Topic: I learned something today…true love conquers all. It is what makes the world go round, it’s what brings joy and I am finally ready to see the truth I am not cursed…I am blessed.
Date: January 1st, 2007 Dearest diary Life has been hectic no more than hectic life has shifted into chaos and turmoil and yet at the same time there has been unimaginable bliss and has changed us in profound ways that there is no going back for any of us and believe it or not wouldn't change a thing... Well actually there is one thing I would change and trust me I will get into that, but you need to know how this all started. It would have to be at Edwards and Bella’s wedding I had failed in stopping Isabella from marrying Edward. The only consolation was the fact that the ceremony was beautiful, not as good as one of my weddings in my own personal opinion and Emmett looked so handsome today all dressed up I had to say it really did turn me on, I should have him dress up more often. The other consolation was there was still time for Bella to change her mind granted there wasn’t much time, but I was hopeful that she would change her mind. After Edward and Bella left for their honeymoon I spent some time with Alice discussing the wardrobe space of Edward and Bella’s cottage as we cleaned up all the decorations from the wedding we both agreed that the wardrobe had to be spacious as well as have shelves for Bella’s love of jeans. I hated cleaning even with vampire speed and strength I saw this as an inconvenience I could have been doing something like working on my car “why is it we always get left with the cleaning.” I asked no one in particular; honestly this was becoming a habit…Bella’s birthday, Bella’s graduation party, Bella’s sleep over and now Bella’s wedding what are we her personal maid service as well as body guards. “Less complaining more cleaning.” Alice responded with a bag of trash in her hand. After the whole clean up Alice and I headed to Seattle to do some clothing shopping Emmett didn’t want to tag along naturally he wanted to watch sports on the TV with Jasper. I was the first to admit granted not openly, but with Edward and Bella out of town things were peaceful it’s nice to be able to relax again and not having to worry about blood thirsty psychopaths and vindictive redheads out for revenge. I have to say a girl could get used to this or so I thought. It was eighteen days later on the 31st of August that I received a phone call while I was in port Angelus with Emmett. To my surprise the phone call was from none other than Bella the first thoughts in my mind was to ignore it, if she is calling me that meant there must be trouble. I knew that because Bella had never called me before she knew how I felt about her and the choices she was making. I had excused myself from Emmett and answered the phone “Hello” I spoke softly into the phone “Rosalie” Bella whispered her voice full of fear. I had never heard Bella sound so frightened before it was enough to send chills down my spine “its Bella please you have to help me.” I was curious to know why she was whispering “what’s wrong” I asked her with concern not for Bella of course, but for Edward if Bella was asking me for help something might be wrong with Edward. Bella had confessed that she was pregnant and at first I scoffed “That’s impossible Bella” and yet she swore she was telling the truth describing how she felt a nudge in her stomach. I confess I was shocked at this discovery…Bella was pregnant. She had just one more thing that I wanted in life still such a thing was unheard of and it seemed that Edward and Carlisle was already concocting on murdering the child when she returned. Bella pleaded for my help asking for protection “Bella I need you to listen to me.” she became silent “I will help you, but I need you to keep yourself together…can you do that.” I asked her there was silence for a moment and she whispered yes. I swallowed the air unnecessary taking in a deep breath “Listen to me Bella I swear I will protect you and your child. I will see you in sixteen hours ok…just breathe and keep yourself together until then ok.” Bella thanked me and she had to hang up because Edward was at the door. It was seconds after the phone call ended that Emmett found me “Babe we got to go” he sounded so serious and I looked at him questioningly he reached for my hand and I had taken it and we left the store in a humanly fashion and as soon as I climbed into the passenger side of the car Emmett drove off way beyond the legal speed limit “Emmett what’s wrong” I asked feinting ignorance about the situation. I had to act like I didn’t know what was going on I couldn’t allow anyone to know Bella had asked for my help. “Bella” he spoke looking troubled “She’s pregnant” I had gasped “what it can’t be…that’s unheard of” I told him not really having to feint shock I was still surprised this had happened and I thought it was impossible. “It’s true Alice had a vision of Bella’s future disappearing she called Edward to see if he was alright only instead she get’s Bella. Bella had asked for Carlisle and then asked about if vampires could go into shock and she told him she was pregnant and Edward is just freaking out.” I didn’t say anything in response I wasn’t really sure that I could trust the sound of my voice and I didn’t want to give anything away “Rose are you ok babe?” he asked softly of course he knew how much this would have affected me…I could never have children “yeah I am alright…just shocked and concerned for Bella.” I was thankful that Emmett wasn’t the mind reader of the family because all I could think about was the baby not Bella. When we arrived home it was like a bomb had gone off Esme was looking out the window lost in her own thoughts and no doubt worried about Bella while Alice had that strained expression on her face like she was trying to look into the future Jasper was at her side ever so protective of her. I had always liked that about jasper; of course my Emmett is way better than jasper. Carlisle was no where to be seen. Emmett and I approached Esme she told us Carlisle had ducked in to the hospital to borrow some things he would need for the procedure I had spent the entire time with Esme in silence she was so worried about Bella and all I could think about was that little baby growing in her stomach abnormally fast. I had spent the next sixteen hours watching my family carefully I was worried about Alice she had looked exhausted and she complained about her visions. She had told us that when it came to Bella she couldn’t see anything even when she pushed herself and concentrated with all her might she could only see a few minutes into Bella’s future. I had never seen my sister so frustrated and so depressed it was difficult to witness I can attest to that, We had waited at the airport and as soon as Bella saw me she ran into my arms I had wrapped my arms around her I couldn’t help but think, it’s ok Bella I will help you bring this baby into the world. “What’s going on” Edward asked as the rest of my family looked at Bella and I, “I won’t let you hurt our child Edward.” Bella spoke quietly she had placed one hand on her stomach “Correction…I won’t you let you hurt your child” I spoke softly Edward had looked at me with a mixture of shock and anger “Rose get away from Bella now” he hissed softly, I had placed Bella behind me to shield her as I looked at my family one by one I could see a look of shock and surprise, before I finally looked at Edward “Make me” I spoke back tenaciously with a confident smile, I had decided that I would protect Bella an Edward’s Child and when I make my mind up I rarely change it. Edward had stepped forward when Esme spoke “this can wait until we get home.” I looked to my mother Esme and nodded my head “you’re right let’s go Bella, you can come with Emmett and I” I spoke wrapping an arm around her waist “I am coming too” Edward spoke out his voice shaky, I looked at Bella’s stomach for a moment and before she could speak I interrupted her “I don’t think so Edward, not until you change that attitude.” Bella and I had walked off with Emmett following behind he was quiet and I wondered how angry he was with me. Edward and everyone else was behind Emmett as we reached the parking space Bella climbed into the back seat and I sat beside her Esme had climbed into the front of the car passenger side of my BMW Alice also sat beside Bella leaving her in the middle and Emmett jumped into the driver’s seat as soon as we were driving Alice began “Bella what are you doing this thing is going to kill you.” Bella seemed a little upset “don’t call him a thing…he is my special little nudger Alice…it will all work out ok you wait and see.” she spoke defensively as I stroked Bella’s arm reassuringly “I don’t need to wait and see Bella I have already seen it…you have no future while that thing is inside you…it’s going to kill you Bella…please let Carlisle get rid of it” The tension in the car was building as Bella and Alice argued in the car Esme and Emmett were quiet. I finally had enough of Alice and looked at her “Enough Alice this is Bella’s choice not yours.” I hissed and Alice looked at me with anger “oh don’t pretend to be all high and mighty we all know your motives for doing this Rosalie and you disgust me.” Alice’s words had stung, but I had acted like her words meant nothing to me. I had listened as Bella pleaded for Esme’s help, Esme had asked Bella if she was sure this is what she wanted and when Bella told Esme it was. Esme agreed she would help her I felt relief because I wasn’t alone in this. Esme was on our side and I knew Emmett would be too he would never side against me just as I would never side against him. When we got home things became a little tense as Edward tried to get to Bella by going through him Emmett ended up tossing poor Edward out the open window. Bella was upset at the whole thing, but I reassured her Edward was like a cat he would land on his feet and brood at the abuse that there was no need to worry and stress unnecessarily. The next few days things were difficult our home had broken up into two factions there was Esme, Emmett and myself who was for keeping the baby while Edward, Jasper, Alice and Carlisle were against it. Carlisle agreed that he wouldn’t go against Esme, but it left a strain between their relationships the two hardly spoke to each other. Bella and Edward had their own troubles, but I was there non stop I wouldn’t let anyone hurt the Child. Edward was completely and utterly a broken shell of a man. Each passing day Bella’s pregnancy increased at unprecedented rates and unfortunately we eventually received a visit from the mongrel he walked in so casually like he owned the place and I watched Fido walk towards Bella and let out a hiss I moved in a flash standing between Jacob and the couch there was no way that freak would come anywhere near the baby “Rose don’t” Bella whispered I didn’t look away from the foul little mongrel “It’s fine” I had reluctantly moved out of Jacob’s way I had watched him for a moment longer and crouched by Bella’s head I had listened to the discussion the stupid mongrel asked if Bella was alright Edward seemed tormented as usual and Bella had looked around the room to each of us before looking to me “help me up rose.” She asked softly, I didn’t really want to do it Bella was so fragile at the moment much more than usual thanks to the amazing little child inside her. I had looked at Jacob with hatred he was only going to make this situation worse and stink up the place and its not like we could open the window I don’t want Bella getting a chill…so that only leaves the stench of dog on the furniture. “Please Rose” I frowned and knew that there was no stopping Bella if I wouldn’t help her she would only try to do it herself and then get hurt. I had leaned over next to Bella and carefully placed my arms behind her shoulders the stupid mongrel had told Bella to stop, but it was too late she snapped at Jacob and I pulled her off the couch as the blanket fell to the ground I had looked at Bella’s stomach that little baby would be ready soon, I watched as Bella placed one hand below the other on her stomach cradling the unborn child. I was surprised at Edward without warning he moved to stand towering over the mongrel he snarled at Jacob telling him to go outside, I could see on the dog’s expression excitement…this must have been his reason to visit…he was going to try and kill Edward. Emmett was the first to make a move he pushed forward past Edward as jasper joined in right behind Emmett I was distracted caught in my own excitement that Edward and the boys would finally put old yeller down granted they didn’t need a shotgun to kill the dog, but still I was pretty stoked Christmas had come early for me “No” Bella gasped she stumbled forward to clutch onto Edward’s arm and I moved with Bella I wouldn’t allow anything to happen to that child inside her. Edward spoke in a low and soft tone telling Bella they would only talk and I had felt disappointed it seemed my early Christmas was cancelled. I had helped Bella back onto the couch to rest on the cushions she had told Fido to behave and to return, and I seriously wanted to scoff because I knew Cujo wouldn’t behave his kind were nothing but brainless flea infested freaks of nature. They had left the room and looked at Bella “Are you ok” I asked her a little concerned. Bella had nodded her head and I smiled, I have to admit I don’t like Bella, she makes all the wrong choices and then is surprised that there is consequences for them, but still she didn’t have to have this child even when her health started to deteriorate and yet she chose to keep the baby she finally made a right choice even at the expense of her health and I respect her for that. The two had returned inside and it wasn’t long until Edward was trying to get everyone out of the room if Edward thought I was going to leave Bella alone with Lassie he was seriously mistaken as everyone left I listened as Bella had spoken “Rose, I want you to go” I glared at Edward annoyed, I disliked being away from the Child I could barely bring myself to go hunting if it wasn’t for Esme and Emmett looking out for Bella in my absence. I had pointed to the door wanting Edward to go first, After Edward left I had taken one more look at the dog glowering at him threateningly and then left following everyone else. I was listening to the discussion between Scooby and Bella and I had to say I did not like what I was hearing I wanted to run in there and break Shaggy the dog fingers, Edward had taken hold of me placing his hand on my shoulder to stop me. I had suddenly heard something from Bella it was a gasp and as she continued to speak I heard pain in her voice. It wasn’t long until Balto had left and I stuck by Bella’s side “it’s alright Bella you can do this, just don’t stress and don’t worry about Benji ok” I spoke to her reassuringly, naturally Bella wanted me to stop calling the foul dog names and I apologized although I didn’t mean it. Esme was kind enough to relieve my shift and I went to my bedroom, and sat beside Emmett there was a silence between us it was quiet and uneasy, he wrapped his arm around me and leaned in close to kiss me on the lips for a moment “I love you rose.” He spoke softly “I love you more Emmett” I responded and caressed his cheeks, I could still see those dimples he had and he left the room quietly. Sitting alone in my room I had brought myself to think about something I was putting off especially around Edward. I wanted to take care of Bella and the baby because more than anything I wanted a baby and it would give me a chance to experience what it was like to be a mother and if Bella died maybe I could be the mother of that child after all I doubt Edward would be up to taking care of that beautiful baby inside Bella…I knew it was wrong, but apart of me wanted Bella to die and yet I also wanted Bella to survive this I want her to give birth and complete the change so Bella could fulfil my dream in my place. I guess either way I win, but the question I am left with is at what price does my victory come and what sort of woman does that make me? I guessed the only thing I could do was take things one step at a time, it was at that moment I thought things couldn’t get any worse and for once I was wrong. That stupid dog had to tell his mongrel friends about Bella which voided the treaty and set off world war three the mongrel version everyone had spoken tactics and when Bella and son of Lassie weren’t around I suggested in calling the Denali’s I knew Irina for sure would be down in a heartbeat as the old saying goes hell hath no fury than a woman who’s mate was killed by over grown mongrels, ok so I improvised on the saying its still true. Carlisle refused to get them involved and risk their lives naturally this was our problem. It was surprising that the dog joined our cause and normally I would have been against it, but if it meant more protection for Bella’s unborn baby then I guess I could tolerate it. What I didn’t expect was Edward’s pup friend…Seth I think his name and his sister Leah joined our cause. Dogs in the house this was most unsatisfying, but at least there were only three of them and the female dog refused to enter the house so it wasn’t all that bad apart from Jacob being so close to Bella. I contested everything about Jacob black I hated his kind all of them and that hate would never leave me, because even though it was his ancestors that threatened Emmett, to me they were all the same and if they tried to harm my Em or the child I would rip them to shreds. I did notice things seemed to be working out, Bella had difficulty holding food down, she was literally starving to death while the child inside her drained her of her strength and health. Amazingly enough it was Fido that came up with the idea to give the baby, blood…I had to say I was impressed I didn’t thank Jacob had the brain power to think of a solution, perhaps I could teach him how to sit or roll over. Carlisle question methods on administering the blood I shook my head. “We don’t have time to be creative I’d say we have to start with the traditional way” I couldn’t believe the stupid mongrel as he tried to speak against this “It was your idea dog” I scowled Edward the three men continued to bicker amongst themselves as Carlisle brought up how we could get Bella to try this “If you tell her it could help the baby she will be willing to do anything, even if we do have to feed them through a tube.” There was a silence between us and I watched as the mongrel pushed his tiny brain into what must have been thoughts, and Edward nodded his head “well we don’t have time to sit around discussing this, what do you think Carlisle can we try” I asked Carlisle, he had told us that we would have to ask Bella and I couldn’t stop myself from smiling. We returned to Bella and the poor girl looked so weak, Edward proceeded to tell about the idea and I couldn’t stop myself from interrupting in excitement “but it will help the baby, we thought of a better way to feed him maybe.” I could see Bella’s eyes flicker and she retorted with dry humour. I laughed with Bella in hopes of making her feel better, I had watched cautiously as Edward stepped around me and had taken Bella’s hand he spoke in his dramatic tone, Carlisle had explained the idea thankfully Bella had no objections to the Idea if push came to shove I probably would have shoved a tube down her throat and make her drink the blood, as I tapped my foot impatiently I couldn’t wait anymore and an odd thought came to mind. I wondered what Jacob would have done if I threw him out the closed window. Bella had asked a question about who would catch a grizzly bear for her and I stopped tapping my foot, I nodded my head as Carlisle and Edward explain “it won’t make a difference to you Bella, don’t think about It.” I encouraged her reassuringly. Bella had asked who and looked to Jacob, as he spoke I scoffed silently oh please as if my little nephew would want dog blood “we have blood on hand, for you just in case. Don’t worry about anything at all it’s going to be fine I have a good feeling about this Bella I think the baby would be so much better.” I told Bella she tried so hard to make another joke and in a flash I was following Carlisle upstairs. We debated over heating up the blood before giving it to Bella, a few moments later I had moved as fast as I could back into the room stirring up the blood it was a little burned, but still this had to help the baby it just had to. I had stopped into the kitchen I was doing my thing when I heard Edward from the other room I rolled my eyes up at the sound of his voice and bolted off again I was on the second floor again with Carlisle and I heard everything down stairs I hissed as Jacob called me a psychopath “least I don’t drink from the toilet bowl” I muttered to myself I had listened while Bella defended me to Jacob and I had to admit I felt a little touched, Carlisle and I returned to Bella and he tried to give Bella the blood. Bella was too weak to support herself so I placed my arm under her shoulders to support Bella and helped support her head as well Bella thanked me and I smiled as Bella looked around and then back to me I told Bella not to mind everyone none of them were important Bella sniffed the straw and Edward told Bella that they would find a better way “plug your nose” I suggested as I glared at Edwards hand, I would not allow him to sabotage Bella and harm the baby. You would not imagine my joy when Bella told us that the blood smelled good “that’s a good thing, that means we are on the right track give it a try” I told her eagerly with a smile. She had sipped at the blood and moaned quietly. Edward moved in to touch Bella’s face she told us how the blood tasted good and I swear I could break into a touch down if I hadn’t had Bella with me “that’s good, a good sign” I spoke with joy, she continued to drink the blood as Carlisle asked if she felt sick “there’s a first” I spoke feeling joyous. She was chugging the blood down and I smiled feeling proud. I patted Bella’s forehead and watched Bella she was already getting stronger, her breathing was so much better and her heat beat was slightly stronger “would you like more” I asked and Edward glared at me, as Bella confessed to wanting more I smiled “you don’t have to be embarrassed about that Bella, your body has cravings we understand that” I spoke softly, I had snuck a glance at the dog and looked back to Bella “anybody who doesn’t shouldn’t be here.” Carlisle had taken the cup from Bella’s hand. The dog knew I aimed that to him and looked back to Bella he soon had to leave due to his mongrel friends coming into our land, He ran off to meet with them and I couldn’t help feel anxious I didn’t like the wolves being this close and there was no way in hell did I trust the mongrel and his two friends. While they were gone we had placed the living room to back how it originally was, with Bella’s improvement it gave us room to be lenient Edward spent the entire time by the window listening in on Jacob’s thoughts and occasionally translating not that the inner thoughts of Fido interested me. When the dog did return though he seemed dead on his feet, Bella had noticed this and after a short chat he left counting Mississippi’s when it came to the second one I couldn’t help, but mutter “where’s the flood mutt.” The dog actually made a lame blond joke about gluing a mirror to the bottom of a pool, it was a lame joke and naturally Edward was laughing in a low tone, what a traitor. “I’ve already heard that one” I called after him with a superior smile on my face, to be honest I couldn’t understand why Esme was feeling so guilty about the dogs not having a home….their dogs they like sleeping outside Edward followed Jacob to offer the facilities and the opportunity to stink up our beautiful home to it the foul fragrance of mongrel stink I had notice Bella as she cried out and I was instantly next to her, she was curled over panting I held her in my arms while Carlisle, Edward and Esme circled around us. I had heard something crack and when she cried out and I felt a little worried not just for the baby…but Bella too. she asked Carlisle for a second and after Carlisle pointing out the urgency she pointed to the left side of her rib. I was especially careful when lifting Bella, I could see Edward and I knew he wanted to take her from me, I bared my teeth at him in anger and let out a growl “I already got her” I was swift in taking Bella to the stare case going up “it’s ok Bella don’t worry” I had lowered her on the hospital bed and Carlisle started up the machine. After Carlisle finished patching Bella up I had taken Bella down stairs where she wanted to be and saw that the dog had passed out on the floor “maybe I should get him a bone and a air freshener attached to a collar” I spoke with Bella still in my arms, “be nice Rose.” She scolded and I smiled, I didn’t really say anything I wasn’t going to debate with Bella. I sat at Bella’s feet as Carlisle removed the IV, Alice had eventually given Jacob a Pillow to rest his head and not long after he woke up “about time, the chainsaw impersonation was getting a little tired.” I spoke out annoyed by the very thing’s presence. I rested my head on Bella’s knees. My nose kind of stung with the younger pup on Bella’s other side I relaxed and ignored the burning in my throat ever since the void of the treaty hunting has been difficulty and I was struggling with the thirst….not struggling enough to see Bella as a human happy meal or roast Fido and his pups…but still the burning was bad. Carlisle had asked about hunting Carlisle decided we would go hunting three at a time naturally Edward didn’t want to go…well if he thought that he was going to out wait me then he is seriously mistaken…I am not leaving Bella alone with him no way. It was nice that for a while the dog was out of the house, oh don’t get me wrong his stench remained and it was horrible it was strongest in the living room because that’s where he spent most of the time I was about to suggest we go to my bedroom when Bella told me she needed to go to the bathroom I had helped her out and after she finished what she needed to do we went back out we had left and I caught the beast foul scent “Oh wonderful, I knew I smelled something nasty” I snarled, Bella seemed to be happy that the dog returned this would be something I will never understand about dear Bella she had such bad taste in pets something I was hopeful that the baby would not inherit from her. I laid Bella out on the couch carefully, I knew she was in pain and Edward came to Bella told Edward she was fine “Bella you know what Carlisle told you, don’t down play anything it doesn’t help us take care of either of you.” Bella admitted she was cold, the dog had sat next to her feet and leaned against her carefully I shook my head in disapprovingly. When Alice suggested I get the foul mongrel something to eat I stared at Alice and wondered what the heck was she doing out of the attic. There was no way I would make anything for the dog and when Jacob refused saying I would probably spit in it I nodded my head to the side it was a fair statement and even though I am a lady, it would probably be something I would do…I really hated Fido. Alice had spoken again and she had a point I would never do that to Esme’s reputation regardless of how tempting it was “Of course not” I said sweetly as an idea came to mind I was on my feet and I left the room with a sinister smile on my face once I was in the kitchen. I pulled out a bowl and started to bang on it to reshape it without breaking it and oddly enough I felt like cackling as I left an engraving on the bowl “Fido” naturally my handwriting was perfect just like me…I had pulled the food in it and returned lowering it onto the floor at Jacob’s feet “enjoy Mongrel” I spoke with a smirk, Jacob thanked me followed by another blond joke my smile faded “I heard that one too” Jacob promised he would keep trying and he started to eat. The way the dog ate was repulsive…actually the dog in general was repulsive, I couldn’t help, but make a disgusted look and roll my eyes I sat on the couch and started to channel surf the TV, Jacob brought up the due date and called my nephew a monster I wanted to smack him in the head, but Bella beat me to it. I listened carefully and heard Bella fall asleep she let out a soft snore and I was quiet as Edward spoke to his pet dog and just focused on Bella while listening to my brother and his dog speak about Charlie I had to admit that on this case I was on Edwards side doing this to Charlie it was a cruel thing to do to give him false hope, but if it made Bella happy that’s all I care about at this moment to keep her at peace and comforted. The boys spoke about the survival rate of the a pregnancy of this magnitude and I couldn’t help, but snarl “of course there was no survivors, giving birth in the middle of a disease infested swamp with a medicine man smearing sloth spit across your face to drive out the evil spirits was never the safest method even the normal births went bad half the time. None of them had what this baby has caregivers with an idea of what the baby need, who try to meet those needs a doctor with a total unique knowledge on vampire nature. A plan in place to deliver the baby as safely as possible Venom that will repair anything that goes wrong the baby will be fine and those other mothers would probably survive if they had that if they even existed in the first place something I am not convinced of.” With that I sniffed and turned from them both I have had enough of their ignorance. I had felt something hit me in the back of the head it didn’t hurt, it was more of an annoyance the noise it made was more unsettling I didn’t want Bella to wake up yet she needed her rest. I heard the mongrel call me a dumb blond and I felt something run through my hair, the amount of rage I felt it really aggravated me I turned my head and glared at Jacob I wanted to rip his head off “you…got food in my hair” the stupid mongrel laughed at me and from behind me I could hear Alice this was no laughing matter my beautiful hair was soiled by that mongrel. I looked down to check on Bella if she was still asleep I would spring to the dog and throttle him, Bella unfortunately awoke and asked what was so funny. Jacob had explained why he laughed “I am not going to forget this dog” I hissed out in fury. Jacob had proceeded with another blond joke and I couldn’t stop myself from snapping “GET SOME NEW JOKES” That pretty much described most of the pregnancy, and things eventually changed Edward was able to hear the thoughts of the baby, and he no longer wanted to hurt the child and things changed instantly they didn’t see the baby as a creature or a demon they didn’t loathe it’s very existence, everyone supported Bella except for Fido he took one of the cars and drove off in a hissy fit. I had to admit I was surprised when the female dog…Leah stormed into the house dressed in some clothing that had been laid aside she looked at Bella and demanded to know why her dog friend left so abruptly without so much as a word. Edward explained it and it seemed Leah snapped her body trembled with rage as she looked to Bella with Malice in her eyes “it’s always about you and your happiness isn’t it…what about Jacob, do you have any idea what your doing to him how much pain and heartache you cause him.” she spoke pointing to Bella, I let out a low hiss and the female ignored me completely “you have no idea what it’s like to have your heart ripped out of your chest and stomped on...to see the person you love more than anything be happy with someone else…Jacob has sacrificed everything for you…his home…his friends…his brothers his life he threw it all away in a heartbeat just for you because for some insane reason he loves you.” her body trembled as Edward told her it was enough, I could see Bella’s eyes were watery she was fighting back the tears “He gave all that up for you without hesitating and how do you repay him…you refuse to let go and string him along giving him false hope…you’re heart is as cold as your leech husband’s skin…you are the lowest trash that has ever set foot on this world you self absorbed brat…you disgust me Bella Cullen and you don’t deserve to have Jacob in your life…he is far too good for the likes of you.” My fist was clenched and I wanted to rip Leah apart, but I didn’t get the chance right after she finished she had stormed out Bella had broken down into tears as Edward went after Leah. I had tried to comfort Bella but nothing would console her, she eventually cried herself to sleep the poor girl. I had thought about everything that had happened on that day, as Bella slept and I thought about how bad Bella must have felt and how good I felt, because our family was finally united again and supporting Bella like they should have been from the beginning. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer had to worry about the others. I of course felt smug knowing that I was in the right and the baby wasn’t evil or a monster and of course if the time was appropriate I would have said “I told you so.” At last the only thing I had to worry about now was my thirst. It was barely bearable. I really needed to go hunting soon. Jacob had returned to Bella trying to comfort her and it seemed for a while everything would work out until Bella announced that the baby needed to come out that she could feel it was dying. We had rushed her to the hospital bed Carlisle had borrowed and I tried to get the baby out, but Edward told me to wait for the morphine…there just wasn’t any time for that none at all. I had cut into Bella’s Flesh and the blood pouring out was immense I had underestimated my strength because the burning gave in and the only thoughts on my mind was to drain Bella dry, I had justified it in my head telling myself there was nothing wrong with it that I would still be helping my venom would go into Bella’s system helping her change and I would be satisfying my thirst it was a winning situation for everyone. Edward yelled at me and my will faltered as Jacob jumped over the table propelling himself at me as he knocked me to the door with his strength, I had unintentionally stabbed Jacob with the scalpel in the left arm. I had come to my senses and told myself not to resist Jacob, this was for Bella and the baby’s safety he had blocked my air way with my hand and kicked me in the stomach knocking me into the door frame Alice came to me and grabbed me by the throat she began yanking me into the hall Alice had taken me to Jasper and kept me there, I could feel jasper’s influence over me soothing me, I hated this influence over me, it felt so violating but just this once I was grateful for it because it calmed me down and helped me regain control over my thirst. I was panting breathing in the disgusting air scented with dog. I kept telling myself to calm down that I was the master of my thirst not the other way around; I wouldn’t let it consume me. Jasper kept his hand I kept telling myself that over and over while listening to the commotion in the other room, I felt such guilt I should be in there helping Bella I sincerely wanted her to survive. Everything within me stopped when I heard Edward’s whisper “Renesmee” I waited there beside Jasper ignoring him I wanted so much to see little Renesmee to hold her in my arms, that I concentrated on making sure my thirst was in check. I had listened as Edward had spoken to Renesmee telling her no, I had no idea why but I wanted to know. Edward had told Jacob to take the baby and he told Edward to throw it out the window…this was it I couldn’t take anymore before I knew it I was back in the room “give her to me” I spoke softly only to hear them both snarl at me I watched them both “I got it under control, give me the baby Edward I’ll take care of her until Bella” I insisted and it was completely true the only thing on my mind was holding little Renesmee Edward handed her to me as he went to Jacob’s side. I was out of the room in a heart beat taking little Renesmee into the living room, I had looked at her in awe she was such a beautiful little baby. She was perfect in every way and when I looked into her eyes I swear I saw Bella…she had Bella’s eyes, the infant reached towards my face and touched me. In my mind I had seen images of Bella on the hospital bed from moments ago. I had gasped in shock and Alice came to my side “it’s ok Alice… she just wants to know if Bella will be ok.” I explained as I held her. My feet carried me back and forth slowly “She will be just fine little one.” I told the child, I looked at her lovingly and still found myself in awe over how amazing she was. I sat at the edge of the white sofa and leaned in “your an adorable little baby” I murmured to the little girl softly, I was surprised at just how much I loved this little girl. I felt this warmth deep inside and seeing this little girl’s smile only intensified the warmth. I had given Renesmee a bottle of blood and I watched as she sucked away at it greedily “you like that don’t you, I bet it taste really nice, oh yes it does.” I cooed at her with affection. Renesmee was incredible there was this look of concentration on her eyes like she was focusing, I had no idea what was on her mind and I sincerely wished I could read people’s thoughts like Edward, because the curiosity was eating me up “she’s beautiful” I heard a shocked voice. I was up in an instant and away from the couch, I stopped to see it was Jacob that had spoken and for a moment I felt like I stepped into the twilight zone, did Jacob just call Renesmee beautiful, I wondered had he fallen down the stairs and hit his head an odd number of times…could that explain why Fido had that messed up look on his face. “give her to me” he spoken his voice sounded desperate and I scoffed “HA keep dreaming Balto I am not letting you anywhere near Renesmee” Jacob had moved towards us and I was careful with my perfect niece in my arms as he came within distance I delivered a kick to his stomach returning the kick he had inflicted on me earlier. My kick had knocked Jacob into the couch “Keep dreaming mongrel I am not letting my niece get the stench of dog on her, Alice….Jasper I need your help….old yeller has flipped out..” The both of them were in the room without hesitation standing in front of Renesmee and I. Jacob claimed that he no longer wanted to hurt Renesmee that he just wanted to see her, I swear the mongrel actually started whining. I had looked at him “I don’t trust you dog, you have made your hatred for Renesmee clear in the past, until Edward tells me it’s safe I won’t let you touch her, but you look at her and the moment I see you trying to touch her or harm her I will destroy you understand…dog those are my terms take them or leave them.” I spat out at him harshly, Renesmee would always be my priority my top concern…Renesmee and Emmett they were the two I would protect with my life and die for if needed. Jacob had agreed to my terms and I kept Renesmee within view, I was still startled to see him speak to her with affection and Renesmee was eating it up. She would reach for Jacob from time to time, but I wouldn’t allow her to go to him “Don’t worry Nessie Barbie won’t be holding you for long.” He cooed with affection “what did you call her” I asked surprised, Jacob looked up at me “Nessie you know as the lock Ness” I was not amused at the origin of this nickname. Alice had admitted she sort of liked the nickname and I scowled at her, especially after she asked to hold Renesmee, I am not handing her over to anyone. Carlisle, Esme and Emmett finally returned from the hunting trip they were in awe of little Renesmee after hearing what happened Carlisle left the room to go to Edward and see how Bella was doing. I had handed Renesmee to Esme and the moment I had, I wished I hadn’t. My arms felt so empty instantly I wanted Renesmee back into my arms. So for the moment I had settled for Emmett. Carlisle returned with Edward and I saw relief on his face “she’s changing” he sounded so tired, but relieved he moved towards Esme and asked if he could hold her and she handed over Renesmee. I got to admit Esme was a lot stronger than me, if it had been me I would have told Edward he could pry Renesmee from my cold dead hands…she was that adorable. I was surprised when Edward looked at Jacob and hissed “you did what to my little girl…I am going to kill you Jacob Black.” My eyes widen and I wondered what had happened “he imprinted on her.” he spat out with fury, I felt shock course through me as Jacob announced he didn't have a choice and instantly I smiled realizing what this meant. Emmett had noticed my shift in mood “I thought this would have pissed you off Rose, why are you in a good mood.” He asked me and I looked to Emmett “ Fido over there has imprinted on Renesmee, he even gave her the nickname of Nessie…add to this the mixture of a psychotic newborn vampire mother when she finds out and old yeller is going out to the greener pastures.” I rubbed my hands with excitement as I smiled with glee. I couldn’t wait for newborn Bella to awaken and rip off Jacob’s head. Emmett smirked and petted my head “that’s my Rose, always the optimist” Christmas was coming early after all I could feel it. Edward still didn’t like the imprinting idea, but he sort of grew used to it, with Jacob imprinted on Renesmee it meant that the mongrel’s friends couldn’t harm Renesmee there was some sort of pack law against harming an imprint of another wolf, as long as my Renesmee was safe that’s all that mattered. Edward reassured me that Renesmee was safe with Jacob, that he wouldn’t harm her and so reluctantly I allowed Fido to hold her, but I swore the first sign I see of Renesmee scratching fleas off her that the mongrel would loose holding rights until we got him a flea collar. I found things between Jacob and I changing, the hostility between us died down now that Edward gave permission for Jacob to hold her. we focused less on our hatred for each other and more on Renesmee taking turns holding her and feeding her…we both loved her so very much even though I thought this imprinting thing was really creepy. I was in the kitchen preparing Renee’s meal while Jacob held her in the living room “Ow” he yelled out, in a flash I bolted out of the kitchen “what happened is Renesmee alright, you didn’t drop her did you because if you did ill drop you from the roof.” I threatened alarmed for Renesmee, Jacob was rubbing his neck as he sat on the couch holding Renesmee with one arm “no…she bit me on the neck.” I blinked at Jacob for a moment and burst into laughter, I couldn’t believe she bit him I moved in close to Renesmee with a smile looking at her angelic face “good girl” I cooed gently I caressed her cheek. Renesmee biting Jacob seemed to become a habit especially when she was hungry so I kind of taken my time when it came to making Renee’s meals don’t get me wrong I didn’t let her starve or anything I only waited a minute or two.....was that so wrong? Edward had come up with the genius idea of not letting Bella see Renesmee until after she went hunting so she could have better control over her thirst, and Jacob even volunteered himself to be a test to see if Bella was fully control of her thirst. After Bella completed the change Renesmee seemed to know she kept on asking where Bella was, I could see she was anxious “she will be here soon, just a little longer Renesmee” I answered her question kissing her forehead. When the time finally did come I had looked at Bella and I had to admit being a vampire agreed with her. she was stunning not as beautiful as myself but still she was something. She had taken a few steps forward as she realized what happened and I smiled with glee, I had started to hum the funeral march in my head. Jacob was a mongrel at the pound about to be put down for the count Bella snapped and in an instant Renesmee was in Jacobs’s arms. Bella had asked me to take Renesmee and I held my hands out, Jacob reluctantly gave me the little angel and I backed away from the dead dog walking. I was astounded at Bella’s control as Bella crouched and taken steps forward. The look on Jacob’s face was pure gold, there was fear his hands were up as he backed away I wished so hard that I had a video camera at that moment to capture the joyous moment, but I guess I would just have to savour the moment in a memory. I looked down at the worried Renesmee and my heart began to break for the little girl she was so attached do Jacob. I cradled her in my arms and smiled at her “don’t worry we will get you a new pet…one without the creepy.” I whispered to her, thankfully everyone was way to busy focusing on Bella and Jacob’s eventual execution. I had looked up with a smile still on my face, just wait until she found out about his charming little nickname for Renesmee. Bella had called Jacob a stupid mutt and it sounded like music to my ears. Jacob was out the front door and I couldn’t wait to see what happened “this is going to be good.” Emmett spoke with excitement “Oh yeah I been waiting for this moment for ages” I whispered to Emmett with anticipation. Emmett had made a bet with Alice that Bella would crush Jacob. I kept on cheering Bella on in my head this would be the best day ever, one less person to share Renesmee with. Bella was fierce and I loved it as Jacob backed against the tree his fellow dogs came out and the one known as Leah Snarled. I kept telling myself patience as I encouraged Bella in my head sooner or latter Jacob would let the N word slip he would call her Nessie, Bella had threatened Jacob telling him to leave while he could Bella asked what Jacob called her and as he explained Bella lost it and charged at Jacob, I was proud of my baby sister. Unfortunately the tolerable pup known as Seth had jumped in the way and only Seth ended up getting hurt it was a shame, but I guess in the long run it’s something I don’t mind. I realized that even though I hated Jacob…we share one common interest…Renesmee’s safety so as long as he had her safety at heart I guess I can try to tolerate his existence…it doesn’t mean I had to like the flea infested mutt. After Bella’s temper tantrum. Jacob and I had taken Renesmee outside “It’s my turn to feed her, hand Nessie over now Barbie.” He demanded, I scoffed “Keep dreaming Fido it’s my turn you fed her last night remember when she bit you three times on the arm.” I reminded him, Jacob folded his arms “I don’t remember no such thing, now hand her over.” Unbelievable Fido was such a liar, “OK let’s compromise…I will let you feed Renesmee now and have her until lunch, if you let me feed her at Dinner, hold her while she sleeps and feed her breakfast” Jacob looked at me “what are you insane, all that blond dye must have fried what little brain cells you have left how is that a fair deal.” He complained “I am a natural blond thank you, and considering you want to steal my turn I think it’s a fair compensation.” I responded tenaciously “who gets her at lunch” he asked, “Neutral party I say we hand her over to Emmett” I suggested to which Jacob scoffed “neutral my butt he will just hand her over to you, I’m not stupid.” He barked back “that’s debatable” I responded as we glared at each other. Jacob seemed determined “we allow Esme to feed her lunch.” He suggested I placed one hand out holding Renesmee carefully Jacob shook my hand to agree to the deal and gently taken Renesmee off of me “what about Bella, when will she feed Renesmee” Jacob asked, I scoffed “oh yeah lets trust a newborn with a bottle of blood…great idea Fido…Bella will drink it and Renesmee will go thirsty…stupid mutt.” I scolded, Jacob grumbled telling me to shut up and I looked at Renesmee I was going to caress her cheek affectionately when Jacob leaned to the side “My turn with her, get lost Barbie…go on go find your Ken” he spoke out and I scowled at him I stormed off. Emmett was hunting so I would have nothing to do until he returned. Three months had passed in the blink of the eye, the antagonism between Jacob and I hadn't changed in fact the only thing that had change is that both of us now had to share little Renesmee with Bella…My little Darling Niece still kept growing at an alarming rate it left me worried, and when I wasn’t with Renesmee I was researching vampire lore mostly on hybrids trying to find anything I could regarding the legends. It was annoying separating fact from fiction. I just wanted to know what would happen to her. I never imagined Bella could change our family in this way, that she could turn it into a complete family, I had always thought our family was fine just the way it was. I now know I was wrong our family wasn’t complete without Bella. Everything seemed to be going so well, that was until Alice had a vision of the entire Volturi guard coming to wipe us out, Bella came to the conclusion that Irina Renesmee was an immortal child and reported us. A few days ago we had a visit from Irina, well technically I wouldn’t call it a visit she saw Bella, Renesmee and Fido and ran off Bella assumed it was because of Jacob, but she was wrong it was because of Renesmee. I was determined that we could get through this as a family, but I was wrong…the next day Alice and Jasper left without warning all that was left was a letter that we received from the shifters. Telling us to gather as many witnesses as possible, I had to admit Alice leaving was a kick to the stomach…She was my sister, I thought we were close that we were family…it seemed I was mistaken. A few days later Emmett and I left in order to gather witnesses it was unbearable being away from little Renesmee all I had was a picture of her and what was worse, was the fact Jacob got extra time with her. Emmett and I had found a few nomads to come bare witness to Renesmee’s growth we did everything we could before returning home. I had to admit that the last few days of December I couldn’t help but shake off the feeling of doom and death it was hard to be festive and joyous it was on December the thirty first of two thousand and six that judgement day came and the Volturi arrived with forty witnesses of their own, the atmosphere was ominous and the stench of death filled the air. Aro the leader of the Volturi met with Renesmee and to be honest I did not like Aro anywhere near her, Aro had a reputation as a collector and surely he would want to collect Renesmee…there was no one else like her. As I suspected death occurred and Irina met her end at the hand of the Volturi it was a horrific death one unbearable to witness. My hand had tightened on Emmett’s tighter, I didn’t care how many witnesses the Volturi had, and I would protect my family. Alec and Chelsea had started to use their powers on us, well they tried but Bella was shielding us she was incredible the struggle on her face was visible, but she maintained the shield she was outstanding. Jane had taken her turn in trying, and it was amazing to see Jane looked furious she wasn’t happy that was for. Each passing moment things looked Grim when Alice returned with Jasper and to my surprise with another hybrid…a male hybrid for only a split moment my mind wandered in trying to get the male hybrid to stick around, but then it returned onto the situation at hand. The male hybrid was named Nahuel and he told us about his upbringing and the fact he was one hundred and fifty years old he stopped ageing around the age of seven. Aro was forced to declare that Renesmee was no threat and he left with his guard and witnesses. It was mind blowing and impossible comprehend that we had defeated the Volturi. We all celebrated together and witnessed the birth of a new year…a year of endless possibilities Emmett and I spent midnight on the roof of our home alone together, naturally we did not do anything mainly because that would mean we would bring the roof down instead we sat in silence and I held you in my lap. Neither of us spoke for the longest of time I just enjoyed Emmett’s arm around me. I wondered if Emmett also felt the possibilities of this New Year and second chance at life. I wanted to ask him, but in the end I said nothing. One of my favorite things was to watch the sunrise on this roof, and as I watched the sun rise and witnessed my friends departing to resume their lives I realized a lot of things. The first thing I realized is just how potent love is when it hits you there is no chance of resistance because sooner or later you will be seduced by it’s power and there is no turning back from it because it’s a force of nature. I understand now that Edward could never have turned his back on Bella even when he wanted to leave her and give her a normal human life. It was fate that brought them together and kept them together and their love that gave them the power to transcend every obstacle…every challenged that came their way and because of that the two of them have a new future together. I sit here alone and some how in some unknown way Edward and Bella’s love changed me it’s inspired me to become more than what I am. So I sit here now on the last page of my diary and I realize something just because I am stuck as an immortal it doesn't mean I can’t change. In the words of George Elliot “it is never too late to be what you might have been” It’s a New Year and start of today a new Rosalie. ~Rosalie Hale
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InfoRosalie Lillian Hale In 1933, Rosalie was transformed into a vampire by Carlisle Cullen after being raped and beaten to the brink of death by a group of drunken men, including her fiancée Rosalie's diary is written by Martin. Fan Page
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