not blow into the house and make it colder for Tobias. When that was finished I went to see my son, he still slept, he looked so peaceful. I know it hasn't been easy for him, he knows something is up and the poor child keeps asking for her...I keep him busy a lot. I let him watch children's programs, which only seem to bore him. I read to him a lot, he also seems to get bored of children stories too. I think he is in a rush to grow up or maybe he is just not interested in childish things. Tobias woke up and I smiled just a little. I lifted my son up and held him close to me hugging him, his little arms tightened against me as he hugged back. I chatted to him, asked him about his sleep and told him the plans for today. After he had breakfast Tobias and I had a shower and I got him dressed up nicely and then I got dressed. I had his outing bag ready, it had stuff he might need like a bottle of formula clothing etc. etc. Tobias and I went outside and I stopped, I saw her birthday gift, the purple car. I looked away and walked to our car carrying my son and his bag, I placed Tobias in his seat and did up his seatbelt and we went to my office it was a nice cloudy day no chance of sun. I showed Tobias the sites and took him to some of the stores. I bought him a lot of clothing, my son is growing so fast he needs a lot of clothing. I also went and bought a stack of books and some movies for him, not all of them children's stuff, some action movies for my boy and while we were in the city I looked around at beds and things for Tobias, he will be too big for a nursery soon. I intend on using her old room to turn it into a bedroom for my son and the nursery will stay a nursery for now. I told my son to keep his teeth to himself that he cant bite the humans, he nodded his head showing he understood and I told him I was proud of him. The rest of the day went by pretty fast, I had bought a lot of stuff and paid $1,500 for a removalist truck to come and bring all the purchases back to my home. Tobias and I returned home and I realized how empty it was without her. My son was already sleeping in my arms exhausted from shopping all day. I laid Tobias down in his cot and came to write to you, I am going to go now I plan on setting up Tobias' new room now, then I intend on researching tutors to find out who the best is, because nothing is too good for my son and I intend on giving him the best I have to offer. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: I am a fool, a worthless fool. Sarah just tore my world apart and left me with a bleeding heart.
Date: June 9th, 2009 Yo Diary Today started out like any other day, except for the dark sky this morning. The voltori were preparing themselves to return home. Aro claimed that Caius would most definitely need Marcus & his help. Jane seemed to be grouchy, while Alec and Demetri were calm. Marcus too was calm and composed. I heard Tobias wake up and watched Sarah, she seemed disinterested in the fact our son was now awake. I went to the nursery and picked up Tobias. He was now as big as a two year old. I needed to get him a bigger bed, one that was appropriate for a child his age. Tobias seemed on edge, he was being fussy, trying to push himself away from me. "Come on little man settle down, I am not putting you back to bed, let's go see mommy, she could use some cheering up." I said to Tobias. My little man settled down and I carried him back to the lounge room to see Sarah, he was relaxed. "We will leave tonight at eight o clock, we need to use the darkness as our cover." I thanked Aro and we walked to Sarah who was in the kitchen, her back was in front of me. Tobias reached out for Sarah, "Our little man wants his Momma" I said to her. Sarah said nothing, her back was still turned from me and I said again "Sarah..." but she cut me off and said...."Beat it Brian, I am not in the mood." She sounded mean and distant. Tobias kept reaching out for Sarah and was making small grunts out of frustration but Sarah stayed still for a moment before turning and slamming her hand into the counter. The counter was completely destroyed and bits went everywhere. I blocked the parts that came near Tobias and I felt Tobias hide his face against my chest he was shivering....he was afraid of Sarah and I could not blame him. I looked at her face and saw pitch black eyes. Sarah was thirsty and savage and acting like a newborn, but what she said next was surprising "Take the brat and fuck off, I said I am not in the mood." I was in shock, Sarah had never called Tobias such a name before. "You and I will talk about this Sarah," I hissed at her in anger. I could hear Tobias whimper and I shushed him gently, bouncing him while he had his face against my chest. "Come on little man you know moma loves you, she is just not herself at the moment" I carried him to the nursery and I rocked him on the rocking chair holding him in my lap. Tobias was very upset, it must have been from what Sarah said. I knew the burning thirst is hard to bare and the blood lust is insane, but how could she call our son that? I knew how much Sarah loved Tobias, why did she say it? Tobias did not cheer up, I knew one thing that could. I put some sunscreen on him and a hat on his head. Sarah was already in a foul mood, I did not need her to go ape shit on us. I carried Tobias out to the beach and I started to build a sand castle. Tobias did not have his heart in it, he looked so lifeless, so depressed, it was unnatural for a child as innocent as him. He was so sad, he would not even look at the sand, he just made fists full of sand and then dropped it, he was so lifeless. I hated seeing my son so depressed, he was only a child, he deserved to have nothing, but laughter in his life, not this shit. I picked up my son and held him close to me, comforting him, I kissed his forehead and rubbed his back, he burped and I laughed. Tobias watched me as my laughing slowed down and eventually stopped. I held him close and hugged him tightly in my arms. He seemed to cheer up, I did not need to reassure him, because he knew it. "My little man, you're the most special little boy to ever exist" I said to him and he smiled and hugged me tightly. Tobias seemed to cheer up after that and started working on the sand castle with me. We stayed out at the beach until it was time for Tobias' nap. I walked inside and did not see Sarah in the kitchen or lounge room. I went to the nursery to put him to bed and he began to fight against me he did not want to have his nap. "Come on Tobias you need to have your nap, be good for Papa" Tobias rolled his eyes and my jaw dropped, he was so much like Sarah, it was freaky. "Don't you give me sass boy" I said to him and Tobias scowled. Sarah told me the other day that Tobias had my scowl. I don't really see myself in Tobias that much, all I see is Sarah. My son eventually settled down and I watched him sleep for awhile. He seemed to be having a bad dream, but not aware of it the way he was shuffling about. I stood up and walked out and found Sarah now in the kitchen. She had the fridge open and was drinking one bag of blood after another. She casually threw away the blood bags. "Sarah what the hell is up with you, what are you doing?" I said to her, annoyed at the way she spoke to Tobias and me. Sarah ignored me and kept feeding on the blood. I went to her and I grabbed her arm, she turned and punched me in the chest with such force it knocked me flying through the kitchen and into the hallway. I landed with a thud and got back up. I went tback to her, "Sarah what the hell is wrong with you?" She hissed violently and resumed drinking the blood. Marcus came to investigate. I left Sarah alone and returned to the nursery, trying to remember what I did wrong. Tobias worked up and I went to the fridge, there was two bags of blood left, it would be enough for today. I grabbed the bag of blood and put it in the bottle to feed my son. I smiled at him and hid my concern. He was only a child and did not need to see my worries. He just needed to have a happy childhood. We spent the rest of the day with Tobias in the nursery. We found lots of things to do, he was playing with his toy's and I played with him. It was around eight pm and Marcus announced they were leaving. I went out holding Tobias and saw Sarah was hugging Marcus. She leaned in and kissed him on the lips slipping her tongue into his mouth. I stared at her in shock, but the others did not look surprised, well except for Jane, she was watching and it looked like she was about to throw up and I was right there with her. I felt sick to my stomach seeing MY WOMAN kiss Marcus. I moved to Sarah and with one hand grabbed her arm and pulled her to me. "Are you fucking mad?" Marcus left out a hiss. Sarah looked at me with hate in her eyes. "Unhand me!" she said. I refused to let go and she reached up her hand touching my neck, she lifted me up and Tobias seemed uncomfortable. She threw us across the room. I used my body as a shield to protect our son I sat up slowly and Tobias whimpered he was unharmed, but shaken from the event. Something was wrong with Sarah, she put her arm around Marcus' waist and I snarled "What are you doing?" Sarah ignored me and looked at Marcus. "You can see he is not exactly the smartest man on the world. He was easy to use." Marcus nodded. "What's the meaning of this" I yelled out and ignored Tobias' shiver. Sarah sighed and looked at Tobias and I before she said "I am going to have to explain this to you....you are a fool Brian jacobson, you're naive and innocent, unable to see when someone is using you." I looked at Sarah in confusion Sarah looked at me and laughed. "from the very moment I first met you, I thought to myself, there is a sucker I can con. I saw how nice the place in Volterra was and could see you were wealthy. I thought I hit the big time and I had no idea how right I was Brian. So i made up everything, the story about getting knocked up at an early age, being kicked out everything. I did everything to rope you in so I could take your money." I looked at Sarah in horror. "That's a lie" I yelled. "Keep telling yourself that Brian, I had everything planned, well almost everything, I did not expect to get knocked up and give birth to a little freak." I let out a hiss and put my hand over Tobias head Sarah was being really mean. "Sarah you don't mean that, what the fuck is wrong with you?" I snarled out. Sarah just laughed, "I do mean it how could I love a little bastard who broke my body and made me feel weak...the only good thing about carrying the little freak is the fact that I gained immortality from it." I snarled at Sarah "SHUT UP IT'S NOT TRUE, WHY ARE YOU SAYING SUCH AWFUL THINGS, SARAH?" Sarah smiled as Marcus kissed her neck. "Because it's the truth Brian. In life you're the one fucking people or your the one getting fucked. Love is nothing, but illusion, all that's true, all that you can count on is power...everything else is just an unnessary burden. " She spoke so coldly and ruthlessly I could not believe this was my babygirl. Sarah was starting to sound a lot like Aro. "But Sarah," She cut me off and said "Jane." Jane looked at Sarah then to me and then I felt pure agony. I fell to my knees and held Tobias. He was quiet, but fine, Jane was only doing her damned gift on me. "Do you see now the power I possess, Jane hates me, she would rather be doing this on me than you. I am the one in control, you see this Brian, this is the story of my life and you are no longer a part of it, neither is the freak. So keep him and never ever show yourself to me again or I will have you both killed." I hissed at her in anger. "So it was all a lie then..you never loved me....us, you just wanted my money." I accused her. Sarah smiled, "very good Brian you're starting to catch on, your not as dumb as I thought you were....I would say I am sorry to you for letting you think you would have a picture perfect family, but I am not...I excel at not giving a shit." she said and then laughed darkly at the end. Aro chuckled while Marcus had his hand aound Sarah's stomach. I did not want to believe this. "If this is true, then Sarah you will nave no problem giving me the engagement ring back." Sarah nodded she turned her back from me and stayed still for a moment, she then threw the ring over her shoulder. "Why would I settle for being a millionaire when I can be queen of the vampires." she said not turning to face me. I watched as she petted Marcus' cheek. The pain finally stopped and I stood up watching as Marcus leaned down and kissed Sarah. My heart was breaking watching the woman I loved kiss another man and all the hurtful things she had said. "Thats fine by me, you heartless bitch, pray that we never meet again, because if we do I will rip your fucking head off you manipulitive heartless bitch! As for you Aro, you knew this all along and you allowed it to happen. You enjoyed my humilation well I am no longer a friend of the Voltori either." I spat out in hate. Sarah stopped kissing Marcus and kept her back to me. Aro was about to speak when Sarah cut him off. "Why would king Aro need the help of a powerless fool when he has me to inspire his army." Tobias moved his head from my chest and he looked at Sarah, "Momma" He said. I was in shock Tobias spoke his first word, he called for his mother. I held onto him tightly as he began to cry "I think it's time we leave this freak and fool," Sarah said, her voice was slightly shaking. I thought Sarah was having second thoughts until she said "Jane why dont you show Tobias your gift." Her voice was cold. "NO" I hissed, as Jane turned her head, I turned my back so Jane could not see Tobias and took the full blast of her 'gift'. I was on my knees in agony as venom dripped from my nose, Tobias was crying his eyes out. "It's ok little man, Papa is ok." I hissed through the pain. "Well done Jane," Sarah said. "I hate you Sarah," I hissed, Sarah chuckled....."Good!" The pain stopped and I got up and turned to face her, Alec was now beside Sarah. "It's best to be safe, I am knocking Sarah out until we return home," Alec sid to Marcus. Marcus nodded his head, "Say goodnight Sarah," Marcus said to Sarah. Sarah did not look at Tobias or me as our son called out for his mother again. "Goodnight!" She said softly to Marcus. She instantly fell to the ground only to be caught by Marcus. I stood there and watched as the Voltori left with the only woman I had ever loved and the woman I wanted to kill. I returned inside and walked to the nursery. Tobias cried the entire night, I craddled him in my arms. He knew what was happening, the poor little man finally cried himself to sleep, while he slept, I went around the house and packed up Sarah's things into a box. I saw her Diary on the bed side table, next to the picture of her and I together. She was heavily pregnant in that photo. Sarah spoke of this photo, despite all she had said and done. I thought she looked beautiful in it. I really thought we were happy, but I was wrong, she used me and for that I can not forgive her. I packed the photo of her and considered reading her diary.....no that bitch had messed with my head and my heart, there is no way I want to get into her head and see the darkness in her mind. I packed her diary with the photo and everything else the guitar and keyboard and locked it in the shed. I sit in the nursery watching my son now and am telling you this, the reason is this I am going to kill the Voltori for making a fool of me and after im done with the Voltori, Sarah is next! Brian Jacobson Topic: Damn evil pants
Date: June 9th, 2009 Yo Diary Today was an excellent day. I should start at the beginning. I went to do my shift of watching Tobias, to relieve Sarah. We take turns watching him. It's not like we need to, with our enhanced hearing, we would know something was wrong within a split second, but still we do it anyway. Sometimes, we watch him together. Sarah seems to spend as much time as possible with Tobias . She is obsessed with him, she never wants to leave his side. I Dragged her outside this morning it was four am and still dark. We sat on the sand for a long time talking, she rested against me and I enjoyed her scent breathing it in. Sarah wanted to know how we would spend eternity together and I told her we could be like this, forever, just the three of us, we will watch the sun rise and fall in each others loving embrace. When Tobias is old enough, we will find him a mate and we will have a complete family forever. Sarah was quiet, which is unusual she always had something to say. She looked up from the ground and gasped as the sun slowly started to rise. The light reached our skin and suddenly there were thousands of sparkling lights all around us. We shimmered in the light and I kissed Sarah's neck and told her "you look beautiful in the light Sarah!" She told me to stop joking and I turned her face around to look at me. I looked deep into those crimson eyes of hers," Sarah, you are the most beautiful woman to ever walk this earth, and I am so lucky to have you in my life." I wanted to add onto it and tell her how meaningless my life was before her, but Sarah got on her knees and pushed me into the sand she pinned me down and kissed me. I kissed Sarah back and smiled with glee then thinking that penalty time was over and I was going to get some tender loving. Sarah slipped her tongue in my mouth and I decided to assert my authority as man of this household. I overpowered my woman and climbed on top of her, I undid my zipper and smiled. Sarah's hair was covering her eyes and I gently pushed the hair away and told her "Sarah, when I am with you, I am alive, there are no words that can describe the depth of my feelings for you." She looked at me and smiled and then kissed me again and I moved my hand pulling up her skirt, moved my hand slowly towards her panties. At this rate, I was so in the mood to romance her I'd rip the things off with my teeth if I had to. Sarah and I heard something from inside. She did not hesitate, she threw me off her using her newborn strength and fixed herself up. She bolted inside. I cussed in frustration as I hit the sand hard, I was so close to some tender loving and now I would not get it. There would be no satisfaction for 'Brian Jr'. I picked myself up and went inside to see Sarah holding Tobias, she was mothering the boy and if she did not stop it she would turn him into a sissy...a moma's boy. Sarah lifted Tobias up to her chest, his face was near her breast and I could not help but wish I was Tobias at that moment. I was going to say something about Sarah being so over attentive, when Sarah said me "your fly is undone." I said to Sarah "so this means no sex right." Sarah nodded her head while she held our son and I grumbled "need to teach my son not to interrupt when i'm trying to claim his moma." Sarah rolled her eyes annoyed and hissed out "don't talk like that around our son or I'll give you something to cry about." I jumped back and said nothing. Sarah was scary since becoming a Mother. I knew better than to argue with Sarah by now, I grumbled an apology to her. Sarah came to me and stood on her tippy toes and leaned in to kiss my cheek. I smiled and watched her walk to the rocking chair. She sat there and reminded me about my fly, I did as I was told and zipped it up, she asked me to get the baby formula. I left immediately and heard a soft grunt and chuckled. I may let Tobias have his way, but his mother was a different story. She was stubborn and savage when pissed, hell hath no fury like Sarah on a rampage. I heard Sarah say "it's for your own good little man." Her voice was loving and motherly it surprised me for a moment. Sarah began to sing and I felt that strong sense of inspiration again. I stopped and leaned against the wall, feeling the surge of inspiration that coursed through my body, it made me feel invincible. I returned to the room and handed her the formula and told her "damn that feels good Sarah." I watched Sarah feed our son, she loved feeding him, I just loved seeing her face light up at just the mention of our son. Sarah tried to feed Tobias the formula and he pushed it away. I chuckled watching Sarah raise an eyebrow and heard her speak, "defiant little bugger aren't you." I added in " Yeah I wonder who he gets that from," Sarah put the bottle down and flipped me off and I chuckled again. "I knew it." Sarah rolled her eyes and went back to trying to feed Tobias. Sarah kept trying to feed the drink to Tobias and he continued to push it away. Sarah started to get frustrated "come on Tobias cut it out." I smiled in glee, it was about time he gave his mother trouble. That's my son. Sarah surprised me with "fine more for me. " I watched in shock as she started to drink the formula. I shivered imagining the foul taste she must be tasting at this moment. I watched my babygirl in shock and was even more surprised when Tobias started looking for the bottle and she gave it to him. Sarah knew Tobias so well, she knew how to make him want the bottle. I knew Sarah would be a great mother, but damn that was incredible. "That stuff must taste horrible" I said and Sarah nodded her head. Tobias finished drinking the formula and Sarah burped him. She finally gave Tobias to me and she went to the bathroom. I decided it was time my son and I went outside to play and I bolted out with Tobias in my arms. We were outside and a few seconds later I heard the scream of a banshi. "BRIAN JACOBSON GET YOUR BUTT IN HERE NOW!" I turned around and saw Sarah. She looked PISSED. I looked down at Tobias and he let out a little sigh as if he were about to say "So close, but not close enough." I walked toward Sarah holding my son and she leaned in and inspected Tobias. "No sunscreen, huh." She took Tobias from me and stomped on my foot so hard it actually hurt. I started to yell at her. "Damn Sarah that actually hurt." but She cut me off and in her exact words said "SHUT UP BRIAN. NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME, TOBIAS IS NOT YOU'RE DRINKING BUDDY HE IS YOUR SON, YOU'RE HIS FATHER FIRST AND HIS FRIEND SECOND. So start treating him a little more carefully he may be half vampire, BUT he is also part human and we need to be careful until we figure out for ourselves what human vulnerabilities he inherited from me. Do I make myself clear Brian." I opened my mouth to retort and before I could say a single thing Sarah cut me off again and said "Stop your bitching and get me Tobias's hat." I looked at Sarah's crimson eyes and knew she was serious. I could see it and it was best not to agitate Sarah more. I went to get Tobias' hat and when I returned with it I watched Sarah put sunscreen on Tobias arms and legs and over his nose. She kissed both of Tobias cheeks and put the hat on him before handing Tobias to me. "Alright boys now you can go and play." she said in a motherly tone. I was not mad at Sarah I understood why she was being so scary. It was because of her son's safety, she worried far too much if you ask me. On my way out I said to Tobias "your mother is scary." He nodded his head a little and I smiled "what was that Brian?" Sarah asked I gulped down the air and said "nothing honey" and ran off with my son before Sarah thought of putting my son in a bubble!!!!! I played with Tobias and watched him pick up the sand and throw it up in the air he loved the beach. I clapped my hands watching him while Sarah was inside. I wondered what she was doing and why she did not join us. There was something I did not understand. There were some times when she was so obsessive it was frightening, while there were other times where she distanced herself and just left Tobias and I to be on our own. Sarah finally joined us and the three of us played together. We built a nice sand castle and when we finished it, Tobias decided to play godzilla and stomp all over the it. Sarah laughed like I had never heard her before, she was so happy watching our son. Sarah picked Tobias up and together we went in to put Tobias down for a nap. He was rather reluctant to go down for his nap and fought Sarah tooth and nail until he tired himself out and fell asleep. Sarah and I went outside and I kissed Sarah passionately, she wrapped her leg around mine and I moved my hand onto her leg to hold it. I continued to kiss Sarah and I used my free hand to unzip my pants, I was determined to pleasure my woman. I moved my hands towards Sarah's panties and I was interrupted again. I let out a groan and knew I was never gonna get my tender loving session with Sarah. "Not again" I grumbled and Sarah suggested the pants were cursed. "These evil pants must be burned!" I said quietly, as I zipped up my pants. Sarah looked at the Voltori and I noticed that Jane was missing, but on the bright side there looked to be a snack for Sarah, Tobias and myself. I watched Sarah excuse herself as she bolted inside, I presumed she went to check on our son and a few seconds later I heard a crash and Sarah speaking, "Don't you ever touch my son again." I heard a thud and Marcus left. The next thing I heard was Jane say "that was not nice of you, Sarah, you would do well to remember your place." There was malice and hatred in her voice and Marcus said "as would you remember yours. "I was confused and then everything made sense, when Sarah hissed out "she touched my son, she goes near him again, I will kill her." Things were getting hostile. I went to Marcus, "please excuse Sarah, she is very over protective of our son." Sarah picked up Tobias and we walked over to the humans and Aro. I went in to pick the human I would eat and then fell over, face first. I heard Tobias chuckle with glee and next thing I knew Sarah was picking me up by the scruff of my neck, like a mother cat picking up it's kitten. "Come on Sarah, I'm thirsty, I wanna drink" I complained. She ignored me and asked Tobias which human he wanted. My son pointed out to the one I wanted. Sarah dropped me and I landed on my feet. Tobias was doing it on purpose, he knew I wanted that human. I decided to go and feed off the another human while Sarah helped Tobias with his meal. I finished my meal and watch my son feed from his very first Human I was so proud. It's true he has had blood before, but this is the first time he has ever bitten a human. He was already on his way to becoming a man. I could see Sarah struggle and she handed Tobias to me. I watched her embrace her savage nature and kill the human, she ripped out his flesh and begun to feed on it, it was all very sexy. I felt myself becoming very aroused by this. Tobias found himself full and he burped just like a little man. The human was in agony as my son's venom caused him pain beyond belief. Sarah moved to the human and snapped his neck and I walked to my woman and licked the blood from her face and sucked on her lip for a moment "you're my sexy beast." I whispered to her. She looked at me and smiled. Sarah took Tobias and together the two had a shower, she told me to set up the tv, that Tobias was outside long enough today and to clean up the mess. I did as she asked and Sarah grabbed some clothing from the nursery and got dressed as well and dressed our son up nicely. She put on the tv and allowed Tobias to watch a Disney movie, it was a brand new one called The Princess Protection Program. Tobias seemed to enjoy it very much, I can't wait to teach him about women. I am going to make sure he is a heart breaker, thats for sure. After the Disney movie Sarah read Alice in wonderland to Tobias, he loved the children's book and I complemented Sarah in her choice. Sarah looked at me and said "Alice in wonderland...many consider it to be just a children's novel, but it's not Brian its about a girl who feels she is not strong enough to cope. She went through many trials and challenges and overcame obsticles she did not think she could. She found a strength within her that she did not know was there. I am reading it to Tobias so he learns that everyone has strength inside them...to do things that they did not think they could do." I was surprised by Sarah she seemed desperete to install that into him. It was 11 pm and I caught Sarah standing on the kitchen terrace, the radio was turned on at very low levels so Tobias could sleep and I listened to the song. I watched Sarah and saw she had made a fist. I went out to her and wrapped my arms around her, I noticed her fist shaking "What's wrong babygirl?" I asked her. Sarah's shaking stopped and she said "Brian can I ask you to promise me something, would you do it?." I was surprised and I told her "sure babygirl what is it you want me to promise you?" She turned to face me and kissed my lips for a moment, "promise me you will protect Tobias with your life, that you will always put him first and remember he is still half human and that you will be strong and.........." I did not let Sarah finish my hands were on Sarah's shoulders and I shook her. "Sarah what the hell are you talking about, you sound like you're going away, you will always be here with Tobias and me." I told her. Sarah had such pain in her eyes she smiled, "your right, but just humor me...make me that promise." I looked at Sarah and rolled up my eyes "yeah yeah I promise ya babygirl." Sarah seemed to lighten up after that and she hugged me tight and I hugged her back. I knew now something was troubling Sarah, she was afraid, I could feel it. I don't know what's wrong with her the Voltori also seem to be busy, they're going home soon. It's 11:40 pm. I am going to go now and check on my babygirl. ~Brian Jacobson Song playing on the Radio & during Sarah and brian's talk about the promise Topic: Busy and loving it
Date: June 8th, 2009 Yo Diary It's been a few days sincce I last wrote to you. Sarah has successfully changed to a vampire and let me say she is incredible, she is beyond perfection. I will get to Sarah later though, I need to tell you about my son, Tobias, the little man is growing fast. I am glad I listened to Aro and bought bigger clothing. He is an intelligent child. I am not just saying that because he is my son, but I see wisdom in his eyes, it's the way he watches you, it's like he is aware of things that are happening. Tobias also tends to scowl at you too, the other day while Sarah was still changing, I said something about Sarah never being that vocal during sex and he just gave me the scowl look, as if he was saying "too much info." My son of course has the sense to like blood. I have tried to give him the formula and he hates it, he won't even try it. The stuff smells foul so I can't really blame him. I won't force it on him, he is my little man. Yesterday Tobias and I went to the city. I drove slower than normal since Tobias was with me, he seemed to enjoy the scent of the air on the drive. He made this frowning face in the town, until he smelt a human scent then he seemed to be a little more cheerful after that. I could not help, but say "that's my son." I was so proud he recognized food when he smelled it, it was our job to bring back blood to last us a few days. Sarah's a newborn she would be thirsty constantly and Tobias needed blood too. I also had human baby food and formula that I'd bought, but since Tobias prefers blood I will not force that horrid food on him. I like to take Tobias to the beach, he loves it there and is especially happy around it. I carry him up and down the beach and he smiles, he usually sniffs the air, I think he enjoys the scent of the air. Tobias just smiles at the beach and is a happy and quiet boy. The only time he cried was when Sarah was briefly dead. Tobias is also a special child he is gifted. The day after he was born I was holding him and I suddenly felt a spark course through my body. I could smell the scent of humans all the way to the city and hear the traffic. I could see a lot better then usual too. I looked at my son in awe and he had this smug look on his face, but there was something else, I kept on getting the feeling he was trying to tell me something... I am probably being paranoid. I wondered how it was that he enhanced my senses back that time when I was swimming with Sarah. Speaking of Sarah, she seems to be able to control herself, which is unusual. My theory is motherhood is the only thing keeping her sane. She should be running around like a lunatic, trying to kill anything with a pulse. She is mostly the same, but a few things have changed its hard to put my finger on it. One thing for certain is she has become a lot more aggressive. She actually attacked Jane yesterday and kicked that dwaff's butt. She went out on her first hunting trip today with Demetri. I wanted to take her, but she did not want Tobias alone with the Voltori for some reason. I looked at Tobias and heard his heart beating, it was faster than a normal humans'. It made me remember his human side and I realized Sarah was right he would probably need the nutrients in the formula. I tried to feed the formula to Tobias in the nursery and he kept pushing the bottle away. I raised an eyebrow and watch him scowl at me at that moment .I realized he would grow up to be as stubborn and defiant as his mother and I was screwed! I growled low and Tobias pushed the bottle away again. I could hear musical laughter and looked up to see Sarah, she was laughing at my annoyance and our son's defiance. Sarah came and took Tobias from me along with the bottle. I stood up and let her sit in the rocking chair and heard her say "come on little Tobias stop being naughty and behave for your papa." When she spoke, her voice was higher than when she was human. It would take me a while to get used to it. I stood close by watching the two. I was in shock that Tobias started drinking the baby formula right away, I also felt a little annoyed too, the little punk was messing with me on purpose, he is just like his mother. Sarah began to hum a song and I closed my eyes feeling Sarah's influence. It had become so much more powerful than when she was human. When she sang now I felt something around my heart....warmth. It's almost as if I was human, I feel inspired and a surge of energy is coursing through my body. It's like I can do anything, I am pumped up and ready to handle whatever is thrown at me. The effect doesn't last long, only an hour...sometimes two then the inspiration goes away and I return to normal. I waited for Sarah eagerly, I wanted to go out and play with Tobias, we always went to the beach this time of the day. Sarah finally finished feeding him. I took Tobias from her and hugged my son. I said to Sarah, that Tobias and I were going out to play and Sarah told me "Not until I put some sunscreen on him." I frowned and she took Tobias back. Our son seemed just as annoyed as Sarah put sunscreen all over his arms. I paced up and down inpatiently telling her to hurry up. Sarah gave me this look and I quieted down. Another thing about Sarah since becoming a vampire, she is actually scary....maybe it's more the fact she is a mother and not a newborn. I don't know, Sarah finally finished, Tobias was covered and annoyed at the scent of the sunscreen and I didn't blame him. Sarah put some of that stuff on my nose yuck. Sarah told us to scat and I was excited. I had my son and carried him outside. We ran along the beach and he was smiling having a blast. I kissed my son on the forehead, ignored the foul taste of the sunscreen and held my son close. We sat down on the sand and Tobias picked up some of the sand in his hand and made a fist full of sand. The sand fell from his fingers and I watched him and smiled. I spent the rest of the day on the beach with Tobias ,only coming back in when Sarah wanted to put another layer of sunscreen on our son. It had started to get late and Sarah called us back in. We gave Tobias a bath to wash the sunscreen off and then Sarah sat in the rocking chair with him. I told her our son should have blood since for one thing it did not taste like shit and Sarah just rolled her eyes and allowed Tobias to have the blood. Sarah asked Tobias if she could have some of his blood and I told Sarah I knew of good bottle that needed some sucking and only she was the one to do it. She gave me a dirty look and I smiled. Sarah began to sing another song while Tobias fed on the blood my son fell asleep half way through his meal. Marcus came and watched Sarah and Tobias while she sang and told me that I was very lucky to have a muse like her and I knew he was right. Sarah continued to hold Tobias she seemed perfectly happy holding our son. When I look back on today, I remember seeing her sad, when Tobias and I were at the beach it's strange I wonder why she was sad. I need to figure that out, but right now I can't, it's my shift to watch Tobias. Brian Jacobson Topic: So much is happening!!!!
Date: June 2nd , 2009 I am worried about Sarah, she has changed. The last time I wrote to you Sarah was strong and determined and fearless. Now Sarah is changing. The child is draining too much blood from Sarah and it seems like we can never replenish her enough. Sarah has become so pale and fragile, the child is sapping her strength...her life and I am afraid of losing her. I went hunting the day before yesterday with Aro, Jane, Alec and Demetri. I bought a lot of baby clothing and formula as per Sarah's request. Aro told me that I should buy bigger sizes too since the hybrids grew fast and I did. I also bought something else something Sarah did not expect. When I returned Sarah was different. Her eyes that usually sparkled like diamonds, to me, now looked dead. I was worried, but I knew how to revive the sparkle in her eyes. I had made a choice that would change not just my life, but the life of Sarah and our unborn child. I had decided to propose to Sarah. I wanted her as my mate so we could be together forever, just the three of us. I looked at my babygirl she was huge, the child was growing so fast, Sarah had already fractured her pelvis from the child's kick, we were lucky it was not a break. Sarah and I discussed for a long time about names for our child and we came to two options: Tobias Marcus Jacobson Cassandra Hope Jacobson Both names were perfect, just like our future son or daughter. Yesterday I took Sarah to the Beach and we watched the sun set together. I knew this was the right moment and I proposed to Sarah, asking her to marry me. She accepted and I could hear utter joy in her voice. Sarah made me the happiest man on the planet at that moment. I held her close and we watched the sun set. Sarah and I returned inside and I could see Marcus was surprised, I wondered why. Sarah insisted that I took Demetri and the twins to New York and gave them a tour of the city. I was too high on joy to argue or refuse her idea. I took the twins and went to New York with Demetri and the twins. We spent a few hours going around at some of the tourist locations. Being a vampire really gave us the advantage, we moved faster than normal humans and could do things a lot faster. I bought a I love NYC T- shirt and threw it to Jane, she threw me a dirty look and I was afraid she would use her gift on me for a moment. She asked me what she was meant to do with the shirt and I told her to put it on. She said that being around a human had twisted my morals, that I was acting human and that was inexcusable. I told Jane that Sarah was daring enough to do something like wear this shirt. Sarah was fearless and did not care about how she looked. I smiled seeing Jane put the shirt on. She still looked pissed, but at least she did it. Jane may be hundreds of years old, but she is still a child and it seemed I had this whole parenting thing down when I made her do what I say. I looked at Alec and he told me not to even bother buying him a shirt. Demetri watched the two twins amused at seeing Jane wearing a tourist shirt. We finished up the tour, I wanted to get back to my babygirl before she went to bed. We returned home at 10 pm. Sarah was still awake. Sarah looked at Jane surprised and I was worried the two would break out into a fight. Sarah said something snide of course and I went to hug my babygirl. I noticed something was off, it was Sarah's scent, I could smell the scent of Marcus. I asked her why I could smell Marcus on her and she told me that she needed his help moving around. I believed her because I trusted her, she would never hurt me. I picked up my babygirl carefully and took her in our bedroom. She asked me why we were going to my room and I said "this is our room now babygirl and trust me once your turned we will give it a good baptising." Sarah blushed, but the blood to her cheeks was faint, I could barely see her cheeks turn red and barely smell it. Sarah told me she felt really weak, she asked me if I could get her diary and, then get her some blood and I of course obliged and got her both. When I returned, Sarah was asleep and her diary was on the bedside table. I put her cup of blood on the side just in case she woke up during the night and I laid down beside her. I spent the entire night watching her sleep. She did not move or make a single sound, she slept like a corpse dead to the world. Sarah woke up this morning around 11 am. I carried her to the lounge room and we sat together. I asked her how she felt today. Sarah answered in these exact words "oh I am just peechy, if this little angel of ours don't leave soon I am going to charge him or her rent." I chuckled and kissed her forehead. Sarah smiled weakly and we sat together for an hour. I fed her blood, but she still seemed so fragile I was scared of losing her. Sarah asked me to turn the radio on and we listened to it for a while. She asked me if she would do her a favor and I asked her what she wanted. She asked me to dance with her. I looked at her, she was huge...massive it looked like she would burst if someone poked her stomach and she still wanted to dance. I told her that she needed to rest and she started to cry she begged me to dance with her. I bit my lip and looked at her pale face, how could I refuse her she was everything to me. I lifted her up and carried her to the lounge room and lowered her slowly. Sarah stayed close and we danced together, the song did not even finish and she stumbled. I tried to lift her up and she told me NO. I looked at her in shock and she told me she could do this. Sarah was to the point of breaking and she still refused to cave in. We danced till the song ended. I tried to pick her up and she begged me for one more dance. I sighed and let her have her way, the song was beautiful she told me in this exact words "This will be our song Brian, Promise me, whenever you hear this song you will think of this moment and how much I love you and our child." I told her I promised her and she told me in return she promised she would never forget this moment.... no matter how dark her life became. I asked her what she meant. I was worried and that moment I heard a snap. I watched Sarah bend over and cry in pain ,the child had broken a rib. I carefully picked Sarah up and took her to the bedroom. I did my best trying to relieve the pain, she was whimpering in agony and I could see so much pain in her eyes at that moment.. I saw something else....fear. Sarah is resting now she refused to take anything for the pain so now she is breathing shallow breaths. I blame myself for Sarah's injury. I should have said no she was too fragile, I will never let Sarah get hurt ever again. I will protect my woman better from now on. I need to go I want to be with my babygirl. ~Brian Jacobson The first song Sarah & Brian danced to Sarah & Brians special song |
InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |