Topic: One last time…one more time, will I put it all on the line.
Date:??? Dear Diary It feels like forever since I have last seen sunlight and experienced it’s beauty…even though I am more of a rainy day girl…I miss the light, the scent of the air where now I am forced to breathe and smell dank and stale air. I miss the way the wind would blow life into me, and I missed the flames of passion. I miss the rainy weather the way its cold drops would fall on me, the way the rainy sky blocked out the sun…the way it reminded me there was beauty in everything. I had missed the grass running barefoot on the sand and grass I missed being with him….I had forbidden myself to even say his name and if possible, to even think of him…ever since I got my memory back that was impossible even when I was in one of those whacked out day dreams I thought of him…I saw him, I touched him and I kissed him and I never let him go. We would spend eternity in each other’s embrace where my skin would shiver with anticipation and excitement, and there would be this excitement in my heart this beautiful and loving excitement. As I sat feebly in the corner filthy and covered in dirt, I moved my pale hands over my heart at this moment I felt that feeling of love and anticipation just from thinking about him, I had missed him badly and I ached without him…I sometimes wonder was it so bad to have amnesia…I didn’t know Brian, I didn’t have that aching feeling to be in his arms for eternity…I didn’t have that curious feeling inside me wondering what my son was like and who he took after....what his voice sounded like. I wondered what his favorite color was, what his favorite book was and movie…his favorite animal and musician…please tell me its not Justin Beiber….no the Brian I remember may have been an overgrown child, but he isn’t incompetent I believe he is truly a wonderful parent, there is no way he would allow that to happen. I breathed the stale air in softly if I could have Brian and Tobias in my arms for one minute….just one minute I would die a happy woman. Keeping my hand over my heart I heard a chuckle and looked up to see no one, “who’s there” I asked quietly looking around, I couldn’t see anyone all I saw was darkness and the walls “you’re the second person to ask me my name today, I must say I do feel loved…I have many names Sarah, how about you call me Vlad anyway enough about me…how do you feel” he asked, it was honestly a stupid question if I could see this idiot and even had the strength to move I would strangle him. “I feel like shit” I answered quietly, “You look like shit too” he responded amused “well fuck you very much” I retorted dryly. The laughter echoed around he room “you’re feisty… I like feisty woman” he sounded so amused, I rolled my eyes “so Vlad…tell me are you real or not” “do you often question you’re sanity?” he answered me with a question “Do you always answer a question with a question” I retorted “do you” he responded right after me, ok I found that highly annoying and as if this mysterious Vlad read my mind he spoke in a soft voice like silk “You’re annoyed…well Sarah I can’t blame you, this isn’t exactly Romania” he spoke to me, I chose not to say anything at all, I didn’t have the strength to keep arguing with a figment of my imagination. For a full five minutes there was silence “I am serious now Sarah…how are you” the voice spoke this time there was concern in the voice. I was surprised. “I am thirsty…so very thirsty it feels like the sun is in my throat burning me over and over…I feel weak and I hurt…it’s agony, but what’s worse than all of this…I miss my soul mate…I miss my son.” Thinking of those two its more than agony, I was so close to him…and then after years of being apart we were separated…did I honestly think I could run away with him to spend eternity with just him and my son…I am such a fool and as soon as those thoughts echoed my head, the voice had spoken out “it’s never foolish to want to be with the ones you love Sarah…it’s difficult now, but if you have faith maybe…just maybe things will work out for the best” the words were sincere, but to be honest as much as I wanted to believe this Vlad voice…I just can’t I am too tired to fight…to tired to believe if I was a human I could have slept for a thousand years and still I would be too tired to keep fighting. Naturally I decided to avoid responding to that comment and asked him a logical question “why can’t I see you.” Perhaps it should have been the first question, but in my defense I am bat crazy these days…seeing things I just assumed this voice was another unwelcome symptom of my madness, but I am starting to suspect differently. The voice was silent, and I began to feel frustration when he finally answered me “because I have no body...at least not in this current location. I am here with you in spirit.” I raised an eyebrow and lowered my hands from my heart “ok Casper…so you’re here in spirit but why me…why speak to me.” I really wished I could see this guy, because it’s annoying not being able to see whom I am talking to…I wanted to know what this Vlad person looked like and see him…If I could see his eyes, see the way he stood in front of me then maybe I could get to know if he was menacing or not…hell I would know if he was real or not. “Are you going to answer me?” I asked him curious if he was still here. “I tell you what Sarah I shall answer you’re question if you answer mine first…do you agree to these terms” he asked me his voice was easy going and slightly annoying. “ok fine…ask your bloody question” I spoke softly and instantly the voice known as Vlad asked me “tell me about the one you called Brian…when you think of him…what is it you feel, what comes to your mind.” the question was a surprise and when I heard his name…I cringed in pain, because I missed him so. Hearing his name made me think about of course…the comfortable hugs, the embraces we shared, the good times we had. “Brian and I were destined to meet, we both found each other in the darkest part of our lives…we found love. I was scared I wasn’t used to kindness and love, to be honest, I thought I didn’t deserve love…I can’t speak for Brian, but being with him was the best time of my life…I miss him with all of my heart and I will love him for eternity…I have never been happier than when I was with him because he saved me from myself.” I answered him. “I knew you were going to say that.” Leaning my head back I rested it on the wall “then why did you ask me Vlad” I felt frustrated that this imaginary voice was annoying the crap out of me “Knowing something and hearing something are two different things…I knew you loved Brian, but hearing you speak of that love…is something else.” I seriously couldn’t understand…I have a theory being deprived of blood, poisoned and being kept in darkness for fuck knows long has made me nuttier than a squirrel’s turd. I waited for an answer, but there wasn’t the door opened and a dim light could be seen I saw the shadow of a figure “Who are you talking to Sarah” I recognized the voice “Can’t you hear him Felix…he speaks to me and haunts me. He annoys me.” I told him, Felix walked closer towards me and I noticed he seemed to be carrying a white dress in his hand, he crouched next to me “Sarah, there is no one here…and no other voices you have been speaking to yourself all this time” I shouldn’t have been surprised, I knew I was crazy, but still I was a little disappointed. Felix began speaking, but I didn’t hear him all I heard was Vlad “awww you like me” he taunted me, hearing his voice made me feel annoyed “shut up” Felix looked at me “Sarah….you had to have known this was coming…I am sorry if I could do something…anything to stop it I would.” He spoke his voice sounding broken, I watched Felix confused Felix was my guardian, my teacher and friend…even now he had treated me decent “what are you talking about.” I asked my voice clearly confused “Sarah…your execution is today…I am sorry.” his voice broke and he looked down, I was In shock…I knew this was coming…of course I betrayed Marcus, the Volturi hell I even killed two of them and one of them was Aro’s play thing. “Oh” was all that came out of my mouth; I looked down for a moment. And looked at Felix “Sarah…Knowing you has been an honor…I just wish it didn’t have to be this way...you were an incredible friend.” Felix stood up and turned from me, it was painful to watch…even now he cared about me…Felix you were a very good friend and protector…After Felix closed the door I picked myself up with a struggle and removed the filthy attire I had on putting on the beautiful white dress made me smile, it was good to wear something new…not that I am shallow like that, I don’t know I just felt comforting. After leaning onto the wall I slided down on it and leaned on it to sit up hours had passed by and I just waited for death. I spent this time thinking about a lot of things, how short my life truly been…wondering why I wasn’t afraid…I decided to try and talk to Vlad, sure he was just a figment of my imagination, but he made things easier. “The final hours of my immortality…I know I should feel fear, for I face the unknown…instead I feel relief because soon…I will finally be free, since regaining my memory…no long before that since the Volturi broke Brian and I apart I have felt like a caged bird watching the world from behind these caged bars…as I look towards that door I know that even though my life….my world has been darkness and suffering and god the pain I have endured soon I can spread my wings and fly” It was right after that the door had opened and there he stood. My friend…Felix he walked into the room and as he did, I saw Aro behind him “come Sarah everyone is waiting for you’re trial” he spoke, I knew this was bullshit there was no trial this was an execution an act of retribution for betraying the Volturi and killing two of their guards…I laughed bitterly for a moment “Hah don’t you mean execution” I spoke in retort to him Felix had picked me up as Aro remained silent, Felix had carried me out of the dungeon and closed my eyes. When I had opened my eyes I could see I was in the underground car park where Felix placed me in the back of the limo, I sat there with Sulpicia sitting opposite of me, Aro climbed in and Felix slammed the door shut and climbed into the drivers side, the limo began to move “well you’re braver than I thought Aro..not having any guards to protect you from me on this little trip” my voice had sounded like I was tired, like I was feeble…I didn’t like it, Aro had responded “you do not even have the strength to walk…you are no threat…not anymore.” I hated to admit it, but he was right…I was weak. it turned out, I was never strong…just a fool, there was a bump on the road and I struggled to stay seated. “Are you just going to give up Sarah?” Vlad had finally spoken again, I closed my eyes and sighed choosing not to respond “Brian…he believes in you…stay strong for him” Vlad spoke trying to reach me, the thing is…Brian wasn’t here and even if he was…I am so tired…so very tired of trying to be something I’m not, I was never strong…I was never a fighter. The limo came to a stop I listened to the door open as Felix climbed out, there was a loud thud moments later and the sound of broken glass, the front part of the limo rocked and another thud sound was made. Within seconds of the second thud the limo door was ripped from it’s hinges and to my shock Brian leaned in, Aro moved towards Brian only to be punched in the face, the punch had knocked Aro though limo’s closed door and out of the Limo. Brian picked me up and carried me out of the Limo “No one is roasting my baby girl” he spoke, I smiled looking at him he stood tall and proud he was a man…so powerful and beautiful. I hid my face in his chest and I don’t know how, but I could feel him smile, and I knew I was right, because I looked up at him and saw that loveable grin on his face. “You should have left me Brian.” I told him weakly, he looked down with me, and I felt something…it was comfort. “yo baby girl…for once let me save you ok...” he spoke, god I loved the sound of his voice. “you should flee Brian, fighting is pointless…let me die…let the madness end with me” I begged him, I could feel his grip tighten on me “I was meant to give you a message Sarah…at the time, I wasn’t sure if I should, because you fought so many battles that were not yours to fight…but now hearing you speaking like this like you have given up…that’s not you Sarah…listen if you don’t like the hand fate has dealt you…fight for a better hand, always fight for one and never give up.” Brian’s words reached me…I was still weak, I knew that much, but something else was going on inside me…a fire, a burning fire…the kind I usually felt when I was inspired. “Brian, can you hurry up, this dude is hard to hold down.” I looked at the direction of the voice and I saw this giant muscular guy holding Felix down, the guy seemed to have dimples and golden eyes “Sorry Emmett” Brian replied, I had looked ahead and saw in front of us were a stack of strange vampires I had never seen before…apart from Carmen and Eleazar whom I met before I had gained amnesia… when they visited the kings…and beside them was the two that was with Brian when last I saw him. Two unknown vamps had run past Brian and I and picked up Aro and tossed him into Caius, I was impressed with the vampire’s strength, I wondered who he was…he had golden honey blond hair, he was muscular, but lean unlike the guy who had Felix pinned. The second vampire was a female, she was beautiful looking at her made my self esteem drop fifty points “Look who I have” she spoke holding Sulpicia “that’s my Rose” The one known as Emmett spoke while holding Felix pinned, The man with the honey blond hair who had tossed Aro into Caius assisted Emmett in holding Felix down”thanks Jazz” Emmett had spoken In the front lines was a female, with brown hair, beside her I could see the back of a man that has bronze hair even with my weakened sense I could hear her speak “Edward…I’ll be fine…you have to let them know” she spoke, A man with short blond hair, and a woman with caramel hair walked beside the girl, the short blond haired man spoke “It’s ok Edward we will protect her while you’re gone…go now my son” the man’s voice was so kind, I don’t remember hearing anyone that pure “Carlisle….Esme thank you” and with that he left, he ran towards us past the other vampires who stood behind the two females and blond man .”What are you waiting for…take Sarah and run” Felix yelled while Emmett and this Jazz person held him down…Felix even now he cares about me “Brian…Felix is one of the good guys don’t hurt him please.” I pleaded quietly. A small pixie like female popped out from no where “Sarah’s right…Jasper, Emmett let him go, he won’t hurt us…I have seen it” she spoke, I looked at the female…she was like a pixie. “Ok Alice” the Jasper spoke, he and Emmett let go and Edward joined us “Brian we have to leave….Now, Bella can’t hold up the shield anymore…She is getting attacks from Alec and Jane at the same time and she is protecting too many of us.” Brian held me tight in his arms “Brian…let me down…I am going to end this once and for all.” My beautiful man was holding me even tighter, I loved how tight he held me “no Sarah, I didn’t go through all this to loose you again…this time you are coming home with me…to see our son.” He spoke with determination “Brian…you awakened something inside me…let me fight with you for a better future too…not just for us, but for everyone..” Brian reluctantly lowered me and Felix came to my side I smiled at him, he was betraying the Volturi for me…he was a splendid friend. “What’s you’re plan Sarah” he asked “I am going to the front lines…I am going to help out the one called Bella…Felix...you will lead the evacuation of everyone who is helping Brian and his friends…Brian…Take Sulpicia from the blond…when I call for you, bring Sulpicia…we are going to make a trade.” I spoke with determination “Feisty Sarah returns” Vlad spoke in my head, it was different this time, when he spoke before it was like he was in the room with me, this time it was like he was in my head like a thought only it was in his voice not mine. I had kissed Brian on the lips and smiled “Ok baby girl…lets end this now, so we can go home to our son.” I breathed in deeply and let the air out, I walked towards the one known as Bella she was a distance and I remembered thinking to myself I wouldn’t be able to walk all that way, and then I felt someone grab my arm and wrap it around his neck, when I saw who it was, it was the guy with bronze hair “If you need help all you need to do is ask” I wondered who the hell he was, “thank you” I spoke softly and I noticed his crooked grin ok I admit it was kind of cute. We walked together; well the bronze haired guy supported me a great deal until we made it to Bella he lowered my arm and I looked at Bella, she was beautiful and radiant. “Hello…my name is Sarah Frost” I spoke, Bella had moved her head slightly to look at me I could see concentration on her face, she had the look of struggle…like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. “Hello Sarah…my name is Bella Cullen” I smiled “I would shake your hand, but it’s taking everything I have to block out Jane and Alec…I can’t hold it for much longer.” She sounded so friendly and pure…I looked at Bella and I saw her as Light, and then when I look at myself I saw myself as darkness. “Let me share you’re struggle Bella” I spoke softly to her. Bella seemed confused even as I grabbed her hand and held it. I closed my yes and began to pant, I was so tired but I managed to it concentrated on inspiring Bella, and strengthening her power. I fell to my knees at Bella’s feet still holding her hands “Sarah” I heard in the distance “no…Not….yet” I panted, Bella gasped and she panted along with me “what’s going on” the one with the heart shaped face and caramel hair spoke “Sarah…she has the ability to inspire others and supercharge their abilities as a side affect if she has any…she is strengthening Bella.” Edward informed her. “I…I can’t believe it I feel so strong” Bella spoke she sounded like a lot of that struggle had been removed. Thanks to my assistance. “What are you waiting for…Get them” Aro yelled, “Brian now.” I spoke out, I looked up to Edward and let go of Bella’s hand, I had used up pretty much all the energy I could to help her with…if only I wasn’t so weak. I looked at Edward and he helped me to my feet, this wasn’t good we still had too many of Brian’s friends around. Before I knew it, Brian was at my side holding Sulpicia. I had pulled Sulpicia out of Brian’s arms and had my arm around her neck “now Aro what was that you were saying about me not being a threat…Tell Jane and Alec to stop now and halt your men…or I will destroy her.” I threatened exhausted as I was. Aro said nothing and then I did something that surprised me I sank my teeth into Sulpicia’s neck and started feeding on her venom. The taste of venom was disgusting, but I would need lots of venom to battle the poison that was weakening me constantly. Sulpicia was shaking and shrieking, Athenodora watched with horror and Aro yelled “Ok stop…Jane, Alec…everyone stopped” at that moment everyone had halted, “I can’t feel their attacks on the barrier, Bella had spoken while watching me in shock” I pulled away from Sulpicia’s neck “Brian…can you get those two who assisted you previously to get the rest out of here” Brian had looked at me and I cringed feeling Sulpicia’s venom burn inside me, I held onto the bitch tighter than before. “Sarah if I do that we are going to be out numbered” Brian didn’t need to tell me this, I knew we would be “it won’t be a problem Brian…Aro knows if he makes any sudden movements, I’ll kill Sulpicia without hesitation.” Brian had sighed “Kate…Garrett take the next group out of here…” I knew I should have been focusing on the situation, but man is Brian sexy when he is bossing people around. With the next group gone things were getting intense “Aro we stand here before you’re witnesses, members of you’re guard…my friends and my mate…If you give me you’re word you will never come after me or anyone else who stood against you today…and you allow us to leave safely…then I shall give you Sulpicia…Give me you’re word Aro and I will give you you’re sweet Sulpicia.” I spoke softly with a smile on my face, I already had planned everything “You have my word….that we will not hunt you down or oppose you if you give me Sulpicia.” He spoke sounding furious As soon as Aro had spoken that I had ripped off Sulpicia’s head from her neck and kicked her body to the ground, Aro had screamed in unimaginable pain and I held Sulpicia’s head by her hair and smiled “KILL THEM ALL” he yelled, I raised a finger “you forget your vow Aro, I swore I would hand you Sulpicia….and so I have, I never stated in what condition I would give her to you…you on the other hand swore to leave us in peace and not attack us” I reminded him. Aro looked down “let them go” he knew he couldn’t break his vow not in front of his own witnesses or his reputation would be shattered. I could hear cheers from behind me, as the remaining witnesses on Brian’s side rejoiced. Brian wrapped his hands around me “Lets go home baby girl” I kissed Brian still holding onto Sulpicia’s head “Yeah, but first.” I had no intentions of letting Sulpicia pull herself together again, the bitch was as good as dead. We had all left the monastery and cliffs, everyone was chatting, while I was carried in Brian’s arms Holding Sulpicia’s head “what are you going to do with that” Brian asked me. “I am going to have it stuffed and put on display at home of course” I spoke sarcastically, Brian looked at me worried and I smiled, looking to Brian’s side I saw Felix…he had abandoned the Volturi and joined us…for me, he is an amazing friend I chucked Sulpicia’s head at him and he caught it “burn it” I told him. After a few miles of being carried we arrived to four cars, everyone had climbed in, Brian sat in the back seat and I on his lap. He stroked my hair “I can’t believe this is real….finally we are together again” he spoke softly the blond had climbed in to sit next to Brian “Hello Sarah…my name is Rosalie, I have been looking forward to meeting you” The big muscular one climbed into the front seat “come on babe, she has just been reunited with her boyfriend…give her some time before you try to pimp her son out onto our niece” I was honestly confused “Brian…I think the poison has fried my brain…do they want to pimp out my ten year old son.” I asked him feeling furious, “the poison that reminds me…is there any cure.” I nodded and answered him “the venom of another vampire…my venom is not enough to burn it out of my system…I need the venom of another to burn it out.” Brian put his wrist to my mouth “then have mine” he spoke, I looked at him and saw that beautiful smile I kissed his wrist “Later on…right now, just hold me in your arms…please” I asked him, Brian held me as tight as he could, I buried my face in his chest and at last I knew….I was finally free with my life ahead of me. ~Sarah Frost
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InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
March 2012
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