Diary, I am so sorry it has been so long since I have written in you. So very much has happened. I almost don’t know where to start! Let me start where I left off…. The big fight. We won… if you can call it that. All of the newborns were destroyed. There was one young girl who refused to fight, we tried to save her but were not able to. I still feel so horrible about losing her. Once the fight was over some of the Volturi guard showed up. One of the most vile creatures I have ever met, Jane, was with them like usual. She instantly used her awful gift on the young girl even though we assured Jane that the young girl knew nothing of why they were fighting, and had no desire to fight. We tried to get them to give her a chance. “The Volturi don’t give second chances, Felix kill her” Jane stated without so much as a frown. I will never understand how some people, even vampires can be absolutely heartless. While the rest of us were fighting the horde of newborns, Victoria managed to locate Edward and Bella and went after them. Seth was almost hurt, but Edward saved the young wolf. He managed to protect Bella and fight Victoria and the young man she conned into helping her. There was a point when Victoria and her little ‘boyfriend’ almost destroyed my Edward, but Bella thinking back to hearing the stories from the wolves history, cut her arm with a shard of glass and her blood distracted Victoria and her boy toy for long enough. Edward ripped their heads off and burned them. We officially never have to worry about Victoria again! Now for some good news…. Or should I say GREAT news! Edward proposed to Bella, and she said YES!! My little boy will be getting married, tomorrow actually! I am so excited and happy for him!! Though not everyone took the news so well, when Jacob heard he ran away for a few days, he wouldn’t talk to Bella at all. She was very upset, but I can understand where the poor boy is coming from, he is so in love with Bella, and I can see why, she is a wonderful girl. But there is just nothing that can compete with finding your soul mate, and that is what Edward is to Bella, her soul mate, her match, her other half, the one she is made to be with. No matter how much she cares about Jacob, she will always choose Edward. After some time, Seth got Jacob to come back home, and Bella talked to him a little bit but I fear nothing will be the same between them anymore. Edward was kind enough to send a wedding invite to Jacob… Though honestly I am not sure if it was an entirely friendly gesture. But I would like to think that Edward was ‘raised’ better than that. Charlie and Rene also were not too big on the idea. Bella claimed that telling Charlie was “scarier than a thousand vampires after me”. Silly girl. It did not take long for Charlie to realize how much Edward truly loves his daughter, and to give Edward his blessing. Rene was a little harder to convince. But after Edward flew Bella all the way out to Florida just to tell her mother in person, it was hard for Rene to deny his love for her. She seemed a little reluctant, but agreed, and promised to be here for the wedding. Of course Edward offered to pay her way. Of course Alice was ecstatic when Bella came to her about the wedding. It is Alice after all. She took everything in to her hands. She found the perfect dress for Bella, she looks AMAZING. But of course she does, she is a gorgeous girl. Alice also helped order all the flowers, dressed EVERYONE, and I mean EVERYONE! I am surprised she didn’t have a dress code sent out for all the guests. While Rosalie was very happy for her brother, glad they he found someone to make him happy, she was also a bit annoyed with the arrangement, as Edward had agreed that if they were married he would change her. Rosalie is still set on getting Bella to changer he mind about becoming a vampire. Though I don’t think anything will make Bella change her mind, and I can kind of understand that. Everyone else in the family was very happy for the two love birds, and that Bella would soon be one of us. Emmett looks forward to arm wrestling her, and Jasper looks forward to not wanting to eat her. I have some crazy kids. Carlisle, Jasper, and Emmett took Edward out for his ‘bachelor party’ tonight. It obviously isn’t the same as a humans bachelor party. It’s really quiet innocent. They are just out hunting together, talking guy stuff, enjoying their time together. The will be back in the morning, just in time to get ready for the wedding. More than anything the bachelor party is keeping the guys out of Alice’s way while she transforms the house. By morning, there will be flowers everywhere. There is already a million chairs stacked in the backyard, ready to be set up for the ceremony. The dance floor is set up outside for the reception. The DJ stand is ready to go. I have spent most of the day preparing food… No matter how quick of a vampire I am, cooking will always take FOREVER. But I prefer to make homemade stuff for the guests, store bought or catered just never tastes the same. One thing we did buy is the cake. Of course Alice chose it. Bella was lucky to even get to see it, much less get a say in the decision. But that’s just how Alice works and Bella knows that and loves her soon to be sister. Well, I hear Alice shouting for my help. So I better get going. I will try to write again soon to tell you about how the wedding went! Always, Esme
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Diary,
Tomorrow, we prepare for a great battle... It is going to be very dangerous, but I have the greatest of faith in my family, and our new friends... Let me catch you up on everything that has happened since I last wrote. When I last left, Bella had just asked us all what our opinion was about her becoming a vampire, and Edward had taken her home. When he returned, he informed Carlisle and I privately that he had agreed to change Bella himself, with one condition. My little Edward has asked his love Bella to marry him, I was so proud and happy for him that if I was capable of crying I would have been weeping the happy tears of a mother. A few weeks later while Bella and Edward were out, they ran into Jacob Black. He was very upset, which is understandable considering he is in love with Bella as well. Some how Bella convinced both of the boys to stay calm while talking to each other. Jacob had reminded Edward of the treaty we signed with the wolves so long ago. I had almost forgotten myself. It clearly states that none of us shall ever harm any human; we can not hunt them, nor bite them for any reason. Meaning, we will be breaking the treaty when/if we change Bella. This could become a huge problem, the last thing we need is more enemies. But for now, that is not our main concern... We will worry about that when/if that time comes. Now this may seem odd, but one of the most exciting things to have happened lately was Edward, Alice and Bella graduating high school. No matter how many times my kids graduate high school I will always be just as proud as if it were the first time... I don't know what exactly it is, something about the atmosphere of the ceremony, and being around all of the other proud parents, watching their children graduate for the first and only time. I soak it all up and feel just as proud every time. This time was even more special, because I have begun to look at Bella as my own daughter, and this really was her first time graduating. We all know Alice, so it's no surprise that she had a huge graduation party planned. This year it was even bigger than usual... Every other time it had just been our family, but this year, because of Bella, Alice had decided to invite the entire graduating class to our home for a HUGE party. Every one was having so much fun with music and dancing. At some point Jacob and some of his pack showed up. Jacob let us know that Sam had agreed that they would help us with our approaching enemy. We thanked him and asked them to stay and enjoy the party. Shortly before the end of the party, Bella figured out that something was going on. We couldn't hide it from her anymore, after all this threat was after her. The day after the party Bella joined us in our living room. The whole family was there, we sat her down and explained that someone was creating a new born army in Seattle. Alice could not see who exactly was in charge, but we all had our suspicion that it was Victoria, who had been spotted near here recently. The poor girl froze in her seat for a moment, then stood up and looked at Edward. I couldn't believe what had come next, she demanded that she be turned NOW, and not have to wait any longer... In her mind, every one was in danger because of her, and she would be of no help as a human... Honestly, I half agreed with her. But I would never rush Edward into a decision this large. We let her know that the wolves would be joining our fight, and that Jasper will be training us all. Jasper has a lot of experience in the field of newborn vampires. The young lady that had changed him into a vampire had recruited him to help her in a turf war. They fought constant wars with new vampires, most of them never survived more than a year. It was a very rough time for Jasper, and he does not talk about it often. But in this case, he didn't really have a choice. No matter how rough any of our pasts were, we would never hide from them if facing it meant a chance to save our family. For the next few days, every one including the wolves met at the baseball field to train in newborn battle skills. There was a lot to learn, because fighting newborns is much different and more difficult than fighting with older vampires. See, in their first year of this 'life' vampires still have some of their human blood running through their system, which makes them 10times stronger than those of us who no longer have our blood. Even more so than those of us who choose not to feed on humans. There is a lot of things that can go very wrong, very quickly and easily. I am very nervous going into this battle, which is why this entry seems to kind of jump all over the place... However, no matter how nervous I am, I do have the utmost faith in my family and the wolves, our newest friends. Tonight, all of my family, except Edward, will be going out to hunt. We will be feeding to our fullest, to be at our greatest strength for the upcoming battle. Edward will remain at the house with Bella. Edward is not going to be fighting with us, Bella stated that if she had to be away from the battle, then he would have to stay away with her. She figures that if they are separated at such a time, he would be to worried about her and end up getting hurt... No matter how much help Edward would be at this time, I have to agree with Bella on this one. I could not stand to see any of my kids hurt, and I am not about to risk it. Well... That is everything I can think to update you with... I know this is silly, but I enjoy writing everything that happens around here to you. It gives me a sort of comfort to know that if something should ever happen to me, that maybe some day, someone will find you and know all about me. Especially in a time like this. I hope to write in you again soon, with good news of our battle. Always, Esme March 22, 2006
Dear Diary, Thankfully a lot has changed since I last wrote in you. When I last left off, Alice and Bella where on their way to Volterra to try to stop Edward. I was so relieved to get a call from Alice at the airport telling me that everyone was safe and they were on their way home. They arrived late last night, and waited till this morning to sit the family down and explain everything that had happened, so that Bella could get some sleep and also be there with everyone. Early this morning we all gathered in the living room when we heard Edward pull in the driveway. Him and Bella walked in hand in hand, looking like nothing had even happened, its amazing how love can do that. We all sat as patiently as we could, as Edward prepared to let us know everything that had happened. Bella sat next to Alice, while Edward stood in front of us. "First, I must apologize to my loving family, I should have never put any of you through any of this, it was selfish of me and I will spend the rest of eternity making it up to you if that's what it takes." Edward's head was down as he spoke softly, I could see that he was deeply upset. I opened my mouth to speak, but the words were unneeded, as soon as I thought them Edwards face lit just a little, he looked up to me with a smile, "Thank you Esme, mother, though I don't fully agree, I don't think anyone else would have been as weak as me, but thank you for not being upset with me," he looked around the room at the rest of his family, "all of you, thank you. Now let me tell you what happened." Edward told us the whole story, that once he heard the news of Bella's death, he decided he would not, could not be in a world where she didn't exist. He had made up his mind, he would have the Volturi kill him. Edward took the first plane to Volterra he could and met with the Volturi, at first they had denied his request to die. Aro had suggested that Edward join them instead, stating his power was much too great to 'waste'. For that I thank him. When the Volturi would not simply give Edward his way, he made the only choice he felt he had left, he was going to expose himself, so that they would have no other choice but to kill him. Edward's plan was to step into the noon sun in the middle of the Saint Marcus day festival. Thankfully, Alice had gotten Bella there just in time, as Edward was lifting his foot to step into the sunlight Bella ran into his arms. They stepped back into the shade and Edward had sworn he had died and was in heaven, with his love. That thought was short lived, as two of the Volturi guard stepped up behind them. Alice joined them shortly and the three of them were escorted to the throne room to face Aro, Marcus and Caius. Everyone immediately noticed Bella was a human, this was not allowed. Aro ordered that she be changed at once, of course Edward refused. Aro tried more to get Edward to agree and for him and Alice to join the Volturi, Edward adamantly refused to join them, and promised that Bella would be changed in his own time. After some violence I don't really care to retell, Alice decided to show Aro a vision she had had before, in this vision it showed Bella as a vampire, thus proving that Edward will hold true to his promise and giving Aro no other true reason to fight them. Finally they were able to leave, and everything was right again. The whole family sat in silence while listening to Edwards story of what happened. Bella sat with her head hidden in Alice's shoulder, I could tell she felt as though this was all her fault. When Edward had finished talking, he took Bella's hand and lead her outside. They stayed gone most of the day, while everyone else went back to their daily routines. Carlisle had to work most of the day, and I spent most of my time in my office working on blueprints and designs for nothing in particular, just to keep my mind and hands busy. Later that night, everyone was asked to gather in the living room once again. Bella had decided that she wanted to get everyone's opinion on her change. She felt that if she was to just become one of us that we wouldn't have to go through anymore trouble for her sake. She will never understand how much we have all come to love her, and that we would do anything for her. But I have to agree, things would be so much easier if we didn't have to worry so much about her. So we put it to a vote, of course her vote was yes. Next she looked to me and Carlisle. We looked at each other and I answered for us both, "Of course, we already see you as family, so yes." Bella nodded and turned to Alice, "Do you really think you need to ask me, of course my answer is yes," Alice replied with a giggle. Jasper was next, "It would be nice to not want to eat you all the time, yes," he stated with a grin. Emmett answered without Bella having a chance to ask him, "I can't wait to fight you with your newborn strength" he stood in some silly macho pose and laughed at himself. Rosalie glared at him, "I am going to have to say no, you have no idea what you are getting into, and I wish someone had been there to vote no for me." Rosalie stormed out. Last Bella turned to Edward, "I don't have to be a mind reader to know your answer, but can't you see almost everyone else agrees with me. Everything would be so much easier, and besides, Alice already saw it." Bella pleaded with him. "We have to get you home," Edward said. After that they left, I assume they talked more about it while alone, but I haven't heard anything. Carlisle wants to go hunting together now, and I believe I have fully updated you. I will write more when I find out something new. Always, Esme Dear diary,
I can’t believe this. Something HORRIBLE has happened, or is about to happen… Let me explain from the beginning. After I finished writing my last entry I went to talk to Rosalie and Emmett to tell them the great news, but they had already left again. I did not hear them leave so they must have been very quiet, but I tried their cell phones and heard Rosalie’s ringing upstairs, while Emmett’s went straight to voicemail. They must have really wanted to be alone; they almost always have at least one phone on them for us to reach them. I went out the back door following their scent to see if I could catch up to them, however I lost is after a while, I really am not much of a tracker. I decided to give up and wait for them to get back home. I returned to the house and spent time with my love. We waited all night and Rosalie and Emmett still hadn’t returned. My phone vibrated in my pocket and I quickly pulled it out and looked at the little screen hoping it would be Emmett calling so that I could tell them, but it was Alice. I flipped the phone open and placed it to my ear. I could hear Alice’s panic before she even spoke. “Alice, what’s wrong?” I asked trying to keep calm for her. She pulled in a deep breath and franticly replied, “It’s Edward! He… he… ROSALIE TOLD HIM BELLA WAS DEAD!! He is going to the Volturi!” She was almost screaming. I tried my best to calm her down, but I couldn't I was freaking out myself at that point. Alice quickly told me that her and Bella were rushing to the airport and getting on the first plane to Volterra to try to stop Edward who was already on his way. I have been calling Edward non-stop, hoping that he will answer and let me explain the mistake. But I have had no luck, straight to voicemail every time, I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if he smashed it after getting that call from Rosalie. In between frantic calls to Edward’s cell I called Emmett’s cell again, this time Rosalie answered. Before I could start yelling at her (Yeah I was going to yell), she started incessantly apologizing to me. She was sobbing and gasping for air between words, “Rose, honey, calm down. It is a mistake any of us could have made. We all believed she was gone until Alice told us otherwise, and you were not here to get the news. I tried telling you but couldn’t find you, I should have tried harder, this is partially my fault too.” I said trying to soothe her. She shakily breathed in and spoke, “B-but… I shouldn’t have told Edward till we knew it was really true… I am so sorry; this is all my fault…” Her voice trailed off into sobs and Emmett took the phone. “Hey mom, I don’t think Rose can talk right now, she is REALLY torn up about this. She completely blames herself and is so worried about Edward.” I sighed, “Emmett, please please tell her it’s ok, she was only doing what she felt was right, she felt that Edward needed to know, and we all know that Rosalie cares WAY more than she likes people to believe. Please tell her that we love her, and everything will be ok, Alice and Bella are on their way to Volterra to stop him. We have to believe in them.” Emmett agreed and hung up to go soothe his love. For right now I am trying to keep as calm as I can, but it is hard. Edward was my first son, and I care deeply about him. I have already lost one son early in my life and that almost killed me. I don’t think I can handle going through that again. It is hard enough with him being away from us. I need to try to clear my mind, I am going to go our hunting with my love and maybe have some fun under the stars. I will write again soon, hopefully with good news. Always, Esme March 17, 2006
Diary, So much has happened over these past two days, it's almost to much for even me to understand. After I finished my last entry I called Carlisle, Rosalie and Emmett to return from hunting. I told them it was an emergency and Alice and Jasper would be arriving soon. They all arrived one after another. We all looked at each other for a moment and I gestured for everyone to sit in the living room. Once we were all seated I began to explain everything that Alice had just told me. Alice hid her face in her hands the entire time. Once I mentioned Bella's name everyone stiffened noticeably and then I had to inform my entire family that a person they all loved was dead. It was the hardest thing I had to do so far in my life. After I had explained everything, we decided on what we were going to do. Alice was going to go back to Forks to check on Charlie, we decided he needed someone with him through this tough time, and he has always liked Alice. As far as telling Edward, Carlisle and I were going to call him later this week when Alice had returned. Jasper opted to stay home with the family while Alice went to Forks. She decided to hop on the first plane she could, Carlisle gave her permission to take his car from our storage near the airport and she was off. Alice called us once she landed and got to the car and told us she would call us in the morning. A few hours later we received another call from a shocked Alice. You will not believe what happened. Bella was ALIVE! She was cliff diving, for fun, she didn’t know about the storm coming in and almost drowned but her good friend Jacob Black from the Quileute reservation saved her. And there is an even more astounding reason of why Alice did not see this happen. He is a werewolf! Us being around caused their Quileute genes to kick in and start o turn. They have always been vampires natural enemy. It is amazing how that girl attracts 'mythical' creatures. Alice plans to spend the week with Bella to catch up with her. I am SO happy that Bella is ok. Even happier that no one has to tell Edward about this. It would have crushed him. Well Rosalie and Emmett just returned to the house so I am going to go tell them the great news! Always, Esme March 16, 2006
Diary, If my heart was not frozen in time, still beating, it would have stopped just now. Alice just called home and gave us the worst news I can imagine. But before I tell you about that let me catch you up. Last I wrote you we were just settling into our cousins house in Alaska. Not to much has changed since then. Rosalie and Emmett went on another honey moon for a little more than a month, but have been back for a while. Alice and Jasper went away for longer. After the encounter with James, Alice had learned more about where she was from. And she wanted to know about her family. So they left to see what they could find out. Carlisle and I have been spending time together as much as possible, it made it a little easier being away from the kids. Now no one really talked to Edward much anymore. Not because we didn't want to but because he did not want any thing that would remind him of her. He left us shortly after we arrived in Alaska, he couldn’t stand all of our thought about her anymore, so he needed to be away. At first he called every day, then once a week, and then he would only call Alice to ask how her adventures were going. Now the only time we hear anything about him is when Alice sees a vision of him. She always calls home to tell us about how he is doing. And he is not doing to well. Now to tell you what happened today... I was sitting at my desk drawing some plans for our new home (we were going to move soon), when my cell phone buzzed in my pocket. I pulled it out with a quick glance at the external screen, it was Alice. I flipped the phone open and brought it to my ear in one quick movement, “Hello Alice, how are you doing today honey?” I asked cheerfully. Silence from her end... eventually she spoke softly “Uhm, mom... I don’t know how to tell you this... something h-happened, something TERRIBLE.” he voice cut off into dry sobs, my heart felt like it was going to start beating again with the anticipation. “Alice, please tell me what happened, are you ok? Where is Jasper? Is he hurt??” I was panicking. I heard her draw in a deep breath and let it out slowly, “Mom, I am ok, Jasper is right here he is fine... Mom, its... its... B...Bella.” she sighed deep, and continued, “She, she... I can't believe she would do this... mom, she is is... d-dead.” Alice began sobbing again. It felt like my heart had thawed, started beating, abruptly stopped, and fell out of my chest. I swallowed hard and slowly pulled in a deep breath. “Alice, how do you know this, what happened?” I hardly managed to get the words out. I listened carefully as she explained. In one breath Alice blurted out “I was out hunting with Jasper when suddenly a vision clouded my sight, I saw Bella standing on the edge of a cliff, she was pulling off her jacket, she looked over the edge, walked back a few steps and ran... She ran right to the edge and j-jumped off... I saw her hit the water and go down, then everything got foggy and I couldn’t see anything else. I tried so hard to see her, to see what happened, hoping some one something would pull her out, that she would surface and be ok. But she didn’t. Nothing else happened, that is the last I saw her. I keep trying and searching, but...but I can't see her anymore. Why would she do this?! How could she!?! I... I.. oh my god what about Edward, this is going to kill him!! Wh..What are we going to do, we can't tell him this... this shouldn't have happened... I should have stayed to watch her......” Alice's voice trailed off at the end, she was sobbing harder now. I pulled myself together and took a deep breath, “Alice, calm down, there is nothing you could have done, all you did was respect your brothers wishes to stay away, it is NOT your fault.” I paused briefly to hear if Alice had calmed down at all, I head the sobbing stop. “Alice please come home. We need to be together to figure this out.” Alice agreed to come home and will be here shortly. We are going to discuss what to do about the situation and how to tell Edward, he has to know. Oh, I hear Alice and Jasper running up to the house now, I am going to go. Will fill you in on what we decide as soon as I can. Always, Esme October 5, 2005
Diary, The last time I wrote you we were just about to leave Forks. Since then, we have moved up to Alaska with our cousins the Denali coven. We have not decided yet how long we will be staying with them. All we know is that we can not go back to Forks no matter how much we all want to. There is plenty of room for all of us here and we all get along, so it is fine with me however long we decide to stay here. I will say, it is nice to have some more 'people' to be around. Edward stayed with us here for a little while, but being around all of us thinking about Bella became to much for him to bare, so he has gone to stay by himself, and he calls every once in a while to let us know he is still alive, mostly. Carlisle is working at the hospital here again, and the kids have decided against going to school this time. They need the break, and it is easier for them to not think about Bella without school. That girl has affected us all in such profound ways. Our family feels like it is starting to fall apart without her, like once she was introduced into our lives she was suddenly the glue holding us all together. Or maybe it was just that Edward has always been our glue, and we basically lost him when we lost her. It is so hard to see everyone in so much pain. Rosalie does not show it much, but I can see that a part of her misses having Bella around. Even if it is only because of how happy she made Emmett. Emmett loves to mess with everyone, but he especially loved to mess with Bella, to make fun of her clumsiness, and watch her turn bright red. He is so rambunctious, sometimes he reminds me of a toddler. I have not been seeing to much of him and Rosalie lately. Rose has also been having a hard time without Edward, they were never very close but that is her brother. And poor Alice, her and Edward were not only brother and sister but also best friends. And her and Bella were so close they were practically attached to each other. If the poor girl could cry I am sure she would be almost constantly. Between her pain of missing Bella and Edward, she has to deal with her visions of seeing Bella in agony. And on top of all of that, she has to see and feel Jasper's pain and guilt. He blames himself for everything that happened to lead us to where we are. I know it was him who nearly attacked her, but NONE of us blame him in the slightest. We all knew the risks of having a human around, especially after the situation with James. I think Jasper still holds some guilt from that too, he feels he should have known and been able to stop her. Alice too. I am just trying to do my best to get by knowing that all of my kids are hurting. I do my best to try to keep them busy, we go hunting often, and play baseball almost every day. But it just isn't the same anymore. Carlisle has buried himself in his work more than usual lately, he misses his son. Edward was his first companion, and it is hard for him to be away from him. I feel the same, since my very beginning I have always had Carlisle and Edward with me. Aside from the few times that Edward needed to be on his own. However those times were easier because he was not heart broken and shattered like he is now. I wish there was a way that I could make him feel better. Well, I am going to cut this short so that I can spend some time with the kids, they just got home. I will update again soon, hopefully with happier news. Always, Esme September 15, 2005 Diary, Everything seemed to be going so great when Edward finally met his love Bella. However, a vampire dating a human has its consequences, and our family has faced some of the worst. My Edward is miserable, first the encounter with James, and then the birthday party. Here, let me tell you everything from where I left off last time. A few days after my last entry, Bella and Edward came home from Phoenix. She had a walking cast on her leg. Her and Edward hadn't been able to see each other very often, but Alice was able to go over to the house to see her whenever. Charlie loves Alice. After some time had passed, Edward called Charlie and asked him to sit down with him to talk. Charlie kindly agreed, and Edward went over to ask his permission to take Bella to the Prom that was coming up. Alice had seen that they would need to surprise Bella with this because she was not going to go willingly. Edward and Alice formed a plan. The night before the Prom, Alice invited Bella to spend the night, informing her and Charlie that Edward was out of town for the night with Emmett and Carlisle. Of course they were hunting but Alice did not tell Charlie that. Charlie had called me to confirm, he is a really good father. Edward had a bed put into his room just for the night, so that Bella would have something to sleep on. She was amazed by that, she is so modest. Alice had some how managed to convince Bella the next day to let her give her a makeover. Alice did her hair, her makeup and even gave her this light beautiful blue dress (Edwards favorite color on Bella) with matching heals. Bella was not to happy about the heals, but we all know how Alice is. Shortly before Alice was finished with Bella, the boys arrived home. Edward was already dressed in his suit. He patiently and politely waited at the bottom of the stairs as Alice announced that she was finished. She had to practically drag Bella out of the bathroom, as she had figured that something was going on. When they got to the top of the stairs and Bella looked down and saw Edward in his suit, her cheeks turned a deep scarlet red. Alice carefully lead Bella down the stairs, practically carrying her so she would not trip. Once they got to the bottom, Alice handed Bella off to Edward and he lifted her in his arms and kissed her. She was shocked and seemed to be speechless. Edward guided her out to his car and they took off. Edward later informed me that Bella had thought that he was going to change her, which he kind of laughed at. She was not to excited to find out that they were going to the Prom. But she did eventually have fun. Edward was not to happy to see Bella's friend Jacob Black there, seeing as he did not even go to school with them. Edward was polite however and allowed Jacob a dance when he asked. After the prom had ended Edward was a gentleman as always. He drove Bella home and walked her to the door step. He kissed her goodnight and returned home to tell me all about his Prom. He smiles so big when he talks about Bella and when they are together he lights up. It makes me SO happy to see my first son so happy. That is why is saddens me to continue telling you everything that has happened. Everything went fine for the next few months. Edward and Bella spent as much time together as they could. However the tables turned a few days ago on the 13th. It was Bella's birthday and Alice had decided she was throwing her a party. No surprises there. While the kids were at school I set everything up as Alice had instructed. She can get kind of bossy when it comes to her parties. We had a beautiful cake made just for Bella, there were streamers, candles and flowers everywhere. There was a punch bowel filled with bright red punch, some kind of joke I guess, and the presents from all of us were stacked on the table next to the cake. Alice had brought her present, a dress, with her to school to show Bella and help break the ice about the party. Bella was not to happy about it, seeing as she had asked for us to not give her presents and especially not a party. But we all know there is no denying Alice once she has her mind set on something. Bella quickly gave in and agreed. Bella drove her self to the house after school while Edward followed behind her, when they arrived he ran her around to the backyard and they came in the house through his window, to avoid her seeing the decorations before we were ready for her. Everyone got dressed in their best quickly and returned back downstairs. Emmett even sneaked out to Bella's truck to install her present from him and Rosalie. They got her a new stereo system for her truck. Once Bella was dressed in her new dress from Alice she came out and slowly made her way down the stairs. Edward went to meet her half way, but Alice had beat him to it. She wanted to show off her dress pick, and to feel Bella's excitement when she saw everything. Once they reached the bottom, Edward took Bella's hand, and Alice quickly snapped a photo with Bella's camera. Bella looked around and took everything in. When she saw the cake she looked confused, she asked why there was suck a big cake when none of us will eat it, only her. We all laughed and I just told her that Alice is unstoppable and we don't do anything small in this family. Soon it was time for presents. First she opened the empty stereo box from Rosalie and Emmett, she was confused until they told her that they had already installed it, she thanked them and moved on to the next present. Carlisle and I had gotten her two open tickets to Jacksonville to go see her mother. One for her and one for Edward to go with her if she wants him to, which we are sure she will. Her final present was another from Alice and Jasper, as she was opening it she cut her finger on the paper and that is where everything went wrong. The scent of her blood wafted towards us, and Jasper snapped. He is new at this vegetarian thing, and the smell was to much for him. In a split second he leaped towards her, but Edward stopped him and simultaneously threw him forward, while pushing Bella backward. However, with everything that was going on, he was a little to strong with Bella and threw her into a wall of photo frames and a table of dishes. Something had gotten her and sliced her arm open, which sent most of us into a frenzy. Everyone but Carlisle rushed to get out, while Emmett and Edward dragged Jasper out. Carlisle cleaned Bella up and wrapped her arm. Once all the blood was cleaned up and the rags were burned, everyone but Alice and Jasper returned. Rose, Emmett and I went to work cleaning up the rest of the living room, while Edward apologized profusely to Bella and they came up with a story for Charlie. Edward quickly drove Bella home in her truck and ran back home to talk to us. That incident was to much for him, he has decided that we need to leave, to keep her safe. My poor Edward is entirely heart broken, but he strongly believes this is what needs to be done, for her sake, that it is the only way to keep her safe. Edward has been avoiding seeing Bella since the party, and he has decided that we will all be leaving Forks tomorrow. After school he is going to meet Bella at her house and tell her that we are leaving, and that she can not come with. No matter how much we have all tried to convince him, he has it set in his mind that this is what is right, that this is what he needs to do, for her. He is very strong, I could never do what he is about to do. It is very sad for all of us, Forks has been our home for so long, and we all have grown so fond of Bella. And even more fond of seeing Edward with a smile, truly happy, in love. Carlisle has already let the hospital know that he is leaving, and I have gone to the school and withdrew all five kids. For now we will be going back to Alaska with our cousins the Denali family. We have made arrangements with them, and the moving trucks will be ready tonight. I can't believe this is actually happening. I really do not want to leave my home. I have never felt more at home that I have here in Forks... Well, I guess I have stalled long enough, I should finish up packing, that includes you. I will update you again once we get settled in in Alaska. I really hope things can work out some how. Always, Esme Diary, So much has happened over the past few days that I have not had time to update you. One of the things I feared with Edward falling for Bella, has happened. She has been hurt, and is in the hospital. Let me start from the beginning. Edward brought Bella over to meet the family last week. After a few minuets of getting to know each other, we left for the field that we like to play baseball in. It was the perfect condition for vampire baseball, thunderstorms. The game started off as usual. Bella was our umpire, the boys were getting competitive, and Alice was pitching as usual. After a few hits, Alice froze in place, with a shocked and worried look on her face. She yelled for us to all stop and explained that she had seen three nomad vampires that were passing through town, they were going to keep going, but heard us and wanted to see if they could join. These nomads had already been causing some trouble in town by feeding off of the humans, now they were coming here and we had Bella with us. Carlisle kept calm and told them that a few of us were just leaving, and they could take our place. Everything was going fine until the wind blew. One of the male nomads, James, caught her scent and decided at that moment that he had to feed off her. Edward threw himself in front of Bella, and James took that as a challenge. At first they seemed to have backed down, however as soon as they were out of hearing distance, Edward explained to us that James is a tracker, and his reaction to protect Bella had just made this a very exciting game for James, and he will not stop until he gets what he wants, Bella's blood. After much arguing between everyone, we finally settled on a plan. No matter how much Edward hated the idea, Bella and him could not be together for this part. James would expect that. Alice and Jasper took Bella to Phoenix, and Edward was going to meet them there in a few days time. While they were doing that Rosalie and I were to divert James and his mate Victoria by wearing Bella's clothes and running North. When James caught on that he was not actually following Bella, Alice saw his decision, and our plans were changed. He was headed to Phoenix. Edward got on the first plane he could to get to Bella, Carlisle and Emmett went along to help him. While Rosalie and I stayed to protect Charlie and keep and eye on Victoria. When Edward's plane was scheduled to land, Alice and Jasper took Bella to the airport. The plan was that Edward would take Bella away and we would deal with James and they would come back when it was safe. However, Bella is a stubborn girl. What we did not know at the time was that James had already made it to Phoenix, and had actually been to Bella’s old home. He took some home movies, and went to a ballet studio that Bella used to take classes at. He called Bella on her cell phone and tricked her with the home movies to make her think that he had her mother, Rene. Bella loves her family more than anything, and would do anything to protect them. So when James told her that she had to ditch her guards and meet him at the studio or he would kill her mother, she did not even think twice. Once in the airport, she asked Jasper to walk her to the restroom, and ran out the back door while he was waiting for her. Because of Bella's quick thinking, Alice was not able to see her decision till it was to late. Edward had just gotten off the plane and immediately heard Alice's thoughts screaming about Bella. Without a second thought he ran off. He reached the studio before everyone else because he is the fastest. He began to fight with James, and was about to rip his head off when Carlisle arrived. He calmed Edward down and got him to come help Bella. James had done quiet a bit of damage. He snapped her leg and tore the artery, she was bleeding a lot. He had also bit her hand. Edward had a hard choice to make, the bite was fresh enough that the venom had not made it to far, and he would be able to suck it out (like a snake bite). Or he could let the venom go and let the change occur. Edward eventually had the strength to choose to suck the venom out. Afterword, Carlisle got her to the hospital. In the meantime, Jasper, Emmett and Alice took care of James and burned the entire studio down to conceal all evidence. After everyone got the story straight, Alice, Jasper and Emmett came home, and Edward called Rene and Charlie to tell them what had happened. They made up a story that after Bella left Forks, he felt bad about the fight and didn't want to force her away from her home, so his father and him came to talk to her and see if she would come back so that they could work things out. However on her way to the hotel that they were staying at she fell down the stairs and fell out of a second story window. Alice had a little bit of fun fabricating the evidence for that story. Of coarse no one had a hard time believing that, Bella has always been clumsy and accident prone. She even said that if she didn’t remember what happened she would believe the story too. A lot happened in the hospital. Edward decided that it was to dangerous for him to be with Bella, however she would not let him leave. They love each other so much. He ended up promising her that he will stay with her for as long as he with good for her. But that he would never put her in danger again when he can avoid it. Rene wanted Bella to come and live with her in Jacksonville, but no matter how much she loves her mother, she would not give up the chance to be with Edward. Charlie was very happy with that decision, he loves his little girl, and love having her home with him. However he is not to fond of Edward anymore. Which I can understand. After everything had settled down at the hospital Carlisle came home to me, and let me know everything that I had just shared with you. Edward will be home when Bella is released from the hospital in a few days. But I don’t think that he will be spending to much time with her for a while, as Charlie put it “she is grounded till she is 80”. I couldn’t help but giggle at that. I know he will see her at school and when Charlie is not home. Now after all that drama, I am going to spend as much time possible with my wonderful husband before he has to go back to work. I will update you as soon as there is new news. Always, Esme March 12, 2005
Diary, So much has happened since the last time I wrote in you. I somehow managed to misplace you and have just found you, so let me catch you up. The last time I wrote was about Alice's strange feeling, there is a reason for it that we recently figured out. I will get to that later though. We spent quiet some more time in Alaska with our cousins, but finally 2 years ago we decided it would be safe to return to our true home, Forks. We all accept this as our real home, we all love it here so much. Carlisle returned to his job at the hospital, they took one look at his paperwork and graciously handed him the job on the spot. No surprise really, if only they knew the real amount of time he has been a doctor. All of the 'kids' were enrolled into the local high school, Alice and Edward as freshman, and Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie as sophomores. They don't really enjoy school, but it helps us to blend in more, and stay for longer. Here we are two years later. Everything is going fairly smoothly as usual. However there was one small indecent and another which was not so small and a secret that could put us all in danger. On January 18th, Edward met a new girl in one of his classes. Her name is Bella Swan, and she changed our lives forever, but we will get to that later. Edward was so drawn to her blood that he nearly killed her in class, however my boy has wonderful control, and restrained himself. He couldn't take it though and he decided to take off for a while, we were not sure where he went or when he would be back. But a week later he came back home and let us know he was in Alaska trying to clear his mind. We let him know that he did not have to go back to school if he could not handle it, but he told us he would be fine and returned the next day. That is when the next indecent took place. It was a cold wet day, as usual in Forks, and one of the boys in Edwards grade lost control of his car. He slid across the parking lot and would have crushed Bella Swan. Without thinking, Edward leaped across the parking lot and saved her. No one but her saw him, and he managed to convince her for a while that it was nothing. Edward has grown very close to Bella over time. He can not read her mind, which intrigues him, he claims. However I think he may be falling for her. Which is where the real danger comes in. She knows our secret. I won't go into details about how, but she has promised not to tell anyone and we believe her. Well, at least most of us do. Rosalie does not like the situation at all, and she hardly talks to her brother any more. Alice has seen that they will be good friends one day soon, and as for the rest of the family they just trust in Edward. I am not sure what exactly to feel though at this time, I want to trust my son, but this could potentially put us all in grave danger. It is against the vampire laws for a human to know we exist. It is scary to be honest. Three days ago Edward made it obvious to the entire town that Bella and him are in fact together. She is his mate, and he is happy. He takes her to school in the morning and spends the afternoons with her after school. Today is the first day that they are spending the entire day together alone. I am a little bit worried, but I trust my Edward. He asked us this morning before he left to go see her if he could bring her over to meet the family tomorrow. We had a family meeting about it and decided that it was time we meet the girl who has changed all of our lives. It will be nice for Carlisle and I to meet her, and for the others to get to know her out side of school. Rosalie is not to happy about it, but she has agreed to be civil. Most of us were worried about Jasper, but Alice said she did not see anything bad happening. But they plan to go hunting before she arrives, just to be safe. Carlisle has even taken the day off for this. He is still going to work the night shift but he will be home all day. That makes me happy. Now as for Alice's weird feeling September 13, 1987; That was the day that miss Bella Swan was born. Alice must have sensed it and known that she was meant to be with our Edward. Her gift is so strange sometimes. We were very excited and also kind of nervous when we finally put that together. I do hope everything works out for the best between them. Oh, well I just heard my loves car pull up, I am going to go spend some time with him. Edward should be home soon too, and I want to see how his day went, and if we still plan on having human company tomorrow. I will have to cook something for her. Always, Esme |
InfoEsme Cullen the vampire matriarch of the Olympic Coven. She is the wife of Carlisle Cullen and the adoptive mother of Alice, Emmett, Edward Cullen, Rosalie and Jasper Hale. Discover the world through her eyes. Esme's Diary is written by Kayla Fan PageClick here to read first entryArchives |