When the damsel is dead the knight despairs, mourning the precious life that has been lost. The knight travels to his king and begs for bitter sweet obliteration to end his life and reunite with the one who gave the knight the most precious gift of all... LOVE.
Topic: the swan that leaped to her death only to fly and defy gravity Date:March 19th 2006 Dearest Diary, I have made a horrible horrible mistake it's because of me that Edward's very life is in danger. After my last entry I called Edward on his phone and he answered it. He was so lifeless I thought about Edward and in his current condition I wondered if he could handle the news of Bella’s death. He invested so much into Bella, his very heart. I thought about how to tell him I know I had to be tactful about it, it's not like i could say "hey Bella pulled an Esme" the very thought of saying that is hurtful because what Esme went through can't be mocked, she suffered so much. I can relate to Esme, her first husband was abusive so she suffered through agony and humiliation. But she held on and stood her ground because she wanted a child so bad but sadly she ended up losing her child and in complete despair she jumped off a cliff to end it all, the sorrow and pain. So you see to say something like that would be insensitive and tactless I feel ashamed just for thinking it. I made small talk while at the same time tried to think of the most humane way to tell my older brother how the love of his life has perished in a moment of despair. "Edward I" I spoke out but he interrupted me "what is the real reason for calling me Rosalie" Edward asked me. I expected to hear that short tempered tone in his voice, but it was bleak and lifeless. I wondered if Edward was feeding properly, I could imagine his messy bronze hair with dark circles around his eyes and and pitch black eyes. "Edward it's about Bella" I could hear his breathing stop immediately. See vampires don't need air to breathe, but we do it anyway because it helps us fit in with humans, that and if we don't breathe we can't smell things which would be bad because I enjoy the scent of the rain and my lovely monkey man. "I was trying to tell you before you interrupted me. Edward, Bella is dead...Alice had a vision of her jumping off the cliff and she didn't resurface" Edward asked me what I was talking about and I explained everything from the start starting with Alice’s vision of Bella leaping off the cliff and how her vision ended right after she entered the water. Edward was quiet, probably shocked, I imagined the bleak look of hopelessness on his face as he first realized that Bella was dead. I could imagine the darkness in his eyes webbed with the image of Bella in his mind as he literally saw a specter of her standing before him with her pale skin with her dark brown hair blowing back leaving her neck partially exposed he probably would have imagined her wearing jeans a brown shirt with a flannel shirt over the shirt, the scar from James' bite barely visible from the flannel over shirt. Edward would have opened his jaw just a little the moment of silence lasted a few seconds but felt like hours had gone, the silence was broken as I heard Edward speak. "I was going to go back... beg for her to forgive me to take me back... why... this is all my fault" Edward's voice was different it wasn’t bleak and emotionless, it was heartbroken, it was so hard for me to hear it. Hearing Edward’s voice it made my heart weighted down. I never did like Bella much but Edward did I tried to clear it up with Edward I tried to beg him to go see Carlisle and Esme, that he needed them now more than ever. He just said something cryptic "can't be true will see for myself" Edward hung the phone up on me and I placed the phone down I folded my arms and looked down I wondered if I should tell Carlisle and Esme. I was surprised to hear Emmett "you told Edward didn't you" he asked me his voice lacked the usual mischievous attitude. He was sad too, he liked Bella too. He thought she made things more exciting she had such a flare for bad luck, Emmett found it amusing. "I don’t understand how she could do it" Emmett spoke, his voice was sad I imagined he was sad for Edward too I walked towards Emmett and placed my hand on his cheek "we should tell Esme and Carlisle about Bella... Edward will need all the support he can get" I spoke caressing Emmett's cheek my finger going slowly. Emmett closed his eyes and gave a low moan I moved in close to hug Emmett, to wrap my arms around his big muscular body it was always a challenge. I enjoy tracing my finger over his muscular chest to feel the abs on his warm body. Emmett was quiet and I hugged him tighter "you know I think you would look hot as a blond" I told Emmett trying to cheer him up, Emmett snorted a laugh "baby I am fine just the way I am." I nodded " I know Emmett, what I am trying to say is with the amount of fun and trouble you get into you should really be a blond." I informed Emmett trying to sound seductive I wanted to distract him. Emmett looked at me laughed "come on babe I'm a saint" Emmett spoke cheering up just a little. I remember feeling an accomplishment with myself at that moment, distracting Emmett from the grief he was sharing for Edward. "you're only a saint when you're asleep the rest of the time you're my sexy god" Emmett looked at me confused and spoke "but we never sleep babe" Emmett spoke "exactly my point you sexy beast" I told him and slipped my hand under his shirt to feel his abs of steel with the hand on my side I placed it on Emmett's arm and pulled him down to kiss him passionately letting my tongue explore his mouth. It seemed my plan to distract Emmett was working as his hands rested on my waist for a moment Emmett's big hands traveled from my waist and down to the outer thighs to rest firmly on my buttocks. Emmett pulled me in with force my chest hit his torso with a thud Emmett pulled back from my lips and moved in to kiss my neck as his hands massaged my buttocks a soft moan escape my lips as Emmett worked his manly touch on me I loved his touch. Emmett pulled back and slowly removed his shirt slowly, tormenting me with the delicious godlike muscles of a god looking at those muscles, especially in daylight to see how his chest sparkled like an ocean of diamonds, just seeing it is enough for me to tackle Emmett and rip that shirt off his chest and take him over and over. But the only thing stopping me was the thought that Emmett needed the distraction so I allowed him to be in charge so he could keep his mind busy. Emmett finally removed his shirt and dropped it. Emmett grabbed my hand and guided it to the zipper of his jeans "give me a hand babe" Emmett asked his voice was excited and cocky I raised my eyebrow "your wish is my command, I live to obey my god" I got on my knees and unbuttoned the jeans and undid the little buckle and pulled down Emmett’s zipper to see his white underwear "what you're not going commando today" I asked Emmett seductively. He chuckled " sorry babe I know you like it when you can see my manhood, and touch it" I smiled sheepishly I knew if I was still human I would have been blushing I mean don't get me wrong Emmett and I aren’t shy about this stuff we show our love even if Esme wished we were more discreet about our relationship, but that's just not us. When we are together we want the whole world to know the pleasure we get from each others company. I pulled down Emmett's jeans and placed my hands on his thighs rubbing those sexy thighs right down to his calf’s where I massaged it. I heard Emmett moan "come on babe stop playing with me" I looked up at Emmett still on my knees and smiled "I thought you liked it when I played with you" I asked coyly Emmett chuckled "oh you know I do babe, but this is not the kind of playing I enjoy" he spoke in that deep cocky voice of his I remained on my knees and lifted myself up a little so my buttocks were no longer resting on the back of my legs and I leaned in to kiss his bellybutton and my lips traveled down his smooth pale skin to the waistband of Emmett's designer underwear, Calvin Klein. My teeth grabbed the designer underwear at the waistband and my hands went to Emmett's ass where I massaged his firm tight ass over the underwear. I could hear Emmett's excited laugh and just as I was about to rip the underwear off with my teeth my phone went off and I let go of the underwear I heard Emmett groan a little disappointed. I kissed Emmett's belly button and got up. Emmett grumbled something disappointed. I went to the phone it had Esme on caller I.D after answering it Esme told me Jasper had called Carlisle right after Alice had left in order to discuss on the best way to tell Edward on Bella's death. My eyes widened and I bit on my bottom lip I could not bring myself to tell Esme I already told Edward what happened so I instead asked Esme how far she and Carlisle were from the Denali's. Esme told me she was about 30 minuets away, Carlisle was really testing the limitations of the rental car. Esme hung up and I sighed I knew things would only get a lot harder when they found out the truth that I had already told Edward. I listened carefully and sighed I could hear the roar of the engine from Carlisle's rental car it was loud like a lions roar the dominating noise echoed through out the lands I sighed quietly. Emmett no doubt heard Esme and the roar of the rental cars engine. Emmett placed his hand on my buttocks, I felt his bare muscular body rub up behind me as I felt his godlike body continue to stay against me "wanna make it a quickie babe" Emmett asked me I nodded my head "sure I could use a distraction. There is, but one problem with that now" I told him. Emmett looked concerned "as if you know how to go quick your a real man with stamina" I informed Emmett, he chuckled and stepped out in front of me still in his designer underwear "normally that's true,but with all that teasing I could burst any moment" Emmett spoke. I rolled my eyes up and he kissed my forehead Emmett started to pull at my clothing "so I please you good huh babe" Emmett spoke and I laughed "you're my magnificent god almighty I could search a THOUSAND years and no one could come close to pleasing me and making me feel like you make me feel" I spoke as I placed my hands at his waist my thumbs under his Calvin Klines "just a warning babe when you pull those Calvin Klines down you prepare yourself for the time of your life, the earth will shake your body will twitch in pleasure for hours on end and you will swear you've been floating with the stars at night" I rolled up my eyes Emmett was so arrogant and cocky he is so lucky I love that about him. "enough talk lets get these clothes off you" I spoke and pulled Emmett’s pants down to his ankles I looked at Emmett and he pulled off my top and my phone went off again. Emmett groaned and rested his head on my shoulder "aww babe" he pouted I rubbed Emmett’s large back "we would have had to have stopped anyway Esme and Carlisle are almost here" I told him. Emmett grumbled "it never stopped us before" I smiled a little Emmett had a good point I always wanted Emmett and he wanted me just as much. I painfully pulled away from Emmett so I could put my top back on and picked up my phone to see it was Alice calling. I picked up the phone and answered it greeting Alice and she seemed distressed and asked to speak to Carlisle, but Carlisle wasn’t here yet. I estimated 15 to 20 minutes tops. Alice spoke "Rose I need to talk to Carlisle now" she spoke urgently "Carlisle is not here. His phone is just out of reception he should be back soon, are you coming over too?" Alice answered in a rush then she asked the question I knew would get me in trouble I had to confess so I confessed "Alice I told Edward that Bella committed suicide that she is dead." Alice paused for a moment and answered "why... why would you do that Rosalie" Alice spoke her voice had traces of anger in it" I felt Edward deserved to know that Bella is dead so he can move on with his life and accept the truth, Bella Swan is dead. I didn’t think it would be a problem Alice" I spoke out trying to sound normal. Emmett came in to hug me from behind I knew this was hard on my gentle monkey man I can tell you this now, what Alice told me next I would never have guessed in 1000 years. "yeah well you're wrong on both counts though Rosalie so that would be a problem don’t you think" Alice spat at me her voice was like acid the amount of malice in her voice I could imagine her angry expression and I looked blankly ahead of me as my brain processed this new information. My jaw dropped a little and I could feel Emmett's grip tighten around me in shock he had heard everything Alice had told me. I knew Emmett was happy I could feel it I did not need Jasper's gift to know my mans emotions. "you mean to tell me Isabella Swan... Edward's Bella is alive. But how can that be Alice you had a vision that Bella jumped off a cliff and you did not see her resurface you told us that Alice... she cant be alive its impossible" I told Alice still somewhat in disbelief. Then of course Alice told me "yes that's right she's absolutely fine- I was wrong... it's a long story... but you're wrong about that part too that's why I'm calling … yes that's exactly what i saw" I couldn’t think of anything to say for a moment I realized what that meant for Edward "oh Alice... oh Alice I am so very sorry I did not want to upset Edward" I apologized I felt horrible what Alice said next cut me deeply "it's a bit late for that, Rose save your remorse for someone who believes it." she snapped at me and hung up. I dropped my phone and still felt Emmett's arms around me he said something softly, but I couldn't process it. Alice's words stung so badly. I was close to Alice, we were so close. We did everything together we were best friends. Then of course Bella came over and we distanced. Alice didn’t care if Bella was with Edward, if she became one of us. And I did... we became distant and now... Alice hated me, my sister... hated me. Now that piece of information processed in my mind I could hear Emmett’s words trying to comfort me "come on babe you know Alice is just worried about Edward you know how close those two are" he stroked my hair and kissed my neck "you know what Emmett... I don't care, who needs them" I spoke trying to sound unaffected. I turned to face Emmett and had on my perfect fake smile and hid the emotions I felt from Emmett "come on babe you can't lie to me I know your hurting we can talk about it if you want" I shook my head "maybe latter" I told him, Emmett didn’t pressure me, he knew I would talk to him when I was ready and at the moment I wasn’t ready to talk about that realization... Edward... I truly believed at the time that I told him that it was in his best interest, I didn’t want to hurt anyone, but of course I did. Why is it... why is it I always end up hurting people I treasure. I kept on asking myself that same question over and over, but I could never figure it out so I decided there was only one thing I could do... only one way to stop Edward, this is my fault I would be the one to correct it. I told Emmett that I would be going hunting he wanted to come too naturally, but I told him no I opened the bedroom window and had one foot stepped out and before the rest of me could go out I felt Emmett's hand on my shoulder I turned to look at Emmett and he smiled "come on babe as if you could lie to me, if your going after Edward then I am going with you" I opened my mouth to tell him no, I mean it's my fault my brother's life was in danger, but I would be damned if I would put the life of my lover... my soul mate in mortal peril "why should you be the only one to have fun and cause a national incident with some boney old kings? Bring it on" I smiled weakly. Emmett was always reckless, bold and very cocky I loved all those attributes of Emmett really I did, but I would often worry about Emmett, he is so careless... it could put him in danger if he wasn’t careful. I thought about it, Emmett was going to go either way there was just no stopping him... at least this way I could keep an eye on him. "fine, you can come but on these conditions. 1) we are going to get Edward and stop him, we are not going on a suicide mission we collect Edward and we get home, 2) we do not fight. No matter what we will not provoke the Volturi. So Emmett you're not going to kick the ass of the bony old kings 3) what I say goes. This is a mission of diplomacy. "I told Emmett in a firm voice so he knew I was serious. My husband nodded his head, we jumped together out of the window of the Denali's house and we left. Emmett asked me about the plan to stop Edward and to tell the truth I did not really think much about the detail I mean all I knew was Edward was about to do something incredibly stupid and I had to stop him. Emmett and I had ran for a while only to be stopped when Jasper called he told us he wanted to join us to go after Edward. I accepted his offer without hesitation and told him to hurry up and gave him our location then hung up on him. There were three reasons I invited Jasper. 1) his ability 2) strength in numbers 3) Jasper is the most skilled fighter in our family if things ago according to plan we maybe able to use Jasper to calm Edward long enough for us to explain the mistake of the lifetime. Jasper arrived and things got ugly, Jasper lied to me. He did not come to help us, he came to stop us! He explained Alice and Bella’s plan to use Bella’s mental defect to sneak up on Edward, the argument between us intensified. Emmett was on my side. "Trust in Alice Rosalie, let her clean up your mess" Jasper spoke to me, I made a fist and to my surprise Emmett ran to Jasper to try and take him down. Jasper however had taken Emmett down with no problem. I ran to Jasper with my fist made and threw a punch only for Jasper to catch it and rotate behind me holding my wrist to have it twisted behind my back. Before Emmett could do anything, Jasper stood on Emmett's chest with one foot. Jasper tightened his grip on my hand, "emotions are a burden in war. It's a tragedy, but it's a fact of life. Emotions will only get in the way Rosalie like when your anger leads you to reckless actions, those reckless actions lead to your death and you may be a royal pain and a pampered little princess oh and narcissistic, but I don't want to lose my little sister. Now little sister if you promise to behave I will let you go." Jasper spoke out. I frowned I'm not narcissistic am I? I looked at Emmett he nodded his head "Rose I think Jasper is right... it's too dangerous and I don’t want to risk losing you" I looked down at Emmett, I felt betrayed. He would do such a thing to me that he would choose Jasper's side over mine, "fine" I spat out, I had no real intention of going along quietly and I doubted Jasper could sense my planned deception from all that rage I felt. As soon as Jasper let go of my hand I turned to him and shoved him over and bolted off I had to stop Edward. I ran as fast as I could and doubted any human could see me I was a blur, but even with all this speed it gave me no advantage when Jasper and Emmett could go at same speeds. Before I knew it I could feel Emmett's muscular arms around me and lifted me off the ground I kicked and struggled, but eventually Jasper walked up, he placed his hands on both side of my cheeks "I know how hard this is Rose, I am worried for Edward too and even more frightened for Alice. Have faith in Alice, believe in her she and Edward will be back I promise" I didn’t care about what Jasper spoke. I had to go fix this mess "Jasper you know Rose, once she has her mind set nothing will reach her." Emmett spoke he stepped back away from Jasper and placed me over his shoulder where we went back to the Denali's. I kicked and yelled wildly on the way back, Emmett chuckled "come on babe how long are you going to throw this temper tantrum" I yelled back at Emmett and he gave that deep chuckle that I loved. I whacked his back try to get free as they headed back to the Denali's with me the unwilling hostage. Emmett spoke "yeah babe I love that back massage" I stopped banging on Emmett's back and frowned. Emmett continued to carry me on his back with Jasper walking behind us. I had my elbow on Emmett's back and I had my chin resting on my hand. "she is pretty quiet now, I think its safe to put her down." Emmett laughed and slapped my ass making a few strands of my hair fall to my face. "trust me Jasper I know my babe, she is as stubborn as a mule once her mind is made up there is no stopping her." Emmett slapped my ass again "keep calling me a mule Emmett I swear you will really see me lose my cool" I spoke and blew the strands of hair away from my face Emmett laughed nervously "sorry babe" he spoke nervously, "so can you put me down now." I asked him frustrated. Emmett was quiet "nah babe I am having to much fun carrying you" Emmett smacked my ass again after he spoke. The strange thing is I believed Emmett, he probably did enjoy carrying me around heaven knows the pervert enjoyed slapping my ass. Emmett continued to carry me until we arrived back at the Denali's. We arrived back in the guest room and Emmett lowered me onto the bed. I could see Jasper walking past the doorway. "Rose why are you like this? I know you want to save Edward, but there is something different about this. What's going on?" I sighed at Emmett, "Emmett my relationship with Edward has been rocky, and since Bella came along things have gotten worse, but now it's my fault Edward is in danger, this is my job to put things right. I don't want Edward to think I hate him or meant for this to happen. This is not Alice's mess to clean its mine... please Emmett let me fix it" I pleaded with him. Emmett folded his arms "Rose... I know you want to fix this, but you being there would only make things worse... I have faith in Alice and Bella... let them handle this, and you can make it up to Edward when they come back" he spoke confidently. I sat on the bed and folded my arms "you have an important task here Rosalie" Emmett spoke. I looked at Emmett with skepticism and said nothing to him. Emmett chuckled "you're beautiful when you pout babe... it's such a turn on" I looked at Emmett and frowned. Curse him he made it so hard for me to stay mad at him. I sighed and gave in "what's this so called important task" I asked him. Emmett looked at me I watched those beautiful golden eyes of his and felt myself get lost in them I barely heard him when he spoke. "Rose you know the story from both angles you need to tell Carlisle and Esme everything about Alice’s vision and the conversation with Alice... it's up to you to tell them everything... you know Esme she will need your help with this, she will worry out of her mind... you want to fix this mess then fix the mess it will cause on Esme and Carlisle." I was in awe Emmett was right I never once thought of them, and how they would cope. All I did was think of my own guilt and how to fix the mistakes I have made... I am two years older than Emmett, in vampire years at least, and yet he is wiser than me... I am such a fool. I smiled "thank you Emmett I'll do just that" I patted the spot next to me and Emmett came and sat next to me. He placed his hands around me for the longest of time we said nothing to each other comfortable in the silence. All was right with us not that there was anything wrong really... I guess I was worried about Edward... while emmett was worried about me, how could I be mad at my husband... my lover for being concerned about me. I am lucky to have such a man in my life. Emmett brushed my hair with his hand and I smiled he asked me if I was alright. I answered "yes Emmett....thank you for caring... you're such a wonderful man" I told him "only because you taught me how to be a man Rosalie" I was shocked at his words and mumbled "sure" with disbelief. Emmett lifted my chin and turned it to look at him where I found myself getting lost in his eyes "Rosalie... you still think you stole my life even after all those years when we wiped the slate clean... you did teach me how to be a man when you brought me into a brand new world and opened my eyes, you were always there guiding me Rosalie and even through all my slip ups you never once judged me... you told me 'Next time will be different, because with each failure you will become stronger and stronger and you know what I have faith in you' you set me on the path to become a true man Rosalie.... you gave me salvation babe" Emmett's words... they touched me deeply. If i could cry, I would have been crying a river... if blood ran in my veins I would have been scarlet red from the blushing. I saw Jasper pacing down the hall again. "thank you Emmett... and you made me a better woman because you are in my life." I told him leaning in to kiss his cheek for a moment "I am going to go keep Jasper company before he wears down the carpet." I nodded and watched Emmett smile that beautiful grin of his and watch him walk out to the hallway. I decided to use that time to write to you and tell you about everything that has happened. My brother and sister are in danger because of me... it is difficult to cope at the moment and I wonder how is it Bella survived the cliff? ~Rosalie Hale
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InfoRosalie Lillian Hale In 1933, Rosalie was transformed into a vampire by Carlisle Cullen after being raped and beaten to the brink of death by a group of drunken men, including her fiancée Rosalie's diary is written by Martin. Fan Page
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