Topic: Live your life to its fullest and live with no regrets, because every day is the chance to make a new start. Date: 14/2/ 2020 Dear Diary It has been one year since my last entry, in that entry I told you how Brian proposed to me, well…Since then things have been going well I am now living in Denali Alaska with Brian and Tobias, we are living together as one big happy family. Although I rather be living at the beach house back at New York I haven’t been there since I left with the Volturi…I wonder how it would be for me to return there…would I be happy or would I be extremely sad yeah that’s the question…would the power of beautiful and happy memories be able to overpower the darkness and bitter memories of heartache? I wanted to know, and I would find that out time. The Cullen’s and Denali don’t live far from us and in the last year I have found myself blissfully happy with my Fiancée and my son and with my new friends…no my new family I think of the Cullen’s and the Denali’s as family…I love them all, with the exception of Tanya or as I like to think…Lizard girl. I of course watch those thoughts around Edward. The thing is Tanya is always distant to me like she thinks she is better than me. I have formed a close friendship with Alice, Rosalie, Kate and Emmett. We hang out every Friday at my place, just us and Brian. Tobias likes to sleep over at Edwards place on the weekends he spends a great deal of time with Nessie they are best friends. Although Tobias has a crush on her, I believe Nessie knows about it. Esme is kind enough to home school Tobias with Nessie and in a few months they will be starting high school and I thought about enrolling in high school too just to keep an eye on my son…the only problem is I would rather stick needles in my eyes, yeah I haven’t quite forgotten about my last experience with high school. What else can I tell you; well I am back to normal. Two months after my last entry I regained my strength; uh I am ashamed to say I caved in and am now a vegetarian vampire…although Tobias is very proud of me. Although I have to agree with Nessie I don’t see it morally wrong to have human blood as long as it’s donated….of course Brian is saying human blood is still wrong…he is such a wimp…well not really, I have noticed being a parent has really changed Brian…he is serious about Tobias he is a strict parent, but fair…he puts Tobias’ needs above anyone else’s like expected but there is more to it…he is serious. I remember back before I had to leave, Brian was all hyper and excited and playful he was just eager to play with him…it was adorable, but now… Brian is acting like an actual parent, I am kind of embarrassed to say I’m the slack parent I’d let Tobias get away with murder, I guess it’s because I am trying to make up for the years I wasn’t around, Brian loses his temper with me at times he tells me of course that I shouldn’t be so lenient just because I was absent for so long, that I didn’t need to buy our son’s love because he loves me regardless. Oh I get visit’s from Felix occasionally, Since leaving the Volturi with us Felix has kind of been lost, he is looking for someplace to belong, see Aro was the one who created Felix because of Felix’s strength. Now that he has turned his back on Aro to do the right thing…I imagine Felix is suffering some personal turmoil, but Felix will find his way I have faith in him…I think of Felix as a big brother we went through a lot together at Volterra…he protected me and taught me everything I know about combat…It’s sad, but Brian and Felix don’t get along at all…they strongly dislike each other and Brian won’t let Tobias anywhere near Felix, whenever Felix visits Tobias is sleeping over at Edward and Bella’s place. So yeah that’s pretty much everything that has happened within a last year, nothing eventful which is just the way I like it…I have grown accustomed to the peace….that is when Alice wasn’t going nuts in regards to the wedding…Ah yeah the wedding…what can I tell you Diary…it was simply amazing, I had to admit I was very anxious and so help me I swear I could have killed that little nymph Alice for keeping me in suspense the entire time, but I was glad that I didn’t. So what happened was simple. Alice came over to my place with Kate and Rosalie, Alice suggested a shopping trip and well it’s extremely difficult, if not impossible, to say no to her. So we all went shopping and it started getting bizarre when Kate is driving us out of town and of course you know me by now as I so eloquently put it “where the hell are we going.” I could hear Rosalie chuckle and suddenly she pulled out a blindfold “prepare for a very long trip with a blindfold” she spoke amused while Alice helped put the blindfold on. The trip was very long and everything was Dark, I wished I could have seen the scenery, but amazingly enough I wasn’t that board Alice, Rosalie and Kate spoke a lot…of course at one point we ran out of stuff to talk about…Kate the genius that she was suggested a game of I spy…yes let’s play I spy with the woman forced to wear a blindfold see how well that goes over Rosalie eventually returned the discussion to Nessie and Jacob, Rosalie strongly disliked Jacob and you know to be honest I have to agree with her…Jacob is creepy and he is weird he obsesses over a freaking twelve year old ok sure Nessie looks like a teenager, but still it’s that’s pretty much illegal…imprinting my ass…Along with that he is smelly, Rosalie was just talking about all the reasons why she disliked Jacob when Alice started defending Jacob. “Rosalie you forgot to add to the list, with Jacob in the family you will always have to have plastic on the couch so he won’t shed on the couch.” Rosalie and Kate chuckled while Alice was quiet, I imagined my best friend was scowling, but you know I am not the only one to hate Jacob; Brian is on the same page as me on this one he loathes Jacob. I prefer to keep Tobias away from Jacob as much as possible…Although I do with Tobias…Seth isn’t that bad, Seth sometimes comes to visit Jacob and the Cullen’s of course he comes to visit Tobias as well they have seemed to become good friends. I don’t mind Seth that much, he is well mannered and polite, and yeah sure it’s an inconvenience that I have to open all the windows in our house after he leaves, but hey Seth’s cool. After endless hours of traveling the car came to a halt for the last time Alice helped me out of the car and guided me with Help from who I was assuming was Rosalie. Something was strange, I could smell the scent of the ocean “oh god no…don’t tell me we are back at ocean shores, Washington.” My best friends were quiet got a moment and Alice had spoken “I only have so much time here, I want to make everything perfect for you Sarah so if you know what’s good for you girl you won’t fight me” she spoke in the usual musical voice. I couldn’t stop myself from smiling, oh yeah Alice had my curiosity peeked, but Alice always put me in a good mood she is so easy to be around. Alice had Guided me inside a building of some sort, immediately I could smell an overwhelming scent of flowers that were in the distance and she continued to guide me and suddenly I heard a door close, I could smell dust and a lot of old scents. Alice pulled the blindfolds off and I looked around in shocked as soon as I realized I placed my hands to my mouth in shock….I knew where I was, this was the beach house in New York…I was home. “what are we doing here” I asked in shock looking around the bedroom, Alice danced around me and giggled as she stopped to stand in front of me “well today’s your wedding day…Brian thought you would want to have your wedding someplace you knew and loved rather than some church you have no bond with. ” Alice had spoken in her musical voice. I was overwhelmed and I lowered my hands from my mouth “where is Brian” I asked shocked, I wanted to go and kiss Brian, “he is out hunting close by” I turned to the door, I was going to go see him and kiss him and thank him, but when I faced the door I saw Kate and Rosalie blocking the doorway “don’t even think about it Sarah…it’s bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding.” I pouted and Alice walked to the closet and opened it “you know your closet is so small…I am going to have to get Esme and together we will expand it for you” I scoffed at Alice “not everyone has a clothing Fetish like you girl” I retorted as she pulled out three beautiful purple bridesmaid dress Kate had started to speak “Alice we are the Bridesmaids we aren’t supposed to outshine the bride…although I have no complaints…naturally” Kate joked around I poked my tongue out at rose and watched as the three of them got changed in a flash. Alice had left the room and a moment later she returned with perhaps the most beautiful wedding dress I had ever seen “Custom made of course” Alice spoke, of course I was too dumb founded to listen. Alice had helped me into the dress and I looked in the mirror in shock “Alice it’s a beautiful dress, but really can’t I just wear Jeans and a T shirt” Alice looked at me as if I had said something utterly mad “I am going to pretend you didn’t just say that…honestly jeans and a T-shirt Honestly” she complained as she put her hand in mine and dragged me to sit in front of the mirror. Alice began combing my hair and fixing it, braiding a few strands at the front and applying eyeliner “Not much I can do I’m afraid…you’re a natural beauty and all.” Alice spoke with a frown Looking into the mirror I could see Rosalie in the reflection she shook her head and I could hear the words escape from her lips “leave it to Alice to make the bride outshine her bridesmaids” she grumbled while Kate had placed her hand on Rosalie’s shoulder “uh that’s the way it’s meant to be rose” she spoke and I giggled out of laughter for a moment “Rose you can relax, my self-esteem is still minus fifty points with you around” I tried to comfort her. I have never been one to care about looks and how I appear compared to others, but today would be an exception Rosalie of course looked stunning in her long silk purple dress and you know Alice and Kate looked amazing too. While here I was wearing a white off shoulder wedding dress. The dress was elegant and beautiful, but it wasn’t really me I was never elegant or graceful; I suppose I should just go with the magical moment. I mean how many times can a girl get married…well for me this is my second time, but hey it’s not like I had a choice I wasn’t myself, I was what Marcus and the rest of the Volturi wanted me to be...A weak and submissive brain washed queen that did as I was told…but now I am alive and free thanks to my lovely soon to be husband Brian Jacobson…It all started with a kiss the kiss from my true love restored my memories and set the real me free…sort of like a fairy tale, I guess in some ways my life is a fairy tale and soon I would be experience my fairy tale wedding. Alice told us she had to go and make sure everyone is doing their jobs and setting things up, while Kate told Alice not to worry that she would keep me in here at all cost. Alice left and it was just the three of us, hanging out and chatting. There was a knock on the door and moments later the door opened and I watched my son walk into the room, he was stunning he had on a black tux with a white shirt and red tie he looked like his father. “Wow mom you look incredible” he complemented me, I smiled and thanked him, apparently he also inherited his father’s charms. He leaned in to hug me and I hugged my son back. Tobias had told me he wanted to come wish me luck, and I thanked him along with asking him how his father doing to which he replied “He won’t stop pacing…its rather annoying, there is only so many times you can see him walk from side to side of the room without it getting tiresome.” I couldn’t stop myself from laughing and told him to go torment his father and keep him busy he nodded and left the room my son was such a sweetie a few minutes after Tobias left Nessie entered the room she looked around and asked if Tobias was here and I told her he had just left, she gave a sigh of relief “He is a great kid and all, but I am too old for him and he just won’t take a hint…he is so persistent” I laughed and walked to Nessie and placed my hand on her shoulder “He gets that from his father, don’t worry he will give up in a few years….probably” I watched how alarmed she looked “What…years Jacob will have probably killed him by then…I don’t want to keep playing mediator towards them” she frowned “you’re better off with Tobias, he is far smarter than the mongrel” Rosalie had grumbled to which Kate gave an agreeing look and said “that and Tobias doesn’t smell like wet dog” Nessie had glared at Rosalie and Kate “I love Jacob he is my soul mate, and besides I don’t want to be a cougar.” Before I could tell Nessie that she wouldn’t be a cougar just because of a two year time difference she stormed off leaving Kate to burst into laughter I had to admit seeing Nessie act like that was amusing it was a typical teenage girl response. The entire afternoon and evening I had received visits from Esme, Bella, Carmen, Carlisle, Garrett and Emmett to whom I hugged. I missed Emmett, he had told me he had a surprise for me and that I would never guess and naturally when I started asking he left the room…I realized I was lucky to have so many people that care about me to come and wish me luck, I had one last visitor…Felix when I saw him I instantly felt the nerves wash away. Rushing towards him I hugged him, he came to wish me luck. Brian of course denies this, but one of the biggest reasons why I am with my family today is because of Felix he helped save me. Felix asked Kate and Rosalie if he could have a moment alone with me, I looked to my friends and noticed how hesitant they looked; Kate told me they would be waiting outside if they were needed. I knew they didn’t trust Felix, but there is always hope in the future that would change. Felix told me how amazing I looked in this dress and I thanked him. He told me he had something he needed to tell me, at that moment I was surprised at Felix as his big strong hands were on both side of my arms “Sarah Frost, I am in love with you” he spoke sounding serious I had to admit I was in shock and my jaw opened a little from the shock, I kind of felt angry…why was he doing this, telling me on my wedding day? I asked him and Felix told me that he has been trying to tell me for years, but never found the right place or time “So your saying you found the right place and time on my wedding day” I spoke to him a little outraged. Felix looked into my eyes he was shocked and let go of me, after the shock I could see the pain in his eyes and I realized just how hard this was for him and I finally knew why he chose to help us on that day we left Volterra forever. I couldn’t stop myself and I moved to Felix hugging him tight and stroke the back of his head softly. Felix had wrapped his arms around me hugging me and I pulled back “Felix…thank you for everything you have done for me, but I am sorry my heart…my soul belongs to Brian you know I love you Felix, but my love for you it’s different, I love you like a big brother…that’s how I see you Felix…not as a body guard, but as a big brother…you’re my family” I told him softly, Felix’s expression was hard to see, he looked crushed he tried to hide it with a smile, but it was weak “I understand Sarah. I will leave now. I hope you enjoy your wedding” Felix had taken a step back and walked to the door, I of course stopped him by grabbing his hand “Don’t you dare Felix, you’re my family I want my brother to be here for me” Felix looked at me he smiled “ok then Sarah” I leaned in to kiss Felix’s cheek and thanked him watching him leave moments later I noticed Kate and Rosalie step into the room they both looked shocked and said nothing. Ten minutes later Alice returned and told me in her infamous words “it’s time” I breathed in deeply and breathed out, Kate chuckled at me and I smiled I felt nervous and excited at the same time Rosalie had walked towards me and she hugged me “you can do this just picture Brian and forget about everyone else.” I nodded nervously and smiled for once in my life I didn’t have anything to say the door opened and I walked out of the bedroom with my bridesmaid and as we walked through the house nothing had changed, finally I was home and for the first time everything felt like it was real and not a dream. I couldn’t stop smiling as I breathed in the atmosphere and I heard Alice speak “Hurry up” she was impatient as always, as I looked around my home I didn’t see Rosalie put her hand on Alice shoulders “give her a minute” as I walked to the lounge room and spun around at the empty place I was finally home and I swear if I could cry I would have been bawling my eyes out. Like Alice said it was time….finally it was time I am on my way to become Mrs. Sarah Jacobson Alice came and tucked her arm under my arm and she guided me to the kitchen and to the outside balcony…ah yes I remember the balcony…where I once expressed my morning sickness…yeah what a thing to get lost in with nostalgia huh. Going down the Balcony steps we walked along the private beach and I looked up and saw the stars shining brightly. We were walking along the beach Alice keeping a little distance from the crashing tide while Rosalie and Kate were behind me, I was amazed I could walk along the beach in high heels, but I did it and it was easy. Looking ahead I saw some lanterns ahead in the distance they were outside garden lanterns the kind that was solar powered and changed colors. On both side of the isle of lanterns were chairs and people sitting on them…the Amazons, Egyptian, Irish, and basically everyone who came to help me escape on that day. In the front rows were the Cullen’s and the Denali’s and around the Alter there were a few fire lamps that had a powerful fire going that was illuminating the place, and I could see my son and future husband. As I walked down the aisle I watched the lanterns change color from blue to green to red to yellow it was all really amazing “Alice you should be a wedding planner” I complemented her and she thanked me, but told me from this point on I was on my own and that I was to wait for the signal. Alice, Rosalie and Kate went down the long isle and I smiled as I heard Alice give the signal and I resumed walking towards the Alter, I could see Brian in across from me and I got lost in his beauty, how the hell did I ever get so lucky I wondered for a moment. He was wearing a black tux and a white button up long sleeve shirt and a red tie, but not the coat. Brian had a smile on his face and I saw beside him my son was standing as the best man along with Eleazar and Carlisle and I listened as music began to play on the CD player. Everyone stood and watched me, not that I was paying attention to them. My focus was on Brian I could hear Alice hiss “Slow down Sarah” I did as I was told and walked slower down the aisle with the music still playing, I could hear a whisper from Alice “where is his coat, it’s not perfect without his coat.” Another whisper that had belonged to Eleazar responded “hunting accident” at this point I imagined Alice giving Brian a deathly glare of fury and wrath. As I continued down what felt like a never ending isle, I noticed the lanterns that changed colors was illuminating my dress and I in different colors, it was pretty but the most important thing was the fact I made it to Brian, stepping into a circle of rose petals that surrounded the Alter I looked to my surprise I saw Emmett standing as the officiator “You!” I spoke out in a shocked whisper, Emmett had that big grin on his face “are you surprised” I gave half nod and had to admit I thought my surprise would be something else….never the less it was a surprise “well this should be interesting” I spoke out softly, the best thing about Emmett was his wicked sense of humor Alice moved to turn down the music; it was still playing on a low volume. Listening to the music I realized it was pretty good for a country song, and the lyrics matched us very accurately, I looked at Brian to see his beautiful smile and I smiled too, this was definitely one of the happiest moments in my life. The wedding continued and Emmett spoke, actually being serious which made me wonder if Alice was bribing Emmett. Eventually Brian and I exchanged rings and vow…now don’t be too hard on me the wedding was like sprung on me after all, but I said the following. “Brian Jacobson before I met you I was in a dark place in my life I was in the depths of despair, but you saved me in more ways than one…I promised myself that I would never let my heart be open to another, because I thought all that would await me is pain and suffering, but you made me realize there is more to love than just the pain…you taught me that the bad experiences of love wasn’t even a fragment compared to all the good…and even though I had all this love to give you…something happened and we had to part ways…the years without you…it was dark, bleak and more painful than you could ever understand…I became lost in the darkness and I forgot who I was, but you…you found me Brian and you saved me from the darkness showing me not just who I was, but who I wanted to become you gave me the strength and courage to do things I never thought I could do and It was my love for you that transcended me far beyond what I was meant to be, you have given me so much Brian, all I have to give you is my undying love” Brian seemed so touched by my vow, I held his hand and placed it on my heart “I..I give you my loyalty and my heart…I entrust my heart to you Brian take good care of it” I had watched Brian and don’t recall ever seeing him so moved. Brian moved his hand from my heart to caress my cheek for a moment “Sarah you showed me that one person can make a difference…you gave me a son and sacrificed yourself for us time and time again. You showed me what love meant and you taught me how to love. In return I vow to you Sarah that I will worship the ground you walk on and cherish you and I will spend the rest of eternity making you smile and protecting you and our son for eternity…I promise this to you baby girl” Nothing on earth could have stopped the warmth I felt at that moment I felt so good, and so happy Emmett announced us as man and wife “you may now make out” Emmett announced, I glared at Emmett only to be pulled from his focus when Brian grabbed me and pulled me close into his embrace and kissed me passionately, from then on the world vanished for a moment and I kissed Brian with every fiber of my being. I ignored the cheering and clapping, and even the gust of wind that blew away the rose petals, I listened as Tobias gasped and he “whoa cool” which at this point I wondered what he thought was cool and when I looked up into the sky I could see what Tobias was talking about it was a shower of shooting stars, Brian looked up and I told him “make a wish” Without hesitating Brian answered “why would I make a wish, when I have everything I ever wanted Mrs. Jacobson.” It was the first time Brian called me that….Sarah Jacobson it has a nice ring to it don’t you think. Looking back to my husband I leaned in to kiss Brian and just as our lips were about to touch I felt a tug pulling me away from Brian when I looked to see who was doing it, I could see it was Alice “Woman are you mad, I am trying to kiss my wife here” Brian spoke out, Alice was still pulling me she spoke “yeah yeah Kiss on your honeymoon…come on Sarah, we need to get you out of that dress and something more suitable for the reception.” I looked at Brian and smiled happily. Mouthing the word Later to him and oh yes there would be kissing and much more going on than that, Since Brian saved me we haven’t had sex I wanted to wait until we were married. I just thought I wanted our first time together since the whole Volturi thing to be as man and wife….yeah I know I’m getting sentimental in my old age. Alice and I were in my old bedroom getting undressed and into the new clothing while everyone was outside the house or in the living room hanging out. Alice had this black dress picked out for me it was long and elegant “I liked that song during the ceremony it suited Brian and I so well” I complemented her “actually Brian picked it out.” Alice informed me which actually surprised me. Alice wore a blue dress, that was long and lacey and together we left the room to the party, what surprised me was the fact Edward spoke out “Ladies and gentlemen. Can we have Mr. and Mrs. Jacobson on the floor” Brian had walked across to me and reached out his hand to which I rested it on top of his, he brought my hand to his mouth and kissed it “May I have this dance with you Mrs. Jacobson” he spoke as music began to play “No” I teased playfully, “Too bad” he retorted and pulled me in close to him and I laughed. We were so close together the song playing was very beautiful, but again it was a country song. “did you pick this song too” I asked him and naturally he nodded his head, “good lord I married a country bumpkin” I teased playfully, Brian grabbed my butt and I moved his grip to my lower back “Well Mrs. Jacobson…since I’m a country Bumpkin I guess I’m gonna have to show you the cowgirl position and get you acquainted with the country life” he teased and I snorted a laugh burying my face in his chest. He chuckled and moved one hand to pet the back of my head. After two hours of fun everyone finally started to leave…naturally Alice bolted before the cleanup, but I didn’t mind…ill just get Brian to do it. Tobias is now sleeping over Edwards, while Brian and I spend a week here and then we are going to somewhere else for the rest of the honeymoon, Brian won’t tell me. Diary what can I say. A long time ago I thought the world was full of nothing, but pain and suffering…and that was all life had to offer me, and then I met Brian…my soul mate, he saved me from myself…I ended up returning the favor saving him and our son. Being Lost in Darkness…time and time again, I knew two things for certain…the first Brian was my light, he would always be there to protect me from the sadness and the pain. The second….This is my story and I’m going to make it a good one. ~Sarah Jacobson The End
Dear Readers and Loyal fans, Hello everyone, this is something that’s really hard for me to do and say…hell I can’t even think of the right words to say it in. When I first started writing I started with Sarah Frost and now as I come to the end of her story I find myself overwhelmed with the thought that this story has come to an end. Telling Sarah’s story, it was very fun to do and thrilling along with extremely difficult at times, there were times when I struggled just to get a paragraph down, and then there were times where the words just poured down with me. I feel Sarah’s story has reached the climax…this is the story she deserves to have and she has gained her happy ending that she deserved. So I bet your wondering where does this leave Sarah, Brian and Tobias, what will become of me and Twilight Diaries. Well the truth be told Sarah and Brian has ended, BUT it doesn’t mean they are gone forever it just means that they want some alone time if you get my drift. Now about me, Twilight Diaries is my baby, and it’s thanks to the beautiful, loving and talented Kayla that my baby has survived so long, so thank you sis for keeping my dream alive. I am not quitting Twilight Diaries. I will stay on to continue Rosalie, Tobias and someone else. I will write a Sarah and Brian entry from time to time, so you see their not gone forever. But mostly it’s time for a new chapter in the Jacobson’s Story and that means it’s time for Tobias to step up and become the star. Of course Tobias is not the only Star coming out, someone is coming and she wills turn Twilight Diaries upside down. Her name is Aphrodite Hart. I also wanted to take the time to thank you the readers, thank you for taking the time to read my story and thank you for leaving your comments and Feedbacks. Your words of encouragement has touched me and inspired me in more ways than you could possibly know, so thank you, I am actually keen on knowing your thoughts on the wedding so please post on the Twilight Diaries Facebook page and let me know what you think. Again thank you all and I will see you all soon. ~Martin
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InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
March 2012
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