Topic: How can I love someone who would put me through hell
Date: July 6th, 2009 Dear Diary I heard the footsteps coming closer...closer and closer, they were small steps, but the way it sounded was like they were furious, I could hear the guard Felix speak "Welcome back Jane, whats with the..... um...... blue dye?" A cold dark and female voice spoke"Felix Move"she demanded, a few seconds later I heard a crumple to the floor. I climbed off the bed and backed into the corner afraid "Thank you"the voice said, I was shaking and afraid, the voice was so soft, but dark and sinister, there was no soul or emotion, just darkness. The door ripped off the wall and I whimpered in fear, my entire body was trembling and there was not a thing I could do to stop it. I watched to see a teenage girl around the same height as Alec rip the door off the wall and walked into the room, her clothing and hair as well as her face were covered in blue, but her eyes, I will never forget looking into such cold and souless eyes. Alec was right about his sister she was a souless sociopath and I did not want to antagonize such an evil creature, I listened to her scream "How dare you enter my room and plant tricks, that is my space, you were not welcome in there."I told her that I did not know what she was talking about and I had no Idea who she was, but her response is what truely frightened me "You don't know me, ha, my name is Jane and when you remember who you are Sarah, then and only then you will pay for what you have done. You will wish that you will never get your memory back Sarah because I'm going to make you feel pain like you have never felt even in your worst nightmares, it will relive in your mind over and over, you will want to die Sarah and I will be there, ready to rip your ugly little head off." The savage little girl looked like she had more to say, but she was interrupted by Marcus, Aro and a stranger. Aro scolded the girl and told her to leave, she eventually left and the stranger followed her. Marcus and Aro along with Felix came to see if I was alright, I nodded my head I could still not stop myself from shaking from fear. Marcus kissed my forehead and told me it was alright while Felix seemed cross, "I will resume her training, I won't have her be vulnerable to Jane all the time." he said. Aro smiled and in a friendly tone said"no no...I have other plans for Sarah, she won't be requiring your training anymore." I was curious wondering what Felix was teaching me. Marcus continued to stroke my cheek and lifted me up and carried me to his bed, he looked at me"Sarah, Aro and I best believe you spend time with Sulpicia and Athenodora, there is a lot to learn about being a queen then just standing around and looking pretty." I looked at Marcus"if......if you think that's what's best" I stammered still afraid, Marcus nodded his head"yes I do my pet, now Felix is going to take you to meet the wives, you are to do you're best to make sure you learn everything my pet."I nodded my head "I will do my best Marcus"I told him, Marcus chuckled and corrected me making me call him Master. Felix and I left the bedroom and we walked down the hall, I finally asked Felix what it was he taught me and he told me it was self defense, I asked him to explain further and Felix told me that it was basically how to fight that he gave me several lessons which I did well and enjoyed. I listened and wondered what I was like, what sort of person likes fighting I wondered if I was a bad person to enjoy it, I wanted to ask Felix what he thought of me, but found myself too afraid to ask the question so instead I asked Felix if I really called Marcus Master before my memory loss. We continued to walk and Felix looked at me, I could see him hesitating an answer"Yes you called him master" he answered I looked down and Felix spoke "before your memory loss Sarah you were a bold and fearless woman, not only did you take the punches life threw at you, but you even rolled with it, you fought back and held you're own...you're cunning and very interesting. No-one knew what went on in that head of yours, not even Lord Aro by the looks of it. Another thing I lo...like about you is you never avoided angering Jane, you always called her out and challenged her which greatly annoyed her, but you never cared, you always spoke your mind and gave her hell as you just saw it, before Jane looked like an overgrown Smurf that was all you." I listened in awe, I sounded like a strong woman. It was also strange to learn about myself from another person. I was confused about Jane being blue and how I was involved and Felix told me he was there when he saw me rig this device into her desk drawer. I gasped shocked,"I....I did such an awful thing, my goodness she really does have good reason to be mad with me...I should apologise." Felix shook his head "the Sarah I know would never do that...she would say something like, Wow Jane what a lovely shade of blue it totally suits you."I was shocked,"would I really say such a thing?"Felix nodded "oh yes, you would do that in a heartbeat, you usually call her the dwarf."I told him I must have been very mean to do and say such terrible things and he told me I was only mean to Jane and she had it coming. We walked for a while and I said nothing else, Felix took the the hint too and kept quiet. How do I cope with being such an awful person. We eventually stopped to see Chelsea blocking the path, she looked intimidating and I stepped behind Felix frightened. Felix looked back at me and smiled he looked back at Chelsea"Chelsea what are you doing here?"Chelsea told Felix it was her turn to guard me, I said nothing and remained behind Felix"I will watch her, Chelsea." Felix said and Chelsea told him"Lord Aro and Marcus want you to go test out the weapons...do you wish to anger them?"Chelsea asked, Felix looked at me and I could see he was worried, I wondered why he was so concerned for me,"Don't worry Felix, I promise to protect Sarah." Felix left reluctantly and I watched him walk away. "Sarah come with me" she said, her voice was cold and intimidating, I felt nervous around her and followed her in silence. Following Chelsea was difficult, I did not know how to talk to her, plus she was just as scary as Jane. I plucked up my courage and told Chelsea the jewelery she was wearing was beautiful and truly they were. "They're gifts from Jane"she said coldly and I said nothing else. We arrived in front of a large black door with gold door handles in the center. Chelsea opened the doors and stepped to the side "after you" she spoke with no emotion. I entered to see a room with three chairs in it. I saw two women in long black dresses their faces were hidden, their hoods on their long red cloaks covering their faces, the only reason I knew they were women was because of their figures they were thin and the same type as mine, only they were a little taller than myself. Behind the two cloaked women, was a mascular latino with red eyes and black hair, beside him was a male with wavy brown hair and red eyes he was muscular and frightful looking too. After I was within distance of the women in cloaks Chelsea stepped in and closed the doors behind us. She walked to the wall and I heard a snap of the fingers, I looked back and watched as the women lowered their hoods. "Well, well...so this is to be our new sister, what do you think Athenodora" the woman who spoke had powdery pale skin and misty red eyes, her hair was blond."I think that she is nowhere near ready to join our league, Sister, look at her..the filthy clothing of a commoner, she is no better than the guards...no perhaps she is worse, she looks like a filthy human."she spat out and I flinched, I looked at Athenodora with her powdery skin and misty eyes, her hair was an auburn color. I mumbled a sarcastic remark "hello to you too"I tried to sound confident like how Felix described me, but Athenodora came to me and slapped me hard across the face, the impact was so intense it knocked me to the ground."You dare speak when not spoken to, stupid little newborn, shut your mouth and speak only when spoken to" she hissed with anger. I Looked up at Athenodora and made a fist on the ground, I lost control and had no idea what I was doing I went to attack her, I suddenly found myself against the wall snarling and hissing, seeing the Latino with his hands to my neck the other one, the spanish looking one had his arm around my waist "Corin and Santiago, well done." Athenodora spoke. To me it looked like the one known as Athenodora seemed to be the dominate one but it was the other one who walked towards me and said "well Sarah, if you wish to act like a savage, we can treat you like one," while Athenodora nodded and said "Well said, Sulpicia." The two walked away discussing things in private while I was kept against the wall. until the door opened and I saw a blond haired man and the girl Jane, my nose winced as she still smelled a little foul. Jane looked at me and she seemed pleased, what I did not expect to see was Athenodora run to the blond's arms and hug him. "Caius, my love, what an unexpected surprise." The blond known as Caius hugged Athenodora."Yes, I thought you would need some assistance so Jane and I came to watch and judging by how your personal guards have the newborn pinned against the wall I can see I was right" he said. His voice was cold and ruthless and frightening. Jane did not say anything as she continued to watch me and I avoided her gaze looking back at the wives of Aro and Caius. Caius stroked his wife's cheek and she seemed to melt at his touch, I would have thought it was adorable, if Athenodora hadn't slapped me and been so mean to me. Caius leaned in and whispered to her, but it was pointless, my vampire hearing could hear it"why is she against the wall?"his voice sounded curious, Athenodora told him I tried to attack them both, he seemed really mad, I could see it in the twitch of his mouth, it was frightening,"only after you slapped me" I tried to tell my part of the story, but I felt Corin's nails dig into my skin and I flinched. Athenodora broke from Caius' grip, her face was frightful, the reason for it was her anger, she pushed both guards aside and before my feet could touch the ground she grabbed me by the neck and threw me onto the ground, I couldn't even get up her black heels were at my neck pinning me there. I watched her with fear."I told you, only speak when spoken to."She spat at me, I looked at Sulpicia and she had her arms folded, and she looked at me with a smile on her face " I had my doubts at first, Athenodora, but I believe you are right, she does have too much spirit...that needs to be taken care of...its the only way to save her worthless existance"she said as she walked towards me, while Athenodora had her heel still at my neck she circled us. Caius leaned against the wall and I looked at Jane, she seemed lost in her own thoughts, her face was blank and expressionless. Athenodora looked like she was enjoying herself, she applied more pressure to my neck, I didn't need to breath being a vampire, but still it was uncomfortable having something pressed against my neck."Get this straight Sarah, you may have been disobediant in the past and my husband, Aro even allowed you a small amount of freedom and pursuing your hobbies of training with Felix, but those days are over. I will make sure of that, do you hear me Sarah, you wish to be a wife of a King...a Queen, we will make you one." Sulpicia said, Caius chuckled and clapped his hands. "Well said Sulpicia it seems you have things in control...unlike you Athenodora" he said, his voice became more cruel as he addressed his wife. I could see Athenodora become antagonized and I felt more pressure of my neck,"I must leave now, I will tell my brothers things are going well shall I.....Jane use as much of you're influence as you feel you need to.....if she disobeys the wives."Caius said. Jane lowered her head"yes Master," she chimed with a misleading voice that sounded innocent. Caius left and Chelsea closed the doors, Athenodora moved her heel from my neck and walked back, the guards moved behind her quietly. I started to get up and Athenodora turned to face me"Who said you could get up?...Jane!" she hissed, the next moment I fell back to the ground in burning pain, it was agony, I begged for the pain to stop, I begged Jane to stop, it hurt so much, my entire body was aching from the burns. I had never gone through anything so painful...at least I don't think I have. I closed my eyes as I asked Chelsea why she wasn't protecting me and she said"I told Felix I would protect you Sarah, but I never said from whom...fool do you honestly expect me to attack my sister...or the queens, what an idiot." she said darkly. The pain continued and I started to beg Jane to stop and I heard Athenodora shout"you speak...when no one has spoken to you..fool"I finally stopped begging, the pain was intense before Sulpica raised her hand and the burning stopped. "You may get up now Sarah" Sulpicia spoke calmly, I opened my eyes and slowly climbed up."Sarah stand as you normally stand." Sulpicia said as she and her sister circled me, I felt vulnerable, like I was a lamb going to the slaughter and these two were the lionesses. I Looked at Jane and she watched me with satisfaction. "We will need to fix her posture, teach her how to walk...to talk and act in front of others" Athenodora said, I watched them continue to circle me, "we also need to teach her to dress and of course to know her place, the last thing we need is another Didyme incident."she said. I could not help myself from asking "who is Didyme" the next thing I knew I was on the floor in pain again from Jane's ability. Athenodora bent down "Remember Sarah, speak when spoken too, being so upity is unbecoming of a Queen"Athenodora said, Sulpicia motioned her arm and the pain stopped."I think you should learn about Didyme Sarah...You need to know what happens when you don't know your place." I remained on the ground and saw Athenodora smile in a sinister fashion."Didyme was the sister of Aro and Marcus' true love, she was a beautiful vampire, her jet black hair was soft like silk, and her eyes were red like rubies. she was different from Sulpicia and I. Unlike us she ruled with kindness, there was not a mean bone in her body. She treated the guards as equals and believed everyone to be the same." Athenodora said with no emotion. "She had this way about her...when ever she was around, you could not help, but be happy, she brought out the best in not just Marcus, but all of us...we loved our sister she was special...but she was also a fool. She trusted everyone far too easily, she and Marcus wanted to leave the Voltori...they would have made it, but she was assassinated by a spy for the Romanian coven...My beloved Aro found the monster that killed our sister and took the spy out personally...Marcus, however, was heart broken, he became a shell of a man until you came along." Sulpicia said, I was shocked to learn all that...it was horrible, Marcus must have been so heart broken, but his wife Didyme must have been something special. Athenodora told me to get up and I stood up, I felt raw from all of Jane's abilitiy, I glanced at her and she seemed smug and I looked back down."Alright we have made an assessment, now remove your clothing"Athenodora ordered, I was shocked"No!" I said back. Athenodora came at me, she raised her hand to slap me, but I caught her hand by the wrist and glared at her "don't you dare slap me again."I hissed I was holding myself back, I don't think I have ever felt such rage inside me. Athenodora looked furious she glanced at Jane and I felt the agonizing burn took over me, I begged for the pain to end, I was in almost too much pain to hear Jane say "that coward is a mere shadow of herself." There was silence for a long time, apart from my constant screams and begging for the pain to stop, finally the pain ended,"you honestly think we enjoy hurting you" Sulpicia asked I croaked a weak yes and I could see Athenodora make a frightful expression of rage, Sulpicia bended down"come now Sarah that is not true, we only wish to teach you, you must learn Sarah learn that we are harsh, but it's to ensure you're survival...now stand Sarah, stand and remove your clothing so we may meassure you" she hissed then stood upright. I got up slowly and removed my clothing, my shirt and jeanes hit the ground, I stood in a black skin tight attire. "Remove those too Sarah" Athenodora said. I looked at the her and hesitated "still have you not learned you're lesson Sarah." I did as I was told and stood there naked, I felt humilated as they watched me, examining me closely. I could see the two guards watching me, smirking at me and I looked down. The wave of humilation I felt never left with each and passing second, I was grateful when Sulpicia said"that is enough Sarah, get dressed" I picked up my clothing and began to get dressed while Sulpicia continued to speak"you may leave, the next time you come to us, your real lessons will begin and you're proper clothing will be prepared, you will not dress as a commoner any longer." she finished as I was fully dressed. I turned from the two wives and left, with Chelsea following. I did not even face Jane, I was too afraid. Chelsea escorted me back to my room and I sit on the floor now writing to you, I feel so humilated...like trash, I don't know how could I love Marcus, did they treat me this way before my memory loss ? or has the secret that I kept from Aro caused me to lose favor with him, I don't know...I need to escape I....I can't stay here any longer, ~Sarah
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Date: July 5, 2009
Dear diary I felt a sharp pain in my mind, it was incredible and disorientating, I opened my eyes and saw a man with blood red eyes and long red hair, with long gray streaks mixed in. I could see him holding his hands on both sides of my head and suddenly the man was being ripped apart right before my eyes, the movements were fast and swift and I fell back in horror and watched this man with thick shoulders and olive complexion rip off the arms and head of the body and tossed it to a small teenage boy around the age of twelve or thirteen catch the body parts and began to set fire to it all. I watched in shock and horror, frightened more than anything. The giant man came towards me and I crawled back still looking at him in fear, my entire body was shaking. The man looked at me with his blood red eyes."Sarah are you ok?"He spoke to me like he knew me, but I had no idea who he was, I could not even recall anything about myself. He kept coming towards me and I turned from him and crawled to the corner and leaned against the wall. I begged him to stay away, but he came at me grabbed me by my shoulders. "Sarah, answer me, whats wrong with you?" I begged him not to kill me and whimpered from fear. Two more men came towards me now and stayed behind this brute, the first one had almost translucent skin and long jet lack hair, the way he looked at me, it was very unsettling with those milky red eyes of his, the other man looked simular, only his eyes did not frighten me, it showed concern. I looked at him, captivated by him in a way. "What's wrong with her?" the second man asked, concern showing in his voice. The brute shook me harder. "Sarah?" he said and let go. He slapped me across the face and I fell back onto the ground and huddled in the corner, whimpering "please...please don't hurt me"I pleaded, the one with the concerned look in his face spoke "Aro what's wrong with her?" he asked. The one with unsettling eyes told the brute to step aside. The man bent down and placed his hand on my cheek and I flinched in fear, he let go after a few seconds and petted my hair, I whimpered again in fear and he told me it was alright, that they would not hurt me. "Aro what's wrong with her." the man known as Aro looked at the second man "Marcus, all her thoughts are gone, her mind is blank...I saw nothing, but fear and confusion." he sounded annoyed. "Now I'll never be able to know what she was planning. I left it too long" he said sounding annoyed.The one known as Marcus bent down to me, "Sarah my pet, do you know who I am?"I shook my head and he looked surprised, "Sarah...do you know who you are?" he asked me I shook my head again and he looked at me surprised. He looked at the man named Aro. "It's true!" The man who was named Marcus picked me up and I started to kick and struggle, but he wouldn't let me go. He told me to calm down, but I wouldn't listen. I didn't know him....I don't even know who I am, he wouldn't let me go he just held me until I hit him in the face, his grip loosened and I ran towards the door. "FELIX" the blond vampire yelled and the big brute that had so easily ripped the creature in front of me had me in his muscular arms holding me tight. I struggled, but it was no use "Felix, Alec, take her to my room." Marcus ordered them, the brute continued to hold me and he carried me to his room, it was plain, but there was a bed in there with linen and white sheets, the blankets were puffy with fancy patterns and in royal colors. The brute told me he would let me go, if I promised not to run away. I lied and told him I wouldn't run away, when he let go I bolted, I made it towards the door and then everything went white. For the longest of time there was nothing until the whiteness went away, When I looked around the brute and the teenage boy were at the door blocking my escape and the man known as Marcus was at the edge of the bed "I know you are afraid pet, but you must stay calm, I will explain everything if you swear to behave." I nodded and he moved in close he petted my hair, I asked if we knew each other and he chuckled and told me I was his mate. I was confused and he could see it on my face. He told me he would get to it later that I needed to learn how we met. Marcus told me that he found me on the streets of Volterra, he saved me from an evil Vampire named Brian and banished that vampire from the city. Marcus told me that we spent a lot of time together, that and we eventually fell in love and he introduced me to his brothers, Aro and Caius and that these two men at the door were my friends, family and guards sworn to protect me. I was to be his queen and that I pledged myself to be his and his alone for the rest of eternity. This is just all so much to take in, I don't know how to react to it all. I asked Marcus why the one known as Aro seemed so mad at me, he told me that two days ago he touched my arm while some visitors were there and he saw what I was doing, something from the past, and that he only saw fractions of it and that he wanted to know but couldn't find out because I had suddenly lost control and tried to attack the guest, I had to be confined to my room. Again I did not know if it was truth or lies, but this man...Marcus seemed really nice, So I asked him an important question. I wanted to know how I lost my memory, Marcus explained the boy named Alec and Felix were sent out to fetch a vampire that was breaking the law. Marcus told me that while they were about to execute the vampire. he broke free and tried to attack him, but I shielded Marcus instead and took whatever that vampire did to me. He suddenly thanked me for protecting him and I said nothing I apologised for hitting him and he told me it was ok, that I was afraid and it was only understandable. Marcus leaned in to kiss me on the lips, I felt nothing and he pulled back"I am sorry you need time to cope."Marcus placed his hand on my cheek as I looked at him in shock "I am going to have Felix take you to the grand hall, while Chelsea comes back with your meal, will you behave for me? I dont want to have to punish you at least until I offically make you my wife." Marcus leaned in and kissed my neck and then stood up to walk to the door "I need to get a book I left in your room, if you need anything pet, you ask Felix ok. I will be back before you know it and teach you how to feed ok." I nodded my head and watched Marcus leave. Felix walked me to through the hallway, the entire time he was behind me and the boy known as Alec was in front of me. I looked at Alec, he was an adorable teenager "You're an adorable child Alec, I bet all the girls must be going crazy over you" Alec turned his head to me to smile, Felix broke out into laughter "he wishes, his sister has him on a tight leash Sarah." "Sarah, I am far from a child, in fact compared to me you are the child."I asked Alec about his age and was shocked by his answer, "My sister Jane and I are twins, we are 809 years old." I was in shock. Felix leaned in and whispered "keep away from his sister, she is a sociopath." I found myself unconcerned, I asked him why would I be afraid of a child and Alec corrected me again"Sarah, Master Marcus did not get a chance to explain much about what we are to you, I will fill you in when we get to the hall." he said. We continued to walk and finally arrived, Felix walked in front of the massive doors and told me so that I don't get tempted. I sat down and Alec sat in front of me. He told me all about vampires, the myths about us and the facts. He told me the reason to be careful around his sister because of a special ability she had. Jane could make people fall over in agony with a single glance. it sounded like an impressive and frightful ability. Alec told me that he too had a gift that that he could cut off a vampires senses. I complimented him on having such an impressive ability and he looked embarrassed. I petted him on the head and asked felix if he had an ability and he told me no. I smiled and told him it was ok, there is nothing special about being special and we dont need extra abilities to belong. Felix laughed and told me that I was not normal, that I too had a gift, I was surprised how could I have a gift and not know what it was. I asked them if they knew and they told me that my gift was special. They finally explained it to me, and before I could ask how I make it work the doors opened and a beautiful girl returned with a human, the girl looked at me rather intimidatingly and I crawled behind Alec "Is that her? Is that Jane?" I asked and he shooked his head, "No that's Chelsea, your bodyguard, it's mostly her and Felix that watch over you, I just like hanging out because you're an odd one, but now your totally bizzare." he told me. The one known as Chelsea spoke to Alec"I saw Jane in town, she is on the way back with Demetri and a stranger you may want to get her to her room"I concentrated to listening to the conversation and heard something else the beautiful and melodic gushing of blood running through the veins of the human. I could hear the blood it was like hearing the waves crash across the ocean. I stood up and looked at the human female, she was pale and looked to be 18, her eyes were chocolate brown and her hair was brunette although I could see traces of red strands mixed into her hair. I ran towards the human unsure what had come over me and I shoved my guards out of the way and tackled the human and sat ontop of the it. I leaned in and bit off the flesh and spat it out, the blood gushed out and I drank it as fast as it poured out of the body, I could faintly Marcus who had just arrived say "At least we know her hunger hasn't changed." after the human was dead I looked at the corpse in shock, Marcus lifted me up "come on pet, don't fret they're filthy blood sacks. I am going to take you to your room I have a gift for you."Marcus took me to my room and I looked at the surroundings it was beautiful and I felt comfortable here....almost safe. I asked Marcus about my gift and he lowered me onto the ground, ontop of the desk was a blue book "it's a diary, I figure this is a new start in your life so you should record everything, reflect and discover who you are my pet." I asked Marcus why he kept calling me his pet and he told me that was his nickname for me, and I asked him if I had a nickname for him he nodded and told me I called him Master. He told me I should start calling him that again, that maybe it would spark a memory. I thanked him and he told me that things would return to normal soon. I thanked him again and he then reminded me of my nickname for him and I called him Master even though it felt strange. Marcus left and I wrote everything down that has happened. I suddenly heard a scream followed by a boys laughter, that I was guessing was Alec. "what is that awful smell it smells like something crawled in here and died" A boy's laughter was heard and then it stopped, several seconds later I heard screaming, "I AM BLUE WHAT THE HELL" the boys' laughter was echoing louder than ever before. "Amnesia or not, the bitch must Die" I heard foot steps coming towards me."NO Jane, she is not herself, remember Master Aro's instructions." the footsteps are getting louder, I'm afraid...what is coming I don't know. ~Sarah Today was boring
Date: July 2, 2009 Dear Diary It's been a week since my last entry and still no Jane, maybe she was killed in action, I don't know or care, but I hoped she was alright, not for her sake, but for Alec's, she means the world to him and I did not want to see Alec in pain, he is a good kid. I had just spent the day with Lord Marcus and Master Aro. I enjoyed playing chess against Master Aro, I had to admit Master Aro is a master of tactics, but there was always something he overlooked, the value of pawns, I noticed he would always sacrifice them and use his stronger pieces to take out mine. It's a stratagy I admit, but he forgets the pawns can become different pieces when they reach the other side of the board. After a few dozen games I conceded defeat and Master Aro seemed pleased with himself, Lord Marcus and I left to go his room so we could spend the night together in each other's company. We spent time just chatting. we always chat about him, he has thousands and thousands of stories to tell me about his life, usually he plays a small story because of his grief over didyme, but I listen none the less, occasionally Lord Marcus would ask me to talk about my past storys and events that happened to me, I would always tell him there was nothing interesting in my life so I would turn the attention back on Lord Marcus, I am rather excited about toda,y Lord Marcus told us we would be having visitors from another coven the Denali's. Lord Marcus told me it would just be Eleazar & Carmen, that the reason they were in town was for shopping, I asked him if they would be staying here and he told me that they would be staying at the Jacobson residence, I was surprised at that and Lord Marcus explained that in the past Brian allowed vampires to use his home as a villa to visiting vampires and that it's procedure for vampires to visit the voltori when in town to explain their motives, the reason is about exposure, yada yada yada, it's all about history and too much of a pain to even write down. I asked Lord Marcus if we could go to the surface and explore and see what is new, he denied me and told me that he did not wish to visit the surface today. I looked at Lord Marcus and pouted and he smiled, I loved Lord Marcus' smile it's beautiful he pulled me in close to him and we kissed. I enjoy Lord Marcus' kiss, but sometimes I notice things are missing like an ooomf, maybe I am just being paranoid I don't know. Lord marcus and I danced in my room with my laptop on he had just found this song that I totally love, the song is called the "book of love" and it's sung by Peter Gabriel. We danced so close together and so slowly, it was intimate and I rested my head on lord Marcus' chest and we danced together. I closed my eyes listening to the instruments in the song. "We have an eternity of this to look forward to my pet." he told me and I answered "of course Lord Marcus, I live to please you." We were eventually interrupted when master Caius came to my room and told us that Lord Marcus was needed. I frowned and Lord Marcus kissed my forehead and told me he would be back soon, I watched as he left and Chelsea arrived to keep watch over me. I sat in my room pretty bored, I would pace my room waiting for Lord Marcus to return and would often wonder what he was up to, it probably had something to do with those weapons he and his brothers were working on. I decided to watch a dvd called Sugar and Spice. I have already seen it twice, but it's a funny movie. I stopped the movie half way and gasped as something came back to me...I remembered I found myself identifying with the main character, she found out that she was knocked up and she resorted to robbing a bank with her cheerleader friends to support the baby and not even telling the father of her baby she robbed a bank. Ok so I did not rob a bank, but I did something, I sacrificed my life with Brian and Tobias to keep them both safe. I lied to Brian making him think that I didn't love him, but I do love him.... Everything suddenly came back to me, It's not like I forgot it, I didn't, but the thing was I didn't care...until now. I went out of my room to storm off to Marcus and asked what was happening to me, but Chelsea saw me and stopped me. Chelsea told me that Marcus wanted me to stay in my room until he came back, I told Chelsea I had to see Marcus it was important, but she just looked at me and an awkward silence was between us, I found her to be intimidating really... I backed off into my room and she joined me in there and closed the door behind her. I had nothing to say to Chelsea really, I finally asked her when Felix's shift would start. She told me not for a while, she asked me a strange questio,n she asked me if I had feelings for Felix and I broke into a fit of laughter and asked her why and she told me no reason. Chelsea tried to start girl talk with me, but I did not want any part of it, I wanted to know what was going on and why Brian and Tobias were starting to feel less important to me, I stood up and told Chelsea I wanted to go see Marcus, but she grabbed my shoulder and pushed me into the wall "Don't take me lightly Sarah, I was given orders to make sure you stay in the room and in the room you shall stay." Chelsea's eyes were black she was thirsty and pissed. I crouched down and looked at Chelsea she was standing in my way, she looked at me for a moment and smiled like she was daring me to come at her. She opened the door and Alec was there, he walked in slowly as I kept my crouched stance, I did not see Alec as a threat normally he was just a sweet kid, but I knew he was far from helpless, he could take me down in a flash with that gift of his especially in these small spaces. Alec told me in a soft voice to settle down, I did as I was told and settled quietly, I felt totally normal again, I did not know why I worked myself worked up over something so trivial, I am probably just moving on with my life...afterlife. Felix arrived a few moments after along with Heidi "Alec keep Sarah company will you" Chelsea said as she left the room and closed the door behind her. "Sarah's a bit edgy today, she has broken out of my control, but she is fine now. I need to go warn Marcus, will you be ok with her" Chelsea asked. Alec came to me and petted my head as if I were a pet, it was rather annoying I looked at him "I will be fine with her I will take her top side with me get her some fresh air." he said. Chelsea was quick to respond "have you forgotten what Master Aro's orders are, she is to remain in her room until we learn why the Denali's are here." I stood up and leaned against the wall, "well master Aro seems to be overly protective of Sarah, why?" Felix asked. It was Heidi this time who answered. "She is Aro's new toy, not only that but look what she has done to Marcus, I havent seen him this alive since Didyme, do we really want to see him return to his lifeless self if something happenened to the newbi?" No-one said anything and a moment later Felix entered my room alone. So now it was just Alec, Felix and myself, Felix asked me what I felt like doing and I told him I wanted to go outside, Felix asked if I was going to be difficult today and I told him the honest truth, I would be, I told them both I was seriously bored, I told them I was going out and there was nothing they could do to stop me. I walked to the door only to feel a pair of big muscular and powerful arms hold me in a bear hug, I looked back to see it was Felix. I asked him to let me go and he asked If I would stay and I told him no. Felix had this satisfied smile on his face and then said "it seems I will have no choice, but to hold you down." He was pleased with himself and I continued to struggle, Alec eventually offered to take me down for Felix, but he said he did not mind this, Felix's strength was incredible, I could not even flinch, he pulled me down onto the ground and as he sat I found myself sitting on his lap. A low hiss escaped my lips as I continued to fight to get free, I was frustrated and annoyed and ignored Felix remark "Settle down" I refused I wanted out of this tiny room. Alec moved to me and petted my head "come on Sarah, calm down." I glared at Alec for a moment and heard him speak, "yeah that only works for Jane, you can't make me feel pain." he sounded amused. I exhaled air, even though it was totally unnessessary seeing as I did not need to breath. I decided to stop resisting and the moment I did stop I felt totally calm, "I am calm now, I promise not to make trouble." I told them. Felix did not let go "Newborn tricks won't work on me Sarah." I found it strange, this was not a trick, but Felix did not let go of me, an hour went by and I asked Felix if I was still trying to trick him and he gave a solid "yes" response. I looked at Alec and he was just watching the two of us. I asked Alec if he had any plans in mind and he told me he was to leave on a mission tonight and that he was trying to decide who to take with him. I asked him if I could join him on the mission not knowing what the actual mission was. Alec said he would like that, but he couldn't take me this time seeing as I was a newborn it meant I was unpredictable, anything could set me off. I pouted and looked down. Felix finally let go of me and I climbed off his lap and moved to the wall and leaned on it, "so who else is going on this mission of yours." Alec told me so far it would be Felix, himself and one more person as soon as he decided whom it would be, they would leave. I frowned the thought of being stuck with Chelsea constantly and then Jane when she returned was seriously depressing. Alec, Felix and I spent the next hour and a half playing cards both of them were obviously cheats as they kicked my ass seven ways til Sunday. Felix suggested strip poker and I raised an eyebrow at Felix. His behaviour is a little shifty at best. I remember thinking to myself at the time, I shrugged it off and told him that Lord Marcus would probably not like that. Lord Marcus finally returned and I ran to hug him, I felt his arms wrap around me nice and tight it was so firm and felt soo good, "Settle my pet, Chelsea said you wanted to speak to me." His voice was so lively and I rubbed my head against his chest "it's nothing important Lord Marcus, I missed you that's all." Lord Marcus petted me again before telling Felix and Alec to wait outside. Once the two left Lord Marcus kissed me passionatly on the lips, I kissed him back after a few minutes he pulled back and told me to get dressed that I would be meeting Eleazar and his mate, before Marcus left to go back to the throne room I asked him if I could go on the mission with Alec and Felix. Lord Marcus denied me and told me it was too dangerous that they were hunting a vampire that had broken the law of secrecy, I pleeded with him, but lord Marcus would not budge. He eventually left and I decided to tell you about my day and night, well I need to go get ready now cya. Sarah I lost control and went nuts
Date: June 25th, 2009 Dear Diary Today started out pretty uneventful my beloved lord Marcus was busy with Aro & Caius, which made me sad, but Marcus told me they were working on something important a weapon. I was the least bit curious at the time I was just grateful to be with lord Marcus. I missed Lord Marcus such a brave and noble man, I am lucky to have him. Felix and I have been spending a lot of time together, we have moved on from technique training to sparring, which is difficult, Felix is so much more stronger and faster than me and he has more battle experience than I do but I have been training with Alec in secret, working on my own technique ideas, we have become good friends, he is an alright kid, not like his sociopathic sister. Felix and I begun our sparring in the great hall this morning. He moved at me to throw a punch and I stepped to the side of Felix at the last moment. I used the body slam technique he showed me pushing him towards the ground, Felix rolled forward on the ground and got up. He moved towards me and threw a punch and I countered the punch with the sole of my foot, we came to a stand still, each looking at each other "you are holding back correct." I asked and Felix nodded his head before answering "you are not at the right level for me to stop holding back, but that is enough for today." Felix placed his shirt back on and I put on my dress, we went and found Alec in his room. I could faintly smell the fart bomb I let off in Janes room the other day, ah yes, Jane the dear little sociopath has yet to return from her mission with Demetri,and when she does she is in for a not so pleasant surprise when the she opens her desk draw bamn she is gonna end up looking like a smurf. I smiled with a devilish grin knowing that Jane would be pissed, Felix and I knocked on Alec's room. The door opened and Alec looked at us curiously "he had his hand on his nose and I looked at him grinning "is something wrong Alec" I asked innocently, Alec glared at me for a moment "it smells like something crawled into Jane's room and died what the heck happened in there. My smile faded and as I feinted innocence, "I don't smell anything." I lied, the fact was the stench was horrible, I asked Alec if he would like to join Felix and I in my motorcycle lessons. Alec accepted and we went to the garage, it was huge, it was like the size of a parking lot. I climbed onto the beautiful cycle and rubbed it slowly, Felix watched me and licked his lips, "what is it? Felix." I asked him, he shook his head "uh nothing I was distracted." he said, his voice was a little off pitch, like he was nervous. "What happened to never lowering your guard." Felix smiled "Yes you have me there." Alec folded his arms and I turned back to the area in front of me and listened carefully as Felix gave me instructions. I listened to the instructions and obeyed them carefully and I did it. I drove around for a little, it was a blast, I mean it's slow as hell compared to my vampire speed, but still it was fun. I looked at Alec and Felix, they smiled, I pulled up in front of Alec "climb on" I told him, Alec smiled, "I don't think I will, but thank you for the offer." I picked up Alec and put him on behind me "hold on." I told him. Alec grumbled to himself as he placed his hands around my waist as I drove around on the cycle in the garage I eventually decided it was time to stop and climbed off after Alec. I found myself really bored and looked at the two guys, I asked them if they wanted to watch a movie and Felix responded by saying "only if it's not Anne of Green Gables." I laughed at him and told him we would watch something else. The three of us ended up having a movie marathon, we watched Sugar and Spice which neither of them enjoyed. We did not get to finish the movie, we were interrupted by my beloved Lord Marcus, he came and asked what we were doing. I told him we were watching a movie, my beloved Marcus offered to come back later, but Felix and Alec said they did not mind and left in a flash. I turned off the movie as lord Marcus entered the room and closed the door behind him. He sat beside me on the new bean bag I bought the other day I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, I could smell the scent of his breath it was so enticing I climbed on top of my beloved lord and leaned in to him, his hands rubbed my back "how was your meeting with your brothers lord Marcus." I asked my love as I leaned in and kissed his neck. Marcus moaned softly and told me it was interesting, apparently my brilliant Lord Marcus and his brothers are working making a type of steel that can cut through vampire flesh, to be used as a secret weapon if we come across rule breakers or children of the moon. I stayed on top of lord Marcus sitting on his lap and facing him, he pushed the hair out of my face and smiled at me "enough of work my love, what would you like to do today?" he asked me, I thought about it for a few minutes "stay here just you and me, for a while and maybe afterwards we could have a spa bath together" I answered him. He chuckled "as you wish my pet" he said and kissed me again, feeling his touch made my skin tingle. I sang for my beloved Lord and he complimented my singing, he asked me to keep singing for him and I did as he asked, I sang for him, not stopping and watching his crimson eyes of his light up to my voice. Marcus complmented me "I love the way you inspire me, your voice is so angelic." I smiled at his compliment, it made me really shy, I couldn't sing anymore, I hid my face in his chest and he chuckled and petted my hair "you're adorable when shy my pet." I smiled sheepishly, Lord Marcus began to pull off my top and he kissed me, in between my breasts. I was shocked and he leaned up to try and undo my bra, I felt uncomfortable and asked him what he was doing, he told me he wanted to make love to me. I did not know what was wrong, but It did not feel right to me. I love my lord Marcus and would do anything for him, but I felt strange, I knew I did not want Lord Marcus to make love to me, I suggested to him we wait until after we got married, he said "why bother with that, this is not my first time and surely this is not your first time." I know it wasn't my first time, but it still did not feel right, Lord Marcus was insistant, but thankfully master Aro arrived and interrupted us. Master Aro asked if we would like to join him, Felix, Chelsea, Alec and Heidi to go to the surface. I accepted the gracious invitation of master Aro and was relieved he came when he did. I put my top back on and my cloak, Lord Marcus seemed disappointed and I looked at him, he seemed to want to be with me so much...maybe I should just cave in and let him have me...I don't know, it just doesn't feel right to be with him...maybe it's because we are not married, I don't know it just feels wrong to be with him, but I am his mate, its my duty to please him am I just being selfish? I did not know what to do or think, we all went out to the surface the group of us, I asked master Aro why his mate did not join us, he told me she was already out and about with the others. We explored the town and I could see there was a lot of humans, listening to their hearts pound and the blood travel through their veins became too much for me to deal with. I was too distracted by the scent of the humans when I heard Heidi speak "this is too overwhelming for her, she is about to lose control." Lord Marcus held me down, "Alec" he spoke out and then everything went white. In what felt like an instant, I found myself in lord Marcus room resting on his bed with Lord Marcus beside me. I asked him what happened, Lord Marcus told me I was very close to losing control of myself so he had Alec use his gifts on me to cut off all my senses. Alec's gift is very powerful, he is a lot stronger than his sister Jane, while Jane inflicts pain she can only inflict it on one person at a time. Alec has the ability to affect groups of people, the drawback is his gift works slower than Jane, but to the unsuspecting person like me, it's instant. I asked Lord Marcus where Master Aro and everyone else was, Lord Marcus told me he went to be with his mate. Alec and Felix were in the great hall Lord Marcus moved closer to me and held me in his arms and I smiled and leaned in to kiss his neck. "are you thirsty my pet." I was actually fine until he mentioned it, my thirst became unbearable "I am a little thirsty" I admited sheepishly. Lord Marcus offered to have Felix go get me a snack, I asked him to send Heidi seeing as I wanted to do more sparring with Felix to distract me. Lord Marcus agreed and we both walked out of his room together and made it into the great hall where I saw Felix and Alec wrestling. I asked Alec if I could have a go at Felix and he nodded, I watched lord Marcus leave and saw Chelsea step out from the same direction Marcus and I just came from, I guess she was still guarding me as per Lord Marcus' request. I removed my dress and cloak leaving on only my training clothing on. I looked at Felix "Don't hold back Felix." I told him, Felix told me I could not handle it and I told him "I am never going to learn if you keep holding back" I sounded annoyed, my thirst was trying my patience. Felix smiled for a moment like something amazed him and then he charged at me and Alec, the guy did not even wait for Alec to step out of the way, I pushed Alec out of the way to safety and did not have enough time to even think about blocking. I was punched in the gut with such force it knocked me sliding back kicking up the dust around me. I had to admit the punch hurt, Felix moved at me again, he threw a punch with his left hand and I Mirrored him throwing punch with my left hand to counter his, I watched as Felix threw a punch with his right hand and I caught it ,stopping his blow, "A little ruthless don't you think attacking when Alec hasn't even left for the sidelines." I spoke to Felix while holding him at bay, I did not see Alec watching us, I could not afford to get distracted "That's the difference between us Sarah, you need to be ruthless in combat. All that matters is killing your opponent, the truth is you see Alec as a helpless child, when he is not, you're weak because of the sentimentality to humanity that you hold." I looked at Felix, he just pushed my button big time. I pulled back my left fist to aiming it at his face, Felix caught my fist and now we were at deadlock each holding one anothers fist. Felix had a smirk on his face "now look at you Sarah, you allowed your emotions to get the best of you, vampires don't show emotions...its a weakness." I looked at Felix, "enough talk" I spoke and lifted my left knee to try and knee him in the groins and Felix countered by copying my movements. Felix let go of my hand and moved his fist to punch me in the face and I reacted by catching his wrist with both my hands I was shocked. Felix grabbed my wrist with his free hand and squeezed it, the grip was painful and I let go of him and he started to spin me around, my feet left the ground before he let go and I crashed into the wall and hit the ground in a painful thud, I closed my eyes in pain, Felix was just too much for me. "Give up sarah, you can't do it," My eyes opened as I had a flash back to my human life, My human memories were dark and dim, I could barely remember what my mother looked like, she looked like a shadow in my memories now, the voice in my memories were usually foggy too, but this time it was clear "You can't do it Sarah, your useless, You can't do anything." my Mother never did encourage me as a child, she always put me down...I would not go back to that, I made a fist and slammed it on the ground "I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO ANYTHING AND I AM NOT USELESS" I yelled half crazed. I pushed myself up and out of pure fury I ran towards Felix and tackled him. Felix hit the ground, I had him pinned as I was sitting on his chest my feet were on both his left and right arm. I was punching him in the face over and over "I AM NOT USELESS, STOP TELLING ME I CAN'T DO anything." I lifted his upper body up a little to headbutt him. Alec came at me trying to pull me off Felix and with one hand I pushed him away. Aro came through the front door with Marcus, Heidi and a human, Alec was explaining everything "Sarah's snapped. She wont stop beating Felix up." he said. I continued to punch Felix in a frenzy of rage, I could hear Master Aro speaking "what are you waiting for, stop her" Felix struggled "I can't she is too strong, with the damn newborn strength." he said. I continued to punch him and yelled "SHUT UP" I screamed in anger, as I punched him in the face again. Master Aro told me to stop, but I ignored him, I was just too lost in my anger and I felt so savage. Felix kicked me in the back with enough force to knock me off him. I slided on the ground on all fours rotating myself as I slid to face Felix. I watched him get up, he had venom coming out of his nose, I was shocked I expected to see him angry, but he wasn't he seemed happy like he was enjoying the ass kicking. "You seem to be pretty good when you are pissed off, interesting normally emotions cloud judgement in combat, but for you it makes you more brutal." I let out a hiss and Felix moved in a flash he was inches from me and threw a punch, I caught it by catching his wrist and he looked at me. "Now what, do you expect to throw me, like I did to you. That's my move, I know how to counter it. I will stop you before my feet even leave the ground, your just a beginner Sarah, while I am a master." he said sounding smug. "Fine, I will have to use my own technique from here on out." I said. I watched Felix's face change into a shocked expression and at that moment I jumped on top of his arm, my legs stretched over his arm and up to his neck in a X motion.both my arms were now wrapped around his wrist, so I was basicly hugging his entire arm with my body while my legs traveled up his arm and my leg calfs wrapped around his neck in a X motion. Being a vampire I had great strength, unimaginable strength, if I squeezed my calves together tight enough in this hold I could easily remove Felix's head. Felix asked me what sort of technique this was and I told him, I called it the Scissor Lock, one wrong move he would be headless, "Ah impressive" I heard master Aro say. My eyes wandered to see Aro touching Alec's shoulder, Aro had no doubt seen all the hours of practice I have done with Alec when Felix was busy. I could see Lord Marcus was worried, my grip around Felix weakened from my distraction and suddenly Felix began to spin around "You hesitated Sarah this sparing session is over." Felix used his free hand to grab my leg and pull me off him, He threw me across the hall and once again I smashed into the wall. I hit the ground and slowly got up, I was about to charge Felix again when my lower body felt heavy I looked down to see Alec was trying to restrain me. I tried to remove him, but then felt a set of arms around me restraining my upper body, I saw it was Felix. Felix's bare chest was against me and my breast now and I continued to struggle my pitch black eyes glaring into felix eyes, I saw something behind those eyes he wanted something I just can't figure out what. I stopped struggling when I heard a female scream a split second passed when I smelt the delcious scent of blood being spilled. I looked towards Aro, Marcus and Heidi and saw a female teenager maybe a year older than me had her wrist slit. I could see blood on Marcus nails and Alec and Felix let go as I ran to the human and bit deep into her flesh. I ignored the screams of the human as I continued to drain her blood, the bloodloss was too slow for me so I bit deep into her wrist and ripped out a chunk of flesh with my teeth and spat out the disgusting flesh and resumed on the feed. The human's breath became shallow as she panted in pain her heart was racing first then it slowed down the more blood she lost. My venom had already traveled into her system she was already paralysed with burning pain, I could faintly hear Felix say "that is an amazing technique, she came up with and one only she can use." Aro had asked Felix why that was, Felix answered "it's because of her size, if I tried using that technique my opponent would fall because I am big and muscular I would be too heavy for the opponent to carry. Sarah is lighter than me, she is small and agile her speed is incredible, Sarah's technique is incredible, she is using her upper body to restrain the arm while using her lower body to hold the neck in a grip that can decapicate her victims, the lower body is also stronger than the upper body because we use our legs more when we were human we carry that lower body strength when turned and it's enhanced even more than our upper body." Aro made an awed sound "she really is a jewel how fortunate we found her." I continued to feed off the human and ignored Lord Marcus agreeing. I was too lost in the human girl enjoying the last beats her heart would ever make, the human girl dropped dead and I pulled back, "Much better" I said as the burning in my throat was gone...for now. Felix and Alec stood in front of Marcus & Aro protectively, I looked at them confused "Lord Marcus?." I said softly, Marcus smiled "Shes fine now" he said and was at my side in a flash, Lord Marcus began to lick the blood from my face and I flinched and he looked at me concerned, I don't know it just felt weird, Lord Marcus told Heidi to fetch Chelsea and then dispose of the body and she was gone in a flash. Marcus resumed licking me until I was clean. I eventually saw Felix, he looked hurt and I realized I did that to him. I pulled back from Lord Marcus, and rushed to Felix end wiped the drying venom from his nose his face was cracked and it was slowly healing "I am so sorry are you ok?" I asked him. Felix looked at me as I tried to tend to his wounds, we were so close together I was practicly breathing on him. "I....I am fine." he spoke nervously, I asked felix how I could make it up to he told me it was fine that he held no grudges, in fact he told me he was impressed with me and said I was a quick learner. If I I was still human I would have been blushing. Felix also told me not to get too cocky, Marcus and I sat down and watched Alec and Felix wrestle around. Chelsea joined us shortly after she seemed grumpy, I guess it's because she hasn't had much time with her mate since she was guarding me all the time. I was watching Alec's coat not that anyone would steal it, I mean we are a family, I hearding a ringing sound from Alec's coat and seached through it picking up his phone. I looked at the black cell phone he left near his coat to see Jane on the phone's caller Id, I smiled with glee and answered the phone "Hello Jane how are you?" I asked in a sarcastic tone, Jane snarled at me "Where is my brother?" "Have you not been drinking Jane, you sound grouchy" I asked her, I could hear her growl and I surpressed a chuckle. . The chuckle had broke out and Alec came to take the phone from me, I petted his head and stood up going towards my room, Lord Marcus followed me of course and Chelsea was not to far behind us. I allowed Lord Marcus to sit on the bean bag and I climbed on top of him, "Sarah my pet, why do you have this bean...bag and not a bed," I leaned in to kiss my Lord on the lips for a moment "Why do I need a bed, I do not sleep." Lord Marcus chuckled "you are very amusing my pet, more can be done on a bed then sleep and I think you know very well of that." Lord Marcus pulled me in close to him until my head was resting on his chest. I could feel his chin resting on my head, Lord Marcus seemed happy, which is good it means I am happy. I snuggled my head against Lord Marcus chest and head him sigh from joy, Lord Marcus asked me to sing for him, he gains such pleasure from my singing, I wondered what it was like for him what went on in that head of his. Lord Marcus was eventually called away from me by master Aro & Caius, they spend a lot of their time on this weapon of theirs. I am sitting here now with Chelsea outside my door, I might go spend some time with her. ~Sarah An enjoyable time
Date: June 21st, 2009 Dear Diary When I opened the door I saw Marcus, he was dressed in expensive looking clothing. "My dear Sarah you look divine," Marcus said with his arms open he moved in and hugged me tightly his arms around my waist. "Thank you Lord Marcus." I said with no emotions, it surprised me, I called Marcus, Lord, I had never called Marcus that before, I wondered why I called him that it was so unlike me. Marcus moved his hands to my bottom and licked my neck "I can't get used to how appealing you are to me child, I wouldn't mind taking you here and now." he said with joy. "All in good time Lord Marcus." I said again, and felt his warm touch carress my body "why wait when I can have you now child." he said again, Marcus stepped back and moved his hand from my hips down my thighs and back up to my hips, I felt nothing no contempt for Marcus or anything else. The strangest thing was, I wanted to do anything to please him, I moved close to him and kissed him on the lips and continue to allow his hands to wander. I heard footsteps off in the distance and looked to see Alec, Chelsea & Felix at my door they were dressed in casual clothing along with the red cloaks. I looked at Chelsea she looked pleased with herself for some reason, Marcus let go and walked behind me he grabbed my cloak and tied it around me, I looked at Alec "where is the evil twin" I asked my voice sounding emotionless. Alec informed me that master Aro sent her on a mission to take care of a wild newborn. I did not bother feining disappointment. We left together and I felt totally calm, no real emotions were pulsing through me all I was numb. We traveled through to the surface and went to the shops Felix, Chelsea, and Alec stayed close to Marcus and I, never leaving our sides. We went to the shops and I bought a lot of dresses and a few dvds that I had previously liked from one store, from the other store it was more suited for the prankster. I bought a device I knew how to set up for a little explosive mechanism, it wasn't a bomb just something to launch as a projectile at someone. I also bought a packet of balloons and traveled to the paint shop. Marcus was curious asking me what I was up to "I am just preparing for a little welcome home gift for Jane of course Lord Marcus." I answered calmly. I bought a few other supplies, that I would need. I wanted to pay Jane back for her cruelty that she displayed to me on my first day here and for what she did to that girl. After buying all the suplies I needed for my "gift" to Jane we continued to go to a few more tores and I saw a beautiful motorcycle. I glanced at it, the thing was beautiful and I knew I wanted it. Marcus could see that too and told Felix & Chelsea to go purchuse it for me. I thanked Marcus and he told me it was no problem for his mate. I told Marcus I did not know how to ride it and he told me he would have Felix teach me how. We finished shopping and we toured the city it was night time. I had known the land well, I mean i had spent enough time here back when I was human, Felix, Alec and chelsea stayed close the entire time. We walked to the park and made it to an undercover area, I sat on the table and Marcus sat beside me and leaned in close, he turned for a moment "Alec return home and see the shopping has arrived will you." Marcus said. Alec nodded "as you wish Master Marcus." I heard him say. Alec left and Marcus wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in close. "My dear child will you you sing for me." I looked at Marcus "for you Lord Marcus anything, do you have any requests." I asked him, Marcus told me to sing to my hearts content. So I did as I was told and sang First when there's nothing but a slow glowing dream that your fear seems to hide Deep inside your mind all alone I have cried Silent tears full of pride In a world made of steel. Made of stone When I hear that music close my eyes,feel the rythem Marcus closed his eyes and listened to me sing he seemed to enjoy it, I honestly felt it was my sole purpose to please Marcus. I made a mental note to practice my gift more often so Jane would be denied her pleasure of using her gift on me, I finished my song and Marcus looked pleased "are you pleased Lord Marcus" I asked him eagerly. Marcus pulled me onto his lap, I sat on his lap facing him and listened to his response " oh yes very much, your singing is as beautiful as always my pet." I thanked Marcus, I looked at Felix, his face was blank and expressionless, while Chelsea still seemed pleased with herself. I Looked down at Marcus kissed him on the lips with passion, Marcus' grip on me only increased and I did not resist him. I closed my eyes and felt myself getting lost in Marcus, after a few moments I opened my eyes and saw the stars behind Felix and Chelsea. I felt a sharp stabbing feeling deep inside me and pulled away from Marcus, I felt like I was forgetting something, I closed my eyes and images popped into my head. I saw myself with Brian in the car he bought me...we made love under the stars. I tried to push the images out of my head, but they would not leave. "Sarah what is it my pet, are you ok?" Marcus asked. I opened my eyes and looked at Marcus and then to Felix and Chelsea. She no longer had that grin on her face, she in fact looked a little surprised. "I am fine Lord Marcus, I am just tired of this place that is all." I said my voice a little shaken. Marcus had his arms around me tightly and stood up carrying me, "would you like to return home now." he asked, I looked at Marcus "only if it pleases you Lord Marcus." I responded "very much so, I imagine you must have had too much excitment for one day my pet." I said nothing and allowed Marcus to carry me all the way back home. When we arrived to the great hall I saw all my shopping including the beautiful black motorcycle, Marcus placed me down and I looked at the beautiful bike. "Chelsea please take the bike to the vehicle storage area and put it next to my car." Marcus said. Chelsa did as she was told and left. I took the plastic bag that I needed and asked Alec to put the rest in the room for me. He nodded and I asked Marcus if I could be excused for awhile and he nodded saying he had things to attend to. Marcus kissed me briefly and I kissed him back feeling normal again and left. It was just Felix and me and I smiled at him, he smiled back at me "are you sure your feeling well" he asked and I nodded "fine thank you Felix, do come with me will you." Felix nodded and we went towards Jane's room. I opened the door and Felix stopped at the doorway after I entered. I lowered the bags and pulled out the bag of balloons a funnel, a small bucket of blue paint and the propelling device I bought. "What are you doing Sarah, Jane will not be pleased that your are in her room without her permission." He said nervously, "Fuck the evil little dwarf, she has to pay for being a sociopath" I told him. I opened up the desk drawer and saw a letter from Jane, it basically told me the book in her desk was not her real diary. I shrugged and crunched the letter into a ball and threw it over my shoulder. I opened the drawer and put the mechanism in on top ot the book. Once that was done I opened the paint and placed a funnel end on the paint bucket the blue paint was a nice color. I opened the packet of balloons and took out a nice one. I sucked on the clean end of the funnel and saw the paint begin to poor into the funnel. I placed it at the balloon and watched with glee as the balloon filled up. The balloon filled with paint and eventually it was full after trying the balloon off I placed it in the draw setting up the mechanism, so next time Jane opened her desk drawer BAM!!!! the Balloon is launched into her face and she gets covered in paint. I packed almost everything up and took it to the doorway handing it to Felix, "please take this to my room." Felix held the bags "Sarah please, you don't know what your doing, Jane can be frightful." I scoffed at Felix and said "please as if I am going to be afraid of someone who can pass as one of the umpa lumpa." Felix looked at me confused, "Remind me to get you Charlie and the Chocolate Factory I told him. Felix left and I grabbed the plastic bag I had left behind, I opened it to see a packet of fart bombs. my mischivious grin grew wider, I pulled down one of Janes dolls and unscrewed the head I pulled out a fart bomb and popped it throwing it inside the dolls body I screwed it back on fast, I had 10 to 15 seconds before it detonated. I hung the doll back up and grabbed the plastic bag with the fart bombs and ran out of the room just as a pop sound was made. I closed Jane's room door and smiled, the stench was going to fester in that room, we vampires already had a sharp sense of smell so with the stench all built up and no way of escaping let's just say Jane was in for a rough ride when she returned. I walked back through the great hallway on my way back to my room and stopped, I heard Marcus talking "your doing a superb job Chelsea, She is almost mine." I heard Marcus speak, "Yes Master Marcus, but be careful her ties to Brian are still strong for a moment she broke free...not to worry it won't happen again." I did not understand what they were talking about and why they brought up Brian. I showed myself to them, and Marcus looked surprised, he moved to me and leaned in to kiss me "Sarah my pet, I thought you were resting, and why do you smell strange...the stench is a little faint, but still." I looked at Marcus and apologised and told him I had felt restless. Marcus took me to my room and grabbed me a dress I had bought and we walked to this other room I was surprised to see a spa bath in here, Felix entered the room, had the bath filled he moved to the door, standing in front of it protectively. Marcus undressed me completely, until I stood before him naked. He seemed very pleased with what he saw. I felt nothing at all "are you pleased Lord Marcus." I asked and he told me he was very pleased, I looked at Felix ,he was watching me intently. Marcus told me to get in and I did as I was told, stepping into the spa bath. Marcus removed all over his clothing, I examined his body for a moment and looked away ashamed when it came to his crowning glory. Marcus saw me and chuckled, joining me in the spa bath. We sat there for a few hours, Marcus bathed me rubbing the soap all over my body, he seemed pleased when he did this. I was obedient for Lord Marcus ,it is my sole purpose to please him and if he gained pleasure from cleaning me then so be it. We eventually finished and I stepped out of the spa bath, Marcus grabbed the towel and dried off my entire body slowly he asked me to dry him off and I grabbed the towel and did as I was instructed to. Felix watched me the entire time his eyes almost looked hungry for something other than blood, I wondered what. Marcus dressed me in my outfit Felix got me and in the dress he had picked out for me, i found it unecessary, I knew how to dress myself, I assume he gets some sort of pleasure from this. Once he was done he got dressed and told Felix to escort me to my room, I kissed Marcus on the lips before he could get dressed and he kissed me back. Felix and I eventually left for my room and once we arrived I had him stay and keep me company. We are currently watching Anne of Green Gables. It is a very good movie, one of my favourites, I have to say something before I leave.... I feel strange, like I am forgetting something...I will let you know if I figure it out, I am going to go now Anne just busted her slate over Gilberts head. ~Sarah Song Sarah Sings I loathe the little dwarf
Date: June 20 th, 2009 Dear Diary been too busy with training to write entries, but I need to say this, Jane is one sick twisted bitch and I am going to take her down hard and slow. I am going to make her suffer agony. After admiring my new room, Marcus came and escorted me to the main hall where we waited for Demetri & Jane to return with dinner. Hiding in the shadows, the doors opened and a group of humans came, each in different shapes and sizes and different age groups of course. I could feel my throat burning the thirst was incredible, each moment I waited the burning only became more and more unberable. I watched the humans, eying the fat one, he looked very plump and delicious. "I call dibs on the fat one." Felix said, "Like hell you do, the fat one is mine." I answered. Felix looked at me as I looked at him "fine then this means its a contest." Felix said excitedly, I shrugged, "no real contest you are going to lose either way" I answered casually. Marcus chuckled as his arms were wrapped around me and he held me from behind. The doors locked and we slowly showed ourselves to the humans, Jane made the first move as she jumped down and tackled a human and I felt torrents of wind blow past me as the vampires moved with their inhuman speed. I watched Felix run towards my human and found myself moving as my hunting instincts kicked in, I could see Felix closing in towards the human, I ran behind him and then changed my course to get to the side of him, I thought about the Side Step lesson he gave me and moved my right leg and pivoted to get in front of Felix he was surprised and I smiled feeling rather cocky. My hands touched Felix firm muscular chest as I pushed him back with force, He slided acrossed the ground impressed and I turned my back on him to feed on the human the victory was mine. I sunk my fingers into the skin of the human my nails cuting into the flesh only allowed the human's scent of blood to fill the air and intoxicate me with the warm enticing scent it was incredible. I let go of the human and sat on his stomach and leaned out as i took a bite out of his cheek and spat out the cheek. The human screamed in agony as blood shot out all over my face, I leaned down and started to suck the blood from the cheek ignoring the screams of terror. I don't think I enjoy hearing people suffer, I am not a sociopath like Jane. I feel remorse sometimes, but I move on because there is no point in looking back. I continued to feed off the human, I imagine he would be suffering from my venom rather than the bite to the cheek. We vampires are poisionous creatures you know, we are like scorpions or snakes once infected with our venom your pretty much screwed. The humans heart beat slowled down, going very, very slow until it stopped. I had drained off of this humans blood and moved on to the next prey. The meal was eventually over Aro and Caius left with their wives while Marcus went to get changed. Felix came to me and complimented me on the use of the Sidestep move he taught me and he even admitted that he would never of thought to use side step to invade the opponents personal space and launch an attack. I smiled sheepishly at Felix and told him he was a great teacher. I asked if I could help clean up and Jane said "Make yourself useful" after tossing me a human. I slammed the human corpse to the ground, Jane looked at me with hatred in her eyes and I glared at her I was about to take the female hobbit down when I heard Felix yell "GIRLS!" Demetri returned and asked what he missed, he was hopeful Jane and I got into a smackdown, let me just say this the female Hobbit would have lost, not because I am learning how to fight from Felix, but because I was dying to resume our little fight after the whole Royal flush incident back at Brian's. Demetri was disappointed when Felix told him nothing happened. Alec who had been beside Jane encouraged her to go with him and start cleaning up, I refused to let the Hobbit out do me, so I gathered as many human corpes as possible putting them into a pile it was totally easy. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw a small dead girl holding a dolly she looked to be just a little older than Jayne, her white dress was stained in her own blood and I frowned concentrating on the poor child. She did not even have a chance in life, in some ways I envyed the child in other ways I pitied her...kind of absurd I know. I watched as Jane took notice of the child and her dolly, she approched the deceased human child and took the dolly, it seemed Jane wanted another doll for her collection it then occured to me that there is an extremely good chance that Jane has killed that many children in the past to have those dolls. The thought of that infuriated me, I got into a crouching stance and growled in anger, I wanted to take the Hobbit down make her feel a world of pain..pehaps shave her head so she would be bald for all of eternity. Demetri noticed me and started to growl back, he was protective of the sociopathic Hobbit, Felix and Alec laughed at our stand off and I waited, I just needed Jane to lower her guard. Jane held the doll and licked off the blood from the doll, the hobbit bitch was tormenting me now. A smile came onto the Hobbit's face as she walked towards me with the doll and pressed the doll to my face, I could smell the human child's blood and surpressed a groan of desire "whats the matter? are you scared of the scary doll?" she asked. Jane pressed the doll against my cheek and made kissing sounds, now was the time to strike, she had lowered her guard and with one simple punch I had sent the Hobbit flying all the way back to last Halloween where the freak belonged. Alec was fast he ran and actually caught the hobbit like she was a football, needless to say I was disappointed he caught her. I prepared myself to feel the agony of Jane's gift, I knew the Hobbit was too much of a coward to fight it out one on one with no gifts, So I waited. Jane instead jumped out of Alec's arms and landed close to me she came closer to me and I was ready to send the bitch flying again when she kissed my cheek and whispered " Time my dear, Time." she turned her back and walked to Alec then left with the doll Felix looked at me and spoke "it is unwise to pick a fight with Jane, she is one of the Voltori's strongest weapons." I told Felix that I did not care, someone had to put the hobbit in her place. I watched as the child burned, in a way it was unbearable to see such a thing, the poo,r poor girl. I turned away and Felix wrapped an arm around me, "are you alright Sarah." I said nothing and left the hall, I could not help it, I ran out and was so focused on escaping I did not notice myself running directly into Marcus, The vampire king caught me and held me in his arms. I closed my eyes and felt Marcus embrace, he held me close. "Sarah, my love, what is wrong." I told him it was nothing and asked when we were going out, Marucs told me in these exact words. "Soon my pet soon, I need to speak to Felix first about our trip into the city, go on my pet, go to your room and get dressed you will find suitable attire accquired to you're taste on your desk chair." I opened my eyes and looked at Marcus he had a smile on his face, I nodded my head and returned to my room. I closed the door behind me and sighed, my back leaned against the door as I slided down and sat on the ground, I could not get the image of the dead girl out of my head. I heard another set of footsteps followed by a voice, "Felix I was just about to look for you, do you have any idea what is wrong with Sarah." Marcus said, "no master Marcus, Sarah was fine, but then Jane pushed her button and Sarah attacked Jane...she helped us clean up and then she saw a human female child among the corpses. I don't understand what happened to her master." Felix spoke confused, there was a silence for a moment and Marcus spoke " Sarah had a child before her child with Brian, Aro told me the child is a female named Jayne." I fely my heart break as Marcus spoke about my daughter, I hate thinking of them...Jayne, Tobias & Brian its just too painful, but it's not as painful as it used to be. "I will need to speak to Aro about Jane again, pehaps have Jane sent out on that mission we were discussing, anyway Felix get Chelsea and Alec the four of us will be taking Sarah to town, I wish to spoil her a little." Felix said nothing else and walked away, I picked myself up and walked to my desk chair and looked at the dress Marcus had got me it was black and went down all the way to my ankles, I don't normally wear dresses, but this was beautiful it was so elegant. I removed my cloak and necklace with the Voltori crest and place the black sleaveless dress over my training outfit remembering Felix's request. I waited in my room and turned on my laptop I found there was no Internet, but there was a lot of songs on the laptop a lot of the songs I loved, I was amazed for a while Marcus really did his homework on me. Some of the songs on my laptop were Down- Dave Days Numb - Linkin Park her name is Alice - Shinedown ours - the Bravery I turned off the laptop and walked to my guitar and picked it up, I tuned it in and played a melody it probably wasn't that good. i stopped when I heard footsteps walking down the hall. I placed the guitar down at the corner and waited in front of the door. I watched as the door opened and smiled to see who was standing there. ~Sarah frost wow the royal treatment is not bad
Date: June 14th, 2009 Dear Diary Right after my last entry I waited for Marcus to return, yet he did not, the feeling of being watched stuck with me, it began to feel smothering. "Who are you and why stalk me?" I finally asked from out of the doorway, she stepped out, a female. The female looked at me as I examined her, what she wore, she had on a black long sleave top and blue jeans she wore the standard red Voltori cloak that they seemed to wear she also had a necklace on with the Voltori Crest. "Who are you?" I asked her, the female's crimson red eyes glared at me for a moment and then planted a smile on her face. "I am Chelsea, Master Aro and Master Marcus decided that it is in best interest for Felix and I to protect you." I was confused, "What would I need protection from Chelsea?" I asked keeping my voice calm. Chelsea walked towards me and sat on the bed, "you are to be the wife of Master Marcus, you will be his queen you need protection." I looked at her "you are avoiding the question Chelsea, I asked what did I need protection from, not why." I answered, annoyed. Chelsea was quiet for a moment "very well, the Voltori have many enemies. The Romanian coven, the Cullen coven...your old lover Brian Jacobson, anyone of them could try to harm you, to weaken the guard, your still a newborn, you have no skills in combat and your gift is not an offensive one, you are completely vulnerable to attack, so that is why Felix and I will protect you...If you excuse me now Sarah, my shift is almost over and I have one more thing to do before my shift ends, but do not fret Felix will be here shortly." Chelsea said. Chelsea stood up and walked out of the room and left me alone. Felix eventually came to the room and knocked at the door, he looked at me and I could see that smile on his face "hello, happy meal!" I looked at felix confused and notice a box in his arms. "Happy meal?" I asked confused, and Felix told me it was a nickname Jane had given me. "That evil dwarf is gonna pay dearly for the nickname" I answered. Felix walked towards the bed and smiled he handed me the box, "here you go kid." I looked at him and opened the box to see a black tank top and skin tight pants. I looked at Felix confused "you will wear this for me when we train and under your normal garments." I raised an eyebrow, "ok, uh thank you Felix this is a thoughtful gift." I said and I actually felt affection. Again It was strange and unnatural for me to feel this way, but I shrugged off the feeling and Felix petted my head "it is as today's youth would say no problemo. Will you try it on for me now, I could assist you in trying it on if you need it" he asked me looking hopeful. I bit my lip for a moment not sure what to say, normally I would have smacked the guy upside the head and tell him to fuck off, but I still kept feeling strange, I know I should be mad, but I am not, I should be overwhelmingly sad, but I am not. I feel at peace for some reason and it makes no fucking sense to me. Its like all the loyalty to Brian and Tobias I feel is slowly fading away, and I am getting attached to my captors...its like stockhome syndrome. Felix waited for an answer and I told him I would be fine and asked him to leave the room for a moment. "As you wish Sarah." he said and walked out of the room and closed the door behind him. I removed the ruined clothing and stood in the room naked for a moment, I sighed quietly and looked at my arm, I was shocked to see little bite marks on my arm and remembered Brian telling me Tobias bit me too. I sighed and rubbed Tobias bite mark (moma misses her baby) I thought to myself and began to dress in the skin tight black top and the black skin tight pants. I examined myself and saw this outfit only made my breasts stand out more, Felix entered the room and looked at me with the outfit on he seemed pleased. "My, my, may I say how well the outfit suits you Sarah." I looked at Feix and thanked him "it is time for us to train, follow me Sarah" he said and I nodded following after him, leaving my cloak and jewelery behind. Felix and I walked into the great hall and I looked around to see only Alec was here, the evil dwarf must be off torturing animals or something. I thought to himself. Felix stepped in front of me and I watched him remove his cloak and his shirt exposing his perfect chest, I looked away for a moment and heard him say "you just lowered your guard...do not look away from your oppoenent." he said his voice was smug, he knew why I looked away, the tone in his voice allowed me to guess that and seeing him stretch and flex his muscles made me know that he knew why I looked away. "Listen up Sarah, in our first lesson I taught you beginner movements and how to make a fist. Today I will be teaching you many things, one of them will be how to evade, your goal will be to punch my chest, you cannot stop until you punch my chest understand." I nodded my head and heard him command me to come at him. I ran at Felix as fast as I could and threw a punch aimed at was chest. My fist hit the empty air where Felix chest was formerly standing. I was in shock to see that he had vanished from my sight in an instant. I felt something tap me from behind and I turned to see Felix standing behind me with a smug grin on his face. I threw another punch at me and he vanished like the wind again. He tapped me on the back again and this was repeated for hours constantly. I was panting exhausted as I looked at Felix in awe, he was so huge, like a giant, but he had the ability to just vanish like that. "How did you do that, is that a gift you have.?" I asked curiously. Felix shook his head "No, this is an evasive technique that gives off the illusion of vanishing. The key to this technique is how you move your feet, see the right foot which I stepped forward with becomes the back foot after using it to pivot my body, see its like this." Felix walked arround to stand in front of me, I watched as he moved his right leg back and then shifting his weight to get over to the side of me. Felix spoke again "you quickly use your footing to get around the side of your opponent, you intentionally leave your upper body in place until the last moment and by quickly pivoting away you can avoid your opponent's attack" I was in shock at Felix, this was an incredible move, one that could actually save me in a fight. Felix petted my head messing up my hair, "pehaps it is asking too much of you to try and punch me, lets work this in reverse. also remember this, always wait till the last moment to do this technique, if you use it too soon it won't work, because the opponent will see you change course." I tried to decipher what he meant by that and found myself getting punched in the stomach, I gasped for air. "I told you not to let your guard down Sarah, FOCUS." He emphised on focus and I nodded moving back to get distance between us. Felix came at me again and his attack landed, it took me one hundred tries until I finally managed to learn how to do this evasive movement, the foot work was indeed very tricky. "Now it's time for phase two of this evasive technique, to turn it into offensive, come at me Sarah." I looked at him as he spoke "Fuck that!" I said not wanting to get hit, "SARAH!" he yelled and I sighed. I ran to Felix and watched as he pivoted to the side as I ran past him. Felix took one extra step forward his foot in front of my foot tripping me and I felt him push me with his body slamming me into the ground hard. "This is step two of the evasive move, I call it a combo, step 1 is evasive, step two is what I just did to you. I pivoted to the side and as you went past me I took one extra step forward and pushed you to the ground with my body, once that is down I return to stance, so it looks like I have done nothing." I got up slowly feeling drained of energy. Felix lifted me up into his arms and smiled "so the defensive becomes an offensive," I nodded still in shock I could never imagine this giant man would be so fast and sneaky. "So does this evasive technique and offensive move have a name?" I asked. Felix nodded "the evasive technique is called a 'Side Step', because you are basicly stepping to the side, while the offensive is called Body Slam seeing as you are using your body strength and your opponents momentium to slam the opponent into the ground." I listened to Felix. Felix placed me down and decided to allow me to try the body slam move on him, he seemed to be enjoying himself even though I was using him as a punching bag. Eventually I had enough and Felix lifted me up into his arms and held me close to his chest. I decided I would need to practice these moves a lot, it could end up saving me someday. I found my thirst becoming unbareable when Felix held me my eyes were pitch black. "Alec find Jane, tell her to fetch Sarah some humans." Alec nodded and left while Felix carried me to Marcus's bedroom. "You know I am fine to walk." I said, as my throat continued to blaze, as if someone had poured oil down my throat and then lit a match. Felix grinned "I insist on carrying you, you did well today learning two moves it is indeed impressive, Happy meal." I growled "don't call me that" and Felix chuckled, "as you wish....Sarah." Felix walked me into Marcus' room and sat me on the bed. I sat there and sighed quietly while Felix picked up my cloak and came to me, he slipped it over me and tied the rope of the cloak around my neck my face was inches from his chest, I could not help, but think that he was getting this close to me on purpose. Felix finished and stepped back as Marcus returned and smiled he seemed happy. Marcus kissed me on the lips. He pulled back and picked me up. "I have a surprise for you my love." Marcus carried me out of the room and two doors down from his room he opened the door and I was shocked to see the beauitiful room there, it was still in a dungeon based room like everyone elses, But there was a nice blue carpet and there was a guitar in one corner and a keyboard piano in another corner. In the center of the wall was a flat screen TV that was on a shelf with a dvd player, near the door was a desk with a laptop computer and a wardrobe dresser beside it. "Once Jane returns with lunch, Chelsea, Felix, Alec and myse lf will take you shopping. I went to Marcus and hugged him tightly. Marcus placed his hands on my ass "I am glad you like it, Aro gave me pointers." Felix left to check on what was taking Jane and Demetri so long, and Marcus left to go and talk to Caius and Aro. I went to my room to fetch you and do some writing in you before Jane returns with my meal.....I just realised something I can use this laptop to find Brian....thats if I get internet access on the computer. ~Sarah WTF
Date: June 13th, 2009 Dear Diary I regained my strength, four hours after Marcus left me to go meet with some guard member named Chelsea. I could not believe just how weakened I was, the hours of pain Jane inflicted on me, it was insane, after I regained my strength I left Marcus' room and started to explore my new prison. I found myself feeling really worried...I think someone was following me, but when I looked around I was completely alone. I walked around for a while until I came across Felix in his room; it was completely empty with the exception of him and a wooden stool. I knocked on his door softly so I would not break the door. I asked Felix why his room was empty with the exception of a wooden stool he told me "Material possessions are pointless, it only weakens a warrior's will." I nodded my head and entered the room and sat on the stool "right, so what are you doing" I asked him. Felix told me he was about to start training to stay sharp. I asked Felix if I could watch and he told me he had no objections. I watched him as he removed his cloak and his shirt I watched him and raised an eyebrow. He had a great physique he was very muscular and well built, but he was no Brian. I bet Brian could wipe the floor with Felix. I watched the Voltori's strongest fighter move slowly each movement he made was powerful, elegant and beautiful the way he threw his fist, it was fast and flawless. Felix's body was well ripped and extremely appealing, girls would probably consider Felix to be eye candy. Felix spoke while he trained. "Once you have better control over your abilities, I will begin training you as per the king's request. You will suffer a lot, but I believe you will become strong." I was surprised and asked Felix why he thought that. His exact words were "your physique is very a well toned you have a perfect body, your short, meaning you can get past offences using your size and speed." My mouth dropped open, did Felix just flirt with me? If my venom wasn't consuming the blood in my veins I would have been blushing. I watched Felix for a little longer until Marcus found me he seemed especially cheerful. "There you are my dear." I faked a smile and looked at Marcus "indeed here I am.” Felix stopped practicing and showed his respect to Marcus. “I am glad to see you have regained your strength my dear." I looked at Marcus "do you want me to get back to training." Marcus laughed for a moment and Felix looked surprised. Marcus came to me and placed his hand on my shoulder "no my dear you need to see our home, I am going to show you around the place." I had to admit I found myself curious .Marcus lifted me up into his arms and smiled we were on the way out of Felix's room when Felix spoke "I look forward to working with you Sarah." Marcus spun me around to face Felix, I looked at him and he had a smile on his face it was rather charming and mischievous. Marcus carried me out of Felix's room and I told him there was no need to carry me, but he insisted on carrying me. While Marcus carried me I looked around, I had this strange feeling again that I was being spied on, something even more unusual, I found myself getting used to Marcus. Marcus eventually placed me down and opened one of the bedroom doors. He told me this room belonged to Demetri, inside the room were posters of atlas maps there was a desk and chair and a Lamp. We traveled down to Alec’s room it had a tv and few footballs and other sports balls, there was a beanbag and video game console. Opposite of Alec’s room he opened up Jane’s bedroom door and truth be told I was not surprised at what I saw. Inside Jane’s room were multiple amount of hooks on the ceilings, from the hooks were ropes attached to the ropes were dolls so it looked like dolls were being hung. “I wish I could say I’m surprised,” I mumbled to myself. There was also a desk and chair and a book on the desk. I wondered if the book was Jane’s Diary. Marcus dragged me away continuing the tour the only room he did not show me were Aro’s & Caius’s room. Marcus and I walked around for a while and then I ran into Aro, he was sitting in front of a chess set, he wanted to play a game with Marcus. Marcus looked at me and asked If I would mind, I told him to go ahead and play that I would watch for a while. Marcus played with Aro and Aro had the upper hand. I gave Marcus some advice which resulted in Aro’s defeat. Aro was surprised and challenged me to a game, I did not refuse him. Marcus moved out of the seat and I played Aro. I was careful for our hands not to touch when we move the pieces. Aro was pretty good in the end I lost, Marcus played another round with Aro and I wandered off to see Alec sitting alone in the hallway, he seemed depressed, Alec looked like he was just a kid. I felt sorry for him, so I sat beside him and asked him what’s wrong. He told me he lost at against Demetri in sport and against Jane in chess and he was worried that there was nothing he was good at. I looked at Alec’s childlike face and wrapped my arm around him “cheer up sport; you will get better at chess and sports with practice.” He did not listen and continued to beat himself up. “Alec you need to learn that in life there will always be those who are better than you at something right?” I asked him, Alec nodded his head and I smiled “good now then, tell me Alec, how did you feel.” He thought about it for a moment and answered “humiliated!” he answered. I tightened my grip around him, “so, tell me Alec, what are you going to do about it, sit here and feel sorry about it and play the victim? Well let me tell you something kid, in life you have to fight and if you don’t then not only will you suffer, but the people you care about will suffer too.” Alec looked at me in awe and I let go of him. I turned around after hearing footsteps and I saw Felix he nodded his head and I looked back at Alec. “Bottom line is, the same thing can be said here Alec, get your butt up and do something about it, you want to beat Jane at chess practice and if you want to beat Demetri try harder and think outside the box ,he is tall and you are short, you can make that work for you.” Alec seemed to cheer up and stood up “thank you Sarah for your words of wisdom.” Alec left and I found the entire situation odd. I was comforting one of my enemy’s, life truly was fucked up. Felix joined me and sat beside me he looked at me “you are very wise for a newborn vampire Sarah. I looked at Felix “I find it easier to control myself when not thirsty...I fed a few hours ago so I feel fine. He listened to my answer. “I think you are an interesting creature Sarah.” This caught me by surprise and I looked at him, asked him to explain himself and he told me to forget about it, instead he asked me just how strong did I want to become, I thought about Brian and my beautiful Tobias. I decided to be honest “I want to be strong enough to protect the ones I care about.” Felix looked at me and seemed surprised “Not a newborn answer, but a noble answer none the less, how interesting. Would you like to begin your training now?” I looked at him and told him yes, we both stood up and Felix removed his cloak and shirt again. I wondered if he was doing this to try and seduce me. Felix walked up to me and stood close to me, he looked down at me and I looked up at him, he was so close I could smell his scent point blank. He undid the rope of my cloak and lowered it from me throwing it to the side. He crouched down in front of me and with his muscular hands tore off my lower dress I asked him what the hell he was doing, he remained crouched and looked up smiling at me “your dress will only hinder your movements and leave you vulnerable to attack. By using long clothing like a dress, the enemy can grab your clothing pull you in and catch you in a hold then your finished. Skin tight clothing is best.” I had to admit it, the answer made a lot of sense to me. Felix started things off slowly, he taught me how to make a fist and throw a punch teaching me to put my whole body into the blow. Felix then taught me some tricks, like how to evade and some helpful hints, he was really impressive. Marcus came by during the lesson and watched, he wanted to take me away, he wanted some alone time with me. I told him I was having fun learning from Felix and Marcus seemed genuinely surprised. I don’t know if I was having fun or not...I was starting to think and feel different about being here with the voltori...I felt connected with them and found myself thinking that living here with the Voltori, maybe it wasn’t that bad. Marcus insisted that I come with him and I gave in, before I left Felix bent over and grabbed my cloak and moved so close that we were inches apart, my chest was inches from his shirtless muscular chest as he wrapped the cloak around me and tied it up “I apologize for your dress Sarah, I will find a way to make it up to you and I sincerely hope you enjoyed your orientation, in your next lesson I hope you remember to dress accordingly and prepare yourself for a rough ride.” I raised an eyebrow and smiled at that expression it sounded like something Brian would say...that perv. I left with Marcus and he looked at me and said “you have a beautiful smile Sarah; I hope you show it more often.” I thanked Marcus and found it odd...I was being nice; I could not help but think something was off about everything. I had formed a list of what I found strange. I am being nice to these people, and I don’t mind this place. I am starting to like it. The vampires are not that bad, I sort of think they're cool with the exception of Jane. Marcus wrapped his arm around me and I shivered automatically, I did not like him touching me, Marcus seemed surprised and said to himself “I will have to tell Chelsea to speed things up.” I was confused and asked Marcus who Chelsea was and he told me it was not important, that we had other things to discuss and when I asked him what he answered “Marriage.” We arrived back into Marcus' bedroom and I sat on the bed in my torn dress. I told him I was not ready and needed time for marriage and asked if we could make it a long engagement, he agreed to give me some processing time for it, not wanting to overwhelm me with too many changes. I asked him for one more favor and he said whatever I wanted I could have. I asked for my own room, he was surprised, but agreed to it on one condition. When I asked him what the condition was, he asked for a kiss. I agreed to it, just thinking it would be a peck on the cheek. I was wrong Marcus pushed me down so I was laying on his bed he climbed on top of me and held me pinned to the bed and he leaned down to kiss me passionately. At first I just laid still, but I started to feel strange again and just for a moment I kissed him back. Marcus climbed off me with a big grin on his face; he looked so pleased with himself. Marcus left to organize a room for me and said he would make it fit for a queen....his queen. I wondered what the heck is wrong with me how could I enjoy that kiss even for a split second. I love my Brian and my son Tobias...what is happening to me? Sarah A life of hell and Torment
Date: June 11th, 2009 Dear Diary I awoke in a strange room, resting on a bed, the mattress was soft and comfy and the lining was plain white, the blankets were puffy and had a fancy pattern. I wondered why a vampire would have a bed, I mean we don't sleep. I sat up and looked at my clothing I was wearing a beautiful elegant dress and over the dress I had on a red cloak. I also had on a gold necklace around my neck with the crest of the Voltori. I looked at my hands and saw a beautiful gold ring with a red jewel on the ring. I looked at the walls around me, they were brick walls and it looked like I was in a reformed dungeon and other than the bed there was nothing else in here...well almost nothing. I saw Alec in the corner of the room leaning on the wall he was about to say something when voices from a distance could be heard. "Have you gone mad Marcus, why would you want such a creature as your mate?" The voice was unfamiliar and I heard Marcus say "my reasons are my own, Caius, she is mine." Aro was next to join in saying "her gift is extremely powerful, you have yet to sample it, Caius, I assure you, she is indeed a jewel to be kept and treasured, she is worthy of being with our brother Marcus and a powerful addition to the guard once we train her." Alec smiled and walked towards me. "Do not fret Sarah it will all be ok." I looked at him and asked what happened. He told me he had cut off all my senses so it would be easier for them to take me back to Volterra and Marcus had someone called Heidi dress me in garments he picked out. I was afraid if my heart could beat it would have been pounding in fear. I closed my eyes and took in the stale air and swallowed it. I had just realized my throat was burning and my black eyes looked at Alec and then back at the door I bolted to the door and everything went blank again. The next thing I knew, I was in a room with three seats in front of me. I could see Marcus, Aro and Caius watching me Caius seemed to be disgusted with just the sight of me. I looked around and saw Jane along with a few other people I have met. “Just look at he,r not even here a day here and she tried to flee we should kill her.” Caius said. I looked at Jane and she had this look on her face like excitement, like Christmas had come early for he,r I examined Marcus and Aro both were calm. “Nonsense she was probably thirsty look at her eyes pitch black and she is a newborn she probably just wanted to go to the humans we have employed and have her for lunch.” Aro said. Marcus nodded his head in agreement. Caius looked disappointed, but not as disappointed as Jane, it looked like someone told her Santa wasn’t real or that they would be stuck at a Justin Beiber concert. “Jane send in Gianna” Aro ordered, the savage dwarf nodded her head, “yes master.” She walked to the door and called “Gianna come.” Gianna walked in and I looked at the human for the first time, a tall woman with dark skin and green eyes, her heart was pounding she was either afraid or excited I could not tell by the heartbeat, but the look in her eyes showed fear.... “Eat up Sarah, enjoy your snack.” Marcus instructed. I looked at Alec and he nodded as if to encourage me and I ran to the human, in a flash the look of horror stuck in my mind as I tackled her and she screamed that was until I ripped out a good chunk of her throat and spat out the flesh. I sunk my fingers into her arms letting it sink deep until blood poured out from the wounds on her arms. I drank the blood that poured out of the wounds I created. “Damn she is brutal, no emotion or compassion she is truly a newborn.” A voice said, it was one I haven’t heard before, but that did not matter I was lost in the beautiful taste of Gianna’s blood. “I agree Felix” Demetri whispered, the heart beat of Gianna started to slow down and I heard her short shallow breathing she was dying. I had no intentions on turning her or stopping her I just wanted to satisfy my thirst and forget about everything else around me. I moved down Gianna’s body licking the puncture marks I'd made on her arms and biting off more of the flesh and spitting it out. What little blood she had left splattered over my face and she was dead. I up, I was still thirsty, but the burning had become dull and bearable. I looked at Marcus and Aro as I stood up my eyes cold and emotionless, I did not want to show these men any weakness. I would kill all the emotions within me to protect Brian and Tobias. Marcus clapped his hands and Aro joined in “well done, very brutal indeed Sarah...Felix, Jane come.” Jane stepped forward along with a man, he was tall and muscular he looked to be strong, very strong. “I am interested in seeing Sarah’s potential. I am appointing you Jane to try and teach Sarah how to use her gift...teach her to master it anyway you deem necessary.” Aro said and Jane smiled with glee. I felt a shiver run down my spine, there was a good chance I was imagining the shiver, but the look on Jane’s face told me I was royally fucked. “Felix I want you to train Sarah, teach her to fight, I want her to be a top soldier.” I was confused, I could understand them wanting to see what this gift of mine was exactly and just how powerful it was, but why teach me to fight. I said to them “Wait, why teach me to fight, I can understand you wanting to learn just what I am capable of with my gift, but what’s the point in teaching me physical combat?” Caius was surprised “you dare speak to us, you will speak when spoken to regardless of who your mate is child, learn your place.” He sneered he was cold and a little frightening. “I am sure you know this Sarah, but we of the Voltori live to enforce the laws of our people, we have many allies, but also enemies if the time arises, we must fight to keep peace and enforce our laws. Since you are the mate of Marcus you will be a prime target, by killing you or if we lost our mates we would be wounded emotionally and our judgment impaired...that has already happened to us once before.” Aro said. I looked at Marcus and watched as he looked down, “I understand so when do we begin?” I asked . Aro seemed to be very pleased “glad you asked me that Sarah it begins now, Jane your first.” Jane stepped forward and had a twisted smile on her face, I did not like this . “Alright Sarah this is how it works you’re going to inspire me, super charge my gifts each time you fail you are going to experience a small burning feeling.” I looked at Jane “are you serious that’s fucked up, even if I manage to supercharge your gift I am just going to feel more pain than normal because your gift is supercharged by mine.” I argued back. “You know she has a point” Felix spoke quietly. I felt a burst of pain and fell on my knees . “Begin” she said. I let out a hiss and Jane laughed, I closed my eyes and concentrated. I began to sing and I instantly felt a burn “No singing or humming Sarah, you must learn to use your gifts without relying on sound, sound will only get you killed when trying to use stealth.” She spoke her voice was innocent and child like. I did not know how to do that, I did not even know when to begin in trying to do that, but I had to try my best. I have to make sure I am so valuable to them and their cause that they leave Brian and Tobias alone. I looked at Jane and she told me to try again, I tried to inspire Jane, I thought about my reasons behind the reason of being here I closed my eyes and saw my son’s beautiful face and the face of the man I loved. I felt pain again over and over the pain did not stop, it went on for hours and my venom came out of my nose, I was bleeding venom. “We must stop this, she is exhausted” Marcus said. I raised my hand up and told him that I could do this, I opened my eyes and thought of my son and told Jane to Bring it. I tried, I was panting for air out of habit, but also from exhaustion. I looked at Jane and felt this warm sensation flood my entire body and my entire body felt hot, it was not painful...it reminded me when I was human and I was out on the beach with Brian I felt the warmth of the sun all over me. This was like that, only it was under my skin and now coming out of my pores affecting the temperature in the air started to change in heat. I could hear the gasping of several of the guard along with Marcus and Aro, Caius seemed disinterested by the fact. “Do you feel that?” Felix asked. I concentrated letting the warmth leave the pores of my skin it was hard I was exhausted from the torture, but I just concentrated on thinking of Tobias memories of holding him, seeing him smile...calling for me. “Yes I feel it, it’s incredible, this is what I felt back at Brian’s place.” Demetri said pleased. I couldn’t help it, I was too exhausted to keep up whatever it was I was doing. I fell to the ground again and felt a burning pain, it was so intense, the burning was stronger than before, it was Jane. “Get back up Sarah, I am not done playing with you yet.” She said but I couldn’t do it. I was too exhausted. “No that is enough. Demetri take Sarah back to my room, She needs rest.” Marcus said. I looked at Demetri as he lifted me up and held me in his arms, he had a smile on his face as he looked at me. He carried me out of the throne room and towards Marcus' bed chambers. “You did very well Sarah, how do you feel?” he asked me. I looked at Demetri and his smile, “I can’t....I can’t move I am exhausted.” “Of course, you have been trying to access your gift for hours on end, and each time you failed Jane gave you incentive to get it right....give it time Sarah you will soon learn just how powerful your gift is and how to use it. Today you have just taken the first step on learning to control your amazing ability.” He encouraged me. I looked away and told Demetri I did not care about that, he was surprised and asked me what I cared about and I told him nothing. Demetri placed me on Marcus bed and left me there, Jane’s gift had left me so weakened I could not move at all I felt weak and powerless. While I lay on the bed I thought about how I found myself in this mess. I thought about the last time I saw Brian and Tobias ,I had said terrible things to them both even attacked them, I knew Brian would shield our son, which is why I had thrown Brian and even had Jane try and attack Tobias, to make it more realistic, to make Brian think I never loved him, my heart broke when he asked me for the engagement ring back, I thought I could keep it and treasure it as a memento of my love. I had to turn away from him so he would not see the pain on my face when I removed the ring from my hand. I did not look at them, instead I allowed that man to touch me and I....I kissed him, I did everything I could to allow Brian to believe I did not love him and when my son called for me, his very first word...instead of jumping for joy and running to him to kiss and hug him, I killed all kindness in my heart and ordered that bitch to attack my son. I did not know how I did that, it took everything I had to be that cruel and deceptive and not show a trace of it. I only hope Brian can put together the hidden clue in my speech, so he can find the hidden message in that clue. I don’t trust the vultures, not for a moment. I concentrated on recovering and wondered if this is what my eternity has come to, enduring torture after torture to force myself to master my gift. I closed my eyes and heard the discussion all the way in the hall room. "The newborn has talent, I feel like I can do anything." It was the one called Felix, "yes I agree, she has managed to access her gift without using her voice as a medium and the effect she has on us is incredible." Alec added. "I concur, but it is interesting don't you think when she sang we felt stronger and our gifts were super charged, but when she did it without sound the temperature changed, it's like something was coming from her body" Marcus said. "Yes it's like a type of pheromones, it radiated from her body, you could feel it and it indeed inspire us and empower us" Aro added. "We must let her rest for now, we have pushed her too hard, she can't even move from Jane's constant attack and the strain she has exerted." Marcus said again. "Master, if I may, what next, we discovered that she can use her gift without singing, but what next." Jane asked. I looked at the door and waited for Aro's answer, I wanted to know that too. "My child it's simple we have discovered that sound is not needed, now we see how long she can last with broadcasting her gift and we test how long our abilities are supercharged. Once we establish that we will work on extending Sarah's limitations" Aro answered, No one said anything. "Very well, I believe we should end this for now, I want to go check on Sarah." It was Marcus this time and things were silent until I heard Aro speak "ah yes it's nice to see our brother in love is it not Caius." A few moments later Marcus entered the room. I looked at him and saw Demetri and Felix behind him. "How are you my dear?" Marcus asked me and I answered him in truth telling him I was exhausted and extremely thirsty Marcus sent Demetri and Felix away to go and get me someone to drink. Marcus sat on the bed and climbed next to me, he placed his hand on my leg and leaned in to lick the dry blood on my face. I was too exhausted to shiver out of disgust, I laid still ,Marcus praised me on how I endured the pain without much screaming and how I made a lot of progress. I thanked Marcus keeping my voice as calm as possible, I did not want to show how much I disliked him, but he surprised me in saying "I see you're still love with Brian...I can see your feelings for him my dear, I promise in time you will feel the same way about me as you do him...if you stopped fighting your love for me it will grow a lot faster." He kissed my neck and moved his hand closer up on my leg, I did not say anything and heard knocking on the door. Marcus told the people to enter and I saw it was Demetri and Felix with two humans. The two humans looked less than interesting the male had an olive complexion with green eyes and blond hair, he was tall and plump, he looked to be about thirty years old, while the female was shorter with blue eyes and red hair, she looked to be my age. I could hear their heartbeats pounding and see the expression of terror on their face. The burning in my throat burned ,it was so painful, not as painful as Jane's burning talent, but still it burned deeply, I needed to have them now, the burning it hurt too much. Marcus let go of my leg and gestured for Felix to bring the male to me. Marcus stood up and grabbed the human and pulled him to me, brought the human close laying out the arm and told me to bite him. I opened my mouth and bit into the flesh hearing the human scream out in agony he was in pain as my venom spread into his body paralyzing him preventing him from running away even if he could somehow get past Marcus, Felix & Demetri, let alone everyone else around the guard's that were all over the place. Marcus petted my head while I fed off the human "good child, good, feed off the humans, regain your strength." I did not look at him, I was too lost in the frenzy, I found myself regaining my strength being able to slowly move my arms. I placed my hand over Marcus hand surprising him as I closed my eyes and continued to drink the blood "as expected of my mate." he spoke, I wanted to yell and tell him I was not his, but said nothing I finished the humans off and felt a lot better. Felix and Demetri left with the corpses and Marcus moved in, licking the fresh blood off my face cleaning me. Apparently the almighty Voltori never thought to invest in wash cloths, I did not mind when Brian did this, but with Marcus doing it...it was weird and uncomfortable. Marcus' tongue moved in to my lips and kissed me pushing his tongue into my mouth French kissing me. At that very moment I hated the French for making French kissing. Marcus pulled back and surprised me telling me he had a gift for me. He pulled out a box from under the bed, it was white with a red ribbon tied around it. I opened the box to see a leather black Diary with a V on the front. Marcus told me that Aro told him that I like to keep a diary and that since this is the start of a new life it should be the start of a new diary. I asked him how Aro knew and Marcus told me he saw every thought I had the first time he touched me, back when I was human and one of those thoughts....well a lot of them were about my diary. I thanked Marcus and he seemed pleased with himself and he left to excuse himself telling me he had to speak to a guard member named Chelsea. I wanted to ask him why did he have a bed in his room when he never slept, then I decided best not to ask him I probably would not like the answer. So here I am now writing to you my new diary and waiting for the rest of my strength to return.... I wonder how Brian and Tobias are doing, god how much I miss them both. ~Sarah The Final day
Date: June 9th, 2009 It's all coming to an end, my last day was perfect and the reason was I was completely alone with Brian and Tobias. The Voltori went out hunting today. I don't think they went back to New York City, but to New Jersey or something. I don't know or care. Brian and I started the day by watching the sun rise. I sat in front of him, my back touching his chest and his head was resting on my shoulder. The sun rose up and the light caressing our skin causing it to sparkle and to shimmer. I closed my eyes feeling Brian's warm touch. Now that I was a vampire his touch was no longer cold because we held the same body temperature. Brian kissed my neck and told me I looked beautiful in the light. I smiled and told him to stop joking. Brian turned my shoulders slightly so my crimson eyes looked into his, "you are the most beautiful woman to ever walk this earth Sarah, I am lucky to have you in my life." I looked at Brian and got on my knees and pushed him down into the sand and pinned his hands down and kissed him. I slipped my tongue into his mouth and Brian fought back as I allowed him to over power me, he pushed me off him and climbed on top of him. He undid his zipper and smiled. I loved Brian's smile, it was one of the many reasons I loved him. I wanted him to make love to me just as much as he wanted to. My hair was covering my eyes and he leaned up and moved it away gently with his hand. "Sarah when I am with you I am alive, there are no words that can describe the depth of my feelings for you." I looked at Brian and smiled. Here I was going along with the LIE of him having a happy life, giving him false hope, my, what a terrible woman I have become. I kissed Brian and he pulled up my skirt with his hands and he made his way to my panties. I heard something from inside like a small sigh...Tobias. I was done letting Brian pin me down. I pushed him off me and heard him cuss in defeat and jumped up and after re-adjusting my clothing. I ran to my little man's room and saw he was awake. I picked him up and smiled, I could hear his heart pound away at it's normal fast pace. He looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his, I can honestly say I never tire of seeing his beautiful eyes, it's like watching a favourite movie. Brian joined us and I lifted Tobias up holding him close to my chest . "Your fly is undone," I reminded him and he asked if this meant no sex and I nodded my head. Brian grumbled something along the lines of "need to teach my son not to interrupt when I'm trying to claim his moma." I rolled my eyes up and told Brian "don't talk like that around our son or ill give you something to cry about." It just came out I don't know why, I guess I just want him to grow up to be a respectful young man. Brian quickly went quiet and he knew I was serious he grumbled an apology and I went to him stood on my tippy toes to kiss his cheek. I hated being short, it seriously sucked. Brian immediately cheered up and I turned from him and went to the rocking chair. I sat there and reminded Brian about his fly and he zipped it up. I told Brian to get the baby formula and he went immediately. I heard a small grunt and looked down. Tobias did not like the stuff he hated it. "It's for your own good little man." I told him, he still did not like it I could tell, I don't know how, but I could feel it, has to be a mother's intuition. I began to sing for my son and he seemed to mellow out. "Damn that feels good Sarah." I could hear Brian speak in a normal tone from the other room. I guess my gift was in effect, I still haven't figured out the full potential of my gift. I have been distracted with my son. The only thing I have figured out is I can inspire to the point of supercharging gifts and inspire myself to push through agony when I think of my son, but then again that could be considered a mother's thing . I don't really know, this is all so new to me, being a vampire, being a mother, it's all new. I was lucky enough to have this moment with my special little man. He was gifted too he could super charge a vampire's senses and had complete control over his gift the little show off. I knew he could do more than super charge the senses. He is special far more special than any other little boy in the world. It's not because of his heritage or his gifts. It's because he is my son. Brian returned with the formula and handed it to me, he knew I loved feeding our son. I tried to feed Tobias the formula and he pushed it away. I looked at Tobias and raised an eyebrow and tried to feed it to him again. My little man pushed the bottle away again with his hand again. "Defiant little bugger aren't you" I said to him. "Yeah I wonder who he gets that from" Brian joked. I put the bottle down to the side to flip Brian off and he chuckled. "I knew it." I rolled my eyes up and picked the bottle up and tried to feed it to him again and he pushed it away again. I sighed "come on Tobias cut it out." Tobias watched me and did a little frowning face. I smiled he was so adorable, I looked at the bottle, "fine more for me then" I told him, and I started to suck on the bottle. The formula tasted like shit in my mouth, it was foul and horrid. I could not blame Tobias for refusing the shit, but he still needed the stuff. Tobias used his little hands to reach for the bottle, the adorable little man wanted the bottle now that he thought it's what the grown-ups drank. I gave him the bottle and watched him drink it down. "That stuff must taste horrible" Brian said. I looked up and nodded slightly. Tobias finished drinking the formula and I burped him patting his back softly until he burped. I handed Tobias to Brian while I spat out that awful crap, it tasted like dirt, it was horrid I wouldn't force that on anyone, well other than Tobias needs it he is half human. The little rascal loves blood, but he needs human stuff too. I went back to the nursery to see what my men were up to and saw the room was empty. I looked around the house, they were gone. I went outside and saw them both on the beach. I looked at Brian and folded my arms "BRIAN JACOBSON GET YOUR BUTT IN HERE NOW!" I yelled, my Brian returned with Tobias and I inspected my son. "No sunscreen huh." I took Tobias and stomped down on his foot hard . I heard Tobias chuckle and I smiled looking at him, I carried him inside. I ignored Brian's cussing and hopping around on one foot. I did not want my son outside without sunscreen. Sure, he is growing fast, but he is still my baby and while I was here, he would be looked after. Brian started to yell and I told him to shut up, I reminded him our son was human and we needed to be cautious so I told him to stop his bitching and get Tobias's hat. He did as he was told and returned with the blue hat with flaps. I put some sunscreen on his arms and legs and over his cute little nose of course. I kissed both his cheeks and handed him back to Brian and told him now he could go and play. Brian grumbled "your mother is scary." I looked at Brian and asked him to repeat himself and he told me he said nothing. I smiled I would miss this. The boys went outside, Brian loved taking Tobias along the beach, I used this time to get the last of my plan ready. I finished everything for tomorrow, my plan was eratic. I knew that if Aro touched me he would be able to see some things, but not enough to know what I was up to. I had made sure not to think about somethings. I walked outside and joined my son and true love we spent the afternoon together. I eventually put Tobias down for a nap and Brian and I went outside again. He wanted to pick up where we left off before Tobias woke up. Brian kissed me passionately, I lifted my leg and wrapped it around his leg his hand grabbed my leg and we continued to kiss. Brian used his free hand to unzip his pants and moved his hands towards my panties... We were interrupted again with the arrival of the Vultures. Brian cussed and at the end added "not again." I smiled and suggested maybe his pants were cursed, pointing out that both times he unzipped the pants and both times we were interrupted. Brian let go of my leg and admitted I made a good point he told me he intended to burn the evil pants as he zipped up his zipper. I rolled my eyes and fixed myself up and looked at the Voltori minus Jane, and three humans were with the Voltures Aro told me it was a gift for Brian, Tobias and myself for being such good host. I thanked Aro with fake sincerity not caring if he knew it. I went to Tobias bedroom and I felt terror Jane was holding Tobias. I moved hard and fast and snatched my sleeping son from Jane and placed him back in the crib. I moved fast again and punched Jane in the face with such speed and force. She was sent flying through the wall. "Don't you Ever touch my son again". The noise woke Tobias up and I turned to him and comforted him my poor little man must be so afraid, I bent over and before I could pick him up I felt agony. I fell over onto my knees and heard Jane "that was not nice of you Sarah, you would do well to remember your place." She said. "As would you remember yours." The voice belonged to Marcus and the pain suddenly stopped . "She touched my son" I hissed with hatred ,"She goes near him again I will kill her." I picked myself up, Marcus asked Jane the meaning of touching my son and she told us she was just curious to see how big he had grown. Brian heard everything and came to be the mediator and told Marcus I was just over protective of Tobias. He was intent on making peace, and afraid I would end up getting myself killed his fears were for nothing. I was too valuable to be killed I picked up my son and comforted him he settled down and I took him to the humans and the voltori. Brian wanted to dig in on the first human and I tripped him. He fell flat on his face and Tobias giggled. I bent over and picked Brian up by the scruff of the neck like a mother cat to it's child,. I could hear Brian complain and I ignored him instead I asked our son which human he would like. Tobias pointed to the one Brian wanted and I smiled and dropped Brian he landed on his feet and went to one of the other humans. I held Tobias while he bit into the arm of the human and began feeding off the human. The human screamed in agony and I ignored it. I found myself amazed at not caring about the humans whether they lived or died. I wondered when it was that I became this heartless woman. The scent of the blood was enticing and I told Tobias to pace himself. The little rascal eyes were too big for his stomach when it came to blood. Brian finished his human and I asked him to take over with Tobias. He did so and I lost control. I pounced the last human and held him down. I bit into his neck and with my teeth ripped off the flesh of the human and spat out the flesh and drained the blood, licking the blood from the sides of the wound I inflicted on the human. I ignored the screams of agony and continued to suck out the blood. It was magnificent. I finished the human off my lower face covered in blood. I felt a lot better, now the need for blood was gone. Tobias couldn't finish the human, so I snapped the human's neck without hesitation. Brian looked at me and walked to me. He licked the blood from my face and told me I was his sexy beast. The rest of the day went fast, I put Tobias to bed and here I am writing to you its 10pm two more ours and this day ends....I keep begging for time to stop...please, please don't let tomorrow come. I pray and pray for tomorrow never to arrive, but I know my prayers would end up unanswered. -Sarah Frost |
InfoSarah Amanda Frost Lived in a world alone and cold where there was no one she could count on or love. After meeting Brian Jacobson that changed she fell in love with him and eventually gave birth to his son Tobias, Sarah now fights in a world of darkness sacrificing herself for the safety of the ones she love. Sarah's Diary is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives
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