Topic: My new home. Date: July 1st 2019 Dear journal The trip home was boring, I kind of felt like a third wheel because all mom and dad did was talk and rather than interrupt them and remind them of my presence I just kept my mouth shut and typed on the laptop or read a book…occasionally they would acknowledge my presence and I responded accordingly to their questions and of course we stopped for lunch and breaks not that they needed it, but I did….there were a few times my butt became numb seriously not a pleasant feeling…we did eventually get back to Alaska, but before going home we pulled up at the Cullen’s place dad wanted to thank Edward and the rest of the Cullens for looking after me when he went on his trip. Mom and I followed dad, inside we were greeted by Esme and Jasper. The three of us went to the living room where mom and I sat on the couch together, she wrapped her arm around me and I did everything in my power not to get this stupid grin on my face, although I did smile…just a little. Dad walked into the kitchen as I asked where Renesmee was , Rosalie had walked in from the kitchen “she is out with Fido” she spoke sounding disappointed “Rose” Esme spoke sounding firm, Esme wasn’t the type of woman whom condoned name calling or bullying. Rosalie said nothing else instead she approached mom and smiled “I have a present for you Sarah” she spoke and pulled out a cool looking IPhone “I have taken the liberty of adding in everyone’s numbers both from my family and our cousins” your number is also saved in the phone as your number until you memorize it.” it was a nice gesture and mom stood up and hugged Rosalie and thanked her. Dad walked into the room with Edward and Bella, standing up I left moms side to stand by dad and offered my hand out to shake Edwards “thank you for having me as a guest in your home Mr Cullen” I spoke formally, well sure I’d call him Edward before, but this was different I was thanking him for his hospitality so it’s only natural I be respectful it’s one of the things my dad taught me when I was younger…be respectful to your host. Edward had this crooked smile on his face “your welcome anytime Tobias” he spoke shaking my hand before lowering his hand I smiled and walked back to the couch and mom seemed quiet she stood up only to stumble forward, I helped keep her balance and dad was at my side in an instant he asked mom if she was ok, and she told dad she just needed some rest…I asked dad what was wrong with mom and he told me she was just feeling a little unwell. I knew it was a lie, vampires don’t get sick I wanted to know what was going on, but dad looked totally fixated on mom he was fussing on her lifting her up into his arms “Brian will you react your freaking Tobias out…calm down” Dad turned around to look at me while he held mom and had this creepy fake smile on his face “Don’t worry she is fine” I raised an eyebrow as mom looked at me, “yeah Brian…that’s real convincing” mom spoke with sarcasm Dad thanked the Cullens again and told them we would be in touch and he left of course I followed dad was heading towards the front seat of the passenger’s side when mom told him she wanted to sit in the back next to me. I climbed into the backseat and dad lowered mom next to me and she placed her arm around me and leaned in to kiss my forehead “relax Tobias…I’m fine…” she spoke as if she had Edwards’s ability to read my mind I asked mom why she was like this so frail and weak. It looked like it was hard for mom to explain and dad tried changing the subject by talking about how great the house was and how we would love it, but mom spoke over him silencing dad “The Volturi did something to me…to make me sick, don’t worry hun…I’m not going to die or anything, it’s just going to take me a while to recover from it” the more I heard about the Volturi the more I hated them, why were they like this…I get that those who have power seek to use it, but why have power in the first place…can’t we all live in harmony? I guess the answer to that would be to enforce the law of the vampires, maybe once upon a time that was the truth…now I don’t think it is, the Volturi have become corrupt with power now instead of being law enforcers…their just bullies. Mom rubbed my head “hey earth to Tobias….did you hear me son” I snapped out of it and looked at mom “yeah I heard you mom…I understand” I spoke of course it was a lie, I didn’t hear what mom was saying, I was off in my own head lost in my own thoughts that I didn’t hear anything, but there was one thing I know for sure “don’t worry mom I’ll take care of you” I spoke and felt mom’s arm around me tighten. Looking at mom’s expression I smiled, she seemed so happy and when I heard her speak I nodded my head “how lucky am I to have two big strong men to look out for me.” she spoke and I nodded my head, I leaned towards the front passenger seat, in the pouch behind the seat was my drink bottle, it was vanilla coke… I started to take a drink from the bottle “so Tobias you have a crush on Nessie” mom asked which made spit out my drink as I began to choke on the coke that was already down my throat “I what….No” Brian chuckled “nice one Sarah” he spoke as he kept chuckling, mom was gently hitting my back as I continued to struggle to breath, she then began to rub my back it felt nice “well it looks like you do, all you want to do is spend time with Nessie” mom teased and I rolled my eyes and put my drink back in the pocket I didn’t feel safe drinking now eying my mother curiously “She is my friend mom” I answered her, Mom smiled “your girlfriend” she continued to tease and I folded my arms and scowled, fixating on the review mirror and could see dad watching me he let out a chuckle and “alright Sarah stop picking on Tobias you’re going to put him in one of his moods” dad sounded amused, I guess I didn’t mind being the butt in their jokes at this moment, it’s not like they were doing it to be cruel…they just doing it to be amusing. Mom asked me what our new home looked like and I couldn’t answer it because I haven’t actually seen it yet…spending time with the Cullen’s and then all this mess going on well it’s no wonder I haven’t seen my new home yet. Mom seemed thrilled though she tightened her grip around me “well we get to see our home for the first time together” the thought had never occurred to me that this would be both of our first time viewing our new home, we had made it to the drive way and dad started talking about how great the new house was, and how we would love it. When I looked to my mom for her reaction I could see scepticism ….seeing it made me feel closer to her, she must love our real home as much as I do. From the outside all I could say was wow…not as in wow I loved it, but just by how big it was…the house had two floors. Dad pulled the car over and he climbed out and carried mom out of the car I followed dad and looked at mom feeling anxious and I heard her speak again “Tobias stop being so neurotic I am fine I promise” dad looked at me and smiled “listen to the woman Tobias when your momma says she is going to be alright it means she is going to be right.” It was around that time my mom giggled when dad called her momma, I have no idea why, but to me the word momma sounds Southern. Dad gave us the tour to the house it was all pretty standard and furnished. We came to the second floor and dad showed us around, one room had a king sized bed and a CD player there was also a cabinet with a vase on it and in the vase were roses. The next room was dad’s officer it was empty with the exception of a polished wooden style desk and a laptop the next room is completely awesome dad calls it my play room it had this massive TV attached to one of those little hard drives according to dad the hard drive has a few hundred movies in it. I also have a cool x-box 360 near the TV and a book shelf full of books on the top part of the shelf and on the bottom Xbox games. And get this I have like three bean bags. Next to my awesome playroom was my bedroom it was really simple and clean, very well done it had a single bed, a desk and laptop with a cupboard and beanbag in the corner it was nice and simple. The last room had one of those keyboard piano’s and guitars it had a comfy chair, I looked up to mom and saw she was in awe dad explained that this room was mom’s music room he told me all about how talented mom was. “She must be she has the voice of an angel after all” mom smiled at the complement “yeah and the mouth of a sailor” dad added, mom who was still in dads arm moved one of her hands to hit him at the back of the head. After the grand tour we went to the living room area and dad put mom on the couch and I sat beside her, dad went to the kitchen to make me something to eat for dinner and I sat with my mom leaning against her shoulder I could feel her wrap her arm around me so I ended up leaning against the side of her chest mom’s arm was around me and her grip was sort of tight. She started to stroke my arm it felt nice, I felt warm inside and safe…all these years I wondered what it was like to have a mothers love….it felt incredible and I loved every second of it. Dad eventually returned and told me to go have dinner that it was waiting on the table. I reluctantly left my mother’s side and had my dinner, dad cooked some chips and salad and a nice cup of blood. Dinner was great, when I placed the dish in the sink I returned to the living room to find mom in dad’s lap dad had his wrist to mom’s mouth and they both looked a little uncomfortable. Mom looked up and stopped instantly and smiled “hey how was dinner” she asked wiping what looked like venom from the side of her lips “hey you finished already….you eat like a horse little man” she spoke while dad nodded his head, I asked mom what she was doing and she evaded the question and slowly climbed out of dad’s lap with his help, dad was so careful with mom he treated her like she was fragile crystal. I joined my mother and we spent the next hour and a half together until it was bed time, I was sad and reluctant to go to bed…my time with my mother just keeps on flying by…a minute feels like a second an hour feels like a minute, a day…it feels like an hour...I have so much I need to learn from her so much more I want to know. I did as I was told and went to straight to bed after getting changed and brushing my teeth. I couldn’t remember what I dreamed about, the next thing I could remember was waking up to a girlish laugh, as I climbed out of bed slowly I snuck to the stairs and sneaked down till the living room was visible and I saw my mom and dad they were dancing, well sort of…dad’s hand was around mom’s waist lifting her inches of the ground while the other hand was holding hers. Mom recited the lyrics to the song Do you wanna be a poet and writer Do you wanna be an actor in lights? Do you wanna be a soldier and fight for love Do you wanna travel the world? Do you wanna be a diver for pearls? Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above Be anyone you want to be bring to life your fantasies but I want something in return It was at that point dad leaned in to kiss mom on the lips and he swung her around, I don’t think I have ever seen dad as happy as I have without mom…it’s like he founding the missing piece of the puzzle. Their lips pulled apart and they both spoke in unison “Tobias go to sleep” mom had a giant smile on her face and I ran back to bed and after some effort I went back to bed. When I woke up this morning I came to write in you and tell you everything, anyway I have to go mom is calling me I will update you later ok ~Tobias The song featured in this entry that Sarah Recited is Burn by Tina Arena
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Topic: today I saw the battle of Pride between my mother and father…pride it’s always been associated with egotistical tendencies and selfishness….maybe those are common traits with pride, but when you think about it those traits are in everyone vampires and humans alike…we all learn to be selfish from the generation before us, it’s the one inheritance that is passed on unintentionally because it’s in our nature…Pride on other hand is different, I believe pride give’s you determination, because no matter what you value yourself and think highly enough of yourself…not to stand down, but to keep fighting…yeah I am totally over thinking this….let me put this in simple terms Pride gives you the strength to keep fighting when there is no reason to continue.~ Tobias
Date: June 28th 2019 Dear journal It’s been three days since my family became complete and time just seems to fly on by, we are still in the getting to know each other stage of our relationship….dad proposed to mom yesterday…they just told me today and mom said yes of course, after telling me dad told the Cullen’s and Denali’s for Alice it looked like Christmas came early she was concentrating and you could already see she was planning out the wedding. Something I loved about yesterday was just how my mom was with dad ok let me try to explain ill…so mom and I were just hanging out in the cabin and we were just sitting on the couch with the radio on and mom heard this really old song she must of liked because she just stood up grabbed my hand pulling me off the couch and kicked the couch to the wall it barely made it to the wall. Mom held my hand and she danced holding my hand moving my hand while I smiled this was awkward, but I didn’t care I danced with her and listened as mom sang some of the lyrics…I don’t think I told you, but my mother…she is really special whenever she sings you just feel this surge of inspiration hit you it’s like you can do anything. I could see dad enter the room and he watched he had this smile on his face, dad was happy…ok I seen dad happy before, but this was different I don’t know it’s difficult to describe it, but he really was happy. He watched for a few moments before walking up to us and stopping a distance, dad apologized telling me he had to steal my date, when mom looked over her shoulder she saw dad and instantly let go of my hand to hug dad and wrap her arms around his neck she kissed him, I think when a kid sees his parents kissing they get grossed out, for me I find it fascinating I guess it’s because it’s still so new to see my parents kiss. They started to dance with each other with each other and after the song they kissed again it was at that time I was tempted to yell get a room…yeah the novelty of that wore off fast. Today on the other hand was different we are staying in ocean shore for a few hours longer than the Cullen’s and Denali’s, they are going back to Alaska while Seth, Leah, Charlie and everyone minus Jacob is going back to Forks…Jacob lives close to the Cullen’s place which sucks…apparently he was visiting his family and friends in La’ Push when we moved to Alaska and all this stuff went down, so yeah I’m kind of bummed out that Jacob will be living a lot closer to Nessie and you know to be honest I find Jacob to be extremely annoying. Emmett suggested I go back with them and let mom and dad catch up, while mom and I immediately spoke in unison and said no…which was bizarre, I didn’t want to leave mom’s side even if it was only for a few hours… there is still so much I want to know about her and the thought of being away from her at this moment it’s sort of unbearable…I mean I know eventually I am going to have to be away from her, but at the moment it feels that if I am away from her I will wake up and find all this was some magical and tragic dream…I will get over that at some point, but right now I’m sticking with mom…I don’t know why she objected to Emmett’s idea maybe she feels the same…but for her there is no chance of dreaming she’s a vampire a full on vampire so she never sleeps. At that moment I didn’t care I hugged Aunt Carmen before she hopped into the car and left with everyone else and then it was just the three of us…a family... We spent the day inside together just chilling out, but I had to pack my things, I could hear mom and dad speaking to each other passionately, and it looked like it would break out into an argument “Come on baby girl why won’t you let me give it to you” he sounded frustrated, when I snuck towards the door and peeked through the keyhole I could see mom sitting on the couch “because I don’t accept charity Brian…you know I don’t.” dad was quick to chime in “but Sarah it’s not charity it’s a gift from me to you it’s an engagement gift” well I guess you can say the honeymoon stage of this reunion has ended. I could see mom stand up followed by dad, “even if this was a gift Brian it wouldn’t be fair…what could I give you?” she asked, Brian wrapped his arms around mom “well I can think of something that would be nice” he spoke, mom wiggled her hand free and slapped him upside the head which made me snort a laugh…dad looked at the door and I felt a shiver run down my spine “Traitor” he spoke frowning, It was at this point it felt awkward watching my parents, so I returned to packing my things and finished. After ten minutes of cramming everything into my duffle bag I exited to the living room and looked around mom and dad was gone. I wasn’t really frightened, I was curious wondering where they were, I searched the cabin and it was a ghost house to say the least, after going outside I walked to the beach and walked for a bit when I saw mom and dad sitting together, dad had his arm wrapped around mom’s waist and she was resting her head on his shoulder. I walked towards them and dad looked in my direction he asked if I was finished packing I nodded my head I found myself curious and asked them what they were arguing about before. Before dad opened his mouth mom was already speaking “your father wants to buy me a nightclub as an engagement present” I moved close to mom to sit by her side “and what’s the problem with that mom…dad just wants to buy you a present” as I had spoken I looked ad dad and saw him nod his head “that’s right even our son can see your being out of your flipping mind woman” dad sounded a little frustrated and mom was quick to speak “it’s a nice gift Tobias…but the thing is its too nice, and while I do appreciate the offer…it just doesn’t feel right” I didn’t even get why dad would get mom a nightclub, until mom explained that it was something she thought about doing in the past. From what I could tell about my mother, she doesn’t really like hand outs from others…even her own fiancé, she had her pride which kind of reminded me of dad…dad had his pride too…I wondered if I was the only one out of the three of them that could see a compromise in this situation “well why don’t you compromise” the expression on their faces changed to surprise when they looked at me “well Mom doesn’t want any hand outs right dad” I asked him and of course dad nodded his head “and dad just wants to do something nice for you mom.” Mom interrupted me, but I continued to speak over “Well its really quite easy…why won’t you let dad buy the club as a condition to it being a loan…that way mom isn’t taking a hand out…but now for the compromise…well whatever dad paid mom will only have to pay half the debt back…the rest is a gift.” The two just looked at me dumbfounded by my suggestion, and the way they looked at me kind of bizarre. “That’s actually a good idea Brian” mom spoke sounding impressed “ok then it’s a deal…good idea son” hearing dad’s praise made me smile, it’s nice to be complemented on your ideas especially when their good. Mom and dad spoke about the plans of the club, apparently they were going to build the place from scratch, and the club would be one building…mom wants to have the club be at the front of the building and on the side would be a Karaoke bar…because music is important for her. she spoke about the place in great detail, she must have given it a lot of thought at some point…she told us about the place with passion, she wanted the place to have tables, bars and couches and there would be a stage for bands to perform on and for karaoke to be held…the stage would have a dance pole and when mom mentioned that I expected dad to say something lame or creepy, but he was actually listening intently like he was fixated on making mom’s dream come true. Mom then spoke how the club part could have a live DJ and band and a bar that sort of thing. Mom also wanted the place to be in New York City, and when asked about the name she told us that she wanted it to be called Eclipse, it’s a cool name…the only problem is we don’t live near New York anymore we live in Alaska, but dad told me it was ok, that everything would work itself out …it was after this we went vampire fishing…yeah I told you about vampire fishing right? Well yeah it’s basically fishing without the whole fishing rods. It’s an exciting, yet frightening experience…I am conflicted on the entire thing…I like it, but it is also scary…mom was opposed to vampire fishing claiming that it wasn’t safe and dad argued his case...saying he was the biggest predator of all in the sea…well he was a vampire, mom eventually caved in and the three of us went fishing after what felt like swimming for hours we finally came across some sharks watching the entire thing from under water mom was with me the entire time watching me like a hawk, when a second shark came towards us mom held it away from me, but she was struggling for some reason…I in fact now that I think about it something is a little off mom seems so much weaker than other vampires…she should have been able to take it out easily. Well dad said she was frail…I don’t get why, but maybe mom will tell me when she is ready. After dad had taken out the sharks I collected a whole load of shark’s teeth this time, simply because I thought maybe I could make Nessie a bracelet or at least try. When we got back to shore we all had showers….mom and dad was joint and mine was separate for obvious reasons, and after getting changed we loaded up the car and left Ocean Shore... mom and dad in the front…dad was driving with one hand while his other is holding mom’s hand and I am sitting in the back telling you about today and at this very moment wondering what Nessie is doing…well I am going to go, I am kind of sleepy and my laptop computer’s already at 85% power. ~Tobias Jacobson Topic: There she stood, the wind blowing against her hair, she was dressed in white, she stood before me as the most beautiful woman in the world, I was dumbfounded by her…she had this magnificent presence about her and my heart beat had rapidly increased going faster just by the sight of her. Her name is Sarah Frost and she is my mother Date: June 25th 2019 Dear Journal, So it’s been a while since my last entry, the truth is…my life has been so chaotic, I was still with the Cullens after my last entry Emmett and Rosalie had sat on both sides of me on the couch leaving me to be the middle of a vampire sandwich, it was lucky I could shut down my diary before they sat down. I have to say after spending some time with the Cullens I do have some favorites among the Cullens, one of them is definitely Emmett ok at times he is rather patronizing calling me Shorty and little dude, but he is awesome. If you have never met Emmett let me try to describe what it’s like for me. When he is around it’s just easier to relax and he just makes everything funnier because he is like an overgrown child most the time…completely immature. I liked Rosalie too; although she was quite peculiar….it must be a female thing. But now that I think about it Nessie isn’t weird like her aunt…then there was jasper he was quiet and interesting to watch, there are times when he is so mysterious…it’s hard to believe that a quiet and mysterious man could be married to someone so colorful and vigorous, that itself is a mystery…two people so different work so well together…is this what love is the unity of two people whom are so different, but still in some way work well together….it’s so simple…I don’t know I guess my expectations were a little too high…but then it’s not like I could see how a romantic kind of love is meant to be…watching The Cullens and how they are all coupled I wonder if dad is lonely…I wonder will he ever be able to move past my mother’s death. I sometimes look at his pain and feel guilt…if I was never born then, she would still be alive and they would be together happy…I think if I could I would have gone back in time and warned them…don’t get me wrong I don’t want to die, but really I wouldn’t be dead if I never existed. Things have kind of been weird lately it wasn’t long after the shopping trip that my everyone had packed their stuff, they called it the Annual Cullen/Denali family vacation, but it seemed to be news to Nessie too. Still we packed our things and we went on a road trip…Edward and Bella in the front while I sat behind Bella, Alice in the middle and Nessie behind Edward. The atmosphere was tense “Let’s play eye spy” Nessie suggested, I rolled my eyes up…I was kind of worried about dad and wondered if he would know where we would be for this bizarre trip when Edward spoke “Don’t worry your father knows where we will be and he will be home soon” hearing Edwards reassuring voice it made me feel less anxious, but at the same time slightly annoyed I wouldn’t mind actually expressing my worries rather than being reassured before I could verbalize it, I sighed softly and thanked Edward. After all what more could I do, I could hardly be rude to the man whom has allowed me to spend time with his family he was my elder and I show respect to my elders it’s how dad raised me. While driving we eventually pulled over the road, Edward told me that they were swapping drivers, when I asked why all Edward would say is he wanted to chat with Carlisle from then on it was Alice in the front passenger side, Jasper driving and Esme in sitting in the middle. I found this bizarre, but at least my thoughts were exactly what they were Mine. Nessie seemed totally calm about the situation, was she oblivious to the fact something was wrong…for me I could tell, I mean First the Cullens pack some things and it’s all very quick no time to waste, then their mannerisms were off I mean like they were uneasy about it and because of that they were desperately trying to over compensate it…I don’t know I thought perhaps that I was looking too much into it maybe my mind was playing tricks on me…maybe I just missed dad who knew. The entire time Alice seemed to be her cheerful self while Esme joined in, the atmosphere was indeed tense and as much as I was concerned and uneasy, I gradually felt that feeling go away. Eventually we did make it to a small town in Washington called Ocean Shores., we had two cabins booked for both family’s by the beach which was great…granted this beach was nothing like the one back home, it was nowhere near as perfect, but still it felt familiar sort of like home the first thing I wanted to do was go to the ocean and get my feet wet and as I heard Carmen’s voice asking me where I was going, of course she had her accent and I turned to tell her that I was going to the beach and she told me that I should unpack first which made me frown it made me think that maybe I wasn’t being paranoid after all…both the Cullens and Denali’s seem on edge and you know here is another thing how the heck is this an annual family vacation when Uncle Garrett and aunt Kate were on their “holiday” I spoke to Nessie about this when we were rarely left alone, “you’re being paranoid” was her explanation which made me scowl. It wasn’t long until Bella and Edward left to get someone named Charlie while dad returned to me with Uncle Eleazar and Carlisle surprisingly enough Kate and Garrett were with him. I missed dad when I saw him there was something wrong with him…he was happy, but at the same time he wasn’t, it’s quite odd and difficult to explain. Dad hugged me tight and told me how much he loved me which of course like every other kid in the world embarrassed me, but I wasn’t going to make a fuss about it this time. We spent some time together dad allowed me to do all the talking, asking me what I have been up to. After catching up Bella and Edward returned with a human named Charlie along with two weird smelling guys and a girl…Nessie well she seemed over the moon she introduced me to Charlie her grandfather her friends Seth and Leah then finally there was Jacob….her boyfriend…I instantly loathed Jacob, I didn’t mind Seth though he was awesome I am serious he was like this cool college guy with a leather jacket and everything…he was really friendly too we hung out a bit actually and the first time I saw them in wolf mode I asked if I could pet him, which made my father give a disapproving look for some reason…I wondered if he thought I was being rude…I couldn’t help myself I was curious, the entire time Jacob was all over Nessie which I found inappropriate hell I was disapproving of their entire relationship. I had asked Seth if he would be offended if I asked Jacob to play fetch which made Emmett chuckle for some reason. Seth told me it may be a tad offensive because they weren’t dogs….yeah well that’s true…Dad was kind of being weird he spent a lot of time in the bedroom alone and asked not to be disturbed it wasn’t long all the adults were meeting up except for Leah and Seth they were hanging out with us…I didn’t mind Leah that much…how could I describe Leah a sarcastic cynic with a faint trace of optimism…in the long run she wasn’t cool as her little brother….Charlie was fishing so yeah just the four of us. Naturally dad came back and told me he was leaving yet again which is very and I repeat very frustrating, I was starting to feel annoyed he is coming and going it was two days later dad returned and I knew something big was going on, and this time not even Nessie could deny it everyone and I mean everyone was going to a place called Volterra and just at the very mention of Volterra made Nessie anxious…Nessie and I were left under the care of Jacob and his pack…Jacob had called his friends and invited him over, I asked Seth what was going on, but he told me that they were throwing a wolf party…..yeah right, I asked for the real reason and Seth called me paranoid…I am not paranoid…at least I don’t think I am I had tried to get information from Charlie spending time with him, but unfortunately I had no success and after Jacobs friends came around, Embry, Quill, I really felt unsettled especially with them doing patrolling…I knew things weren’t right something was wrong, why couldn’t Nessie see what was going on…maybe she did, but was in denial…ok this is frustrating I officially no longer care I just wanted my dad back and maybe stay around for more than just a few days is that too much to ask. So I spent the next few days on my own as much as that was possible, I spent it at the beach mostly of course Seth found reasons to hang out and I didn’t really socialize, I suppose you could say it was rude, but in my defense I was in a foul mood. This was fine; Seth just kept quiet and gave me some peace which is all I wanted. The wind blew from behind and I smelled that scent…I recognized it in an instant…it was dad getting off the beach I stood up and turned around to see him, he was actually happy and by happy I mean not by normal standards it’s like someone shot him full of happy pills or something, “So are you actually staying around for more than a few days this time” I asked in a foul mood, he chuckled “I suppose I deserve that boy…but when you find out why I been coming and going you will be thankful.” He spoke full of joy and naturally this had my curiosity peeked. Seth left us alone and my father asked me to hear him out without interruptions, he made me promise and so I did…what he told me next I could never have seen coming in his words he spoke “Tobias…I have been lying to you your entire life, there is something you need to know…it’s about your mother…she is alive” His words had blown me away, my mom…she was alive, I had felt my entire world shatter…I felt nothing at all just a state of numbness…then anger just washed over me I wanted to know where the hell was she my entire life…from anger I felt insecure didn’t she love me? Is that why she left? My father watched me before continuing. “The truth is all this time I thought your mother was a liar…and a cold heartless woman…that she didn’t love you…or me…three days after your birth she left with the Volturi and it seemed to be of her own accord, but I was wrong. The truth is she loved us…she loved you Tobias….your mother overheard a man named Aro threatening your life before you were even born…so she made a deal…she would give the Volturi herself in exchange for our safety…I recently learned the truth son…and I went to bring her back to us…but things happened and I was outnumbered…she helped me escape along with Uncle Garrett and Aunt Kate…and the Cullens and Denali brought you and Nessie here for your safety…after I came back. I found out they wanted to kill your mother so we all left to save her, while the mongrels looked after you and now we are back” Listening to this it was too much to take in…I couldn’t process this, I just couldn’t it’ if I wasn’t in a state of shock I probably would have bolted I kept on commanding my legs to move with my thoughts, but I was planted on the spot as my father continued to speak. “Sarah…your mother is back…she has gone through a lot Tobias…and right now she isn’t well so you need to be gentle with her, and she really wants to meet you” it was at this point my legs finally obeyed my brain and I began to run away, my dad had was instantly in front of me “Tobias I know your mad…but don’t be mad at her, be mad at me because I couldn’t look after us…but don’t be mad at your mother…she had no choice, she was looking after us” he spoke placing his hands on my shoulders’ watched my father looking at him “I am not mad….well I am it’s just.” I stopped and I was afraid to voice the fears in my head…what if my mom wouldn’t like me what if I wasn’t worth her noble effort to protect her me…my dad asked me to go on to speak my mind “what if she hates my dad” My dad laughed “your mother could never hate you boy…and you will never know unless you man up and meet her….so how about I go get her and you wait here ok.” He spoke in a fatherly voice. Dad was right I had to man up, I can’t run from my problems or my fears…I had to face them. I nodded my head “good man…now remembers Tobias…your mother is kind of frail…So be gentle with her.” I nodded my head and dad left, my emotions…they were difficult to understand…yeah I was mad dad lied to me all these years, and yeah I was mad people took mom from me, but more than that I was afraid ok dad said mom wouldn’t hate me, but still what if I wasn’t worth her sacrifice…what if I was a disappointment. I watched the ocean and tried to figure out just how to exist with all this information in my life…I heard the squishy sound of footsteps just a few feet behind me and turned around I saw her…the woman was beautiful the wind blew against her and she was dressed in white I was dumbfounded by her in all honesty. She had this magnificent presence about her and I swear she was just as nervous as I was. There was silence between us I had no idea what to say to her…it was an awkward silence until I heard my father yell “will one of you say something already god damn it” I leaned to the side and saw my father across the street near the tree’s and scowled at him, I could see Alice was laughing she had a nice smile my mother turned to me and apologized for dad, her voice…I always wondered what it was like, sometimes I would dream about it, but no dream or nothing in my imagination could ever give it justice. I told her she was preaching to the choir and called her mom, My mother suggested methods of making dad behave and this had my curiosity peeked, what surprised me was fart bombs in his car air vents…its official my mom is diabolical, dad yelled something along the lines of hell no and I told her it was genius because frankly it was and moved a little closer to her, she told me she had more to teach me, I couldn’t stop myself from wrapped my arms around her to hug her…this may sound odd, but even though I had just met my mother I felt safe with her and loved as I felt her arms wrap around me I told my mother the truth that I had always wanted to know her, and she told me she wanted to know me more…I felt relief that she didn’t hate me, she lowered her hands and I did the same and she suggested that we go for a walk, walking with my mom well there were so many things I wanted to ask her, and we spoke at the same time asking a question and she smiled again “are you mad” the question was difficult to answer “I was at first…I was furious, at dad for lying about you…at you for not being here with me…but then I realized how pointless my anger was, there is nothing to achieve from it…dad told me everything more or less…the Volturi was somehow involved and dad told me about them before now…it seems you’re the real victim in this…I grew up, still am at least mentally…I have a happy life, with friends…family. And now that your back where you belong…my life is just perfect.” I told her, she placed her arm around me as we walked and pulled me close “your father was right…you are an outstanding young man very wise beyond your years.” At this point I could feel my cheeks get red. Mom told me her side of the things…how she discovered that the Volturi threatened my dad’s life and my life before I was even born…she gave herself to save me, and before I could even think about feeling guilt she told me she would do it all again in a heartbeat…because it was a duty of love to protect your child at all cost. It made me smile and the odd thing was I felt no guilt, I couldn’t stop myself from making her promise me that she would never leave again, and without a heartbeat she swore that she would never leave me…never again…the rest of our time together it was kind of casual, nothing to serious I did most of the talking, I told her about my life with dad, our father son bonding time…she didn’t like the idea of vampire fishing…I spoke about my…our new extended family…The Cullens and Denali’s I told her about Nessie and how incredible I thought she was, I told her about Uncle Emmett and how cool I think he is granted he is patronizing occasionally… the entire time mom listened and had a smile on her face, she looked radiant with the orange color in the sky…my mom asked me about my dream…what did I want to do when I was old enough to be considered a man…it was something I actually never thought about on an in-depth level, but the last few days traveling…”I want to travel the world…explore it, experience the cultures.” My mom smiled and told me it was a very nice dream and grown up one. I asked my mom, what was her dream when she was my age and did she ever fulfilled it, it had taken her off guard, but she answered it “I used to dream about becoming a singer…someone famous, that was one of my dreams” she answered, I actually wanted to know what her other dreams were, but more than that I wanted to hear her sing and I asked her to sing a song…she told me she was tired which was disappointing I really wanted to hear her sing, she tightened her grip I looked at her gaze “but for you…I would do anything.” My mom began to sing and I listened to her sing…her voice was incredibly so beautiful…mom could have become a really famous singer…she has the talent for it for sure…I asked mom about the song and she told me it was sung by the pretenders and it was called I’ll Stand By You… and she added that she would always be by my side and she would always protect me…so this is what it meant to have a mom…have to admit I loved it. I introduced my mom to Nessie and my friend Seth, It seemed mom didn’t like the shape shifters scent much, the rest of the evening I spent with her until it was past my bed time, things got intense from their mom got into a fiery debate with dad and wow she wasn’t shy with the cuss words either, but to my disappointment dad won and bedtime was unavoidable, but mom was kind enough to stay with me until I fell asleep we spoke about things like books and music…mom seemed to like a lot of the old school classics, songs even before her era….I eventually fell asleep, I couldn’t remember what I dreamed about…I did however wake up at who knows what time, when I heard a thud, deciding to investigate it I climbed out of bed and opened the door to see Aunt Tanya on the floor with mom’s heel on Tanya’s neck. I rubbed my eyes as the light irritated me and she told me that she was just showing off her lovely shoes. Tanya liked the shoes and wanted to show mom hers…typical women, all they do is obsess about shopping and fashion…mom told me to go back to sleep and I went back to bed grumbling as I closed the door behind me. and I went back to bed but as soon as I woke up I had to catch you up in my life… and record down the events that happened yesterday, so I will never forget a single thing about when my life became perfect….anyway I am going to go now I want to find mom and hang out with her… ~Tobias Jacobson
Topic: Shopping=Hell Dear Journal, I had a lot of fun today, I actually had a really early day. I woke up at four this morning; I don’t know why I just couldn’t sleep. I had slept over the Cullen’s place, in Emmett and Rosalie’s room. Rosalie was very kind to me kind of creepy I guess. I had woken up and when I went down stairs I saw Emmett and Rosalie were building a house of cards, Jasper and Alice were watching something on TV. I walked down the stairs yawning casually and Esme came out of the kitchen I greeted them all a good morning and Rosalie told me it was too early that I should try go back to bed. I told her I couldn’t, and went to Esme in the kitchen and sat at the table slouching on it. As Esme sat next to me she petted my head. “Do you miss your father Tobias?” She asked, I shook my head and just explained that I just couldn’t sleep. Esme offered to make me something to eat and I looked at her. For a single moment she reminded me of the wicked witch that tried to fatten the two kids Hansel and Gretel so she could eat them, I smiled and respectfully declined, instead I asked where Carlisle was, she told me he had to go to the hospital that he would be finished later. I knew I would be spending the day with Edward, Bella and Renesmee, but I was disappointed I really wanted to spend some time with Carlisle. I still hadn’t asked him the question as to why his family’s eyes were different than my father’s. I wanted to, but I got distracted by dinner…Esme really is a good cook. Right after dinner we watched a movie and I went to bed. I wasn’t really paying attention to Esme as she was writing something, instead my thoughts was on Renesmee I kept on thinking about her, wondering how she could be so smart. I guess she must have had tutors like me, see because I am half human, I actually grow a lot faster than normal humans, I am only ten years old, but I am the size of a teenager…granted I’m not as tall as Emmett, but come on the guy is a giant who could compare to that. Renesmee is just about two years older than me, she is really smart and for some reason her hair smells really nice. I decided to ask Esme about her tutors and Esme surprised me by telling me that she tutored Renesmee. I found it odd If anyone out of the Cullen’s were going to tutor Renesmee why not her mother or father why her grandmother? I asked Esme that question, in a tactful way may I add. She explained that The Cullen’s had to keep up appearances; it would look suspicious if Bella or Edward stayed home. So the Cullen’s kept Nessie a secret keeping her home and going to a different town to go shopping. Dad and I would go out from time to time. I miss home, the beach, the scent, I felt so peaceful there…being here I feel kind of restless it’s not right. I asked Esme what she was writing and she told me she was writing a schedule for Renesmee’s classes for the next week. She explained at the moment Nessie is still doing home school, but would soon be starting high school she just wanted Renesmee to be prepared for when it happens. I wondered what high school was like, then for some reason I wondered if Esme ever went to high school, in fact I didn’t know much about Esme at all. I wanted to ask her about her past and I was going to in a tactful way, but I was interrupted by Alice. She came into the kitchen, the way she looked at me was slightly unnerving, seeing her golden eyes, it was piercing “Tobias how about you skip your day with Edward, Bella and Nessie and come shopping with me…I bet I could find a lot of hip new clothing you would look cute in.” I don’t know why, but I had the urge to run as if my life depended on it. I suppressed the urge and respectfully declined she looked disappointed. I could hear Rosalie mumble something “Leave him be Alice, can’t you see he wants to spend time with Nessie.” I looked down embarrassed and Esme let out a girlish giggle. Alice joined us at the table and I watched her suspiciously, she was almost as good looking as Renesmee. Alice is short and petite my estimate would be she was 4’8” she is pretty thin and pixie like with large eyes and her hair is cropped short, spiky and ink black. She also moved pretty gracefully I wondered if she did ballet. I listened as they began to talk about shopping trips and excused myself. I left the kitchen to go to the living room area where I now saw Jasper sitting on the lounge alone. Emmett and Rose were still building their house of cards, I was tempted to go over there and fake sneeze on the cards just to knock it down I instead chose to go and sit beside Alice’s mate Jasper. The couch was comfortable, the silence however made me feel slightly anxious, Jasper was different than the rest of the Cullen’s, Jasper was quiet and he had crescent shaped scars on his body, face, neck and Jaws the agony he must have been through I felt sorry for him for a moment but then remembered that happened long ago. Beside it wasn’t as if he was ugly, he wasn’t and besides normal humans probably wouldn’t be able to see Jasper’s scars. I found myself feeling calm sitting next to Jasper it was boring at first, but then I felt sort of sleepy, and wham next thing I know I am waking up in Rosalie and Emmett’s bed. I wondered if I had fallen asleep, I remember feeling rather calm and bored. After getting up I walked to my bag and grabbed a change of clothing and a towel, I had a shower and got dressed for my day with Bella, Edward and Renesmee I placed my PJ’s in Rosalie’s room along with my towel and grabbed my comb from my bag. You know for someone as glamorous as Rosalie you would think she would have a mirror or two in her bedroom, but she didn’t. So I went back to the bathroom and combed my hair yawning as I did so, normally I hated combing my hair, but the last thing I need is dad showing up and smothering it would be embarrassing. Finally I was ready for the day that waited ahead of me and I returned to my bag just to put my comb away and in my bag I saw something it was the necklace I made using a shark’s tooth as a center for the necklace and on sides were beads. I got the shark’s tooth when fishing with dad….vampire style. Now you’re probably wondering how human fishing is different from vampire fishing…humans use sticks, dad well dad uses his hands and teeth. Just between us Vampire fishing scares me, it makes my heart pound faster than normal and I feel this rush of adrenaline. I think I will give this necklace to Renesmee as a friendship gift. I placed the necklace in the pocket of my jeans and went downstairs. When I made it down stairs I saw Bella Cullen there, talking with Alice. The two stopped talking and looked to me, Alice had this smile on her face I wondered what she was so joyful about. I had walked down the stairs quietly and greeted both Bella and Alice wishing them a good morning. Alice and Bella both had returned the greeting of course, what I did not expect was Alice to say “great I’ll go get my purse.” She had bolted off like a blur. It had only taken me a moment to realize Alice had decided to join us today. I wondered if I could get Emmett to come with us to use him as a buffer to keep Alice at bay. I had snapped out of the thoughts of using Emmett as a buffer and asked Bella where Renesmee and Edward were, she had told me that they were on their way. It seemed Renesmee had slept in and Edward didn’t want to leave her alone. I nodded my head and tried to keep cool, I went to the kitchen and Esme came and greeted me with a hug and asked me if I was hungry, I told her I wasn’t for the next ten minutes I was listening to Emmett and Jasper fiercely debate over football. The whole thing was interesting, I half expected Emmett to rip his shirt open and start beating on his chest like Tarzan and throw Jasper out the window, it would have made things much more interesting that’s for sure. Edward and Renesmee finally arrived all I could think is wow she was beautiful. Seeing Renesmee dressed in a white shirt and blue jeans and shoes the attire was plain, but she was what made it extraordinary. Renesmee’s hair was sort of bouncy and the color of it was astounding, her chocolate brown eyes were beautiful. I knew how she looked like I mean this wasn’t our first meeting, but she took my breath away. Seeing Renesmee stand beside her father I was reminded of this old song called Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars. I had heard Edward when he spoke “I agree with you there Tobias.” I was surprised for a moment and then realized Edward had heard my thoughts “HEY!” I objected verbally sounding embarrassed and a little agitated. Edward apologized, yet he had this strange smirk on his face. I watched him curiously raising an eyebrow examining him. Bella joined us in the kitchen and held Edward’s hand they looked so in love. Something I have noticed by spending time with them. I had failed to notice Renesmee walked towards me, with a tug of my hand I snapped out of my gaze focus on watching Edward and Bella to feel a sense of shock hit me I watched Renesmee she was so beautiful I pulled out the shark tooth’s necklace from my pocket “uh Renesmee I have a present for you...” I showed her the necklace and ignored the sound of footsteps coming towards us. I Saw Rosalie enter the room with Alice beside her, I could see Alice’s excitement and Rosalie’s curiosity Renesmee smiled with excitement and I offered to put it on, too where she accepted Renesmee turned so her back faced me, she lifted her hair up and I placed it around her neck while I did so I told Renesmee “I don’t really know how to make friendship bracelets…that’s kind of girly, but I can give you this…A memento of a fishing trip with Dad…I want you to have it…and know that you will always have a friend to lean on when needed, that’s a promise.” I spoke quietly knowing full well everyone could hear it. I wondered what sort of embarrassment I would endure, I already felt awkward as it was. I knew Bella was watching while Edward had this crooked smile on his face, “I think we should let the kids eat come on everyone scatter” Esme spoke in a motherly tone. Alice and Rosalie were the first to leave, well Rosalie was dragged away…have I mentioned how creepy she is, Bella and Edward followed after them, I remember the look of their faces it was pride, they were happy…I guess because I would be a friend to Renesmee… well that’s a theory at least. I had finished and watched Renesmee turn to face me; she hugged me and thanked me sincerely for the gift. Esme was setting the table with various food, I thought I told her I wasn’t hungry…I was starting to believe my theory on her trying to fatten me up so she could eat me was becoming more plausible. I sat at the table and Renesmee sat next to me. She was going for bacon and eggs. I went for the corn flakes and asked if Esme had any blood. Renesmee looked at me with curiosity “are you serious…corn flakes with blood…that’s weird” I scowled at Renesmee and her remark “you’re weird” I grumbled back pouting to which Renesmee giggled. Esme had opened the fridge door to pull out a plastic container of animal blood. “You’re father told me he cooked a mixture of food and blood so I had Jasper go out hunting for you” I thanked Esme and poured the blood into the corn flakes and I picked up the spoon to put it in the bowl. Renesmee watched me for a moment as if to see if I was serious and I began to eat and heard Renesmee mumble that I was odd. I guess I shouldn’t mind if she thought I was odd, I mean it’s better to be yourself than a lie. After breakfast I thanked Esme for the corn flakes and joined Renesmee to walk to the lounge room. Edward told me Alice would be joining us today. I watched her and she bounced about like a ferret. We went in Edward’s Car, although Alice really wanted to take her turbo Porsche. Bella sat at the front passenger side while Edward was driving Renesmee and I were sitting together and Alice on her other side. I looked outside and watched the scenery as Edward drove to town. Alice and Bella were talking about places to go, Alice wanted to go shopping while Bella seemed to be against it. It seemed Bella had the same aversion to shopping as I do Edward and Renesmee were talking about something, I wasn’t paying attention, I had this song stuck in my head. Dreams by Mathew Morrison and Kristin Chenoweth it was a duet originally sung by Fleetwood Mac. I had heard both versions it’s just this version is more soothing, plus the music and vocals are a lot better. The song was stuck in my head on an endless loop. It was like I could hear the song in my head, which was something I didn’t mind the laid back music matched the scenery it was sort of poetic. Edward eventually asked me if I wanted to turn the Radio on to get the song out of my head and I told him I was alright. Music seemed to impact me, but then again I guess all the best songs do that they force you to identify with it, it’s all about expression. We arrived to town and went into a shopping center, Alice, Renesmee and Bella went to the clothing section while I went to the book section. Edward came with me and I checked through the books I didn’t find any that interested me yet. The clothing section was opposite of the book section when I looked up to see it I saw Renesmee stepping out of the dressing room, she was gorgeous she wore a Long sleeve stripped shirt the base of the striped shirt was white while the stripes were navy going across she had the shark tooth necklace still around her neck, she had black formal pants on with a belt keeping it up. Renesmee was truly astounding. I watched as she walked to Bella and watched as Bella hugged Renesmee it seemed Bella thought Renesmee looked good. I couldn’t stop myself from watching Isabella and Renesmee I wondered what it was like to have a mother…Don’t get me wrong, I love my father I really do he is an incredible man and my hero, he has such a kind heart filled with courage, compassion and of course love. It’s just maybe Life would be easier, I could have someone other than dad to confide in, Dad wouldn’t be lonely and well mother’s day wouldn’t suck that’s for sure. Edward had brought me out of my thoughts and asked me if it was difficult to see a relationship between mother and child, it’s kind of a stupid question in my opinion. “It is hard for me; my mother’s death doesn’t bother me because I know she’s at peace. It’s just hard…knowing that there are some things I will never have, never have any real memories or know what she was like from first-hand experience. I deal with it I am happy that Renesmee is lucky enough to have her mother in her life” I told Edward. Edward had spoken out “I am happy too that Renesmee is lucky enough to know her mother” I decided not to say anything to that instead I continued to look through books and I thought about asking Edward that question, why was it his eyes were different from my fathers. I didn’t get a chance to ask Edward that, instead he answered it for me. In a hushed tone “We survive on different diets, when a vampire feeds on humans their eyes are red…when on animals it’s golden... You’re fathers eyes will be like mine in six months’ time, wait and see.” He answered. The whole mind reading thing had started to annoy me, I wondered what Renesmee’s life would be like if she ever brought a boyfriend home to meet the family….Edward would probably flip when hearing Renesmee’s boyfriend’s mind…..I could just see Edward saying “you want to do what to my daughter.” I looked at Edward to see him cringe and I smiled at that thought, I would definitely have to get Alice to invite me over if that ever happens…I’d probably bring popcorn with me too. I decided to break the awkward silence “Edward that sort of reminds me of Vegetarians in humans…Did you know vegetarians finger prints come out a lot clearer than those who eat meat…it’s because people who eat meat tend to eat a lot more grease and fat that makes the finger prints smudge easier…funny how similar humans and vampires are in that way huh.” When I told him that Edward seemed surprise “that’s interesting that you know that, I never even thought of that comparison. You’re….”Before Edward could finish Alice came over to me she grabbed my hand “you’re my new dress up doll come on.” She spoke she looked at Edward with a serious glance and he told me that there was nothing he could do. Alice began to drag me away to the clothing department where Renesmee and Bella were waiting and I distantly heard Edward answering his phone. A few minutes went by and I was already holding a stack of clothing in my hands that went past my head. Diary you may not have picked up on this, but I hate clothing shopping. Alice sent me towards the dressing room and I made it there after walking into the door and stumbled back I could hear Renesmee having a laugh at my expense. I was trying on clothing when I heard Edward’s voice from outside the dressing room “That was Carlisle, I forgot I had some chores to complete, I will have to go sort things out for the rest of the day it will be just you, and the girls are you ok with that.” I scowled at the door as I got dressed thankful Edward didn’t have x-ray vision and told him I was ok with it. Edward had left us to go do his chores. I wondered for a moment what he had to do, while I finished on the last of the clothing. After hell formally known as shopping with Alice, we all went to the Denali’s to hang out together. Thankfully I was able to sneak away from the savage pixie formally known as Alice and went to see what Aunt Kate was up to, she and Garrett were packing some clothing into a duffle bag, she told me they were going on a holiday and left through their window…I am beginning to think that most vampires other than my dad are totally weird. After watching them run off through the forest I watched TV with Renesmee and Tanya, she seemed sad I kept her company for a while and she called me a sweet heart before walking me to the Cullen’s. Bella, Alice and Renesmee stayed at the Denali’s for a little longer, they were talking to Carmen about shopping. Women and shopping I will never understand that much I can tell you now. When we arrived at the Cullen’s Tanya went to speak to Esme, while I went to the living room and pulled you out of my bag just to tell you about my day…I have to go Emmett and Rosalie just entered the living room. ~Tobias Dear Diary,
How can I begin to tell you about my awesome day. So I woke up this morning and dad was there, he had a change of clothing for me. He has this crazy obsession with me not wearing the same clothing for more than one day. He hugged me good morning and then started to scold me for blinding Aunt Kate, he would not even let me have a word in so I just let him scold me. After he was done with his rant he petted my head, I felt like I was a pet or something, but I had to admit I liked it. I told dad I wasn't hungry this morning and for once he did not force me to eat, he instead gave me the sports bag to go get change, I took the bag of course and ran to the bathroom. The strange thing about the Denali's bathroom is it was unusually empty, there were a few products like shampoo and conditioner, but that was about it. The bathroom back home had stacks of stuff like sunscreen, endless supplies of it, mainly because dad and I spent a lot of time on the beach just relaxing, thinking about home made me sad, I missed the beach, I missed the way the water would crash on the shores and sand making a splash sound, it was so peaceful to hear and so beautiful to watch. Most humans probably think that seeing the waves crash onto the shore and sand is the same, but it's not. In fact its like snowflakes, each and every single crash is beautiful and unique, the way the water glimmers as it separates into tear drop like particles. I used to always fall asleep to the crashes of the waves from the beach. Last night falling asleep was hard, everything was quiet. I know this sounds silly, but I feel like a part of me is missing, dad was wrong, the house is just not a house. I have so many memories being in that house, so many good times. I get it, mom died there and the house is too painful for him to be in, but believe it or not I feel safe there and I feel closer to her there. I finished getting changed and saw he had packed a comb, it was obvious that he wanted to comb my hair. Truth be told i don't want to comb my hair, it's so long and to be honest its a pain. I also like having messy hair it's unique. I mean a lot of people can have messy hair, but it will never be like mine... because it's also unique. I packed yesterdays clothing into the bag and went downstairs with messy hair. I handed my sport bag back to dad and he looked at me. When I looked at him he had that weird look on his face.... Ok i have been neglecting to tell you, but dad has this look on his face, how can i describe it... it's parental mode. Yeah that’s it. When he gets that look there is an 89% chance he is going to do something to embarrass me. Yeah the odds aren’t in my favor. He pulled out the comb and he moved towards me and started to comb my hair. I scowled him and told him to stop ,that he was embarrassing me and he just replied "Well next time you will think to comb you're hair before you claim to be ready... you won't go out as some scruffy punk." I frowned at dad and heard aunt Tanya chuckle. She found this amusing for some reason while everyone else was quiet. At least Uncle Eleazar and everyone had the decency not to laugh at me unlike aunt Tanya. I sighed quietly, glad that parental mode was over, or so i thought, dad actually pulled out a tissue and tried to bring it to my face. I had to act fast, I mean, this was just beyond parental mode, it was just weird. My abnormally fast heart was pounding just a little faster than usual. I knew what dad would of wanted to do, and trust me I would die from embarrassment. I tried to think of possible escape methods, all that came to me was the old fashion toe stomp. I stomped on his toe and watched him hop back on one foot, I bolted behind aunt Kate. She was the cool aunt, she was like one of the guys. Only she was a girl. I listened to dad call me a punk and I chuckled feeling amused and proud of myself for saving what little dignity I had left. "It was either that or let you clean me and that’s just creepy dad" I told him. I watched as dad glowered at me, he looked a little intimidating, but I knew he would never hurt me despite his scary faces. Dad was one big teddy bear with fangs. I kept watching dad as he glowered at me. This was a stand off, a test of dominance in my opinion. Dad finally spoke "Fine... he is ready to go now. But be on you're best behavior and no showing off." I smiled and ran out the door bouncing about excitedly when I heard dad yell out "Hey where is my hug.” I quickly ran to dad and hugged him. He placed his hand on my back keeping me close "Love you dad" I told him and he spoke back "Love you more." I smiled and ran out the door excitedly to join Aunt Carmen, Uncle Garrett & Aunt Kate. Uncle Eleazar joined us a few moments later. I asked where Aunt Tanya was and Uncle Eleazar told me "Aunt Tanya wishes to help your father get your home set up for when you return." I was surprised. "Wow that was nice of her" I spoke back. While we were on our way to the Cullen’s house, I noticed how Kate was running from tree branch to tree branch. It was amazing to see her do that, it looked to be no effort at all. Garrett was right behind Kate watching her with a goofy look on his face. I shrugged it off as a grown up thing. Carmen seemed to notice the way I was watching Kate & Garrett "what is on you're mind little one?" Carmen asked me. I told her how I was impressed that Kate & Garrett could run from tree branch to tree branch, it looked like they could fly. Carmen chuckled "you're father never taught you then?" she asked. I shook my head and Aunt Carmen moved in front of me and crouched in front of me "climb on I will teach you." It felt strange climb on her back, especially that i was tall for my age, but after I did she jumped up high and landed on the tree branch. She helped me down onto the branch and I held onto the trunk to balance myself. "Stand up straight young one. You must learn balance first." Aunt Carmen spoke. Eleazar, Kate and Garrett stopped to watch. "You should go on ahead if you wish." Garrett and Eleazar decided to go on ahead while Kate hopped back to the tree branch in front of us. I tried to stop using the support of the tree trunk but stumbled. I was about to fall when Carmen caught me by the back of my shirt. She held me as I dangled off the tree and was relieved as she pulled me up and placed me back on the branch. "Lesson one, find you're center, your balance, without balance you can not stand.... Now concentrate Tobias, focus" she spoke slowly letting go of me. I wobbled around at first, but Carmen's words stuck in my head after a few seconds. I watched as aunt Kate clapped her hands "good going kid." Carmen nodded her head "yes, lesson one balance is complete, now for lesson two Tobias, this is very important. This lesson is aim, you need to aim where you are going. Pinpoint the exact location then concentrate on it." I nodded and looked at the spot next to Kate. "Lesson three, don't wear heels or pumps. This will ruin them" Kate yelled. I looked at her confused. "I don't think this will be an issue for Tobias, Kate." Carmen spoke casually as Kate had this smirk on her face. "Ok now Tobias for your lesson three you need to pay attention because this lesson has three steps. The first lesson is to crouch, so you build up power in your lower body, specifically in the legs area. Step two you jump. Step three you land." I watched as Carmen crouched, jumped and landed next to Kate. "Tobias use that power in your legs." I gulped and crouched. I stayed in the crouching stance for a few minutes. "Don't be afraid Tobias, I will catch you no matter what" I heard Kate speak. So I closed my eyes and I told myself I could do this. I opened my eyes and felt determination. I aimed at the spot in between my aunts. I used that built up pressure and pounced off the tree branch and moved towards them. I looked at that spot and moved my feet there. I landed kind of slippy, but Kate grabbed my arm at once and helped me steady myself. "Well done kid" she spoke. I thanked her and Carmen continued to speak "that's pretty much it. Well two more lessons actually. Next lesson is to keep moving, don't stop until your ready to get down... next lesson is like lesson two you aim where you want to land, simple." I nodded and told them I would try. Kate told me she would slow down and stay at my side the entire time. Carmen offered to stay too, but Kate told her she would take over. Carmen looked a little disappointed. She jumped down and ran off. "On the count of three. One....two...three." Kate jumped like it was nothing and I crouched and pounced. I asked Kate why she didn't have to crouch. She told me she had years of experience. I have to admit tree running is fun, once I got the hang of it. It was strange, it felt like I was flying, jumping from tree branch to tree branch never touching the ground. It was a total rush. We arrived at the Cullen place and the house was massive, I mean it had two floors. It was a white house with lots of windows. "This is the Cullen’s place, the Cullens built this place years ago." I looked at the house and told her it was very beautiful. In a flash, a long blond haired woman ran outside and ran towards us. I hid behind Kate as the blond stopped and chuckled, Kate smiled. "Hello Rosalie, how are you." I peeked out from behind Kate to look at Rosalie as she answered. "I am well thank you. Is this Brian's son?" she asked. I asked her how she knew my dads name. She smiled and told me she met my dad recently and she was very excited to meet me. She Introduced herself as Rosalie Hale. I stepped out from behind Kate and placed my hand out and introduced myself. "My name is Tobias Marcus Jacobson. It's a pleasure to meet you." Rosalie smiled and took my hand and shook it slowly. "My what a perfect gentleman, it's a pleasure to meet you too." I smiled, Rosalie seemed to be a really nice lady. I wondered why she was so nice. "Would you like to come inside and meet my family? I have someone very special you may like to meet." I tilted my head curiously. Rosalie was sort of creeping me out a little. I could hear a chuckle coming from inside the house and in an instant a giant came out of the house and was hugging Rosalie from behind. The guy was huge. "Hey babe, who’s the short kid" he spoke as he kissed her neck. Rosalie giggled and I raised my eye brow "I'm not short, your just unusually tall." I spoke in my defense. Emmett chuckled and let go of Rosalie, he stepped in front of us and he placed his hand on my head and messed up my hair. "Hey shorty I’m Emmett, Roses husband" he introduced himself. I frowned as he called me short. I thought about using my ability on him to take out one of his senses, but I could just picture dad scolding me and telling me to behave, so I let it go. I haven’t met many vampires. I mean I knew my dad and I just met the Denali's and now Emmett and Rose. It's not just vampires I am meeting, but extended family and friends. Rosalie surprised me, she grabbed my hand and guided me inside. With Emmett and Kate following I could hear Kate snickering, we entered inside the house and I saw Carmen and Eleazar sitting together while Garrett was leaning against the wall as Kate walked towards Garrett and Hugged him. "Take a seat little dude, relax" Emmett spoke I looked at Emmett and frowned "I told you I'm not short, your abnormally tall like, BFG tall" Emmett asked what BFG meant. Before I could answer another woman entered the room. This woman was extremely beautiful. I noticed like the Denali's she had golden eyes, I was curious about this. The lady had a heart shaped face and caramel colored hair that was tied into a bun."My it can't be... little Tobias is that you?" My jaw dropped. Did this lady know me? The lady moved to my side and hugged me. She told me her name was Esme Cullen and I asked her how she knew me. She then told me that she met me as a child. I made sure to be polite to Esme and apologized for not recalling her. She excused me, telling me it was perfectly understandable. Esme walked to hug Rosalie and i could hear her whisper "he is such a gentleman, very respectful." I shook off the whispers mentally and looked at Emmett “BFG, it means Big Friendly Giant. It's in a children's book written by Roald Dahl & Illustrated by Quentin Blake. The book is about a girl named Sophie meeting a giant." Emmett made an "oh" sound and I heard Rosalie continue on. "ooo he is smart too, he can probably read past the fifth grade level unlike fido...she's going to flip when she meets him." She whispered again to Esme, "she will probably flip....at you now. Don't be rude Rosalie" Esme whispered back. Kate asked where everyone else were. Esme told us Carlisle was at work, while Alice and Jasper went hunting and Bella, Edward & Renesmee were on their way over. Emmett suggested a game of baseball once everyone is together. I had to admit it sounded fun, "Boys vs girls" Emmett spoke, "But there is more boys then there are girls" Kate retorted "yeah but you guys have Alice" he argued back. The wait was short as three people arrived, at the back was a woman with long brown hair and golden eyes, she was wearing Jeans and a dark brown top. Next to her was a male with messy bronze hair, he wore a black jacket and white shirt with black jeans. He also had strange golden eyes, but what I wasn't expecting was an angel standing in front of them. I was stunned at the beauty of this girl, her beauty had surpassed Rosalie with no contest. She had high cheek bones and her nose was straight with full lips, her hair was long and bronze and curly. She had the most amazing eyes I had ever seen they were chocolate brown, and her skin was slightly pale. But the thing was her skin glowed, it wouldn't stand out to the normal humans, but all I could think was wow. I could hear voices, but they made no sense until I heard the male speak "give him a moment Esme." He spoke with a grin on his face, Edward's grin was crooked and I wondered what he was smiling about. I could hear Esme speak again and could see Rosalie excitedly standing next to her nudging Esme eagerly. "I'm sorry what did you say?" I asked. Esme smiled "I said I would like you to meet my son Edward, his wife Bella and their daughter Renesmee." I looked back to them and saw Edward move in front of me. He placed his hand out and I took his hand to shake it. "My name is Tobias Jacobson it's nice to meet you and your family." I spoke honestly. Edward returned the gesture and Bella came and we exchanged greetings, but Renesmee i found it hard to talk to her. I mean, she was just so beautiful I kept on thinking that if I said something she would probably laugh at me for it being something lame. Renesmee smiled and I was shocked when I saw her smile. I was dumbfounded, it reminded me of last year when dad took me to the fireworks show at the New Years party. It was just so beautiful, so unique and so very perfect. She placed out her hand and I took it. Wow, her touch was soft. But unlike her father's hand shake, Renesmee's touch was warm and gentle. "Just call me Nessie" she spoke. "Uh Tobias is my name....I mean my name is Tobias." I rambled on wishing I could bang my head on the wall for the lost of reasonable senses. I could hear Edward chuckle. Nessie and I walked to the couch, we started talking...well she did most of the talking, I just sat there nodding my head and making agreement sounds. Everyone else was off doing their own thing, well almost. Rosalie was leaning on the wall, her arms folded watching eagerly...it is a little creepy. Nessie gained my attention by whispering "Don't worry about aunt Rosalie, she really is the best....she just gets a little odd from time to time. Please don't let her intimidate you." I nodded my head and continued to listen to her speak. Eventually I got to meet Carlisle, Alice & Jasper, they were all really nice. Alice is kind of an oddball. She is so hyperactive, like she was on a sugar rush. Nessie and I continued to chat. We eventually started talking about books. She told me she loved the ballad The Lady of Shalott by Alfred Lord Tennyson. I had admitted to Nessie I have never heard of the ballad and she was surprised. She recited the ballad word for word and it was beautiful, she was so passionate about it and I found myself enchanted by the balled, it was intense. I made a mental note to ask dad to buy me a book on ballads and poetry. Nessie asked me about stuff I liked to read and I sheepishly admitted that Alice in Wonderland was my favorite book by far. She seemed surprised and I explained my reasoning behind it. I mean its a book about discovering who you really are, it's basically a coming of age story. A lot like another book I love called Looking for Alibrandi by Melina Marchetta. So I told her about the book. "Another good book to read is called Looking for Alibrandi. It's about a third generation of Italian-Australian Josephine Alibrandi. Where she is in the last year of high school and struggles to overcome the narrow minded social and racial bigotry that goes on in her school by two high society classmates." Nessie seemed impressed and I suppressed a smile. We actually talked about swapping books so I could read some of Tennyson's works and she can read Looking for Alibrandi. I was shocked at how fast the day went by I slowly found myself getting comfortable around Nessie. But i still left the talking to her, I did not want her thinking i was stupid. Emmett and Jasper were getting out all the baseball stuff from the garage. I was surprised when Rosalie just burst out and asked me if I wanted to sleep over and get to know the family. Carlisle and everyone with the exception of Edward & Alice seemed surprised. I asked her how many days and she suggested ten, I thought about it and it sounded great. I mean everyone is so interesting. I wouldn't mind spending time with them. I like Edward & Emmett, despite him continuously calling me shortie. I also liked Alice and Esme. Rosalie was plain creepy, but maybe I was imagining things. It was just a little strange. I asked Carlisle if that would be ok and he said it would be fine. I thanked him for the kind offer. Now the only problem would be convincing dad...ten days was a lot. Uncle Eleazar offered to let me borrow his phone and I thanked him. Well dad's answer was of course no and i begged and pleaded with him and he eventually asked me to put Carlisle on the phone and I smiled I knew I had dad right where I wanted him. They talked for a few moments and then I got the phone back. Dad of course said i could stay on the condition that I did as I was told and be on my best behavior, along with the lame daily phone calls and visits. I agreed and told dad I would abide by his conditions then told him I was going to play baseball. I said goodbye and hung up. I gave the phone back to Uncle Eleazar and thanked him for letting me use the phone. I told Rosalie and Carlisle dad said it was ok and Rosalie looked thrilled. We all left to play baseball. Basically it was the boys vs the girls with the exception of me being on the girls team. The game was good, Emmett was the pitcher and of course he mocked my height. "I’m gonna have to get on my knees just so I can throw balls that he can hit or at least have a shot at." he commented. I scowled at Emmett and heard Nessie speak "don't listen to him Tobias he is just trying to get into you're head. Remember he who angers you conquers you." she shouted from third base. Emmett was chuckling and my grip on the bat tightened. Nessie was right and the thing is Emmett's trick is working. I was mad, my grip on the bat tightened and I could see the ball come at me at lightning speed and with the swing of the bat a loud BANG echoed the clearing and the ball went towards Emmett’s face and he ducked just on time. It was clear he could have caught it if he wanted too. I wondered why he didn't. I apologized to Emmett only to hear Nessie yell "apologies later, run the bases now I don't want to loose to the boys." She yelled out sounding rather competitive. I did as I was told and made it all the way to third base before Edward managed to get the ball. The game continued on and it was fun. We won the game, although i have a theory the guys let us win. Dad arrived with Tanya. They were both wearing different clothing and I asked why they both got dressed. He told me they both went hunting and things got messy, although Tanya had this odd satisfied look on her face. I decided to shrug it off. Dad handed me my sports bag, it had my clothing for the week and my comb of course. Well I have to go, Esme is starting dinner for Nessie & I and dad wants me to have a shower "No son of mine is going to eat while he is dirty" were his words. I smiled. I love dad, he is so old fashioned. So I am going to go have a shower....I might ask Nessie why her families eyes and the Denali's eyes are golden. I'll let you know ~Tobias Jacobson Topic: Are women always so affectionate?
Date: June 10th,2019 Dear Diary I finished packing my things and we moved out of our home. The move was short, we managed to fit everything in the back seat. Dad did not take many things, only three boxes and this strange box, but something strange is going on the other morning I went to the garage and went looking for boxes I found this box and it was marked S stuff. I found myself curious about the box and I was about to open it up when dad came into the garage and asked me what i was doing, I told dad about the box and he looked alarmed for a split second, dad smiled and told me to go eat my breakfast and he would find a box for me. I did as I was told and when I had bacon, eggs, Toast and blood. I tried the blood and it tasted weird, I asked dad why the blood tasted funky and dad told me animal blood tasted worse than human blood and that the blood I was drinking was deer blood. After I had breakfast I went to the garage to look for the strange box and found that the box marked S stuff was gone. I did not see it until yesterday in the car with all my boxes and dads boxes, I asked dad what was in the box and he told me it was just stuff from his work. I did not believe him, it did not make sense the alarmed look in his face it lasted a split second, but it lasted a split second too long. I guess it has important stuff inside, but what's so important that dad did not want me to see it. I thought about it the entire time when I was packing and in the car on the way here. I plan on looking for that box marked S stuff, I am currious I want to know what's in there. I met the Denali's, father said I met them when I was an infant and he said I went on a rampage when I was last here and trashed their stuff. I was surprised at the welcoming we got, my father and I arrived to see the entire Denali family outside waiting for us as soon as I got out of the car I was tackled to the ground by Carmen and she spoke in spanish. Dad chuckled and went to talk to Eleazer & Garret while Carmen dragged me away from my dad with Kate & Tanya the three of them looked and bombardad me with questions and hugs, they were so affectionate it was a little overwhelming to have all that attention on me. I was shocked by the color of their eyes it was a honey gold color, its not red like fathers eyes. I wanted to ask about their eyes, but Carmen was crushing me so I instead asked her not to hug me so tight and she told me to call her Aunt Carmen and that I should think of them as my aunt's and uncles. I smiled, I liked the idea of having an extended family, all I had up until this point was my dad, I had several tutors over the years. I grow so fast, I can never have one tutor for too long, it's to avoid people guessing what I am. So for dad and I to have an extended family, it is great. I went hunting with Aunt Tanya, Carmen and Kate, my hunting skills are truly poor, I am inexperienced, I tried to catch a wolf, but missed it and aunt Kate snickered at me. Aunt Carmen gave me some pointers, I love her accent, I think she is Spanish, I ended up catching the wolf, it was a pretty wolf, it was snow white with a little black on the top of it's coat. It was so beautiful it was painful to kill it, but I was really thirsty. The blood tasted a lot better than the deer blood, but I still felt guilty. I asked my new Aunts how they coped with killing an innocent animal and Aunt Kate said this in her exact words. "It's sad that we must kill animals to survive, but this is the lesser of the greater evil, would you rather we kill innocent humans child?" I thought about her answer, it did make sense, I had a flashback to seeing my father kill that human in front of me. I went on to ask my aunts "well if you treasure all life why not feed on bad humans that hurt others." Tanya answered this time "who are we to decide who is guilty, and who are we to decide who is not worthy of redemption little one...all life is something to treasure." I listened to my aunts in awe, these women were so wise. We returned back to the Denali's and I found Uncle Eleazar alone, I asked where my father was. He went to the new house to unpack the boxes, Uncle Eleazar said dad would return once he finished unpacking in the mean time I could stay here and play. Uncle Eleazar asked me for a favor and I asked him what he would like from me, Eleazar asked me if I would use my talent on him. Uncle Eleazar told me the last time he saw me I refused to use my gift on him. I nodded and touched Uncle Eleazar and concentrated on him, to enhance his senses it did not take much concentration to use my ability on uncle Eleazar. I watched him flinch and he looked at me. "Amazing child, such an interesting ability, you are an impressive child Tobias." Aunt Carmen smiled and petted my head. I asked uncle Eleazar if many vampires had gifts and he nodded and told me that not every vampire is gifted, but there is quite a few of us around that he and Kate were both gifted. I asked Uncle Eleazar about his gift and he told me he had the ability to sense gifted individuals and classify it. I asked about Aunt Kate's ability and he told me that she has the ability to emmit a mental current of electricity over her body to shock people, when I asked him what he meant by mentally, Aunt kate explained in these words. "Little one, a vampire's ability is set apart into two catagories: there is the mental and the physical, the mental abilities is what I call a deceptive ability, it affects the mind, an example would be my ability. My gift is to shock people, but I am actually not shocking people, it creates the illusion of a person feeling that they get a shock. The physical gift affects the body, I know of a vampire that is able to manipulate the elements." I listened to them and found myself curious "so what is my ability, is it physical or mental" I asked Aunt Kate shrugged her shoulders and told me she did not know. I was curious about her gift and asked her to try it on me, at first aunt Kate said no, I kept on asking until she caved in and told me to touch her, I did and the next thing I knew I was on the floor and my fingers felt numb, Aunt Kate picked me up as I shook my head she chuckled "such an adorable child." I found myself a little frustrated the gift hurt and even though I asked for it, I wanted to return the favor. My hand touched her neck and I channeled my gift through her, she gasped "I am not done yet." I concentrated a little longer and Kate gasped "I can't see" she said alarmed I let go of her and looked at her face, she looked afraid and Eleazar leaned in "what did you do." he asked me nervous. Kate blinked and her vision returned "I used my gift on her." "Yes, but I did not go blind when you used it on me." Uncle Eleazar answered back. I explained that I could overload the senses to disable it and Eleazar looked surprised. I felt bad for what I did to Aunt Kate and she told me I was forgiven as long as I didn't do it again. I spent the rest of the day with my new family waiting for dad to come pick me up. I wonder what was taking him so long, It's eight pm, I am going to go get ready for bed. Aunt Carmen promised to wake me up as soon as dad comes. ~Tobias Topic:Maybe I am about to enter my own rabbit hole, and enter a new world of adventures...still I will miss my home
Date: June 7th,2019 Dear Diary It's time to fill you in, I am really sorry, I have actually been so busy and a lot has happened in three days mostly I have been packing, but I guess I should start at the beginning. I went hunting with my dad, we travelled all the way to New York city and we waited until the sun went down. I watched my father as we stood on the roof tops and he said to me "Tobias you need to learn humanity is a flawed species, they're deceptive and cruel creatures, they lie and manipulate and use you, they can't be trusted under any circumstances." I asked if Mom was anything like what he just said. Dad was quiet for a few seconds "no...no she was special, not a mean bone in her body." Dad put his arm around me to hug me. Dad's hugs were always the best it felt nice and warm, I felt extremely safe. Dad pointed out a human, he looked extremely scruffy and he walked into an alley. "Drug addict, his blood will be tainted and taste funky. You can tell a lot when you go for a human always watch how they dress. Dad looked at the humans, "the art of hunting a human is simple, move in darkness move with stealth and make no sound and always clean your mess." he said. I nodded my head "Now son, stay here and watch me carefully alright, and when I give you the signal, come to me ok." Dad left in a flash and I looked ahead, I waited ten minutes and saw dad, he was walking with a human female laughing, she seemed to be charmed by my father, she was lured into the alley in front of us. I concentrated on the female that was with my father, he placed his hand over her mouth and pinned her against the wall he looked back at my direction and that was my signal. I jumped off the roof top and landed on the ground soundlessly, "good boy" my father said. I watched him and then the human, she looked afraid. I watched as my father tilted the human's neck and bit into her flesh, I watched horrified, the female was afraid, she was whimpering and my father did not stop. The human's heart continued to pound until it slowed down, I had never seen anything like this before, I mean I knew the blood I consumed came from humans, but it was just from a blood bag, dad had a contact in the blood bank where he bought blood from. The human's heart stopped and dad pulled back, I watched him as he faced me "now once you finish, you look around see if anyone witnessed anything, usually you can hear humans heartbeats beat in acceleration from fear. Tobias now you need to remove any marks you make." I nodded slowly watching as my father ripped off the flesh of the human where he bit her, he pulled out a glad wrap plastic bag and put the flesh where he bit the human in the bag and placed it in his pocket. Dad picked up the human and carried her into the dumpster and threw her in it, "now my son it's your turn." I looked at my dad and told him, "I am sorry dad, but I can't....I don’t want to hurt anyone." Dad looked at me and asked if I was sure, I nodded my head he smiled and we went to the car and went home. I thought dad was mad or ashamed of me, but before I could ask him dad spoke, and asked me why I could not kill, make the hunt. I told dad in this exact answer "I am sorry father, but seeing the pain and the terror on the human's face it was horrible." He seemed calm and I made a choice "I don’t want to drink blood anymore, I think from now on if I do I would only see that person's face." He nodded his head Dad answered "well if you’re going to commit yourself to not drinking human's blood there is another way son." I was curious at dad and he told me that there is a family of vampires called the Cullen's & Denali's that feed only on animal blood and if I wanted I could do that too and become 'vegetarian'. I thought about it and decided it was worth a shot, so I told dad I wanted to do it and he smiled and said "Well if you’re going to go vegetarian, I will do it too son, I want to support you anyway possible." I thanked dad and he told me it was no problem, we got home and he sat down and told me he needed to talk to me. Dad told me that some big things were going to happen, he told me he sold his company and when I asked why he told me it was time to make a fresh start on life and that another change that was happening is we are moving away from our home. We are moving to Denali, Alaska to be near a vampire coven. Dad spoke with his old friend Eleazar and they would be glad to have us nearby, Dad says another vampire family lives in Alaska the family is called Cullens. I told dad I did not want to go that this is our home that mom lived here, it's the only thing I have to connect with her. Dad told me that living here would not bring mom back and that this is something we had to do anyways and when I asked him why dad told me "as vampires we never change son, we will be immortal forever. If we stay in one spot for too long people will guess and people will find out what we are and if that happens the Voltori will come." I frowned and dad promised we would come back here some day, so until then take what I wanted and leave the rest behind. I told dad I would miss this place and he hugged me and told me to cheer up, that I would meet a lot of our own kind and make lots of friends and even get to meet a girl who is like me, her name was Renesmee or something like that, kind of a weird name to tell the truth. It's pretty late, I am going to finish this chapter of Alice in Wonderland and then I am going to go to bed. First thing tomorrow after breakfast I am going to go the garage to get a box to pack my things. ~Tobias. Topic: A secret wish
Date: June 4th,2019 Dear Diary My name is Tobias Marcus Jacobson and today I am ten years old, my dad bought me this notepad computer to play with, but also to use as a diary he told me in these words "you are my son and best friend. I know you don’t have many friends Tobias, its because I need to be protective of you my special little man. I know you must have thoughts and feelings you can't share with me so hopefully this notepad computer will help you express yourself my son." I did feel resentful dad is really really overprotective and I did get lonely especially when he had to go to work. Dad bought me other presents to an x-box and lots of other cool stuff. My dad doesn’t buy me toys because he thinks I am too old for it. I can't really blame him I do look like a young adult the reason behind that is because of my heritage. I am just happy today I had my day off from school....well dad doesn't let me go to school he hires me a tutor and I get home schooled. My dad says I am special and because I am special I need to be extra careful and extra precautions must be taken. I guess I should try to explain to you ok here goes I will do my best to explain I am not completely human I am half vampire. I know it’s a little hard to believe, but it's true. My father Brian Jacobson is a vampire he is well over two hundred years old my father was a slave and the reason was because of his skin color...he worked in the mining for his masters father was a religious man back then he believed that one day if he was good enough and endured that he and his family and friends would be free. My father waited and waited, but that day never came so he had enough and ran away which was punishable by death, my father went into the mining caves and father found a vampire the vampire spoke something to this day my father did not understand something about being the key to changing the vampire world. My dad was changed and when he woke up he was a vampire strong and powerful and extremely thirsty, my father killed his masters and even his entire family. Father did a lot of things in the next two hundred years, he told me that story when I was seven and since then I think about it a lot actually probably more than I should. That is the story of my father, but what of my mother....She died giving birth to me I don't remember her, I don't even know what she looks like. Dad told me there was a fire a few years ago and all the photo's and everything we owned went up in smoke. So to this day I have never seen a photo of my mother and I have nothing of hers to cling to, I know very little about my mother, I will share what I know about her. My mother's name is Sarah, she was a beautiful human whom my father met in Italy, she was almost hit by a car and he saved her, my dad says he knew he loved her from the moment he first met her although he did not realize it. My dad says that I could look for a hundred thousand years, but I would never find anyone as beautiful, brave and noble such as my mother and even though she suffered greatly when she was carrying me she had no regrets, she told my father that. My father told me that her last words were telling me to be strong and brave and never forget how much I am loved. Father doesn't talk about mother much, I guess he still misses her, I told him I felt guilt and he told me not to. That my mother knew that there was a chance she would not make it and either way she had no regrets. I guess that's what made her brave she faced death with no regrets she gave life to me to me at the cost of her own life that is what made her brave. The two lived in different worlds and somehow found themselves falling in love and uniting making me a hybrid, I am half human/half vampire. My father tells me there are a few other hybrids, probably no more than six including me. I am stronger than humans, faster than humans and even smarter than humans my own age. I also grow faster than humans my own age which is why I look like a fifteen year old, but there is something about me, I have a gift, my father calls it sensory enhancement. I have the ability to supercharge the senses of other vampires through physical contact. My father describes my ability as a current of electricity that courses through the person I touch when I touch them and if I concentrate, I can supercharge their senses. At first it only lasted while I had physical contact, but after some coaching from my father and practice my supercharge lingers on for a long while, the current length of my gift is lasting is two days. I remember my father getting annoyed because he ended up hearing the traffic in New York for two days after I used my gift on him. I also need to be careful because I can hurt people with my gift if I supercharge it too much. During one of our sparring sessions I touched dad and sent too much of my gift into him and he went blind for a moment my father wants to continue my training so “overload” as he calls it so it becomes a weapon for me to use my ability to help me in combat. I know it sounds strange for a ten year old to be training and learning to fight, but like I said previously my father believes precautions has to be made for my safety see in the world of vampires there is an evil organization called the Voltori. The Voltori claims to be an organization that defends our people and keep our presence secret, most vampires believe that and side with the Voltori, my father, however, knows the truth and has told me that the Voltori are actually collectors, they gather vampires with gifts, recruit them into their guard. My father is afraid the voltori will come for me, so he wants to give me a fighting chance if they ever try to recruit me. It seems even us Immortals are stuck in the culture of fear and hatred will it ever end? I hate being stuck in the culture of fear, but realized if we did not live in a culture of fear I would not be here. My father would have lived and died a free man with his own family; maybe he would have found himself a wife and had kids with her. My mother would still be alive today enjoying her youth and I would be nothing, but it's not like that at all because of the culture of fear. I guess bad things can have a good side if you think about it long and hard enough even through pain and suffering there can always be light and through the suffering we gain strength to overcome things that we thought we could never get through. I just wish I had the chance to know her, I know it’s pointless and impossible, but every year when I have my birthday or whenever I see a shooting star, I wish I could have just five minutes with my mom, just to feel her arms around me or to hear her voice, just to finally figure out if it's her I hear in my sleep. The thing is I often hear a beautiful voice when I sleep, sometimes it speaks, sometimes it sings, I think it's my mother's voice. I can't exactly ask my father about my mother because he tends to go quiet even if he brings her up. I had fun today, I woke up at six am and my father was in the living room on his laptop doing some paper work he saw me and came and hugged me and wished me a happy birthday. I had breakfast which was cornflakes with blood instead of milk, I don't really like human food much, Dad makes me eat human food he tells me I am still half human, so I need nutrients and vitamins just like any other human. I am lucky dad compromises with me he lets me drink blood too. After breakfast father and I spent the day at the beach we went swimming in the ocean and we went underwater. I watched dad fight a few sharks, he killed them, not to drink from them just because he felt like it. Dad was amazing, he really was, it was 6 PM and the sun was setting when father told me that today I was going to become a man. He told me I would go on my first hunting trip to learn how to hunt. I am so excited. Dad also told me that he had some other news he would tell me after our hunting trip. I will let you know how my hunting trip went and what dad's news is as soon as I find out wish me luck ok ~Tobias Jacobson |
InfoThe Journal of Tobias Jacobson the son of Sarah & Brian a young man trying to find out which world he belongs to the worlds of humans or vampires. Join Tobias as he searches to find out where he belongs and what journey awaits him. Tobias Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |