Topic: Who is the mystery voice?
Date: August 25th 2009 Dear diary, It's just about been a month since my last entry, I have been very busy in the month. I have had 10 lessons on being a queen from the hags, and lessons on using my ability and learning the limitations of it. I have learned to inspire myself without singing. I can't supercharge my own ability yet and doubt that I can, but I do find myself becoming stronger, determined and more resilient and able to endure a lot more than anyone else. The biggest change is the peace in Volterra. The twins are getting along slowly, see my guard squad has changed usually it's just Alec and Felix, but now it's Felix and Chelsea. Alec and Jane are guarding Aro, Marcus and Caius. The two sometimes go out with Heidi to lure in some humans. Heidi seems to have a lure about her, she can attract anyone. I guess it pays to live in the age of the perverts. The twins pick up younger children and women with a motherly instinct, for dinner. I can never bring myself to killing children. I don't really know why. It happened last week I had just finished off a blond female who looked like she made it a habit to skip two out of three meals a day and I saw this little child shaking in a corner. I walked to the shaking child looking at his pale skin and black hair and ocean blue eyes. I loved those eyes they were so amazing. I mean when I looked into those eyes it was like looking into the ocean. I walked to the child slowly and crouched in front of him. "hello kid what is your name?" I asked the boy quietly. Marcus, who was sitting at the throne watching, had moved over to my side and placed his hand on my back and rubbed it "I think the little human is afraid my love... you have blood all over your face and clothing my messy baby girl" I looked up at Marcus and he smiled he bent down to lean in and kiss my face and licked up the blood around my face cleaning me. While Marcus did that I could hear the little boy whimper from fear and my blood red eyes looked at the boy. "shhhh it's ok no one will hurt you, can you tell me your name little boy?" I asked him, the boy closed his beautiful ocean blue eyes and whimpered "Toby" the name Toby was such a beautiful name, I smiled at the child and stroked his cheek ignoring him flinch from my ice cold touch. "wow Toby what a lovely name my name is Sarah" I told the child my voice was soft. I placed my hand out to shake his hand, but the boy didn't shake it "you want to be a proper little man don't you Toby?" the boy nodded his head slowly and I could not help, but smile "well little one its proper etiquette to shake a person's hand when you introduce yourself to them. It's very rude not to shake a person's hand when you introduce yourself." I told the boy, keeping my hand out. The boy moved his tiny pale hand to mine and shook it, he shivered from my cold skin and after shaking my hand he quickly let go. I asked Toby his age and he used his hand to tell me he was 5. I returned to standing upright and Marcus wrapped his arm around me, I did not know why I had this weakness for children, it's not like I am a mother or mother material. I looked at Marcus with misty red eyes as he looked at me. I ignored the curious eyes of Jane, Alec, Felix,Demetri, Heidi, Chelsea, Renata, Aro and Caius. "Marcus my love can I keep him." I asked. Marcus looked at me surprised "you wish to keep a human Sarah, but why it's a human it's nothing, but food." he spoke disregarding Toby's life. I looked down sad, I did not understand how he could be like that... just because he was a human. I flinched at his words for reasons unknown to me, I guess I did not want to think of seeing another dead child. The memories of Jane feasting from a human child not long ago haunted me. Marcus could see my reaction and how I looked down at the ground, he moved his finger to my chin to lift it up he looked at me with a smile on his face. The smile gave him a peace of serenity "forgive me baby girl... I sometimes forget your just a child yourself, you still hold some value in humanity... this would be interesting... a child raising a child" he stopped and started to laugh quietly with each passing second it grew a little louder and louder. He was amused, the others just watched Marcus with astonishment, it's like they have never seen him break out into laughter before. I looked at Aro the surprised look on Aro's face slowly turned into a smile. I hated Aro's smile it was fake and sneaky... he reminded me of a rat rubbing it's little paws together like it was plotting something diabolical come to think of it I'm not that keen on rats either. Marcus settled down and he pulled me in as close as he could till our two bodies were touching each others, he rested his chin on top of my head "Keeping a human child is a pretty big ask Sarah and a risk to exposure, I cannot make this decision lightly or alone... let me talk to my brothers" he spoke. I smiled and wrapped my arms around Marcus tightly. "thank you" I spoke happily. If only my heart could beat it would be singing with joy through thumping melodies. I looked at Toby and broke out of Marcus hug to crouched down and smiled at the human "I am going to take you to my room and we will play lots of games Toby, i promise to take good care of you." the boy said nothing he just looked at me. I guess he is still traumatized about seeing all the dead people on the ground. "Sarah that will have to wait you have a lesson scheduled with me." Felix spoke out, he walked over to me and I smiled. I loved lessons with Felix, the thrill of sparing with Felix to fight and become stronger it's such a rush. I looked at little Toby and walked to Chelsea we had become a lot closer in this last month, she appreciated the jewelery I gave her from my holiday and the sincerity that I wanted nothing more than her friendship. Chelsea was watching me curiously "Chelsea have you got your thirst under control?" I asked her softly, she nodded her head "do you think you could take the little one to my room and keep him occupied for a little while?" I asked her, she looked anxiously at Aro and he nodded his head "yes Chelsea that would be a wonderful idea." he spoke giving her permission Chelsea walked to Toby and picked him up I watched the boy shiver from Chelsea's ice cold touch. I watched her carry Toby out of the room and down the hall to my bedroom I was excited about the little boy and hopeful that Marcus would allow me to to keep the child. I was surprised Caius spoke to me "you... newborn" I looked from the hallway to Caius, he seemed to be angry, "we have laws as you full well know it is forbidden to create immortal children such an act is punishable by death" he hissed out. Jane was helping Alec and Demetri clean up the dead corpses "maybe we should let her turn the flesh bag" she muttered" I looked at Jane "silence" Caius hissed at Jane. I was surprised that Jane said nothing, but returned to picking up the corpses and cleaning up "Caius that was never my intention my idea was to raise the child until it comes of age." Caius was in front of me, his face inches from me "you will show me respect you shall call me master" I looked at Caius he was so intimidating "you're going to be my brother-in law why should I call you master?" Caius moved his hand to slap me, but before I knew it I was holding his wrist. He looked at me with a mixture of shock and rage "you dare touch me" he snarled "I'm sorry" I whispered in an instant I felt worried it was a split second later that my worry disappeared and I felt rage "hey wait a minute I take that back. You tried to slap me. What the hell is that all about you jackass?" I spoke back with anger, my grip on his wrist tightened "you never and I repeat never hit a woman" I snarled at him with rage, the shock in Caius' expression vanished and all that remained was anger "I am your king I will do as i please perhaps I should have Jane remind you of your place" I did not look away from Caius, but felt Marcus from behind me wrap his arms around me "shhh Sarah calm down its ok" Marcus kissed my neck and I released Caius from my grip. I looked at Caius and hated him and I could see he hated me too, fiercely, but then again Caius hated everyone so I guess I shouldn't worry. Maybe he and Jane could start an I hate Sarah club, it would be interesting to see who would be president of the club if they ever made it. Knowing Caius he would probably kick and scream like a child until he got his way. I think Caius is an asshole all the time because he is jealous that Aro and Marcus have gifts and he hasn't got any. I did not resist Marcus' touch as he tried to calm me, it was sad to say I wasn't completely calmed, I looked from Caius to Aro and noticed him standing up from his throne chair and he walked toward Caius, Marcus and myself, each step he had taken was soundless, like a feather floating to the cold stone ground, I watched Aro carefully and knew he wanted to diffuse the situation between us, you know I just noticed this, but I seem to have a knack for pissing people off. I guess I am too confrontational for some people. I guess it's just a natural reflex for me, I mean having lost my memory I lost not only my memories, but my identity everything I knew and everything I was vanished. I had to learn who I was from scratch. I went from a confused woman to a coward and from a coward to a headstrong and brave woman. I am still trying to find my way, I don't think we can fully know ourselves until the moment before our death. So yeah when you go through so much you're bound to be confronting. Aro placed his hand on my shoulder and every thought I had since he touched me last he now knew, I could keep no secrets from Aro. well almost no secrets, I think I had one, Aro thought I had some plan and some how I managed to keep it from him, ever since the memory loss Aro touches me often, my theory is he wants to see if i regained my memories he wants to know my secrets real bad, well I wouldn't mind knowing my thoughts either. I looked at Aro's face and he plastered that fake smile on his face. Aro let go of me with the knowledge he had stolen from me probably swirling in his head, "now now everyone calm yourselves there is no need to loose your temper we are all friends here Sarah perhaps you should go have that lesson with Felix" Aro's words to agitate Caius, as he just scoffed and walked off to his throne and sat there, I could feel Marcus' grip around me tighten as he kissed my neck again "Marcus I think Aro is right I should go have that lesson with Felix, but how about we go out after my lesson, tonight we can stroll the town and watch the stars" I offered Marcus an idea for a date. There was silence for a moment as Marcus kissed my neck yet again. I smiled "yes that sounds like such a wonderful idea my love. yes go have your lesson and I will talk to my brothers about your pet human ok." he spoke his voice was like velvet he leaned in to kiss my cheek this time and let go of me. I smiled at Marcus as he walked off with Aro to talk with Caius. Eventually Jane and Alec were finished cleaning the corpses from the floor, I looked at the small splatters of blood on the ground that were yet to be cleaned. The thing is we don't leave much of a mess feeding, well if your a mature vampire you don't I am what you all a newborn I am new to being a vampire and I don't have as much practice as the others, so yeah it gets messy, but someone must have been in a rush to finish to actually have blood spill onto the floor. I wondered if it was Felix, he seemed to love our sparing sessions as much as I do. Felix is probably my best friend in all of the Volturi I can't imagine going through all this without Felix at my back. Felix is my rock and my center he gives me encouragement and he is so protective of me. Felix walked up to me as I watched the twins pile up the bodies for the low level guards to dispose of the corpses. Jane was wiping her hand as if she had just picked up an object covered in mud while Alec had his arms folded and glanced at the corpses the look on his face told me he was contemplating something important. I felt Felix touch my shoulder "Sarah I think we will have our lesson outside today, I suggest you go get changed." I snapped out of my thoughts on the twins and looked down at my jeans and black top, i could see the blood stains on my top and jeans and yes I could see that this did bring attention to myself. I nodded my head "do not get distracted by the child Sarah, take your clothing and get dressed we have no time for pets today" I looked at Felix confused and then remembered the little boy I had saved and asked Marcus if I could adopt. I nodded and walked towards my bedroom. While I walked to my bedroom I wondered why the Volturi had no regard towards the lives of humans I guess I can understand a little of why the Volturi may disregard humanity, I mean humans wage war on one another and kill for no reason at all, they do horrible horrible crimes too and this has gone through out history. I mean look at the concentration camps the Jewish people were put through, look at the slavery men, women and children were put through just for the color of their skin. These are just a small part of humanity's dark dark past. They have so much more, but if you compare them to us vampires... well we don't do any of that we only kill humans to feed... most of us so yes I guess compared to vampires humans are animals... nothing, but meals and pets. I think the more time I stay with Marcus the more I am starting to lose the value of human life. So I walked down the hallway and stopped by Chelsea's room to see her with Afton in the room I was surprised to see this since I had asked Chelsea to watch the little boy for me. "Uh Chelsea what's going on, where is the child?" I asked her softly, I was concerned "the child is asleep on your bed so I decided to come back to my bedroom to relax with my man... I do hope that's alright" Chelsea spoke to me, I nodded my head. Well if the child was asleep then I guess that is alright, I mean it's not like the child could escape us, we would hear the pitter-patter of the boys small human feet and we could hear the pounding of his small heart beating away and pumping blood through his body, we could smell his scent, the scent of vanilla... I liked the scent of vanilla its really nice. "well that's fine Chelsea you did good, let the little one sleep the poor child has gone through such an ordeal I hope he will recover from it." I spoke concerned for the little child. I adored the child everything about him especially his name, call me crazy, but the name Toby sounds so familiar to me. I don't know why the name Toby is so familiar to me. "the younger pets are more resilient, I am sure he will bounce back from this... if the masters decided to let you keep him anyway Sarah what are you doing going to your room i thought you had a lesson with Felix today." Chelsea told me I nodded "I do, I was just on my way to my bedroom to get changed since my current attire is all bloody, but since the little one is sleeping I guess I will have to go out like this" I told her. Chelsea looked to her mate and he nodded his head and walked out of the room and Chelsea smiled "I can't allow a future queen of the Volturi to walk out messy, it would be a disgrace. I have some spare clothing let me loan you a dress." she spoke cheerfully. I smiled it was so nice of Chelsea, a dress would not be practical to wear during a combat training session, but I did not want to refuse Chelsea's offer and risk hurting her feelings, especially since we are just starting to get along. I nodded my head "thank you Chelsea your such a lifesaver" Chelsea smiled and went to her walk in closet I followed her and I could not believe how much room she had in there. Chelsea picked out a beautiful long black dress. I removed my blood stained clothing and placed on the beautiful black dress Chelsea pulled the rubber band from my hair to let it bounce to my shoulders "you look beautiful Sarah" Chelsea told me, I smiled shyly "thank you Chelsea this dress really is beautiful" I told her. Chelsea nodded her head and I was surprised that she offered me some jewelery as accessory’s after politely declining I left the Chelsea's room and decided to go check in on the little one. I was surprised to find Jane at the door of my bedroom "what are you doing here Jane shouldn’t you be with Alec" I spoke a little worried. I did not want that child eating dwarf anywhere near the little one. "I just came to look for you Felix is getting restless" she spoke emotionless, I knew Jane she was a soulless sociopath and a liar, if Felix was restless he would have came looking for me on his own accord. After all Felix was my guard he would come himself "sure whatever now that you told me your message you should leave now....I'm sure Alec is waiting on you" Jane gave me her usual cold look "yes he is waiting on me!" she spoke putting an emphasize on herself. I let out a sigh and watched as Jane left and slowly opened the door to my bedroom to see little Toby sleeping on the bed. I closed the door and calmly walked down the hallway to get back to Felix. I had many worries troubling me, first off was the child, would Aro, Caius and Marcus let me keep him, then I have my lessons with my ability, queen lessons and combat lessons, and now I had to worry about Jane eating the child. How will I keep Jane away from him? The little human is precious to me...there is no way the kings or Marcus would ever allow a protection detail I would have to be sneaky about this. An idea had already formulated in my mind. I walked off with my arms folded back past Chelsea's room and she stopped me. "hey Sarah wait" I stopped and looked at Chelsea at the doorway she was holding a black hooded cloak "here put this on" she spoke calmly. I took the cloak and placed it on. It would take me a while to get used to Chelsea being nice to me. "hey Chelsea thanks, its really nice of you" Chelsea smiled "no problems hows the pet?" i sighed "still sleeping the poor little boy, and I'm worried, Jane was at my door and we both know that little sociopath is never up to anything good." I spoke a little down "I see well you are right about Jane, she is never up to any good. I can keep an eye on whats his name... spot right" I sighed "his name is Toby" I spoke and again the name sounded sort of familiar. Chelsea rolled her eyes "yeah yeah I'll keep an eye on spot for you, but later on you and I going out shopping" Chelsea made me smile "yeah sure how about next week, I want to take the time to settle Toby in and I got lessons to attend... crap" I spoke realizing Felix was still waiting on me. I ran down the hallway moving as fast as I could. I got to the hallway to see Felix standing there tapping his foot with his arms folded "about time" he spoke disgruntled he lowered his arms and walked closer to me he pulled up one side of the cloak "h..hey what are you doing" I spoke out shocked, "you're wearing a dress, your movements will be hindered by it" I frowned "well little Toby is sleeping I didn’t want to wake him up so Chelsea lent me some clothing" Felix rolled his eyes as I spoke "the masters haven’t even agreed to let you keep the pet and here you are going out of your way for the stupid pet" he spoke sounding a little annoyed. I looked at Felix and pouted a little "I am sorry Felix I did not mean to get distracted" I spoke softly, Felix dropped the cloak and folded his arms for a moment he looked at me with those dark red eyes and smiled "well then I guess I can overlook this just this once Sarah and as long as you try your best I guess I can over look this inconvenience" I smiled and moved to Felix to hug him and he stayed still as a statue for a few moments and then lifted one hand to put it on top of my head. I guess this was how Felix showed affection. I smiled as I let go "thank you forgiving me Felix you are a wonderful teacher and even better friend” I spoke softly. I examined Felix's face and saw he was uncomfortable for some reason, we both walked together side by side and made it outside, the sky was a dark gray like there was a storm that would soon come to bring an onslaught of cold rain, not that I could feel hot and cold anymore. we stopped out in the middle with the sun masked by the dark clouds it was safe for Felix and I to be outside so our skin did not sparkle like the night sky if any humans saw us they would probably think us to be some pale foreigners from Alaska or something. I watched Felix’s troubled face and found myself curious wondering what was troubling my mentor and best friend "ladies first" he announced and I nodded my head "yes" I spoke a little worried for Felix. I decided the best way to work on his mood was to do my best during training, so I ran at Felix and jumped up high half way towards him, I went high and had the heel of my ankle out. I was aiming for the shoulder or head, this sort of kick was called an ax kick because my move was coming from above and I'd have one leg sticking out with the heel of my leg as the sharp point. Normally I did ok with this move, but today was different, something wasn't right I couldn't get my legs all the way apart, something was messing my movements up. Felix stepped back half a step if my movements weren’t hindered my ax kick would have landed on his shoulder. I landed on the ground my ankle hitting it made a small crater which caused an upsurge of dust and small rocks flying around. If I was fighting a human I could use this dust to attack and kill them, but this was different I was fighting Felix. We were on equal grounds, well almost Felix had more strength and experience. I watched as Felix charged the dust smoke with his fist. His fist came to my head and I moved to use both of my hands to catch Felix, fist only to feel a powerful punch hit me in the gut the pain was incredible it forced me to bend over. The next thing I knew I felt Felix whack me in the back with both his fists gripped together to make a hammer fist. I hit the ground hard "sloppy Sarah very sloppy from you, I expected better. Now get up" he spoke out, his voice had this tone of disappointment and I hated that I was disappointing Felix, I really did. I forced myself up, but it was difficult, the fabric of the dress was making it hard to move, of course I could break the fabric with no problems, but I was being careful not to, since the dress was not mine and then it hit me that's what was affecting my movements, the dress. I managed to stand up and heard Felix speak "come on Sarah stop wasting my time what are you going to do train or go to a tea party" he baited me trying to light that short fuse that was my temper. And let me tell you, it worked it also confused me "tea party?" I asked raising my left eyebrow, Felix nodded his head his facial expression changed "that feint you did the one where you threw a punch aimed at my face as a distraction only to use your other fist to punch me in the gut that move was genius, but that move will not work on me twice" I told Felix in awe of the genius behind that move. I removed Chelsea's cloak and let go of it the wind lifted the cloak letting it float away thanks to the current of the wind I watched the cloak flow away on what I would call the winds of the change the season. I would call it this because I have decided that while I did my best before to fight and cheer Felix up I would now do my best to defeat him. I concentrated on Felix I felt so many emotions, but I could not concentrate on them because Felix had decided he would use this moment to try and take me down. Felix charged me and threw a punch I tried to evade by stepping to the side, but once again my dress had gotten in the way. Instead of taking a full step my step was smaller and resulted in Felix moving his fist around that struck me across the face. I stepped close to the man and with open palms I pushed Felix away and watched him as he ran towards me with swift speed Felix’s movements were incredibly soft, it was like he was actually floating instead of running. His movements were graceful thanks to vampire speed and agility. I had to admit Felix's moves were magnificent it was like ballet... no not like ballet it was like his movements were light and at the same time his movements were sharp, I guess the best way to describe Felix's moves is like the blade of a sword. That floated delicately like a feather. Felix was right in front of me and instead of thinking of how to evade him I was thinking of many different things like how I could beat Felix, how to handle Jane, how to get Marcus and the others to allow me to keep Toby with all those thoughts I found myself distracted. I could not evade Felix as he threw out a punch with such grace and force that the impact sent me flying off the ground and into the air. I landed on the ground and the dust around me was unsettled, as it floated around me I sat up and frowned "pathetic Sarah you can do better than this" I felt rage boil within me. Felix was giving me such a hard time, well at the time I thought he was, but the truth was he was pushing me, trying to get me to improve, to become stronger and improve so if I ever needed to defend myself I would know how. The problem was I could not see past the anger I felt, so I did not see the real motivation behind Felix's taunts all I saw was my own anger "I'm sorry I" before I could finish to tell him about the thoughts that plagued my mind. Felix interrupted me "Sarah when you're on a battle field you concentrate on three things; the first is your opponent, the second is your surroundings, and the third is your capabilities. Everything else is a distraction that will lead to your death." I looked down ashamed, he was right those distractions could very well lead me to my death. "I am sorry I was just thinking about the little one I mean he has gone through so much and must be so frightened missing his mommy and daddy" I spoke. Felix folded his arms and rolled his eyes "I should have known you would be worried about that pet Sarah, I have a duty not just as your body guard and mentor, but as your friend to look out for you and to teach you to survive if you don't concentrate" he stopped and broke eye contact from me for a moment he was looking down, it was like he was building up the courage to tell me some bad news, he managed to look at me with determination in his eyes and a sense of conviction he had this presence about him like he was sure of what he was doing without doubts at least that’s what I thought. Maybe I was just imagining it, but what he said next threw me off "I will be forced Sarah to tell the masters that my assumptions were right, that having a pet is too much of a distraction and I will recommend to the masters that it is killed." I looked at Felix in shock, I always thought he was different than the others that he showed a sense of humanity and kindness that he has always shown me. I closed my eyes and made a fist, I could feel something strange inside me it was fear, not for myself, but for Toby. I thought about him I wanted him to live a happy life to be safe. And as i thought about what i wanted for the child I heard something a voice, this voice it was like an angels voice it was beautiful "Momma" it was a child’s voice, but the strange thing was it wasn't Toby's voice and I didn't exactly hear it. Ok it's like this, it's like remembering the way a friend sounds, like you can hear their voice in your head... the strange thing is the voice is real familiar. And at the exact moment of hearing that memory of an angelic voice saying "Momma" it changed something within me it made me smile, my skin tingling and I felt like I was empowered by this mysterious power so that anything was possible to me and there was no limitations that i could not transcend. I opened my eyes and looked at Felix I kept that smile planted on my face as I felt strength course through my body "oh Felix you have no idea what you have just done... you have set something in me on fire and I swear by the heavens above Felix that I have never felt so strong in my entire life" I told him confidently I had myself inspired and because I had used my gift to inspire myself there was nothing I could not do, everything was possible to me. I bent down and at the sides of the dress I borrowed from Chelsea I ripped that fabric right up to my thighs exposing my pale legs. I stood upright and felt that fire burn inside me, at that moment I decided that I would try and figure out who the mystery child voice was later, right now at this pressing moment I had to prove that Toby would not be a distraction to me. I ran to Felix as he had this look on his face his eyes were focused on my legs I swear if I didn't know better I'd think he was checking out my sweet thighs. I ran at Felix and spoke "Hey eyes up here" I spoke and at that moment jumped to deliver a kick to the side of his neck. My kick was unrestrained as it landed it surprised me for a moment and as I regained my footing I watched as Felix stumbled forward from my blow and delivered a backhand punch to his face feeling my hand punch his soft face. Felix fell back I thought things would heat up now and perhaps an epic spar session would break out that we would fight a fight that could very well change the landscape around, but I was wrong nothing like that happened. Felix spoke to me "that is enough Sarah" his voice sounded off like something was still wrong "ok" I spoke surprised. Felix picked himself up to stand towering over me "that determination of yours is very impressive" he spoke complementing me. I thanked felix and asked him if he was serious about telling Marcus and the other kings that the child would be a distraction on me and felix told me he had considered it, but would never hurt me if he could help it. I smiled that felix is such an amazing friend. I had picked up chelsea's cloak that was caught against a tree branch and had started to walk back home with Felix. It was a short walk, but during the walk I had asked Felix what was bothering him and instead of choosing to confide in me he made a lame joke saying "I'm jealous your giving all your affections to a pet human." I need to tell him next time that when he jokes he has to make his voice less serious and more playful. He chuckled darkly and we made it back underground. Felix decided he wanted solitude in his room and I decided on going to see Chelsea. I was afraid of her reaction I expected to see her blow a fuse and hate me, but instead she just sighed. I offered her a shopping trip where we could go shopping together and she cheered up "sounds fun we could probably get my lover and Alec to babysit." she spoke cheerfully. I smiled and suggested it would be a good idea and then told her i was going to check on Toby and get ready. When I got to my room Toby was still sleeping, he was a cutey that Toby. I sat in the corner of the room and picked you up before I decided to write to you I made a shopping list of things I had to buy in order to give a child a happy enviroment and things a child obviously needed. I know I was jumping the gun Marcus and the others haven't given me their verdict yet, but I was too lost in the thought of being a mother to the child... for some reason it excited me and made me so very happy. After I made the list I started to write in you and here I am at this very moment writing to you about what I have just went through and now I have just a little time to ask myself who was the mysterious child's voice that I thought I heard and why did it have such a powerful affect on me? I know I don't have a child I mean marcus would have told me if I had one you know... Felix just came to my room the kings have their verdict and want to see me in 10 minutes. I have to go, I need to get ready for my shopping trip with Chelsea so I can buy a nice dress for my date with Marcus tonight and then I have to find out what will the boy's future be. Wish me luck. ~Sarah
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Topic: Peace at last Date: July 20th, 2009 Dear Diary, It has been two days since my last entry. What can I say about the last two days. I have to be honest with you Diary, I am sick of everything. I have been looking back on the events that have happened and looking back at all the drama and everything in general and I am sick of it all. I even went through my previous entries just to reflect on everything... I realized even when I wrote to you it was chaotic, just too much drama and like I have said I am sick of it. The drama is like a dozen people speaking at me at the exact same time non stop it's enough to drive me insane. I guess I realized this shortly after finishing my last entry. I left my bedroom, I wanted to get some perspective on things... I thought about going to the tower where Felix inspired me to believe in myself, the view there was so beautiful and peaceful... I needed to find Felix first, I still couldn't go anywhere on my own. I did not mind Felix he had this quiet aura around him, he appreciated silence. I eventually found Felix, or should I say Felix found me. Before I could even ask him he told me that I was needed in a meeting. You can imagine how frustrated I was, honestly I wanted some peace and quiet and now I had to go to some meeting. Although I have to admit I was a little curious at the time. So I followed Felix into the throne room and saw Aro, Caius, Demetri, Athenodora and Supicia. I looked at the wives and shivered from the hatred I felt for them and I will admit I am a little afraid of them. The wives gave me a look of loathing and curiosity, I remembered that they did not see me since before my makeover and nodded my head to them, they both looked away at the same time. I found that to be a very strange moment. I decided to look at Aro and saw him walking towards me "ah yes Sarah thank you for joining us, how are you this evening." Aro touched my hands holding them he looked at me with those curious eyes of his. At that exact moment I thought about Aro and his ability, it is said Aro, the king of the Volturi has the ability to see into the into the deepest darkest part of your mind He goes beyond the words that have been spoken, the words that have been hidden with deceitful eyes. He searches your mind and pull out your secrets and all that you know... he knows. The king has such an amazing power, but why did he feel the need to use it on me. Out of curiosity to see what random thoughts a newborn like myself could have? Did he want to see how I dealt with my urges when I saw a nice piece of human. How I think about sinking my nails deep into the flesh of the human, dragging my sharp nail down the human's arm watching as their skin is cut open with a mixture of dark red blood gushing from the wound to have lighter red blood pour out all over the flesh of the human. My ice cold tongue licking up the blood gushing out from the wrist to the shoulder sucking the human dry. That was one of my thoughts, another would have been to stop and allow the human to recover and place a meat hook on the area just below the back of the human's neck I would hang the meat hook up and watch the human suffer in agony as the blood poured out slowly from the holes made by the meat hook. I would hold the human still while my tongue rested on their back and wait for the blood to drip down my tongue... well actually there is another thought that comes to mind, while the human is suffering on that meat hook I would show them a knife and stab them with it twice and leave the knife inside them and use shot glasses and wait for the shot glasses to full up with the human's blood and maybe drink a toast with Marcus. My memory may be gone, but I am aware of my humanity and knowing that I am a newborn I know my humanity is slipping away in the blood lust. I do appear to have some sort of line I won't cross, I won't feed off of children. Marcus has, in the past, claimed that the blood of the child taste especially sweet because they're innocent, untainted by the bitterness of humanity, pure of heart and mind and free from drugs. I heard Marcus speak like that and it disturbed me, he knew it too and told me he wouldn't bring it up again, and so far he hasn't. I am getting off topic... After Aro let go of my hands for a moment he looked disappointed before speaking "well we have a problem as you may have all known, the relationship with Alec and Jane has become very unstable even before Alec has lost his memory. This of course is not good for us... it makes us look weak and unstable... which is not good for our image. We must think of a way to get the two end this foolish feud once and for all." Aro spoke seriously. I looked at Aro and folded my arms trying to think of ideas when Felix suggested Chelsea's assistance. Aro considered the suggestion for a moment and I listened quietly "I would normally ask for Chelsea's assistance, but I believe it's best not to have her use her ability when we have yet to try something healthier, more natural." The wives suggested letting them fight it out... yeah I know right no surprises there, violence solves everything right. I let out a scoff at the idea and they all looked at me. "have you any ideas" Aro asked. I suggested Doctor Phil and they just looked at me blinking and I frowned "never mind" typical they know all about violence, but not talking out their problems... Give doctor Phil a hundred years and he still wouldn't be able to fix the wives anger management issues... probably go the same for the twins especially Jane she is a savage little psycho. The meeting continued and then I suggested locking the two in a room to talk things out and have Demetri blocking the way to stop them from leaving. They all looked at me again curiously "that's just crazy enough to work" spoke Demetri, nothing could stop me from shooting out a dirty look at Demetri, not the dirty kind of look that says hey I want to jump your bones, but the kind that said I want to kick you in the groin as hard as I can. That thought just made me give off a satisfied smile. Aro decided my idea of locking the two in a room to sort out their problems was the best solution for sorting things out. I was excused for the rest of the meeting with Aro, and the others apparently they have this project or something I know I should have been curious, but I couldn't bring myself to care, I just wanted that moment of silence. So I went back to my room, fetched you and went outside to the tower and climbed to the top. I love the view of the night time sky, the stars are such a beautiful sight and the lights of the city... it's enough to make a girl's heart melt at just the sight... well my heart can't melt seeing as I am a vampire and all. I enjoyed sitting at the tower on my own it felt nice just to see how beautiful the scenery was. I wasn't surprised when Felix joined me, the man was my own personal shadow. We sat in silence for the longest of time and it was very enjoyable. Felix did start to surprise me with a question "do you think you will ever tire of Immortality?" the question was so sudden how could I answer it? "you're not thinking of suicide are you, cause if you are that's one whole drama I can't deal with at this moment" I spoke worried about Felix and disappointed this beautiful moment of silence and solitude was going to be turned into a don't do it, you have so much to live for speech and this beautiful moment would probably be the only thing dying, but Felix had given me such support I did owe it to him. Felix chuckled at my words for a moment "no... It's just, I have lived for so long and done so much, I am beginning to get bored of immortality." I rolled my eyes up "Felix you're not an immortal... immortality is just a myth at best. We all live and we all die, granted we come back up for seconds, but we will die too none the less." Felix looked at me "Sarah, vampires will never die, just look at Master Aro he has been alive for thousand of years." I shook my head "Master Aro... he is alive, but not really alive where it counts. Aro is obsessive and greedy, he wants everything and in the end those who want everything end up with nothing." My words seemed to confuse Felix "I do not really understand, that how is he alive, but not really alive he is like I said thousands of years old." Felix repeated. I frowned and leaned my head against his shoulders "Felix you will have to figure that part on your own, I am not sure you recall in Australia I fed on a human and before I killed that human I told that human "Life is, but a fleeting dream... well I stand by it, the true difference between humans and vampires is we get to sleep just a little longer than the humans. We as vampires should understand the true purpose of life, with life there is death, we are alive now so soon we shall have death." Felix was quiet and i wondered if I was clear enough in my answer until he explained "so how will vampires die then if you believe we die eventually then how do you see it happening." His voice seemed curious. I looked up at him and smiled a little "well, I believe that the death of all life will occur when the planet is ready to die... When the world ends it will be in either Fire or ice... when the planet dies when all life dies, we will be no exception, we feed on life to sustain our own lives... we are parasites, but what do we feed on when the planet is dead, when humans or even animals are dead? The whole world could end tomorrow one giant meteor striking the planet making it blow up... I am pretty sure not even we could survive an entire planet blowing up... even if we did it's going to suck floating around in space for the rest of time thirsty and weak and consumed by the never ending burning in our throats." Felix looked horrified he had that look on his face like I had just told him Santa was a pervert. Felix told me I thought about things to much and asked me what should we do then since we were destined for death someday as well as the humans. "that's easy Felix we do as the humans do, explore life and find your own reason for existence. Take the time to enjoy the little things We live longer, that's a blessing we get to see more beauty, more exciting new discoveries we go out and look for adventure and if you go out today or tomorrow and you find nothing new, then you look harder for something new, because there is always something new to discover about life." Felix smiled and thanked me for opening his eyes. He did not bring up immortality again instead we spoke about who would win a fight Jane or Alec which brought a big debate we all knew Jane played dirty while Alec was a lot more sensitive, more elegant than Jane. Eventually Felix jumped off the tower and just waited at the bottom leaning on the tower, he knew I wanted some alone time to just enjoy the peace and quiet, as soon as he jumped down I decided to write to you and tell you everything. Now that I have I think I will go I want to enjoy this moment of clarity and peace while I can, who knows what will come up tomorrow or even once I go inside. ~Sarah Frost Topic: so much for my Holiday with Marcus, hope we can go on a longer one next time.
Date: July 18th, 2009 Dear Diary I am home, so much has happened in the three days I need to tell you everything, because I just need to unleash everything pent up inside me.after my last entry Felix left to get me a snack he came back with a nice plump human to eat. this human was wearing a blue T shirt and blue Jeans he had on black runners, he did not look bad the human had blond wavey hair and amazing eyes that were hazel I just looked at the human he looked frightened, Marcus was sitting beside me and Julian standing behind Marcus ready to pounce while Felix just held the human still "come on Sarah it's snack time, you wanted to go shopping today didn't you." Felix spoke, I nodded my head head, I removed my top leaving only my bra and jeans on the truth is when a vampire feeds it can get really messy unless you're experianced because I am young I am kind of a messy eater and since that was my favorite top there was no way i was going to get that top blood stained plus i did not bring many clothing with me. I walked to the human and smiled carressing his cheek he was whimpering "life is, but a fleeting dream...it's time you awaken" I spoke to the human and leaned down biting his neck, the blood came dripped down as my teeth cut into the skin, I could hear the screams of the human and said nothing I placed my hand on the otherside of his neck and Cut my fingers deep into the skin, my jaws opened a little wider as I took a deeper chunk bite and pulled out a large chunk of flesh. After spitting the flesh out and pushing out the conciousness of my mind I sunk my mouth to the bloody wound and continued to drain the blood as it poured out the human's heart slowed down thump..........thump........thump and then it no longer thumped I pulled back and gasped looking at the ceiling for the moment, this human tasted especially good....I wondered if all Australians tasted this delicous, I heard Felix fake cough and I refocused my attention I looked at the human "don't drop him yet." I spoke as I looked at the corpse I used his shirt to wipe off the blood from my face & saw in his shirt pocket he had a pair of sunglasses after pulling out the sunglasses I placed them on and turned to face Marcus and smiled mischivous and went to put my top on, after it was on Felix had his arm out "Shall we be leaving now" he asked, after I intertwined my arm with his playfully I told him as soon as Marcus and Julian were ready, it was at this time Marcus told me he had somethings to do so he & Julian would be staying at the at our little home. To tell the truth I was not happy about this, the reason for our trip was so we could spend time together and after reminding him of this he told me whatever he was doing could not wait. So I left with felix and we went to town via Limo, the sun was hidden behind all the dark storm clouds the wind was cool and refeshing, we were dropped off and Felix walked inches behind me the entire time protecting me, I told him that we were safe that there were no others of our kind, but he told me it was better safe than sorry. we walked down town and I came across the hairdressers, Felix told me we should keep going and I told him no and entered the hairdresses, Felix followed me and asked me what I was doing and I told him "Felix...I look at my reflection and I don't see who I am, all I have is people telling me what I did & who I was...I gained strength from believing in myself, but the woman I was...she is long gone, so I should stop trying to be who I was and be who I am...it's time I change who I am on the outside to reflect who I was on the inside." Felix was still confused and I sighed, I felt this was something I had to do so I told Felix I wanted him to do a full scale scouting of the city area we were in, he was reluctant to leave my side with guard duty, I promised him I would stay here in public view, of course I would be safe in public we vampires don't want exposure. I sat in the chair and the hairdresser asked what I wanted. I told him to dye my hair, and when he asked me what color I told him blond. So there I sat with my head tilted back for sixty minutes, my hair is a little long, I thought about triming it, but decided not to. Finally I was finished and I looked at myself in the mirror not beliving how different I looked, I paid with the credit card Marcus had given me back on the plane and walked out to the streets Felix was still hadn't returned so I decided to go clothing shopping.I tried on a whole lot of clothing and I heard foot steps "Sarah Frost you lied to me" I heard an angry hiss. I regonized the voice, I hid my shock he sounded extremely pissed I told him to relax Felix stomped his foot and told he would not relax. I was taken by suprised, did Felix just stamp his foot....that was so childish. I examined myself in my blue corset I was wearing on the right side It had a black design, it went well with the blue jeans. The short Leather jacket I had on was magnificent. Felix hissed out "I will not scold a closed curtain...open up at once, you need to be made aware of the stupid risk you have taken...Hones" I removed my sunglasses and opened the curtain and Felix and he stopped speaking, as he saw me for the first time since my makeover I was no longer a plain brunette "what were you saying" I asked him softly with a coy smile on my face. Felix jaw was still open and I walked to him and pushed his chin up to close his mouth, Felix was quiet for a second "I...forgot" he spoke in awe, I smiled and went to pay for the corset and jacket along with a number of other clothing items, after paying for them I asked the sales girl if she could hold the clothing until our limo driver came to pick the clothing up, she told me it was no worries and I went walking around the shops with Felix, he called the limo driver and sorted all that out for us, I asked Felix what was wrong and he told me nothing and when I asked why it took him so long to find me, he told me he received a call from a Dominick and told me that Alec was still not back from his mission then he had to call Marcus to tell him. So it might take Alec a little longer to join us, hearing that made me depressed, Felix assured me that Alec would be fine, and told me to cheer up. We continued along on our shopping trip and we ended up shopping in a little store where I bought a training bra. Felix told me he thought it was too small for me, but I told him it was for Jane and when he said she was as flat as they came that's when he realized what I was up to. "Very nice Sarah" he encouraged me and we continued on shopping, we ended up going to the jewelery store and Felix made me buy a stack of jewelery much to the owner's delight. I found this jewelry set where it had a silver necklace with blue emeralds, earings and ring and thought of Chelsea, I bought them and decided to give them to her, Felix told me the jewelery would look nice on me, but I told them it was for Chelsea. Felix was suprised at me and asked why I would do that after what she did and I told Felix "I am to become a Queen of Volturi, seeing the other wives, it made me realize that they ruled with violence and Fear, I won't stoop to that. When I rule it will be with kindness and forgiveness and if needed I will crush those who oppose me and threaten all that we stand for. So I am going to forgive Chelsea, because I know that I would want forgiveness too if I did something that horrible." Felix looked at me in awe and told me I was incredible. We returned to the holiday home via Limo and Marcus was already out there waiting for me. He opened the door and held his hand out, I took it and as he helped me out he saw me for the first time with my makeover. He said my name in shock and I smiled as he told me I looked magnificent. Marcus leaned in to kiss me and I kissed him back. We went inside together and Marcus could not stop talking about how amazing I looked, I asked him if the old me was not this pleasent to look at, Marcus told me I was always beautiful to him. He sure knew how to make a girl feel special i'll give him that much. Marcus asked me what I wanted to do for the evening and he sat me on the ground, we both looked at each other as our legs were folded he told me to try to use my gift without singing, So I concentrated, but nothing happened even after Marcus told me to try and let myself become inspired that once that happened it should work. So I tried, but nothing inspired me it was quite strange. After two solid hours of trying and looking in Marcus beautiful red eyes he told me we should go out. So the four of us went to town, the city at night was beautiful, with lights, but what I did not expect, well the four of us climbed the Sydney Harbour bridge. The thing about climbing the bridge it was something humans could do, we chose to climb the bridge at night, the Sydney harbour bridge has been a tourist attraction since 1998, according the phamplet the only time the climb is cancelled is when there is electrical storms or high winds. the hidious special clothing provided for us was just awful, but I did not care I had a great time oh another annoying thing about the bridge climb is each of us were secured to the bridge by a wire lifeline. As we reached the end of the long climb the view was amazing, I have included a photo for you to see, I have also included a photo of the sydney harbour bridge, Julian took the photo because he did not want to join us. As we looked at the amazing view Marcus asked me what I would like to do the next night and I told him I was not sure, he had a smile on his face and told me that we were going to the Sydney Opera house, he paid a great deal of money to book it exclusively for me...he wants me to perform there, I mean its going to be incredible the Sydney opera house is one of Australia's best landmarks, the buiding covers 4.5 Acres of land and it's 605 feet long and 388 feet wide its supported on 588 concrete piers that is 25 metres below sea level. now not many people know this, but the concert hall has two thousand six hundred and seventy-eight seats. Just some trivia I picked up. So after we climbed down from the bridge we toured around town and eventually made it back home at 5 am. We spent the day together the four of us when Marcus and Felix went out to get someone to eat. I could see Julian upset and I asked him what was wrong, He told me "I just wish Dominick was here, I don't understand why he should be the one guarding Alec." I was shocked I went to Julian and asked what he meant by Alec needing a guard. Julian was quiet and refused to say anything else when Felix and Marcus returned home I confronted them both about what Julian told me, Felix told me that the reason why he was late in picking me up was because he recieved a call from Demetri telling him that Tristan and Alec got into a fight and their abilities caused some sort of bad reaction...Alec is physically fine, but his memory was gone. I told Marcus to get the jet and he asked me about the opera house and I told him I did not care, Alec was more important, he was a friend...he is like a little brother to me truth be told and I know he shouldn't be alone right now. The poor kid was probably scared out of his mind. Alec had to come first I can't let him be alone, Marcus was on the phone organizing everything. Felix looked at me and I turned away, he apologiesd for lying and told me he only wanted me to have a good time, I told Felix "I am not mad at you Felix, just extremely disappointed, I never thought you would lie to me. I trusted you." I was hurt, but mostly I was worried about Alec the thought of seeing him alone and frightened it was too much to bare. Felix appologised again and I began to pack all the things I bought, putting Chelsea's and Jane's presents aside I wondered if we had enough time for me to pop to the stores and get something for Alec, I would have gotten him something if I knew, but I thought he would be with us by now, with Dominick. Marcus told me that the jet would be ready by the time we got there and I packed everything in the limo with Felix's help. It was pretty uneventful from there. Felix kept looking at me, but I focused on what's going outside the window. we arrived back home 22 hours later as soon as I walked through the front door. I had two bags in my hand while Julian was carrying all the other shopping. Dominick met with us and I asked him where Alec was, Dominick told me that Alec was in his room refusing to eat. So as calmly as I could I asked Dominick if he would go and get Alec a human and I would make him eat, Domnick looked at Marcus and Marcus gave a nod, the next thing Dominick was gone. I thanked Marcus for the good time and told him I would make it up to him for ruining the holiday, but he told me it was alright that we could reschedule our trip, with that Marcus left to find Aro, it was just Felix and I and I smiled, "I am not mad at you Felix, but can I ask you to please take this jewelery set to Chelsea and pass on my regards, I would do it myself, but Alec needs me." I gave Felix the bag which left me the plastic bag with the training bra. As we parted ways I went down the hallway walking quickly towards Alec's room when I saw Jane outside the doorway, Jane looked at me and gasped at me "Sarah is that you" she said, her voice was shocked. Jane had yet to see me since my makeover and I nodded my head, "yes it's me." I told her, She was quiet for a few moments "what happened to you....you're different." she asked, I smiled it was as close to a compliment I was ever going to get from Jane I walked past her and was near Alec's door, Jane told me to stop and I turned my back from the door "I can't let you in Alec is" I interrupted Jane and told her I knew. "Oh I almost forgot, this is for you." I handed the plastic bag to Jane and she took it, she opened it excitedly and pulled out the training bra the excitement on her face vanished and I told her "there you go your first bra, now maybe if you fill it with tissues you will get the illusion of having breasts and stop being such a bitch" I told her. I turned away from Jane and as I turned I saw her fist trembling, she was forbidden to hurt me thanks to Marcus. I looked at Alec as he peeked out of the doorway he was watching the entire thing "Sarah" he yelled and he ran to hug me, I hugged him back "hey kid what happened to you, are you ok do you know who I am?" I asked him, Alec nodded "yes Sarah your my best friend...your my sister" he said. I smiled and looked back at Jane. "Why does he remember you and not me." She hissed, "Because you have a face only a blind mother could love" I said. Alec Laughed hard and told Jane to go away, he dragged me into his room by the hand and told me how beautiful I looked with my makeover. I asked Alec how much he remembered and he told me nothing, but he remembered me saying that I was a nice girl who always looked out for him. I smiled and petted his head. Chelsea eventually came and thanked me for the gift, she asked me what favor I wanted in return and I told her "Chelsea I do not give gifts and ask for favors in return, I am not like that...this was a gift from me to you, enjoy it." I said, she thanked me and seemed a lot nicer to me. A few moments after Chelsea left Dominick arrived with a human teenager he looked frightened and he pushed the human over to me at my feet and I picked him up. I thanked Dominick and told him to go chill with Julian, that Julian missed him, he did not need asking twice. I looked at Alec and told him to eat and he told me couldn't that the human had feelings and he could not hurt a living creature. The human started begging and I pulled his arm dragging him right to Alec and held it out for him "smell that scent, smell the blood Alec...Forget about humanity...it's over rated, Humanity claims to be superior, but it is not, we are the superior ones, we do not wager pointless wars against each other, we do not commit hate crimes & discriminated based on color of skin or religion or even on sexuality...Humanity is nothing but talking parrots compared to us." I told him. Alec still refused and I leaned down and bit into the humans forearm, and pulled up "See if I can do it so can you, come on Alec you can do this." I encouraged him. Alec leaned in and took a bite of the human, thankfully Alec ignored the human's screams, a few seconds later Alec's door opened and I saw Aro and Jane with Marcus and Demetri the four of them seemed suprised Aro finally spoke only to compliment me on my makeover and I smiled, Jane still seemed pissed and evetually they left, I spent the rest of the afternoon with Alec and he seemed happy, I told him I would be with him as long as he needed me and even promised to take him shopping with me tomorrow. Felix eventually found us and I introduced Alec to Felix, Alec was cautious at first but soon relaxed with Felix. When I stood up to exuse myself Alec hugged me and asked me where I was going, I told him to get changed and then I would return. Alec, that adorable child relcutantly let go of me and I left to get changed after that I thought I would tell you everything that happned....it's such a shame my holiday was cancelled Sydney was such a beautiful place...Maybe I could get Marcus to take us on another trip with Alec this time...I need to go talk with Marcus I just hope he is not mad at me...if anything I should be mad at him for keeping this from me. ~Sarah The Jewelery I bought Chelsea Sydney Opera house taken by me The Sydney Harbour Bridge taken by Julian seeing as he did not want to climb it..such a slacker Me after My makeover & shopping trip Topic: it's a lot to deal with, but i have a feeling i am going to have a blast.
Date: July 15th, 2009 Dear Diary Some things have happened since my last entry, it's a lot to process, Felix was at my door keeping guard, when I heard her voice "Felix, what a suprise to see you here." The voice belonged to Jane, one of the most savage and ruthless dwarfs throughout the land. I felt a strong dislike for Jane, she was cruel, vicious and a horrible, horrible girl. She was the type of girl to eat cake in front of a fat person on a treadmill, or just bite the heads off of kittens, she was a souless sociopath, hell bent on bringing everyone around her down. "What do you want Jane I am working." Felix asked Jane, I listened to Felix, the concern in his voice was mostly masked by a powerful urge to protect me...it was touching. "And so am I Felix, I have come to help Sarah." she said with a fake tone of concern, I must admit I found myself nervous about this Jane, helping me was as likely as as her developing breast cancer...it was not going to happen. Jane had pulled out the Marcus card and I knew it was a lie the moment those words escaped her lips, Marcus would never allow the savage dwarf near me. Felix opened the door and I could see concern in his eyes, I had felt afraid, but then I remembered Felix's words, strength doesn't come from acting...it comes from believing "Have you come to torture me some more Jane?" I asked her as I placed you into my bag, Jane's answer was almost convincing "no Sarah, I have come to help you get your memory back." "Oh and how do you plan to do that? Torture me until I remember? I retorted with confidence. Jane laughed and told me she was not that bad, Felix chipped in and told Jane she was, as she glared at Felix, I was afraid she would use that gift of hers to hurt him. I did not want Felix to suffer pain because of me. I thought of things I could do to stop Jane while she spoke with Felix, I finally spoke out "Felix I am sure I will be ok, Jane will not disobey Marcus's rules and if she does I will have her made into dust." I said with confidence, I glanced at Jane then too the newcomer..I had seen this one with Jane before, but did not know anything about him...I guess this guy was Jane's boyfriend...poor bastard I pity him. I smiled at Felix showing him I would be fine and he left the room to wait outside, Jane spoke and introduced me to her boyfriend, his name was Tristan, I decided to speak to him "it's nice to meet you tristan, can I ask why are you with the Dwarf" Tristan commented on the dwarf and before I could explain to him Jane spat out a immature insult. the male vampire placed out his hand and I took it to shake it I held his hand in a firm grip and felt a little nervous as I hummed a soft melody while I held his hand I watched a little nervously as he moved his other hand to stroke my cheek, my confusion only grew and I hummed a little more until I heard him gasp, I raised my eyebrow confused and curious as I saw a look of terror wash over his face "Ameliea, how is this possible?" his voice was shakey and he seemed disturbed, "Jane what's he talking about?" I asked as I let go of his hand and backed away from him, Tristan the vampire was starting to freak me out. Jane asked me if I saw my fears, I told her no and I continued to watch as Tristan whimpered "Ameliea I am so sorry, please, please let me go, you can't keep haunting me, Please." Jane screamed at me asking me what I was doing to him, Tristain came at me again and I told jane I did not know, and asked her to get the madman off me. Felix burst into the room and told Jane to stop tristan and I was suddenly shocked as Tristan placed his hand around my neck, I screamed and Jane finally used her gift to stop him, the moment she stopped, Tristan was out the door, Felix came to me, he was checking to see if I was alright, "th...thank you Jane" I said. Felix told Jane to leave and to my surprise she did. I couldn't move, I was just too shocked at the events that happened, Felix was kind enough to help me up. A few moments later Alec came into the room, he asked what happened, and neither of us said anything so he left. I managed to hug Felix and thanked him for his good work, Felix seemed to be shy at first, but he hugged me back and told me it would be alright. I asked Felix to help me pack the rest of my clothing and ended up packing a total of two suitcases and one backpack of clothing. Alec returned and asked us about what had happened with Tristan and Jane. We told him everything and eventually he had to leave with Demetri to go get Tristan. Several moments later Marcus arrived and told me we would be going on Holiday to Australia, I looked at Felix excited and he smiled, Marcus told me that the Volturi had a private house in Sydney. I was excited, when I grabbed the suitcases he told me only to take my backpack that he would let me go clothing shopping when we arrived. I ran and hugged Marcus excited about the holiday and a few seconds later two males came to the door way, the two looked to be young adults, they were stunning young men, so muscular, well built,...if I wasn't already taken by Marcus, well wow, they are appealing. Marcus noticed me watching the two and he said "Sarah this is Julian and Dominick, they are my personal guards, just as Felix and Alec are yours." I smiled and greeted the two, they both smiled at me in unison and I nodded my head "they will both be joining us on our holiday along with Felix and Alec." Felix stepped forward "Master Marcus, Alec has been sent on a mission with Demetri to fetch Tristian." Marcus looked confused at Felix's report, "I see thank you for informing me Felix." Marcus looked back at the two guards "Dominick, you are to remain here at the castle, and once Alec returns you are to bring him to my house in Sydney, you do remember the address don't you.?" Marcus asked, The guard nodded and Marcus smiled "good alright, let us leave now." Julian began to walk from my room, and I grabbed Marcus hand to hold it, he seemed surprised and I smiled at him. He watched me for a moment and smiled, we walked out together and Felix follwed walking behind us, Julian guarded from the front and Felix from behind. When we left the castle it was dark, we left in a private limo to go the airport, the limo ride was enjoyable and romantic. I sat next to Marcus while Felix and Julian sat opposite of us. Marcus had his hand on my leg and my head rested on his arm it was a comfortable ride, and Felix started to talk about Jane and Tristan, telling him everything that happened first hand "Jane lied to you, I gave you no such order from now on you don't leave Sarah at all, especially near Jane or Tristan." he said. Felix nodded his head, Marcus was pehaps too rough on Felix "thank you Felix for staying with me and protecting me to the best of you're abilities, your a splendid guard and I am lucky Marcus assigned you to me." I said to him, Felix looked at me and smiled, I was glad he cheered up. Julian seemed a little down, I asked Julian what was wrong and Marcus spoke in a quiet tone "Julian loathes being away from his brother, the two are very close." I made an O sound and felt sorry for Julian, I can't imagine being away from a loved one, it must be unbearable, I wondered how I would cope if I had to be away from someone I loved. Marcus and I spoke and I asked him how long we would be in Australia, he surprised me by saying however long I would like. We eventually arrived at the airport and went on a private jet, this was amazing I was having a ball as I danced around on the jet happily and Marcus chuckled "I enjoy seeing you happy Sarah." I looked at Marcus and smiled, I climbed onto his lap and he seemed to be enjoying the affection, Marcus placed his hands on my waist "how can I make you happy Marcus" I asked him feeling high on life, Marcus crimson eyes watched me "kiss me" he said, I smiled and leaned in and kissed him on the lips, I got so lost in Marcus but then I heard Felix fake coughing and I pulled back from Marcus to look at him, I saw an expression on his face it was confusing, I did not get what was wrong with him. I climbed off of Marcus and looked at him, he seemed to be a little cross at Felix for some reason, I have no idea why. We eventually arrived in Australia, we passed through customs with no problems, Marcus had a private limo waiting for the four of us we went in and I started to miss Alec. I was worried about him, Marcus could see that "Sarah my love what is wrong." he asked concerned, "I am just worried about Alec, I hope Tristan won't hurt him...that wacko is nuts, and I dont want Alec to get hurt." Marcus had his arm around my shoulders trying to reassure me and I heard Felix speak "despite his physical appearance, Alec is no child, he can handle himself, he also has Demetri too...so there is no need to worry." I nodded and told Felix he was right.We arrived at the place and I have to say Marcus was sadly mistaken, this was no house, it was a mansion....it was huge two floors, a huge gate and yard it was beautiful even if the windows were boarded up. When we stepped in I was suprised to see how clean everything was and how nice it was on the inside. "Ah yes Felix, I believe Sarah needs something to drink, she has had an eventful few days and I want her to be at her best for when we take her shopping." Felix nodded "yes Master Marcus, I will be back shortly." he said and left in an instant. I looked around in awe and Marcus showed me the entire estate, we sat in the living room and Marcus told me he needed to go check on Julian who was guarding the hallway, so here I am now writing to you in Australia. I can't wait to explore this place, hopefully Alec will come back soon with Dominick I really miss Alec he is a good kid. ~Sarah Topic: All that I was it exist somewhere inside me, but it's only a fraction of who i used to be, I am so much more than that now.
Date: July 8th, 2009 I couldn't take anymore, it was just all too much for me to handle, I was confused and afraid. I did not understand how I could be treated so poorly by the man that I am supposed to love, I am meant to become his Queen, but he treated me like a pet instead of a spouse. Right after my last entry I ran out of my room and towards the exit, Felix was blocking my path, but I pushed him aside like he was nothing and ran past him. I made it outside and saw the surroundings, it was beautiful and mystifying. I looked up at the night stars and saw a very tall tower...I decided to run away, I had no idea where I would go... I heard footsteps and I closed my eyes terrified it was Jane. I felt someone touch my shoulder and I flinched. "Sarah...what are you doing out here, you're not meant to be outside alone, it's dangerous." he told me concerned. Felix's voice was so deep, different, I felt strange...it wasn't anything romantic....no I felt safe with Felix. I turned to look at Felix and watched him, seeing the concern, it was really touching, "Sarah...what's wrong?" He asked me his voice was full of concern for me...it was touching, but I wondered why he cared. I told Felix he wouldn't understand and he told me to climb onto his back, that there was something he wanted to show me, I did as I was told, not because I was afraid of being harmed...I knew I was safe with Felix, I did it because I trusted him, as soon as I climbed onto his back Felix went to the tower and started to climb it with ease. It was very impressive to see Felix climb the tower, he did it so well, it was no struggle for him. He did not speak at all, there was a silence between us the entire time. We finally made it to the top of the tower together, the view was amazing it was beautiful. The way the city lights were on it made it look like the stars in the sky, only the colors were different. "When I am not on duty, or training..I come here to think." Felix said in a soft voice. I did not know what to say, so I said nothing "I brought you here Sarah...because you need to think, keeping secrets to yourself...it won't help you here....Trust me, tell me what's wrong and I swear to help you as best I can." He told me to trust him and I did, so I thought about it and I told him everything that happened with the Queens and my feelings of being nothing more than an object. Felix said nothing for a moment and I continued. Felix I am afraid....I don't want to become like Athenodora or Sulpicia....I tried to be like you told me to be, strong, but all that I got was pain." Felix asked me a strange question, he asked me when I tried to be tough, did I believe in myself. After some thought I told him no, Felix grabbed my hand and placed it over my heart "Sarah...pretending to be strong is not strength... it's delusions of grandure...when you want to be strong you must believe in yourself...you're strength comes from your heart it may not beat anymore, but it's there...look deep inside yourself, find that fire and bring it out..I believe in you Sarah, Believe with me...I promise when you do, nothing will stop you." I listened to Felix in awe he was incredible, he was right...I felt so inspired by his speech and leaned in close to hug him. "thank you Felix" I whispered I felt different, the way I felt was just impossible to describe...all I knew was I was strong. I stood up and walked to the edge of the tower, Felix asked me where I was going and I turned to face him "I have a bone to settle with a King. See you round." I said with a grin, heck, even my voice sounded different, this feeling was coursing through me and there was no stopping it. I took a single step forward and I was falling, my hair flew up and I felt the wind against me it was a rush. I landed on the ground with elegance and grace and walked back into the castle with confidence, no one would stop me and this feeling that was deep inside me. Down the hallways I walked...no not walked, strutted, yes I strutted down the hallways with confidence, Felix was so right. When you believed in yourself you become strong at least that's the way I feel now. I stopped and saw Jane step out in front of me "I thought I smelt a Skunk" I said to Jane. The sadistic bitch had her hands behind her back and tilted her head, I was suddenly on the ground in agony. "Sarah Sarah Sarah, you seem to like spending time on the ground...I am surprised a coward like you would dare speak to me in that tone." The pain was intense, every time I felt Jane's "gift" my body burned, but the burning I felt from jane was nothing. I picked myself up from the floor and was on my knees. I smiled and picked myself up, my body was burning all over, but my smile did not go away. I had confidence...I had this strength deep inside me ready to be brought out. I could see Jane look surprise for a moment, she tilted her head to the other side "hmm interesting you got up, no I don't believe I told you to get up, down on the ground Sarah" she said emotionlessly. I was on the ground the burning only intensified and just when I thought I knew what pain was, I felt something a thousand times worse than before, but it did not stop me. I got up again slowly and looked Jane in the eye and smiled through the pain "No," I said defiantly. Jane's gift blazed again so intense. I was on the ground. "Defiant fool. So let me guess you got you're memories back...is this why you're defying me." she said as she walked towards me. Jane's feet were right in front of me "Kiss my feet Sarah and the pain will go away...I promise you." she spoke with a dark grin on her face. I forced myself up and looked at her "I owe you Pain." I spoke in agony. I threw a punch at jane and felt my fist hit Jane in the face. The Pain immediately went away and I felt relieved, Jane was still on the ground and I moved to Jane and placed one foot on her neck and bent down to put my hands over her eyes "see it's not so nice is it Jane, being on the floor humilated...unlike you Jane I do not take pleasure in seeing you suffer like this." I removed my foot from Jane's neck and with my other hand I picked her up by the neck and placed pressure on her neck, I could hear her squirm and I threw her down the hall. I continued to walk, but stopped and kept looking forward, I knew she could hear me and I remembered Felix told me I called Jane a Dwarf.."I don't have my memory back...the Sarah you knew is still gone she probably won't ever return, maybe a fraction of the Sarah you knew exists somewhere inside me, I don't know or care. I am who I am Jane, nothing more and definetly nothing less...Oh and one more thing, I'd rather kiss a Skunk's ass than kiss you're feet you stupid Dwarf" I heard a hiss escape from Jane's lips "Do you want to go to round two?" "You can hurt me and make me hit the ground all you want, but I won't give up...you're pretty old, you might know this saying...you can't keep a good bitch down..." I said with a wide grin on my face and continued to walk on towards Marcus' room. I have to admit, I am amazed with myself, I didn't know I was so strong, to stand up to Jane like that, I know I couldn't let that small victory get to my head, I had bigger fish to fry. I was a woman on a mission and I was determined to strike a blow to claim my independence and self respect. I knocked on the door of Marcus' room and he opened the door a split second later "Sarah my pet, what can I do for you." he asked surprised. I remembered smiling and walking into his room, "Marcus we need to speak." I told him in a soft voice, he corrected me telling me to call him Master and I shook my head "Sorry lover, but I believe you're the one mistaken...Marcus, I need to ask you a question...Do you love me." Marcus looked confused "of course I do." I smiled and leaned in and placed my hand on his cheek "you want to marry me right..to make me you're wife and Queen." I asked him, he nodded his head "yes of course my pet...why ask this." hearing him call me pet made me a little mad, but I had to cut Marcus a break he was only a man and well his brain is a lot less complex then a woman's. I grabbed Marcus' hand and led him to the bed and sat him down followed by me sitting beside him "first off Marcus, I am not your pet and you sure as hell are not my Master." I announced to him, my voice was not even shaking a little. Marcus looked at me surprised and he placed his hand on my hand. "I am going to be your Queen and you're my spouse...Marcus, calling me pet is degrading...and me calling you Master...it makes me feel inferior to you." Marcus looked stunned, he was shocked that I stood up for myself "Sarah, I am sorry I made you feel that, it was not my intention...I cherish you Sarah." he said, so alarmed. "Then cherish me Marcus, but don't call me your pet." I told him, making myself understood. Marcus nodded, "what would you have me call you then." he asked me. I held his hand and closed my eyes and this strange voice entered my head, this voice, it was soft smooth and seductive it was the most beautiful voice I had ever heard and I opened my eyes "Call me babygirl" Marcus expression was shocked and I smiled, that voice was long gone, but the way he said babygirl it was so soothing. "O...ok, I will call you babygirl" he said surprised. I moved to Marcus and sat on his lap looking at him. I was glad he was a vampire if he was human he probably would have had a heart attack or something. "Will you treat me like an equal." he nodded his head "yes Sarah" he said in shock, I leaned in to kiss Marcus on the lips and he was still for a moment before he started kissing me back. It felt strange kissing Marcus, I am still not sure if I love him, but I had to try, regain who I was or at least some of who I was since I can't remember our love. I just have to make an effort to try and remember, after kissing Marcus for a few minutes I pulled back and Marcus asked me what's wrong. "I am still far from done with our talk Marcus." Marcus chuckled "really how amusing Sarah, what else would you like to talk to me about." I smiled and looked at him amused "Marcus...you want me to train with the wives...to teach me to be a Queen, I will do that...but I have conditions for those lessons, refuse even one of my next requests and I will refuse to attend those lessons, please....please forgive me Marcus I never wish to threaten you, but I can't go through that agony again." Marcus was confused and asked me what happend and I told him everything, the way they treated me, I did not leave out a single detail, I could see the anger on Marcus' face and he hissed. the hate and anger was frightening, I jumped up and backed into a corner crouching...all of my courage...my will power vanished it was just so horrofying. "Damn Caius, I have had just about enough of him trying to claim control, and now he dares to do this sort of thing, to treat my mate in such poor taste....he will suffer Sarah, I promise you, retribution will be yours." he stood up and suddenly noticed me cowering in the corner. He rushed to me in a flash and picked me up "I am sorry babygirl, I will make things right, I promise...now tell me what are you're demands, I will give you anything you want." It was strange hearing Marcus call me babygirl, when I heard that beautiful voice say babygirl in my head it made me feel warm and safe and loved...hearing Marcus call me babygirl it made me feel fear, but maybe it's because he was all hissing and mad. Marcus lifted me up and placed me on his bed, "First of all...I will attend the lessons, because I know it's important for you...I also don't want to embarass you, but I will not be treated that way again" I told him, he was about to speak when I put my finger to his lips."Second of all..... I will wear what I want when I want, the only time I will dress fancy like those wives...is when there is a formal engagement...I also want Chelsea to be removed as my guard effective immediately and I want her replaced with Alec..Alec and Felix are the only ones of the guards I trust...they will be with me at all times, unless they are needed elsewhere. I refuse to be guarded by Chelsea or Jane." Marcus nodded his head "of course." I continued to speak over him."Thirdly..... Felix has told me before my memory loss, he was teaching me to fight to defend myself...he says I enjoyed it, I want those lessons re-instated, effective immediately..." "Finally, I refuse to be a caged bird Marcus, I want to spend time with my future husband. I want some personal time with you, and I want us to go on holidays together...just the two of us...if we need guards so be it, but I just want to be with you."Marcus smiled at this, he seemed to be calm again and I leaned in to kiss him on the cheek. "anything else you would like my..babygirl" he asked me. I looked up for a moment, "I will let you know next time I would like something...but thank you Marcus for agreeing to this, you have made things so much better for me." I told him, Marcus caressed my cheek "all I want Sarah, is for you to be happy, you're a mighty strong woman Sarah, you always suprise me." I thanked Marcus and moved to lay on his bed and he laid beside me, we looked each other in the face and spoke "I can thank Felix for that...he taught me that strength does not come from acting strong, but believing you're strong...when you believe in your self nothing can stop you." Marcus smiled "interesting, Felix has had quiet an interesting impact on you...I should thank him" I smiled and something came to me "Marcus I have to ask you something, when I lost my memory you gave me a Diary and told me that I loved writing in diaries, if this is true....then where is my other diaries". I could see Marcus smile softly "before you lost you're memories you did have a diary, you gave it to me to read you said, you wanted to share all your thoughts and feelings with me....so you loaned me the Diary, I am ashamed to say I misplaced it somewhere among my books in my libary, give me some time and I will find it for you ok." he said reassuring me. I smiled and enjoyed spending time with Marcus after talking about his vampire exploits. Marcus spoke "I am sorry Sarah I must speak with my brothers and their wives. Why don't you go and find Felix and Alec." I nodded my head and Marcus leaned in to kiss my forehead "have fun Sarah, actually I have a surprise for you." I felt excited "really do tell." I asked him and he told me, no, then it wouldn't be a suprise if he told me. I pouted and Marcus chuckled "I love you Sarah, your so interesting and enchanting." I giggled and sat up "you will find me when you're done right." I asked him excited and he nodded. I hugged Marcus goodbye and walked off to look for Alec and Felix I walked the hallways with confidence, I had won the war....I had my cake and I ate it too, I was in control and I would be no one's victim again. I am woman...... hear me roar. I eventually did find Alec in his room he had a black book, I joined him in his room "Hey kid what's wrong...you look sad." Alec told me he had problems with Jane, that she and he had some sibbling stuff to work through so I hugged Alec, his head rested on my chest and I kissed the top of his head "It's alright Alec tell me everything...I am here for you alright" Alec was quiet for a moment and he started to unleash everything he felt all his feelings. "Yeah Jane's not happy unless she is biting the head off kittens or something like that, she is a horrid little troll." I told Alec and I heard him laugh, I was glad I could cheer Alec up. we spoke for a while and Felix came into the room and said "Alec starting today you and I are Sarah's full time guards, if we are absent julian and dominick will watch Sarah." I looked at Alec and he seemed to cheer up a little more. I patted the ground and Felix joined us, the three of us hung out and had a blast together. Alec told me we did this quite alot before my memory loss and this was normal and I admit it felt good. Marcus eventually came and I ran into his arms and hugged him, thanking him for keeping his promise, he told me it was no problem and it was time for my surprise. So here I am now in my room, Marcus told me to take a few things, that I could not live with out, so I took you and a bag of clothing...I wonder what the surprise is, are we going somewhere? ~Sarah Topic: How can I love someone who would put me through hell
Date: July 6th, 2009 Dear Diary I heard the footsteps coming closer...closer and closer, they were small steps, but the way it sounded was like they were furious, I could hear the guard Felix speak "Welcome back Jane, whats with the..... um...... blue dye?" A cold dark and female voice spoke"Felix Move"she demanded, a few seconds later I heard a crumple to the floor. I climbed off the bed and backed into the corner afraid "Thank you"the voice said, I was shaking and afraid, the voice was so soft, but dark and sinister, there was no soul or emotion, just darkness. The door ripped off the wall and I whimpered in fear, my entire body was trembling and there was not a thing I could do to stop it. I watched to see a teenage girl around the same height as Alec rip the door off the wall and walked into the room, her clothing and hair as well as her face were covered in blue, but her eyes, I will never forget looking into such cold and souless eyes. Alec was right about his sister she was a souless sociopath and I did not want to antagonize such an evil creature, I listened to her scream "How dare you enter my room and plant tricks, that is my space, you were not welcome in there."I told her that I did not know what she was talking about and I had no Idea who she was, but her response is what truely frightened me "You don't know me, ha, my name is Jane and when you remember who you are Sarah, then and only then you will pay for what you have done. You will wish that you will never get your memory back Sarah because I'm going to make you feel pain like you have never felt even in your worst nightmares, it will relive in your mind over and over, you will want to die Sarah and I will be there, ready to rip your ugly little head off." The savage little girl looked like she had more to say, but she was interrupted by Marcus, Aro and a stranger. Aro scolded the girl and told her to leave, she eventually left and the stranger followed her. Marcus and Aro along with Felix came to see if I was alright, I nodded my head I could still not stop myself from shaking from fear. Marcus kissed my forehead and told me it was alright while Felix seemed cross, "I will resume her training, I won't have her be vulnerable to Jane all the time." he said. Aro smiled and in a friendly tone said"no no...I have other plans for Sarah, she won't be requiring your training anymore." I was curious wondering what Felix was teaching me. Marcus continued to stroke my cheek and lifted me up and carried me to his bed, he looked at me"Sarah, Aro and I best believe you spend time with Sulpicia and Athenodora, there is a lot to learn about being a queen then just standing around and looking pretty." I looked at Marcus"if......if you think that's what's best" I stammered still afraid, Marcus nodded his head"yes I do my pet, now Felix is going to take you to meet the wives, you are to do you're best to make sure you learn everything my pet."I nodded my head "I will do my best Marcus"I told him, Marcus chuckled and corrected me making me call him Master. Felix and I left the bedroom and we walked down the hall, I finally asked Felix what it was he taught me and he told me it was self defense, I asked him to explain further and Felix told me that it was basically how to fight that he gave me several lessons which I did well and enjoyed. I listened and wondered what I was like, what sort of person likes fighting I wondered if I was a bad person to enjoy it, I wanted to ask Felix what he thought of me, but found myself too afraid to ask the question so instead I asked Felix if I really called Marcus Master before my memory loss. We continued to walk and Felix looked at me, I could see him hesitating an answer"Yes you called him master" he answered I looked down and Felix spoke "before your memory loss Sarah you were a bold and fearless woman, not only did you take the punches life threw at you, but you even rolled with it, you fought back and held you're own...you're cunning and very interesting. No-one knew what went on in that head of yours, not even Lord Aro by the looks of it. Another thing I lo...like about you is you never avoided angering Jane, you always called her out and challenged her which greatly annoyed her, but you never cared, you always spoke your mind and gave her hell as you just saw it, before Jane looked like an overgrown Smurf that was all you." I listened in awe, I sounded like a strong woman. It was also strange to learn about myself from another person. I was confused about Jane being blue and how I was involved and Felix told me he was there when he saw me rig this device into her desk drawer. I gasped shocked,"I....I did such an awful thing, my goodness she really does have good reason to be mad with me...I should apologise." Felix shook his head "the Sarah I know would never do that...she would say something like, Wow Jane what a lovely shade of blue it totally suits you."I was shocked,"would I really say such a thing?"Felix nodded "oh yes, you would do that in a heartbeat, you usually call her the dwarf."I told him I must have been very mean to do and say such terrible things and he told me I was only mean to Jane and she had it coming. We walked for a while and I said nothing else, Felix took the the hint too and kept quiet. How do I cope with being such an awful person. We eventually stopped to see Chelsea blocking the path, she looked intimidating and I stepped behind Felix frightened. Felix looked back at me and smiled he looked back at Chelsea"Chelsea what are you doing here?"Chelsea told Felix it was her turn to guard me, I said nothing and remained behind Felix"I will watch her, Chelsea." Felix said and Chelsea told him"Lord Aro and Marcus want you to go test out the weapons...do you wish to anger them?"Chelsea asked, Felix looked at me and I could see he was worried, I wondered why he was so concerned for me,"Don't worry Felix, I promise to protect Sarah." Felix left reluctantly and I watched him walk away. "Sarah come with me" she said, her voice was cold and intimidating, I felt nervous around her and followed her in silence. Following Chelsea was difficult, I did not know how to talk to her, plus she was just as scary as Jane. I plucked up my courage and told Chelsea the jewelery she was wearing was beautiful and truly they were. "They're gifts from Jane"she said coldly and I said nothing else. We arrived in front of a large black door with gold door handles in the center. Chelsea opened the doors and stepped to the side "after you" she spoke with no emotion. I entered to see a room with three chairs in it. I saw two women in long black dresses their faces were hidden, their hoods on their long red cloaks covering their faces, the only reason I knew they were women was because of their figures they were thin and the same type as mine, only they were a little taller than myself. Behind the two cloaked women, was a mascular latino with red eyes and black hair, beside him was a male with wavy brown hair and red eyes he was muscular and frightful looking too. After I was within distance of the women in cloaks Chelsea stepped in and closed the doors behind us. She walked to the wall and I heard a snap of the fingers, I looked back and watched as the women lowered their hoods. "Well, well...so this is to be our new sister, what do you think Athenodora" the woman who spoke had powdery pale skin and misty red eyes, her hair was blond."I think that she is nowhere near ready to join our league, Sister, look at her..the filthy clothing of a commoner, she is no better than the guards...no perhaps she is worse, she looks like a filthy human."she spat out and I flinched, I looked at Athenodora with her powdery skin and misty eyes, her hair was an auburn color. I mumbled a sarcastic remark "hello to you too"I tried to sound confident like how Felix described me, but Athenodora came to me and slapped me hard across the face, the impact was so intense it knocked me to the ground."You dare speak when not spoken to, stupid little newborn, shut your mouth and speak only when spoken to" she hissed with anger. I Looked up at Athenodora and made a fist on the ground, I lost control and had no idea what I was doing I went to attack her, I suddenly found myself against the wall snarling and hissing, seeing the Latino with his hands to my neck the other one, the spanish looking one had his arm around my waist "Corin and Santiago, well done." Athenodora spoke. To me it looked like the one known as Athenodora seemed to be the dominate one but it was the other one who walked towards me and said "well Sarah, if you wish to act like a savage, we can treat you like one," while Athenodora nodded and said "Well said, Sulpicia." The two walked away discussing things in private while I was kept against the wall. until the door opened and I saw a blond haired man and the girl Jane, my nose winced as she still smelled a little foul. Jane looked at me and she seemed pleased, what I did not expect to see was Athenodora run to the blond's arms and hug him. "Caius, my love, what an unexpected surprise." The blond known as Caius hugged Athenodora."Yes, I thought you would need some assistance so Jane and I came to watch and judging by how your personal guards have the newborn pinned against the wall I can see I was right" he said. His voice was cold and ruthless and frightening. Jane did not say anything as she continued to watch me and I avoided her gaze looking back at the wives of Aro and Caius. Caius stroked his wife's cheek and she seemed to melt at his touch, I would have thought it was adorable, if Athenodora hadn't slapped me and been so mean to me. Caius leaned in and whispered to her, but it was pointless, my vampire hearing could hear it"why is she against the wall?"his voice sounded curious, Athenodora told him I tried to attack them both, he seemed really mad, I could see it in the twitch of his mouth, it was frightening,"only after you slapped me" I tried to tell my part of the story, but I felt Corin's nails dig into my skin and I flinched. Athenodora broke from Caius' grip, her face was frightful, the reason for it was her anger, she pushed both guards aside and before my feet could touch the ground she grabbed me by the neck and threw me onto the ground, I couldn't even get up her black heels were at my neck pinning me there. I watched her with fear."I told you, only speak when spoken to."She spat at me, I looked at Sulpicia and she had her arms folded, and she looked at me with a smile on her face " I had my doubts at first, Athenodora, but I believe you are right, she does have too much spirit...that needs to be taken care of...its the only way to save her worthless existance"she said as she walked towards me, while Athenodora had her heel still at my neck she circled us. Caius leaned against the wall and I looked at Jane, she seemed lost in her own thoughts, her face was blank and expressionless. Athenodora looked like she was enjoying herself, she applied more pressure to my neck, I didn't need to breath being a vampire, but still it was uncomfortable having something pressed against my neck."Get this straight Sarah, you may have been disobediant in the past and my husband, Aro even allowed you a small amount of freedom and pursuing your hobbies of training with Felix, but those days are over. I will make sure of that, do you hear me Sarah, you wish to be a wife of a King...a Queen, we will make you one." Sulpicia said, Caius chuckled and clapped his hands. "Well said Sulpicia it seems you have things in control...unlike you Athenodora" he said, his voice became more cruel as he addressed his wife. I could see Athenodora become antagonized and I felt more pressure of my neck,"I must leave now, I will tell my brothers things are going well shall I.....Jane use as much of you're influence as you feel you need to.....if she disobeys the wives."Caius said. Jane lowered her head"yes Master," she chimed with a misleading voice that sounded innocent. Caius left and Chelsea closed the doors, Athenodora moved her heel from my neck and walked back, the guards moved behind her quietly. I started to get up and Athenodora turned to face me"Who said you could get up?...Jane!" she hissed, the next moment I fell back to the ground in burning pain, it was agony, I begged for the pain to stop, I begged Jane to stop, it hurt so much, my entire body was aching from the burns. I had never gone through anything so painful...at least I don't think I have. I closed my eyes as I asked Chelsea why she wasn't protecting me and she said"I told Felix I would protect you Sarah, but I never said from whom...fool do you honestly expect me to attack my sister...or the queens, what an idiot." she said darkly. The pain continued and I started to beg Jane to stop and I heard Athenodora shout"you speak...when no one has spoken to you..fool"I finally stopped begging, the pain was intense before Sulpica raised her hand and the burning stopped. "You may get up now Sarah" Sulpicia spoke calmly, I opened my eyes and slowly climbed up."Sarah stand as you normally stand." Sulpicia said as she and her sister circled me, I felt vulnerable, like I was a lamb going to the slaughter and these two were the lionesses. I Looked at Jane and she watched me with satisfaction. "We will need to fix her posture, teach her how to walk...to talk and act in front of others" Athenodora said, I watched them continue to circle me, "we also need to teach her to dress and of course to know her place, the last thing we need is another Didyme incident."she said. I could not help myself from asking "who is Didyme" the next thing I knew I was on the floor in pain again from Jane's ability. Athenodora bent down "Remember Sarah, speak when spoken too, being so upity is unbecoming of a Queen"Athenodora said, Sulpicia motioned her arm and the pain stopped."I think you should learn about Didyme Sarah...You need to know what happens when you don't know your place." I remained on the ground and saw Athenodora smile in a sinister fashion."Didyme was the sister of Aro and Marcus' true love, she was a beautiful vampire, her jet black hair was soft like silk, and her eyes were red like rubies. she was different from Sulpicia and I. Unlike us she ruled with kindness, there was not a mean bone in her body. She treated the guards as equals and believed everyone to be the same." Athenodora said with no emotion. "She had this way about her...when ever she was around, you could not help, but be happy, she brought out the best in not just Marcus, but all of us...we loved our sister she was special...but she was also a fool. She trusted everyone far too easily, she and Marcus wanted to leave the Voltori...they would have made it, but she was assassinated by a spy for the Romanian coven...My beloved Aro found the monster that killed our sister and took the spy out personally...Marcus, however, was heart broken, he became a shell of a man until you came along." Sulpicia said, I was shocked to learn all that...it was horrible, Marcus must have been so heart broken, but his wife Didyme must have been something special. Athenodora told me to get up and I stood up, I felt raw from all of Jane's abilitiy, I glanced at her and she seemed smug and I looked back down."Alright we have made an assessment, now remove your clothing"Athenodora ordered, I was shocked"No!" I said back. Athenodora came at me, she raised her hand to slap me, but I caught her hand by the wrist and glared at her "don't you dare slap me again."I hissed I was holding myself back, I don't think I have ever felt such rage inside me. Athenodora looked furious she glanced at Jane and I felt the agonizing burn took over me, I begged for the pain to end, I was in almost too much pain to hear Jane say "that coward is a mere shadow of herself." There was silence for a long time, apart from my constant screams and begging for the pain to stop, finally the pain ended,"you honestly think we enjoy hurting you" Sulpicia asked I croaked a weak yes and I could see Athenodora make a frightful expression of rage, Sulpicia bended down"come now Sarah that is not true, we only wish to teach you, you must learn Sarah learn that we are harsh, but it's to ensure you're survival...now stand Sarah, stand and remove your clothing so we may meassure you" she hissed then stood upright. I got up slowly and removed my clothing, my shirt and jeanes hit the ground, I stood in a black skin tight attire. "Remove those too Sarah" Athenodora said. I looked at the her and hesitated "still have you not learned you're lesson Sarah." I did as I was told and stood there naked, I felt humilated as they watched me, examining me closely. I could see the two guards watching me, smirking at me and I looked down. The wave of humilation I felt never left with each and passing second, I was grateful when Sulpicia said"that is enough Sarah, get dressed" I picked up my clothing and began to get dressed while Sulpicia continued to speak"you may leave, the next time you come to us, your real lessons will begin and you're proper clothing will be prepared, you will not dress as a commoner any longer." she finished as I was fully dressed. I turned from the two wives and left, with Chelsea following. I did not even face Jane, I was too afraid. Chelsea escorted me back to my room and I sit on the floor now writing to you, I feel so humilated...like trash, I don't know how could I love Marcus, did they treat me this way before my memory loss ? or has the secret that I kept from Aro caused me to lose favor with him, I don't know...I need to escape I....I can't stay here any longer, ~Sarah Date: July 5, 2009
Dear diary I felt a sharp pain in my mind, it was incredible and disorientating, I opened my eyes and saw a man with blood red eyes and long red hair, with long gray streaks mixed in. I could see him holding his hands on both sides of my head and suddenly the man was being ripped apart right before my eyes, the movements were fast and swift and I fell back in horror and watched this man with thick shoulders and olive complexion rip off the arms and head of the body and tossed it to a small teenage boy around the age of twelve or thirteen catch the body parts and began to set fire to it all. I watched in shock and horror, frightened more than anything. The giant man came towards me and I crawled back still looking at him in fear, my entire body was shaking. The man looked at me with his blood red eyes."Sarah are you ok?"He spoke to me like he knew me, but I had no idea who he was, I could not even recall anything about myself. He kept coming towards me and I turned from him and crawled to the corner and leaned against the wall. I begged him to stay away, but he came at me grabbed me by my shoulders. "Sarah, answer me, whats wrong with you?" I begged him not to kill me and whimpered from fear. Two more men came towards me now and stayed behind this brute, the first one had almost translucent skin and long jet lack hair, the way he looked at me, it was very unsettling with those milky red eyes of his, the other man looked simular, only his eyes did not frighten me, it showed concern. I looked at him, captivated by him in a way. "What's wrong with her?" the second man asked, concern showing in his voice. The brute shook me harder. "Sarah?" he said and let go. He slapped me across the face and I fell back onto the ground and huddled in the corner, whimpering "please...please don't hurt me"I pleaded, the one with the concerned look in his face spoke "Aro what's wrong with her?" he asked. The one with unsettling eyes told the brute to step aside. The man bent down and placed his hand on my cheek and I flinched in fear, he let go after a few seconds and petted my hair, I whimpered again in fear and he told me it was alright, that they would not hurt me. "Aro what's wrong with her." the man known as Aro looked at the second man "Marcus, all her thoughts are gone, her mind is blank...I saw nothing, but fear and confusion." he sounded annoyed. "Now I'll never be able to know what she was planning. I left it too long" he said sounding annoyed.The one known as Marcus bent down to me, "Sarah my pet, do you know who I am?"I shook my head and he looked surprised, "Sarah...do you know who you are?" he asked me I shook my head again and he looked at me surprised. He looked at the man named Aro. "It's true!" The man who was named Marcus picked me up and I started to kick and struggle, but he wouldn't let me go. He told me to calm down, but I wouldn't listen. I didn't know him....I don't even know who I am, he wouldn't let me go he just held me until I hit him in the face, his grip loosened and I ran towards the door. "FELIX" the blond vampire yelled and the big brute that had so easily ripped the creature in front of me had me in his muscular arms holding me tight. I struggled, but it was no use "Felix, Alec, take her to my room." Marcus ordered them, the brute continued to hold me and he carried me to his room, it was plain, but there was a bed in there with linen and white sheets, the blankets were puffy with fancy patterns and in royal colors. The brute told me he would let me go, if I promised not to run away. I lied and told him I wouldn't run away, when he let go I bolted, I made it towards the door and then everything went white. For the longest of time there was nothing until the whiteness went away, When I looked around the brute and the teenage boy were at the door blocking my escape and the man known as Marcus was at the edge of the bed "I know you are afraid pet, but you must stay calm, I will explain everything if you swear to behave." I nodded and he moved in close he petted my hair, I asked if we knew each other and he chuckled and told me I was his mate. I was confused and he could see it on my face. He told me he would get to it later that I needed to learn how we met. Marcus told me that he found me on the streets of Volterra, he saved me from an evil Vampire named Brian and banished that vampire from the city. Marcus told me that we spent a lot of time together, that and we eventually fell in love and he introduced me to his brothers, Aro and Caius and that these two men at the door were my friends, family and guards sworn to protect me. I was to be his queen and that I pledged myself to be his and his alone for the rest of eternity. This is just all so much to take in, I don't know how to react to it all. I asked Marcus why the one known as Aro seemed so mad at me, he told me that two days ago he touched my arm while some visitors were there and he saw what I was doing, something from the past, and that he only saw fractions of it and that he wanted to know but couldn't find out because I had suddenly lost control and tried to attack the guest, I had to be confined to my room. Again I did not know if it was truth or lies, but this man...Marcus seemed really nice, So I asked him an important question. I wanted to know how I lost my memory, Marcus explained the boy named Alec and Felix were sent out to fetch a vampire that was breaking the law. Marcus told me that while they were about to execute the vampire. he broke free and tried to attack him, but I shielded Marcus instead and took whatever that vampire did to me. He suddenly thanked me for protecting him and I said nothing I apologised for hitting him and he told me it was ok, that I was afraid and it was only understandable. Marcus leaned in to kiss me on the lips, I felt nothing and he pulled back"I am sorry you need time to cope."Marcus placed his hand on my cheek as I looked at him in shock "I am going to have Felix take you to the grand hall, while Chelsea comes back with your meal, will you behave for me? I dont want to have to punish you at least until I offically make you my wife." Marcus leaned in and kissed my neck and then stood up to walk to the door "I need to get a book I left in your room, if you need anything pet, you ask Felix ok. I will be back before you know it and teach you how to feed ok." I nodded my head and watched Marcus leave. Felix walked me to through the hallway, the entire time he was behind me and the boy known as Alec was in front of me. I looked at Alec, he was an adorable teenager "You're an adorable child Alec, I bet all the girls must be going crazy over you" Alec turned his head to me to smile, Felix broke out into laughter "he wishes, his sister has him on a tight leash Sarah." "Sarah, I am far from a child, in fact compared to me you are the child."I asked Alec about his age and was shocked by his answer, "My sister Jane and I are twins, we are 809 years old." I was in shock. Felix leaned in and whispered "keep away from his sister, she is a sociopath." I found myself unconcerned, I asked him why would I be afraid of a child and Alec corrected me again"Sarah, Master Marcus did not get a chance to explain much about what we are to you, I will fill you in when we get to the hall." he said. We continued to walk and finally arrived, Felix walked in front of the massive doors and told me so that I don't get tempted. I sat down and Alec sat in front of me. He told me all about vampires, the myths about us and the facts. He told me the reason to be careful around his sister because of a special ability she had. Jane could make people fall over in agony with a single glance. it sounded like an impressive and frightful ability. Alec told me that he too had a gift that that he could cut off a vampires senses. I complimented him on having such an impressive ability and he looked embarrassed. I petted him on the head and asked felix if he had an ability and he told me no. I smiled and told him it was ok, there is nothing special about being special and we dont need extra abilities to belong. Felix laughed and told me that I was not normal, that I too had a gift, I was surprised how could I have a gift and not know what it was. I asked them if they knew and they told me that my gift was special. They finally explained it to me, and before I could ask how I make it work the doors opened and a beautiful girl returned with a human, the girl looked at me rather intimidatingly and I crawled behind Alec "Is that her? Is that Jane?" I asked and he shooked his head, "No that's Chelsea, your bodyguard, it's mostly her and Felix that watch over you, I just like hanging out because you're an odd one, but now your totally bizzare." he told me. The one known as Chelsea spoke to Alec"I saw Jane in town, she is on the way back with Demetri and a stranger you may want to get her to her room"I concentrated to listening to the conversation and heard something else the beautiful and melodic gushing of blood running through the veins of the human. I could hear the blood it was like hearing the waves crash across the ocean. I stood up and looked at the human female, she was pale and looked to be 18, her eyes were chocolate brown and her hair was brunette although I could see traces of red strands mixed into her hair. I ran towards the human unsure what had come over me and I shoved my guards out of the way and tackled the human and sat ontop of the it. I leaned in and bit off the flesh and spat it out, the blood gushed out and I drank it as fast as it poured out of the body, I could faintly Marcus who had just arrived say "At least we know her hunger hasn't changed." after the human was dead I looked at the corpse in shock, Marcus lifted me up "come on pet, don't fret they're filthy blood sacks. I am going to take you to your room I have a gift for you."Marcus took me to my room and I looked at the surroundings it was beautiful and I felt comfortable here....almost safe. I asked Marcus about my gift and he lowered me onto the ground, ontop of the desk was a blue book "it's a diary, I figure this is a new start in your life so you should record everything, reflect and discover who you are my pet." I asked Marcus why he kept calling me his pet and he told me that was his nickname for me, and I asked him if I had a nickname for him he nodded and told me I called him Master. He told me I should start calling him that again, that maybe it would spark a memory. I thanked him and he told me that things would return to normal soon. I thanked him again and he then reminded me of my nickname for him and I called him Master even though it felt strange. Marcus left and I wrote everything down that has happened. I suddenly heard a scream followed by a boys laughter, that I was guessing was Alec. "what is that awful smell it smells like something crawled in here and died" A boy's laughter was heard and then it stopped, several seconds later I heard screaming, "I AM BLUE WHAT THE HELL" the boys' laughter was echoing louder than ever before. "Amnesia or not, the bitch must Die" I heard foot steps coming towards me."NO Jane, she is not herself, remember Master Aro's instructions." the footsteps are getting louder, I'm afraid...what is coming I don't know. ~Sarah Today was boring
Date: July 2, 2009 Dear Diary It's been a week since my last entry and still no Jane, maybe she was killed in action, I don't know or care, but I hoped she was alright, not for her sake, but for Alec's, she means the world to him and I did not want to see Alec in pain, he is a good kid. I had just spent the day with Lord Marcus and Master Aro. I enjoyed playing chess against Master Aro, I had to admit Master Aro is a master of tactics, but there was always something he overlooked, the value of pawns, I noticed he would always sacrifice them and use his stronger pieces to take out mine. It's a stratagy I admit, but he forgets the pawns can become different pieces when they reach the other side of the board. After a few dozen games I conceded defeat and Master Aro seemed pleased with himself, Lord Marcus and I left to go his room so we could spend the night together in each other's company. We spent time just chatting. we always chat about him, he has thousands and thousands of stories to tell me about his life, usually he plays a small story because of his grief over didyme, but I listen none the less, occasionally Lord Marcus would ask me to talk about my past storys and events that happened to me, I would always tell him there was nothing interesting in my life so I would turn the attention back on Lord Marcus, I am rather excited about toda,y Lord Marcus told us we would be having visitors from another coven the Denali's. Lord Marcus told me it would just be Eleazar & Carmen, that the reason they were in town was for shopping, I asked him if they would be staying here and he told me that they would be staying at the Jacobson residence, I was surprised at that and Lord Marcus explained that in the past Brian allowed vampires to use his home as a villa to visiting vampires and that it's procedure for vampires to visit the voltori when in town to explain their motives, the reason is about exposure, yada yada yada, it's all about history and too much of a pain to even write down. I asked Lord Marcus if we could go to the surface and explore and see what is new, he denied me and told me that he did not wish to visit the surface today. I looked at Lord Marcus and pouted and he smiled, I loved Lord Marcus' smile it's beautiful he pulled me in close to him and we kissed. I enjoy Lord Marcus' kiss, but sometimes I notice things are missing like an ooomf, maybe I am just being paranoid I don't know. Lord marcus and I danced in my room with my laptop on he had just found this song that I totally love, the song is called the "book of love" and it's sung by Peter Gabriel. We danced so close together and so slowly, it was intimate and I rested my head on lord Marcus' chest and we danced together. I closed my eyes listening to the instruments in the song. "We have an eternity of this to look forward to my pet." he told me and I answered "of course Lord Marcus, I live to please you." We were eventually interrupted when master Caius came to my room and told us that Lord Marcus was needed. I frowned and Lord Marcus kissed my forehead and told me he would be back soon, I watched as he left and Chelsea arrived to keep watch over me. I sat in my room pretty bored, I would pace my room waiting for Lord Marcus to return and would often wonder what he was up to, it probably had something to do with those weapons he and his brothers were working on. I decided to watch a dvd called Sugar and Spice. I have already seen it twice, but it's a funny movie. I stopped the movie half way and gasped as something came back to me...I remembered I found myself identifying with the main character, she found out that she was knocked up and she resorted to robbing a bank with her cheerleader friends to support the baby and not even telling the father of her baby she robbed a bank. Ok so I did not rob a bank, but I did something, I sacrificed my life with Brian and Tobias to keep them both safe. I lied to Brian making him think that I didn't love him, but I do love him.... Everything suddenly came back to me, It's not like I forgot it, I didn't, but the thing was I didn't care...until now. I went out of my room to storm off to Marcus and asked what was happening to me, but Chelsea saw me and stopped me. Chelsea told me that Marcus wanted me to stay in my room until he came back, I told Chelsea I had to see Marcus it was important, but she just looked at me and an awkward silence was between us, I found her to be intimidating really... I backed off into my room and she joined me in there and closed the door behind her. I had nothing to say to Chelsea really, I finally asked her when Felix's shift would start. She told me not for a while, she asked me a strange questio,n she asked me if I had feelings for Felix and I broke into a fit of laughter and asked her why and she told me no reason. Chelsea tried to start girl talk with me, but I did not want any part of it, I wanted to know what was going on and why Brian and Tobias were starting to feel less important to me, I stood up and told Chelsea I wanted to go see Marcus, but she grabbed my shoulder and pushed me into the wall "Don't take me lightly Sarah, I was given orders to make sure you stay in the room and in the room you shall stay." Chelsea's eyes were black she was thirsty and pissed. I crouched down and looked at Chelsea she was standing in my way, she looked at me for a moment and smiled like she was daring me to come at her. She opened the door and Alec was there, he walked in slowly as I kept my crouched stance, I did not see Alec as a threat normally he was just a sweet kid, but I knew he was far from helpless, he could take me down in a flash with that gift of his especially in these small spaces. Alec told me in a soft voice to settle down, I did as I was told and settled quietly, I felt totally normal again, I did not know why I worked myself worked up over something so trivial, I am probably just moving on with my life...afterlife. Felix arrived a few moments after along with Heidi "Alec keep Sarah company will you" Chelsea said as she left the room and closed the door behind her. "Sarah's a bit edgy today, she has broken out of my control, but she is fine now. I need to go warn Marcus, will you be ok with her" Chelsea asked. Alec came to me and petted my head as if I were a pet, it was rather annoying I looked at him "I will be fine with her I will take her top side with me get her some fresh air." he said. Chelsea was quick to respond "have you forgotten what Master Aro's orders are, she is to remain in her room until we learn why the Denali's are here." I stood up and leaned against the wall, "well master Aro seems to be overly protective of Sarah, why?" Felix asked. It was Heidi this time who answered. "She is Aro's new toy, not only that but look what she has done to Marcus, I havent seen him this alive since Didyme, do we really want to see him return to his lifeless self if something happenened to the newbi?" No-one said anything and a moment later Felix entered my room alone. So now it was just Alec, Felix and myself, Felix asked me what I felt like doing and I told him I wanted to go outside, Felix asked if I was going to be difficult today and I told him the honest truth, I would be, I told them both I was seriously bored, I told them I was going out and there was nothing they could do to stop me. I walked to the door only to feel a pair of big muscular and powerful arms hold me in a bear hug, I looked back to see it was Felix. I asked him to let me go and he asked If I would stay and I told him no. Felix had this satisfied smile on his face and then said "it seems I will have no choice, but to hold you down." He was pleased with himself and I continued to struggle, Alec eventually offered to take me down for Felix, but he said he did not mind this, Felix's strength was incredible, I could not even flinch, he pulled me down onto the ground and as he sat I found myself sitting on his lap. A low hiss escaped my lips as I continued to fight to get free, I was frustrated and annoyed and ignored Felix remark "Settle down" I refused I wanted out of this tiny room. Alec moved to me and petted my head "come on Sarah, calm down." I glared at Alec for a moment and heard him speak, "yeah that only works for Jane, you can't make me feel pain." he sounded amused. I exhaled air, even though it was totally unnessessary seeing as I did not need to breath. I decided to stop resisting and the moment I did stop I felt totally calm, "I am calm now, I promise not to make trouble." I told them. Felix did not let go "Newborn tricks won't work on me Sarah." I found it strange, this was not a trick, but Felix did not let go of me, an hour went by and I asked Felix if I was still trying to trick him and he gave a solid "yes" response. I looked at Alec and he was just watching the two of us. I asked Alec if he had any plans in mind and he told me he was to leave on a mission tonight and that he was trying to decide who to take with him. I asked him if I could join him on the mission not knowing what the actual mission was. Alec said he would like that, but he couldn't take me this time seeing as I was a newborn it meant I was unpredictable, anything could set me off. I pouted and looked down. Felix finally let go of me and I climbed off his lap and moved to the wall and leaned on it, "so who else is going on this mission of yours." Alec told me so far it would be Felix, himself and one more person as soon as he decided whom it would be, they would leave. I frowned the thought of being stuck with Chelsea constantly and then Jane when she returned was seriously depressing. Alec, Felix and I spent the next hour and a half playing cards both of them were obviously cheats as they kicked my ass seven ways til Sunday. Felix suggested strip poker and I raised an eyebrow at Felix. His behaviour is a little shifty at best. I remember thinking to myself at the time, I shrugged it off and told him that Lord Marcus would probably not like that. Lord Marcus finally returned and I ran to hug him, I felt his arms wrap around me nice and tight it was so firm and felt soo good, "Settle my pet, Chelsea said you wanted to speak to me." His voice was so lively and I rubbed my head against his chest "it's nothing important Lord Marcus, I missed you that's all." Lord Marcus petted me again before telling Felix and Alec to wait outside. Once the two left Lord Marcus kissed me passionatly on the lips, I kissed him back after a few minutes he pulled back and told me to get dressed that I would be meeting Eleazar and his mate, before Marcus left to go back to the throne room I asked him if I could go on the mission with Alec and Felix. Lord Marcus denied me and told me it was too dangerous that they were hunting a vampire that had broken the law of secrecy, I pleeded with him, but lord Marcus would not budge. He eventually left and I decided to tell you about my day and night, well I need to go get ready now cya. Sarah I lost control and went nuts
Date: June 25th, 2009 Dear Diary Today started out pretty uneventful my beloved lord Marcus was busy with Aro & Caius, which made me sad, but Marcus told me they were working on something important a weapon. I was the least bit curious at the time I was just grateful to be with lord Marcus. I missed Lord Marcus such a brave and noble man, I am lucky to have him. Felix and I have been spending a lot of time together, we have moved on from technique training to sparring, which is difficult, Felix is so much more stronger and faster than me and he has more battle experience than I do but I have been training with Alec in secret, working on my own technique ideas, we have become good friends, he is an alright kid, not like his sociopathic sister. Felix and I begun our sparring in the great hall this morning. He moved at me to throw a punch and I stepped to the side of Felix at the last moment. I used the body slam technique he showed me pushing him towards the ground, Felix rolled forward on the ground and got up. He moved towards me and threw a punch and I countered the punch with the sole of my foot, we came to a stand still, each looking at each other "you are holding back correct." I asked and Felix nodded his head before answering "you are not at the right level for me to stop holding back, but that is enough for today." Felix placed his shirt back on and I put on my dress, we went and found Alec in his room. I could faintly smell the fart bomb I let off in Janes room the other day, ah yes, Jane the dear little sociopath has yet to return from her mission with Demetri,and when she does she is in for a not so pleasant surprise when the she opens her desk draw bamn she is gonna end up looking like a smurf. I smiled with a devilish grin knowing that Jane would be pissed, Felix and I knocked on Alec's room. The door opened and Alec looked at us curiously "he had his hand on his nose and I looked at him grinning "is something wrong Alec" I asked innocently, Alec glared at me for a moment "it smells like something crawled into Jane's room and died what the heck happened in there. My smile faded and as I feinted innocence, "I don't smell anything." I lied, the fact was the stench was horrible, I asked Alec if he would like to join Felix and I in my motorcycle lessons. Alec accepted and we went to the garage, it was huge, it was like the size of a parking lot. I climbed onto the beautiful cycle and rubbed it slowly, Felix watched me and licked his lips, "what is it? Felix." I asked him, he shook his head "uh nothing I was distracted." he said, his voice was a little off pitch, like he was nervous. "What happened to never lowering your guard." Felix smiled "Yes you have me there." Alec folded his arms and I turned back to the area in front of me and listened carefully as Felix gave me instructions. I listened to the instructions and obeyed them carefully and I did it. I drove around for a little, it was a blast, I mean it's slow as hell compared to my vampire speed, but still it was fun. I looked at Alec and Felix, they smiled, I pulled up in front of Alec "climb on" I told him, Alec smiled, "I don't think I will, but thank you for the offer." I picked up Alec and put him on behind me "hold on." I told him. Alec grumbled to himself as he placed his hands around my waist as I drove around on the cycle in the garage I eventually decided it was time to stop and climbed off after Alec. I found myself really bored and looked at the two guys, I asked them if they wanted to watch a movie and Felix responded by saying "only if it's not Anne of Green Gables." I laughed at him and told him we would watch something else. The three of us ended up having a movie marathon, we watched Sugar and Spice which neither of them enjoyed. We did not get to finish the movie, we were interrupted by my beloved Lord Marcus, he came and asked what we were doing. I told him we were watching a movie, my beloved Marcus offered to come back later, but Felix and Alec said they did not mind and left in a flash. I turned off the movie as lord Marcus entered the room and closed the door behind him. He sat beside me on the new bean bag I bought the other day I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, I could smell the scent of his breath it was so enticing I climbed on top of my beloved lord and leaned in to him, his hands rubbed my back "how was your meeting with your brothers lord Marcus." I asked my love as I leaned in and kissed his neck. Marcus moaned softly and told me it was interesting, apparently my brilliant Lord Marcus and his brothers are working making a type of steel that can cut through vampire flesh, to be used as a secret weapon if we come across rule breakers or children of the moon. I stayed on top of lord Marcus sitting on his lap and facing him, he pushed the hair out of my face and smiled at me "enough of work my love, what would you like to do today?" he asked me, I thought about it for a few minutes "stay here just you and me, for a while and maybe afterwards we could have a spa bath together" I answered him. He chuckled "as you wish my pet" he said and kissed me again, feeling his touch made my skin tingle. I sang for my beloved Lord and he complimented my singing, he asked me to keep singing for him and I did as he asked, I sang for him, not stopping and watching his crimson eyes of his light up to my voice. Marcus complmented me "I love the way you inspire me, your voice is so angelic." I smiled at his compliment, it made me really shy, I couldn't sing anymore, I hid my face in his chest and he chuckled and petted my hair "you're adorable when shy my pet." I smiled sheepishly, Lord Marcus began to pull off my top and he kissed me, in between my breasts. I was shocked and he leaned up to try and undo my bra, I felt uncomfortable and asked him what he was doing, he told me he wanted to make love to me. I did not know what was wrong, but It did not feel right to me. I love my lord Marcus and would do anything for him, but I felt strange, I knew I did not want Lord Marcus to make love to me, I suggested to him we wait until after we got married, he said "why bother with that, this is not my first time and surely this is not your first time." I know it wasn't my first time, but it still did not feel right, Lord Marcus was insistant, but thankfully master Aro arrived and interrupted us. Master Aro asked if we would like to join him, Felix, Chelsea, Alec and Heidi to go to the surface. I accepted the gracious invitation of master Aro and was relieved he came when he did. I put my top back on and my cloak, Lord Marcus seemed disappointed and I looked at him, he seemed to want to be with me so much...maybe I should just cave in and let him have me...I don't know, it just doesn't feel right to be with him...maybe it's because we are not married, I don't know it just feels wrong to be with him, but I am his mate, its my duty to please him am I just being selfish? I did not know what to do or think, we all went out to the surface the group of us, I asked master Aro why his mate did not join us, he told me she was already out and about with the others. We explored the town and I could see there was a lot of humans, listening to their hearts pound and the blood travel through their veins became too much for me to deal with. I was too distracted by the scent of the humans when I heard Heidi speak "this is too overwhelming for her, she is about to lose control." Lord Marcus held me down, "Alec" he spoke out and then everything went white. In what felt like an instant, I found myself in lord Marcus room resting on his bed with Lord Marcus beside me. I asked him what happened, Lord Marcus told me I was very close to losing control of myself so he had Alec use his gifts on me to cut off all my senses. Alec's gift is very powerful, he is a lot stronger than his sister Jane, while Jane inflicts pain she can only inflict it on one person at a time. Alec has the ability to affect groups of people, the drawback is his gift works slower than Jane, but to the unsuspecting person like me, it's instant. I asked Lord Marcus where Master Aro and everyone else was, Lord Marcus told me he went to be with his mate. Alec and Felix were in the great hall Lord Marcus moved closer to me and held me in his arms and I smiled and leaned in to kiss his neck. "are you thirsty my pet." I was actually fine until he mentioned it, my thirst became unbearable "I am a little thirsty" I admited sheepishly. Lord Marcus offered to have Felix go get me a snack, I asked him to send Heidi seeing as I wanted to do more sparring with Felix to distract me. Lord Marcus agreed and we both walked out of his room together and made it into the great hall where I saw Felix and Alec wrestling. I asked Alec if I could have a go at Felix and he nodded, I watched lord Marcus leave and saw Chelsea step out from the same direction Marcus and I just came from, I guess she was still guarding me as per Lord Marcus' request. I removed my dress and cloak leaving on only my training clothing on. I looked at Felix "Don't hold back Felix." I told him, Felix told me I could not handle it and I told him "I am never going to learn if you keep holding back" I sounded annoyed, my thirst was trying my patience. Felix smiled for a moment like something amazed him and then he charged at me and Alec, the guy did not even wait for Alec to step out of the way, I pushed Alec out of the way to safety and did not have enough time to even think about blocking. I was punched in the gut with such force it knocked me sliding back kicking up the dust around me. I had to admit the punch hurt, Felix moved at me again, he threw a punch with his left hand and I Mirrored him throwing punch with my left hand to counter his, I watched as Felix threw a punch with his right hand and I caught it ,stopping his blow, "A little ruthless don't you think attacking when Alec hasn't even left for the sidelines." I spoke to Felix while holding him at bay, I did not see Alec watching us, I could not afford to get distracted "That's the difference between us Sarah, you need to be ruthless in combat. All that matters is killing your opponent, the truth is you see Alec as a helpless child, when he is not, you're weak because of the sentimentality to humanity that you hold." I looked at Felix, he just pushed my button big time. I pulled back my left fist to aiming it at his face, Felix caught my fist and now we were at deadlock each holding one anothers fist. Felix had a smirk on his face "now look at you Sarah, you allowed your emotions to get the best of you, vampires don't show emotions...its a weakness." I looked at Felix, "enough talk" I spoke and lifted my left knee to try and knee him in the groins and Felix countered by copying my movements. Felix let go of my hand and moved his fist to punch me in the face and I reacted by catching his wrist with both my hands I was shocked. Felix grabbed my wrist with his free hand and squeezed it, the grip was painful and I let go of him and he started to spin me around, my feet left the ground before he let go and I crashed into the wall and hit the ground in a painful thud, I closed my eyes in pain, Felix was just too much for me. "Give up sarah, you can't do it," My eyes opened as I had a flash back to my human life, My human memories were dark and dim, I could barely remember what my mother looked like, she looked like a shadow in my memories now, the voice in my memories were usually foggy too, but this time it was clear "You can't do it Sarah, your useless, You can't do anything." my Mother never did encourage me as a child, she always put me down...I would not go back to that, I made a fist and slammed it on the ground "I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO ANYTHING AND I AM NOT USELESS" I yelled half crazed. I pushed myself up and out of pure fury I ran towards Felix and tackled him. Felix hit the ground, I had him pinned as I was sitting on his chest my feet were on both his left and right arm. I was punching him in the face over and over "I AM NOT USELESS, STOP TELLING ME I CAN'T DO anything." I lifted his upper body up a little to headbutt him. Alec came at me trying to pull me off Felix and with one hand I pushed him away. Aro came through the front door with Marcus, Heidi and a human, Alec was explaining everything "Sarah's snapped. She wont stop beating Felix up." he said. I continued to punch Felix in a frenzy of rage, I could hear Master Aro speaking "what are you waiting for, stop her" Felix struggled "I can't she is too strong, with the damn newborn strength." he said. I continued to punch him and yelled "SHUT UP" I screamed in anger, as I punched him in the face again. Master Aro told me to stop, but I ignored him, I was just too lost in my anger and I felt so savage. Felix kicked me in the back with enough force to knock me off him. I slided on the ground on all fours rotating myself as I slid to face Felix. I watched him get up, he had venom coming out of his nose, I was shocked I expected to see him angry, but he wasn't he seemed happy like he was enjoying the ass kicking. "You seem to be pretty good when you are pissed off, interesting normally emotions cloud judgement in combat, but for you it makes you more brutal." I let out a hiss and Felix moved in a flash he was inches from me and threw a punch, I caught it by catching his wrist and he looked at me. "Now what, do you expect to throw me, like I did to you. That's my move, I know how to counter it. I will stop you before my feet even leave the ground, your just a beginner Sarah, while I am a master." he said sounding smug. "Fine, I will have to use my own technique from here on out." I said. I watched Felix's face change into a shocked expression and at that moment I jumped on top of his arm, my legs stretched over his arm and up to his neck in a X motion.both my arms were now wrapped around his wrist, so I was basicly hugging his entire arm with my body while my legs traveled up his arm and my leg calfs wrapped around his neck in a X motion. Being a vampire I had great strength, unimaginable strength, if I squeezed my calves together tight enough in this hold I could easily remove Felix's head. Felix asked me what sort of technique this was and I told him, I called it the Scissor Lock, one wrong move he would be headless, "Ah impressive" I heard master Aro say. My eyes wandered to see Aro touching Alec's shoulder, Aro had no doubt seen all the hours of practice I have done with Alec when Felix was busy. I could see Lord Marcus was worried, my grip around Felix weakened from my distraction and suddenly Felix began to spin around "You hesitated Sarah this sparing session is over." Felix used his free hand to grab my leg and pull me off him, He threw me across the hall and once again I smashed into the wall. I hit the ground and slowly got up, I was about to charge Felix again when my lower body felt heavy I looked down to see Alec was trying to restrain me. I tried to remove him, but then felt a set of arms around me restraining my upper body, I saw it was Felix. Felix's bare chest was against me and my breast now and I continued to struggle my pitch black eyes glaring into felix eyes, I saw something behind those eyes he wanted something I just can't figure out what. I stopped struggling when I heard a female scream a split second passed when I smelt the delcious scent of blood being spilled. I looked towards Aro, Marcus and Heidi and saw a female teenager maybe a year older than me had her wrist slit. I could see blood on Marcus nails and Alec and Felix let go as I ran to the human and bit deep into her flesh. I ignored the screams of the human as I continued to drain her blood, the bloodloss was too slow for me so I bit deep into her wrist and ripped out a chunk of flesh with my teeth and spat out the disgusting flesh and resumed on the feed. The human's breath became shallow as she panted in pain her heart was racing first then it slowed down the more blood she lost. My venom had already traveled into her system she was already paralysed with burning pain, I could faintly hear Felix say "that is an amazing technique, she came up with and one only she can use." Aro had asked Felix why that was, Felix answered "it's because of her size, if I tried using that technique my opponent would fall because I am big and muscular I would be too heavy for the opponent to carry. Sarah is lighter than me, she is small and agile her speed is incredible, Sarah's technique is incredible, she is using her upper body to restrain the arm while using her lower body to hold the neck in a grip that can decapicate her victims, the lower body is also stronger than the upper body because we use our legs more when we were human we carry that lower body strength when turned and it's enhanced even more than our upper body." Aro made an awed sound "she really is a jewel how fortunate we found her." I continued to feed off the human and ignored Lord Marcus agreeing. I was too lost in the human girl enjoying the last beats her heart would ever make, the human girl dropped dead and I pulled back, "Much better" I said as the burning in my throat was gone...for now. Felix and Alec stood in front of Marcus & Aro protectively, I looked at them confused "Lord Marcus?." I said softly, Marcus smiled "Shes fine now" he said and was at my side in a flash, Lord Marcus began to lick the blood from my face and I flinched and he looked at me concerned, I don't know it just felt weird, Lord Marcus told Heidi to fetch Chelsea and then dispose of the body and she was gone in a flash. Marcus resumed licking me until I was clean. I eventually saw Felix, he looked hurt and I realized I did that to him. I pulled back from Lord Marcus, and rushed to Felix end wiped the drying venom from his nose his face was cracked and it was slowly healing "I am so sorry are you ok?" I asked him. Felix looked at me as I tried to tend to his wounds, we were so close together I was practicly breathing on him. "I....I am fine." he spoke nervously, I asked felix how I could make it up to he told me it was fine that he held no grudges, in fact he told me he was impressed with me and said I was a quick learner. If I I was still human I would have been blushing. Felix also told me not to get too cocky, Marcus and I sat down and watched Alec and Felix wrestle around. Chelsea joined us shortly after she seemed grumpy, I guess it's because she hasn't had much time with her mate since she was guarding me all the time. I was watching Alec's coat not that anyone would steal it, I mean we are a family, I hearding a ringing sound from Alec's coat and seached through it picking up his phone. I looked at the black cell phone he left near his coat to see Jane on the phone's caller Id, I smiled with glee and answered the phone "Hello Jane how are you?" I asked in a sarcastic tone, Jane snarled at me "Where is my brother?" "Have you not been drinking Jane, you sound grouchy" I asked her, I could hear her growl and I surpressed a chuckle. . The chuckle had broke out and Alec came to take the phone from me, I petted his head and stood up going towards my room, Lord Marcus followed me of course and Chelsea was not to far behind us. I allowed Lord Marcus to sit on the bean bag and I climbed on top of him, "Sarah my pet, why do you have this bean...bag and not a bed," I leaned in to kiss my Lord on the lips for a moment "Why do I need a bed, I do not sleep." Lord Marcus chuckled "you are very amusing my pet, more can be done on a bed then sleep and I think you know very well of that." Lord Marcus pulled me in close to him until my head was resting on his chest. I could feel his chin resting on my head, Lord Marcus seemed happy, which is good it means I am happy. I snuggled my head against Lord Marcus chest and head him sigh from joy, Lord Marcus asked me to sing for him, he gains such pleasure from my singing, I wondered what it was like for him what went on in that head of his. Lord Marcus was eventually called away from me by master Aro & Caius, they spend a lot of their time on this weapon of theirs. I am sitting here now with Chelsea outside my door, I might go spend some time with her. ~Sarah An enjoyable time
Date: June 21st, 2009 Dear Diary When I opened the door I saw Marcus, he was dressed in expensive looking clothing. "My dear Sarah you look divine," Marcus said with his arms open he moved in and hugged me tightly his arms around my waist. "Thank you Lord Marcus." I said with no emotions, it surprised me, I called Marcus, Lord, I had never called Marcus that before, I wondered why I called him that it was so unlike me. Marcus moved his hands to my bottom and licked my neck "I can't get used to how appealing you are to me child, I wouldn't mind taking you here and now." he said with joy. "All in good time Lord Marcus." I said again, and felt his warm touch carress my body "why wait when I can have you now child." he said again, Marcus stepped back and moved his hand from my hips down my thighs and back up to my hips, I felt nothing no contempt for Marcus or anything else. The strangest thing was, I wanted to do anything to please him, I moved close to him and kissed him on the lips and continue to allow his hands to wander. I heard footsteps off in the distance and looked to see Alec, Chelsea & Felix at my door they were dressed in casual clothing along with the red cloaks. I looked at Chelsea she looked pleased with herself for some reason, Marcus let go and walked behind me he grabbed my cloak and tied it around me, I looked at Alec "where is the evil twin" I asked my voice sounding emotionless. Alec informed me that master Aro sent her on a mission to take care of a wild newborn. I did not bother feining disappointment. We left together and I felt totally calm, no real emotions were pulsing through me all I was numb. We traveled through to the surface and went to the shops Felix, Chelsea, and Alec stayed close to Marcus and I, never leaving our sides. We went to the shops and I bought a lot of dresses and a few dvds that I had previously liked from one store, from the other store it was more suited for the prankster. I bought a device I knew how to set up for a little explosive mechanism, it wasn't a bomb just something to launch as a projectile at someone. I also bought a packet of balloons and traveled to the paint shop. Marcus was curious asking me what I was up to "I am just preparing for a little welcome home gift for Jane of course Lord Marcus." I answered calmly. I bought a few other supplies, that I would need. I wanted to pay Jane back for her cruelty that she displayed to me on my first day here and for what she did to that girl. After buying all the suplies I needed for my "gift" to Jane we continued to go to a few more tores and I saw a beautiful motorcycle. I glanced at it, the thing was beautiful and I knew I wanted it. Marcus could see that too and told Felix & Chelsea to go purchuse it for me. I thanked Marcus and he told me it was no problem for his mate. I told Marcus I did not know how to ride it and he told me he would have Felix teach me how. We finished shopping and we toured the city it was night time. I had known the land well, I mean i had spent enough time here back when I was human, Felix, Alec and chelsea stayed close the entire time. We walked to the park and made it to an undercover area, I sat on the table and Marcus sat beside me and leaned in close, he turned for a moment "Alec return home and see the shopping has arrived will you." Marcus said. Alec nodded "as you wish Master Marcus." I heard him say. Alec left and Marcus wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in close. "My dear child will you you sing for me." I looked at Marcus "for you Lord Marcus anything, do you have any requests." I asked him, Marcus told me to sing to my hearts content. So I did as I was told and sang First when there's nothing but a slow glowing dream that your fear seems to hide Deep inside your mind all alone I have cried Silent tears full of pride In a world made of steel. Made of stone When I hear that music close my eyes,feel the rythem Marcus closed his eyes and listened to me sing he seemed to enjoy it, I honestly felt it was my sole purpose to please Marcus. I made a mental note to practice my gift more often so Jane would be denied her pleasure of using her gift on me, I finished my song and Marcus looked pleased "are you pleased Lord Marcus" I asked him eagerly. Marcus pulled me onto his lap, I sat on his lap facing him and listened to his response " oh yes very much, your singing is as beautiful as always my pet." I thanked Marcus, I looked at Felix, his face was blank and expressionless, while Chelsea still seemed pleased with herself. I Looked down at Marcus kissed him on the lips with passion, Marcus' grip on me only increased and I did not resist him. I closed my eyes and felt myself getting lost in Marcus, after a few moments I opened my eyes and saw the stars behind Felix and Chelsea. I felt a sharp stabbing feeling deep inside me and pulled away from Marcus, I felt like I was forgetting something, I closed my eyes and images popped into my head. I saw myself with Brian in the car he bought me...we made love under the stars. I tried to push the images out of my head, but they would not leave. "Sarah what is it my pet, are you ok?" Marcus asked. I opened my eyes and looked at Marcus and then to Felix and Chelsea. She no longer had that grin on her face, she in fact looked a little surprised. "I am fine Lord Marcus, I am just tired of this place that is all." I said my voice a little shaken. Marcus had his arms around me tightly and stood up carrying me, "would you like to return home now." he asked, I looked at Marcus "only if it pleases you Lord Marcus." I responded "very much so, I imagine you must have had too much excitment for one day my pet." I said nothing and allowed Marcus to carry me all the way back home. When we arrived to the great hall I saw all my shopping including the beautiful black motorcycle, Marcus placed me down and I looked at the beautiful bike. "Chelsea please take the bike to the vehicle storage area and put it next to my car." Marcus said. Chelsa did as she was told and left. I took the plastic bag that I needed and asked Alec to put the rest in the room for me. He nodded and I asked Marcus if I could be excused for awhile and he nodded saying he had things to attend to. Marcus kissed me briefly and I kissed him back feeling normal again and left. It was just Felix and me and I smiled at him, he smiled back at me "are you sure your feeling well" he asked and I nodded "fine thank you Felix, do come with me will you." Felix nodded and we went towards Jane's room. I opened the door and Felix stopped at the doorway after I entered. I lowered the bags and pulled out the bag of balloons a funnel, a small bucket of blue paint and the propelling device I bought. "What are you doing Sarah, Jane will not be pleased that your are in her room without her permission." He said nervously, "Fuck the evil little dwarf, she has to pay for being a sociopath" I told him. I opened up the desk drawer and saw a letter from Jane, it basically told me the book in her desk was not her real diary. I shrugged and crunched the letter into a ball and threw it over my shoulder. I opened the drawer and put the mechanism in on top ot the book. Once that was done I opened the paint and placed a funnel end on the paint bucket the blue paint was a nice color. I opened the packet of balloons and took out a nice one. I sucked on the clean end of the funnel and saw the paint begin to poor into the funnel. I placed it at the balloon and watched with glee as the balloon filled up. The balloon filled with paint and eventually it was full after trying the balloon off I placed it in the draw setting up the mechanism, so next time Jane opened her desk drawer BAM!!!! the Balloon is launched into her face and she gets covered in paint. I packed almost everything up and took it to the doorway handing it to Felix, "please take this to my room." Felix held the bags "Sarah please, you don't know what your doing, Jane can be frightful." I scoffed at Felix and said "please as if I am going to be afraid of someone who can pass as one of the umpa lumpa." Felix looked at me confused, "Remind me to get you Charlie and the Chocolate Factory I told him. Felix left and I grabbed the plastic bag I had left behind, I opened it to see a packet of fart bombs. my mischivious grin grew wider, I pulled down one of Janes dolls and unscrewed the head I pulled out a fart bomb and popped it throwing it inside the dolls body I screwed it back on fast, I had 10 to 15 seconds before it detonated. I hung the doll back up and grabbed the plastic bag with the fart bombs and ran out of the room just as a pop sound was made. I closed Jane's room door and smiled, the stench was going to fester in that room, we vampires already had a sharp sense of smell so with the stench all built up and no way of escaping let's just say Jane was in for a rough ride when she returned. I walked back through the great hallway on my way back to my room and stopped, I heard Marcus talking "your doing a superb job Chelsea, She is almost mine." I heard Marcus speak, "Yes Master Marcus, but be careful her ties to Brian are still strong for a moment she broke free...not to worry it won't happen again." I did not understand what they were talking about and why they brought up Brian. I showed myself to them, and Marcus looked surprised, he moved to me and leaned in to kiss me "Sarah my pet, I thought you were resting, and why do you smell strange...the stench is a little faint, but still." I looked at Marcus and apologised and told him I had felt restless. Marcus took me to my room and grabbed me a dress I had bought and we walked to this other room I was surprised to see a spa bath in here, Felix entered the room, had the bath filled he moved to the door, standing in front of it protectively. Marcus undressed me completely, until I stood before him naked. He seemed very pleased with what he saw. I felt nothing at all "are you pleased Lord Marcus." I asked and he told me he was very pleased, I looked at Felix ,he was watching me intently. Marcus told me to get in and I did as I was told, stepping into the spa bath. Marcus removed all over his clothing, I examined his body for a moment and looked away ashamed when it came to his crowning glory. Marcus saw me and chuckled, joining me in the spa bath. We sat there for a few hours, Marcus bathed me rubbing the soap all over my body, he seemed pleased when he did this. I was obedient for Lord Marcus ,it is my sole purpose to please him and if he gained pleasure from cleaning me then so be it. We eventually finished and I stepped out of the spa bath, Marcus grabbed the towel and dried off my entire body slowly he asked me to dry him off and I grabbed the towel and did as I was instructed to. Felix watched me the entire time his eyes almost looked hungry for something other than blood, I wondered what. Marcus dressed me in my outfit Felix got me and in the dress he had picked out for me, i found it unecessary, I knew how to dress myself, I assume he gets some sort of pleasure from this. Once he was done he got dressed and told Felix to escort me to my room, I kissed Marcus on the lips before he could get dressed and he kissed me back. Felix and I eventually left for my room and once we arrived I had him stay and keep me company. We are currently watching Anne of Green Gables. It is a very good movie, one of my favourites, I have to say something before I leave.... I feel strange, like I am forgetting something...I will let you know if I figure it out, I am going to go now Anne just busted her slate over Gilberts head. ~Sarah Song Sarah Sings |
InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
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