Topic: Is this really who I used to be, why doesn't this feel familiar?
Date: September 26th, 2009 Dear Diary Well It’s a month since my last entry, I have been so busy you will not believe it Marcus has been keeping me so busy & Felix with the lessons on how to defend myself I am getting really good at it, of course there is little Toby too, he is still recovering, but little by little he is getting comfortable, he is naturally attached to me that little scamp, in my free time I have been reading my old diary, I gave it to Marcus before my memory loss apparently. So I decided to rewrite this one entry, just to show you, but you will not believe this my writing…its so unlike me it’s almost as if I didn’t write it, but then if I didn’t write it than who did right? Dear Diary I was given a second chance today, today I was saved by a man. A man so sophisticated and educated, a man whom appreciates the fine arts now how was it I was saved, what put me in danger, well I am so reckless I went around the streets in volterra, I can’t help it I am such a curious woman I just wanted to see the sites, so I went out exploring and I must admit everything is so beautiful and well established, I was walking down the streets a quarter after ten and i was afraid, i felt this shadow watching me stalking me, i would watch over my shoulder haunting me it was frightening, i could feel my heart pound against my chest and i looked foward and pretended not to be afraid of the shadow that was stalking me, instead i walked along the street and heard a glass bottle roll over the floor, i stopped and looked around scared and saw no one was there, but i wasn't alone i could feel it the eyes of the devil himself watching me, preying on my vulnerabilities. enjoying the terror that i felt coursing through my body after looking around to make sure i didn't miss anything i turned and ran forward, I was running, but in a flash a hand stuck out from the alley i was running past and pulled me in, I screamed out and whimpered as i was thrown into a wall I looked at the shadow for the first time and i could see true evil, a force of evil that was haunting me this evening. I looked at the blood red eyes of this demon, he hissed at me and leaned in to lick my neck, i screamed out and he placed his ice cold hand over my mouth and he whispered into my ear "say one more word and i shall kill you oh and i promise you whore it will be a painful death you will burn for agony and you will scream for death i promise you this, so if you wish for a painful death go ahead bitch scream for me... in fact i want to hear you scream, i want to hear you beg for your pathetic life" the man spoke to me, i looked at this man and his beautiful ice cold skin it was dark, and exotic. i closed my eyes and wondered what he would do to me, the pain that awaited. one of my worst fears in this situation came true, the man ripped my blouse open and pulled off my bra and i whimpered afraid and begged quietly for the man to leave me be, I opened my eyes and watched that sinister man touch my breast and it felt like ice was all over me he had the touch of death the touch of ice cold death, thats the words that stuck in my head, because i knew it was true, how else could i explain it that this man who's touch was like ice was touching me and tormenting me, he was going to take the thing that i valued most, my virtue, I don't want my first time to be with a demon in an alley, I want it to be somewhere romantic, with my husband a man who would be smart, dedicated, a man with pride a man who would treasure me and spoil me, he would worship me and give me his heart desire. I closed my eyes and he leaned in and licked my neck, his knee was between my legs as he groaned and continued to toy with my breast and i cried, and continued his sick and twisted pleasure he pulled back and looked at me "alright whore, it's time for foreplay to end." he spoke out and chuckled darkly the man's hand traveled down to that lower reigian, and he pulled down my underwear and unzipped his pants, i called out for hope hoping that i would have a knight in shining armor come save me and at that moments my prayers were answered, a man with pale skin and milky red eyes came and threw the beast off me he went flying as he crashed into the other wall he was up in a flash and he looked at my savior "Marcus you ancient bastard you dare interupt my fun i am not pleased" the exotic man spoke My hero looked at my attacker with killer intent "brian jacobson scourge of our world, have you no shame attacking this beautiful woman trying to taint her beauty and innocence with your filth" the exotic vampire snarled at my hero, and looked at me, i was so afraid when he looked at me, i fell over and cowered in fear, two others joined my hero ariving in a blur one of them was a teenage boy and the other was a brute of a man so muscular and built like a statue. i closed my eyes and heard the voice of my attacker " she is my toy, my possession she belongs to me, marcus you are out of line" he snarled, my hero's name is marcus a wonderful name, "brian you forget, i am one of the three kings, i am the law nothing is out of line for me everything is permitted and this beautiful woman will not be violated by you or anyone i forbid it" marcus sounded like he meant it and brian hissed out in anger, "futher more brian jacobson you are no longer welcome in italy you have 12 hours to vacate safely after those twelve hours you will be killed on sight within italy do i make myself clear." he spoke with authority brian hissed something and the giant man with marcus stepped in front of marcus as if to protect him Brian just muttered something and the big brute hissed at Brian. It was then Brian looked at me "I will make you mine, one of these days I will return and i will reclaim you dead or alive this much i promise you." his voice was cold and emotionless and I knew he meant it. He left in a blur and i could see that Marcus had made a fist out of anger. Marcus turned to face me and his fist vanished, he removed his long black cloak and covered my exposed body, "there there, he will not harm you i promise." Marcus Spoke as he looked at me, i just looked away from him, how could I look at the man who had saved me, when i was exposed. I felt filthy totally and utterly dirty, i just wanted to have a long long shower, I could hear Marcus speak "Alec, knock her out...Felix keep a look out for Brian." Before i could even move my head, everything had gone white There was no feeling, no touching, no seeing or taste no hearing, There was no dreams so i knew i wasn't asleep, I imagined death was something of this sort of experience, I existed in a white void of nothingness. Slowly however everything returned and when my sight returned i found myself in a beautiful bedroom and tucked into a beautiful bed, i checked under the blankets to see i was wearing a night gown, it wasn't ;ong til Marcus returned with the teenager and the big brute I hid my head under the blankets only to hear a chuckle of laughter. The laughter I heard was so enchanting, I peeked from my blanket to see it was Marcus laughing, i smiled shyly and the people with marcus just smiled. "you are such an amusing lady Sarah Frost." I sat up surprised "How did you know my name" I asked Marcus stood there and moved both hands behind his back, i noticed how elegant he looked, he walked a few steps towards the bed and stopped "I have a brother, he is very talented, with one small touch he can see every thought you have ever had. Aro that brother of mine is very curious, he is like a child in some ways...once he saw your thoughts he told me everything." I felt like i had been violated in some way, to have my inner most thoughts and secrets exposed by force it wasn't right. i didn’t know what to say to marcus at that moment, heck i don't even know if he was human he didn't look it he was pale and his eyes it was that exact moment i noticed his eyes they were just like brians. "your eyes" i spoke out quietly he walked another step closer and i flinched from fear marcus looked back at the teenage boy and then back to me "sarah my pet you may have noticed that my associates and i are not exactly normal if you give me the chance to explain i promise you it will change your life forever sarah, for the better. i asked him " if i hear your story am i free to leave once you finished" marcus looked to the brute "if you wish to leave i will permit it" he answered modestly. so i told marcus to start his story and he told me the impossible, marcus and his associates were vampires and marcus himself was not only five thousand years old, but he was one of three vampire kings he told me the highlights of his immortal life as a vampire king and his recent exploits chasing a rouge vampire that vampire was brian jacobson he was a former associate who helped marcus's kingdom ( though they call themselves the volturi ) brian had disobeyed marcus, but because of a technicality brian did not break the law so he couldn’t be punished . when i asked marcus of the laws of the vampires he told me he would explain later, marcus introduced his two associates to me, the brute was named felix while the teenager was named alec. i remember feeling afraid of felix he was like a goliath and i well...i was a little woman. i introduced myself to the two even though marcus or his brother must have surely informed them about who i was they nodded and i removed the blanket that was over my body and climbed out of the surprisingly comfortable bed, i explained to them "marcus i have kept my end of the deal and heard you out, but i am going home now, i need to have a long long shower" marcus then suprised me " i am afraid i cannot permit you to leave sarah" I was shocked, "what, but you told me that if i listened to your story you would let me go home" marcus shook his head "i told you i would permit you to leave, i did not mention you could leave the grounds of our estate." I was outraged at marcus he deceived me, i felt trapped i had no option but to listen as marcus continued " Sarah i will be honest with you, i am attracted to you your my La Tua Cantante everything about you draws me in you are my world and if you only gave me the chance to court you and protect you i promise you wouldn't regret it i can make you happy i know you can be happy with me...please Sarah give me that chance" i looked at marcus not just his fragile yet attractive physique, but i looked at his misty red eyes and saw vulnerability and sincerity. i knew he meant it and for some reason i just said "your words their sincere I can see that you mean it marcus, but i am not sure im ready for a relationship let alone one with a vampire whom is refusing to let me go home" before i continued marcus interupted me, "but sarah my pet this s your home i can give you everything you need" i raised my hand "marcus let me finish, i cant love you, we know nothing about each other...well you know everything about me, but i have no idea who you are...how about we start off as friends" i gave marcus that offer and he graciously accepted the offer . i will admit this whole thing felt uncomfortable, but at the same time it felt oddly comfortable to be with marcus he is such a lovely man unlike that uncouth brian jacobson brian i will never forgive brian the monstrous fiend. marcus explained the laws of the vampires and the reason behind it and he explained my options death or immortality and it may seem like an easy choice, but it's not to grow old you gain wisdom that only the elderly have gained, and then there is the alternative to live forever as marcus's companion to be his mate i know he would love me, respect me and give me my hearts desire he would treat me the way a woman deserves to be treated an animal like that brian jacobson would only violate me over and over until he discards me like trash at least marcus gave me some sort of choice death or immortality with him. Those are the laws he as one of the three kings must enforce. Well i think i might spend some more time with marcus, get to know him ~ Sarah So there you have it thats one of my entries from the diary i gave marcus, but to tell the truth something seems a bit off, i don't connect to those words i mean felix told me before i lost my memory i was strong and defiant, yet in that entry i was submissive and weak it just doesn’t make sense to me i feel that those words that have been written are not my own, but the question i now ask myself is if those words are not my own then who's words are they and why did marcus tell me that these words are mine? i just don’t understand...maybe i am just being paranoid anyway i am going to go hang out with toby and play with the little one ~Sarah
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InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
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