Topic: Shopping=Hell Dear Journal, I had a lot of fun today, I actually had a really early day. I woke up at four this morning; I don’t know why I just couldn’t sleep. I had slept over the Cullen’s place, in Emmett and Rosalie’s room. Rosalie was very kind to me kind of creepy I guess. I had woken up and when I went down stairs I saw Emmett and Rosalie were building a house of cards, Jasper and Alice were watching something on TV. I walked down the stairs yawning casually and Esme came out of the kitchen I greeted them all a good morning and Rosalie told me it was too early that I should try go back to bed. I told her I couldn’t, and went to Esme in the kitchen and sat at the table slouching on it. As Esme sat next to me she petted my head. “Do you miss your father Tobias?” She asked, I shook my head and just explained that I just couldn’t sleep. Esme offered to make me something to eat and I looked at her. For a single moment she reminded me of the wicked witch that tried to fatten the two kids Hansel and Gretel so she could eat them, I smiled and respectfully declined, instead I asked where Carlisle was, she told me he had to go to the hospital that he would be finished later. I knew I would be spending the day with Edward, Bella and Renesmee, but I was disappointed I really wanted to spend some time with Carlisle. I still hadn’t asked him the question as to why his family’s eyes were different than my father’s. I wanted to, but I got distracted by dinner…Esme really is a good cook. Right after dinner we watched a movie and I went to bed. I wasn’t really paying attention to Esme as she was writing something, instead my thoughts was on Renesmee I kept on thinking about her, wondering how she could be so smart. I guess she must have had tutors like me, see because I am half human, I actually grow a lot faster than normal humans, I am only ten years old, but I am the size of a teenager…granted I’m not as tall as Emmett, but come on the guy is a giant who could compare to that. Renesmee is just about two years older than me, she is really smart and for some reason her hair smells really nice. I decided to ask Esme about her tutors and Esme surprised me by telling me that she tutored Renesmee. I found it odd If anyone out of the Cullen’s were going to tutor Renesmee why not her mother or father why her grandmother? I asked Esme that question, in a tactful way may I add. She explained that The Cullen’s had to keep up appearances; it would look suspicious if Bella or Edward stayed home. So the Cullen’s kept Nessie a secret keeping her home and going to a different town to go shopping. Dad and I would go out from time to time. I miss home, the beach, the scent, I felt so peaceful there…being here I feel kind of restless it’s not right. I asked Esme what she was writing and she told me she was writing a schedule for Renesmee’s classes for the next week. She explained at the moment Nessie is still doing home school, but would soon be starting high school she just wanted Renesmee to be prepared for when it happens. I wondered what high school was like, then for some reason I wondered if Esme ever went to high school, in fact I didn’t know much about Esme at all. I wanted to ask her about her past and I was going to in a tactful way, but I was interrupted by Alice. She came into the kitchen, the way she looked at me was slightly unnerving, seeing her golden eyes, it was piercing “Tobias how about you skip your day with Edward, Bella and Nessie and come shopping with me…I bet I could find a lot of hip new clothing you would look cute in.” I don’t know why, but I had the urge to run as if my life depended on it. I suppressed the urge and respectfully declined she looked disappointed. I could hear Rosalie mumble something “Leave him be Alice, can’t you see he wants to spend time with Nessie.” I looked down embarrassed and Esme let out a girlish giggle. Alice joined us at the table and I watched her suspiciously, she was almost as good looking as Renesmee. Alice is short and petite my estimate would be she was 4’8” she is pretty thin and pixie like with large eyes and her hair is cropped short, spiky and ink black. She also moved pretty gracefully I wondered if she did ballet. I listened as they began to talk about shopping trips and excused myself. I left the kitchen to go to the living room area where I now saw Jasper sitting on the lounge alone. Emmett and Rose were still building their house of cards, I was tempted to go over there and fake sneeze on the cards just to knock it down I instead chose to go and sit beside Alice’s mate Jasper. The couch was comfortable, the silence however made me feel slightly anxious, Jasper was different than the rest of the Cullen’s, Jasper was quiet and he had crescent shaped scars on his body, face, neck and Jaws the agony he must have been through I felt sorry for him for a moment but then remembered that happened long ago. Beside it wasn’t as if he was ugly, he wasn’t and besides normal humans probably wouldn’t be able to see Jasper’s scars. I found myself feeling calm sitting next to Jasper it was boring at first, but then I felt sort of sleepy, and wham next thing I know I am waking up in Rosalie and Emmett’s bed. I wondered if I had fallen asleep, I remember feeling rather calm and bored. After getting up I walked to my bag and grabbed a change of clothing and a towel, I had a shower and got dressed for my day with Bella, Edward and Renesmee I placed my PJ’s in Rosalie’s room along with my towel and grabbed my comb from my bag. You know for someone as glamorous as Rosalie you would think she would have a mirror or two in her bedroom, but she didn’t. So I went back to the bathroom and combed my hair yawning as I did so, normally I hated combing my hair, but the last thing I need is dad showing up and smothering it would be embarrassing. Finally I was ready for the day that waited ahead of me and I returned to my bag just to put my comb away and in my bag I saw something it was the necklace I made using a shark’s tooth as a center for the necklace and on sides were beads. I got the shark’s tooth when fishing with dad….vampire style. Now you’re probably wondering how human fishing is different from vampire fishing…humans use sticks, dad well dad uses his hands and teeth. Just between us Vampire fishing scares me, it makes my heart pound faster than normal and I feel this rush of adrenaline. I think I will give this necklace to Renesmee as a friendship gift. I placed the necklace in the pocket of my jeans and went downstairs. When I made it down stairs I saw Bella Cullen there, talking with Alice. The two stopped talking and looked to me, Alice had this smile on her face I wondered what she was so joyful about. I had walked down the stairs quietly and greeted both Bella and Alice wishing them a good morning. Alice and Bella both had returned the greeting of course, what I did not expect was Alice to say “great I’ll go get my purse.” She had bolted off like a blur. It had only taken me a moment to realize Alice had decided to join us today. I wondered if I could get Emmett to come with us to use him as a buffer to keep Alice at bay. I had snapped out of the thoughts of using Emmett as a buffer and asked Bella where Renesmee and Edward were, she had told me that they were on their way. It seemed Renesmee had slept in and Edward didn’t want to leave her alone. I nodded my head and tried to keep cool, I went to the kitchen and Esme came and greeted me with a hug and asked me if I was hungry, I told her I wasn’t for the next ten minutes I was listening to Emmett and Jasper fiercely debate over football. The whole thing was interesting, I half expected Emmett to rip his shirt open and start beating on his chest like Tarzan and throw Jasper out the window, it would have made things much more interesting that’s for sure. Edward and Renesmee finally arrived all I could think is wow she was beautiful. Seeing Renesmee dressed in a white shirt and blue jeans and shoes the attire was plain, but she was what made it extraordinary. Renesmee’s hair was sort of bouncy and the color of it was astounding, her chocolate brown eyes were beautiful. I knew how she looked like I mean this wasn’t our first meeting, but she took my breath away. Seeing Renesmee stand beside her father I was reminded of this old song called Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars. I had heard Edward when he spoke “I agree with you there Tobias.” I was surprised for a moment and then realized Edward had heard my thoughts “HEY!” I objected verbally sounding embarrassed and a little agitated. Edward apologized, yet he had this strange smirk on his face. I watched him curiously raising an eyebrow examining him. Bella joined us in the kitchen and held Edward’s hand they looked so in love. Something I have noticed by spending time with them. I had failed to notice Renesmee walked towards me, with a tug of my hand I snapped out of my gaze focus on watching Edward and Bella to feel a sense of shock hit me I watched Renesmee she was so beautiful I pulled out the shark tooth’s necklace from my pocket “uh Renesmee I have a present for you...” I showed her the necklace and ignored the sound of footsteps coming towards us. I Saw Rosalie enter the room with Alice beside her, I could see Alice’s excitement and Rosalie’s curiosity Renesmee smiled with excitement and I offered to put it on, too where she accepted Renesmee turned so her back faced me, she lifted her hair up and I placed it around her neck while I did so I told Renesmee “I don’t really know how to make friendship bracelets…that’s kind of girly, but I can give you this…A memento of a fishing trip with Dad…I want you to have it…and know that you will always have a friend to lean on when needed, that’s a promise.” I spoke quietly knowing full well everyone could hear it. I wondered what sort of embarrassment I would endure, I already felt awkward as it was. I knew Bella was watching while Edward had this crooked smile on his face, “I think we should let the kids eat come on everyone scatter” Esme spoke in a motherly tone. Alice and Rosalie were the first to leave, well Rosalie was dragged away…have I mentioned how creepy she is, Bella and Edward followed after them, I remember the look of their faces it was pride, they were happy…I guess because I would be a friend to Renesmee… well that’s a theory at least. I had finished and watched Renesmee turn to face me; she hugged me and thanked me sincerely for the gift. Esme was setting the table with various food, I thought I told her I wasn’t hungry…I was starting to believe my theory on her trying to fatten me up so she could eat me was becoming more plausible. I sat at the table and Renesmee sat next to me. She was going for bacon and eggs. I went for the corn flakes and asked if Esme had any blood. Renesmee looked at me with curiosity “are you serious…corn flakes with blood…that’s weird” I scowled at Renesmee and her remark “you’re weird” I grumbled back pouting to which Renesmee giggled. Esme had opened the fridge door to pull out a plastic container of animal blood. “You’re father told me he cooked a mixture of food and blood so I had Jasper go out hunting for you” I thanked Esme and poured the blood into the corn flakes and I picked up the spoon to put it in the bowl. Renesmee watched me for a moment as if to see if I was serious and I began to eat and heard Renesmee mumble that I was odd. I guess I shouldn’t mind if she thought I was odd, I mean it’s better to be yourself than a lie. After breakfast I thanked Esme for the corn flakes and joined Renesmee to walk to the lounge room. Edward told me Alice would be joining us today. I watched her and she bounced about like a ferret. We went in Edward’s Car, although Alice really wanted to take her turbo Porsche. Bella sat at the front passenger side while Edward was driving Renesmee and I were sitting together and Alice on her other side. I looked outside and watched the scenery as Edward drove to town. Alice and Bella were talking about places to go, Alice wanted to go shopping while Bella seemed to be against it. It seemed Bella had the same aversion to shopping as I do Edward and Renesmee were talking about something, I wasn’t paying attention, I had this song stuck in my head. Dreams by Mathew Morrison and Kristin Chenoweth it was a duet originally sung by Fleetwood Mac. I had heard both versions it’s just this version is more soothing, plus the music and vocals are a lot better. The song was stuck in my head on an endless loop. It was like I could hear the song in my head, which was something I didn’t mind the laid back music matched the scenery it was sort of poetic. Edward eventually asked me if I wanted to turn the Radio on to get the song out of my head and I told him I was alright. Music seemed to impact me, but then again I guess all the best songs do that they force you to identify with it, it’s all about expression. We arrived to town and went into a shopping center, Alice, Renesmee and Bella went to the clothing section while I went to the book section. Edward came with me and I checked through the books I didn’t find any that interested me yet. The clothing section was opposite of the book section when I looked up to see it I saw Renesmee stepping out of the dressing room, she was gorgeous she wore a Long sleeve stripped shirt the base of the striped shirt was white while the stripes were navy going across she had the shark tooth necklace still around her neck, she had black formal pants on with a belt keeping it up. Renesmee was truly astounding. I watched as she walked to Bella and watched as Bella hugged Renesmee it seemed Bella thought Renesmee looked good. I couldn’t stop myself from watching Isabella and Renesmee I wondered what it was like to have a mother…Don’t get me wrong, I love my father I really do he is an incredible man and my hero, he has such a kind heart filled with courage, compassion and of course love. It’s just maybe Life would be easier, I could have someone other than dad to confide in, Dad wouldn’t be lonely and well mother’s day wouldn’t suck that’s for sure. Edward had brought me out of my thoughts and asked me if it was difficult to see a relationship between mother and child, it’s kind of a stupid question in my opinion. “It is hard for me; my mother’s death doesn’t bother me because I know she’s at peace. It’s just hard…knowing that there are some things I will never have, never have any real memories or know what she was like from first-hand experience. I deal with it I am happy that Renesmee is lucky enough to have her mother in her life” I told Edward. Edward had spoken out “I am happy too that Renesmee is lucky enough to know her mother” I decided not to say anything to that instead I continued to look through books and I thought about asking Edward that question, why was it his eyes were different from my fathers. I didn’t get a chance to ask Edward that, instead he answered it for me. In a hushed tone “We survive on different diets, when a vampire feeds on humans their eyes are red…when on animals it’s golden... You’re fathers eyes will be like mine in six months’ time, wait and see.” He answered. The whole mind reading thing had started to annoy me, I wondered what Renesmee’s life would be like if she ever brought a boyfriend home to meet the family….Edward would probably flip when hearing Renesmee’s boyfriend’s mind…..I could just see Edward saying “you want to do what to my daughter.” I looked at Edward to see him cringe and I smiled at that thought, I would definitely have to get Alice to invite me over if that ever happens…I’d probably bring popcorn with me too. I decided to break the awkward silence “Edward that sort of reminds me of Vegetarians in humans…Did you know vegetarians finger prints come out a lot clearer than those who eat meat…it’s because people who eat meat tend to eat a lot more grease and fat that makes the finger prints smudge easier…funny how similar humans and vampires are in that way huh.” When I told him that Edward seemed surprise “that’s interesting that you know that, I never even thought of that comparison. You’re….”Before Edward could finish Alice came over to me she grabbed my hand “you’re my new dress up doll come on.” She spoke she looked at Edward with a serious glance and he told me that there was nothing he could do. Alice began to drag me away to the clothing department where Renesmee and Bella were waiting and I distantly heard Edward answering his phone. A few minutes went by and I was already holding a stack of clothing in my hands that went past my head. Diary you may not have picked up on this, but I hate clothing shopping. Alice sent me towards the dressing room and I made it there after walking into the door and stumbled back I could hear Renesmee having a laugh at my expense. I was trying on clothing when I heard Edward’s voice from outside the dressing room “That was Carlisle, I forgot I had some chores to complete, I will have to go sort things out for the rest of the day it will be just you, and the girls are you ok with that.” I scowled at the door as I got dressed thankful Edward didn’t have x-ray vision and told him I was ok with it. Edward had left us to go do his chores. I wondered for a moment what he had to do, while I finished on the last of the clothing. After hell formally known as shopping with Alice, we all went to the Denali’s to hang out together. Thankfully I was able to sneak away from the savage pixie formally known as Alice and went to see what Aunt Kate was up to, she and Garrett were packing some clothing into a duffle bag, she told me they were going on a holiday and left through their window…I am beginning to think that most vampires other than my dad are totally weird. After watching them run off through the forest I watched TV with Renesmee and Tanya, she seemed sad I kept her company for a while and she called me a sweet heart before walking me to the Cullen’s. Bella, Alice and Renesmee stayed at the Denali’s for a little longer, they were talking to Carmen about shopping. Women and shopping I will never understand that much I can tell you now. When we arrived at the Cullen’s Tanya went to speak to Esme, while I went to the living room and pulled you out of my bag just to tell you about my day…I have to go Emmett and Rosalie just entered the living room. ~Tobias
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InfoThe Journal of Tobias Jacobson the son of Sarah & Brian a young man trying to find out which world he belongs to the worlds of humans or vampires. Join Tobias as he searches to find out where he belongs and what journey awaits him. Tobias Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |