I loathe the little dwarf
Date: June 20 th, 2009 Dear Diary been too busy with training to write entries, but I need to say this, Jane is one sick twisted bitch and I am going to take her down hard and slow. I am going to make her suffer agony. After admiring my new room, Marcus came and escorted me to the main hall where we waited for Demetri & Jane to return with dinner. Hiding in the shadows, the doors opened and a group of humans came, each in different shapes and sizes and different age groups of course. I could feel my throat burning the thirst was incredible, each moment I waited the burning only became more and more unberable. I watched the humans, eying the fat one, he looked very plump and delicious. "I call dibs on the fat one." Felix said, "Like hell you do, the fat one is mine." I answered. Felix looked at me as I looked at him "fine then this means its a contest." Felix said excitedly, I shrugged, "no real contest you are going to lose either way" I answered casually. Marcus chuckled as his arms were wrapped around me and he held me from behind. The doors locked and we slowly showed ourselves to the humans, Jane made the first move as she jumped down and tackled a human and I felt torrents of wind blow past me as the vampires moved with their inhuman speed. I watched Felix run towards my human and found myself moving as my hunting instincts kicked in, I could see Felix closing in towards the human, I ran behind him and then changed my course to get to the side of him, I thought about the Side Step lesson he gave me and moved my right leg and pivoted to get in front of Felix he was surprised and I smiled feeling rather cocky. My hands touched Felix firm muscular chest as I pushed him back with force, He slided acrossed the ground impressed and I turned my back on him to feed on the human the victory was mine. I sunk my fingers into the skin of the human my nails cuting into the flesh only allowed the human's scent of blood to fill the air and intoxicate me with the warm enticing scent it was incredible. I let go of the human and sat on his stomach and leaned out as i took a bite out of his cheek and spat out the cheek. The human screamed in agony as blood shot out all over my face, I leaned down and started to suck the blood from the cheek ignoring the screams of terror. I don't think I enjoy hearing people suffer, I am not a sociopath like Jane. I feel remorse sometimes, but I move on because there is no point in looking back. I continued to feed off the human, I imagine he would be suffering from my venom rather than the bite to the cheek. We vampires are poisionous creatures you know, we are like scorpions or snakes once infected with our venom your pretty much screwed. The humans heart beat slowled down, going very, very slow until it stopped. I had drained off of this humans blood and moved on to the next prey. The meal was eventually over Aro and Caius left with their wives while Marcus went to get changed. Felix came to me and complimented me on the use of the Sidestep move he taught me and he even admitted that he would never of thought to use side step to invade the opponents personal space and launch an attack. I smiled sheepishly at Felix and told him he was a great teacher. I asked if I could help clean up and Jane said "Make yourself useful" after tossing me a human. I slammed the human corpse to the ground, Jane looked at me with hatred in her eyes and I glared at her I was about to take the female hobbit down when I heard Felix yell "GIRLS!" Demetri returned and asked what he missed, he was hopeful Jane and I got into a smackdown, let me just say this the female Hobbit would have lost, not because I am learning how to fight from Felix, but because I was dying to resume our little fight after the whole Royal flush incident back at Brian's. Demetri was disappointed when Felix told him nothing happened. Alec who had been beside Jane encouraged her to go with him and start cleaning up, I refused to let the Hobbit out do me, so I gathered as many human corpes as possible putting them into a pile it was totally easy. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw a small dead girl holding a dolly she looked to be just a little older than Jayne, her white dress was stained in her own blood and I frowned concentrating on the poor child. She did not even have a chance in life, in some ways I envyed the child in other ways I pitied her...kind of absurd I know. I watched as Jane took notice of the child and her dolly, she approched the deceased human child and took the dolly, it seemed Jane wanted another doll for her collection it then occured to me that there is an extremely good chance that Jane has killed that many children in the past to have those dolls. The thought of that infuriated me, I got into a crouching stance and growled in anger, I wanted to take the Hobbit down make her feel a world of pain..pehaps shave her head so she would be bald for all of eternity. Demetri noticed me and started to growl back, he was protective of the sociopathic Hobbit, Felix and Alec laughed at our stand off and I waited, I just needed Jane to lower her guard. Jane held the doll and licked off the blood from the doll, the hobbit bitch was tormenting me now. A smile came onto the Hobbit's face as she walked towards me with the doll and pressed the doll to my face, I could smell the human child's blood and surpressed a groan of desire "whats the matter? are you scared of the scary doll?" she asked. Jane pressed the doll against my cheek and made kissing sounds, now was the time to strike, she had lowered her guard and with one simple punch I had sent the Hobbit flying all the way back to last Halloween where the freak belonged. Alec was fast he ran and actually caught the hobbit like she was a football, needless to say I was disappointed he caught her. I prepared myself to feel the agony of Jane's gift, I knew the Hobbit was too much of a coward to fight it out one on one with no gifts, So I waited. Jane instead jumped out of Alec's arms and landed close to me she came closer to me and I was ready to send the bitch flying again when she kissed my cheek and whispered " Time my dear, Time." she turned her back and walked to Alec then left with the doll Felix looked at me and spoke "it is unwise to pick a fight with Jane, she is one of the Voltori's strongest weapons." I told Felix that I did not care, someone had to put the hobbit in her place. I watched as the child burned, in a way it was unbearable to see such a thing, the poo,r poor girl. I turned away and Felix wrapped an arm around me, "are you alright Sarah." I said nothing and left the hall, I could not help it, I ran out and was so focused on escaping I did not notice myself running directly into Marcus, The vampire king caught me and held me in his arms. I closed my eyes and felt Marcus embrace, he held me close. "Sarah, my love, what is wrong." I told him it was nothing and asked when we were going out, Marucs told me in these exact words. "Soon my pet soon, I need to speak to Felix first about our trip into the city, go on my pet, go to your room and get dressed you will find suitable attire accquired to you're taste on your desk chair." I opened my eyes and looked at Marcus he had a smile on his face, I nodded my head and returned to my room. I closed the door behind me and sighed, my back leaned against the door as I slided down and sat on the ground, I could not get the image of the dead girl out of my head. I heard another set of footsteps followed by a voice, "Felix I was just about to look for you, do you have any idea what is wrong with Sarah." Marcus said, "no master Marcus, Sarah was fine, but then Jane pushed her button and Sarah attacked Jane...she helped us clean up and then she saw a human female child among the corpses. I don't understand what happened to her master." Felix spoke confused, there was a silence for a moment and Marcus spoke " Sarah had a child before her child with Brian, Aro told me the child is a female named Jayne." I fely my heart break as Marcus spoke about my daughter, I hate thinking of them...Jayne, Tobias & Brian its just too painful, but it's not as painful as it used to be. "I will need to speak to Aro about Jane again, pehaps have Jane sent out on that mission we were discussing, anyway Felix get Chelsea and Alec the four of us will be taking Sarah to town, I wish to spoil her a little." Felix said nothing else and walked away, I picked myself up and walked to my desk chair and looked at the dress Marcus had got me it was black and went down all the way to my ankles, I don't normally wear dresses, but this was beautiful it was so elegant. I removed my cloak and necklace with the Voltori crest and place the black sleaveless dress over my training outfit remembering Felix's request. I waited in my room and turned on my laptop I found there was no Internet, but there was a lot of songs on the laptop a lot of the songs I loved, I was amazed for a while Marcus really did his homework on me. Some of the songs on my laptop were Down- Dave Days Numb - Linkin Park her name is Alice - Shinedown ours - the Bravery I turned off the laptop and walked to my guitar and picked it up, I tuned it in and played a melody it probably wasn't that good. i stopped when I heard footsteps walking down the hall. I placed the guitar down at the corner and waited in front of the door. I watched as the door opened and smiled to see who was standing there. ~Sarah frost
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wow the royal treatment is not bad
Date: June 14th, 2009 Dear Diary Right after my last entry I waited for Marcus to return, yet he did not, the feeling of being watched stuck with me, it began to feel smothering. "Who are you and why stalk me?" I finally asked from out of the doorway, she stepped out, a female. The female looked at me as I examined her, what she wore, she had on a black long sleave top and blue jeans she wore the standard red Voltori cloak that they seemed to wear she also had a necklace on with the Voltori Crest. "Who are you?" I asked her, the female's crimson red eyes glared at me for a moment and then planted a smile on her face. "I am Chelsea, Master Aro and Master Marcus decided that it is in best interest for Felix and I to protect you." I was confused, "What would I need protection from Chelsea?" I asked keeping my voice calm. Chelsea walked towards me and sat on the bed, "you are to be the wife of Master Marcus, you will be his queen you need protection." I looked at her "you are avoiding the question Chelsea, I asked what did I need protection from, not why." I answered, annoyed. Chelsea was quiet for a moment "very well, the Voltori have many enemies. The Romanian coven, the Cullen coven...your old lover Brian Jacobson, anyone of them could try to harm you, to weaken the guard, your still a newborn, you have no skills in combat and your gift is not an offensive one, you are completely vulnerable to attack, so that is why Felix and I will protect you...If you excuse me now Sarah, my shift is almost over and I have one more thing to do before my shift ends, but do not fret Felix will be here shortly." Chelsea said. Chelsea stood up and walked out of the room and left me alone. Felix eventually came to the room and knocked at the door, he looked at me and I could see that smile on his face "hello, happy meal!" I looked at felix confused and notice a box in his arms. "Happy meal?" I asked confused, and Felix told me it was a nickname Jane had given me. "That evil dwarf is gonna pay dearly for the nickname" I answered. Felix walked towards the bed and smiled he handed me the box, "here you go kid." I looked at him and opened the box to see a black tank top and skin tight pants. I looked at Felix confused "you will wear this for me when we train and under your normal garments." I raised an eyebrow, "ok, uh thank you Felix this is a thoughtful gift." I said and I actually felt affection. Again It was strange and unnatural for me to feel this way, but I shrugged off the feeling and Felix petted my head "it is as today's youth would say no problemo. Will you try it on for me now, I could assist you in trying it on if you need it" he asked me looking hopeful. I bit my lip for a moment not sure what to say, normally I would have smacked the guy upside the head and tell him to fuck off, but I still kept feeling strange, I know I should be mad, but I am not, I should be overwhelmingly sad, but I am not. I feel at peace for some reason and it makes no fucking sense to me. Its like all the loyalty to Brian and Tobias I feel is slowly fading away, and I am getting attached to my captors...its like stockhome syndrome. Felix waited for an answer and I told him I would be fine and asked him to leave the room for a moment. "As you wish Sarah." he said and walked out of the room and closed the door behind him. I removed the ruined clothing and stood in the room naked for a moment, I sighed quietly and looked at my arm, I was shocked to see little bite marks on my arm and remembered Brian telling me Tobias bit me too. I sighed and rubbed Tobias bite mark (moma misses her baby) I thought to myself and began to dress in the skin tight black top and the black skin tight pants. I examined myself and saw this outfit only made my breasts stand out more, Felix entered the room and looked at me with the outfit on he seemed pleased. "My, my, may I say how well the outfit suits you Sarah." I looked at Feix and thanked him "it is time for us to train, follow me Sarah" he said and I nodded following after him, leaving my cloak and jewelery behind. Felix and I walked into the great hall and I looked around to see only Alec was here, the evil dwarf must be off torturing animals or something. I thought to himself. Felix stepped in front of me and I watched him remove his cloak and his shirt exposing his perfect chest, I looked away for a moment and heard him say "you just lowered your guard...do not look away from your oppoenent." he said his voice was smug, he knew why I looked away, the tone in his voice allowed me to guess that and seeing him stretch and flex his muscles made me know that he knew why I looked away. "Listen up Sarah, in our first lesson I taught you beginner movements and how to make a fist. Today I will be teaching you many things, one of them will be how to evade, your goal will be to punch my chest, you cannot stop until you punch my chest understand." I nodded my head and heard him command me to come at him. I ran at Felix as fast as I could and threw a punch aimed at was chest. My fist hit the empty air where Felix chest was formerly standing. I was in shock to see that he had vanished from my sight in an instant. I felt something tap me from behind and I turned to see Felix standing behind me with a smug grin on his face. I threw another punch at me and he vanished like the wind again. He tapped me on the back again and this was repeated for hours constantly. I was panting exhausted as I looked at Felix in awe, he was so huge, like a giant, but he had the ability to just vanish like that. "How did you do that, is that a gift you have.?" I asked curiously. Felix shook his head "No, this is an evasive technique that gives off the illusion of vanishing. The key to this technique is how you move your feet, see the right foot which I stepped forward with becomes the back foot after using it to pivot my body, see its like this." Felix walked arround to stand in front of me, I watched as he moved his right leg back and then shifting his weight to get over to the side of me. Felix spoke again "you quickly use your footing to get around the side of your opponent, you intentionally leave your upper body in place until the last moment and by quickly pivoting away you can avoid your opponent's attack" I was in shock at Felix, this was an incredible move, one that could actually save me in a fight. Felix petted my head messing up my hair, "pehaps it is asking too much of you to try and punch me, lets work this in reverse. also remember this, always wait till the last moment to do this technique, if you use it too soon it won't work, because the opponent will see you change course." I tried to decipher what he meant by that and found myself getting punched in the stomach, I gasped for air. "I told you not to let your guard down Sarah, FOCUS." He emphised on focus and I nodded moving back to get distance between us. Felix came at me again and his attack landed, it took me one hundred tries until I finally managed to learn how to do this evasive movement, the foot work was indeed very tricky. "Now it's time for phase two of this evasive technique, to turn it into offensive, come at me Sarah." I looked at him as he spoke "Fuck that!" I said not wanting to get hit, "SARAH!" he yelled and I sighed. I ran to Felix and watched as he pivoted to the side as I ran past him. Felix took one extra step forward his foot in front of my foot tripping me and I felt him push me with his body slamming me into the ground hard. "This is step two of the evasive move, I call it a combo, step 1 is evasive, step two is what I just did to you. I pivoted to the side and as you went past me I took one extra step forward and pushed you to the ground with my body, once that is down I return to stance, so it looks like I have done nothing." I got up slowly feeling drained of energy. Felix lifted me up into his arms and smiled "so the defensive becomes an offensive," I nodded still in shock I could never imagine this giant man would be so fast and sneaky. "So does this evasive technique and offensive move have a name?" I asked. Felix nodded "the evasive technique is called a 'Side Step', because you are basicly stepping to the side, while the offensive is called Body Slam seeing as you are using your body strength and your opponents momentium to slam the opponent into the ground." I listened to Felix. Felix placed me down and decided to allow me to try the body slam move on him, he seemed to be enjoying himself even though I was using him as a punching bag. Eventually I had enough and Felix lifted me up into his arms and held me close to his chest. I decided I would need to practice these moves a lot, it could end up saving me someday. I found my thirst becoming unbareable when Felix held me my eyes were pitch black. "Alec find Jane, tell her to fetch Sarah some humans." Alec nodded and left while Felix carried me to Marcus's bedroom. "You know I am fine to walk." I said, as my throat continued to blaze, as if someone had poured oil down my throat and then lit a match. Felix grinned "I insist on carrying you, you did well today learning two moves it is indeed impressive, Happy meal." I growled "don't call me that" and Felix chuckled, "as you wish....Sarah." Felix walked me into Marcus' room and sat me on the bed. I sat there and sighed quietly while Felix picked up my cloak and came to me, he slipped it over me and tied the rope of the cloak around my neck my face was inches from his chest, I could not help, but think that he was getting this close to me on purpose. Felix finished and stepped back as Marcus returned and smiled he seemed happy. Marcus kissed me on the lips. He pulled back and picked me up. "I have a surprise for you my love." Marcus carried me out of the room and two doors down from his room he opened the door and I was shocked to see the beauitiful room there, it was still in a dungeon based room like everyone elses, But there was a nice blue carpet and there was a guitar in one corner and a keyboard piano in another corner. In the center of the wall was a flat screen TV that was on a shelf with a dvd player, near the door was a desk with a laptop computer and a wardrobe dresser beside it. "Once Jane returns with lunch, Chelsea, Felix, Alec and myse lf will take you shopping. I went to Marcus and hugged him tightly. Marcus placed his hands on my ass "I am glad you like it, Aro gave me pointers." Felix left to check on what was taking Jane and Demetri so long, and Marcus left to go and talk to Caius and Aro. I went to my room to fetch you and do some writing in you before Jane returns with my meal.....I just realised something I can use this laptop to find Brian....thats if I get internet access on the computer. ~Sarah WTF
Date: June 13th, 2009 Dear Diary I regained my strength, four hours after Marcus left me to go meet with some guard member named Chelsea. I could not believe just how weakened I was, the hours of pain Jane inflicted on me, it was insane, after I regained my strength I left Marcus' room and started to explore my new prison. I found myself feeling really worried...I think someone was following me, but when I looked around I was completely alone. I walked around for a while until I came across Felix in his room; it was completely empty with the exception of him and a wooden stool. I knocked on his door softly so I would not break the door. I asked Felix why his room was empty with the exception of a wooden stool he told me "Material possessions are pointless, it only weakens a warrior's will." I nodded my head and entered the room and sat on the stool "right, so what are you doing" I asked him. Felix told me he was about to start training to stay sharp. I asked Felix if I could watch and he told me he had no objections. I watched him as he removed his cloak and his shirt I watched him and raised an eyebrow. He had a great physique he was very muscular and well built, but he was no Brian. I bet Brian could wipe the floor with Felix. I watched the Voltori's strongest fighter move slowly each movement he made was powerful, elegant and beautiful the way he threw his fist, it was fast and flawless. Felix's body was well ripped and extremely appealing, girls would probably consider Felix to be eye candy. Felix spoke while he trained. "Once you have better control over your abilities, I will begin training you as per the king's request. You will suffer a lot, but I believe you will become strong." I was surprised and asked Felix why he thought that. His exact words were "your physique is very a well toned you have a perfect body, your short, meaning you can get past offences using your size and speed." My mouth dropped open, did Felix just flirt with me? If my venom wasn't consuming the blood in my veins I would have been blushing. I watched Felix for a little longer until Marcus found me he seemed especially cheerful. "There you are my dear." I faked a smile and looked at Marcus "indeed here I am.” Felix stopped practicing and showed his respect to Marcus. “I am glad to see you have regained your strength my dear." I looked at Marcus "do you want me to get back to training." Marcus laughed for a moment and Felix looked surprised. Marcus came to me and placed his hand on my shoulder "no my dear you need to see our home, I am going to show you around the place." I had to admit I found myself curious .Marcus lifted me up into his arms and smiled we were on the way out of Felix's room when Felix spoke "I look forward to working with you Sarah." Marcus spun me around to face Felix, I looked at him and he had a smile on his face it was rather charming and mischievous. Marcus carried me out of Felix's room and I told him there was no need to carry me, but he insisted on carrying me. While Marcus carried me I looked around, I had this strange feeling again that I was being spied on, something even more unusual, I found myself getting used to Marcus. Marcus eventually placed me down and opened one of the bedroom doors. He told me this room belonged to Demetri, inside the room were posters of atlas maps there was a desk and chair and a Lamp. We traveled down to Alec’s room it had a tv and few footballs and other sports balls, there was a beanbag and video game console. Opposite of Alec’s room he opened up Jane’s bedroom door and truth be told I was not surprised at what I saw. Inside Jane’s room were multiple amount of hooks on the ceilings, from the hooks were ropes attached to the ropes were dolls so it looked like dolls were being hung. “I wish I could say I’m surprised,” I mumbled to myself. There was also a desk and chair and a book on the desk. I wondered if the book was Jane’s Diary. Marcus dragged me away continuing the tour the only room he did not show me were Aro’s & Caius’s room. Marcus and I walked around for a while and then I ran into Aro, he was sitting in front of a chess set, he wanted to play a game with Marcus. Marcus looked at me and asked If I would mind, I told him to go ahead and play that I would watch for a while. Marcus played with Aro and Aro had the upper hand. I gave Marcus some advice which resulted in Aro’s defeat. Aro was surprised and challenged me to a game, I did not refuse him. Marcus moved out of the seat and I played Aro. I was careful for our hands not to touch when we move the pieces. Aro was pretty good in the end I lost, Marcus played another round with Aro and I wandered off to see Alec sitting alone in the hallway, he seemed depressed, Alec looked like he was just a kid. I felt sorry for him, so I sat beside him and asked him what’s wrong. He told me he lost at against Demetri in sport and against Jane in chess and he was worried that there was nothing he was good at. I looked at Alec’s childlike face and wrapped my arm around him “cheer up sport; you will get better at chess and sports with practice.” He did not listen and continued to beat himself up. “Alec you need to learn that in life there will always be those who are better than you at something right?” I asked him, Alec nodded his head and I smiled “good now then, tell me Alec, how did you feel.” He thought about it for a moment and answered “humiliated!” he answered. I tightened my grip around him, “so, tell me Alec, what are you going to do about it, sit here and feel sorry about it and play the victim? Well let me tell you something kid, in life you have to fight and if you don’t then not only will you suffer, but the people you care about will suffer too.” Alec looked at me in awe and I let go of him. I turned around after hearing footsteps and I saw Felix he nodded his head and I looked back at Alec. “Bottom line is, the same thing can be said here Alec, get your butt up and do something about it, you want to beat Jane at chess practice and if you want to beat Demetri try harder and think outside the box ,he is tall and you are short, you can make that work for you.” Alec seemed to cheer up and stood up “thank you Sarah for your words of wisdom.” Alec left and I found the entire situation odd. I was comforting one of my enemy’s, life truly was fucked up. Felix joined me and sat beside me he looked at me “you are very wise for a newborn vampire Sarah. I looked at Felix “I find it easier to control myself when not thirsty...I fed a few hours ago so I feel fine. He listened to my answer. “I think you are an interesting creature Sarah.” This caught me by surprise and I looked at him, asked him to explain himself and he told me to forget about it, instead he asked me just how strong did I want to become, I thought about Brian and my beautiful Tobias. I decided to be honest “I want to be strong enough to protect the ones I care about.” Felix looked at me and seemed surprised “Not a newborn answer, but a noble answer none the less, how interesting. Would you like to begin your training now?” I looked at him and told him yes, we both stood up and Felix removed his cloak and shirt again. I wondered if he was doing this to try and seduce me. Felix walked up to me and stood close to me, he looked down at me and I looked up at him, he was so close I could smell his scent point blank. He undid the rope of my cloak and lowered it from me throwing it to the side. He crouched down in front of me and with his muscular hands tore off my lower dress I asked him what the hell he was doing, he remained crouched and looked up smiling at me “your dress will only hinder your movements and leave you vulnerable to attack. By using long clothing like a dress, the enemy can grab your clothing pull you in and catch you in a hold then your finished. Skin tight clothing is best.” I had to admit it, the answer made a lot of sense to me. Felix started things off slowly, he taught me how to make a fist and throw a punch teaching me to put my whole body into the blow. Felix then taught me some tricks, like how to evade and some helpful hints, he was really impressive. Marcus came by during the lesson and watched, he wanted to take me away, he wanted some alone time with me. I told him I was having fun learning from Felix and Marcus seemed genuinely surprised. I don’t know if I was having fun or not...I was starting to think and feel different about being here with the voltori...I felt connected with them and found myself thinking that living here with the Voltori, maybe it wasn’t that bad. Marcus insisted that I come with him and I gave in, before I left Felix bent over and grabbed my cloak and moved so close that we were inches apart, my chest was inches from his shirtless muscular chest as he wrapped the cloak around me and tied it up “I apologize for your dress Sarah, I will find a way to make it up to you and I sincerely hope you enjoyed your orientation, in your next lesson I hope you remember to dress accordingly and prepare yourself for a rough ride.” I raised an eyebrow and smiled at that expression it sounded like something Brian would say...that perv. I left with Marcus and he looked at me and said “you have a beautiful smile Sarah; I hope you show it more often.” I thanked Marcus and found it odd...I was being nice; I could not help but think something was off about everything. I had formed a list of what I found strange. I am being nice to these people, and I don’t mind this place. I am starting to like it. The vampires are not that bad, I sort of think they're cool with the exception of Jane. Marcus wrapped his arm around me and I shivered automatically, I did not like him touching me, Marcus seemed surprised and said to himself “I will have to tell Chelsea to speed things up.” I was confused and asked Marcus who Chelsea was and he told me it was not important, that we had other things to discuss and when I asked him what he answered “Marriage.” We arrived back into Marcus' bedroom and I sat on the bed in my torn dress. I told him I was not ready and needed time for marriage and asked if we could make it a long engagement, he agreed to give me some processing time for it, not wanting to overwhelm me with too many changes. I asked him for one more favor and he said whatever I wanted I could have. I asked for my own room, he was surprised, but agreed to it on one condition. When I asked him what the condition was, he asked for a kiss. I agreed to it, just thinking it would be a peck on the cheek. I was wrong Marcus pushed me down so I was laying on his bed he climbed on top of me and held me pinned to the bed and he leaned down to kiss me passionately. At first I just laid still, but I started to feel strange again and just for a moment I kissed him back. Marcus climbed off me with a big grin on his face; he looked so pleased with himself. Marcus left to organize a room for me and said he would make it fit for a queen....his queen. I wondered what the heck is wrong with me how could I enjoy that kiss even for a split second. I love my Brian and my son Tobias...what is happening to me? Sarah A life of hell and Torment
Date: June 11th, 2009 Dear Diary I awoke in a strange room, resting on a bed, the mattress was soft and comfy and the lining was plain white, the blankets were puffy and had a fancy pattern. I wondered why a vampire would have a bed, I mean we don't sleep. I sat up and looked at my clothing I was wearing a beautiful elegant dress and over the dress I had on a red cloak. I also had on a gold necklace around my neck with the crest of the Voltori. I looked at my hands and saw a beautiful gold ring with a red jewel on the ring. I looked at the walls around me, they were brick walls and it looked like I was in a reformed dungeon and other than the bed there was nothing else in here...well almost nothing. I saw Alec in the corner of the room leaning on the wall he was about to say something when voices from a distance could be heard. "Have you gone mad Marcus, why would you want such a creature as your mate?" The voice was unfamiliar and I heard Marcus say "my reasons are my own, Caius, she is mine." Aro was next to join in saying "her gift is extremely powerful, you have yet to sample it, Caius, I assure you, she is indeed a jewel to be kept and treasured, she is worthy of being with our brother Marcus and a powerful addition to the guard once we train her." Alec smiled and walked towards me. "Do not fret Sarah it will all be ok." I looked at him and asked what happened. He told me he had cut off all my senses so it would be easier for them to take me back to Volterra and Marcus had someone called Heidi dress me in garments he picked out. I was afraid if my heart could beat it would have been pounding in fear. I closed my eyes and took in the stale air and swallowed it. I had just realized my throat was burning and my black eyes looked at Alec and then back at the door I bolted to the door and everything went blank again. The next thing I knew, I was in a room with three seats in front of me. I could see Marcus, Aro and Caius watching me Caius seemed to be disgusted with just the sight of me. I looked around and saw Jane along with a few other people I have met. “Just look at he,r not even here a day here and she tried to flee we should kill her.” Caius said. I looked at Jane and she had this look on her face like excitement, like Christmas had come early for he,r I examined Marcus and Aro both were calm. “Nonsense she was probably thirsty look at her eyes pitch black and she is a newborn she probably just wanted to go to the humans we have employed and have her for lunch.” Aro said. Marcus nodded his head in agreement. Caius looked disappointed, but not as disappointed as Jane, it looked like someone told her Santa wasn’t real or that they would be stuck at a Justin Beiber concert. “Jane send in Gianna” Aro ordered, the savage dwarf nodded her head, “yes master.” She walked to the door and called “Gianna come.” Gianna walked in and I looked at the human for the first time, a tall woman with dark skin and green eyes, her heart was pounding she was either afraid or excited I could not tell by the heartbeat, but the look in her eyes showed fear.... “Eat up Sarah, enjoy your snack.” Marcus instructed. I looked at Alec and he nodded as if to encourage me and I ran to the human, in a flash the look of horror stuck in my mind as I tackled her and she screamed that was until I ripped out a good chunk of her throat and spat out the flesh. I sunk my fingers into her arms letting it sink deep until blood poured out from the wounds on her arms. I drank the blood that poured out of the wounds I created. “Damn she is brutal, no emotion or compassion she is truly a newborn.” A voice said, it was one I haven’t heard before, but that did not matter I was lost in the beautiful taste of Gianna’s blood. “I agree Felix” Demetri whispered, the heart beat of Gianna started to slow down and I heard her short shallow breathing she was dying. I had no intentions on turning her or stopping her I just wanted to satisfy my thirst and forget about everything else around me. I moved down Gianna’s body licking the puncture marks I'd made on her arms and biting off more of the flesh and spitting it out. What little blood she had left splattered over my face and she was dead. I up, I was still thirsty, but the burning had become dull and bearable. I looked at Marcus and Aro as I stood up my eyes cold and emotionless, I did not want to show these men any weakness. I would kill all the emotions within me to protect Brian and Tobias. Marcus clapped his hands and Aro joined in “well done, very brutal indeed Sarah...Felix, Jane come.” Jane stepped forward along with a man, he was tall and muscular he looked to be strong, very strong. “I am interested in seeing Sarah’s potential. I am appointing you Jane to try and teach Sarah how to use her gift...teach her to master it anyway you deem necessary.” Aro said and Jane smiled with glee. I felt a shiver run down my spine, there was a good chance I was imagining the shiver, but the look on Jane’s face told me I was royally fucked. “Felix I want you to train Sarah, teach her to fight, I want her to be a top soldier.” I was confused, I could understand them wanting to see what this gift of mine was exactly and just how powerful it was, but why teach me to fight. I said to them “Wait, why teach me to fight, I can understand you wanting to learn just what I am capable of with my gift, but what’s the point in teaching me physical combat?” Caius was surprised “you dare speak to us, you will speak when spoken to regardless of who your mate is child, learn your place.” He sneered he was cold and a little frightening. “I am sure you know this Sarah, but we of the Voltori live to enforce the laws of our people, we have many allies, but also enemies if the time arises, we must fight to keep peace and enforce our laws. Since you are the mate of Marcus you will be a prime target, by killing you or if we lost our mates we would be wounded emotionally and our judgment impaired...that has already happened to us once before.” Aro said. I looked at Marcus and watched as he looked down, “I understand so when do we begin?” I asked . Aro seemed to be very pleased “glad you asked me that Sarah it begins now, Jane your first.” Jane stepped forward and had a twisted smile on her face, I did not like this . “Alright Sarah this is how it works you’re going to inspire me, super charge my gifts each time you fail you are going to experience a small burning feeling.” I looked at Jane “are you serious that’s fucked up, even if I manage to supercharge your gift I am just going to feel more pain than normal because your gift is supercharged by mine.” I argued back. “You know she has a point” Felix spoke quietly. I felt a burst of pain and fell on my knees . “Begin” she said. I let out a hiss and Jane laughed, I closed my eyes and concentrated. I began to sing and I instantly felt a burn “No singing or humming Sarah, you must learn to use your gifts without relying on sound, sound will only get you killed when trying to use stealth.” She spoke her voice was innocent and child like. I did not know how to do that, I did not even know when to begin in trying to do that, but I had to try my best. I have to make sure I am so valuable to them and their cause that they leave Brian and Tobias alone. I looked at Jane and she told me to try again, I tried to inspire Jane, I thought about my reasons behind the reason of being here I closed my eyes and saw my son’s beautiful face and the face of the man I loved. I felt pain again over and over the pain did not stop, it went on for hours and my venom came out of my nose, I was bleeding venom. “We must stop this, she is exhausted” Marcus said. I raised my hand up and told him that I could do this, I opened my eyes and thought of my son and told Jane to Bring it. I tried, I was panting for air out of habit, but also from exhaustion. I looked at Jane and felt this warm sensation flood my entire body and my entire body felt hot, it was not painful...it reminded me when I was human and I was out on the beach with Brian I felt the warmth of the sun all over me. This was like that, only it was under my skin and now coming out of my pores affecting the temperature in the air started to change in heat. I could hear the gasping of several of the guard along with Marcus and Aro, Caius seemed disinterested by the fact. “Do you feel that?” Felix asked. I concentrated letting the warmth leave the pores of my skin it was hard I was exhausted from the torture, but I just concentrated on thinking of Tobias memories of holding him, seeing him smile...calling for me. “Yes I feel it, it’s incredible, this is what I felt back at Brian’s place.” Demetri said pleased. I couldn’t help it, I was too exhausted to keep up whatever it was I was doing. I fell to the ground again and felt a burning pain, it was so intense, the burning was stronger than before, it was Jane. “Get back up Sarah, I am not done playing with you yet.” She said but I couldn’t do it. I was too exhausted. “No that is enough. Demetri take Sarah back to my room, She needs rest.” Marcus said. I looked at Demetri as he lifted me up and held me in his arms, he had a smile on his face as he looked at me. He carried me out of the throne room and towards Marcus' bed chambers. “You did very well Sarah, how do you feel?” he asked me. I looked at Demetri and his smile, “I can’t....I can’t move I am exhausted.” “Of course, you have been trying to access your gift for hours on end, and each time you failed Jane gave you incentive to get it right....give it time Sarah you will soon learn just how powerful your gift is and how to use it. Today you have just taken the first step on learning to control your amazing ability.” He encouraged me. I looked away and told Demetri I did not care about that, he was surprised and asked me what I cared about and I told him nothing. Demetri placed me on Marcus bed and left me there, Jane’s gift had left me so weakened I could not move at all I felt weak and powerless. While I lay on the bed I thought about how I found myself in this mess. I thought about the last time I saw Brian and Tobias ,I had said terrible things to them both even attacked them, I knew Brian would shield our son, which is why I had thrown Brian and even had Jane try and attack Tobias, to make it more realistic, to make Brian think I never loved him, my heart broke when he asked me for the engagement ring back, I thought I could keep it and treasure it as a memento of my love. I had to turn away from him so he would not see the pain on my face when I removed the ring from my hand. I did not look at them, instead I allowed that man to touch me and I....I kissed him, I did everything I could to allow Brian to believe I did not love him and when my son called for me, his very first word...instead of jumping for joy and running to him to kiss and hug him, I killed all kindness in my heart and ordered that bitch to attack my son. I did not know how I did that, it took everything I had to be that cruel and deceptive and not show a trace of it. I only hope Brian can put together the hidden clue in my speech, so he can find the hidden message in that clue. I don’t trust the vultures, not for a moment. I concentrated on recovering and wondered if this is what my eternity has come to, enduring torture after torture to force myself to master my gift. I closed my eyes and heard the discussion all the way in the hall room. "The newborn has talent, I feel like I can do anything." It was the one called Felix, "yes I agree, she has managed to access her gift without using her voice as a medium and the effect she has on us is incredible." Alec added. "I concur, but it is interesting don't you think when she sang we felt stronger and our gifts were super charged, but when she did it without sound the temperature changed, it's like something was coming from her body" Marcus said. "Yes it's like a type of pheromones, it radiated from her body, you could feel it and it indeed inspire us and empower us" Aro added. "We must let her rest for now, we have pushed her too hard, she can't even move from Jane's constant attack and the strain she has exerted." Marcus said again. "Master, if I may, what next, we discovered that she can use her gift without singing, but what next." Jane asked. I looked at the door and waited for Aro's answer, I wanted to know that too. "My child it's simple we have discovered that sound is not needed, now we see how long she can last with broadcasting her gift and we test how long our abilities are supercharged. Once we establish that we will work on extending Sarah's limitations" Aro answered, No one said anything. "Very well, I believe we should end this for now, I want to go check on Sarah." It was Marcus this time and things were silent until I heard Aro speak "ah yes it's nice to see our brother in love is it not Caius." A few moments later Marcus entered the room. I looked at him and saw Demetri and Felix behind him. "How are you my dear?" Marcus asked me and I answered him in truth telling him I was exhausted and extremely thirsty Marcus sent Demetri and Felix away to go and get me someone to drink. Marcus sat on the bed and climbed next to me, he placed his hand on my leg and leaned in to lick the dry blood on my face. I was too exhausted to shiver out of disgust, I laid still ,Marcus praised me on how I endured the pain without much screaming and how I made a lot of progress. I thanked Marcus keeping my voice as calm as possible, I did not want to show how much I disliked him, but he surprised me in saying "I see you're still love with Brian...I can see your feelings for him my dear, I promise in time you will feel the same way about me as you do him...if you stopped fighting your love for me it will grow a lot faster." He kissed my neck and moved his hand closer up on my leg, I did not say anything and heard knocking on the door. Marcus told the people to enter and I saw it was Demetri and Felix with two humans. The two humans looked less than interesting the male had an olive complexion with green eyes and blond hair, he was tall and plump, he looked to be about thirty years old, while the female was shorter with blue eyes and red hair, she looked to be my age. I could hear their heartbeats pounding and see the expression of terror on their face. The burning in my throat burned ,it was so painful, not as painful as Jane's burning talent, but still it burned deeply, I needed to have them now, the burning it hurt too much. Marcus let go of my leg and gestured for Felix to bring the male to me. Marcus stood up and grabbed the human and pulled him to me, brought the human close laying out the arm and told me to bite him. I opened my mouth and bit into the flesh hearing the human scream out in agony he was in pain as my venom spread into his body paralyzing him preventing him from running away even if he could somehow get past Marcus, Felix & Demetri, let alone everyone else around the guard's that were all over the place. Marcus petted my head while I fed off the human "good child, good, feed off the humans, regain your strength." I did not look at him, I was too lost in the frenzy, I found myself regaining my strength being able to slowly move my arms. I placed my hand over Marcus hand surprising him as I closed my eyes and continued to drink the blood "as expected of my mate." he spoke, I wanted to yell and tell him I was not his, but said nothing I finished the humans off and felt a lot better. Felix and Demetri left with the corpses and Marcus moved in, licking the fresh blood off my face cleaning me. Apparently the almighty Voltori never thought to invest in wash cloths, I did not mind when Brian did this, but with Marcus doing it...it was weird and uncomfortable. Marcus' tongue moved in to my lips and kissed me pushing his tongue into my mouth French kissing me. At that very moment I hated the French for making French kissing. Marcus pulled back and surprised me telling me he had a gift for me. He pulled out a box from under the bed, it was white with a red ribbon tied around it. I opened the box to see a leather black Diary with a V on the front. Marcus told me that Aro told him that I like to keep a diary and that since this is the start of a new life it should be the start of a new diary. I asked him how Aro knew and Marcus told me he saw every thought I had the first time he touched me, back when I was human and one of those thoughts....well a lot of them were about my diary. I thanked Marcus and he seemed pleased with himself and he left to excuse himself telling me he had to speak to a guard member named Chelsea. I wanted to ask him why did he have a bed in his room when he never slept, then I decided best not to ask him I probably would not like the answer. So here I am now writing to you my new diary and waiting for the rest of my strength to return.... I wonder how Brian and Tobias are doing, god how much I miss them both. ~Sarah The Final day
Date: June 9th, 2009 It's all coming to an end, my last day was perfect and the reason was I was completely alone with Brian and Tobias. The Voltori went out hunting today. I don't think they went back to New York City, but to New Jersey or something. I don't know or care. Brian and I started the day by watching the sun rise. I sat in front of him, my back touching his chest and his head was resting on my shoulder. The sun rose up and the light caressing our skin causing it to sparkle and to shimmer. I closed my eyes feeling Brian's warm touch. Now that I was a vampire his touch was no longer cold because we held the same body temperature. Brian kissed my neck and told me I looked beautiful in the light. I smiled and told him to stop joking. Brian turned my shoulders slightly so my crimson eyes looked into his, "you are the most beautiful woman to ever walk this earth Sarah, I am lucky to have you in my life." I looked at Brian and got on my knees and pushed him down into the sand and pinned his hands down and kissed him. I slipped my tongue into his mouth and Brian fought back as I allowed him to over power me, he pushed me off him and climbed on top of him. He undid his zipper and smiled. I loved Brian's smile, it was one of the many reasons I loved him. I wanted him to make love to me just as much as he wanted to. My hair was covering my eyes and he leaned up and moved it away gently with his hand. "Sarah when I am with you I am alive, there are no words that can describe the depth of my feelings for you." I looked at Brian and smiled. Here I was going along with the LIE of him having a happy life, giving him false hope, my, what a terrible woman I have become. I kissed Brian and he pulled up my skirt with his hands and he made his way to my panties. I heard something from inside like a small sigh...Tobias. I was done letting Brian pin me down. I pushed him off me and heard him cuss in defeat and jumped up and after re-adjusting my clothing. I ran to my little man's room and saw he was awake. I picked him up and smiled, I could hear his heart pound away at it's normal fast pace. He looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his, I can honestly say I never tire of seeing his beautiful eyes, it's like watching a favourite movie. Brian joined us and I lifted Tobias up holding him close to my chest . "Your fly is undone," I reminded him and he asked if this meant no sex and I nodded my head. Brian grumbled something along the lines of "need to teach my son not to interrupt when I'm trying to claim his moma." I rolled my eyes up and told Brian "don't talk like that around our son or ill give you something to cry about." It just came out I don't know why, I guess I just want him to grow up to be a respectful young man. Brian quickly went quiet and he knew I was serious he grumbled an apology and I went to him stood on my tippy toes to kiss his cheek. I hated being short, it seriously sucked. Brian immediately cheered up and I turned from him and went to the rocking chair. I sat there and reminded Brian about his fly and he zipped it up. I told Brian to get the baby formula and he went immediately. I heard a small grunt and looked down. Tobias did not like the stuff he hated it. "It's for your own good little man." I told him, he still did not like it I could tell, I don't know how, but I could feel it, has to be a mother's intuition. I began to sing for my son and he seemed to mellow out. "Damn that feels good Sarah." I could hear Brian speak in a normal tone from the other room. I guess my gift was in effect, I still haven't figured out the full potential of my gift. I have been distracted with my son. The only thing I have figured out is I can inspire to the point of supercharging gifts and inspire myself to push through agony when I think of my son, but then again that could be considered a mother's thing . I don't really know, this is all so new to me, being a vampire, being a mother, it's all new. I was lucky enough to have this moment with my special little man. He was gifted too he could super charge a vampire's senses and had complete control over his gift the little show off. I knew he could do more than super charge the senses. He is special far more special than any other little boy in the world. It's not because of his heritage or his gifts. It's because he is my son. Brian returned with the formula and handed it to me, he knew I loved feeding our son. I tried to feed Tobias the formula and he pushed it away. I looked at Tobias and raised an eyebrow and tried to feed it to him again. My little man pushed the bottle away again with his hand again. "Defiant little bugger aren't you" I said to him. "Yeah I wonder who he gets that from" Brian joked. I put the bottle down to the side to flip Brian off and he chuckled. "I knew it." I rolled my eyes up and picked the bottle up and tried to feed it to him again and he pushed it away again. I sighed "come on Tobias cut it out." Tobias watched me and did a little frowning face. I smiled he was so adorable, I looked at the bottle, "fine more for me then" I told him, and I started to suck on the bottle. The formula tasted like shit in my mouth, it was foul and horrid. I could not blame Tobias for refusing the shit, but he still needed the stuff. Tobias used his little hands to reach for the bottle, the adorable little man wanted the bottle now that he thought it's what the grown-ups drank. I gave him the bottle and watched him drink it down. "That stuff must taste horrible" Brian said. I looked up and nodded slightly. Tobias finished drinking the formula and I burped him patting his back softly until he burped. I handed Tobias to Brian while I spat out that awful crap, it tasted like dirt, it was horrid I wouldn't force that on anyone, well other than Tobias needs it he is half human. The little rascal loves blood, but he needs human stuff too. I went back to the nursery to see what my men were up to and saw the room was empty. I looked around the house, they were gone. I went outside and saw them both on the beach. I looked at Brian and folded my arms "BRIAN JACOBSON GET YOUR BUTT IN HERE NOW!" I yelled, my Brian returned with Tobias and I inspected my son. "No sunscreen huh." I took Tobias and stomped down on his foot hard . I heard Tobias chuckle and I smiled looking at him, I carried him inside. I ignored Brian's cussing and hopping around on one foot. I did not want my son outside without sunscreen. Sure, he is growing fast, but he is still my baby and while I was here, he would be looked after. Brian started to yell and I told him to shut up, I reminded him our son was human and we needed to be cautious so I told him to stop his bitching and get Tobias's hat. He did as he was told and returned with the blue hat with flaps. I put some sunscreen on his arms and legs and over his cute little nose of course. I kissed both his cheeks and handed him back to Brian and told him now he could go and play. Brian grumbled "your mother is scary." I looked at Brian and asked him to repeat himself and he told me he said nothing. I smiled I would miss this. The boys went outside, Brian loved taking Tobias along the beach, I used this time to get the last of my plan ready. I finished everything for tomorrow, my plan was eratic. I knew that if Aro touched me he would be able to see some things, but not enough to know what I was up to. I had made sure not to think about somethings. I walked outside and joined my son and true love we spent the afternoon together. I eventually put Tobias down for a nap and Brian and I went outside again. He wanted to pick up where we left off before Tobias woke up. Brian kissed me passionately, I lifted my leg and wrapped it around his leg his hand grabbed my leg and we continued to kiss. Brian used his free hand to unzip his pants and moved his hands towards my panties... We were interrupted again with the arrival of the Vultures. Brian cussed and at the end added "not again." I smiled and suggested maybe his pants were cursed, pointing out that both times he unzipped the pants and both times we were interrupted. Brian let go of my leg and admitted I made a good point he told me he intended to burn the evil pants as he zipped up his zipper. I rolled my eyes and fixed myself up and looked at the Voltori minus Jane, and three humans were with the Voltures Aro told me it was a gift for Brian, Tobias and myself for being such good host. I thanked Aro with fake sincerity not caring if he knew it. I went to Tobias bedroom and I felt terror Jane was holding Tobias. I moved hard and fast and snatched my sleeping son from Jane and placed him back in the crib. I moved fast again and punched Jane in the face with such speed and force. She was sent flying through the wall. "Don't you Ever touch my son again". The noise woke Tobias up and I turned to him and comforted him my poor little man must be so afraid, I bent over and before I could pick him up I felt agony. I fell over onto my knees and heard Jane "that was not nice of you Sarah, you would do well to remember your place." She said. "As would you remember yours." The voice belonged to Marcus and the pain suddenly stopped . "She touched my son" I hissed with hatred ,"She goes near him again I will kill her." I picked myself up, Marcus asked Jane the meaning of touching my son and she told us she was just curious to see how big he had grown. Brian heard everything and came to be the mediator and told Marcus I was just over protective of Tobias. He was intent on making peace, and afraid I would end up getting myself killed his fears were for nothing. I was too valuable to be killed I picked up my son and comforted him he settled down and I took him to the humans and the voltori. Brian wanted to dig in on the first human and I tripped him. He fell flat on his face and Tobias giggled. I bent over and picked Brian up by the scruff of the neck like a mother cat to it's child,. I could hear Brian complain and I ignored him instead I asked our son which human he would like. Tobias pointed to the one Brian wanted and I smiled and dropped Brian he landed on his feet and went to one of the other humans. I held Tobias while he bit into the arm of the human and began feeding off the human. The human screamed in agony and I ignored it. I found myself amazed at not caring about the humans whether they lived or died. I wondered when it was that I became this heartless woman. The scent of the blood was enticing and I told Tobias to pace himself. The little rascal eyes were too big for his stomach when it came to blood. Brian finished his human and I asked him to take over with Tobias. He did so and I lost control. I pounced the last human and held him down. I bit into his neck and with my teeth ripped off the flesh of the human and spat out the flesh and drained the blood, licking the blood from the sides of the wound I inflicted on the human. I ignored the screams of agony and continued to suck out the blood. It was magnificent. I finished the human off my lower face covered in blood. I felt a lot better, now the need for blood was gone. Tobias couldn't finish the human, so I snapped the human's neck without hesitation. Brian looked at me and walked to me. He licked the blood from my face and told me I was his sexy beast. The rest of the day went fast, I put Tobias to bed and here I am writing to you its 10pm two more ours and this day ends....I keep begging for time to stop...please, please don't let tomorrow come. I pray and pray for tomorrow never to arrive, but I know my prayers would end up unanswered. -Sarah Frost The second day
Date: June 8th, 2009 Dear diary, Today was a great day the vultures had gone into the city to feed with the exception of Marcus and Alec, while I finished off the blood bags in one of the Eski's I left some for Tobias of course, After feeding I went to watch over him, Brian was with me the entire time. He was worried that I considered my son to be a human happy meal he is wrong my son smells to sweet to eat, I will just hug him to death instead. My son was so quiet, he did not cry when he woke up instead he just looked around. I went to him naturally and picked him up the awareness in his eyes is surprising. I took my son and together we walked out to the beach. I sparkled in the sunlight, Brian said something but I was too lost in the moment to care as I watched my son's subtle glow. I held him tight and sung for him. I could feel his little hand touch my cheek it was so soft. I wanted to hug him. I noticed a human's scent near by when the wind sent it's scent in my direction and I found my throat burn and it intensified so quickly that I told Brian to take Tobias even though it pained me to do so, but Tobias safety was always my first priority. Brian suggested that I went hunting with Alec and I told him it was a good idea. We left together and ran towards New York City.....That's right ran! I know it sounds odd, but that's what I did, I have found it impossible to adjust to being a vampire. I am stronger and faster and more aware of the world around me. I see things from a new point of view. The only thing I don't like about being a vampire aside from the thirst...is my human memories are fading away. I tried to think about Jayne, but it was dark I could barely recall anything. I was lucky to have kept that photo of Jayne and myself I looked at it one last time today. During my run with Alec I asked if he hated me for what I did to his sister. He was quiet for a moment and told me no, he said he was surprised I could actually take Jane on. I said nothing else. We arrived in the city and I had to listen to Alec to learn what exactly to do and then I did as I was told and it resulted with me feeding off two humans. Alec also taught me the importance of cleaning up after myself and until I adjusted to the life of a vampire I would be accompanied when hunting to make sure I did so. I had to admit I was glad, I found it hard to control myself. I did not have that problem when I was with Tobias, my little man kept me focused. After we cleaned up, Alec and I found Aro, Jane and Demetri and together we returned home. I could hear Brian growl. I ran as fast as I could into the house. I went to Tobias room first and saw Brian was trying to feed him baby formula, but Tobias kept pushing the bottle away. I smiled, Brian looked at Tobias seriously and I laughed when I saw Tobias face, he had the exact same serious face as Brian the little scowl on his face. I shook my head and took Tobias from Brian and held him I grabbed the bottle and spoke to my son telling him to behave and stop giving his father such a hard time. Brian stood up and I sat at the rocking chair and fed Tobias the formula. Tobias did not resist he just looked at me and kept drinking the formula. Brian watched us and I could see it in Tobias eyes...He knew what was going to happen, that's why he was refusing to drink the formula from Brian. My little man thinks it would make me stay. I hummed a song for him and held him close to me as possible. I did not want to let him go. I kept asking myself how could I give Tobias a life time worth of hugs, kisses and reassurance in such short time. I realized that I couldn't all I can do is trust in Brian, he is a loving man and I knew he would treat our son as a prince. He would die to protect our special little man, but it would not come to that I have made sure of it. It was true after tommorow I would be out of Tobias life forever and I would never get to give him any gifts or cheer him up when he was upset. I would never be there to wipe away his tears. The only thing I could give Tobias was chance to be free. After Feeding Tobias, Brian came and took Tobias from me. I reluctantly handed my son over and asked myself what was better then holding my son in my arms? The answer was seeing my son and my true love together. Brian wanted to take Tobias outside, I made sure Tobias had sunscreen on. I doubt he could get sunburnt, he was half vampire as well as half human. I guess I am being overbearing. Brian was being so impaitent, he kept telling me to hurry up, he was a bigger child than Tobias. He continued to try to rush me while I took my time to made sure Tobias was covered. I leaned in to Brian and put a bit of sunscreen on his nose and told them to scat. Brian was gone in a flash with Tobias I smiled and watched from the kitchen terrace. I was thankful I could no longer cry, it would have given me away. I would make sure that I would never ever forget this memory ,I would hold this to my heart forever. Marcus and Aro approached me and gave their observations on how happy Brian and Tobias looked. I Nodded my head and told them I apprecoated the gift they gave me and I would not forget it. Marcus was cocky when he placed his hand on my back and asked me if I would sing for him. I told him later that all I wanted was to spend time with my son and Brian. Marcus seemed understanding, but then again he was a smart creature he knew that he would have me for the rest of eternity. The trick was on him, maybe he would have me for eternity, but my heart belonged to my son and my true love. Brian and Tobias returned inside and we spent the rest of the day together. It was time for Tobias' feeding and then bed and I took him. Brian insisted on Tobias having blood since it's bound to taste better. I rolled my crimson red eyes up at him and took the bottle of blood. I looked at the bottle of blood in my hand and then at Tobias. I asked him if he wanted to go halves and Tobias looked at me intently as if to say no. I laughed and he sucked a little blood out of the bottle teasing me. Brian was cheeky and said he knew another bottle that needs sucking. I threw Brian a dirty look and watched his cheeky grin. I gave the bottle to Tobias and watched him suck the blood out of the bottle. I sang a song to him to pass the time. I sung him one of my favourite songs time after time by cindi laupher Tobias listened quietly while I sang, as his eyes slowly closed and he drifted off to sleep. He did not even finish his bottle of blood he had a little bit left. I did not notice Marcus and Brian watching me from the doorway, for now Tobias was my world. I took the bottle of blood and placed it to the side of the rocking chair. I held Tobias a little longer and watched him sleep in my arms, his little heart beating like a humming bird thump...thump...thump. I finished singing and watched him stir as I placed him into the crib. I grabbed the bottle of blood and put it next to the changing table. Brian decided to take over and watch our son while I write to you. I need to go now, time is going too fast why won't it to slow down? ~Sarah Frost Sarah Song to Tobias The first day
Date: June 7th,2009 Dear Diary Change has happened to me and it will almost be the last time I ever change. Six days ago I wrote to you as a human being. I was a weak child...blind and deaf to the world and carrying a special child. Three days later on the fourth of June the change began when my child clawed his way out of my stomach and ripped open the last of my flesh to escape me. It was exactly one month since Brian and I had sex for the first time. I found myself weakening from the pain of child birth...well child popping out of my gut like something out of a horror movie, still it hurt like a mother fucker. I saw my baby boy he was beautiful. Brian let me hold my son and I held onto him tightly, but suddenly...everything went dark. I opened my eyes and was surrounded by darkness. I was confused and ice cold. I could see nothing, but darkness. I walked around in the darkness for a while and stopped when I saw a light, the Light was small, it was so far away, so I began to run towards it, slowly the light expanded. I finally made it to the edge of the darkness and stood at the border. The light was warm and embracing and behind me the darkness was cold and scary. I could hear something, it was a voice, it was faint. I stepped forward and instantly felt the warmth of the light. It was beautiful and loving. I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around myself enjoying the warm embrace of the light. This was it, this was peaceful after all the pain and suffering I finally found peace. "Her heart has stopped...she is dead." A voice spoke. It sounded like Aro, he sounded disapointed. "She is not dead, she isn't, you don't know her, Sarah is a fighter, she won't quit no matter what, that's who she is." The voice belonged to Brian and I smiled he thought so much of me, I had no idea. "The venom did not reach her in time...she is gone..." Aro insisted. The sound of crying drowned the rest out ,my special little man Tobias.....I wondered what was wrong with him, but I did not dwell on it for long. I was drifting away blissfully. "Sarah you promised me." My eyes snapped open, the white void was around me. I could see the warm white light. I realized I was dying...or dead....Brian was right, I made him a promise. I would not die. Brian's life and the life of my son Tobias was connected to mine. If I died the voltori would claim Tobias and Brian would die fighting for our son. I placed my hands over my heart and clenched onto my skin. I reminded myself that Death is peaceful and it's easy to be in the void of oblivion, but I was never the type of girl to take the easy way out...not when I had a reason to fight. I concentrated in the void focusing on the crying of my son. I kept telling my heart "start....start....start." I pumped my heart area with my hands and gasped feeling warm. My entire heart was warm. "That's Impossible!" It was the voice of Jane ,she sounded disappointed. I smiled hearing the disappointment in her voice. The light vanished and I returned to the cold darkness. My skin was cold, my entire being was cold...with the exception of my heart that was still warm and I was proud to say still beating. It was my son and my Brian keeping me alive and soon I would keep them alive. I folded my arms and the warmth in my heart continued to intensify until it spread through my entire body if felt really nice. The warmth kept getting hotter and hotter "ok turn down the heat a little." I cried out to the darkness. The heat, however, did not stop, it was intense, I screamed out as it burned, I felt like I was getting burned at the stake. I felt the flames consume me, but I also felt stronger, the darkness suddenly vanished and I opened my eyes to see Brian sitting next to me, the pain was incredible and it was only growing. I said to him, "you asshole you didn't tell me it would hurt this much," my voice was strained from the pain and he chuckled. Brian stroked my cheek and I asked about Tobias and Brian told me he was sleeping in his crib. I had been burning for two days. Brian thanked me for keeping the promise and I told him that I would do anything for my two special men. I told Brian to go and be with Tobias. I did not want my son alone with the voltori, especially the dwarf. I could hear a hiss in the other room...it surprised me I could hear that. Brian thankfully did this and left me to suffer alone so he could protect our son. I spent the rest of my time trying to drown out the sensation of pain... I failed of course nothing could stop the pain. It finally stopped with the exception of my throat. When I opened my eyes after the change it was like I could see for the first time, when I heard Brian it was like hearing the voice of an angel...up until now I was a worm and now I evoled into a Hawk I became a predator feeding on the worms. I looked at Brian for the first time he was beautiful and perfect. Normally I would have pounced him, but I was thirsty. Brian's scent, I love it, he smells like the air during a storm it was refreshing. Brian suggested we go hunting together and leave the voltori to babysit Tobias. I almost hissed no, I told Brian I was not in the mood to leave the house, to give me the left over blood from the blood bank. I drank the blood and it was incredible it tasted amazing I wanted more and Brian left with Tobias I did not get to see him since I was still thirsty. They had to go into town and buy more blood. I was amazed at Brian. He had already bought baby seats and everything. I suggested formula and baby food ,Brian asked why since it was obvious Tobias had the sense to like blood. I told him the child was still half human and needed all the proteins and vitamins that a human child would need. Brian argued back and in that moment I am ashamed to say I snapped, I grabbed Brian and threw him out of our bedroom door. I was shocked, I ran to Brian and saw him on the floor grinning. "We should get insurance because if your this passionate now what are you gonna be like when I nail you" I hissed at Brian and told him to get going and that was when he left with Tobias. The Voltori or as I like to call them Vultures stepped out of the shadows and made their presence known. Marcus hugged me from behind and the twins as well as Demetri looked at us confused. Aro explained everything and all jane could say was "HER, are you serious?" I looked at Jane for once we were on the same page. Aro had made his plans and I have made mine, well my plans weren't thought out and they still are. My thoughts are no longer safe, So I am going to do things without thinking about it, Aro won't be able to see that coming, needless to say my plans have already been set in motion, I just need to find the right time to be alone now. Aro had insisted that I begin learning how to use my ability. I sang a song and nothing happened, no inspiration, and Aro suggested that it was Tobias was the one with the abilities. That I was only the vessel for the abilities to go through. I thought of my son and closed my eyes . I loved him so much and Marcus tightened his grip. "No she has the gift...I can feel the love she has for her son....it was her super charging our gifts not the offspring." I opened my eyes shocked. "Ah good then, we really have no need for the child. We just need to find how to trigger her gift and unleash it completely." I listened to Aro's words and realized that he had no intention of keeping his word. I too was grateful that my thoughtless plan was set into motion. I had promised Brian I would survive and I kept it, and I promised myself to protect my love and my son and I will be damned if I don't keep that promise. The Voltori continued their discussion and I excused myself not interested. I went to the bathroom and removed my top I was surprised that my body was scarless from Tobias's escape, well my chest had one scar it was a crescent moon over my heart. I looked at the mark and traced my hand over it this was my momento from Brian. I looked down at my wrist to see the scar from my suicide attempt was gone. I looked back at the mirror and notice my blood red eyes. I was shocked and wondered how could I miss that. I examined my new skin and eyes. I wasn't me anymore. "You're still ugly." I looked at the doorway and saw Jane. I flipped her off. "Shouldn't you be back to the village of the damned, tormenting some parents or something you little freak" Jane hissed and I felt my entire body shake in agony and i fell onto the ground. I looked at Jane and she had this smug grin on her face. "What was that...." she asked, her voice was filled with a fake sweetness. The pain was gone and I was left gasping. "I said your a stupid dwarf that should fuck off, before I give you a swirly." The pain returned and it was even more intense then the last time. I looked at Jane with hate as the pain surged through my body this was one of the reasons I wanted to keep Tobias and Brian away from the Voltori. It was then when I thought about Tobias I felt myself becoming inspired. I felt like I could do anything. I pushed through the pain to get off the floor. Jane looked at me surprised. "Come here you bitch," I screamed my entire body burned, but thinking of my special men I was inspired to push through the pain . I grabbed Jane by the neck and lifted the Dwarf up, carried her to the mirror and smashed her against it. "Help me out Elf, is that seven years bad luck for me or you." I carried Jane to the can and shoved her head down the bowl and flushed her head the pain actually stopped. Marcus and Aro came in asking what I was doing and I continued flushing the toliet and told them "she's getting the royal Flush." I lifted her head up and tossed her to Aro's feet. "She attacked me" I hissed. Jane got up and looked at me, "yes and I will end it," she said. My entire body burst into agony again like I had been set on fire. I looked at Aro and Marcus and did not resist the agony. Aro said nothing for a moment while he touched Jane. After a moment he finally ordered her to stop and I panted in pain venom dripped out of my nose and I looked at Jane, I wanted her dead and she felt the same way about me. Aro told us both not to fight anymore and I had no choice, but to comply. Aro did, however mention how amazed he was to learn I had been able to move while Jane's gift worked it's wonders on me. I wiped the venom from my nose and told him it was just plain luck. I buttoned up my shirt and heard Aro speak with marcus telling him i should train with someone named Felix once they returned to Volterra. Brian finally returned Tobias and placed him in the nursery. He then went outside and returned with two eski's full of blood bags. He found me in the bathroom and asked what happened and I told him I had some quality time with Jane. Brian was shocked about it and Marcus came in and told Brian he had to hold me down, Marcus was smart it would explain why I had Marcus scent all over me. I went through half of the eski and felt confident enough to handle Tobias. I went to the lounge room and of course Marcus was near by, the rest of the Voltori also watching eagerly. Brian gave me warning telling me from the other room that Tobias was growing fast and his touch also gave off an unexplainable spark so I should be prepared. I told him to shut up and give me my son. I could hear Brian's chuckle and he brought in Tobias. I gasped, shocked, seeing my son, he was not an infant, but a toddler, he was growing so fast. Surely this could not be the same Tobias. I held my son and gasped again. I felt my senses go into overdrive they were super charged. I could hear the distant traffic all the way to New York City. My son has this incredible gift......It was him super charging Brian's senses that time before the Voltori's arrival. I wondered how I was super charging everyones gifts as a human then. I wondered if Tobias could actually do that too. I looked into my son's beautiful brown eyes and saw something in those eyes....awareness. My son was so quiet, he just kept watching me the entire time and I began to sing for him a song. My voice was different from the change, but I did not care and everyone seemed to be acting stranger then usual, but again I did not care. I was lost in the beauty and perfection of my son I spent the rest of the day holding my son. Brian handed me a bottle of blood for Tobias and I fed it to him. He sucked away at it like no tomorrow. I sat in Tobias' nursery, on the rocking chair feeding him the bottle of blood. Brian was with me the entire time. I told him how quiet Tobias was and Brian nodded. He told me the only time Tobias had cried was when I was dead.....I looked at Brian surprised and looked back at my little man he is a genius. He knew I needed to hear him to start fighting off death. Tobias eventually fell asleep and I am now watching him sleep. My little man....How I will miss you. ~Sarah Frost My journey is almost at it's end, or is this new beggining, all I know is what I do, I do for My Brian and my child.
Date: june 1st , 2009 Dear Diary So much has happened and I fear I don't have a lot of time left, I think my story is coming to an end or maybe it is just beginning. I have made a deal with the devil to protect those that I love and cherish. My body is breaking under the strain of carrying my special child and I am days away from losing everything for a second time. I bet your wondering what I mean, how much can happen in just a few short days. It started after my last entry when I overheard Marcus and Aro speak. Brian was away at his company, some major disaster came up and I was in my room. I had woken up to hear Marcus and Aro at the doorway they assumed I was asleep so they were talking in a normal tone and not speaking in their low hisses that were too fast for my human hearing. Marcus had asked Aro what he intended to do about my child and I, how would he convince us to join. Aro mentioned that he would convince us if not he would kill us and claim we had broken the law and created an Immortal child. Aro spoke saying the last thing that he needed was for the Cullens to gain more allies least of all those who were as powerful as my child and I. No other vampire knew of my child and I aside from the decorator that had came that day to remodel the guest room. So no one would miss us it was ingenious of Aro to get Brian to stop his other friends from coming over. I did everything I could to stay calm listening to the two speak. Marcus told Aro that he did not want me to die and Aro accused Marcus of getting bewitched by my gift. Marcus said nothing and said again that he did not want me to die. Aro was quiet and then told Marcus that getting into an argument now would be pointless as the proposal hasn't even been submitted yet. Aro told Marcus that he,Demetri and the twins were going out hunting and that he should keep an eye on me. Once they left Marcus surprised me by sitting on my bed and telling me that I could stop pretending to sleep. I asked how he knew and Marcus told me for a slight second my heart rate had skipped a beat and he knew then. I asked if that meant Aro knew and Marcus shook his head and told me if it did Aro would have put on his friendly facade. I looked at Marcus and asked him if it was true that Aro would kill my Brian, my child and I and he nodded his head. I shivered in fear and Marcus touched my cheek and smiled "do not fret child" he said. I looked at him, we had became close since he arrived I considered him a friend in a way. Marcus said "I want to make an offer" he said. I heard him out and basicly he said this "I will protect you and your Child if you become my queen and returned to Volterra with me." My heart was pounding. I did not want my child around the likes of Aro and I instead gave him my offer, I would become his queen if he let my child stay with Brian and left the two alone, giving them full immunity in exchange for me joining the Voltori. Marcus was surprised and told me he would arrange it that my child and Brian would remain safe and out of the Voltori's grasp. I made him promise and he gave his word and leaned in to kiss me on the lips. I kissed back, but my heart was not in it I was sacrificing myself for Brian and my child I had made that choice with no hesitation because I knew it was the only way to protect them. Marcus pulled back and told me that I indeed loved Brian and my child more than anyone has ever loved before. He told me in time I would forget Brian and love him instead I doubted that was possible I looked at Marcus as he walked away and broke down into tears I Had made a deal with the devil. My life in exchange for the life of my true love and child...it's a fair price to pay. I wiped the taste of Marcus away from my lips I decided to enjoy whatever time I had left with Brian. He returned home and kissed my forehead and smiled Marcus did not say anything of our deal he knew it would cause problems and now was not the time for problems. I was weakening the baby was sapping too much of my strength and he had started to break my body down. I was as big as a house and I could kiss my figure goodbye, but my bones were also breaking. No amount of blood could stop my thirst or help me regain my strength. I was dying slowly, but surely, I knew that's what was happening. I made a promise to Brian I would pull through and survive for his sake and for the baby. Soon he will wish that I did not make him that promise. Brian and I talked about baby names and we managed to agree on two names for either gender Tobias Marcus Jacobson Cassandra Hope Jacobson I know its strange giving Marcus as a middle name especially since after his offer I hated him, but I was gratful for the opportunity he had given me to save Brian and my baby. Today Brian took me to the beach and sat behind me on the sand we watched the sun set together and he surprised me by proposing to me. I was shocked as he placed the beautiful gold ring on my thin white finger. I had lost so much color from the pregnancy I practically looked like one of the vampires now. I accepted Brian's proposal knowing full well that we would never get married, I did not do it to give him more pain. I did it to give him as much happiness as I could before I would break his heart. When we returned inside I could see Marcus' shocked expression and I insisted Brian give Demetri and the twins the tour of New York. Jane threw me a dirty look, she loathed me and I did not care. Brian thankfully thought it was a good idea. My poor Brian you have no idea the pain that awaits you. When they were gone Marcus grabbed my hand and I flinched in pain at the tightness in his grasp I could have sworn I heard a crack. He asked me what I was doing and I told him I was letting him have joy for as long as I could give it to him. I asked Marcus if he had told Aro my terms and he nodded. I looked at Aro and Aro agreed to my terms. He would leave my child and Brian alone to live their immortality in peace if I joined his guard. I looked down and felt my heart break, I was in tears and asked him to swear it and Aro swore on the good name and reputation that the Voltori had. Afterwards Aro touched my face and wiped away my tears no doubt he saw all my thoughts and probably felt all the emotions I had caused by my thoughts thanks to my baby. Aro smiled and said to me "don't cry child you will become Marcus's wife and a queen you should be happy." I pulled on a smile it was fake and they knew it, but they both chose to believe in the lie and say "much better" Marcus wrapped his hands around me gently from behind and I felt cold and stiff not from the influence of his body temperature, but because he was not the man I loved. Marcus asked when I would tell Brian the truth and I told the both of them the day we leave. I asked how many days they would give me with my child and Marcus said I would have three days to be with my child and I could consider that my wedding present from him. Three days with my child that's a lot more than I had with Jayne I supose I should be thankful. Marcus held me the entire time not letting go of me he had claimed me as his possession I now knew how Helen of Troy felt, she was the daughter of Zeus and Leda and had the face that launched a thousand ships. I had the gift that would affect the outcome of a war. Marcus was forced to let go of me just before Brian's return when Brian returned My eyebrow twitched when I saw Jane in a I love NYC T-shirt I was about to say something when Jane said "One word and I will seriously kill you just on principle" I smiled and kept up pretenses of everything being normal by telling jane she put the itch in bitch. Brian and I retired into the bedroom and he asked why Marcus scent was all over me. I told him that I needed help getting around. Brian believed me of course he was so good natured and so good to me, he believed in me to tell him the truth no matter what ,it's a shame that won't last. I need to now, I am feeling really weak. ~Sarah Frost The Voltori's answer
Date: may 22, 2009 Dear Diary I woke up and found my bump even bigger than yesterday, but that is nothing compared to the intense day I had today, but first I should tell you about what happened yesterday. Brian returned with the blood and I sculled it down I wanted more, but before I could ask for more Aro, Marcus and the twins returned Aro told me they decided to stay and witness the pregnancy and assist in any way possible I could see that this was just an excuse immediately I knew they wanted to study my child and I to see how the pregnancy would effect us firsthand. Brian held me tight strengthening my resolve I knew I had to be strong and fearless not just for him, but my child they count on me and it's up to me to protect them there was nothing I would not do to keep them safe Aro suggested that Brian and the others go hunting together. Brian did not want to leave me home alone especially with the big baby bump now Marcus volunteered to stay with me I was surprised that he did. Brian still did not want to go and I told him not to be foolish I told him I wanted warm blood that the microwave blood he made he bought sucked because it was not fresh enough. I did not want to give the Voltori any reason to be insulted. Brian left with Demetri and the twins I sat on the couch and Marcus sat on the couch opposite of me. He seemed lifeless again nothing to inspire nothing to give him passion and without those two things he may as well have been a part of the furniture. I found it hard to strike up a discussion with Marcus I asked him what Tv shows he liked and he was curious I sighed and told him to never mind so instead we sat in silence for a while I kept watching as he became lifeless again and I finally had enough and asked him what his baggage was. Marcus told me his story that he was once in love with Aro's sister Didyme and married to her they intended to live a peaceful life and leave the Voltori, but she was murdered before they could leave and since then he has been caught in a depression no longer caring about anything at all until he met me. I asked him what that meant and he said I was interesting because of my gift I asked him again and Marcus said I had the ability to inspire people by singing. He believes once im turned I won't need to sing to inspire. This took me by shock and he continued on telling me that my gift was very powerful that I not only affect them by inspiring them, but my ability seems to affect them in other ways that I could make make them stronger and enhance their senses make them more focused....In short my ability seemed to be a drug for them and if I could affect vampires this much as a human, then what could I do as a vampire. Marcus told me that's something Aro wants to see badly. I was in shock I had this ability to inspire vampires I was a Muse. I thought about it and asked Marcus I told him that Brian was touching me and he could smell your scents even when they were out of range, but I wasn't even singing then. Marcus seemed interested and told me that was my childs gift Just like I could affect the senses my child seems to have the ability to supercharge gifts. I thought about it and Marcus was right Aro felt the thoughts that I had and Brian could smell the voltori because he was super charging my gift. I asked Marcus why he was telling me all this and he told me he cared a great deal about me, because for the first time since the death of his wife he was feeling again and it was because of me. I blushed and Marcus chuckled he admitted his curiosity to what my child would do for his gift so I stood up and touched his cold hand and brought it to my stomach I felt a chill as he gasped and smiled he pulled back and seemed different. He explained he had the gift to see the magnitude of relationships, but when he touched me he felt it he felt the love I had for Brian and the love I had for this child growing inside me. He told me he had never felt anything so powerful in his entire life.Seeing Marcus smile I felt happy to see him that way He has suffered so much I could still see he suffered, but I felt for him because we have both suffered a lot just in different ways. I moved close to Marcus and sat next to him he was surprised and I began to sing for him it was a song I believe he could appreciate and perhaps this would be enough to inspire him to move on with his immortality. This song was basically the theme song of the titanic a movie I enjoyed because Leonardo Dicaprio dies at the end. I watched him the entire to see his expression he was listening intently hanging from each word that escaped from my lips. When I finished singing he looked stunned and said that he felt something he did not think capable of again when I asked him what it was he said it was complicated. I told him something That I did not know his wife, but I was sure she would have wanted him to grieve and move on for love is truly a gift that was meant to be shared and maybe it was time for him to start sharing again. Marcus told me that it seemed my gift also worked with speeches too and excused himself Brian and the others returned home and Brian brought me back a nice American person to eat. I finished my meal and looked at Aro I could not help, but think of everything Marcus told me and realized not even my own thoughts were safe with him around. Brian and I spent the day together. Like I mentioned I woke up today found my stomach was huge Brian seemed surprised too I got up slowly and walked around and leaned on the chair I felt lightheaded I grabbed onto the chair and I crushed it the chair was made out of wood. Brian was shocked while Aro spoke that this was not mentioned During the Cullen's pregnancy Brian told Aro that I have only been drinking human blood from the start. Aro believes that the baby's strength is being channeled to me as a medium, but I don't think that's it. I think it could be the child's venom is slowly changing me, but then again it's only a theory Aro's theory makes a lot of sense too. I have been having trouble with the twin girl Jane. She seems to be jealous of all the attention he was giving me not that I wanted it. She said something snide and I told her to bring it on that id give her a swirly and stuff her in the boot of my car faster than Paris Hilton unleashing another sex video. Jane looked at me with killer intent, but her brother quickly stepped in the way and he fell to his knees in agony. When Aro found out he lost it he grabbed Jane by the hand and dragged her outside and began talking to her I was dying to know what he told her and how it affected my child and I. Jane returned and apologised I told her to forget about it that it must be hard to be stuck in the same league as Justin Beiber and never go through puberty Jane unleashed a hiss at me and I flipped the dwarf off and walked away. I could hear Jane mumble "fucking bitch" I smiled it felt good releasing the inner bitch again I have noticed recently I have been to nice for my own good. I spent the rest of the day with Brian we talked about baby names I wanted to call the baby Brian junior of it was a boy and Brian broke into a rant saying that no son of his would be called BJ and I pointed out what was wrong with it and he said he did not want other people associating his name with BJ because its short for blow job. I frowned and before we could continue Aro joined us with Marcus I sat besides Marcus and listened as Aro and Brian spoke about the pregnancy and stuff. I noticed Marcus seemed a little distracted he would watch me from time to time and I wondered if I had blood on my chin or something. So here I am on the beach alone with Marcus at the terrance watching me for some reason. I finally learned what this gift of mine is and have learned that my child would also be gifted and from what Brian & Marcus told me of Aro that my child and I are no longer safe. We are coveted and I need to think of a way to protect my child and myself from Aro's grasp. I need to go I want to be with Brian I may even lift the penalty tonight oh and I want to continue talking with Brian about babynames. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tuvz_9D7Ok&feature=player_embedded Voltori or not Watch their manners or ill Kick their ass!
Date: may 21st, 2009 What can I say it's been two days since my last entry I have been feeling pretty tied Brian came home with dinner and an extra guest an Australian tourist by the looks of it the guy was kind of chubby I wondered why Brian brought him and when I asked why he was here Brian told me he was my dinner I gave him a skeptical look and he laughed he said "Im just fucking with ya" he pulled out a Burger King bag from behind his bag and I sighed out of relief I walked to get the bag the closer I got the more I could smell the sweet scent of the human. I glanced at the human he seemed afraid and he had good reason to be afraid he was moments from death and I suspect he knew that. I sniffed the strange man Brian looked at me curiously and I made a choice "tell you what I will give you the burger king and I will get chubby how about that" He told me to forget it that this was his meal I flipped him off and told him that I was eating for two now and no hamburger would satisfy me, besides this child is half vampire it is probably feeding off my blood so I should replenish. Brian grumbled It seemed I had a new weapon under my belt bring up the baby card and he folds. Brian was lucky he did not gamble or he would be screwed. At least I don't think he gambles I should ask him about that later. Brian used his nail and cut into the guys neck and the blood poured out the beautiful red liquid gushed and I heard the guy whimpered. Brian gagged the guy and held him down for me to feed off. I sucked on the warm blood it was delicious it was just so incredible I could not stop I could hear Brian speak "Damn girl this is really turning me on" He used one hand to push my head deeper into the wound I did not care the blood was amazing I wanted more...no I needed more It was just magnificent. I could have continued to drink the blood forever, but I kept hearing Brian to ask me to leave him some I stepped away gasping I moved back and sat on the couch gasping for air I was in shock at the monstous act I had committed the funny thing was I felt no remorse at all. I had just done something that would make most people throw up, but me I want to go back for seconds like the chubby guy was a buffet. Brian eventually finished the guy and dropped him on the floor dead I watched the corpse get dragged away by Brian a few minutes latter Brian returned and sat beside me he sucked the blood from my lips and licked my lips "that was so incredibly hot Damn babygirl you're the perfect woman" I rolled my eyes up and Brian chuckled as he placed his hand on my leg and moved it closer to my personal space I told him no that he was still under penalty and he frowned. Brian and I ended up talking I told him that I held no grudges towards him for lying to me and that I did not blame him. He smiled and told me he figured as much he just wanted to know when penalty time would be over. Brian was so sex crazed like an addict I asked him if he was this way with all his old girlfriends and he told me that I was his first, up until he met me he was a virgin. I could not help, but laugh I deflowered a vampire Brian of course told me to shut up that it was not funny. Brian asked questions about me like stuff I liked to do. I told him that I liked playing the keyboard and guitar and sing that music was my passion. Brian listened and hugged me I rested against him and he asked me if I could sing him a song so I sung him one of my favourite songs Like a Prayer by Madonna it was a good song very old she could probably redo it now make it more modern or something. I think I fell asleep while singing to him I woke up yesterday morning surprised and Brian chuckled we were still in the living room only there was a blanket wrapped around me completely and a really expensive looking keyboard in front of me all set up I asked Brian how he got it and he told me right after I went to sleep he returned to town and bought me the best keyboard he also picked up a meal for me to have later during the day. I thanked Brian for the gift and he said there was no problem. Brian asked if he was still under penalty and I nodded my head he let out a groan and I giggled....I actually giggled I think it's because he looked so amusing he was like a child. I told him I would write a song for him. Brian perked up and he said he could not wait he told me he felt so inspired by listening to me sing I blushed and he moved in to sniff my scent and moaned. Brian took me outside to the beach and I saw him in sunlight for the first time it was amazing he was sparkling it was like he had thousands apon thousands of diamonds embedded into his skin. Brian removed all of his clothing and ran into the water I undressed and went into the water joining him we swam together the entire time he stayed close to me so protective and loyal he reminded me of a German shepherd the police dogs that would protect their partners No matter what. I told Brian I loved him and he smiled and kissed me back. We have known each other for a short time, but in the short time we have had so far we have had a lifetime worth of love and experience's. During the swim Brian had his arms around me he was so playful, but that stopped fast and he looked dead serious he told me he could smell the scent of Aro and a few others in the wind that they were coming earlier than expected. He carried me out of the water and back inside we showered together and he told me it was strange I asked him why and Brian told me that while vampires had amazing enhanced senses he should not have been able to smell them from that distance. Brian and I finished our shower and dried off we got dressed and he sat me down in the living room he told me he would have to go to town and buy some blood from the blood bank I asked him why and he told me the voltori would probably be thirsty. I frowned and watched him go. So I picked up a pen and paper and walked to the keyboard and thought about my life before Brian and how it was now that I had him the lyrics came to me so suddenly in a swift of genius. So the course lyrics are I see a light in the sky Oh, it's almost blinding me I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love Let the rain come down and wash away my tears Let it fill my soul and drown my fears Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun A new day has...come Where it was dark now there's light Where there was pain now there's joy Where there was weakness, I found my strength All in the eyes of a boy Its true I did find my strength in Brian's eyes he is my babyboy. Just as I am his babygirl I played the keys and figured out the music to go with the song I composed for Brian I waited and waited for him to come home I began to feel hungry so I ate the cold burger from Burger King I did not feel confident to kill the human heck I couldn't even find the person I wonder where Brian stuffed him. I shrugged it off and sat on the couch and waited eventually I fell asleep I woke up this morning and found myself in my room Brian was not at my side which was unusual I wondered how I got to my room. I walked out to the living room to investigate and maybe find clues I stopped dead to see Brian sitting with the Voltori Brian stood up and walked to me He hugged me and kissed my forehead I asked him what took him so long and he said that something came up at the office. Aro stood up with Marcus, those twin children and another vampire one I have never seen before stood up this vampire olive complexion with a chalky pallor, and dark hair that reaches his shoulders. I looked alarmed at the vampire and Aro could see my panic he spoke "don't fret it's only Demetri a member of my guard." I looked at Aro as he walked to me I felt alarmed. I placed his hand out to my stomach and he asked if he could touch it I told him "Only if you want to be called stumpy" Aro looked at me surprised wondering why I had such malice in my attitude Brian gently nudged me and asked Aro to excuse my attitude telling him I was not a morning person. I frowned and allowed him to touch my stomach He kept his hand there for a while and I could see him making a strange face he looked uncomfortable the female twin moved eagerly to Aro worried and he eventually stepped back shocked Brian asked him what was wrong and Aro told us that he had the ability to hear every thought a person had ever had, but when he touched me not only did hear every thought I ever had, but he felt it. He told me he did not feel that the last time he touched me. Aro excused himself and asked if he could have some time to speak to Marcus and the others and converse with them. I snapped I asked if he was seriously kidding that he would kick out Brian and I from our home I continued into my rant until Brian placed his hand over my mouth and excused my outburst blaming it on hunger. He carried me into my room and I gave him a peice of my mind he listened to my rant and frowned. Brian stood up and left the room for a moment and returned with the keyboard and asked me to perform for him I told him I was too infuriated and he pleaded with me. I caved in under Brian's blood red puppy dog eyes how could I refuse the one who I loved so much. I set up the keys to sound like a Piano tone and told Brian this song was written based on my feelings for him. I began to play and sing for him the entire time watching him he seemed to be in awe like he had just realized something life changing I continued to play and heard something coming from the door. I saw it was Marcus and Aro and like Brian they seemed to be in awe I ignored them and continued to sing and play I turned to Brian and concentrated on him I played the keyboard and the song finished. Brian seemed to be stunned "your theory is right her gift has grown even more powerful than last time." I heard Marcus speak. I looked back at Marcus and he smiled at me his smile was so warm and he seemed to have some life back in him a lot more life than what we first met he no longer seemed to be a zombie at least not completely. "That was a wonderful performance so inspiring and passionate" Marcus spoke Aro agreed and they excused themselves again. Brian stood up and I looked at him he came to me and wrapped his big strong arms around me into a hug and did not let go "thank you babygirl that was an amazing song." he bent down to kiss my lips and I kissed him back. He stroked my hair until I told him I was hungry Brian left in a flash to go get me my meal and here I am writing to you anxious over the Voltori's decision. ~Sarah Frost Brian's Song I always Imagined sarah's voice to sound like this i think its an amazing and beautiful song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eg9jQOebTo8 Song is actually A new day has come by Celine Dion |
InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
March 2012
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