Topic: today I saw the battle of Pride between my mother and father…pride it’s always been associated with egotistical tendencies and selfishness….maybe those are common traits with pride, but when you think about it those traits are in everyone vampires and humans alike…we all learn to be selfish from the generation before us, it’s the one inheritance that is passed on unintentionally because it’s in our nature…Pride on other hand is different, I believe pride give’s you determination, because no matter what you value yourself and think highly enough of yourself…not to stand down, but to keep fighting…yeah I am totally over thinking this….let me put this in simple terms Pride gives you the strength to keep fighting when there is no reason to continue.~ Tobias
Date: June 28th 2019 Dear journal It’s been three days since my family became complete and time just seems to fly on by, we are still in the getting to know each other stage of our relationship….dad proposed to mom yesterday…they just told me today and mom said yes of course, after telling me dad told the Cullen’s and Denali’s for Alice it looked like Christmas came early she was concentrating and you could already see she was planning out the wedding. Something I loved about yesterday was just how my mom was with dad ok let me try to explain ill…so mom and I were just hanging out in the cabin and we were just sitting on the couch with the radio on and mom heard this really old song she must of liked because she just stood up grabbed my hand pulling me off the couch and kicked the couch to the wall it barely made it to the wall. Mom held my hand and she danced holding my hand moving my hand while I smiled this was awkward, but I didn’t care I danced with her and listened as mom sang some of the lyrics…I don’t think I told you, but my mother…she is really special whenever she sings you just feel this surge of inspiration hit you it’s like you can do anything. I could see dad enter the room and he watched he had this smile on his face, dad was happy…ok I seen dad happy before, but this was different I don’t know it’s difficult to describe it, but he really was happy. He watched for a few moments before walking up to us and stopping a distance, dad apologized telling me he had to steal my date, when mom looked over her shoulder she saw dad and instantly let go of my hand to hug dad and wrap her arms around his neck she kissed him, I think when a kid sees his parents kissing they get grossed out, for me I find it fascinating I guess it’s because it’s still so new to see my parents kiss. They started to dance with each other with each other and after the song they kissed again it was at that time I was tempted to yell get a room…yeah the novelty of that wore off fast. Today on the other hand was different we are staying in ocean shore for a few hours longer than the Cullen’s and Denali’s, they are going back to Alaska while Seth, Leah, Charlie and everyone minus Jacob is going back to Forks…Jacob lives close to the Cullen’s place which sucks…apparently he was visiting his family and friends in La’ Push when we moved to Alaska and all this stuff went down, so yeah I’m kind of bummed out that Jacob will be living a lot closer to Nessie and you know to be honest I find Jacob to be extremely annoying. Emmett suggested I go back with them and let mom and dad catch up, while mom and I immediately spoke in unison and said no…which was bizarre, I didn’t want to leave mom’s side even if it was only for a few hours… there is still so much I want to know about her and the thought of being away from her at this moment it’s sort of unbearable…I mean I know eventually I am going to have to be away from her, but at the moment it feels that if I am away from her I will wake up and find all this was some magical and tragic dream…I will get over that at some point, but right now I’m sticking with mom…I don’t know why she objected to Emmett’s idea maybe she feels the same…but for her there is no chance of dreaming she’s a vampire a full on vampire so she never sleeps. At that moment I didn’t care I hugged Aunt Carmen before she hopped into the car and left with everyone else and then it was just the three of us…a family... We spent the day inside together just chilling out, but I had to pack my things, I could hear mom and dad speaking to each other passionately, and it looked like it would break out into an argument “Come on baby girl why won’t you let me give it to you” he sounded frustrated, when I snuck towards the door and peeked through the keyhole I could see mom sitting on the couch “because I don’t accept charity Brian…you know I don’t.” dad was quick to chime in “but Sarah it’s not charity it’s a gift from me to you it’s an engagement gift” well I guess you can say the honeymoon stage of this reunion has ended. I could see mom stand up followed by dad, “even if this was a gift Brian it wouldn’t be fair…what could I give you?” she asked, Brian wrapped his arms around mom “well I can think of something that would be nice” he spoke, mom wiggled her hand free and slapped him upside the head which made me snort a laugh…dad looked at the door and I felt a shiver run down my spine “Traitor” he spoke frowning, It was at this point it felt awkward watching my parents, so I returned to packing my things and finished. After ten minutes of cramming everything into my duffle bag I exited to the living room and looked around mom and dad was gone. I wasn’t really frightened, I was curious wondering where they were, I searched the cabin and it was a ghost house to say the least, after going outside I walked to the beach and walked for a bit when I saw mom and dad sitting together, dad had his arm wrapped around mom’s waist and she was resting her head on his shoulder. I walked towards them and dad looked in my direction he asked if I was finished packing I nodded my head I found myself curious and asked them what they were arguing about before. Before dad opened his mouth mom was already speaking “your father wants to buy me a nightclub as an engagement present” I moved close to mom to sit by her side “and what’s the problem with that mom…dad just wants to buy you a present” as I had spoken I looked ad dad and saw him nod his head “that’s right even our son can see your being out of your flipping mind woman” dad sounded a little frustrated and mom was quick to speak “it’s a nice gift Tobias…but the thing is its too nice, and while I do appreciate the offer…it just doesn’t feel right” I didn’t even get why dad would get mom a nightclub, until mom explained that it was something she thought about doing in the past. From what I could tell about my mother, she doesn’t really like hand outs from others…even her own fiancé, she had her pride which kind of reminded me of dad…dad had his pride too…I wondered if I was the only one out of the three of them that could see a compromise in this situation “well why don’t you compromise” the expression on their faces changed to surprise when they looked at me “well Mom doesn’t want any hand outs right dad” I asked him and of course dad nodded his head “and dad just wants to do something nice for you mom.” Mom interrupted me, but I continued to speak over “Well its really quite easy…why won’t you let dad buy the club as a condition to it being a loan…that way mom isn’t taking a hand out…but now for the compromise…well whatever dad paid mom will only have to pay half the debt back…the rest is a gift.” The two just looked at me dumbfounded by my suggestion, and the way they looked at me kind of bizarre. “That’s actually a good idea Brian” mom spoke sounding impressed “ok then it’s a deal…good idea son” hearing dad’s praise made me smile, it’s nice to be complemented on your ideas especially when their good. Mom and dad spoke about the plans of the club, apparently they were going to build the place from scratch, and the club would be one building…mom wants to have the club be at the front of the building and on the side would be a Karaoke bar…because music is important for her. she spoke about the place in great detail, she must have given it a lot of thought at some point…she told us about the place with passion, she wanted the place to have tables, bars and couches and there would be a stage for bands to perform on and for karaoke to be held…the stage would have a dance pole and when mom mentioned that I expected dad to say something lame or creepy, but he was actually listening intently like he was fixated on making mom’s dream come true. Mom then spoke how the club part could have a live DJ and band and a bar that sort of thing. Mom also wanted the place to be in New York City, and when asked about the name she told us that she wanted it to be called Eclipse, it’s a cool name…the only problem is we don’t live near New York anymore we live in Alaska, but dad told me it was ok, that everything would work itself out …it was after this we went vampire fishing…yeah I told you about vampire fishing right? Well yeah it’s basically fishing without the whole fishing rods. It’s an exciting, yet frightening experience…I am conflicted on the entire thing…I like it, but it is also scary…mom was opposed to vampire fishing claiming that it wasn’t safe and dad argued his case...saying he was the biggest predator of all in the sea…well he was a vampire, mom eventually caved in and the three of us went fishing after what felt like swimming for hours we finally came across some sharks watching the entire thing from under water mom was with me the entire time watching me like a hawk, when a second shark came towards us mom held it away from me, but she was struggling for some reason…I in fact now that I think about it something is a little off mom seems so much weaker than other vampires…she should have been able to take it out easily. Well dad said she was frail…I don’t get why, but maybe mom will tell me when she is ready. After dad had taken out the sharks I collected a whole load of shark’s teeth this time, simply because I thought maybe I could make Nessie a bracelet or at least try. When we got back to shore we all had showers….mom and dad was joint and mine was separate for obvious reasons, and after getting changed we loaded up the car and left Ocean Shore... mom and dad in the front…dad was driving with one hand while his other is holding mom’s hand and I am sitting in the back telling you about today and at this very moment wondering what Nessie is doing…well I am going to go, I am kind of sleepy and my laptop computer’s already at 85% power. ~Tobias Jacobson
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InfoThe Journal of Tobias Jacobson the son of Sarah & Brian a young man trying to find out which world he belongs to the worlds of humans or vampires. Join Tobias as he searches to find out where he belongs and what journey awaits him. Tobias Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |