Topic: It’s frightening, any moment I expect my fantasy to shatter…it’s Satan in a Sunday hat, but still I can hope that nothing will stop this.
Date: June 25th, 2019 Dear Diary I am at a loss of words…it’s difficult to imagine that I will never see the Volturi again because my soul mate Brian Jacobson has saved me from execution….from death and oblivion. We had left Volterra victorious; Aro had given his word that he would leave us be in peace. I had spent the entire trip sitting on Brian’s lap my head rested on his chest as he held me in his arms; his venom was burning me alive with his venom slowly neutralizing he poison inside me, I would have to feed off him again soon just to get more of the venom. Brian had spoke about the Cullen’s telling me all about them and of course Rosalie helped him giving her perspective of the events on how Bella met Edward and how the Volturi almost killed them all…the Volturi, they were meant to be law enforces, but in truth they’re death personified…they kill and destroy. I had listened to the story without speaking or interrupting, I was too tired to say anything, of course I wasn’t tired of living anymore…I no longer wanted death, I was just tired of the fighting I think…ever since I got pregnant life had been one big battle field, and I was fighting not just for my future, but Brian’s and Tobias…I valued their lives more than my own. I had closed my eyes and hid my face in Brian’s chest, I could hear him chuckle “I don’t remember you being this shy babygirl” he spoke as he stroked my hair, his touch it was soft and gentle and so exhilarating if my heart was still beating it would have stopped now, I felt this warmth inside me, it was the warmth only Brian brought out in me and I gasped in “Someone’s getting turned on by my sexyness” he spoke, if I was human I would have been blushing scarlet, He held me tight in his arms as I said nothing “hey you ok Sarah” he asked his voice was serious and it sounded slightly panicked I opened my eyes and looked at him “Just a little tired…im ok girl guide’s honor” Brian scoffed “Yeah right as if you were a girl guide” he retorted and I poked my tongue at him and smiled, for the first time I noticed there was something different about Brian’s eyes they were no longer Crimson, his eyes were different it they were golden. I wanted to ask him about it, but decided not to when I saw the look of worry in his eyes I knew he was worried about the poison in me, its strange that after all these years apart we are in sync with each other immediately we acted as one “It’s ok Brian…the venom will take out the poison…I think another two or three times and ill be fine…it will just take me some time to regain my strength.” I spoke softly watching those eyes of his. Brian nodded “Ok baby girl…when you feel you need let me know…I love it when you give me Looove Bites” he spoke emphasizing on love, I scowled at Brian he was such an arrogant punk….god I loved him for it, “hey you look like Tobias when you do that…in a flash Rosalie leaned in from beside Brian to look at me making me feel like some sort of science experiment “you know I think you’re right, she does look like Tobias, at first I thought he looked like you, but he definitely has Sarah’s scowl” she spoke, I thought back to the past remembering Tobias scowl from what I remembered Tobias scowling reminded me of Brian’s and now Brian and this Rosalie woman had told me that I looked like Tobias. I instantly felt jealous of Rosalie, not only was she a gorgeous woman, but she had seen my son and probably knew him better than me. I had looked from her and back to Brian “Tell me about him” I spoke softly, Brian had opened his mouth when Rosalie had started “Well Tobias is…” She was cut off by Emmett who was still driving “Uh babe I think she was asking Brian.” He spoke sounding amused, looking back at Rosalie I saw her look down disappointed “oh” she uttered softly and I looked back at Brian waiting eagerly. Brian had stroked my hair softly “Tobias is a good kid, he is quiet and gentle he has this is very curious by nature he just wants to understand everything he is a bit like you in some ways. He is precocious to the point it dumbfounds me that someone so young could be so smart. Tobias is sort of a nerd, he loves to read and learn new things…you wait and see babe you will love him babe and not just because he is our son.” Hearing Brian talk about our son I could hear the warmth in his voice and the love, the love was endless and just so bizarre I wasn’t used to hearing him speak like a farther…and I realized while my Brian was there, there was a whole other side to him. The trip was long, but eventually we had arrived to a small place called Ocean Shore, Washington the place was small, Brian told me that after he escaped with Kate and Garret they picked this place because it was so small and no one in either covens had come to this place before so it would be a perfect hiding spot. I didn’t really hear Brian speak about the rest…about leaving Tobias and Reneesme in the care of shapeshifters…all I was fixated on, was Tobias…he was here I was so close to seeing him again. It was already sunset when we arrived to Ocean Shore the door opened and I felt fresh air hit us I climbed out of Brian’s lap and stood up, my own weight felt overwhelming, but I managed…this poison sucks on major proportions, but I will survive it. Felix came to me to see if I was doing ok, Brian had shoved Felix away from me “Stay away from her you Volturi bastard…why did you even come with us, shouldn’t you be kissing Aro’s ass” I felt pretty anxious and scared I knew I should just step in and stop both of them, but I just felt so tired. I had found myself blindsided and felt someone’s arm entwined around mine I expected it to be Rosalie, but instead it was the short pixie one….Alice she smiled “how about we forget this macho mess and go to the beach” before I could say anything Alice had dragged me off and I managed to keep up. Behind me Kate, Bella and Rosalie joined us, “Don’t worry about Brian and Felix their just having their own little turf war” Kate spoke and I frowned, “How are you feeling Sarah” Bella had asked me, I looked at Bella from everything Brian told me with her troubles she encountered with the Volturi I sort of felt a kinship towards her, but at the same time I could feel a major difference between us, it’s hard to put my finger on the difference I guess the way she is like the sun, she is light and I am like the moon…I am darkness…don’t get me wrong I am not evil. Its just that’s how I am. I wonder if Bella could see the difference in us well obviously she could because no people are alike especially Bella and I. I watched Bella’s liquid gold eyes, the same as Brian’s “I…I just want to find some place quiet.” I mumbled not answering her question directly, it was awkward until the small one moved closer to me “This is so exciting” Alice spoke out her voice was musical “Yeah…I finally get to see my son” I spoke quietly, it wasn’t because I wasn’t excited I was, but I was pretty much too tired “Oh…yeah that too” Alice spoke, the short Cullen had my curiosity “wait. Why are you excited” I asked her with my voice probably sounded questioning, not that I was paying attention. Bella and Rosalie answered in unison “shopping” I frowned and listened as Kate laughed, Alice had put one hand on her hip “what…well she is going to need some clothing I mean it’s not like she packed a bag to take with her.” Of course Alice had made a valid point I didn’t have any clothing here except what I was wearing now. I didn’t want to go shopping at least not at this moment, I just wanted to find Tobias and hug him and kiss him and tell him how much I loved him. “how about we go hunting” Alice suggested I nodded hunting sounded like a great distraction and I was really thirsty “that sounds good, I wouldn’t mind ripping open some throats” the three women just looked at me oddly, which gave me a flashback to high school it made me feel like the odd woman out “uh Sarah…we are vegetarians...we only feed on animals” Bella spoke softly, I blinked twice looking at them “you’re joking right” I asked and looked at them, the three females were quiet and I put the palm of my hand to my head I couldn’t help but think…Jesus Christ vegetarian vampires…you got to be kidding me...after that initial thought I couldn’t help, but get reminded of an old British Animated tv show I watched when I was younger it was called Count Duckula it was about a vegetarian vampire duck…yeah I know what you’re thinking and yeah I thought it was a shit show too. “fine…lets go hunt us some bambi…because after all why rid the streets of thugs when we can go orphan some baby deer’s” I complained, “I think you mean Fawns” Bella corrected me “Whatever” I retorted, seriously hunting animals….feeding off them I did not like it, why oh why couldn’t I think of a bullshit reason like the Jehovah witnesses and say feeding off of animals goes against my religious beliefs, just like it goes against my religious beliefs to vote…I honestly couldn’t believe this the four of us walked deep into the forest going to feed on some poor defenseless creature…we went through the forest walking the entire time Alice stayed by my side, my throat was burning agony we stopped when a deer came into view…it’s typical I knew it, it had to be a deer. I knew even in my weakened condition I could catch the peaceful creature, and it was thanks to Brian’s venom…before his venom the poison left me feeble and weaker than a human being…I am pretty sure I can get this deer. I began to run towards the deer, the beautiful creature had seen me and began to frolic away, I was ashamed to say I struggled, I ran after the creature as fast as I could, but I was sloppy I stumbled over and picked myself up, I ran and the scenery barely became a blur to me, how pathetic I couldn’t even catch a frolicking deer. I had fallen on my knees gasping “Damn it” I muttered. It was a second later Felix had appeared in front of me he had fallen from above like he was running on tree branches and jumped off to land in front of me, he was on one knee in front of me and had one hand on my shoulder “Sarah…are you ok” his voice was full of concern I had nodded my head “I am fine…where is Brian.” I asked him worried….Felix wouldn’t hurt Brian right….I mean Felix knows how much Brian meant to me, I could see a look of pain in Felix's eyes “He is going to find Tobias…prepare him for your meeting…I came to aid you in whatever you need assistance in.” I smiled at Felix as Bella and Alice approached “find me someone to feed off of please” Felix nodded as he helped me to my feet “I am no Heidi, but I will be back shortly Sarah” Felix was about to run off when Alice yelled stop and Felix did he didn’t even move “ If you hunted someone here you would bring to much attention to us after all Ocean Shores is a small town it’s population is only five thousand five hundred and sixty nine people. A death would bring up unwanted attention…besides Sarah the deer is closer, if you go after it, the sooner you can see Tobias” Alice had given her opinion personally I didn’t care about unwanted attention I was thirsty, but using my son…that was a low blow, I am starting to think this pixie is a little underhanded. “Fine get me the damn deer” I folded my arms. Felix had bolted off in a blur, and Bella had looked at me “Animals aren’t that bad really.” Bella had tried to reassure me, I felt bad for the fact an animal was about to die because of me. “you stick to you’re beliefs and I’ll stick to mine” I had spoken which surprised Bella “it’s wrong to kill people” I scoffed at Bella as my black eyes looked into her topaz liquid gold eyes “Humans aren’t exactly innocent creatures, they lie, they pollute the world and destroy the environment because of their own arrogance and the fact they value their own lives more than others…they kill for greed for lust, for sport…hell they kill for no reason at all…compare that to the deer over there, or any animal in general…they don’t set out to maliciously harm someone for no reason, they only hunt to survive.” I debated passionately and Bella seemed surprised at what I said as Felix returned with the dead deer “you value the lives of animals more than people” I don’t get why her voice sounded so surprised “Damn right I do” I retorted we looked at each other and the difference between us was huge. She probably believed in redemption that people could repent, but repentance bullshit…a murderer will always be a murderer, a thief will always be a thief, there is no magic time machines that can go back to the past and erase the sins we commit. The past is set in stone and it cannot be changed, it will always be there. I looked at the dead deer, Felix had held him out to me and I sighed taking the dead deer I felt it’s soft coat, it was still warm, I petted the dead deer and felt so guilty the fact this poor creature was dead, was because of me. I reluctantly sank my teeth into the dead deer and started drinking its blood, I felt the blood touch my tongue and wash down my throat, it was soothing to my throat, the blood tasted horrible though. I finished with the deer and panted “that tasted like crap” I mumbled, I had picked myself up feeling a little better and miraculously I hadn’t spilled a drop of blood on me, but then again it’s not really a miracle its more of a skill vampires soon gain…I am just that much of a proficient killer. I left Felix to deal with the remains of the deer and Alice helped me to the edge of the forest where the forest ended and the beach was across the road. The sun was almost set over the sea, the sky was dark, but mixed in with an orange kind of sky, it was beautiful in the distance I could see a beautiful teenage boy in the distance, his skin was a sort of like olive and Brown, he was beautiful he was standing there looking at the ocean, and I had one of those moments that if my heart was actually beating it would stop. I was so preoccupied I didn’t hear Brian come up from behind me. “Yes Sarah…it’s him” he spoke as if he was reading my mind. It was my son…he was so big, I stumbled back in shock and Brian had his arms around me, “I can’t do this…I have to leave.” I whispered in shock, I just couldn’t do it, how could I come into his life now…I thought I could make it up to him, sure I had missed out on a lot, and I thought at least I could see the rest…but looking at Tobias, I couldn’t explain it…he didn’t need me. Brian had his hands on my shoulders “what…no Sarah you can’t run…” he told me softly “you don’t understand…what if he hates me Brian, he should hate me…I am a terrible person… Brian…I am horrible, and I am a horrible mother…go tell him that you were playing some sick joke or something, I don’t know.” I spoke out upset; I wanted to cry so badly, Brian had shushed me “You and Tobias are a lot more alike than you think…I told him everything while you were hunting…the first thing he wanted to do was run, he was afraid that you would hate him.” I looked at Brian in shock I could never hate Tobias, even though I wasn’t a part of his life…I loved him so much it hurt. “I could never hate him” I whispered, I looked at Brian’s beautiful smile; god I hoped Tobias had that smile. “Well go and tell him that baby girl…our son is waiting for you” I kept my gaze on Brian “aren’t you coming with me” I asked him almost pleading he shook his head “as much as I want to baby girl…this is something you got to do on your own. I will stay here with Alice and the girls if you need me.” he spoke lowering his hands he pinched my butt and I scowled at him “oh yeah you will both defiantly get on like a house on fire.” I stomped on Brains foot hard and heard him cuss as I walked from him. I had crossed the street and my feet touched the sand, it felt nice having the squishy sand under my feet, the breeze was nice too. I had made it a few feet from Tobias and stopped as he turned around to look at me, I didn’t know what to say we just looked at each other in silence for what felt like a full five minutes. I had no idea what to say to him, its not like I could say hey son sorry I been absent most of your life, I sacrificed myself so you and your father could live a normal life…oh what’s you’re favorite color. I bit my bottom lip and I wondered what was going on in my son’s head “Will one of you say something already god damn it” Brian yelled out in the distance I turned my head to see Brian was still standing at where I left him and he was shaking his fist in the air, I scowled at him and saw Alice was laughing beside him “they really are the same” she spoke, I turned away from Brian to face my son and saw he was scowling at his father. I decided to give it a shot “uh sorry about you’re father…I have forgotten how troublesome he could be sometimes.” I spoke nervously “yeah you’re preaching to the choir mom.” He spoke back his voice was shaking with nerves, but I wasn’t paying attention to that at the moment. Tobias had called me mom….Mom, I had never heard such a beautiful word. I smiled at my son and he smiled back nervously “well there is ways to make him behave” I spoke softly, he looked at me curiously “how” he asked I loved how his voice sounded so curious so innocent, “easy all we need is a packet of fart bombs…we can stuff it in his car air condition before the bomb expands and blows up…that way whenever he turns on the air condition it will smell like something crawled into the car and died.” I looked at his expression “wait What…oh Hell no.” I heard Brian yell off in the distance. Tobias smiled and thank the heavens he had Brian’s smile “that is genius mom” he spoke softly he moved closer and I smiled it looked like I was winning his trust, “I haven’t even begun to pass on my knowledge and wisdom with you yet.” I told him my voice was barely louder than a whisper, damn my nerves. Tobias walked towards me and wrapped his arms around me, I gasped silently his skin was so soft and smooth, and warm, he was pale, but not like Brian or myself. I wrapped my arms around him “I always wanted to know you mom” he spoke “I always wanted to know you more Tobias” I spoke and wrapped my arms around him, I never wanted this moment to end, because to have my son’s arms around me. I could feel the eyes of Brian, Felix and the girls watching me and I pulled back from my son’s hug “how about we for a little walk along the beach…” We had walked away out of prying eyes and spoken, I didn’t tell Tobias much, I kept it to the truth as much as possible, telling him I had to leave for his own safety, to my surprise Brian had told Tobias about the Volturi just claiming they were evil collectors who collected special vampires with abilities, Tobias had made me promise never to leave him again and I promised him that I would always be with him. Eventually Tobias had to go to bed as it was 9pm and past his bed time, I had to argue with that I told Brian 8:30 pm is a bullshit bed time and let him stay up a little longer, to my surprise he disagreed and told Tobias to go to bed. I had stayed with my son answering as many questions as I could until he fell asleep. Tobias had asked me things like, what sort of music did I like and books. I answered my son and hugged kissed his forehead after he fell asleep and made sure he was an adorable boy…Brian did such a wonderful job with him, I honestly can’t wait for Tobias to wake up. ~Sarah
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Topic: One last time…one more time, will I put it all on the line.
Date:??? Dear Diary It feels like forever since I have last seen sunlight and experienced it’s beauty…even though I am more of a rainy day girl…I miss the light, the scent of the air where now I am forced to breathe and smell dank and stale air. I miss the way the wind would blow life into me, and I missed the flames of passion. I miss the rainy weather the way its cold drops would fall on me, the way the rainy sky blocked out the sun…the way it reminded me there was beauty in everything. I had missed the grass running barefoot on the sand and grass I missed being with him….I had forbidden myself to even say his name and if possible, to even think of him…ever since I got my memory back that was impossible even when I was in one of those whacked out day dreams I thought of him…I saw him, I touched him and I kissed him and I never let him go. We would spend eternity in each other’s embrace where my skin would shiver with anticipation and excitement, and there would be this excitement in my heart this beautiful and loving excitement. As I sat feebly in the corner filthy and covered in dirt, I moved my pale hands over my heart at this moment I felt that feeling of love and anticipation just from thinking about him, I had missed him badly and I ached without him…I sometimes wonder was it so bad to have amnesia…I didn’t know Brian, I didn’t have that aching feeling to be in his arms for eternity…I didn’t have that curious feeling inside me wondering what my son was like and who he took after....what his voice sounded like. I wondered what his favorite color was, what his favorite book was and movie…his favorite animal and musician…please tell me its not Justin Beiber….no the Brian I remember may have been an overgrown child, but he isn’t incompetent I believe he is truly a wonderful parent, there is no way he would allow that to happen. I breathed the stale air in softly if I could have Brian and Tobias in my arms for one minute….just one minute I would die a happy woman. Keeping my hand over my heart I heard a chuckle and looked up to see no one, “who’s there” I asked quietly looking around, I couldn’t see anyone all I saw was darkness and the walls “you’re the second person to ask me my name today, I must say I do feel loved…I have many names Sarah, how about you call me Vlad anyway enough about me…how do you feel” he asked, it was honestly a stupid question if I could see this idiot and even had the strength to move I would strangle him. “I feel like shit” I answered quietly, “You look like shit too” he responded amused “well fuck you very much” I retorted dryly. The laughter echoed around he room “you’re feisty… I like feisty woman” he sounded so amused, I rolled my eyes “so Vlad…tell me are you real or not” “do you often question you’re sanity?” he answered me with a question “Do you always answer a question with a question” I retorted “do you” he responded right after me, ok I found that highly annoying and as if this mysterious Vlad read my mind he spoke in a soft voice like silk “You’re annoyed…well Sarah I can’t blame you, this isn’t exactly Romania” he spoke to me, I chose not to say anything at all, I didn’t have the strength to keep arguing with a figment of my imagination. For a full five minutes there was silence “I am serious now Sarah…how are you” the voice spoke this time there was concern in the voice. I was surprised. “I am thirsty…so very thirsty it feels like the sun is in my throat burning me over and over…I feel weak and I hurt…it’s agony, but what’s worse than all of this…I miss my soul mate…I miss my son.” Thinking of those two its more than agony, I was so close to him…and then after years of being apart we were separated…did I honestly think I could run away with him to spend eternity with just him and my son…I am such a fool and as soon as those thoughts echoed my head, the voice had spoken out “it’s never foolish to want to be with the ones you love Sarah…it’s difficult now, but if you have faith maybe…just maybe things will work out for the best” the words were sincere, but to be honest as much as I wanted to believe this Vlad voice…I just can’t I am too tired to fight…to tired to believe if I was a human I could have slept for a thousand years and still I would be too tired to keep fighting. Naturally I decided to avoid responding to that comment and asked him a logical question “why can’t I see you.” Perhaps it should have been the first question, but in my defense I am bat crazy these days…seeing things I just assumed this voice was another unwelcome symptom of my madness, but I am starting to suspect differently. The voice was silent, and I began to feel frustration when he finally answered me “because I have no body...at least not in this current location. I am here with you in spirit.” I raised an eyebrow and lowered my hands from my heart “ok Casper…so you’re here in spirit but why me…why speak to me.” I really wished I could see this guy, because it’s annoying not being able to see whom I am talking to…I wanted to know what this Vlad person looked like and see him…If I could see his eyes, see the way he stood in front of me then maybe I could get to know if he was menacing or not…hell I would know if he was real or not. “Are you going to answer me?” I asked him curious if he was still here. “I tell you what Sarah I shall answer you’re question if you answer mine first…do you agree to these terms” he asked me his voice was easy going and slightly annoying. “ok fine…ask your bloody question” I spoke softly and instantly the voice known as Vlad asked me “tell me about the one you called Brian…when you think of him…what is it you feel, what comes to your mind.” the question was a surprise and when I heard his name…I cringed in pain, because I missed him so. Hearing his name made me think about of course…the comfortable hugs, the embraces we shared, the good times we had. “Brian and I were destined to meet, we both found each other in the darkest part of our lives…we found love. I was scared I wasn’t used to kindness and love, to be honest, I thought I didn’t deserve love…I can’t speak for Brian, but being with him was the best time of my life…I miss him with all of my heart and I will love him for eternity…I have never been happier than when I was with him because he saved me from myself.” I answered him. “I knew you were going to say that.” Leaning my head back I rested it on the wall “then why did you ask me Vlad” I felt frustrated that this imaginary voice was annoying the crap out of me “Knowing something and hearing something are two different things…I knew you loved Brian, but hearing you speak of that love…is something else.” I seriously couldn’t understand…I have a theory being deprived of blood, poisoned and being kept in darkness for fuck knows long has made me nuttier than a squirrel’s turd. I waited for an answer, but there wasn’t the door opened and a dim light could be seen I saw the shadow of a figure “Who are you talking to Sarah” I recognized the voice “Can’t you hear him Felix…he speaks to me and haunts me. He annoys me.” I told him, Felix walked closer towards me and I noticed he seemed to be carrying a white dress in his hand, he crouched next to me “Sarah, there is no one here…and no other voices you have been speaking to yourself all this time” I shouldn’t have been surprised, I knew I was crazy, but still I was a little disappointed. Felix began speaking, but I didn’t hear him all I heard was Vlad “awww you like me” he taunted me, hearing his voice made me feel annoyed “shut up” Felix looked at me “Sarah….you had to have known this was coming…I am sorry if I could do something…anything to stop it I would.” He spoke his voice sounding broken, I watched Felix confused Felix was my guardian, my teacher and friend…even now he had treated me decent “what are you talking about.” I asked my voice clearly confused “Sarah…your execution is today…I am sorry.” his voice broke and he looked down, I was In shock…I knew this was coming…of course I betrayed Marcus, the Volturi hell I even killed two of them and one of them was Aro’s play thing. “Oh” was all that came out of my mouth; I looked down for a moment. And looked at Felix “Sarah…Knowing you has been an honor…I just wish it didn’t have to be this way...you were an incredible friend.” Felix stood up and turned from me, it was painful to watch…even now he cared about me…Felix you were a very good friend and protector…After Felix closed the door I picked myself up with a struggle and removed the filthy attire I had on putting on the beautiful white dress made me smile, it was good to wear something new…not that I am shallow like that, I don’t know I just felt comforting. After leaning onto the wall I slided down on it and leaned on it to sit up hours had passed by and I just waited for death. I spent this time thinking about a lot of things, how short my life truly been…wondering why I wasn’t afraid…I decided to try and talk to Vlad, sure he was just a figment of my imagination, but he made things easier. “The final hours of my immortality…I know I should feel fear, for I face the unknown…instead I feel relief because soon…I will finally be free, since regaining my memory…no long before that since the Volturi broke Brian and I apart I have felt like a caged bird watching the world from behind these caged bars…as I look towards that door I know that even though my life….my world has been darkness and suffering and god the pain I have endured soon I can spread my wings and fly” It was right after that the door had opened and there he stood. My friend…Felix he walked into the room and as he did, I saw Aro behind him “come Sarah everyone is waiting for you’re trial” he spoke, I knew this was bullshit there was no trial this was an execution an act of retribution for betraying the Volturi and killing two of their guards…I laughed bitterly for a moment “Hah don’t you mean execution” I spoke in retort to him Felix had picked me up as Aro remained silent, Felix had carried me out of the dungeon and closed my eyes. When I had opened my eyes I could see I was in the underground car park where Felix placed me in the back of the limo, I sat there with Sulpicia sitting opposite of me, Aro climbed in and Felix slammed the door shut and climbed into the drivers side, the limo began to move “well you’re braver than I thought Aro..not having any guards to protect you from me on this little trip” my voice had sounded like I was tired, like I was feeble…I didn’t like it, Aro had responded “you do not even have the strength to walk…you are no threat…not anymore.” I hated to admit it, but he was right…I was weak. it turned out, I was never strong…just a fool, there was a bump on the road and I struggled to stay seated. “Are you just going to give up Sarah?” Vlad had finally spoken again, I closed my eyes and sighed choosing not to respond “Brian…he believes in you…stay strong for him” Vlad spoke trying to reach me, the thing is…Brian wasn’t here and even if he was…I am so tired…so very tired of trying to be something I’m not, I was never strong…I was never a fighter. The limo came to a stop I listened to the door open as Felix climbed out, there was a loud thud moments later and the sound of broken glass, the front part of the limo rocked and another thud sound was made. Within seconds of the second thud the limo door was ripped from it’s hinges and to my shock Brian leaned in, Aro moved towards Brian only to be punched in the face, the punch had knocked Aro though limo’s closed door and out of the Limo. Brian picked me up and carried me out of the Limo “No one is roasting my baby girl” he spoke, I smiled looking at him he stood tall and proud he was a man…so powerful and beautiful. I hid my face in his chest and I don’t know how, but I could feel him smile, and I knew I was right, because I looked up at him and saw that loveable grin on his face. “You should have left me Brian.” I told him weakly, he looked down with me, and I felt something…it was comfort. “yo baby girl…for once let me save you ok...” he spoke, god I loved the sound of his voice. “you should flee Brian, fighting is pointless…let me die…let the madness end with me” I begged him, I could feel his grip tighten on me “I was meant to give you a message Sarah…at the time, I wasn’t sure if I should, because you fought so many battles that were not yours to fight…but now hearing you speaking like this like you have given up…that’s not you Sarah…listen if you don’t like the hand fate has dealt you…fight for a better hand, always fight for one and never give up.” Brian’s words reached me…I was still weak, I knew that much, but something else was going on inside me…a fire, a burning fire…the kind I usually felt when I was inspired. “Brian, can you hurry up, this dude is hard to hold down.” I looked at the direction of the voice and I saw this giant muscular guy holding Felix down, the guy seemed to have dimples and golden eyes “Sorry Emmett” Brian replied, I had looked ahead and saw in front of us were a stack of strange vampires I had never seen before…apart from Carmen and Eleazar whom I met before I had gained amnesia… when they visited the kings…and beside them was the two that was with Brian when last I saw him. Two unknown vamps had run past Brian and I and picked up Aro and tossed him into Caius, I was impressed with the vampire’s strength, I wondered who he was…he had golden honey blond hair, he was muscular, but lean unlike the guy who had Felix pinned. The second vampire was a female, she was beautiful looking at her made my self esteem drop fifty points “Look who I have” she spoke holding Sulpicia “that’s my Rose” The one known as Emmett spoke while holding Felix pinned, The man with the honey blond hair who had tossed Aro into Caius assisted Emmett in holding Felix down”thanks Jazz” Emmett had spoken In the front lines was a female, with brown hair, beside her I could see the back of a man that has bronze hair even with my weakened sense I could hear her speak “Edward…I’ll be fine…you have to let them know” she spoke, A man with short blond hair, and a woman with caramel hair walked beside the girl, the short blond haired man spoke “It’s ok Edward we will protect her while you’re gone…go now my son” the man’s voice was so kind, I don’t remember hearing anyone that pure “Carlisle….Esme thank you” and with that he left, he ran towards us past the other vampires who stood behind the two females and blond man .”What are you waiting for…take Sarah and run” Felix yelled while Emmett and this Jazz person held him down…Felix even now he cares about me “Brian…Felix is one of the good guys don’t hurt him please.” I pleaded quietly. A small pixie like female popped out from no where “Sarah’s right…Jasper, Emmett let him go, he won’t hurt us…I have seen it” she spoke, I looked at the female…she was like a pixie. “Ok Alice” the Jasper spoke, he and Emmett let go and Edward joined us “Brian we have to leave….Now, Bella can’t hold up the shield anymore…She is getting attacks from Alec and Jane at the same time and she is protecting too many of us.” Brian held me tight in his arms “Brian…let me down…I am going to end this once and for all.” My beautiful man was holding me even tighter, I loved how tight he held me “no Sarah, I didn’t go through all this to loose you again…this time you are coming home with me…to see our son.” He spoke with determination “Brian…you awakened something inside me…let me fight with you for a better future too…not just for us, but for everyone..” Brian reluctantly lowered me and Felix came to my side I smiled at him, he was betraying the Volturi for me…he was a splendid friend. “What’s you’re plan Sarah” he asked “I am going to the front lines…I am going to help out the one called Bella…Felix...you will lead the evacuation of everyone who is helping Brian and his friends…Brian…Take Sulpicia from the blond…when I call for you, bring Sulpicia…we are going to make a trade.” I spoke with determination “Feisty Sarah returns” Vlad spoke in my head, it was different this time, when he spoke before it was like he was in the room with me, this time it was like he was in my head like a thought only it was in his voice not mine. I had kissed Brian on the lips and smiled “Ok baby girl…lets end this now, so we can go home to our son.” I breathed in deeply and let the air out, I walked towards the one known as Bella she was a distance and I remembered thinking to myself I wouldn’t be able to walk all that way, and then I felt someone grab my arm and wrap it around his neck, when I saw who it was, it was the guy with bronze hair “If you need help all you need to do is ask” I wondered who the hell he was, “thank you” I spoke softly and I noticed his crooked grin ok I admit it was kind of cute. We walked together; well the bronze haired guy supported me a great deal until we made it to Bella he lowered my arm and I looked at Bella, she was beautiful and radiant. “Hello…my name is Sarah Frost” I spoke, Bella had moved her head slightly to look at me I could see concentration on her face, she had the look of struggle…like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. “Hello Sarah…my name is Bella Cullen” I smiled “I would shake your hand, but it’s taking everything I have to block out Jane and Alec…I can’t hold it for much longer.” She sounded so friendly and pure…I looked at Bella and I saw her as Light, and then when I look at myself I saw myself as darkness. “Let me share you’re struggle Bella” I spoke softly to her. Bella seemed confused even as I grabbed her hand and held it. I closed my yes and began to pant, I was so tired but I managed to it concentrated on inspiring Bella, and strengthening her power. I fell to my knees at Bella’s feet still holding her hands “Sarah” I heard in the distance “no…Not….yet” I panted, Bella gasped and she panted along with me “what’s going on” the one with the heart shaped face and caramel hair spoke “Sarah…she has the ability to inspire others and supercharge their abilities as a side affect if she has any…she is strengthening Bella.” Edward informed her. “I…I can’t believe it I feel so strong” Bella spoke she sounded like a lot of that struggle had been removed. Thanks to my assistance. “What are you waiting for…Get them” Aro yelled, “Brian now.” I spoke out, I looked up to Edward and let go of Bella’s hand, I had used up pretty much all the energy I could to help her with…if only I wasn’t so weak. I looked at Edward and he helped me to my feet, this wasn’t good we still had too many of Brian’s friends around. Before I knew it, Brian was at my side holding Sulpicia. I had pulled Sulpicia out of Brian’s arms and had my arm around her neck “now Aro what was that you were saying about me not being a threat…Tell Jane and Alec to stop now and halt your men…or I will destroy her.” I threatened exhausted as I was. Aro said nothing and then I did something that surprised me I sank my teeth into Sulpicia’s neck and started feeding on her venom. The taste of venom was disgusting, but I would need lots of venom to battle the poison that was weakening me constantly. Sulpicia was shaking and shrieking, Athenodora watched with horror and Aro yelled “Ok stop…Jane, Alec…everyone stopped” at that moment everyone had halted, “I can’t feel their attacks on the barrier, Bella had spoken while watching me in shock” I pulled away from Sulpicia’s neck “Brian…can you get those two who assisted you previously to get the rest out of here” Brian had looked at me and I cringed feeling Sulpicia’s venom burn inside me, I held onto the bitch tighter than before. “Sarah if I do that we are going to be out numbered” Brian didn’t need to tell me this, I knew we would be “it won’t be a problem Brian…Aro knows if he makes any sudden movements, I’ll kill Sulpicia without hesitation.” Brian had sighed “Kate…Garrett take the next group out of here…” I knew I should have been focusing on the situation, but man is Brian sexy when he is bossing people around. With the next group gone things were getting intense “Aro we stand here before you’re witnesses, members of you’re guard…my friends and my mate…If you give me you’re word you will never come after me or anyone else who stood against you today…and you allow us to leave safely…then I shall give you Sulpicia…Give me you’re word Aro and I will give you you’re sweet Sulpicia.” I spoke softly with a smile on my face, I already had planned everything “You have my word….that we will not hunt you down or oppose you if you give me Sulpicia.” He spoke sounding furious As soon as Aro had spoken that I had ripped off Sulpicia’s head from her neck and kicked her body to the ground, Aro had screamed in unimaginable pain and I held Sulpicia’s head by her hair and smiled “KILL THEM ALL” he yelled, I raised a finger “you forget your vow Aro, I swore I would hand you Sulpicia….and so I have, I never stated in what condition I would give her to you…you on the other hand swore to leave us in peace and not attack us” I reminded him. Aro looked down “let them go” he knew he couldn’t break his vow not in front of his own witnesses or his reputation would be shattered. I could hear cheers from behind me, as the remaining witnesses on Brian’s side rejoiced. Brian wrapped his hands around me “Lets go home baby girl” I kissed Brian still holding onto Sulpicia’s head “Yeah, but first.” I had no intentions of letting Sulpicia pull herself together again, the bitch was as good as dead. We had all left the monastery and cliffs, everyone was chatting, while I was carried in Brian’s arms Holding Sulpicia’s head “what are you going to do with that” Brian asked me. “I am going to have it stuffed and put on display at home of course” I spoke sarcastically, Brian looked at me worried and I smiled, looking to Brian’s side I saw Felix…he had abandoned the Volturi and joined us…for me, he is an amazing friend I chucked Sulpicia’s head at him and he caught it “burn it” I told him. After a few miles of being carried we arrived to four cars, everyone had climbed in, Brian sat in the back seat and I on his lap. He stroked my hair “I can’t believe this is real….finally we are together again” he spoke softly the blond had climbed in to sit next to Brian “Hello Sarah…my name is Rosalie, I have been looking forward to meeting you” The big muscular one climbed into the front seat “come on babe, she has just been reunited with her boyfriend…give her some time before you try to pimp her son out onto our niece” I was honestly confused “Brian…I think the poison has fried my brain…do they want to pimp out my ten year old son.” I asked him feeling furious, “the poison that reminds me…is there any cure.” I nodded and answered him “the venom of another vampire…my venom is not enough to burn it out of my system…I need the venom of another to burn it out.” Brian put his wrist to my mouth “then have mine” he spoke, I looked at him and saw that beautiful smile I kissed his wrist “Later on…right now, just hold me in your arms…please” I asked him, Brian held me as tight as he could, I buried my face in his chest and at last I knew….I was finally free with my life ahead of me. ~Sarah Frost |
InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
March 2012
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