Topic: I thought I saw it all... I was wrong
Date: June 14, 2019 Dear Journal, I had taken a look at the back of the picture and I saw the truth in two words “I LIED”. I looked at those two words for what felt like an hour, Sarah had lied…she lied, the day she left she told me she had never had Jayne that it was a ploy to get me to feel sorry for her….Yet here I was holding a photo of her and Jayne. I couldn’t believe it I was looking between those two sides back and forth between “I lied” and the photo of that young Sarah holding her child, god even then she was beautiful. I didn’t know what to do so many thoughts and questions entered my mind. What is the truth? Is Sarah just messing with me? Why did she do this? So many more thoughts were in my head and I had no idea what to make of it, I knew there was one way to clear everything up. I went to Sarah’s box and rummaged around and finally I found it, her diary, when I opened it up I saw it was only one entry…it was impossible I had seen Sarah write in her diary loads of times…I used to consider reading her diary while she slept, but I never did…even after Sarah stomped on my heart I didn’t read her diary I didn’t want to expose myself to her dark heart, but now I had no choice I read the entry a hundred times it was short. Dear Diary, Being a mother and being a newborn is very difficult, I honestly can’t wait for Marcus to take me away from everyone so I will never have to see Brian or the child ever again I don’t mind my bedroom though, things would be perfect if Brian could move his ass and fix the loose floorboards under the dresser, maybe he should just pull the blasted things out, knowing his luck he would probably find buried treasure the rich vamp. anyway I have to go I am freaking thirsty and going now, I need to make sure the little brat goes to bed and such I'll read him Alice in Wonderland he seems to like that, and maybe I will dance with Brian, give the poor fool some memories to value. ~Sarah I closed the diary and was shocked, the words in her entry were odd, there was nothing wrong with the floorboards back home, but the dancing... that made me remember something….it was around 11 pm and Sarah was standing on the kitchen terrace the radio was turned on very low so Tobias could sleep. Sarah was troubled she made a fist and I wrapped my arms around her. That night she made me promise her something in these words she spoke “promise me you will protect Tobias with your life, that you will always put him first and remember he is still half human and that you will be strong and.........." I remember when I made that promise the song Hero by Enrique Iglesias was playing… I was in shock…I can’t believe I never thought of that until now…Why did she say such a thing...what is her reasoning behind it…if she cared about Tobias, why would she tell Jane to attack him, constantly put him at risk…if Sarah cared why would she do that…she knew I would protect him from Jane, but what if that was the point. She knew I would protect Tobias so she told Jane to attack him so it made it look like she didn’t care…It is a possibility it’s a small one. I decided I needed help, I needed advice, so I called Eleazar and asked if he could come to my place. Then I called Carlisle and requested that he come over along with Edward if possible. I figured the three of them knew Aro and the Volturi a lot better than I did. Carlisle told me his shift would end in an hour; in the meantime he would phone Edward and ask if he would come over. I knew Edward was spending the day with his family and Tobias hopefully Edward wouldn’t bring Tobias home yet. I waited an hour and in that hour I thought about the possibilities of what she meant. An hour went by and the three arrived together I greeted them and let them in, I watched the three of them and explained everything that I discovered and showed them the picture and diary, I desperately needed their advice, Carlisle looked at me “I don’t know about this Brian, I don’t think Sarah could outwit Aro, as you know he has the ability to see every thought a person has ever had at the touch, one small touch and he would have seen what she was up to.” Carlisle's words made me realize how foolish I was being he was right, of course Sarah couldn’t outwit Aro. Eleazar had his arms folded as he leaned against the wall, Edward looked at him curiously “that’s rather interesting Eleazar and I agree it could be a possibility.” I looked between them “what could be a possibility what is it.” I asked, Eleazar took a step away from the wall “years ago Carmen and I went to Volterra and we visited the Volturi…I saw Sarah, she was still in the phases of being a newborn, and she held on as long as she could then of course she snapped she charged at us and had to be restrained. One of the people restraining her was Aro, I remember his surprised expression at the time I did not think much of it, but now that I know this I believe there is a possibility Sarah had sneaked something past him and maybe just maybe Sarah pulled off the impossible.” Carlisle seemed to be thinking hard, I on the other hand felt excitement and hope…hope that Sarah actually loved me after all. I realized that even though Sarah did trick Aro it did not change anything only more questions came into my head... What was her trick? Why did she have to resort to trickery? What did this mean for me? Why resort to such extremes? I couldn’t figure it out “well even if she tricked Aro so what, what does this have to do with the diary and the photo.” I asked feeling frustrated Edward looked at the Diary entry “it could be everything…read past the obvious listen. 'Things would be perfect if Brian could move his ass and fix the loose floorboards under the dresser, maybe he should just pull the blasted things out, knowing his luck he would probably find buried treasure'…it almost sounds like instructions.” Edward had spoken and I knew there was a good chance he was right I could feel it. I picked up the photo on the table and looked at it I wondered what sort of plan Sarah could come up with that could fool the Volturi. I bit my lip “I am going back to New York” I announced, the three of them looked at me surprised “I will join you, if that is alright.” Eleazar asked and I nodded my head it would be good to have backup, just in case things got out of hand. I thought about Tobias and wondered what to do about him, I knew I couldn’t tell him that I was going to go hunting the truth about his mother…not when I told him she was dead…yet I couldn’t leave him on his own, Edward interrupted me from my thoughts, “Don’t worry about Tobias I will take care of him as if he was my own.” I thanked Edward for the offer and accepted it, I knew my son would be safe with Edward and the Cullens. Carlisle nodded “yes he will be safe with us, but what would you like us to tell Tobias should he ask where you are.” I thought about that for a moment “Tell him I had some business to sort out, I will be back as soon as possible…that I love him and will see him soon.” Carlisle told me he would tell Tobias that and left with Edward, Eleazar went back to his place to collect his passport and while he was doing that I was getting my passport ready… I didn’t plan to stop at just New York I had plans to go to Italy one way or another I will have my answers. Eleazar had finally returned and we left to the airport, by the time we get to New York it would be night time. While waiting for the plane to arrive I had called for a rental car to be waiting at the air port, when I hung up I saw Kate and Garrett both of them had plane tickets and Kate had with her a duffel bag “Kate…Garrett what are you doing here.” Eleazar asked surprised “Alice told me she saw you going to Volterra after New York… I am going too…I have a score to settle with the bastards who killed Irena” Eleazar did not look happy he told them they shouldn’t get mixed up in my business. That they should just stay here, Kate had kicked up a fuss before finally giving up. The two saw us off and I thanked Eleazar for getting them to change their minds, the last thing I wanted was for the encounter to turn into a blood bath, but I knew there was a very good chance of that becoming a possibility. I asked Eleazar how Carmen felt about him coming with me, He was quiet for a moment and he looked at his wedding band “she wanted to come with us, but I did not want her to get involved, Brian… I am afraid New York is the only stop I can go with you…if I provoke the Volturi then everyone I love would be dead…I will go with you to your old home and that is all.” I told Eleazar I understood and I thanked him for coming with me. I would occasionally pull out the photo of Sarah and Jayne. I looked at Sarah, I wondered how different her life would have been if she was allowed to keep Jayne…maybe she would still be in Seattle, we would never have met I would still be living without love and never have had my little miracle…my son. The trip was quiet, but eventually we arrived in New York. We had left right off and found the rental car. I was speeding like a manic to my old house, watching the road I could see the white line on the sides pass in a blur. Sarah was on my mind, I had spent the last ten years trying to forget her and here I am now opening the door I worked so hard to close, memories of her flooded my head and I gripped tighter on the steering wheel, I remembered when we first met, how she had told me she didn’t want to be saved when the driver almost ran her down…I remembered the first time we went on a date and I remembered how she had gone all medieval on a human whom she challenged to a Karaoke contest…I smiled at that memory she was a devious little punk much like her son. I remember telling her I was a vampire, she was so pissed and freaked out she compared our love making to necrophilia only Sarah would realize that the moment she finds out her boyfriend was a vampire and of course I remember her playing the song she wrote for me and sung for me. The words she spoke before she played “I wrote this song for you Brian, it’s based on how my life was before you and how everything has changed since I met you and mostly how I feel about you now.” I felt so alive and inspired when she sung that for me. I had found myself thinking about Sarah too much, getting my hopes up when for all I know I could be going into a dead end. I decided to distract myself by turning on the radio and was shocked by the music that was playing, of all the rotten luck it was our song….All Yours by Metric. The first thoughts that came into my mind when hearing this song was actually a memory…Sarah was heavily pregnant and we had just finished a dance, she wanted one more dance and I caved into her wants and as we danced slowly she told me “This will be our song Brian, Promise me, whenever you hear this song you will think of this moment and how much I love you and our child.” Come to think of it I remembered asking her what she meant by her side of the promise….she never answered, Tobias thought it would be fun breaking mommy’s ribs. The more I think about the memories the more I am starting to have hope that not everything was as it seemed in Sarah’s departure from my life, that she loved her son and she loved me. The drive home felt like an eternity, Eleazar asked me what was on my mind that certainly was a strange question. I knew my home wasn’t too far from here “Sarah…I keep thinking back on the past, remembering the memories…I tried so hard to block it out and yet here I am allowing myself to think of her…and I am troubled, the puzzle pieces in my head is coming together, Sarah’s behavior before she left…it was frightening and then the day she left she was brutal, and mean, I actually just remembered something Sarah said I had asked Sarah why she was leaving me…one of the things she said “I would say I am sorry to you for letting you think you would have a picture perfect family, but I am not...I excel at not giving a shit….What if it was a clue Eleazar, what if Sarah was trying to give me a clue I mean she made a photo reference and I find a photo of her and her daughter telling me she lied…I remember asking for the engagement ring back from her, she turned her back from me and removed it…why couldn’t she do it facing me...I see the puzzle pieces coming together, but I am afraid I am over thinking it…what if it’s all in my imagination.” It felt strange to vent my thoughts and feelings to Eleazar. I eventually slowed the car down, because we were getting closer to my place “Brian you must try and put things in perspective, you are getting all worked up, all these thoughts aren’t good it will cloud you’re judgment.” I had asked Eleazar what I should do and he told me to try and focus on one thing to find my focus, It had only taken me a moment to find my focus to keep my mind on one thing….my son I thought only of Tobias his smile, his heart beat and his soul. I felt calmer and thanked Eleazar. We eventually made it to my place; I parked the car right next to the door and jumped out barely remembering to turn off the engine and put the parking break on. I ran inside with Eleazar behind me and ran to Sarah’s old bedroom, the cabinet was still there I picked it up and moved it to the side and looked at the floorboards and got on my knees I didn’t have the patience to open it up the traditional way so instead I punched a hole into the floorboards and pulled out the broken floorboards on the area I cleaned it out in a frenzy and there it was my answer, Sarah’s secret was in my reach. Out of the remains of the floorboard I pulled out a dusty book, it was identical to the diary I had found in her box and with the diary was an envelope. It was dusty, but I could see my name on it. I sat on the ground and opened the letter Eleazar was towering over me as I began to read her letter. Dear Brian, If you are reading this then I have already left, I pray that you were able to figure out the clues I gave you before my departure. I have so much I want to tell you, so much you need to know…but I cannot tell you in this letter heck I can’t even think about it because of Aro. I want to beg for your forgiveness for the horrible things I have said and done, I am truly a monster for the horrible things I have done, but I have no regrets, what I have said and what I have done I have done to protect you and our son. The thought of being away from you and loosing out on seeing our son grow up…it is ripping me apart, the only comfort I have is knowing you will do a good job raising him and when I miss you both I will look at this engagement ring you gave me and I will be able to imagine the life we should have had. I have enclosed my True diary to you Brian; it holds my story, and the reasons behind my actions. If you have discovered this right after my departure I ask that you take this diary with you and replace the diary with the fake diary…It’s the only way to trick Aro. He may be able to see my thoughts, but the last few entries hold the truth…this is evidence against Aro. Speaking of which I have discovered a loop hole in his ability…Aro has the ability to see every thought you have ever had, but he cannot see the things we don’t think about, if we think things half way through, then he won’t be able to complete the picture…Read my diary Brian you will understand, don’t come after me I am doing this to protect you and our son…if you want to do something every night Tobias goes to bed give him that extra hug for me….I love you Brian and I love our son…stay safe. One last thing... Take Tobias and run from here, run as far as you can and don’t turn back, I fear this place is no longer safe for either of you and I know I won’t be able to hold off the Volturi for long I doubt their the type of monsters to keep their word. ~Sarah I was in shock, I had read the letter over and over in shock, I handed it to Eleazar “it’s her handwriting.” I mumbled, I should have been happy, but I wasn’t. Sarah had sacrificed herself for Tobias….she sacrificed herself for me. To top it off the only comfort she would have had and I told her to give me the engagement ring I finally understand why she couldn’t look me in the eyes when she removed the engagement ring…her heart was breaking. I had opened Sarah’s diary and read the entries from page to page, I saw her sorrow, her anger, her bitterness and her joy. Her thoughts and emotions…no her very essence was in this diary. I liked how I was a feature in her diary it made me feel like I was the center of her universe just as she was mine, and then I came to the entry that completed the puzzle that explained everything. The Entry dated the first of June, 2009 I was outraged that The Volturi threatened my life and the life of my son and saran’s life…Sarah had done something that had taken so much courage to do…I continued to read on reading until the very last entry she made, I was sad she had to resort to sacrificing herself…but then I smiled as I realized what it meant, Sarah loved me. I picked myself up and knew what had to be done. I had to rescue my baby girl. I handed the diary to Eleazar “Eleazar… I am going after Sarah, I can’t leave her with the Volturi…will you do me a favor.” I asked him, Eleazar had looked at me surprised. “just ask my friend.” I smiled and handed him Sarah’s diary. “If I don’t return look out for Tobias…I know Edward said he would take care of him, but Edward himself, it’s just I trust you Eleazar, I trust you so much I am leaving Sarah’s diary with you…If I don’t return give it to Tobias he should know how incredible his mother is and not a lie” Eleazar was kind enough to agree and we walked out of the house. We were on our way to the airport he was going home, I was going to the center of hell to save the only woman whom I truly loved two men in one car going down very different paths. I drove the car and had imagined what would go down. I would rush down the hall and reach the throne room, I would place my hand out as if I was offering Sarah a life helping hand I would tell her to come with me she would be loved and safe with me, I would protect her for a change. She would run into my arms and I would hug her, would I let her go…never, we would run from the Volturi leaving them behind us, Sarah would be free from their darkness. We would go back to Denali. I would introduce Tobias to his brave and selfless mother…I realize I am getting ahead of myself. We arrived to the airport and my plane was the first to arrive, Eleazar had wished me luck and I thanked him. Once I boarded the plane I found my seat and I sat there and for the first time since reading Sarah’s diary I was able to let all the entries sink in…her thoughts, her feelings holding her diary it was like holding a piece of her soul…She asked me not to come for her, but fuck it if there is anything I have learned from Sarah, no sacrifice is too big when it comes to love. For most of the plane ride I thought about the future the life I would have with Sarah and Tobias, I had gotten way ahead of myself I imagined Sarah and I would take Tobias camping we would go fishing…maybe we would do it the human way, naturally Tobias would do something totally unexpected and get into trouble…he takes after Sarah in that way. I would scold him and he would just do his own little thing, the defiant little punk. Eventually I would enroll him into high school, and together Sarah and I would see our son go off on his first day of high school…Sarah had missed so much of his life, but I will be damned if she misses his first day of high school. I had arrived at the airport and I had taken a rental car and drove off to Volterra, I thought about Tobias and Sarah a great deal of the time I also did my best not to think of anymore questions which is almost impossible to do. I drove and I arrived in Volterra. For a moment I was tempted to just barge in there and demand to have Sarah's freedom restored and threaten them if they ever came near me and my family again I would end them, but instead I returned to my holiday house to compose myself. When I returned to the house I was not surprised by how dusty it was. After all it had been ten years since I was here, it was natural for it to be dusty. I walked through the house slowly and I stopped at the shower, this place was special, it wasn’t just where we had sex for the first time, but it was where we connected where Sarah told me about her past. I think one day I will bring Sarah and Tobias back here and we could live together of course that depended on how things turned out with the Volturi today. It was nightfall around 6 pm when there was a knock on the front door. I had opened to see Demetri, Santiago and Felix standing there “you’re presence is requested before lord Aro” Demetri spoke quietly. I looked at the pair and walked out closing the door behind me and followed them. We walked down the streets with Santiago and Felix walking beside me and Demetri followed behind. We were walking to the castle in silence and I spoke “I know the truth; Sarah never went with you bastards willingly.” I spoke out in anger, my voice was low so low that human ears could not hear it, when Felix spoke “you’re a fool, you know the sacrifice she made for you and yet you return here…everything she has done and endured is now for nothing!” He hissed sounding a little angry. I had listened to Felix’s words when he mentioned endured it had caught my interest had she suffered did those sick bastards hurt her. I wanted to ask more, but Felix hissed and told me to be quiet. We arrived at the tower and made our way through the sewers and I saw a new human assistant. It seems Gina, or whatever her name was, was promoted to lunch. Felix nodded to the human female before we walked in to the throne room, as expected there was the Volturi kings Caius on the right, Aro in the middle and the soon to be corpse Marcus on the left. The four of us were not alone in the room, Felix and Santiago were at my side, while Demetri was behind me. Some of the other guards were there too they had all shown their faces with the exception of two that had their hoods up to cover their faces. I looked at Aro and pointed to him “you and I have much to discuss Aro” I spoke out keeping my voice calm, but barely. Aro kept that fake smile on his face and spoke calmly “Brian Jacobson my old friend how have you been…how is you’re son?” He asked curiously, when he mentioned my son I wanted to rip his tongue out and shove it down his throat. “He is better now that he is about to have his mother back.” I spoke out with a snarl. Marcus was about to say something when Aro raised his hand to silence him “Brian my old friend, I am not sure what your implying.” I felt my anger boil and I yelled out “I KNOW EVERYTHING ARO AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS!! SARAH DOESN’T LOVE THAT BONEY OLD BASTARD AND SHE DESERVES TO BE WITH THE ONE SHE LOVES!” Marcus stood up “She is my wife and MY mate Brian, she chose me! Not you! GET OVER IT.” He spoke out I snarled “she did not have a choice Marcus, I know all about you’re deal with Sarah…You and Aro spoke about killing my son and I….you’re corrupt with power” I yelled out my rage still building. Caius watched with interest as if he was watching a soap opera. Marcus looked at me with hatred “you choose to fight for her then...a weakling like you against us, the Volturi.” He asked and I looked at Marcus “Sarah taught me something important about fighting for the ones you love, to do anything to protect them that gives you strength and with that very strength I will destroy you all to have the woman I love safely back where she belongs…with her SON and her soul mate.” At that moment Jane had left the room and Aro spoke “the Sarah that you knew Brian, she is no longer there….Sarah has changed for the better, she has moved on and forgotten you.” I yelled back that it was a lie and a few moments later Jane had returned, I wondered where she went. “I will fight for Sarah and I don’t even care if it costs me my life I will bring her back to her son…to her family where she belongs.” Aro looked at Jane and she nodded her head, he returned his gaze on me and then he spoke “such a waste” he snapped his fingers and Santiago and Felix grabbed me and held me down. I struggled, but there was no way I could over power these two. I looked at the Volturi with hatred, I was once their ally and I believed in their cause, but my eyes have been opened to what they truly are, the very darkness in our kind, upholding a twisted sense of justice, Those who have power seek to use that power, and the Volturi kings had that power especially now that they had her….they had my mate Sarah hostage and she is because I know my soul mate better than anyone else could. I stood before the three kings Restrained by Felix and Santiago and watched as the doors behind the throne opened Athenodora walked out first wearing a long black dress with a golden necklace that held the Volturi crest on it, looked the same as when we last met, she moved to stand beside Caius’ while he sat on his throne, The next to walked in was Sulpicia she wore an emerald green dress and the same necklace as Athenodora. I had noticed all members of the Volturi wore the necklace with the crest, pretty little dog collars to show the world that those people belonged to, Athenodora stood behind the seated Aro. Of course I knew this would happen, but I still could not believe it my eyes opened as she walked in a few moments after the two queens it was Sarah I had gasped when I saw her, I could barely recognize her, her hair was blond…not the spray dye blond in a can she used when we first met, but the real blond the type of blond that you gained from bleaching your hair. She came and in dressed in a long silk, skin tight dress, she had a leather jacket on covering her arms and back, and there on her chest hung the golden necklace with the Volturi crest…I looked at her face, her beautiful face and I saw no emotions at all, it was as if she was dead….truly dead, there was no soul no life at all. “Sarah my pet…give me a kiss.” Marcus spoke as he looked up at her, to my horror Sarah obediently leaned down to kiss Marcus on the lips and I could see a slip of his tongue and felt anger and disgust. He pulled back and spoke “Sarah this is Brian Jacobson the vampire that attacked you all those years ago.” He couldn’t finish as I interrupted “That’s a lie Sarah I would never hurt you.” Santiago tightened his arms around me and I was silenced and heard Marcus continue to weave his web of lies. “That man was exiled from Volterra yet he has returned, thus breaking the law….how should we punish this law breaker.” Marcus asked. I watched Sarah as she broke Marcus' gaze she turned to look at me and lifted her hand and pointed out a single finger her eyes were dead “Off with his head” she spoke emotionless, her voice left an echo in the room and her tone reminded me of the red queen from Tobias’ book, I could feel Felix hand’s on my neck. “SARAH!” I yelled out desperately. I looked at Sarah and she spoke “Stop” I smiled, I knew she couldn’t do this. She leaned in to Marcus’ ear and whispered something, I could see a smile come onto his lips “since you have been a good girl I'll allow it as a treat my pet.” I watched her pulled back and she smiled Marcus looked to the guards “Step down” Santiago and Felix had let go of me and walked off to join the other guards. Sarah had left Marcus' side and approached me I didn’t move an inch, she was an angel that was approaching me. She had an unfamiliar smile on her face, it was almost cold and fake…no emotions. She stopped inches from me and placed her hands around my neck “I don’t remember you Mr. Jacobson, I was fortunate enough to loose my memories including the night you tried to assault me, I am finally able to get revenge, for how much you destroyed my life Mr. Jacobson.” As she spoke her hands tightened around my neck. The Sarah I knew was gone, what would I do could I bring my self to harming her…no I had failed to protect Sarah, she was right it was my fault she was here I destroyed her life because of me she is a slave to the Volturi. Sarah’s grip tightened around my neck she asked me if I had any last words and I closed my eyes for a moment thinking and then I opened to look in those crimson red eyes of hers “Sarah…the real Sarah I know you're there deep down inside…If you can hear me….I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn’t protect you I am sorry that because of my weakness you have suffered so much and missed out on so many years of good memories. Forgive me babygirl please.” There was so much more I wanted to say to her. Sarah seemed surprised her grip loosened “babygirl…that’s one of the nicknames Marcus calls me.” She spoke I looked at Marcus in rage he couldn’t even think of his own fucking nickname for her. I moved in to Sarah close and I had my hands on both her cheeks and leaned in to kiss her passionately. Sarah fought at first, and then she then she stopped completely my tongue was rubbing against hers and she began to kiss back her arms wrapped around my waist. I had missed her touch so much I felt like we were inches from entering our own personal paradise. I heard an angry voice yell out “Sarah” it belonged to Marcus, Sarah stopped and in a flash she had pulled back and stepped in front of me with her arms stretched out as if she was protecting me. “Marcus it’s over between us, from this day forward I want nothing to do with you…you lied to me, and you have allowed some horrible things to happen to me in the last ten years…I will not allow you to harm my child’s father I forbid it.” Sarah spoke with such authority, but something about her still seemed different. Sarah turned to face me “lets go home…baby boy” she spoke with a weak smile I asked if she remembered me and she told me she had a lot to explain. We were about to walk out of the throne room when I heard Marcus yell out “Felix, Santiago, kill Brian.” I had suddenly felt something hit my back leg and I fell on my ass I realized it was Sarah's foot she stepped on top of me and I watched as Felix and Santiago approached her from both sides she caught their fists and actually stopped them in their tracks. I couldn’t believe this how was it Sarah stopped two of the strongest guards in the Volturi just by catching their wrist. Sarah continued to just stand on my gut “I don’t like it when people attack my loved ones, I get kind of testy” she spoke clearly sounding annoyed she turned in a circle and tossed them back. Felix crashed into a wall while Santiago was sliding against the ground, on his feet he looked at Sarah as she stepped off my gut, I started to get up when I heard Aro speak “Jane” I watched as Jane stepped forward with that usual sadistic grin on her face in a matter of moments Sarah or I would be on the ground in agony, but that never happened. When the Volturi member with their hood on placed their hand on Jane and she fell to the ground screaming and twitching. Everyone looked to Jane in shock. And the cloaked member the guard pulled down the hood to reveal Kate “KATE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE” I yelled out, Kate smiled “please as if I was going to let you have all the fun.” Kate jumped onto Jane’s gut and bent down to keep shocking her. Jane was screaming and Santiago turned from Sarah's direction and ran towards Kate, all I could do was watch as Sarah charged off and tackled Santiago she leaned down and bit into his neck pulling a huge chunk out before pulling off his head completely. I looked as I heard Alex gasp he was picked up by the second hooded Volturi member and thrown into a wall, I watched in shock as the cloaked member revealed himself to be Garrett. “Sarah Catch” Sarah had looked at Garrett surprised as he threw a match box. Sarah caught it and got up, she pulled out a matchstick and light the stick up before she threw it onto Santiago and he caught fire. I was in shock at how this had all turned into a circus. Aro stood up “don’t just stand there seize them and destroy them all” Kate got up and ran towards me and Garrett joined in he was right behind Kate, Sarah joined us “we have to leave now.” She spoke she grabbed my hand and started to run, I followed after her with Kate and Garrett behind us, I couldn’t believe those two defied Eleazar and came to Volterra. We ran and Demetri followed after us, Sarah and I looked back back Demetri was right behind us he had something in his hand a purple vial. He threw it and Sarah let go of my hand and shielded me from the vial, it broke and touched her back and she yelled out in pain I was about to stop when she spoke “keep running.” Sarah spoke, Sarah stopped punched Demetri she punched down one of the pillars and the ceiling above us began to shake. We had stopped running to see Demetri pick himself up as he charged to us Sarah stopped him and threw him into the other pillar forcing the ceiling to tremble it was beginning to collapse Sarah looked at me and she pulled something out from between her breast it was a sheathed dagger she chucked it to me and I caught it. “Brian….this is a weapon covered in a deadly poison the Volturi have been working on a poison to get rid of the Cullen’s coven…you have to warn them get them to run….take Tobias and flee with them.” She sounded like she was in serious pain. Sarah looked back at Demetri “Sarah how can we run with Demetri…he will be able to find us wherever we go.” She told me not to worry about Demetri to just go and protect our son. Kate grabbed my hand “we have to go and trust that Sarah knows what she is doing.” She told me. I still didn’t want to go “BRIAN SAVE TOBIAS” she yelled out sounding a little pissed “Ill take him somewhere safe and then I'll be back for you babygirl.” I told her. She looked back at me and smiled “I know you will…I love you Brian, now and forever” she spoke before the ceiling in front of me collapsed blocking us off. Kate grabbed my hand “come we have to go, we need to warn the family.” She spoke I nodded and ran with the sheathed dagger Sarah had left me. We ran to the air port and kept a look out for the Volturi, we had to keep our guard up and watch out for a retaliation. While we were at the airport Garrett had called the Denali’s and Cullens and told them to leave immediately and run into hiding. I briefly spoke to Edward and he told me not to worry he will keep Tobias safe like he promised, I asked him not to tell Tobias what was happening and he told me he wouldn’t say a word. Garrett had resumed to talking on the cell phone, while Kate sat next to me “you know I got to tell you this Brian I don’t know Sarah, but I like her she has mad flavor and mad ass fighting skills, she’s a tough cookie.” I smiled sadly “yeah she is the strongest women I ever met.” I spoke knowing it was the truth. I intended to keep my promise to her, once I get Tobias to safety I would be back to rescue Sarah that’s a PROMISE! ~Brian Jacobson
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The moment has arrived what you have been waiting for after 10 years of being apart Brian and Sarah come’s face to face Will Sarah remember Brian, Will Brian be able to save Sarah from the darkness that she allowed to consume her to protect her soul mate and child. What will happen only time will tell what will happen, but one thing for sure is certain someone will not make it alive; someone will suffer the true death.
Spoiler I looked at the Volturi with hatred, I was once their ally and I believed in their cause, but my eyes have been opened to what they truly are, the very darkness in our kind, upholding a twisted sense of justice, Those who have power seek to use that power, and the Volturi kings had that power especially now that they had her….they had my mate Sarah hostage and she is because I know my soul mate better than anyone else could. I stood before the three kings Restrained by Felix and Santiago and watched as the doors behind the throne opened Athenodora walked out first wearing a long black dress with a golden necklace that held the Volturi crest on it, looked the same as when we last met, she moved to stand beside Caius’ while he sat on his throne, The next to walked in was Sulpicia she wore an emerald green dress and the same necklace as Athenodora. I had noticed all members of the Volturi wore the necklace with the crest, pretty little dog collars to show the world that those people belonged to, Athenodora stood behind the seated Aro. Of course I knew this would happen, but I still could not believe it my eyes opened as she walked in a few moments after the two queens it was Sarah I had gasped when I saw her, I could barely recognize her, her hair was blond…not the hair dye blond in a can she used when we first met, but the real blond the type of blond what you gained from bleaching your hair. She came and in dressed in a long silk and skin tight dress her outfit she had a leather jacket on covering her arms and back and on her chest hung the golden necklace with the Volturi crest…I looked at her face, her beautiful face and I saw no emotions at all, it was as if she was dead….truly dead there was no soul no life at all. “Sarah my pet…give me a kiss.” Marcus spoke as he looked up at her, to my horror Sarah obediently leaned down to kiss Marcus on the lips and I could see a slip of his tongue and felt anger and disgust. He pulled back and spoke “Sarah this is Brian Jacobson the vampire that attacked you all those years ago.” He couldn’t finish as I interrupted “That’s a lie Sarah I would never hurt you.” Santiago tightened his arms around me and I was silenced and heard Marcus continue to weave his web of lies. “That man was exiled from Volterra yet he has returned, thus breaking the law….how should we punish this law breaker.” Marcus asked. I watched Sarah as she broke Marcus gaze she turned to look at me and lifted her hand and pointed out a single finger her eyes were dead “Off with his head” she spoke emotionless, her voice left an echo in the room and her tone reminded me of the red queen from Tobias’ book, I could feel Felix hand’s on my neck. “SARAH” I yelled out desperately. Topic: even after she left me she suprises me
Date: june 12th 2019 The future may not be set in stone, but the past is so why bother looking back on that what cannot be changed, look to the future because that is where you will spend the rest of your life. ~Martin Gubecka Dear Journal, It has been one full day since Tobias went to stay with the Cullens as a guest in their household. I am not sure how I should explain the emotions I am feeling, I have a strong conflicting feeling. I am glad my son is socializing with others, forming bonds of friendship and finding an extended family for him, but I also worry about my son I think it's my parental instincts, a powerful instinct every parent has to protect their child... it's very primal. The one thing I am not used to is the silence it's eerie and haunting. I remembered feeling this just after I became a vampire, right after I killed my master and entire family. It was the quiet at first it was awkward, but then it came a friend to me. I adjusted to the silence and embraced it as peaceful. Then I met her... noise was reintroduced into my life. When she left, I was left with Tobias my little punk... He brought sound to my life, with his abnormal heart beats, the sound of his breathing, the sound of the way he would speak... I learned to get used to it, to love having it in my immortal life every single day, but now well... it's just too damn quiet. In this one day I seem to be stuck on an endless loop I regularly pace the house, checking Tobias' bedroom and then checking my own. After another round of pacing the house I went to Tobias' bedroom and laid on his new bed. I looked up at the ceiling. The ceiling was a creamy white color and I considered painting it or hiring some sort of painter to paint something interesting for my son to look at before he goes to bed. After a lot of thought, I decided to have someone paint the solar system on the ceiling. I think I may make it the light bulb is the sun... I'm not sure I will have to think about it... I think Tobias would like that. I have also come to realize that without Tobias my life was extremely empty, I tried to think of the things I did before Tobias' time, All I could think of was work. I used to have such fun working, but now, compared to spending time with Tobias... it's nothing compared to my son. Right after I realized that I went to visit the Cullens, when I arrived I noticed Tobias was no where to be seen. The only people at the house were Esme, Emmett and Rosalie. I could smell the stench of food in the kitchen and knew it was Esme as I heard her greeting from the living room. Emmett was sitting on the couch with Rosalie on his lap the two seemed to be watching football. I asked them where my son was. and Emmett answered "Well Carlisle is at work, Alice and Jasper have gone to the movies." Emmett thought he was being funny in avoiding my question and I scowled at him only to see Emmett laugh and point at me "Rose Rose, look he has the exact same scowling face as Tobias the way Brian and Tobias facial expression look exactly the same is freaky." Emmett spoke out snorting a laugh. I gave a low growl and Esme came into the room, she was wearing jeans and a black Floral blouse. She had on a plain white apron over her attire. Esme's heart shaped face was clearly her main feature since her caramel colored hair was tied into a bun she looked at Emmett and Rosalie "Emmett don't be mean. Brian, Tobias is spending the day with Edward, Bella and Renesmee they have gone to town, I believe Edward said something about visiting a book store and taking the children out to lunch, Esme then excused herself she was apparently cooking a feast for Tobias and Renesmee's dinner. I followed after her and sat on the stool. Esme Explained that she is cooking the children some sort of food, she pronounced it over and over, but I gave up on trying to figure it out, Tobias should be happy for desert he would be having chocolate cake. I told Esme that if she kept feeding Tobias junk food he won't want to leave and she laughed. Esme mentioned that Renesmee did not like to eat human food very much. I knew the feeling when Tobias was younger he just wanted blood. I suggested to Esme that she used blood for side meals for Renesmee maybe even mix in some of the blood with the food. I offered to give Esme some recipes, when I thought about one of the earlier recipes I tried when my son was a young one. there was this time I tried to make Pizza and use blood to mix in with the tomato spice with oregano herbs and a little bit of sweet chilli sauce... when the food was done, Tobias took a reluctant bite and when he hated it he threw the slice of pizza to my face. i remembered the dirty look as the pizza fell off my face and it was all cheesy. My son just laughed his head off, he could get away with bloody murder and he knew it. I was brought out of my memory when Esme asked me how I thought to use both blood and human food. "his mother thought of it." I told her quietly, as soon as I brought Sarah up i regretted it, she has become a phantom in my life she haunts me and I have no doubt I will never get over her. I loved her with all my heart... I still do, but she never loved me that woman never even loved our son. I thought about her a lot... and I realized while that woman... she lied to me from the start, and I did the same, I lied to her and I was selfish I placed my needs above hers. I was selfish with her. The difference between us is I loved her... and I still do. I thought about that liar too much. I should be thinking what to say to Tanya... we had sex,but it didn't mean anything because I didn't love her. I knew that now the only problem was, I did not know what to do or say to Tanya. I needed advice and Esme was there the last time it was her husband who gave me insight on my son. I wondered if his wife could do the same, but then you know what they say behind every great man there has to be a great woman. So I told her everything. Emmett obviously overheard me as I could hear him snickering and whispering to rose "about time Tanya got to score." I frowned and Esme smiled telling me to ignore Emmett. Esme asked me about my feelings for Tanya and I told her I liked her as an individual, but that’s it. Esme was quiet for a moment as she placed the cake in the fridge and she told me "There are many types of love in this world Brian, some love is instant like it's destined... and some love takes time. It starts off as meeting someone, liking them as a friend, like turns into friendship, friendship turns into respect and respect will eventually turn into love... I believe that sleeping with Tanya was a way of your heart telling you, that you are ready to move on." I was in awe of Esme's wisdom and asked her what she would do if she were in my shoes. "Honestly I would go through everything you owned that belonged to Tobias' mother... keep what you want to pass on to Tobias and the rest you throw away make a new start Brian you deserve it." she spoke with a loving tone. The words of Esme well, it was incredible so sincere. I knew she was right, so I left The Cullens' and returned home to the box of her belongings and opened it up. Her scent immediately filled the air and brought me many memories of her. Inside the box there was a photo of us on top of her clothing I picked it up to look at the photo. and held it looking at the beauty of her... Just looking at a photo of her made me furious I threw it to the wall and watched as the glass shattered and the frame fell apart, I expected to see one photo fall to the ground with the shattered photo frame and glass, but there were two. I immediately found myself curious and walked to the broken frame and photos picking them both up, there was the first photo of us, but the second one... it took me by surprise. Two flashes entered my mind, both of them was of her. The first flashback I had was of myself asking her if she had a photo of her daughter Jayne, she told me she didn't. The second was a memory of the day she left where she told me she did not have a daughter, she made it up to lure me in so she could use me for my wealth. I looked at the photo of her, she looked so young in this photo and she looked happy with Jayne in her arms... I couldn't understand anything and when I looked on the back of the photo my eyes widen with shock with what I saw next... ~Brian Jacobson Hey yall it's Martin here, I decided to leave with a cliff hanger. lol. I am interested in seeing your theorys on what will happen, so feel free to post on the twilight diaries facebook group and let us know what you think is going to happen. I also want to wish you all a happy new years, have a happy and safe holiday. ~Martin Gubecka Topic: this is just going to be so weird being without tobias, i guess i need to this time alone to sort myself out
Date: June 11th,2019 Dear Journal I had plans you know, I wanted to get Tobias settled in to this new house only problem is he is not here, I need to tell you what happened recently. Right after my last entry I packed a sports bag with some of Tobias's clothing he was sleeping over at the Denali's because our new furniture did not arrive. When I arrived I found Tobias fast asleep on the couch tucked under the blanket he slept. He seemed so peaceful when he sleeps. I wanted to wake him up, but Carmen told me to let the boy sleep. I Left the bag by the couch and walked outside to get some fresh air. I stayed within hearing distance, hearing my son breathe softly inhaling and exhaling. Since becoming a father there is a lot of things I love, here let me give you a list of my favourite sounds 1. My son's heart beat 2. The way my son breathes 3. My son's laughter 4. My son's attitude 5. My son's voice 6. My son's table manners [Lack there of] 7. My son's snore 8. My son's sleep talk Yes if I could make that into an album I would, maybe I am getting a little obsessive, but I can't help it he is my world. You will never know or understand love until you have a child. because when you have a child you realize how insignificant your life is until you have a child, because you realize that you are no longer the most important person in your life, you have a child that depends & relies on you to look after them, to feed them & clothe them & make sure they have bathes even though they try to bail. Tobias is the most important person in my life. He is sacred to me, and as I keep trying to describe how much I love him there is no words for love, there is this feeling inside me it’s a warmth I feel and I can't imagine my immortality without this warmth inside me. I swear one day I will find a way to describe the magnitude of this sensation & the emotions. Tanya eventually came outside and joined me, being in her presence was a little strange I guess it's awkward because of that incident that happened last time we saw each other. We were close to having sex, but I couldn't...I was still holding onto my memories of the woman I loved. Tanya told me about Tobias behaviour he had used his gift to blind Kate. I was shocked Tobias would do that, he knew better than to use his gift on others to harm them I made sure he knew to only do that if it was self defence...I am going to have to ground him once we are settled in. Tanya told me she received a call from Rosalie Hale earlier wondering if they could bring Tobias over today. I asked her if my son would be safe there and she told me of course he would be the Cullens were a gentle coven that knew the meaning of Love & family. I told her I would think about it, Letting Tobias visit the Cullens would give me time to set the house up for when the furniture arrived & it would also allow me to go food shopping for Tobias. If he was with me he would probably be bored out of his mind. I told Tanya Tobias could go and visit the coven as long he is with Eleazar. I trusted him enough to care for my son at least for today; I don't think anyone could protect my son or care for him like I do. I waited for Tobias to wake up and when he finally did I hugged him good morning and proceeded to scold him for blinding Kate, Tobias frowned and I petted his head trying to reassure him that I loved him. I just wanted him to know what he did was wrong and that he should lean from his mistakes. I mean how will he grow and mature if he never learns from his mistake. Tobias told me he was not hungry so I gave him the sports bag and told him to go to the bathroom and get changed; he was going to meet the Cullens today. My son seemed very excited he bolted off towards the bathroom with the sports bag and closed the door a locking sound could be heard, I thanked Eleazar for taking Tobias off my hands for today and Eleazar told me he did not mind, he found Tobias to be a delightful child. I was glad Tobias had managed to charm everyone around him. Tobias came out a few moments later dressed the boy had forgot to comb his hair he looked scruffy this would not do, I pulled out the comb from the sports bag side pocket and moved to Tobias and began combing his hair "Dad stop it you're embarrassing me" he complained, "well next time you will think to comb you're hair before you claim to be ready...you wont go out as some scruffy punk." I told him, Tobias frowned as he kept trying to push my hand away & Tanya chuckled watching while Kate, Carmen, Eleazar & garret were quiet. I finally finished and looked at his face and saw a smudge on his cheek "here let me get that" I spoke pulling out a tissue from my pocket, I suddenly felt Tobias stomp my foot and I hopped back to watch him bolt "That HURTS you little punk." I roared. Tobias chuckled darkly and I glared at him, "it was either that or let you clean me and that’s just creepy dad" I glowered at him as he gave me attitude....I decided to drop it "Fine...he is ready to go now, but be on you're best behaviour and no showing off." I told my son, I watch my son smile and everyone, but Tanya seemed to be getting ready to go. Tobias left out the door "Hey where is my hug" I yelled out, in less then what would have been a human heart beat Tobias returned and gave me a hug I placed my hand on his back "Love you dad" he spoke "Love you more" I replied and watched as he let go and ran out of the door. To catch up with Carmen, Kate and Garrett. Eleazar promised me Tobias would be fine and left to join them. I asked Tanya if she was going with everyone else and she told me she wanted to help out. I found it odd, and thanked her for the offer Tanya told me not to bother fighting her that she wanted to help me I accepted her help and thanked her and we went back to my place. She told me more about the Cullens which was good it reassured me that my son was safe there and would probably have a blast with them. eventually the furniture arrived and with Tanya's help I had the house set up in no time, the phone company were sending out someone from technical support to come and get my internet all set up, Tanya surprised me "your eyes are black, I think we should go hunting." I did feel thirsty, but I thought I could handle the thirst, but decided I should have something to eat first before Tobias comes home from the Cullens place. I went hunting with Tanya; she was indeed fast it was hard to get in front of her I spent a lot of time watching her from behind. The entire time I was watching her ass in those jeans, I wondered if she was trying to seduce me, I remember Eleazar once telling me that Tanya, was referred to as one of the Original succubus an interesting fact. This is not the first time I have known a historic vampire. I met a vampire about 50 years ago who called himself Alex He was born in the year 1401 in France, his parents were very wealthy and he was turned in the year 1430. Alex witnessed Joan of Arc being burned at the old Market place in Rouen in 1431 I had to admit that was incredible to have met someone who actually saw Joan of Arc & her death, he did a lot of other interesting things but what he told me next was something out of this world, he witnessed Jack the ripper's first murder back in 1888. Alex told me out of boredom he taught Jack how to kill effectively without leaving evidence. Alex actually considered jack to be a nice young man with potential. As soon as Alex told me that I learned Alex was squirrels short of a tree. Alex told me he had every intention of turning Jack; thankfully Alex failed and ended up killing the human. To this day the humans have no idea what happened to Jack the ripper as for Alex I have no idea where he is now days. Anyway enough about Alex, I was following Tanya & we spotted a brown bear we both pounced the brown bear together and with a thud the bear hit the ground. Tanya and I both fed from the bear, the blood tasted foul compared to that of a human, but at least this creature tasted somewhat human I guess it's because bears eat other animals unlike deer. Tanya & I pulled up and looked at each other we watched each other for a moment and before I knew it I pounced Tanya and started kissing her. I Had her hands pinned by her wrist sitting on top of her and kissing her, I did not understand why I was doing it, I still don't understand it. I ripped Tanya's clothing off and passionately made love to her Tanya was just as passionate as I was, she was fierce and well she insisted on being on top. The strange thing is while the sex was passionate things between us was awkward. I thought I would have felt different afterwards, but I felt nothing at all. I felt nothing because it meant nothing I mean when I was with...Sarah it meant something because I loved her and wanted to be with her forever when we made love it was like we were one being, with Tanya it was just spur of the moment mostly. Tanya laid her head on my arm and I laid beside her she praised my skills and told me she enjoyed herself she asked me how it was for me, I thanked the stars above I did not have to answer the mobile in my pants went off I got up and answered the phone it was Eleazar. Eleazar told me Tobias wanted to speak to me, I asked Tobias what was wrong & if he was alright a concerned and he told me "Relax dad I was just wondering if I could stay over at the Cullens for a while Mr. Cullen said it was alright." I asked Tobias how long he wanted to stay there and he told me and get this in his own words "Just 10 days" I could not believe this "Just 10 days are you kidding me, no Tobias you are sadly mistaken if you think I am letting my only son be out of my sight for 10 whole days that’s almost two weeks", Tobias tried to interrupt me with "but dad" I would not allow it "No Tobias and that’s my final word, ten days is just too much."Tobias continued to plead with me and told me he really liked the Cullens and they did not mind him staying to get to know them better. I sighed and asked him to put Carlisle on the phone, I asked Carlisle if he was sure about this and Carlisle told me it was no problem and offered me a place to stay as well if I wanted to. thought about the offer and asked if it was alright if I had daily visits & phone calls, Carlisle answered "but of course that is no problems." I thanked Carlisle and asked him to put my son on the phone I told hemi he was allowed to stay on the condition that I visited him & He behaved and of course his response was "but dad" I told him I would be over shortly to pick him up and he quickly gave in. I smiled and hung up the phone after he told me he was going to go play baseball with the Cullens & the rest of the Denali's. I looked at Tanya and she just smiled she told me I sounded adorable, thankfully she forgot her question. I honestly did not want to hurt her feelings, after getting dressed in what was left of our clothing we popped around to her place first Tanya had to get dressed into a new outfit, while she got changed I grabbed the sports bag I brought over. Then we returned to my place where I got changed and packed my son a weeks worth of clothing in the sports bag, I must be nuts to agree to this, but Tobias wanted this and I think I need to sort myself I mean I just had meaningless sex with Tanya. Anyway here I am telling you what happened and like I told you it's a lot to process anyway I have to go I need to take this clothing over to the Cullens. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Leaving our home and hopefully the bad memories behind
Date: June 10th,2019 Yo Diary It's been two days since my last entry so I am going to fill you in on everything that's been happening, Right after my last entry I went hunting and caught my son a deer...I went to the forest a few miles away, I did not want to leave Tobias alone for too long, I knew we were safe, but still I did not want to take any chances. I killed the deer and drained the blood into an empty waterbottle, that would be enough for him he also had human food to snack on, I moved onto the dead deer and fed off the blood that was left in the deer the blood was foul, it just tasted wrong, I imagine it would taste like expired produce. I knew Tobias was going to complain today about the blood, it would have to do until we moved, I returned home and started to cook Tobias his breakfast the smell of the bacon and eggs was putrid to me, I don't know how the boy tolerates this crap. I was just about finished with Tobias' breakfast when I watched my son tumble from the hallway he was rubbing his eyes and he looked around, still in his silk black pj's "Morning" he grumbled and went off to the garage. I smiled and greeted him a good morning even though he was already in the garage, there are times when Tobias is not a morning person, it seemed today was one of them,I turned off the stove and placed his plate and cup of blood on the table and placed a fork on the table beside his plate, and after buttering his toast I placed them beside the bacon "Tobias come chowdown" I called out, I braced myself for the stampeed, but I did not hear him run from the garage, "Yo Tobias, come on" I said walking to the garage, when I came in I was shocked. I saw Tobias in front of a box marked S stuff...inside that box, for a moment I panicked, I dont want Tobias to see that stuff, because he would know I lied to him...I told him everything that we had of hers burned in a fire, the truth was I packed it up, I could never bring myself to throw away her things. I asked him what he was doing and he told me that he was looking for boxes. "Boxes can wait, go eat and I will find you a box ok." My son grumbled and went off to the kitchen. He was going to be a barrel of laughs today, I remember thinking that at the time. I picked up the box and opened the back seat of the car and packed it in there. I had told Tobias that he could only take up to five boxes and I would just buy whatever he wanted when we got there. Tobias ended up packing two boxes. While I took three boxes including the box of her things., Once the boxes were packed in the car we were ready to leave. Our last day in our home it was hard for both of us, but I made sure Tobias had as much fun as possible. I took Tobias fishing, vampire style, basicly we went into the ocean and I caught a shark, Tobias went nuts, he loved it. After we went fishing we dried off at the beach, while Tobias was happy with a shark's tooth he had asked me to take from the shark....he is a strange boy, but he says it's really cool to have a shark's tooth and I shrugged it off figuring it must be his weird human part thinking that. I made Tobias put on a hat and sunscreen and he frowned "that stuff smells like rotten eggs Dad." I frowned and told him to do so anyway, he grumbled and stormed off inside and I sighed, he returned a few minutes later in sunscreen and hat and we started to build a giant sand castle, the castle was huge it was like a kingdom of a castle, it was very detailed, the rest of the day went by too fast for either of our liking. After giving Tobias' dinner to him I allowed him to stay up to 8:30 pm and then sent him off to bed. He tried to defy me of course, he is a spirited young man, but he lost and went to bed. While my son slept I made sure everything was packed, I moved all the boxes to the garage and cleaned the place up, I was all set now, with nothing to do so I went to watch Tobias sleep. He slept somewhat peacefully, he tossed and turned alot meaning he was probably still uncomfortable about moving away. My mobile suddenly began to vibrate in my pocket and I stood up and walked outside to the back and answered. The phone call was from Eleazar, I was on speaker phone with the Denali's on the other end, they asked me how everything was going and I told him, well, that I should be able to leave tomorrow morning and make it to the woods area for cover, Eleazar was kind enough to tell me that Alice Cullen saw that we would be fine for traveling tomorrow that she saw us having no problems, I thanked the Denali's and they told me it was no problem, the women in the background started chattering. I could hear them easily with my vampire hearing, they were asking about Tobias. Kate thought she was being funny when she asked if they should put away their valubles and I chuckled and assured them that Tobias would behave himself well this time. Kate gave a scoff sound and I smiled. We spoke for a little while, mostly about the Cullens it turns out that they're living only a few miles from the place Tobias and I are moving to which will be interesting, I have never heard of three vampire covens living so close together within the same hunting area....it will be unique to see this three covens working in harmony. I thanked the Denali's again for allowing me to move onto their territory and they told me to forget about it, that they could not wait to see Tobias or I, we finished our conversation and I went back to check on my son, when I looked on him I could see he was deep in sleep now, he wasn't moving an inch, he actually began to snore, I smiled and left my son to sleep. I waited on the balcony watching the night pass away and eventually morning came and I gave Tobias his breakfast and watched him chow down and after breakfast I threw the plates into the garbage can and we walked outside, it was time for us to leave. I leaned against the car and thought about the idea of leaving this place behind. I thought about her and our time here together as soon as the thoughts came to mind I looked down in shame I promised myself I would not even think about her, but I couldn't help it. I would constantly wonder what she was up to, she was probably living it up as Marcus's new bitch...I heard about her wedding to Marcus, apparently it was a huge event. According to Eleazar at least, he, nor anyone from his coven attended the wedding, but he had friends that did. Sometimes I wonder why...why would she be married to him, why would she want wealth and power over love and living a life of joy, but then I remember her words...she never really loved me she was just using me for my wealth...if I never got her knocked up would we still be together I wonder?. I haven't told you this either, but Eleazar met her. It wasn't long after Tobias and I left that Eleazar and Carmen went to Italy to go shopping, one day they went to see the Voltori when they visted their city, they met her and she was fine..they spoke briefly and Eleazar told me she was distant the entire time, until she snapped and tried to attack them. She had to be held down by Marcus and Aro before she calmed down. Eleazar remarked something must have been wrong, because Aro cut the meeting short, gave them permission and just left. I did not really care I no longer had anything to do with that manipulative harpie, at least that's what I tried to tell myself, maybe if I told myself enough times, I would start to believe it. I watched as Tobias looked at the house, one last time and turned to climb into the car, he did up his seatbelt and I got in after him and did my seatbelt up. I know it may seem foolish being a vampire I couldn't get hurt even if we were to crash, but I wasn't doing this for my safety at all...I was doing this to set an example to my son, It is my job as the parent to teach my son to be smart, to put safety first and set an example and so I did that whenever I could. It was a very cloudy day today, Eleazar was right, I had no problems with the sun. The sun was completely eclipsed by the clouds, it was safe for me to drive which meant I could drive around in daylight and save more time then I originally thought. I noticed through most of the trip my son kept checking the back to see the boxes he seemed interested in that box, but it didn't matter...I would never let him see the contents of that box, one day I am going to get the courage, I'll destroy it or at least bury it somewhere far far away and never return for it, until then, I will keep it with me wherever I go. Our drive was long, Tobias and I played I spy which drove me nuts, because he kept on going for things I would never guess what he was seeing, the little scamp cheats too, I am pretty sure its against the rules to use things in the rearview mirror, still if he was cunning enough to think of it I guess I would let him get away with it. I drove like a maniac while Tobias slept, I figured if he was a sleep I didn't have to be a good influence, when he was asleep its not like he would see it. So I drove and drove going about 200 miles an hour, way over the legal speed limit, I did not worry about police, being a vampire, I could hear a great distance away, hell I could have smelled their scents, it was easy. The drive gave me a lot of time to think, I know what you are thinking, I should concentrate on the road while I drive, but being a vampire I don't have to, when a human becomes a vampire the senses are enhanced, but so is the mind too, we are able to process so much more than humans, we can think of multiple things at the exact same time while a human can only concentrate on one thing at a time. So I thought a lot about what life would be like living close to two big covens of vampires, I hope Tobias would be able to fit in and make friends with the Cullens. Esme and Carlisle did not seem to mind him, now that I think about it Esme handled Tobias pretty wellm I guess she had a lot of practice with that hybrid of theirs. We were ten minutes away from the Denali's and I told him the last time he was here he trashed the place, thinking about his behaviour back then it made me laugh. He sure was a wild child. Tobias looked nervous and I tried to calm him down, I told him that they could not wait to see him and I heard him mutter "yeah to get revenge" I chuckled and leaned to the side to hug my son with one arm while I kept my eyes on the road. We finally arrived at the Denali's. I pulled over to the side and climbed out, the entire coven was there to welcome us, I was shaking Eleazar and Garret's hand and looked back to the car, Tobias was nervous about getting out, as soon as he mustered up the nerve to get out and walk towards me he was tackled to the ground. I could hear Carmen say "oh Dios mío Tobías que han crecido."I knew spanish well enough to know that she said"oh my goodness Tobias you have grown." I could see Tobias reaction his expression was nearly identical to the one he made the first time the girls bombarded him. Carmen dragged Tobias away fom my range and took him away with Tanya & Kate. I could hear them all talking, they were clucking away like hens in a chook house. Carmen came back and told me she and the girls were taking Tobias hunting and I felt a little worried, Carmen assured me that she would take care of Tobias as if he were her own. Carmen left to join her sisters and Tobias while I knew he would be safe I still couldn't help but worry about his safety. It's got to be some sort of parent instinct. Eleazar and I spoke for a while, before I decided to go unpack the boxes at the new place. The house was massive two floors, it had five bedrooms, I plan on giving the biggest room to Tobias, he is going to have so much crap in it anyway it's only fair for him. I would turn one of the spare rooms into an office for myself. I might buy a local shop just to pass the time when not tutoring Tobias, I am going to have to tutor Tobias myself. I don't think there is any tutor good enough in this area, so it's up to me to tutor him, the only problem is he is smarter than me, it would have been depressing if I wasn't proud of the little man. In a few years when Tobias growth has slowed down to an unnoticable rate to the human eye I will allow him to go to high school, With the other rooms, I will keep one room for me and the others will be empty for now. I was personally I haven't been had the chance to be around Tanya yet...things between us kind of got hot and heavy last time we were in each company. The thought of being around her well it's kind of strange, while I finished the last box I could smell the scent of several vampires near by and I could hear the sound of the twigs on the ground snapping in the distance. I immediantly went to the door and waited, a few minutes later I saw Carlisle in jeans and a black shirt, he had his usual blond hair combed back and his golden eyes, I recognized Bella and Edward immediately. Edward had a white T shirt on with a black jacket and jeans, his hair was messy and an unusual shade of bronze. His topaz eyes glared at me hesitantly and I watched him, he was just over six feet tall and had a slender body, his wife Bella wore a black jacket and jeans, she had straight dark brown hair and liquid gold eyes there was one more female, a blond female she was beautiful, she was tall and statuesque she had an elegant body as she wore a black dress, her hair was long and wavy that went to the middle of her back and her liquid gold eyes watched me. I could see just by the look of her eyes she was curious. "Greetings Brian it has been a long time."I nodded. "Yes it has Carlisle, how are you?"I asked him he answered well, and introduced me to each member of his family, Edward, Bella and Rosalie. Carlisle thought it would be best for me to meet his family in small numbers. It was polite of him, I invited them inside and apologised for the lack of furniture everything was coming tomorrow, but they did not mind standing which is fine, as vampires we could stand forever and its not possible to get exhausted. The one known as Rosalie looked around she seemed to be curious when Edward spoke, "He is not here Rose." Rosalie seemed to be disappointed and I asked"who is not here?" I was concerned and the tone in my voice showed it. Carlisle was quick to jump in had Rosalie wanted to meet my son, and I sighed "he is at the Denali's, he is sleeping there tonight seeing as the stores don't deliver until tomorrow." I answered, Rosalie told me she hoped to meet Tobias soon and I wanted to know why she had taken such an interest in my son and Bella told me that Rosalie just had a crazy idea of setting my son up with her daughter, I raised an eyebrow curious "What! It's better than the mongrel and at least the boy wouldn't have fleas or stink up the furniture"I watched Edward hit his head with the palm of his hand. Bella was about to say something when Carlisle interrupted "Rosalie, please not when we are a guest in someone's home" I chuckled and told them it was alright I did not mind that if they wanted to meet my son they were welcome to meet him, after examing my watch I saw it was already nine pm. Tobias would already be asleep now, So I asked them if they would like to meet Tobias tommorow at the Denali's around 9am, to give my son a chance to wake up, get dressed, have breakfast and so on. Rosalie was the first to accept the invite and Carlisle told me that he and his family would be delighted to meet Tobias at that time tomorrow. The Cullens left and I looked at the last box that had her things. I picked up the box and went to the room that would be my future office opening the wardrobe I placed the box at the very top and in the corner so my son couldn't find it, with that done I came to type to you and tell you of the events that happened. I think I am going to go now I don't feel right being away from my son for so long even if he is asleep right now, I need to be where I can watch him so I know he is safe. Brian Jacobson Topic: no words can describe the pride I feel, my son is incredible and anyone who says other wise will be corpse
Date: June 4th,2019 Yo Diary, It has been ten years since my last entry, today is a special day it's my son's birthday, he is growing up so fast, and he is no longer the little terror he once was. He is now a intelligent little man, granted he looks like a teenager, none the less he will always be my little man. I have been very busy lately, I have been doing the paperwork and working on a settlement for my company, I have decided to sell my mining business, I have had those mines now for a long time now, but it's time to move on and break the last link I had to my human life. I of course will have money to last until the end of time probably, I have a few billion in banks across the world, So I never have to worry about Tobias's college fund, I have planned for my son to go to Harvard or Dartmouth. He will get the best education I can buy, but he will also earn his place there, which is why I have private tutors for my son now to nurture his mind. Today for Tobias' Birthday, I bought him an X-box 360 and a stack of games for it, along with a new TV and I bought him a notebook compter. I don't want Tobias to have unsupervised access to the internet so it doesn't have the internet, I told him to use it as a diary, to write down his feelings and thoughts he can't share with me just so he has some place to express himself. My son seemed pretty pleased, we were playing with his gifts for ages. I had to drag him away from his room to have the lunch I prepared for him, I watched Tobias wolf down his food and I told him to slow down the last thing I want for him is to choke. While Tobias ate his food I went to his room, it looked like a bomb went off in there, clothing all over the place and dvds and books all over the floor. I sighed and began to clean his room. My son needed to learn to live organized. The only book that wasn't on the floor was Tobias's copy of Alice in Wonderland, it was something SHE! had given him, I never told Tobias this, he assumes its just a childhood book. Tobias finished his lunch and I told him to help me clean up, while cleaning I asked my son why he liked that book so much, I was surprised at the indepth answer he gave me "How can I not like it, when I read it it's like I leave this world and enter that world, it's an adventure and it's all about the loss of innocence, the need for escape and the search for ones identity, to discover not just who you are, but who you become." it was an indepth answer for a ten year old, the tutors must be doing their job, I remember thinking to myself at that time. I told my son it was time that he became a man and learn to hunt for his meal. I took my son hunting and did something I never did in front of him before, I killed in front of him, I killed mercilessly and the women suffered, oh yes she did. I drained the life out of her. I could feel her heart and hear it stopped. I finished her off and drained all her blood long after her heart stopped beating. After she was dead I ripped off her flesh and felt nothing for her, she was human, she was under me, nothing but dinner, see being a vampire we can turn off morality and I liked keeping it off, it made life simpler, I felt nothing for the human, she was nothing at all after ripping off the females flesh, I pulled out a glad wrap plastic bag, I would burn the flesh later, but for nowIi had to clean my mess. I placed the human in the dumpster and looked at my son. I saw the fear in his eyes, and I knew my son was at an impass in his life right now, it was up to him what path he would choose now, he could choose to live off human blood or if his concious is strong enough he could go to animal blood, either way I would be proud of him, I would love him for what he was and not judge him and most of all I would support him because he is my son and that is my purpose in life. To love him, to guide him and accept him for what he is no matter what lifestyle he lives. I could never judge my son because he means so very much to me, he is everything to me and I will always be proud of him. I told my son it was his turn and I waited for his answer. Tobias just looked at me and with courage he told me "I am sorry dad, but I can't....I don’t want to hurt anyone." I asked him if he was sure about this and he nodded his head, my son he had such a pure heart, I wonder who he got it from...he did not get it from his mother nor did he get it from me. I smiled and guided him to the car, it was time to take my son home. I thought about my son's choice and I had to know what his reason was for his choice. "I am sorry father, but seeing the pain and the terror on the human's face it was horrible." my son became quiet for a moment and he spoke "I don’t want to drink blood anymore, I think from now on if I do I would only see that person's face." I nodded my head and at that moment I made a choice "well if your going to commit yourself to not drinking human's blood then there is another way son." I told him, I kept my eyes on the road and saw he had his seat belt undone. and I told my son to put his seatbelt on. I told my son about the Cullens and Denali's, that they fed only off animal blood, I told him he could the same if he wanted and become a vegetarian. He thought it was worth a shot and I wanted to do anything I could to surport him so I told him I would join him and commit myself to drinking animal blood too, even though it taste like shit compared to human blood. I would make that sacrifice for him, I would not hesitate because I accept his lifestyle, he is my son what he likes doesn't matter as long as he was happy....I have to support him....no, I don't have to, I want to support him....It's funny, I am trying hard to explain how much I would support my son, but there is no need its just an instinct. I believe anyone who doesn't want to support their child, help their child or show their child love shouldn't be a parent. They should be locked away some place and kept as far from their child as possible so it dosn't fuck them up and make them think they're damaged goods. My son thanked me and I told him it was no problem, I felt that way because it was the truth where my son went I would follow and protect him. We arrived home and I sat him down and told him that I sold my company and I also told him we were moving. So I explained to my son that it was needed, that we needed a fresh start. I could see he wanted to stay, he had sentimental feelings for this place, even though he never met his mother, he knew she was once here that she once walked down these hallways and sat in this very lounge room and that being here in this place somehow made him feel closer to her. I should have moved us out of this place ages ago, as soon as she left me, I should have just packed up and took my son away from this cursed place, but being here...I felt close to her too......even after all she said and did, I loved her and a big part of me still does love her. If she came to me today at this very moment and begged for forgiveness and to take her back, I would take her back without hesitation, but I know Sarah well, she won't be back. I told my son to let go, that being here would not bring his mother back, it was hard being cruel like that, but I had no choice it was for his best interest. I hugged my son trying to make him feel warm and safe and told him he would have lots of new friends and I would introduce him to someone like him a little hybrid girl named renesmee. I watched my son and he accepted it, it was hard I could see that this was the only home he ever knew, he left for his room and I told him not to stay up too late, I wondered what went on in his mind. so much had happened to him, how did it really impact him?, I sat on the couch on the lounge room and closed my eyes, I could never sleep again, one of the perks and curses of being a vampire, so I listened to everything around me. I could hear Tobias feverishly typing on his notepad, I guess he liked the present and I was glad I at least managed to get this right. I continued to listen to him type and wished I knew what he was typing, was it a story....a diary entry, I could check if I wanted to when he slept, but I could not do that to my son. I waited and heard the computer turn of. I went to his room and knocked on it, I asked him if he was still awake knowing full well that he was, he told me he was and I watched him with that damn Alice in Wonderland book in his hand, I told him I would be in the lounge room if needed me. So I went to the loungeroom and looked at the hallway, the light finally went out and I waited for an hour, when I went to check on him I sat at his desk chair and watched him sleep, he was growing so fast...too fast for my comfort, my biggest fear is losing him...I can't lose him, he is all I have. I watched him uptil an hour ago, I finally left to tell you about our time together, I have to go its six am and I need to go get his meal ready, which means I need to go hunting. Brian Topic: Time to go home
Date: June 21st, 2009 Yo Diary I was surprised to see who Eleazar and Carman brought with them it was Carlisle & Esme Cullen, I asked Eleazar why they were here and they told me they were visiting too and I found this incredibly awkward, I mean I was a witness to their destruction and now they're standing right in front of me and sharing the same roof as me. I introduced myself to Esme and Carlisle and apologised for baring witness to the wrong people. Carlisle told me he held no grudge and understood what I did and for what reason. I looked at the vegeterian vampires, they were all so understanding, it was strange, I heard a smashing sound in the next room "Tobias" I said in shock and ran to the living room. I moved to see my son standing over a broken coffee table, I sighed "BAD TOBIAS BAD." I scolded and he shrugged, my eyes twitched as I continued to watch the little punk. Esme joined us and saw the mess "Oh my, is this your son?" she asked and I nodded "yeah this is the little punk and all his destructive glory." Esme chuckled and asked if she could hold Tobias "if you can catch him, go for it." I told her. Tobias did not like the sound of that and jumped from the ground to the couch and from the couch to behind the couch. He began to run and Esme ran after him, I folded my arms and watched as Kate came to see the commotion "not the coffee table, Brian your kid needs a leash." I was about to argue about that, but she made a valid point. Kate joined me in watching Tobias run from Esme, Esme seemed to be having fun chasing after Tobias. Carlisle, Carmen & Eleazar joined us in watching Tobias, he sure had a knack for evading adults. Tobias was snickering while he ran, my son was looking back at Esme snickering what he didn't see was him running into a wall and falling flat on his ass. I laughed hysterically seeing his disgrunted expression, Esme went to Tobias and lifted him up, at the same time Kate was cleaning up the mess from the coffee table . "Our house won't last another day of this child at this rate." Kate grumbled. Tobias struggled desperately to get free, Esme wanted to let him down. "No, no don't do it" I said calmly and Tobias scowled at me, I looked at him and half smiled. "Really Esme, I insist you feel free to hold him as much as you want." Esme thanked me and held Tobias close. I excused myself from them all telling them that I needed to prepare my son's meal. I left and a few moments later Carlisle joined me in the kitchen alone, I did not say anything to be honest it felt weird being around a guy I was witnessing against. I continued to make the meal and heard him speak "is you're son always so energetic?" I looked at him "yes he is." I answered, "and has he always been so destructive." He asked again, I looked at Carlisle "it's just a phase?" I answered him. Carlisle continued to watch me, "I think you're son may have hyperactive attention defisite disorder." I told him no that's not it, Tobias did as he was told...mostly, I explained to him he has been a little off since his mother left us and I did not have any idea what was wrong with him, to be honest it was a little frightening. Carlisle suggested that Tobias was acting out wanting attention from a specific person, I looked at Carlisle "you mean he has been destroying everything in sight, because he wants attention from his mother." Carlisle nodded and it made a lot of sense to me at that moment. My son was acting out, wanting his mother...how could I not see the signs. Running away from me, the scowling at the women's affections, it was the wrong woman...he wanted his Mother. I made a fist and slamed it on the counter, careful not to break it there had been enough damage in the Denali's home. I was royally fucked, how could I make Tobias understand that his Mother didn't want him....or me. I thanked Carlisle for his insight and asked him how he knew and he told me "having children teaches you a lot my friend and you will see that for yourself, you learn and grow as they do the same it is indeed an enriching experience." He said and I remembered that he considered the rest of his coven his children. I finished preparing Tobias' meal and placed it on the kitchen table. I had no idea why they had a kitchen, it's not like they bring their dinner home from their hunts, but still today it would have some use. I went to the room to see Esme still holding a disgruntled Tobias. The way my son looked at me, let me tell you if looks could kill I would be dead seven times over already. I went towards Esme and asked her if I could have my son back, she nodded "of course." she handed me Tobias and I held him close in the right way, with my hand ,I rubbed his back and walked to the kitchen, Carlisle sat out and joined the Denali's and I sat alone in the kitchen with my son on my lap. I started to feed him slowly and spoke to him, "Tobias..I know your suffering, you hurt inside, and you feel alone without her don't you." I asked him he nodded at me and I could see the surprised expression on his face. I smiled "I know how you feel son, because I feel that way too. I loved your moma more than you will ever know, she had my heart and my soul, but moma is gone now son and she won't be coming back son." I looked at Tobias' expression his eyes showed so much sadness, it was unbareable, I tightened my grip, holding him close to me, "So it's just you and me little man just us against the world, I have you and you have me. I promise I will never leave you son, you know I love you don't you." I told him. Tobias stopped eating and moved his arms to wrap it around me, his tiny arms could make it all the way around me, but I felt his tiny fist clench onto my shirt "I love you too Papa" he said softly. I was surprised to hear Tobias speak, the last time he spoke was when she left, I was also pleased because he said Papa. I mean it's not his first word, but still he said Papa. I felt such pride in my son. "I know you do." I said feeling joy. I finished feeding my son and looked at him, he really is a perfect child, there is no one like him. I rubbed my son's back and smiled "ok now that we have all that sorted out, promise not to trash the Denali's stuff." T obias smiled and nodded his head "that's my boy." I spoke again with pride and carried him out to the room with the Denali's & their guests. Tobias looked at them and waved and I thought I heard Esme gush. "What a cute boy we should introduce him to Nessie." Esme said, "yes ,it could be good for them to be friends seeing as how their both hybrids." Carlisle added. I thought about it and it did make sense, but right now I want to look after him and I think that means keeping him away from other vampires for a while. I decied that Tobias and I had stayed our welcome. I let Tobias play with Kate & Tanya while I had began to pack our things, Eleazar told me we were welcome to stay longer. I thanked him for his offer and told him that I thought some bonding time with Tobias is probably best for the boy. He needs to learn to rely on me and not a ghost. Once everything was packed I put the kiddy leather jacket Kate had bought Tobias on him and set him in the seat next to me. I thanked the Denali's for the hospitality and told Carlisle & Esme it was a pleasure to meet them. Tobias seemed a little sad to leave, but I petted his head, my little man was an interesting fellow. We drove all night, I made sure Tobias was wrapped in his blanket and the car heater was on for him. I was forced to stop driving when the sun came out and made a pit stop at a hotel where now we are waiting inside the hotel room. Tobias is sleeping in the bed wrapped around the blankets and I am writing to you, I have to go I need to find the food I prepared for Tobias for today. Brian Jacobson. Topic: at least Tobias seems ok
Date: June 20th, 2009 Yo Diary My son returned from shopping with the women, he was dressed in a sailor's outfit and I could not help but laugh at him. For the first time since she left, I was laughing, in hysterics,just to see my son's disgruntled expression. Kate had her arms folded "poor bugger was demasculated by my sisters, before he even had a chance to become a man." I Looked at Kate and asked if she was against the sailor outfit and she nodded "Of course, but do not worry I bought him a little leather jacket." I thanked Kate and she nodded her head then went off and picked up Tobias, I watched as Tanya & Carmen carried endless shopping bags inside. Tobias seemed to be relaxed in Kate's arms, she lowered him down and I bent down and opened my arms "Tobias can Papa get a hug?" Tobias looked at me and walked up to me and opened his arms, as soon as he got close enough he stomped on my foot hard and ran. I frowned and looked at my son, I guess he was pissed that I cancelled rule four. I watched Tobias run off pulling the sailors outfit off him as he ran away "come back here you little nudist" I yelled at him and ran after him. I caught Tobias and took off my jacket to cover him up, I looked at my son, he was still being a little trouble maker. I put some clothing on my son and opened up one of my backpacks and pulled out some blankets & a pillow from the boot of my car, while I was at it, I took Alice in Wonderland book from under the car seat too. I did not want to let my son out of my sight, so I held him. I wondered why he has been acting so strange. I put him to bed on the Denali's couch to have a nap, but the little tyke refused to have his nap. I sighed and told him I would read him Alice in Wonderland if he promised to go for a nap. The little one nodded his head and laid still as I read to him. My son eventually drifted off to sleep and I tucked him in. I watched him sleep peacefully for a while, I noticed Tanya wave to me and I stood and went to he,r she seemed happy and whispered "the little one is sleeping." I nodded answering her and she pulled me into the office and silently closed the door behind me, she sat me down on the office couch and pulled out a plastic bag. "I did not want Tobias to be bored so I bought him a few dvds." I examined the dvds, there was Stuart Little, Kung Fu Panda, Nanny Mcphee , Homeward Bound, and some other movies. I thanked Tanya for the kind gesture and she said it was no problem. I asked Tanya where Eleazar & Carmen were and Tanya told me they went to visit some people and would be back soon. I asked about Garrett and Kate and she told me that they went out, I looked at Tanya and watched as she sat next to me. She snuggled close to me and I looked at her and raised an eyebrow. Tanya and I talked about the 'evil heartless manipulitive bitch'. I still can't bring myself to say her name, I told Tanya everything about her, how we met and how much I fell in love with her, how the Voltori came and how she left. Tanya listened to me the entire time, She was so supportive and caring I felt a lot better after talking to her. But I was surprised when Tanya started climbing onto my lap. I watched her and she leaned in to kiss me, she placed her hands on my shirt and pulled it off my torso, she rubbed my chest with her beautiful small warm hands, it felt so good, she indeed had the magic touch. Tanya leaned in and kissed my neck and moved onto my lips, I was hesitant at first, I don't know why I should be, she never loved me so why should I be loyal to her. The thoughts echooed in my head and I leaned in kissing tanya wildly. I ripped off her top and she pulled back and looked at me her golden eyes had looked hopeful and then I pulled her close to me and kissed her wildly. I struggled to remove Tanya's bra, and fumbled around, her forehead rested on mine as she laughed. Tanya unzipped the zipper of my pants and looked at me, I looked at Tanya and found myself not wanting to continue, I could have had Tanya right then and there I could have nailed her and she would have blown my world away. I did something I will probably regret latter on, I told Tanya to stop that I could not continue. It did not feel right, I felt I was betraying her....how stupid is that, I mean the cold hearted bitch manipulated me and used me, but I cannot bring myself to do this. I think it's stupid I mean she breaks my heart and instead of moving on with my immortal life with my son, I can't because I feel as if I am betraying her. Tanya told me she understood and said nothing else. She put on her top and I zipped up my pants and shirt and heard a shuffling from the other room I stood up and excused myself from Tanya and went to check on Tobias, I watched my son and smiled as he looked around, Tanya came up to me and peeked in too. "Could you watch him for me Tanya, I need to go to town buy some food for him...I also need to go and hunt." Tanya nodded and I went out leaving my son behind, I went to the store first and bought a plastic bottle along with some fruit and veggies. My thirst was fine seeing as I just fed recently, I left everything, but the plastic bottle, I took that with me to use it to drain blood into the bottle. I found a deer and snapped the creatures neck, pulling out the plastic bottle I bent down and bit off the flesh of the deer and placed the bottle into the hole of the deer, I placed my foot on the deers gut and applied preassure forcing the blood to pour out into the bottle. I finished with the deer and drank the rest of the spare blood so it did not waste. I returned back to my car and drove back to the Denali's place. I returned to find my son watching the adventures of Milo and Otis. Tobias seemed to love the movie, I could see him smile watching as the cat was sucking on the teet of a pig. Seeing my son smile and watching the movie it was priceless to me, I could not put a price on my son's joy. I went to the kitchen and used the Denali's kitchen for what must be the first time ever, Tanya joined me in the kitchen and told me how well behaved my son was during my absence. I went to check on Tobias and asked if anyone came and swapped my son with a doppleganger that was well behaved. Tanya laughed and told me she thought my son was perfect the way he is. I thanked Tanya and she told me it was no problem, I finished preparing Tobias' meal and gave it to him while he watched Nanny Mcphee, I told him not to get any ideas and he just ignored me and watched the movie. Tobias actually behaved really well for the rest of the day and did not struggle when he went to bed. I read him more of Alice in Wonderland and wondered what other books were suitable for my son. By morning Kate & and Garrett returned, Kate seemed a little ruffled up, "good night?" I asked and she nodded. "Oh it was quite enjoyable" she answered smoothly and Garrett nodded. I knew that look on his face, I used to have it every time when I was with that lying bitch. I was glad to see Carmen and Eleazar return, but shocked to see who they returned with, I need to go now I am going to speak with Eleazar and Carmen and the two that they brought back with them. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: He may be a little terror, but he is my little terror
Date: June 19th, 2009 Yo Diary We arrived at the Denali's this morning, before we arrived within hearing distance I looked at my son and saw he was awake and looking at the damn book. "Tobias" I said to him, my son looked at me "its important that you behave yourself while we are here, we are visiting some of my friends, do you think you can do that son." He looked at me and did not make any response. "Tobias, I need an answer son." I said again. He nodded his head and I moved in to kiss his forehead and he pulled away and I sighed. "One more thing son...don't use you're talents on them ok, it might surprise them." Tobias had this look on his face, it lasted for only a moment before it became blank, I banged my head on the steering wheel and sighed. I recalled reading something about children on the internet, they were meant to become a terror and general pain in the ass at the two year stage, he wasn't even on one year stage and he was aleady driving me round the twist. I guess to be fair on my son, he is growing faster than normal children and he is maturing a lot faster than them too. I looked forward, we were almost there and he looked ahead ignoring me. Within distance to the house I saw Eleazer and his mate Carmen step out of the house along with his sister in laws Kate & Tanya. They were all beautiful women, but none of them could compare to her. I looked at my son "Stay here son." I stepped out of the car and looked at the coven of vampires, I walked towards them seeing the vampires and stopped and raised a finger. "One moment" I said to them and ran back to the car and leaned over the window to grab the keys from the ignition. My son looked at me "yeah as if I am going to leave you alone in the car with the keys little man." Tobias rolled his eyes up and he reminded me of his mother. Tobias reminds me so much of her, he is so defiant and mischievious. I put the keys in my pocket and approached the Denali's and greeted Eleazar, his mates and sisters-in-law. Eleazar kept looking over my shoulders and saw Tobias holding that damn book, Carmen leaned over to see my son. "Is that a...?" Carmen asked. Kate leaned over to inspect with Tanya right behind her "No I hear the heart beating" Eleazer spoke, "Who is he?" Carmen asked me. I looked back to my son and smiled, "my son," I answered. They all looked at me surprised. Tobias looked at us, I was amazed he could actually pull his eyes away from that stupid book. Tobias undid his seatbelt and moved to the driver's side of the car and I was thankful that I removed the car keys from the car. I doubt he would have done anything, but I could not help myself from thinking he would start the car and drive into a tree or something. Tanya & Kate moved to the window and Tanya instantly picked up Tobias, Carmen's curiosity got the better of her as she went to my son and said "Mi lo que un hombre pequeno y encantador." She petted my son's head while Tanya pulled at Tobias cheeks and I watched Tobias scowl at all the female attention. I made a mental note. I needed to teach him females fawning over him was a good thing. Tanya asked if they could take Tobias inside and I nodded, being out in the cold was probably not a good thing. The three women went inside. Kate said these exact words, "what an adorable child, I could eat you up, oh yes I could." I watched Tobias' eyes widen, alarmed, as the door closed behind Tanya. "You have a son. how very interesting and truth be told, unexpected, Brian...weren't you the one saying love is nature's trick on the mind." I frowned and expected as much to happen from Eleazar. "Alot has happened" I answered him, we stayed outside as I told him the entire story how it all went down. Eleazar listened to me the entire time without interuption and he said "so it seems the Voltori's life of moral curruption knows no limitations, and the woman you spoke of, Sarah has played you well." I did not like hearing her name, I said nothing as he made his observations "It's interesting, from what I have heard and seen today, the Mother and Son are both Enhancers." I stared at Eleazor. "My son is a what?" I asked, curious, of course I knew my son was gifted, I had experianced it first hand, but I did not know there was such a name for it. Eleazar spoke "sometimes when a human is turned, they carry a powerful trait with them into their next life. Now this human....Sarah, as a human she was able to inspire those with music, as a vampire, she brought with her the ability to inspire...if you think about it, inspiration motivates us, it gives us a surge of energy. Now with Sarah you take that gift and magnify it, that surge of energy, that inspiration, she gives us is magnified, that energy pulsates inside us inspiring and giving sensations of ablility to do anything. But the energy does not stop at that, for those who are gifted, I believe that the energy that we feel from inspiration magnify's the gift simply because it is magnifying the energy we feel...I guess in simple terms, her gift is a form of empathy that enhances an ability by motivation, but of course this is all speculation. I can not say for sure since we have not met." I listened to the complex and then simplified assumption of my friend, it did make sense to me since when your inspired you do feel motivated and produce energy to do what your inspired to do. To tell the truth it was all too complex to me I just told myself she inspires and supercharges gifts that's it. I asked about my son and Eleazar folded his arms and leaned against the car his words are still ringing in my mind. "Your son's ability is difficult to understand even for me, from what I gather he too is a enhancer. While the Mother enhances gifts, his gift is a flip of her gift, you told me your son has the ability to supercharge the senses of another vampire drastically. I can not say what the full potential of his gift is because you have not told me much about it. He may have the potential to enhance his own senses someday or not...all we can do is wait." As soon as Eleazor finished tha,t some glass shattering inside the house could be heard, I immediantly bolted inside and followed my nose to my son's scent. I looked around seeing the three women and shards of the chandeliar crystals on the ground there was also shattered crystal near the coffee table "Where is my son." I said alarmed and Kate pointed up I saw Tobias swinging from the Chandeliar. "TOBIAS!" I yelled out of anger and fear. I could still see that stupid book in his free hand my son let go and I caught him. I held onto him tight and thanked my lucky stars my heart could no longer beat, because if it could I would probably have had a heart attack. "What the Hell happened" I snarled Tanya looked at her sisters then spoke "the little one wanted to be let go so we let him go and he jumped on the coffee table and kicked down our crystal we were cleaning then jumped on the chandeliar" I looked at my son and he had a smug look on his face. I did not want to spank my little man, I loved him far to much to hurt him so I instead took the Alice in wonderland book away from him and lowered him to the ground. He started reaching for the book. "I asked you to behave Tobias and you misbehaved on purpose, I am no pushover son, I am taking this book away as punishment." My son started to fret as he continued to reach for the book. The women and Eleazor continued to watch and finally my son gave up, the little punk kicked me in the shins and ran off. I was about to excuse myself to go get Tobias, when Eleazor told me he would go get the boy. I nodded and watched him leave after Tobias. I sat on the couch and apologised for my son's behaviour and offered to replace the broken crystal and the chandeliar. I told the women "The only one who could get the kid to behave was his mother." Tanya approached me "and where is she" she asked in a curious voice she came up close to me, "Dead" I answered it was a lie of course, but she was as good as dead. Tanya looked sympathetic and came to me and hugged me. "I am so sorry for your loss," she said softly, there was something else behind that tone of voice, I don't know. Garret came out from the back and Kate hugged her mate. "Finally back from hunting" she said, "yes, but I am alarmed, I saw Eleazor running after a terror. is Eleazor having him for a snack?" That little 'terror' as you so kindly put it, is my son." I said. Garrett apologised, claiming he did not wish to offend me, I said to him "no you were right on the mark, he is a little terror, but he is my little terror" I said with affection. I loved my son with all my heart and while it's true, his misbehaving has annoyed the crap out of me, a small part....very small part finds it amusing that he is so feisty another trait he shares with her. I stood up and walked to the window and saw Tobias run fast with Eleazor behind him. Carmen came over to me at the window and watched as Eleazar tried to tackle Tobias, but missed and went through a tree. Carmen's laughter echoed around the rooms of the house, Eleazor looked directly at the window and smiled, seeing his mate Carmen. "I should go out there and help him" I said out loud but Carmen placed her hand on my shoulder "no, no, allow me" Carmen said and went to join Eleazar in chasing my son. I watched Carmen run to my son and Kate & Tanya along with Garret walk to the same window. "Wow your child is fast." Garrett said. I nodded my head and could not help, but feel pride as my child outran two adult vampires. Tanya looked at me and I glanced at her she was an attractive female. "I think we should go help Eleazor & Carmen, besides I wish to play with the child." Kate & Garret went outside to join Carmen and Eleazar "good luck, your gonna need it" I said with pride. Tanya placed her hand on my arm and smiled "you love your child very much." I nodded, "of course" I answered her. I watched my son get cornered by the four adult vampires they each ran at my son, he jumped up and the four ran into each other. Tobias landed on the tree branch and I sighed, "wow smart child" I nodded, "damn straight he is." I said with pride. I had to admit ,I was nervous with my son evading the vampire coven. Tanya kept rubbing her hand on my arm, her touch felt nice, I smiled. "Has your son always been so energeti?." she asked me in a friendly tone. I shook my head "he is always quiet, I have only heard him speak on one occasion, he used to be extremely well behaved, but since Sar....she left, he has gradually become more and more chaotic." Tanya moved in close to me 'oh I see, he seemed to be distressed that you took that book away" she spoke. I nodded my head "Tobias' mother used to read the book to him all the time." I spoke my voice becoming cold and emotionless. Tanya rubbed my back comforting and I thanked her and left her to go outside. I looked at my son he was still standing on the tree branch while the four vegetarian vampires looked up directly. I placed a hand on my hip annoyed. I was still afraid that Tobias would fall and hurt himself. I went to the tree "Tobias you get down this instant." I yelled my voice full of Authority, it was a parental tone. Tobias looked at me and shook his head, "Come on little man" I said, my son looked at me and we both failed to notice Carmen climbing the tree. She jumped and tackled my son out of the tree. "Tobias" I yelled out of concern. Carmen fell onto the ground she broke the fall and held Tobias so he was safe, my son gave what I swear to be an evil little chuckle. I ran to Carmen and Tobias and thanked her, before I could snatch my son out of Carmen's arms ,Kate took Tobias and hugged him tightly "Such a mischievious child, but completely adorable none the less." She ran inside with my son, I was about to say something, when Eleazar suggested that I leave Tobias in the women's care. I looked at my son as the women walked off toward the house with him, Tobias looked alarmed as the females resumed smothering him with affection. I smiled and hoped he suffered all the incessant female babling and pointless gossip that should be a good punishment for my son. I watched as they were at the doorway I waved to Tobias with my own mischievious smile on my face and he scowled at me. I went to the car and asked Eleazer to jump in and at the same time hid the book, Alice in Wonderland under the car seat. Eleazer asked why we were getting in the car and I told him so we could go hunt, he told me that when he meant hunt he meant wild animals and i sighed. It was so easy to forget that the Denali's were not right in the head. I climbed out of the car and left with Eleazer. While we hunted we did not comminicate much, when hunting, we vampires tend to unleash our instincts to kill, I found myself a Wolf and ran towards it and fed off it. The creatures foul filthy blood touched my mouth and I consumed it, I disliked the blood of this animal. I finished hunting my thirst wasn't gone, but it was at satisfied for now. We finished hunting and returned to the car. I could hear Tanya speaking to her sisters "He is such an adorable child and so big, are you thinking what I am thinking?" It was Carmen who was next to speak "Clothing shopping for the child, what a marvelous idea....lets take Brian's car it is big enough for all of us. I heard a low grunt and realized it was my son, I had a dark smile on my face, The ladies ran out carrying Tobias he was struggling despretely to get free and I said "My, my, what a perfect Idea ladies." I pulled out the car keys and threw it, Kate caught it "Just a few rules I ask you to remember 1. Do make sure Tobias has his seatbelt on in the car. 2. Drive at a reasonable speed. 3. Never leave my son unattended. 4. No dressing him in Pink or sailor outfits or dresses this includes Kilts. 5. ..." Before I could finish Kate grabbed Tobias and placed him in the car, Carmen climbed in beside's Tobias "For crying out loud any more rules and we can send him off to boarding school or something."Kate said, at that moment I considered it, it sounded tempting. "you know your right, forget rule four." Tobias looked at me horrified and I chuckled "Have fun ladies and remember rules one to three," The ladies were all in the car with the seatbelts on they drove off to go shopping. I searched through my bags to look for my laptop and decided to spend sometime on my own reflecting on today's events and my son's behaviour, I wondered what the women were doing with my son now. I would find out soon of course, I am afraid I must leave now I am going to go spend some time with Garrett and Eleazar. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: a much needed break
Date: June 18th, 2009 Yo Diary I couldn't stand being in my home, everything reminded me of her, after a lot of thought i decided that Tobias and I needed to get away from this place. I spoke to Eleazar a week ago and asked him if I could come and visit him and he had no objections. I thanked him and we ended the conversation. We mostly spoke about life, catching up on life. I found out Eleazar held no ill will against me, he understood my reason behind my choice for supporting those backstabbing bony old bastards. I did not tell Eleazar about her or Tobias, I wanted to surprise him, he will be in awe when it comes to my son. No one has seen anyone like him; he is a genius and will surprise everyone. There is no one vampire or human that is smarter than my son, no one can compare to him he is the most important person in the world to me, I did tell him I had a surprise for him. I watched my son sleep peacefully in his new bedroom. He is always such a quiet child and has grown so much in this last week. Tobias runs around now like a little manic, he is so energetic and everytime I try to hold him he squirms free and bolts, he hasn't spoken since she left. I know he misses her, the fact that he haven't spoken or called for her proves it. I am hoping that getting away from this place would do us both good; I told Tobias that we were going away on a holiday and were going to meet a friend of mine. Tobias looked at me for a moment and then kicked up a storm, the little terror ran to his room and locked the door. I felt annoyed and folded my arms before I went outside and climbed through the window, Tobias was holding that book she used to read to him, Alice in Wonderland and sitting on her bed. "Come on little man we won't be gone for long, I promise." I told him, Tobias just looked at me and I smiled encouraging him to believe me and he sighed and climbed off the bed. He left the copy of Alice in Wonderland on the bed and hugged me. I picked up my growing son and smiled "you will like Uncle Eleazar, he is an interesting man. I carried my son to the kitchen and got him some blood and fruit. Tobias refused to touch the formula anymore, so I cut up varius fruit or some healthy food for him to eat. I tried to keep the balance of blood and human food for him. While he ate I went and packed a case of clothing for him and also went to pack a case for myself. When I finished packing the bag, Tobias was drinking his blood. I wondered if he was going slower than usual to try and delay us from leaving home,. Tobias finished his food and I told him to go get dressed and he did. He left and returned a few minutes later wearing a black shirt and blue jeans. He was also holding that book SHE got him!!!! I looked down at him and he held the book close to his chest and I hid my pain. I took our bags to the car and returned to find him sitting on the couch looking at the cover of the book. He traced his hands over the book image and I grabbed his shoes and socks and put them on him. I petted my son's head. "Tobias we are going to have so much fun." Tobias looked skeptically at me and I was determined to prove I was right. Tobias carried the book with him to the car and climbed into his seat. I locked the front door and I got in to the car and checked on Tobias, he did not have his seatbelt on. "Tobias put your seatbelt on son." Tobias looked at me and did not move, it seems Tobias was going to have one of those tantrums. "Come on Tobias be good for papa." Tobias looked at me for a moment longer and jumped out of the car and ran off leaving the book in the seat. I banged my head against the steering wheel a few times and sighed. "Come on son, your gonna make Papa cry." I spoke out knowing he could hear me, The thing is I couldn't cry even if I wanted to. I was just hoping he did not know that and he would feel guilty. Tobias actually came to the side of the car and I climbed out "That's my boy" I placed my hands out and moved in to hug him but as my arms closed he ducked out and ran off, the Punk was messing with me he ran off towards the beach and I could not help, but groan and complain "I am getting too old for this." I ran after my son, I had to give the boy credit he was fast. I ran after my son and he ran from the front of the house to the beach at the back of the house I ran after my son watching him run as fast as he could, he turned back while he ran he had a smile on his face, I was so surprised he had a small grin on his face, yes of course he was enjoying himself all children enjoy messing with their parents heads. I finally got within distance of my son and jumped to tackle him only to be eating the sand in his dust. I placed my chin on the palm of my hand as my elbow rested on the sand he stopped and looked at me standing so still. I got up and looked at him, he just looked at me and said nothing of course. Tobias bolted again down the beach and I ran after him, the little punk had a good head start on me "Tobias Stop" I said, raising my voice to my son for the first time. I jumped up through the air and landed in front of him, i picked up my son and he started to kick and make a fuss. I walked with him towards the car and sighed. What was wrong with him? Why was he kicking up such a fuss? I sat Tobias In the car and did the seatbelt up myself and gave him his book that was still in the back seat. "Come on son, be a good boy for papa." Tobias looked at me and frowned he held the book close to his chest and I did up my seatbelt and we drove away. I drove for the entire day and night until the sun came back out. I stopped for Tobias often, he needed to stretch his legs and eat and I made sure he did not bolt on me like back home. Tobias is currently sleeping his head resting on my knee. I feel bad for raising my voice to him, but he is acting so strange...I should be at the Denali's soon, maybe Tobias will settle down when he meets them. ~Brian Jacobson |
InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |