Topic: Where do I go from here
Date: June 11th, 2009 Yo Diary Ever since her depature my heart has been shattered. I haven't been functioning without her, time seems to be moving even slower than normal. I miss her, it's like half of me is missing now that she is gone. I can't do anything without her, hell I can't even say her name, every time I do, I feel undiscribable pain. That bitch! She tore my heart apart, but I still love her and I still want her dead at the same time, it makes no sense to me, the only thing keeping me going is Tobias. I have been concentrating on him completely for the past week and trying to keep her out of my head. The only good thing she left me with is our son. I have already decided on what I am telling Tobias once he is older. I am going to tell him his mother was a beautiful and intelligent woman, she was brave and fearless and she loved him with all her heart. It may be a lie, but the child deserves to have memories of a good mother rather than learn his mother is a heartless manipulitive bitch. I haven't even given any thought on how to destroy the Voltori & HER! I have thought of two possibilities though, the first possibility is to create an army of newborn vampires, that was done recently to take on the Cullens or so I heard. I believe the leader of that coven was a nomad vampire by the name of Victoria. My second option is to find the romanians that the Voltori overthrew centuries ago and team up with them. The problem in my way is my own son Tobias. I don't want him to be around the likes of the Romanian vampires and I also don't want him to be around the newborns either. I guess I should just let go of revenge, but I can't. I want that bitch to have her heart ripped apart and torn asunder like mine was. How could she do this to me...to our son? How can she not love him? Our son, he is the most incredible child on the entire planet! He is beautiful and smart and he will grow to be a good man. I will see to that. I guess the only thing I can do is train Tobias when he gets older. I will teach him how to fight, to survive, no one will harm him because he will hold his own and I will be there to protect my son, but for now I will give him a happy childhood one where he will have good memories full of love I owe it to my son. Today while Tobias slept I spent the morning cleaning out her room completely and placed it in the garage. I could not bring myself to throwing her things away, I am not ready for that not yet. I locked everything away and cleaned the room completely there was not even a single dust bunny left. I finished by opening the window and closing the door the fresh air would hopefully get rid of any trace of her scent. I also closed the door so the wind would not blow into the house and make it colder for Tobias. When that was finished I went to see my son, he still slept, he looked so peaceful. I know it hasn't been easy for him, he knows something is up and the poor child keeps asking for her...I keep him busy a lot. I let him watch children's programs, which only seem to bore him. I read to him a lot, he also seems to get bored of children stories too. I think he is in a rush to grow up or maybe he is just not interested in childish things. Tobias woke up and I smiled just a little. I lifted my son up and held him close to me hugging him, his little arms tightened against me as he hugged back. I chatted to him, asked him about his sleep and told him the plans for today. After he had breakfast Tobias and I had a shower and I got him dressed up nicely and then I got dressed. I had his outing bag ready, it had stuff he might need like a bottle of formula clothing etc. etc. Tobias and I went outside and I stopped, I saw her birthday gift, the purple car. I looked away and walked to our car carrying my son and his bag, I placed Tobias in his seat and did up his seatbelt and we went to my office it was a nice cloudy day no chance of sun. I showed Tobias the sites and took him to some of the stores. I bought him a lot of clothing, my son is growing so fast he needs a lot of clothing. I also went and bought a stack of books and some movies for him, not all of them children's stuff, some action movies for my boy and while we were in the city I looked around at beds and things for Tobias, he will be too big for a nursery soon. I intend on using her old room to turn it into a bedroom for my son and the nursery will stay a nursery for now. I told my son to keep his teeth to himself that he cant bite the humans, he nodded his head showing he understood and I told him I was proud of him. The rest of the day went by pretty fast, I had bought a lot of stuff and paid $1,500 for a removalist truck to come and bring all the purchases back to my home. Tobias and I returned home and I realized how empty it was without her. My son was already sleeping in my arms exhausted from shopping all day. I laid Tobias down in his cot and came to write to you, I am going to go now I plan on setting up Tobias' new room now, then I intend on researching tutors to find out who the best is, because nothing is too good for my son and I intend on giving him the best I have to offer. ~Brian Jacobson
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Topic: I am a fool, a worthless fool. Sarah just tore my world apart and left me with a bleeding heart.
Date: June 9th, 2009 Yo Diary Today started out like any other day, except for the dark sky this morning. The voltori were preparing themselves to return home. Aro claimed that Caius would most definitely need Marcus & his help. Jane seemed to be grouchy, while Alec and Demetri were calm. Marcus too was calm and composed. I heard Tobias wake up and watched Sarah, she seemed disinterested in the fact our son was now awake. I went to the nursery and picked up Tobias. He was now as big as a two year old. I needed to get him a bigger bed, one that was appropriate for a child his age. Tobias seemed on edge, he was being fussy, trying to push himself away from me. "Come on little man settle down, I am not putting you back to bed, let's go see mommy, she could use some cheering up." I said to Tobias. My little man settled down and I carried him back to the lounge room to see Sarah, he was relaxed. "We will leave tonight at eight o clock, we need to use the darkness as our cover." I thanked Aro and we walked to Sarah who was in the kitchen, her back was in front of me. Tobias reached out for Sarah, "Our little man wants his Momma" I said to her. Sarah said nothing, her back was still turned from me and I said again "Sarah..." but she cut me off and said...."Beat it Brian, I am not in the mood." She sounded mean and distant. Tobias kept reaching out for Sarah and was making small grunts out of frustration but Sarah stayed still for a moment before turning and slamming her hand into the counter. The counter was completely destroyed and bits went everywhere. I blocked the parts that came near Tobias and I felt Tobias hide his face against my chest he was shivering....he was afraid of Sarah and I could not blame him. I looked at her face and saw pitch black eyes. Sarah was thirsty and savage and acting like a newborn, but what she said next was surprising "Take the brat and fuck off, I said I am not in the mood." I was in shock, Sarah had never called Tobias such a name before. "You and I will talk about this Sarah," I hissed at her in anger. I could hear Tobias whimper and I shushed him gently, bouncing him while he had his face against my chest. "Come on little man you know moma loves you, she is just not herself at the moment" I carried him to the nursery and I rocked him on the rocking chair holding him in my lap. Tobias was very upset, it must have been from what Sarah said. I knew the burning thirst is hard to bare and the blood lust is insane, but how could she call our son that? I knew how much Sarah loved Tobias, why did she say it? Tobias did not cheer up, I knew one thing that could. I put some sunscreen on him and a hat on his head. Sarah was already in a foul mood, I did not need her to go ape shit on us. I carried Tobias out to the beach and I started to build a sand castle. Tobias did not have his heart in it, he looked so lifeless, so depressed, it was unnatural for a child as innocent as him. He was so sad, he would not even look at the sand, he just made fists full of sand and then dropped it, he was so lifeless. I hated seeing my son so depressed, he was only a child, he deserved to have nothing, but laughter in his life, not this shit. I picked up my son and held him close to me, comforting him, I kissed his forehead and rubbed his back, he burped and I laughed. Tobias watched me as my laughing slowed down and eventually stopped. I held him close and hugged him tightly in my arms. He seemed to cheer up, I did not need to reassure him, because he knew it. "My little man, you're the most special little boy to ever exist" I said to him and he smiled and hugged me tightly. Tobias seemed to cheer up after that and started working on the sand castle with me. We stayed out at the beach until it was time for Tobias' nap. I walked inside and did not see Sarah in the kitchen or lounge room. I went to the nursery to put him to bed and he began to fight against me he did not want to have his nap. "Come on Tobias you need to have your nap, be good for Papa" Tobias rolled his eyes and my jaw dropped, he was so much like Sarah, it was freaky. "Don't you give me sass boy" I said to him and Tobias scowled. Sarah told me the other day that Tobias had my scowl. I don't really see myself in Tobias that much, all I see is Sarah. My son eventually settled down and I watched him sleep for awhile. He seemed to be having a bad dream, but not aware of it the way he was shuffling about. I stood up and walked out and found Sarah now in the kitchen. She had the fridge open and was drinking one bag of blood after another. She casually threw away the blood bags. "Sarah what the hell is up with you, what are you doing?" I said to her, annoyed at the way she spoke to Tobias and me. Sarah ignored me and kept feeding on the blood. I went to her and I grabbed her arm, she turned and punched me in the chest with such force it knocked me flying through the kitchen and into the hallway. I landed with a thud and got back up. I went tback to her, "Sarah what the hell is wrong with you?" She hissed violently and resumed drinking the blood. Marcus came to investigate. I left Sarah alone and returned to the nursery, trying to remember what I did wrong. Tobias worked up and I went to the fridge, there was two bags of blood left, it would be enough for today. I grabbed the bag of blood and put it in the bottle to feed my son. I smiled at him and hid my concern. He was only a child and did not need to see my worries. He just needed to have a happy childhood. We spent the rest of the day with Tobias in the nursery. We found lots of things to do, he was playing with his toy's and I played with him. It was around eight pm and Marcus announced they were leaving. I went out holding Tobias and saw Sarah was hugging Marcus. She leaned in and kissed him on the lips slipping her tongue into his mouth. I stared at her in shock, but the others did not look surprised, well except for Jane, she was watching and it looked like she was about to throw up and I was right there with her. I felt sick to my stomach seeing MY WOMAN kiss Marcus. I moved to Sarah and with one hand grabbed her arm and pulled her to me. "Are you fucking mad?" Marcus left out a hiss. Sarah looked at me with hate in her eyes. "Unhand me!" she said. I refused to let go and she reached up her hand touching my neck, she lifted me up and Tobias seemed uncomfortable. She threw us across the room. I used my body as a shield to protect our son I sat up slowly and Tobias whimpered he was unharmed, but shaken from the event. Something was wrong with Sarah, she put her arm around Marcus' waist and I snarled "What are you doing?" Sarah ignored me and looked at Marcus. "You can see he is not exactly the smartest man on the world. He was easy to use." Marcus nodded. "What's the meaning of this" I yelled out and ignored Tobias' shiver. Sarah sighed and looked at Tobias and I before she said "I am going to have to explain this to you....you are a fool Brian jacobson, you're naive and innocent, unable to see when someone is using you." I looked at Sarah in confusion Sarah looked at me and laughed. "from the very moment I first met you, I thought to myself, there is a sucker I can con. I saw how nice the place in Volterra was and could see you were wealthy. I thought I hit the big time and I had no idea how right I was Brian. So i made up everything, the story about getting knocked up at an early age, being kicked out everything. I did everything to rope you in so I could take your money." I looked at Sarah in horror. "That's a lie" I yelled. "Keep telling yourself that Brian, I had everything planned, well almost everything, I did not expect to get knocked up and give birth to a little freak." I let out a hiss and put my hand over Tobias head Sarah was being really mean. "Sarah you don't mean that, what the fuck is wrong with you?" I snarled out. Sarah just laughed, "I do mean it how could I love a little bastard who broke my body and made me feel weak...the only good thing about carrying the little freak is the fact that I gained immortality from it." I snarled at Sarah "SHUT UP IT'S NOT TRUE, WHY ARE YOU SAYING SUCH AWFUL THINGS, SARAH?" Sarah smiled as Marcus kissed her neck. "Because it's the truth Brian. In life you're the one fucking people or your the one getting fucked. Love is nothing, but illusion, all that's true, all that you can count on is power...everything else is just an unnessary burden. " She spoke so coldly and ruthlessly I could not believe this was my babygirl. Sarah was starting to sound a lot like Aro. "But Sarah," She cut me off and said "Jane." Jane looked at Sarah then to me and then I felt pure agony. I fell to my knees and held Tobias. He was quiet, but fine, Jane was only doing her damned gift on me. "Do you see now the power I possess, Jane hates me, she would rather be doing this on me than you. I am the one in control, you see this Brian, this is the story of my life and you are no longer a part of it, neither is the freak. So keep him and never ever show yourself to me again or I will have you both killed." I hissed at her in anger. "So it was all a lie then..you never loved me....us, you just wanted my money." I accused her. Sarah smiled, "very good Brian you're starting to catch on, your not as dumb as I thought you were....I would say I am sorry to you for letting you think you would have a picture perfect family, but I am not...I excel at not giving a shit." she said and then laughed darkly at the end. Aro chuckled while Marcus had his hand aound Sarah's stomach. I did not want to believe this. "If this is true, then Sarah you will nave no problem giving me the engagement ring back." Sarah nodded she turned her back from me and stayed still for a moment, she then threw the ring over her shoulder. "Why would I settle for being a millionaire when I can be queen of the vampires." she said not turning to face me. I watched as she petted Marcus' cheek. The pain finally stopped and I stood up watching as Marcus leaned down and kissed Sarah. My heart was breaking watching the woman I loved kiss another man and all the hurtful things she had said. "Thats fine by me, you heartless bitch, pray that we never meet again, because if we do I will rip your fucking head off you manipulitive heartless bitch! As for you Aro, you knew this all along and you allowed it to happen. You enjoyed my humilation well I am no longer a friend of the Voltori either." I spat out in hate. Sarah stopped kissing Marcus and kept her back to me. Aro was about to speak when Sarah cut him off. "Why would king Aro need the help of a powerless fool when he has me to inspire his army." Tobias moved his head from my chest and he looked at Sarah, "Momma" He said. I was in shock Tobias spoke his first word, he called for his mother. I held onto him tightly as he began to cry "I think it's time we leave this freak and fool," Sarah said, her voice was slightly shaking. I thought Sarah was having second thoughts until she said "Jane why dont you show Tobias your gift." Her voice was cold. "NO" I hissed, as Jane turned her head, I turned my back so Jane could not see Tobias and took the full blast of her 'gift'. I was on my knees in agony as venom dripped from my nose, Tobias was crying his eyes out. "It's ok little man, Papa is ok." I hissed through the pain. "Well done Jane," Sarah said. "I hate you Sarah," I hissed, Sarah chuckled....."Good!" The pain stopped and I got up and turned to face her, Alec was now beside Sarah. "It's best to be safe, I am knocking Sarah out until we return home," Alec sid to Marcus. Marcus nodded his head, "Say goodnight Sarah," Marcus said to Sarah. Sarah did not look at Tobias or me as our son called out for his mother again. "Goodnight!" She said softly to Marcus. She instantly fell to the ground only to be caught by Marcus. I stood there and watched as the Voltori left with the only woman I had ever loved and the woman I wanted to kill. I returned inside and walked to the nursery. Tobias cried the entire night, I craddled him in my arms. He knew what was happening, the poor little man finally cried himself to sleep, while he slept, I went around the house and packed up Sarah's things into a box. I saw her Diary on the bed side table, next to the picture of her and I together. She was heavily pregnant in that photo. Sarah spoke of this photo, despite all she had said and done. I thought she looked beautiful in it. I really thought we were happy, but I was wrong, she used me and for that I can not forgive her. I packed the photo of her and considered reading her diary.....no that bitch had messed with my head and my heart, there is no way I want to get into her head and see the darkness in her mind. I packed her diary with the photo and everything else the guitar and keyboard and locked it in the shed. I sit in the nursery watching my son now and am telling you this, the reason is this I am going to kill the Voltori for making a fool of me and after im done with the Voltori, Sarah is next! Brian Jacobson Topic: Damn evil pants
Date: June 9th, 2009 Yo Diary Today was an excellent day. I should start at the beginning. I went to do my shift of watching Tobias, to relieve Sarah. We take turns watching him. It's not like we need to, with our enhanced hearing, we would know something was wrong within a split second, but still we do it anyway. Sometimes, we watch him together. Sarah seems to spend as much time as possible with Tobias . She is obsessed with him, she never wants to leave his side. I Dragged her outside this morning it was four am and still dark. We sat on the sand for a long time talking, she rested against me and I enjoyed her scent breathing it in. Sarah wanted to know how we would spend eternity together and I told her we could be like this, forever, just the three of us, we will watch the sun rise and fall in each others loving embrace. When Tobias is old enough, we will find him a mate and we will have a complete family forever. Sarah was quiet, which is unusual she always had something to say. She looked up from the ground and gasped as the sun slowly started to rise. The light reached our skin and suddenly there were thousands of sparkling lights all around us. We shimmered in the light and I kissed Sarah's neck and told her "you look beautiful in the light Sarah!" She told me to stop joking and I turned her face around to look at me. I looked deep into those crimson eyes of hers," Sarah, you are the most beautiful woman to ever walk this earth, and I am so lucky to have you in my life." I wanted to add onto it and tell her how meaningless my life was before her, but Sarah got on her knees and pushed me into the sand she pinned me down and kissed me. I kissed Sarah back and smiled with glee then thinking that penalty time was over and I was going to get some tender loving. Sarah slipped her tongue in my mouth and I decided to assert my authority as man of this household. I overpowered my woman and climbed on top of her, I undid my zipper and smiled. Sarah's hair was covering her eyes and I gently pushed the hair away and told her "Sarah, when I am with you, I am alive, there are no words that can describe the depth of my feelings for you." She looked at me and smiled and then kissed me again and I moved my hand pulling up her skirt, moved my hand slowly towards her panties. At this rate, I was so in the mood to romance her I'd rip the things off with my teeth if I had to. Sarah and I heard something from inside. She did not hesitate, she threw me off her using her newborn strength and fixed herself up. She bolted inside. I cussed in frustration as I hit the sand hard, I was so close to some tender loving and now I would not get it. There would be no satisfaction for 'Brian Jr'. I picked myself up and went inside to see Sarah holding Tobias, she was mothering the boy and if she did not stop it she would turn him into a sissy...a moma's boy. Sarah lifted Tobias up to her chest, his face was near her breast and I could not help but wish I was Tobias at that moment. I was going to say something about Sarah being so over attentive, when Sarah said me "your fly is undone." I said to Sarah "so this means no sex right." Sarah nodded her head while she held our son and I grumbled "need to teach my son not to interrupt when i'm trying to claim his moma." Sarah rolled her eyes annoyed and hissed out "don't talk like that around our son or I'll give you something to cry about." I jumped back and said nothing. Sarah was scary since becoming a Mother. I knew better than to argue with Sarah by now, I grumbled an apology to her. Sarah came to me and stood on her tippy toes and leaned in to kiss my cheek. I smiled and watched her walk to the rocking chair. She sat there and reminded me about my fly, I did as I was told and zipped it up, she asked me to get the baby formula. I left immediately and heard a soft grunt and chuckled. I may let Tobias have his way, but his mother was a different story. She was stubborn and savage when pissed, hell hath no fury like Sarah on a rampage. I heard Sarah say "it's for your own good little man." Her voice was loving and motherly it surprised me for a moment. Sarah began to sing and I felt that strong sense of inspiration again. I stopped and leaned against the wall, feeling the surge of inspiration that coursed through my body, it made me feel invincible. I returned to the room and handed her the formula and told her "damn that feels good Sarah." I watched Sarah feed our son, she loved feeding him, I just loved seeing her face light up at just the mention of our son. Sarah tried to feed Tobias the formula and he pushed it away. I chuckled watching Sarah raise an eyebrow and heard her speak, "defiant little bugger aren't you." I added in " Yeah I wonder who he gets that from," Sarah put the bottle down and flipped me off and I chuckled again. "I knew it." Sarah rolled her eyes and went back to trying to feed Tobias. Sarah kept trying to feed the drink to Tobias and he continued to push it away. Sarah started to get frustrated "come on Tobias cut it out." I smiled in glee, it was about time he gave his mother trouble. That's my son. Sarah surprised me with "fine more for me. " I watched in shock as she started to drink the formula. I shivered imagining the foul taste she must be tasting at this moment. I watched my babygirl in shock and was even more surprised when Tobias started looking for the bottle and she gave it to him. Sarah knew Tobias so well, she knew how to make him want the bottle. I knew Sarah would be a great mother, but damn that was incredible. "That stuff must taste horrible" I said and Sarah nodded her head. Tobias finished drinking the formula and Sarah burped him. She finally gave Tobias to me and she went to the bathroom. I decided it was time my son and I went outside to play and I bolted out with Tobias in my arms. We were outside and a few seconds later I heard the scream of a banshi. "BRIAN JACOBSON GET YOUR BUTT IN HERE NOW!" I turned around and saw Sarah. She looked PISSED. I looked down at Tobias and he let out a little sigh as if he were about to say "So close, but not close enough." I walked toward Sarah holding my son and she leaned in and inspected Tobias. "No sunscreen, huh." She took Tobias from me and stomped on my foot so hard it actually hurt. I started to yell at her. "Damn Sarah that actually hurt." but She cut me off and in her exact words said "SHUT UP BRIAN. NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME, TOBIAS IS NOT YOU'RE DRINKING BUDDY HE IS YOUR SON, YOU'RE HIS FATHER FIRST AND HIS FRIEND SECOND. So start treating him a little more carefully he may be half vampire, BUT he is also part human and we need to be careful until we figure out for ourselves what human vulnerabilities he inherited from me. Do I make myself clear Brian." I opened my mouth to retort and before I could say a single thing Sarah cut me off again and said "Stop your bitching and get me Tobias's hat." I looked at Sarah's crimson eyes and knew she was serious. I could see it and it was best not to agitate Sarah more. I went to get Tobias' hat and when I returned with it I watched Sarah put sunscreen on Tobias arms and legs and over his nose. She kissed both of Tobias cheeks and put the hat on him before handing Tobias to me. "Alright boys now you can go and play." she said in a motherly tone. I was not mad at Sarah I understood why she was being so scary. It was because of her son's safety, she worried far too much if you ask me. On my way out I said to Tobias "your mother is scary." He nodded his head a little and I smiled "what was that Brian?" Sarah asked I gulped down the air and said "nothing honey" and ran off with my son before Sarah thought of putting my son in a bubble!!!!! I played with Tobias and watched him pick up the sand and throw it up in the air he loved the beach. I clapped my hands watching him while Sarah was inside. I wondered what she was doing and why she did not join us. There was something I did not understand. There were some times when she was so obsessive it was frightening, while there were other times where she distanced herself and just left Tobias and I to be on our own. Sarah finally joined us and the three of us played together. We built a nice sand castle and when we finished it, Tobias decided to play godzilla and stomp all over the it. Sarah laughed like I had never heard her before, she was so happy watching our son. Sarah picked Tobias up and together we went in to put Tobias down for a nap. He was rather reluctant to go down for his nap and fought Sarah tooth and nail until he tired himself out and fell asleep. Sarah and I went outside and I kissed Sarah passionately, she wrapped her leg around mine and I moved my hand onto her leg to hold it. I continued to kiss Sarah and I used my free hand to unzip my pants, I was determined to pleasure my woman. I moved my hands towards Sarah's panties and I was interrupted again. I let out a groan and knew I was never gonna get my tender loving session with Sarah. "Not again" I grumbled and Sarah suggested the pants were cursed. "These evil pants must be burned!" I said quietly, as I zipped up my pants. Sarah looked at the Voltori and I noticed that Jane was missing, but on the bright side there looked to be a snack for Sarah, Tobias and myself. I watched Sarah excuse herself as she bolted inside, I presumed she went to check on our son and a few seconds later I heard a crash and Sarah speaking, "Don't you ever touch my son again." I heard a thud and Marcus left. The next thing I heard was Jane say "that was not nice of you, Sarah, you would do well to remember your place." There was malice and hatred in her voice and Marcus said "as would you remember yours. "I was confused and then everything made sense, when Sarah hissed out "she touched my son, she goes near him again, I will kill her." Things were getting hostile. I went to Marcus, "please excuse Sarah, she is very over protective of our son." Sarah picked up Tobias and we walked over to the humans and Aro. I went in to pick the human I would eat and then fell over, face first. I heard Tobias chuckle with glee and next thing I knew Sarah was picking me up by the scruff of my neck, like a mother cat picking up it's kitten. "Come on Sarah, I'm thirsty, I wanna drink" I complained. She ignored me and asked Tobias which human he wanted. My son pointed out to the one I wanted. Sarah dropped me and I landed on my feet. Tobias was doing it on purpose, he knew I wanted that human. I decided to go and feed off the another human while Sarah helped Tobias with his meal. I finished my meal and watch my son feed from his very first Human I was so proud. It's true he has had blood before, but this is the first time he has ever bitten a human. He was already on his way to becoming a man. I could see Sarah struggle and she handed Tobias to me. I watched her embrace her savage nature and kill the human, she ripped out his flesh and begun to feed on it, it was all very sexy. I felt myself becoming very aroused by this. Tobias found himself full and he burped just like a little man. The human was in agony as my son's venom caused him pain beyond belief. Sarah moved to the human and snapped his neck and I walked to my woman and licked the blood from her face and sucked on her lip for a moment "you're my sexy beast." I whispered to her. She looked at me and smiled. Sarah took Tobias and together the two had a shower, she told me to set up the tv, that Tobias was outside long enough today and to clean up the mess. I did as she asked and Sarah grabbed some clothing from the nursery and got dressed as well and dressed our son up nicely. She put on the tv and allowed Tobias to watch a Disney movie, it was a brand new one called The Princess Protection Program. Tobias seemed to enjoy it very much, I can't wait to teach him about women. I am going to make sure he is a heart breaker, thats for sure. After the Disney movie Sarah read Alice in wonderland to Tobias, he loved the children's book and I complemented Sarah in her choice. Sarah looked at me and said "Alice in wonderland...many consider it to be just a children's novel, but it's not Brian its about a girl who feels she is not strong enough to cope. She went through many trials and challenges and overcame obsticles she did not think she could. She found a strength within her that she did not know was there. I am reading it to Tobias so he learns that everyone has strength inside them...to do things that they did not think they could do." I was surprised by Sarah she seemed desperete to install that into him. It was 11 pm and I caught Sarah standing on the kitchen terrace, the radio was turned on at very low levels so Tobias could sleep and I listened to the song. I watched Sarah and saw she had made a fist. I went out to her and wrapped my arms around her, I noticed her fist shaking "What's wrong babygirl?" I asked her. Sarah's shaking stopped and she said "Brian can I ask you to promise me something, would you do it?." I was surprised and I told her "sure babygirl what is it you want me to promise you?" She turned to face me and kissed my lips for a moment, "promise me you will protect Tobias with your life, that you will always put him first and remember he is still half human and that you will be strong and.........." I did not let Sarah finish my hands were on Sarah's shoulders and I shook her. "Sarah what the hell are you talking about, you sound like you're going away, you will always be here with Tobias and me." I told her. Sarah had such pain in her eyes she smiled, "your right, but just humor me...make me that promise." I looked at Sarah and rolled up my eyes "yeah yeah I promise ya babygirl." Sarah seemed to lighten up after that and she hugged me tight and I hugged her back. I knew now something was troubling Sarah, she was afraid, I could feel it. I don't know what's wrong with her the Voltori also seem to be busy, they're going home soon. It's 11:40 pm. I am going to go now and check on my babygirl. ~Brian Jacobson Song playing on the Radio & during Sarah and brian's talk about the promise Topic: Busy and loving it
Date: June 8th, 2009 Yo Diary It's been a few days sincce I last wrote to you. Sarah has successfully changed to a vampire and let me say she is incredible, she is beyond perfection. I will get to Sarah later though, I need to tell you about my son, Tobias, the little man is growing fast. I am glad I listened to Aro and bought bigger clothing. He is an intelligent child. I am not just saying that because he is my son, but I see wisdom in his eyes, it's the way he watches you, it's like he is aware of things that are happening. Tobias also tends to scowl at you too, the other day while Sarah was still changing, I said something about Sarah never being that vocal during sex and he just gave me the scowl look, as if he was saying "too much info." My son of course has the sense to like blood. I have tried to give him the formula and he hates it, he won't even try it. The stuff smells foul so I can't really blame him. I won't force it on him, he is my little man. Yesterday Tobias and I went to the city. I drove slower than normal since Tobias was with me, he seemed to enjoy the scent of the air on the drive. He made this frowning face in the town, until he smelt a human scent then he seemed to be a little more cheerful after that. I could not help, but say "that's my son." I was so proud he recognized food when he smelled it, it was our job to bring back blood to last us a few days. Sarah's a newborn she would be thirsty constantly and Tobias needed blood too. I also had human baby food and formula that I'd bought, but since Tobias prefers blood I will not force that horrid food on him. I like to take Tobias to the beach, he loves it there and is especially happy around it. I carry him up and down the beach and he smiles, he usually sniffs the air, I think he enjoys the scent of the air. Tobias just smiles at the beach and is a happy and quiet boy. The only time he cried was when Sarah was briefly dead. Tobias is also a special child he is gifted. The day after he was born I was holding him and I suddenly felt a spark course through my body. I could smell the scent of humans all the way to the city and hear the traffic. I could see a lot better then usual too. I looked at my son in awe and he had this smug look on his face, but there was something else, I kept on getting the feeling he was trying to tell me something... I am probably being paranoid. I wondered how it was that he enhanced my senses back that time when I was swimming with Sarah. Speaking of Sarah, she seems to be able to control herself, which is unusual. My theory is motherhood is the only thing keeping her sane. She should be running around like a lunatic, trying to kill anything with a pulse. She is mostly the same, but a few things have changed its hard to put my finger on it. One thing for certain is she has become a lot more aggressive. She actually attacked Jane yesterday and kicked that dwaff's butt. She went out on her first hunting trip today with Demetri. I wanted to take her, but she did not want Tobias alone with the Voltori for some reason. I looked at Tobias and heard his heart beating, it was faster than a normal humans'. It made me remember his human side and I realized Sarah was right he would probably need the nutrients in the formula. I tried to feed the formula to Tobias in the nursery and he kept pushing the bottle away. I raised an eyebrow and watch him scowl at me at that moment .I realized he would grow up to be as stubborn and defiant as his mother and I was screwed! I growled low and Tobias pushed the bottle away again. I could hear musical laughter and looked up to see Sarah, she was laughing at my annoyance and our son's defiance. Sarah came and took Tobias from me along with the bottle. I stood up and let her sit in the rocking chair and heard her say "come on little Tobias stop being naughty and behave for your papa." When she spoke, her voice was higher than when she was human. It would take me a while to get used to it. I stood close by watching the two. I was in shock that Tobias started drinking the baby formula right away, I also felt a little annoyed too, the little punk was messing with me on purpose, he is just like his mother. Sarah began to hum a song and I closed my eyes feeling Sarah's influence. It had become so much more powerful than when she was human. When she sang now I felt something around my heart....warmth. It's almost as if I was human, I feel inspired and a surge of energy is coursing through my body. It's like I can do anything, I am pumped up and ready to handle whatever is thrown at me. The effect doesn't last long, only an hour...sometimes two then the inspiration goes away and I return to normal. I waited for Sarah eagerly, I wanted to go out and play with Tobias, we always went to the beach this time of the day. Sarah finally finished feeding him. I took Tobias from her and hugged my son. I said to Sarah, that Tobias and I were going out to play and Sarah told me "Not until I put some sunscreen on him." I frowned and she took Tobias back. Our son seemed just as annoyed as Sarah put sunscreen all over his arms. I paced up and down inpatiently telling her to hurry up. Sarah gave me this look and I quieted down. Another thing about Sarah since becoming a vampire, she is actually scary....maybe it's more the fact she is a mother and not a newborn. I don't know, Sarah finally finished, Tobias was covered and annoyed at the scent of the sunscreen and I didn't blame him. Sarah put some of that stuff on my nose yuck. Sarah told us to scat and I was excited. I had my son and carried him outside. We ran along the beach and he was smiling having a blast. I kissed my son on the forehead, ignored the foul taste of the sunscreen and held my son close. We sat down on the sand and Tobias picked up some of the sand in his hand and made a fist full of sand. The sand fell from his fingers and I watched him and smiled. I spent the rest of the day on the beach with Tobias ,only coming back in when Sarah wanted to put another layer of sunscreen on our son. It had started to get late and Sarah called us back in. We gave Tobias a bath to wash the sunscreen off and then Sarah sat in the rocking chair with him. I told her our son should have blood since for one thing it did not taste like shit and Sarah just rolled her eyes and allowed Tobias to have the blood. Sarah asked Tobias if she could have some of his blood and I told Sarah I knew of good bottle that needed some sucking and only she was the one to do it. She gave me a dirty look and I smiled. Sarah began to sing another song while Tobias fed on the blood my son fell asleep half way through his meal. Marcus came and watched Sarah and Tobias while she sang and told me that I was very lucky to have a muse like her and I knew he was right. Sarah continued to hold Tobias she seemed perfectly happy holding our son. When I look back on today, I remember seeing her sad, when Tobias and I were at the beach it's strange I wonder why she was sad. I need to figure that out, but right now I can't, it's my shift to watch Tobias. Brian Jacobson Topic: So much is happening!!!!
Date: June 2nd , 2009 I am worried about Sarah, she has changed. The last time I wrote to you Sarah was strong and determined and fearless. Now Sarah is changing. The child is draining too much blood from Sarah and it seems like we can never replenish her enough. Sarah has become so pale and fragile, the child is sapping her strength...her life and I am afraid of losing her. I went hunting the day before yesterday with Aro, Jane, Alec and Demetri. I bought a lot of baby clothing and formula as per Sarah's request. Aro told me that I should buy bigger sizes too since the hybrids grew fast and I did. I also bought something else something Sarah did not expect. When I returned Sarah was different. Her eyes that usually sparkled like diamonds, to me, now looked dead. I was worried, but I knew how to revive the sparkle in her eyes. I had made a choice that would change not just my life, but the life of Sarah and our unborn child. I had decided to propose to Sarah. I wanted her as my mate so we could be together forever, just the three of us. I looked at my babygirl she was huge, the child was growing so fast, Sarah had already fractured her pelvis from the child's kick, we were lucky it was not a break. Sarah and I discussed for a long time about names for our child and we came to two options: Tobias Marcus Jacobson Cassandra Hope Jacobson Both names were perfect, just like our future son or daughter. Yesterday I took Sarah to the Beach and we watched the sun set together. I knew this was the right moment and I proposed to Sarah, asking her to marry me. She accepted and I could hear utter joy in her voice. Sarah made me the happiest man on the planet at that moment. I held her close and we watched the sun set. Sarah and I returned inside and I could see Marcus was surprised, I wondered why. Sarah insisted that I took Demetri and the twins to New York and gave them a tour of the city. I was too high on joy to argue or refuse her idea. I took the twins and went to New York with Demetri and the twins. We spent a few hours going around at some of the tourist locations. Being a vampire really gave us the advantage, we moved faster than normal humans and could do things a lot faster. I bought a I love NYC T- shirt and threw it to Jane, she threw me a dirty look and I was afraid she would use her gift on me for a moment. She asked me what she was meant to do with the shirt and I told her to put it on. She said that being around a human had twisted my morals, that I was acting human and that was inexcusable. I told Jane that Sarah was daring enough to do something like wear this shirt. Sarah was fearless and did not care about how she looked. I smiled seeing Jane put the shirt on. She still looked pissed, but at least she did it. Jane may be hundreds of years old, but she is still a child and it seemed I had this whole parenting thing down when I made her do what I say. I looked at Alec and he told me not to even bother buying him a shirt. Demetri watched the two twins amused at seeing Jane wearing a tourist shirt. We finished up the tour, I wanted to get back to my babygirl before she went to bed. We returned home at 10 pm. Sarah was still awake. Sarah looked at Jane surprised and I was worried the two would break out into a fight. Sarah said something snide of course and I went to hug my babygirl. I noticed something was off, it was Sarah's scent, I could smell the scent of Marcus. I asked her why I could smell Marcus on her and she told me that she needed his help moving around. I believed her because I trusted her, she would never hurt me. I picked up my babygirl carefully and took her in our bedroom. She asked me why we were going to my room and I said "this is our room now babygirl and trust me once your turned we will give it a good baptising." Sarah blushed, but the blood to her cheeks was faint, I could barely see her cheeks turn red and barely smell it. Sarah told me she felt really weak, she asked me if I could get her diary and, then get her some blood and I of course obliged and got her both. When I returned, Sarah was asleep and her diary was on the bedside table. I put her cup of blood on the side just in case she woke up during the night and I laid down beside her. I spent the entire night watching her sleep. She did not move or make a single sound, she slept like a corpse dead to the world. Sarah woke up this morning around 11 am. I carried her to the lounge room and we sat together. I asked her how she felt today. Sarah answered in these exact words "oh I am just peechy, if this little angel of ours don't leave soon I am going to charge him or her rent." I chuckled and kissed her forehead. Sarah smiled weakly and we sat together for an hour. I fed her blood, but she still seemed so fragile I was scared of losing her. Sarah asked me to turn the radio on and we listened to it for a while. She asked me if she would do her a favor and I asked her what she wanted. She asked me to dance with her. I looked at her, she was huge...massive it looked like she would burst if someone poked her stomach and she still wanted to dance. I told her that she needed to rest and she started to cry she begged me to dance with her. I bit my lip and looked at her pale face, how could I refuse her she was everything to me. I lifted her up and carried her to the lounge room and lowered her slowly. Sarah stayed close and we danced together, the song did not even finish and she stumbled. I tried to lift her up and she told me NO. I looked at her in shock and she told me she could do this. Sarah was to the point of breaking and she still refused to cave in. We danced till the song ended. I tried to pick her up and she begged me for one more dance. I sighed and let her have her way, the song was beautiful she told me in this exact words "This will be our song Brian, Promise me, whenever you hear this song you will think of this moment and how much I love you and our child." I told her I promised her and she told me in return she promised she would never forget this moment.... no matter how dark her life became. I asked her what she meant. I was worried and that moment I heard a snap. I watched Sarah bend over and cry in pain ,the child had broken a rib. I carefully picked Sarah up and took her to the bedroom. I did my best trying to relieve the pain, she was whimpering in agony and I could see so much pain in her eyes at that moment.. I saw something else....fear. Sarah is resting now she refused to take anything for the pain so now she is breathing shallow breaths. I blame myself for Sarah's injury. I should have said no she was too fragile, I will never let Sarah get hurt ever again. I will protect my woman better from now on. I need to go I want to be with my babygirl. ~Brian Jacobson The first song Sarah & Brian danced to Sarah & Brians special song Topic: The Tour guide is me, I should be home with my babygirl.
Date: May 22, 2009 Yo Diary Some things you may be interested in, I am still under penalty and I have just realized it may stay that way for the duration of the pregnancy. Sarah has gotten huge and is rather moody too. Jane brought something up and Sarah looked like she wanted to rip out Jane's tongue. Jane's and Sarah's hatred seems to be rather mutual, but from what I saw from Alec and Demetri they don't seem to mind Sarah. The only thing bothering me is Aro's interest in Sarah. I think he still wants her in his guard, but Sarah would never join the guard she has the baby and she has me too. The Voltori decided to stay and help out as much as possible. They were curious about how the pregnancy would work. Aro told me he saw everything from Edward Cullen's thoughts during the whole incident, but still he wanted to document this pregnancy, see how things would work out. I did not mind as long as he did not want my babygirl, our child or me killed. I was fine with them as house guests, it should be fine. Aro came up with the idea of us going hunting in the city, I personally thought it was a bad idea. I wanted to be with Sarah. I was worried about her, but Marcus volunteered to stay behind and Sarah told me she wanted fresh blood and not the stuff in the blood bags. I frowned and reluctantly left with Aro, Demetri and the twins. I decided we should drive to town and look as normal as possible Jane was down right unpleasent as she and her brother sat in the back beside Demetri and asked "Are we there yet" several times I was driving slow for a reason, mainly because I did not want a speeding ticket and get a cop killed. I mostly fed off the criminals and those who smelled nice, I did not like feeding off those who dedicated themselves to bettering humanity. We arrived in the city and parked in the usual parking lot and we left. The day was dark and stormy so there was no chance of the sun coming up. We hunted the streets, Jane moved beside me the entire time. It was not unusual for Jane she is always close to me when I visit the Voltori, people often think of her as crazy. I think of her as a confused child. We hunted in silence moving with inhumane speed and agility through the alleys as we caught suitable meals. We eventually broke off into two squads, Aro went with Alec and Demetri in one direction, while I left with Jane to go in the other. We were hunting for a while and then Jane finally asked me what I saw in the human, as she put it. I told Jane that Sarah was an amazing woman, true she was human, but she was a fighter and stronger then anyone could imagine. I told her that not even Sarah knew her own strengths and it was true Sarah did not see herself with accuracy, there is so much she doesn't see about her self. Jane looked at me like I was insane, she told me that Sarah was still a human and that I should forget about her and stick to my own species. I asked her what about Sarah and my child and jane told me to let Sarah die and give the child to the voltori. She told me I should join and serve Aro in the guard. I told Jane I would never join the guard. I was no man's slave, not anymore and I would never let my woman die or give my child away. Jane went silent after that and we had nothing to say to each other. The rest of the time Sarah was on my mind. I thought about the first time we had sex. The way she confided in me before we got lost in our passion and love for each other, it's one of my favourite moments with her. Another moment with Sarah that I treasure is making love with her under the stars ,the way she looked that night there was no words to describe it. I don't think Jane could ever understand the love I share with Sarah. Jane eventually spoke and asked me what was the one thing I hated about Sarah. I thought about it and told her there was not a single thing that I hated about my babygirl. I loved every single thing about Sarah. Jane looked at me with a sneer and asked another question about Sarah. "Fine what is the one thing you love most about her?" Jane spat out. I could hear the hatred in Jane's voice, but I chose to ignore it and told her, "That is too hard to answer, Sarah is magnificent, I guess I have to say I love her fighting spirit. Once Sarah sets out to do something she will never ever give up, she will keep pushing herself, long after everyone else has quit. She knows what she wants and will go to hell and back to get it." We finished hunting and I grabbed a human for Sarah, knocking the human out and carrying it to the boot of my car with inhuman speed. You would not believe how easy it is to carry around a human, you just need to have look outs and I had four watching my back. We made it home and I spent the rest of the day with Sarah. I watched her feed from the human. I ignored the curious glances of the others, apparently they wern't used to seeing a human consume blood. I did not care I was too lost in Sarah's movements. I just wanted to lay her down and tell her how much I loved her...no, I wanted to show her how much I loved her. An interesting fact I noticed was, the more blood Sarah drank, the stronger she was. Today she actually broke a chair with her hands. I asked her how she felt and she told me she was fine with the exception of always being thirsty and sleepy most of the time. I kissed Sarah's forehead my babygirl was such a trooper. Sarah's mood tends to swing a little from time to time, she actually wanted to take Jane on in a fight and compared Jane to Justin Beiber. Sarah and I spent the rest of the day together, she said she wanted to call the child Brian Junior or BJ for short. I told her "Are you insane woman, come now I will not have my son called Brian Junior or BJ for short, I forbid it Sarah. I will not inflict that name on an innocent child." Sarah wanted to know why and I told her "think babygirl, think BJ....BLOW JOB, do you really want to name our child that?" Sarah was about to say something, but Aro and Marcus joined us and we spoke about the pregnancy, Aro seemed excited and curious to see our child. I finally managed to spend some time alone with Sarah in my bedroom for a change. I laid beside her until she fell asleep. I kissed her forehead and came to write in you and explain how things were going. I will write again as soon as possible. Right now Sarah is my number one priority she is carrying my child and she must be taken care of. Brian jacobson Topic: Sarah's moody
Date: May 21st, 2009 It's been two days since I last told you what was going on, well my reason is, I have been watching Sarah like a fat kid watches cake. After I wrote to you I found myself dinner, and returned home with my snack. I found Sarah still on the couch wrapped in blanket watching Anne of Green Gables. Sarah was surprised by the snack and I told her this guy was her dinner. I was joking, I actually got her burger king she liked burgers and I did not want to be away from Sarah for too long. Sarah gave me a skeptical look and I laughed and told her "I'm just fucking with ya." I pulled out the burger king bag from behind my back and I heard her sigh out of relief. She walked towards me to get the bag and I saw something in her eyes, it was confusion. I watched my babygirl curiously and heard her say "tell you what I will give you the burger king and I will get chubby how about that." I raised an eyebrow and told her to forget it this was my meal. Sarah flipped me off and told me she was eating for two now and no hamburger would satisfy her. I told her I got her fries too, but she did not listen. I used my nail to cut into the humans neck and heard him cry out in pain. The human needed to suck it up, Sarah never cried out when I cut her, but then again I never cut that deep into her skin. The blood came pouring out and I held the human down Sarah came and started to drink the blood. I watched her it was exciting to watch her drink the blood, she was Incredible she did not even come up for air. I found myself getting horny and said "damn girl this is really turning me on." I broke one of the humans arms so he could no longer move and used my free hand to push Sarah's head deeper into the blood. It made me extremely happy in the pants watching her. I licked my lips watching the blood run down the sides of her face as she continued to feed. I watched Sarah, she was magnificent she placed her hands on the human's arms as she continued to suck his blood. I found my throat beginning to burn from thirst and I licked my lips hungrily. I asked Sarah to leave me some and she did nothing I asked her again and she stepped back gasping for air. I watched her face the lower face was completely covered in warm delicious blood. Sarah looked so sexy I just wanted to have her right there, but I was still under penalty for lying to her. I licked my lips and sunk my teeth into the human and heard him scream. I ignored the human and let go of my self control and fed off the human enjoying the blood as I drained him until he was empty and I dropped him to the ground and went to Sarah I licked her face clean of the blood and then licked her lips. "That was so incredibly hot, damn babygirl you're the perfect woman." I spoke quietly and placed my hand on her leg and moved it closer to her personal space . Sarah told me no and I stopped and sighed, we began talking about the events that happened. She told me there was no grudge between us for the lies I told her and she did not blame me. I smiled relieved and told her I figured as much. I asked her when penalty time would be over and she asked me if I was like this with all my other girlfriends. I told Sarah she was my first and I was a virgin before we had sex for the first time. Sarah actually laughed saying "I deflowered a Vampire." I felt embarrassed and grumbled telling her to shut up that it was not funny. Since sex was out of the questions, I asked Sarah some questions and learned that she could play the keyboard as well as guitar. I wanted to hear Sarah play the keyboard. I moved behind Sarah and hugged her she rested against me and I asked her to sing a song for me. Sarah was quiet for a moment trying to pick out a song and then she sung like a prayer. Sarah was amazing, she kept getting better and better each day. The only disappointment I found in her performance was she fell asleep while she sung. I had no idea how exhausted she was. I decided to get Sarah a present I would go buy her a keyboard, but first I went to her bedroom and pulled out a blanket and covered her in it. I then went to the city, there was a good music shop I knew of and afterwards caught a human for tomorrow. I wanted Sarah to have something nice to sink her teeth into. I returned home with plenty of time. My babygirl was still asleep. Sarah continued to sleep while I set up the keyboard and stand, it looked pretty impressive I found myself excited I could not wait to see what Sarah's reaction would be when she woke up, hopefully she will be able to play something for me. Sarah slept through out the night and woke up at ten am. She finally woke up, the first thing she saw was the keyboard. I chuckled at her expression, she asked me how I got it and I told her right after she fell asleep, I went to town and bought it for her. I also told her I'd brought her home a meal for today. She thanked me for the gift and I told her it was no problem . I asked her if I was still under penalty and she nodded her head I could not help, but let out a groan of disappointment. Sarah actually giggled and I almost smiled, the reason I didn't was because I was hoping she would feel sorry for me and throw me a get out of jail free card. Sarah surprised me and told me she would write a song for me. I looked up at her excited, Sarah would write me a song. I am so excited to see her creative talents be put to use. I told Sarah I could not wait to hear the song, that listening to her sing was inspiring. I could see Sarah blush and I watched the blood rush to her cheeks. I could smell the scent of her and I moved in closer to get a better taste of her scent and let out a moan. I decided to take Sarah outside to the beach and lifted her up. I walked outside and my skin began to sparkle into thousands and thousands of sparkling light like diamonds were embedded into my skin. I hoped to get Sarah in the mood and lowered her onto the ground while I removed all my clothing and stood in front of her naked. I kissed her neck and smiled before running into the water. The water did not feel cold to me, I felt nothing really. That was until I saw Sarah undress...... I was thankful I was already neck deep in water. She joined me and the entire time I stayed close to her ready to protect her and my unborn child. I find myself still wondering how is it that this beautiful human goddess changed me so much. I continued to stay close to Sarah and hugged her my hands traveled down to her ass, as I held onto her and licked her neck. I stopped and felt something intense it was like a jolt of electricity coursing through my body. I could see things that was before out of my range from touching Sarah. I could literally feel the blood flowing through her veins. I could hear the cars in New York driving on the freeway. I could taste Sarah's scent, but I could not enjoy it because of my sense of smell, I smelled the Voltori as the wind blew against us. I could smell Aro, Marcus, Alec & Jane, I however, was surprised at the last scent Demetri the tracker...I wondered what he was doing with the Voltori. Aro told me it would be just the four of them. Why bring a fifth and why were they coming today when they were due in a few days time with the rest of the guard. I told Sarah that I could smell the scent's of the Voltori. I carried her out of the water and bent over to grab our clothing. I explained to her the abnormality in my senses and did not watch her face. I was mostly concerned with Demetri's presence, I had intended to run with Sarah if things got out of hand, we would have had a head start as Demetri would be in Volterra. The advantage was now gone, I would just have to hope things didn't get out of hand and that Sarah and I would be alright. Sarah and I showered inside and we got changed. We sat down together and I told her I would have to go to town and illegally buy some blood from the blood bank. Sarah asked me why and I told her because the Voltori would be thirsty. I watched her frown and I did not want to go, but I went to town and took Sarah's car. I had refused to allow her to drive her birthday present for two reasons the first she was an insane driver, the second is because she is too fragile at the moment. I bought the blood easily, it only cost me twenty thousand. I think I was overly generous, I don't really care in all honesty, I am so wealthy it won't be missed. I returned home and the scent of the Voltori were everywhere. I entered the house with the blood bags and found the Voltori in the lounge room sitting near Sarah on the couch. Jane watched Sarah with utter loathing on her face. I greeted them quietly and Marcus lifted Sarah into his arms and asked if she had a bed to sleep on. Seeing Marcus hold Sarah I lost control of my thoughts for a moment, I seriously thought about ripping Marcus arms off and slapping him with it. I told her that her bedroom was the first one on the right and Marcus carried Sarah off. I went to the kitchen and placed the blood in the fridge and returned greeting the Voltori in proper fashion as soon as Marcus returned. Aro shook my hand I knew this was only a formality, he wanted information and the fastest way was through contact of the skin. He had seen every single thought that had entered my mind since the last encounter we had. Aro immediately told me not to worry that they had no interest in taking Sarah or the child away from me. I watched him and saw Aro was thinking of something, he must have found one of my thoughts particularly interesting. I wonder which one it was, he eventually spoke and told me he found it interesting that I could smell his scent from such a distance. I told him that I found it strange, that nothing like that had ever happened before. Aro nodded and trailed off he began to tell me about the pregnancy symptoms the Bella Cullen had with her daughter hybrid. The information he had learned through Carlisle Cullen the leader of the Cullen coven. I had informed Aro that I had a few other guests coming over to help and witness for us and he told me that thry would not be necessary and they should not waste a trip here. The translation of that was call my friends and tell them not to come. I nodded and excused myself and called my friends telling them not to come. I did not need to offend Aro. Once that was done I returned and went over with all the information and asked if we should invite Carlisle, seeing as he is a doctor and Aro insisted that we were fine without him. We spent the rest of the morning speaking about Sarah. Aro had so many questions about her. I don't know why he was asking this when he basicly knew everything I knew. I guess it's for the other's benefit, seeing as they could not read my mind. Daylight arrived and to my surprise Sarah woke up before 10. I stood and walked to Sarah and hugged her, I kissed her forehead. She asked me what took me so long and I lied saying something came up at the office. It was only a small lie truth be told traffic was a bitch, but I did not want to talk about traffic with the voltori here. I moved behind Sarah as Aro moved towards Sarah of course Aro was curious about Sarah's thoughts. Sarah seemed occupied with Demetri. I wondered what went on in that head of hers. Aro spoke "don't fret child it's only Demetri a member of my guard." I realized Sarah was afraid . Aro placed his hand out towards Sarah's stomach and asked if he could touch her. I was surprised by Sarah's attitude...well that part is a lie. I knew she would give attitude, after all this is Sarah we are talking about. Sarah attitude was a threat as she replied "only if you want to be called stumpy." I nudged her gently immediately and explained Sarah was not a morning person. Sarah allowed Aro to touch her and I could see Aro's expression he looked shocked and uncomfortable. Jane immediantly ran to her master's side worried and I wondered what was wrong with Aro? Aro let go of Sarah and stepped back the look of shock was worrying. I asked Aro what was wrong and Aro explained his ability to us that he could hear every thought a person has ever had with a touch, but when he touched Sarah not only did he hear every thought Sarah ever but had he felt it too. Aro went on to explain he did not feel that last time he touched Sarah. I started to piece the clues together, first with my senses and now with Aro's gift intensified. I came up with two theories, the first, Sarah's gift, was being intensified by the unborn child she carried. The second theory was it was the child's gift that Sarah was accessing and If I was coming to these conclusions, then surely Aro must be too. Aro asked us to leave so they could discuss the new information. Sarah asked if they were joking and began to go off in a rant. Jane looked annoyed at Sarah. I quickly placed my hand over her mouth and asked them to ignore her, that blaming the outburst on hunger. I picked Sarah up and carried her to her room and closed the door. I let my hand go from her mouth and she continued the rant and I frowned listening to her rant in anger. Normally I found this sexy, but I knew there was no chance of me getting sex due to penalty time and the Voltori in the next room. So I just kept my mouth shut and listened. I eventually had enough of the rant, believe me Sarah was nowhere near the end of her rant, so I stood up and went to the lounge room and overheard Aro speaking "I agree Marcus, she is very interesting and daring might I add." I entered and apologised for interrupting while I grabbed the keyboard and went back to Sarah's room. I asked her to play for me and she told me she was too pissed off, I pleaded for her to play and she caved in. I wondered why she couldn't cave in about the whole no sex issue while she set herself up to play. Sarah told me "I wrote this song for you Brian, it's based on how my life was before you, and how everything has changed since I met you and mostly how I feel about you now." I listened in shock and then she began to play the keyboard and sing, the music was so sweet and refreshing and like always, hearing her sing inspired me and gave me the feeling that I can do anything. Aro was right, whatever Sarah's talent was becoming, it was intensifying. I could feel inspiration course through every fiber of my being. Sarah was so amazing I was completely lost in her performance I watched as She glanced at the door and I took a quick second to look, to see Marcus and Aro watching. I looked back at my babygirl listening to her sing for me. Sarah finished playing and the I heard Marcus speak "your theory is right her gift has grown even more powerful than last time." Sarah looked at Marcus and I turned to look at him, he seemed to be more lively then the last time he met Sarah. Marcus continued to speak "that was a wonderful performance, so inspiring and passionate." The brothers excused themselves and I stood up and went to Sarah. I wrapped my arms around her and did not let go. "Thank you babygirl ,that was an amazing song." I kissed Sarah on the lips and stroked her hair until she told me she was hungry. I left in a flash to go and get her food I did not want my woman to be hungry. I returned and found Sarah writing in her diary. I left her meal for her and wondered what she was writing down. I then decided to come and write to you and tell you of my time with Sarah and the amazing song she wrote about me. ~Brian Jacobson The song Sarah wrote for me Topic: Sarah is just full of surprises
Date: may 19th, 2009 Yo Diary, It's been a full day since we discovered Sarah was pregnant. I have called the Voltori. I trust them to help us. I have in the past done many favors for them by witnessing with the whole Cullen incident they would repay their debt I know it. I returned to my babygirl after I called the Voltori and a vampire decorator I knew along with a few friends. I considered calling Eleazar, but I fear our friendship may be stained as I was a witness for the Voltori, while he defended his extended family. I wonder if he would forgive me, probably not, I know I wouldn't forgive him if he did that. I told Sarah that I had a few friends coming, she was quiet, this was not good, Sarah was never quiet. I asked her if she was alright and she answered "Peechy." I flinched I hated having her mad at me, but I deserved it I could not believe how careless I was with Sarah I only hope she can forgive me someday. I told her that the Voltori would be arriving and I heard her heart beat erratically. I wanted to hold her and get rid of the fear she felt. I told her it was alright, that the twins, Marcus and Aro would be arriving to help us. Sarah asked about the law of secrecy and I tried now to calm her down that Aro would probably forgive us because of our child and him wanting to collect the child. I knew this would buy us some time to find a safe way of getting out of this mess I could hear Sarah hiss and I was surprised and found myself turned on I gave Sarah a dirty look she firmly told me "No." Sarah moved her hand over the baby bump and I told her of the other hybrids in existence. Sarah interrupted me and asked if I knew if a hybrid was possible. I nodded my head and Sarah called me an asshole. I chuckled the way she said it was amusing. I continued the story and she did not interrupt me I went on to tell her of the Cullens and my role as the Voltori's witness and the outcome of the entire mess. Sarah ended up saying "I am not giving our child up to some king, that he could kiss my ass, that It would be a cold day in hell before I gave my child up." I looked at her she was so fearless at this moment, I guess after Jayne she would only become more determined. I told her "Damn straight baby girl, I feel the same way." Sarah held my hand and tried to pull me closer. I moved to her on the couch and placed my hand over her stomach gently. I told Sarah this would be risky and there was a good chance she would die if not careful. Sarah's resolve is impressive, she is a strong woman, a fighter and I knew she would never give up and as long as she refused to give up then the least I can do is stay at her side and fight with her. She asked me about my friends coming over, I had told her about the interior decorator and that the rest were a people I trusted. Sarah wanted to know how I knew what choice she would make and I told her I could read her like a book. I leaned down to kiss her neck and moved my way down. Sarah told me no and I asked why not and she told me she felt hungry. I looked at her I was so in the mood for her I needed to connect with her. I asked her what the real reason was and she told me this exactly "Consider it penalty for getting me knocked up." I frowned and could not believe she was punishing me by withholding sex she was so diabolical. Sarah climbed onto my lap facing me she sat there and kissed me passionately. I found myself getting very aroused by Sarah and at that moment I thought she was just teasing me now. Sarah hugged me and we enjoyed the silence together, sometimes there was no need to speak its like we have an unspoken bond Sarah and I. Sarah eventually fell asleep and I picked her up and carried her to her bed. I tucked her in and licked her neck. I loved her scent it was always so overwhelming. I am just grateful that living as long as I have has taught me restraint. I can control myself well mostly, Sarah now has me addicted to sex and well she refuses to have it now. I feel like a child being punished for doing something wrong. Sarah eventually woke up and we spoke for a while, she asked me a lot of questions about vampires and I told her about the myths, she was surprised to find out I don't sleep. When she brought me up on it I told her I was faking and just feeling her perfect shaped body Sarah threw a punch and I caught her fist and kissed it. I could hear Sarah's stomach growl and I rubbed her leg she pushed my hand away and I sighed asking her what she wanted to eat. She told me to surprise her So I picked her up and put on the tv, she loved pay tv. She ended up watching "Anne of Green Gables" staring Megan Follows, on Hallmark .I looked at Sarah and asked her if she was serious. Sarah surprised me and told me "Anne of Green Gables" with Megan Follows is one of my favourite movies of all time." I never thought Sarah would like something so girly, I guess I don't know everything about her. I contemplated on reading her diary on my trip to New York. I decided not to I enjoy Sarah surprising me, it was fun. I think I will buy her a copy of that movie on DVD maybe watch it with her and get a little lucky if you get my drift. Anyway I need to go now. Sarah's meal is ready now to pay for it and find mine. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Only Sarah would take the moment to realize she comitted necrofelia when discovering the man she loves is a vampire
Date: may 18th, 2009 She loves me, and I love her and our unborn child Yo diary I had watched over my beloved Sarah, watching her sleep, listening to the sounds of her beautiful heart beat....thump...thump...thump, each drum like heart beat was music to my ears. The scent emitting from her always overwhelming and pleasant to inhale spread across the room. I waited for my sleeping beauty to awaken, but she did not. I listened to her breathing and the heartbeats knowing she was alright, she was alive. I found myself asking questions about Sarah. Why did she attack the human? Why did she look so exhausted? Why won't she wake up? I waited and waited for Sarah to waken and sat beside her. I had my arm under her body supporting her and enjoying the closeness between us. I leaned in to her and kissed her lips and pulled back. She slowly woke up and looked at me. I looked at her eyes they held curiousity and then fear. I was surprised, why was she afraid, I asked her if she was alright, she nodded her head and the fear vanished, she suddenly just pounced on me and kissed me passionately. I pulled back and watched her anxiously she was begging for me to make love to her. I did not know what to do, she seemed off balance something about her was different. Seeing the need for connection in her eyes it was overwhelming. I ripped off her clothing and mine and moved on top of her. I leaned down to kiss her on the lips and positioned my hands over hers. I moved into Sarah and heard her gasp. I wondered if I was too cold for her. I leaned down to kiss her and Sarah noticed dry blood on my chin she asked me what it was and I told her strawberry jam, to my shock she leaned in and started sucking the blood off my chin. I watched her in shock and stopped moving into her when I heard a moan. Seeing Sarah suck blood from me it was a total turn on. I told her how hot it made me and she blushed for a moment and then I saw something in her eyes it looked like she was thinking something naughty. I could not stop myself any longer I needed Sarah. I needed to claim her and possess her and make sweet love to her. I kissed her passionately and claimed what was mine. I allowed myself to get lost in the passion and there was almost no thought left in my mind only instinct. I cut her neck with my fingers again and began draining her blood. I needed her flavor inside me. I felt her blood quell the burning thirst inside my throat. I stopped draining her blood and she leaned up to kiss me on the lips her blood on her own lips she seemed to enjoy it licking her lips and then thrusting her tongue into my mouth. I finally finished unable to hold back any longer and laid down beside her. I found myself staring at Sarah she had the taste of blood now, that much was obvious that must have been the reason why she attacked the human. I wondered why she wanted blood and why she became so savage to try to obtain it. Sarah eventually got up and walked a little stiffly. I guess I went too hard on her. I frowned, hating that I could crush her if I truly let go. Sarah went to the kitchen and I asked her what she wanted to eat Sarah told me she wanted the strawberry jam! Sarah did not want the strawberry jam she wanted blood...human blood. I remained calm and watched my beautiful angel. I told her we were out of strawberry jam and I watched her pout she looked so sexy when she pouted. Sarah instead decided on cooking instant noodle. I watched her, always looking at her checking for signs. I did not know what to look out for, but she seemed to be normal. I gently lifted my babygirl up and placed her on the counter, slowly I rested my arms around her neck and asked her how she felt. She was quiet and she thought about it before telling me that she was hungry, really really hungry. Sarah tried to push me away and I went with the flow not giving away that I could be as unmovable as a statue to her. Sarah picked up the hot noodles and she skulled it down not stopping for air my babygirl finished it in minutes. Sarah's stomach turned and I watched her as her facial expression changed. She ran to the balcony outside the kitchen door and I followed her to see her throw up repeatedly it was disgusting and foul to witness. I heard her curse the noodles, but she was not done throwing up she kept at it and I kept getting grossed out by seeing and smelling the foul thing leaving the lips I had kissed not long ago. Sarah finally stopped and turned to face me she wiped her mouth with her wrist and asked if I wanted a kiss. I told her hell no just being near her at the moment and seeing what I saw makes me sad in the pants....well I wasn't wearing pants at the moment, but it made me sad none the less. Sarah went up and I heard the tap running and the scrubbing of her toothbrush against her teeth and I sighed, out of relief. Next was the taps of the shower and I smiled and went to the bathroom and joined Sarah in the shower. I asked her how she was feeling and she told me "Better now that you are here." I could not help, but smile. I felt less sad, if you get my drift and leaned in to kiss Sarah's neck. I decided to tell Sarah the truth. I loved her and trusted her enough for her to know. She was mine too and it was better that she learned that. We finished the shower and got dressed together. I sat Sarah down in the lounge room and felt nerves consume me. I told Sarah the truth and saw her expression, her jaw opened slowly and I told her my past about my human life and how I became what I am. She seemed to be taking it well, she did not interupt me. I even told her the Voltori were vampires she was calm and silent she finally spoke and asked why I was telling her this. I told her that her behaviour is not normal and that maybe I may have infected her with something. I pointed out the changes and she did not admit to eating blood. I told her that she did and that it was blood not jam. Sarah still seemed to be taking it in her stride, but things began to change when she asked what happened to the jerk who grabbed her ass. I admitted to killing him Sarah asked me why I killed him and I told her "Because he touched you, no one, but me can touch you, you belong to me." Sarah's eyes widened and she was quiet for the longest time. I asked her to talk to me and she said to me "It's a lot to deal with and give me a moment to deal with it" I looked at her wondering what there was to deal with besides me being a vampire. Sarah broke into a rant "let's see the man I love is a vampire, he has just admitted he committed murder because an asshole cupped my ass. I am craving blood. I could be sick with some sort of illness and oh yeah I have committed necrophilia not once, but a few times and unlike Buffy I had no Idea I was committing it at the time." I smiled as she spoke she had just admitted to loving me. Sarah THE most beautiful and most talented woman in the world loved me. I could not help, but smile again I felt so good. I did not care Sarah broke into a rant I thought she was so sexy when she was pissed off. Ok, I found myself a little confused when she talked about some Buffy chick. Sarah told me she was going to her room and wanted some time alone. I frowned, but let her go I was in bliss at discovering that Sarah loved me. It was the first time she said that. Ok she was ranting, but ranting still counts. I let my babygirl have her processing time and went onto google and typed in Buffy and went to wikipedia and read up on it. After reading about it I looked it up on youtube, and found an episode and watched it. I found myself insulted Vampires don't turn into dust at sunlight.....WE SPARKLE. I shook my head in disbelief and shook it off, the humans had to believe these retarded myths, it was for our own safety. I finished my research on Buffy and sat outside Sarah's room. I waited outside her room all night waiting for her to come out, waiting to find out what her next move would be. I heard Sarah scream and I jumped onto my feet and went into her room. I looked at her in shock when I saw a bump on her stomach, it was big and it stuck out. I walked to her and sat next to he,r we were both in silence for the longest of time. I eventually stood up and told her that I needed to call one of my contacts. I walked out of the room and went to my office, sat in my chair and brought out my phone I had two choices I could call my friend Eleazar of the Denali Coven or I could do the right thing and call Aro of the Voltori. I picked up the phone and dialed the number ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Sarah snapped, kind of made me hot to see it though
Date: may 15th, 2009 Yo Diary I don't know what to say or think after the events of today. It seemed like it would be a good day. Iit started off in a normal fashion. I watched Sarah sleep through out the night and left her room at five am. I went to get ready for work and time went by. It was ten am. We should have been at the office already, but Sarah was still asleep I went to wake her up and failed, she just slept like she was dead to the world. I nudged her a little and she told me she was tired. I asked if she wanted to stay home today but she got up and got ready. We left home at 10:30 the drive to my office is usually an hour long. We got there at 11:00 thanks to my driving, we were late and I needed to catch up to salvage what was left of today's plans. I asked Sarah if she was alright and she insisted she was fine. Sarah thanked me for the good time last night. I told her I enjoyed myself just as much. I of course am addicted to Sarah. Everything about her drives me wild. When I look back on all those years of my cynicism towards love, I realized just how childish I was and thank the stars that Sarah came along and made me grow up. I asked Sarah if she wanted to go out again tonight and she told me that she wanted a quiet night in, maybe get an early night if possible. I raised an eyebrows as we entered my office. I wondered if Sarah was coming down with the cold . I locked the doors and hugged Sarah, my hands cupping her sweet ass and looked into her eyes. I was shocked to see how lifeless they looked, she looked so exhausted. "Sarah are you sure your ok?" I asked her worried and she reassured me that she was. I kissed my babygirl and we got down to work. I had an important client coming in today and I needed to get things sorted. Sarah did really well until the client came. I told Sarah to go make some coffee for the client while I got the last of the preparations ready and she did so. She went to give the client his coffee and something happened. Sarah instantly became distracted. I watched her as the client took an interest in my woman. I wanted to rip his eyes out of their sockets and stomp on them for the way he was looking at my babygirl. I had forgotten something in my office and when I returned the bastard had his hand on Sarah's ass. I was surprised to see Sarah did not knock the fucker over. I faked a cough and Sarah snapped out of her daze. Sarah moved away and called the guy a sleaze the guy told Sarah to bite him. I watched him come towards me, my attention suddenly shifted when Sarah went ape shit and ran towards him and tackled him and bit down into his neck. I watched in horror and I was not the only on,e my secretary Kayla was shocked too. I went to Sarah and grabbed her in a bear hug being really careful not to harm her. I held Sarah tightly and she was kicking and hissing. Sarah's behaviour reminded me of that of my newborn years craving blood and nothing else, but blood. I called Sarah a few times trying to calm her down and she finally regained her senses she looked up at me curiously. I fired Sarah on the spot and she was confused. I told Kayla take Sarah home, Kayla seemed a little frightened and I told her to expect a bonus in her next paycheck. I let go of Sarah and told her to go, Kayla put her arm around Sarah's back rather timidly and helped Sarah out. I was worried and frightened what had made my babygirl snap like a twig. I helped the client up, his fate was decided the moment he cupped Sarah's ass, he was a dead man. No one touched my woman like that and gets to live, Sarah IS MINE! The client decided not to do buisness with me, that was fine with me. I don't play with my food. I followed my victim around right after he left ,it was late already. I followed him home and stormed into his house. I killed his wife first and then killed him leaving no witnesses. I drove home fast speeding which resulted in a speeding ticket for me. I knew something was wrong with Sarah I had yet to figure out what. I found my Sarah sleeping on the couch. I picked her up and put her in the bedroom and went to my room and called one of the officer managers. He had been on paid vacation but I told him to get into the office. He would be taking my place until further notice. I needed to spend time with Sarah and find out whats happening to her. Brian jacobson |
InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |