March 16, 2006
Diary, If my heart was not frozen in time, still beating, it would have stopped just now. Alice just called home and gave us the worst news I can imagine. But before I tell you about that let me catch you up. Last I wrote you we were just settling into our cousins house in Alaska. Not to much has changed since then. Rosalie and Emmett went on another honey moon for a little more than a month, but have been back for a while. Alice and Jasper went away for longer. After the encounter with James, Alice had learned more about where she was from. And she wanted to know about her family. So they left to see what they could find out. Carlisle and I have been spending time together as much as possible, it made it a little easier being away from the kids. Now no one really talked to Edward much anymore. Not because we didn't want to but because he did not want any thing that would remind him of her. He left us shortly after we arrived in Alaska, he couldn’t stand all of our thought about her anymore, so he needed to be away. At first he called every day, then once a week, and then he would only call Alice to ask how her adventures were going. Now the only time we hear anything about him is when Alice sees a vision of him. She always calls home to tell us about how he is doing. And he is not doing to well. Now to tell you what happened today... I was sitting at my desk drawing some plans for our new home (we were going to move soon), when my cell phone buzzed in my pocket. I pulled it out with a quick glance at the external screen, it was Alice. I flipped the phone open and brought it to my ear in one quick movement, “Hello Alice, how are you doing today honey?” I asked cheerfully. Silence from her end... eventually she spoke softly “Uhm, mom... I don’t know how to tell you this... something h-happened, something TERRIBLE.” he voice cut off into dry sobs, my heart felt like it was going to start beating again with the anticipation. “Alice, please tell me what happened, are you ok? Where is Jasper? Is he hurt??” I was panicking. I heard her draw in a deep breath and let it out slowly, “Mom, I am ok, Jasper is right here he is fine... Mom, its... its... B...Bella.” she sighed deep, and continued, “She, she... I can't believe she would do this... mom, she is is... d-dead.” Alice began sobbing again. It felt like my heart had thawed, started beating, abruptly stopped, and fell out of my chest. I swallowed hard and slowly pulled in a deep breath. “Alice, how do you know this, what happened?” I hardly managed to get the words out. I listened carefully as she explained. In one breath Alice blurted out “I was out hunting with Jasper when suddenly a vision clouded my sight, I saw Bella standing on the edge of a cliff, she was pulling off her jacket, she looked over the edge, walked back a few steps and ran... She ran right to the edge and j-jumped off... I saw her hit the water and go down, then everything got foggy and I couldn’t see anything else. I tried so hard to see her, to see what happened, hoping some one something would pull her out, that she would surface and be ok. But she didn’t. Nothing else happened, that is the last I saw her. I keep trying and searching, but...but I can't see her anymore. Why would she do this?! How could she!?! I... I.. oh my god what about Edward, this is going to kill him!! Wh..What are we going to do, we can't tell him this... this shouldn't have happened... I should have stayed to watch her......” Alice's voice trailed off at the end, she was sobbing harder now. I pulled myself together and took a deep breath, “Alice, calm down, there is nothing you could have done, all you did was respect your brothers wishes to stay away, it is NOT your fault.” I paused briefly to hear if Alice had calmed down at all, I head the sobbing stop. “Alice please come home. We need to be together to figure this out.” Alice agreed to come home and will be here shortly. We are going to discuss what to do about the situation and how to tell Edward, he has to know. Oh, I hear Alice and Jasper running up to the house now, I am going to go. Will fill you in on what we decide as soon as I can. Always, Esme
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InfoEsme Cullen the vampire matriarch of the Olympic Coven. She is the wife of Carlisle Cullen and the adoptive mother of Alice, Emmett, Edward Cullen, Rosalie and Jasper Hale. Discover the world through her eyes. Esme's Diary is written by Kayla Fan PageClick here to read first entryArchives |