Topic: Esme she is my real mother
Date: December 26th, 2005 Dearest Diary How can I describe yesterday's Christmas? It was a pleasant Christmas, but hollow....incomplete the reason behind that is because my brother Edward did not make it, everyone was constantly thinking about him and we could not stop ourselves from hoping that he would surprise us and walk in the door, but we knew it would not happen, Alice had no visions of Edward changing his mind from his mindless hunting of Victoria. I should tell you what I was given for Christmas "Carlisle and Esme gave me a new jewelery box to hold my jewelery. The box was beautiful, it was black and when I opened it up there was a small mirror inside with a few drawers to hold my rings in. I closed the box and ran to hug my parents. My gift from Alice and Jasper was nice too, they bought me a beautiful diamond necklace and bracelet . I thanked them, loving the gift and trying it on in an instant, my gift from Emmett was by far my favorite he gave me a new gold ring, carved on the outside of the ring, was a heart with RH+EC, in the insides of the ring there was an inscription written "the best is yet to come." I jumped up and hugged Emmett and he hugged me back, his hands moved down my back and to my ass and I pulled his hands back up and kissed him on the lips passionately for a moment and then pulled back. I grabbed my presents I had bought Emmett and handed them to him, he opened the first one up to see the erotic clothing and baby oil, "damn you're gonna look hot in this Rose and the baby oil" I smiled, Emmett had yet to realise the baby oil was for him, I climbed onto his lap and leaned in to whisper in his ear "actually, Emmett, the baby oil is for you and I am going to rub it all over you're body inch by inch....Everywhere." my voice was soft like silk and alluring, I did this on purpose just to tease him. I pulled back from my monkey man to see the expressioon on his face, he looked excited "Uh excuse us, Rose and I are going to test out her Christmas present" Emmett said. I smiled before I could remind him about the other present, Alice was quick to chime in "Save it for the honeymoon, we still need the house to be intact in order to live here." I smiled sheepishly and saw Esme mouth "thank you" to Alice and noticed Emmett seemed disappointed. what can I say about my family their not as flamboyant as Emmett and I. My poor Emmett groaned and settled with french kissing instead, he pulled me in closerand I leaned into him kissing him back, our tongues were massaging against each others, neither of us cared that our family were watching, I could hear Alice make an "Ew" sound and I kissed Emmett with more passion just to spite her and she knew it. Alice threatened to get a hose to cool us off, and we stopped, I knew my sister, she would do that without hesitation. After we all opened our presents we went outside to build a snowman family, it is rather childish, but fun I could see Esme was still overjoyed about the new land she & Carlisle had just gained from Emmett and I for Christmas. We worked on building a snow man family and as I bent down to get more snow I felt something wet hit me on the ass, I stood up and looked around and saw Emmett whistling, I knew it was him, it had to be, he only whistled when he was trying to act innocent. I Picked up the upper torso of the snow man and I threw it at my him, Emmett saw the snowman, his mouth opened in a shocked expression and ducked at the last moment. I watched as the snow man's torso continued on and hit Alice from behind "bet you didn't see that coming" Emmett joked as he turned to face Alice. My sister turned to look at us, she blinked a few times completely soaked in cold icy water, she couldnt feel the cold water of course, but she was still soaked. Jasper and Carlisle laughed with Emmett while Esme and I smiled seeing Alice's confused expression on her face it was priceless. Alice picked up her snowman's head and threw it at me, I ducked at the last moment and turned while I crouched to see half of the snowmans head hit Esme. Alice tried to supress a giggle but she burst out into a fit of laughter. Esme pulled off her snowman's head "This means snow FIGHT" she yelled and threw the head of her snow man at me, I dived out of the way and the snow man hit Emmett. I landed sliding on the icy ground on my stomach and got up slowly, we had a great time it was a shame Edward was not here, I would have thrown one right at the back of his head. After our snowball fight we went inside and got changed, we spent the rest of the day together watching festive movies involving Christmas morals and lessons. Esme of course still treated us all like her children so it was her idea. The day and night passed fast and here we were with boxing day. I waited for evening and when it came I decided to do something I never thought I would do again. I decided to go to the cemetary, Emmett asked me if he wanted me to come with him and I told him that I would be fine. I was on my way to my rental car when Esme stopped me, she asked me if she could come with me and I did not have the heart to turn her down. So I told her sure, it would take us 90 miles to get from Ithica to Rochester, the entire drive was quiet between Esme and I. I can't imagine why she chose to tag along with me I was sure she knew I would not exactly be good company and she definetly knew we weren't going shopping, but still she chose to come along. We arrived at Rochester and I stopped to look for a florist, I was amazed to find one open on Christmas day. I bought two boquets of roses and returned to the car, our next stop was the cemetary, I took my time walking to my parents grave, Esme was at my side the entire time, while I tried to discover why exactly I was here. We made it to my parents grave and I was shocked to see graffiti on their graves, "Damn no good street punks." a hiss escaped my red lips. I bent down to give my parents the bouqet of roses and made a fist out of anger. I stood up and introduced Esme to my parents. "you met my parents a few times, right Esme." I asked her, she stepped up beside me now and nodded her head "yes, I remember them at your engagement party to Royce." She said. I remained quiet "you didn't get to meet my real parents, you only met their sociable side, the side they showed to the public....My father, he was a hard working man. He was quiet and placed his family needs ahead of his own, he always made sure I had beautiful clothing of the latest trends so I could woo in HIM!" I spat out the last part with hatred. I felt Esme wrap her arms around me, her head leaning on my shoulder as she tried to comfort me, I continued on "my Mother, she was an odd sort by today's standards, she gave me lessons on how to be a lady...she gave me lessons how to satisfy a man, so he would remain loyal to me...she taught me many things Esme, but like me she was extremely shallow...they both used me Esme, they used me to elevate their social standards in society, So he....Royce would provide for my brothers and them...I often wonder if I was anything more than a tool for them," I said to her and smiled for a moment. My hand moved to Esme's hand "mother...father you never had the chance to meet the real Esme...So this is Esme Cullen she has been taking care of me since I...well since my disappearance, She is more of a mother...of a role model to me than either of you ever were. I wish that I never became what I am, but I am grateful to have her in my life." I said my voice became a little high in pitch, Esme stepped in front of me and she hugged me tight "it's ok Rosalie, let it all out." I smiled "no I am fine, you know Esme, the last time I was standing in this spot, was at the night of my fathers burial, fiifty four years ago...I stood at this exact same spot and I blamed myself for how their lives turned out, I thought I failed them, back then I was too consumed by grief, but now time has passed, I have mourned the death of my parents and brothers and have seen things a lot clearer, I did not fail my parents...they were the ones who failed, they failed my brothers and I, it wasn't my job to provide for them, to ensure their future....it was their job to do that for me, it was their job to love me and support me without personal gain...seeing how you guided all of us and treated us as your own... I was finally able to realize that." I looked at Esme, she looked like she was lost for words, I hugged her and thanked her for coming with me, she told me she did not mind at all along with some other things. I had one last thing I had to do before I went back with Esme, I went to Royces' grave, Esme followed me and I looked at Royce's tombstone it seemed someone replaced it, the words were faded out and I swung my foot and kicked the tombstone. Royces' tombstone shattered and I smiled "Bastard, you got off too lightly." I spat out, Esme grabbed my hand and I looked at her and had a sad smiled "lets go." she said and we left, Esme drove us home, She seemed to be happy, and I felt the same way. I Realized that maybe I am capable of change, that I am growing emotionally. It's just going to take time, but hey whats time to a vampire. On the drive home Esme suggested I research my family like Alice, to see, learn about my brother's children and grandchildren, I told her it was best to leave my old family in the past where it belonged and focus on my real family. She was silent again and I wondered what thoughts went on in that head of hers. We returned home and Emmett bombarded me with a hug and I hugged him tight, I watched Esme run off to Carlisle and went to the guest room with Emmett, I caressed Emmett's cheek with my hand and got lost in our private world, nothing else around us mattered when I am with Emmett, my heart feels like it could start beating again. I thought about all the memories and experiences I had with Emmett, he is my prince charming. My pillar of strength and my soul mate. I have to go now, Emmett and I have to get packing, we leave on the first for our honeymoon. Emmett won't tell me which location we are going to first, typical of him....I may try and call Edward too. ~Rosalie Hale
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Topic: Spending the christmas with family, I wish edward was here.
Date: December 25th, 2005 Dearest Diary Emmett and I are visiting Esme & Carlisle, it's Christmas day and we are all together, well almost all of us Edward called the other day and informed us he was unable to attend Christmas, he wished us a happy holiday, but I could easily tell his heart wasn't in it. I was sad that he could not come and join us today. The last few months Edward has been hunting Victoria, trying to find her and kill her so Bella would be safe, he has had no luck it looks like tracking is not one of his strong points. Emmett and I arrived yesterday morning at Ithaca, New York city, we plan to stay until the day after new years. I was glad to see Jasper, I missed my brother & Emmett missed Jasper too. Jasper went to show Emmett around Cornell University, I told Emmett to have fun and the two left. It was just Alice, Esme, Carlisle and I the four of us went and did some last minute Christmas shopping Carlisle was our driver. We arrived at the stores and split up, Esme and I went one way while Carlisle and Alice went another way. While Esme and I were shopping we began to speak about what our plans were, I told Esme that Emmett and I were going on a honeymoon across Europe. It was fun shopping with Esme, I enjoyed it greatly and together we picked out some nice CD's for Alice, there was no point in trying to surprise Alice, she cheats. Esme confided in me, "I know Edward said he couldn't make it, but I still can't help, but hope that he will come for Christmas." I listened to Esme and knew she was right, but it was not because he couldn't make it, it was because he did not want to come and join us, he is too lost in his own sorrow to be around his family. Edward should be with us letting us help him with his suffering, but he refuses to let us help him. I bought everyone a lot of nice things, but these weren't their real gifts. I bought Carlisle & Esme's, I made sure they would be a surprise by asking Alice not to spoil it, again I say there is no way to surprise Alice she knew what I bought her. I felt confident that my lovely parents would enjoy their presents. Emmett and I had bought several houses and blocks of land near our home for Carlisle & Esme, so they could live near us or use it for a Holiday home to visit us. I knew they would like it. I bought Alice and Jasper plane tickets they can go visit the Denali's whenever they want. I did not want anything for Christmas....well in all honesty I had one Christmas wish and it was the same as Esme's, I wanted Edward to join us. We finished Christmas shopping and returned home to see Emmett & Jasper watching the sports channel, Emmett was betting on the football game and I started to wonder if my Husband and brother had gambling problems, Alice of course did not mind as long as Jasper was happy. I felt the same way for Emmett as long as he was happy I was happy I watched Alice for a while and she looked sad, "what's wrong" I asked her. Alice answered "I had a vision of Bella." I looked at Alice seriously "Edward asked you not to look into her future Alice you should respect his wishes." I reminded my sister, Esme came to us while Jasper & Emmett looked on from the couch "I can't help it I am in tune with Bella. It's one thing to be in tune with someone it's another thing to stop looking, the point is I can't stop." Esme petted Alice's back softly. "Alice what exactly did you see." Esme asked, her voice was soft like silk, but filled with Motherly love. Alice told us of Bella and how awful she looked, well I knew things couldn't look that bad, it's not like Bella was ever a prize pig to begin with, her plain looks failed to compare to that of mine or anyone else in my family. I watched Alice and sighed, I knew she missed Bella even after Alice told Esme she was fine, I watched my sister. She did not seem as energetic as usual, I went to Emmett and nudged him, he looked at me and raised an eyebrow and I smiled "hey there monkey man." Emmett smiled and stood up off the couch, he moved to hug me and I closed my eyes feeling relieved. Emmett is my pillar of strength, I cannot live without his loving hugs, I wish there was some way to go back in time and change it, I would have left Royce King right after he proposed and traveled to find Emmett and spend our lives together as humans. It is true we would both be six feet under by now, but we would have had a family lots of little boys and girls out in the yard playing. My children would have grown up and had children of their own Emmett & I would have been grandparents, maybe great grandparents wouldn't that be divine. While Emmett's arms were still wrapped around me I looked at the beautiful Christmas tree. Esme always put the Christmas decorations up earily. She enjoys the Holidays and I could not blame her. I asked Emmett to go get the presents we brought from the rental cars' boot. He let go of me and ran to fetch the presents. I went to Esme and Carlisle's room to grab the present I had bought Emmett while shopping. It was a 20 carrot gold chain necklace, I also went to the Adults store and bought sexy underwere to go on me and scented lotion I also bought baby oil to rub on Emmett, the baby oil would only make his god like muscular body stand out even more. I placed the gift wrapped presents under the tree and returned to my spot, Emmett returned and placed the wrapped presents under the tree he saw the ones addressed to him and looked all excited. I smiled seeing his excitment, my sexy monkey man was happy, thats all that I wanted at this moment. I started to fantasize about the life we could have had and was awakened from my fantasy to see Emmett looking at me, he was pleeding with me to let him open up one present early. I told him no and he frowned, I turned from Emmett so I wouldn't cave from seeing that adorable charm of his. Esme laughed while Carlisle had his arm wrapped around Esme "ah yes, young love, remember when we were like that Esme." Carlisle said. Esme smiled and rested her head on Carlisle's chest, "who says we still aren't like that." I watched Esme and Carlisle, they were an adorable pair. I excused myself and went outside and I looked around at the snowy area my ankles were covered high into snow, but I did not care it's not like I could feel the snow's cold temperature, I never felt hot or cold, I guess you could say it was a perk of being a vampire. I would say its just another human experience to treasure. Emmett joined me and asked me if I was alright he wrapped his arms around me standing behind me. I told Emmett I was fine and that I just wanted some fresh air, being this close to Emmett I remembered the magical christmas we had so long ago it truly was the best Christmas I ever experienced The night too was memorable, dancing with Emmett, getting lost in him, it was like we entered our own private world. I told Emmett about the thoughts going on in my mind at the moment. Describing how much I loved that Magical Christmas, Emmett turned me to face him and leaned in to kiss me. I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck and enjoyed my time with him. We continued to kiss as it started to snow, for the longest time I did not notice the snow, I only noticed it when Emmett and I were covered in it. Emmett complimented me saying how the beautiful pure white snow only complimented my beauty. I kissed him and placed my hand on his cheek and rubbed it softly, his eyes were filled with such joy and his smile it was so enticing it made me feel warm inside. I loved my monkey man so much, I leaned in to kiss him again and he kissed me back, he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in tightly holding me close to his warm muscular body. I rested my head on Emmetts chest, "when your with me it feels Like it's Christmas every day babe." Emmett and I decided to go to the big Christmas tree tonight to see it light up, we went inside and asked the others if they wanted to come and naturally they did, which was great. I decided to go get ready seeing as we were leaving in an hour, while Emmett went back to watch a Christmas movie. I went to the guest room and got ready. I removed my jeans & top and put on a Christmas dress, the dress was long and silk it was red & white the Christmas colors. I grabbed a pair of high heels and put on a Santa's Christmas hat. I left the room and stepped out to see Esme dressed nicely in a long black dress she looked so elegant, "someone is in the festive spirit I see." Esme said. Alice came out wearing a long red dress while Carlisle, Jasper and Emmett just wore casual clothing I could not help, but think typical men at the time. Emmett looked at me and said "whoa Ho ho Ho Rosalie." I looked at Emmett, did he just call me a hoe? I glared at Emmett and he corrected himself by saying he did not mean it the way it sounded. I decided to tease my Emmett & told him "I was going to let you open one of your presents when we got back, but you can forget it now Emmett." I heard Emmett groan out of disappointment and smiled he is so adorable. Esme & Carlisle chuckled while Jasper and Alice were content in their own little world. We all went in the same car, Emmett was driving this time, I sat in the front with Emmett while Esme, Carlisle, Alice and Jasper were in the back seat, we were in Carlisle's car, it was a tight fit. We still had fun in the car, everyone was chatting away, I watched Esme and I saw she was keeping up a strong front. I knew she missed Edward, I missed him too of course, it did not feel the same without him around, but maybe it was best he is not here with us if he was here, then he would see how happy we were and would probably feel left out without Bella around him. We made it to the tree lighting ceremony and watched the beautiful Christmas lights start up. Emmett wrapped his arms around me from behind and he rested his chin on my left shoulder. "Isn't it beautiful Emmett." I asked him. Emmett kept his grip on me and I felt him shrug "it's alright Rose, but to tell the truth its nothing, there is nothing as beautiful as you Rose." I smiled, Emmett always knew what to say to make me feel better. With Emmett's arms around my waist his hands were resting on my stomach, I placed my hands over his hands "thank you Emmett, but you won't be getting any presents early" I told him, Emmett's grip tightened around me "you already gave me a gift without knowing." he said into my ear, I asked him what I gave him and he said "your heart." I nodded "that will always belong to you, my love" I told him. We finished up at the tree lighting ceremony and walked around for a bit before returning to Esme's place. Emmett and I wished the others a good evening before returning to our guest room, I asked Emmett what he wanted to do and he answered "you" I smiled sheepishly and asked about the others, Emmett told me "what's the big deal it's not like they haven't heard us before." Emmett made a good point on that and I was about to start undressing myself when Emmett moved to stop me " hang on babe I want to unwrap you myself." he spoke. Emmett went to the cd player and turned it on, he turned it up full blast, not that it would help. Emmett came to me and undressed me he pushed me onto the bed and my back hit the matress and Emmett removed his clothing he climbed onto me and we made love well into the night. The bed eventually made a loud thud as it broke and I could hear Esme grumble from the next room "not the bed." I laughed as Emmett stopped and laid on top of me. Emmett and I rested together enjoying each other's company. I looked at the time and saw it was 1 am, it was officially Christmas day. Emmett got up and got dressed he asked me if I was coming, I told him I would come soon, he left and I decided I would come write to you and tell you of my wonderful time. Rosalie Hale Topic: what we all have been up to
Date: October 16, 2005 Dearest Diary It's been a month since our family became divided all because of Bella Swan, the wounds from her relationship with my brother have slowly started to heal for us all except Edward. Emmett is back to his old cheerful, rambunctious self, we have been together in our home of solitude alone since helping our family relocate. I Email the family as often as possible keeping in touch with them, I have recently learned from Alice that she had a ground breaking discovery on her past finding out her full name is Mary Alice Brandon she had a little sister named cynthia and cynthia's daughters niece is still alive in Biloxi, Alice told me she went and visited her grave & the grave of her family. I wish Alice would have told me, I would have gone with her to show her some support. Alice is still pretty down about Bella, she misses the human very much, she is finding it hard to cope without her best friend, but she is coping. Alice and Jasper are living with Carlisle and Esme. Jasper is studying philosophy in Cornell, despite missing Bella, Alice seemed to be fine, Jasper is still blaming himself for the whole Bella incident. I sent him an email telling him in these exact words "Oh please, with her luck we are lucky a satellite dish did not fall down and crush us all." I was hoping it would cheer jasper up, but he did not respond so I guess it did not. I don't know why I bother, it's not like I'm Esme, I don't have the love and compassion she has, I am just a bitter self centered arrogant spoiled princess. I wish I had Esme's kindness, she is such an inspiring woman. I have had her in my life for so long and I have not even managed to become one ounce like her. The sad truth is I will never be anything other than what I am, I mean look at me now My entire family is divided and suffering from Bella Swan and here I am obsessing about how I am a horrible person. I am as shallow and petty as I was when I was first turned, I deserve to live an eternity of suffering, but I count my blessings to have Emmett in my life. Esme & Carlisle are at Ithaca, Carlisle is working nights and teaching at Cornell part time while Esme is working on restoring a seventeenth century historical house monument. Edward is no longer living with Esme and Carlisle, he said he wants time to himself, he is suffering so much it's sad. I tried to keep in contact with him, but he never answers me so my attempts are gradually slowing down. Emmett and I are talking about going on a trip to Europe for another honeymoon it sounds really fun. I have begun planning the honeymoon, I was thinking of going to Bratislava, London, Berlin and France. Emmett of course wants to go anywhere as long as it's with me, most of all he wants some "crazy Europian sex," my emmett is such a pervert, he wants to have fun everywhere and to tell the truth it sounds like fun. We may end up getting it on in the plane lavatory, this will be the best distraction I can ask for. I don't want to think about anyone else at the moment, I just want to get lost in Emmett and let him absorb me whole so we become one, I am always afraid of losing him, the thought of losing him hurts so much its unbarable. I love Emmett so much, I need him desperately, all the time when he is not around, I feel so lonely without him, when we are apart the loneliness comes in waves, I am so lost without him, it's like I am lost in a a neverending spiral of darkness. I feel cold and alone lost in a never ending spiral of pain and darkness. the sensation of being alone, lost in darkness becomes a thousand times worse with each passing second It hurts to be away from Emmett I need Emmetts warm embrace to make me feel pain I need Emmett's love to wash away my pain I need Emmetts uplifting presence to give me hope He is my future, I need him and without him I have nothing, he is my dawn, my guiding light. I have my mother Esme of course and my father Carlisle, I even have Jasper and Alice, but I feel Emmett is the only one who understands me, he is truly a magnificent man I will never understand how someone so special, so wonderful like him would love someone as awful as I am, but I am greatful I am lucky to have his love. Emmett and I have made plans to visit Carlisle & Esme for Christmas since Alice & jasper are still living with Carlisle and Esme it could be a family Christmas. Well hopefully it will be I doubt Edward will join us this Christmas, he tends to keep to himself nowadays, I will get him a present just in case he shows up. I wonder what I should get Esme & Carlisle, I may buy Esme a house or two, I don't know Emmett and I are going to go to the shops at sundown and browse around for a while, right now Emmett is watching a dvd. I think I may go and hangout with my lover, I will write back as soon as possible. ~Rosalie Hale Topic: A family Divided by blood
Date: September 16, 2005 Dearest Diary The aftermath of Bella Swan has left my family emotionally wounded each for different reasons. Jasper my poor brother has been beating himself up blaming himself for what has happened. It's probably worse for him, not only does he blames himself, but he feels the emotions of everyone else feeling their pain and suffering. Esme and Carlisle were down, they knew the time to move was coming, but they were hoping that Bella and Edward could sort something out when the time came. My parents knew without Bella around Edward would be without love and without love, life would be like music without notes it simply could not be. Not even Emmett could lighten the mood up; he has been unusually quiet, I think he is afraid of saying the wrong thing and making things worse. Emmett would miss Bella, he liked having her around mostly because he believed Bella was good for this family. Alice she is taking this extremely badly, she was begging Edward to change his mind. "Edward she will die without you" Edward insisted that Bella would be fine; she promised him she would not do anything reckless. Alice wanted to go and see Bella and Edward forbade it, "don't go looking for her future either; we have done enough damage Alice." Alice was begging Edward to change his mind and when he refused she at least asked to say goodbye to Bella and Edward told her "no, Bella need's a clean break from us Alice." I could hear the pain in Edward's voice, this was killing him. Edward took this worse of all, I wanted to talk to Edward and try to see how he was "Edward," I called to him as I walked to him. He turned around to look at me; I thought Edward would hate me because I was right all along. What I saw was horrible, I looked into his eyes and I saw such pain there, it was too much to handle, "Edward, I.." before I could finish Edward interrupt me "Not now Rosalie," he turned and walked away. Even Edward's walk had changed, since meeting Bella he walked with pride and confidence now...it’s like he is dragging himself just to move. Emmett and I had helped Esme and Carlisle move, before we were on our way back to Africa. We did not talk much on the way back he was still depressed and I did not know what to say, it was no secret that I did not like Bella swan and from the first moment I laid eyes on that human I knew she would be trouble for my family and I ended up being right, but what I did not expect was how much that one human touched my family. She managed to touch every one of our lives in some way or another; well she did not touch mine. I wanted to distance myself as far as possible from the human, I did not open myself up to her not once, I avoided her like she had the plague and I never spoke to her directly. I always thought I hated Bella swan for bringing conflict into my family and that her relationship with Edward would end bad and divide us. It’s just I now find myself questioning how I feel about her. Do not get me wrong, I am glad Edward left Bella. The human has to be with her own kind, she deserves to grow up, have a family and have everything life can offer her. I just wish that she did not have to suffer this heartbreak she must no doubt be feeling and that Edward too would not be feeling this pain, but I believe in time things will become better. Bella will forget about us, she would think of us as a school girl fantasy, when she is married and perhaps explaining to her own heartbroken daughter someday that time heals all wounds or some such nonsense. Edward, I hope he too can move on, that he finds a nice female vampire and falls madly in love with her. I however doubt that will happen, Edward loves Bella with all his heart and for him there can be no substitutes. I just don't know what I can do to help Edward. I don't think he will ever recover from this in fact he will only be worse off. Someone once said it was better to have love and loss than never to have loved before. I believed that in Edward's case it's wrong, he knew love and now he must go on for eternity with a bleeding heart. Emmett and I have been home now for a few days and he is slowly starting to return to normal. I am going to go and see what I can do to cheer him up; maybe I will challenge him to a football game and let him tackle me if you get my drift. ~Rosalie Hale Date: 13th September, 2005
Dearest Diary The events that unfolded today were just as I predicted when Edward & Bella first started their foolish relationship, but to understand the events that happened this evening you must first understand the events of today. Alice had worked on researching the past to find out more about her life before the asylum. She had found nothing yet, but my sister was not one to give up, she would fight to discover the truth about her past regardless of what her discovery would be. Jasper seemed a little on edge he informed us that he was having trouble with his thirst and when Edward asked if he would be ok for tonight he assured us that he would. Esme had begun working on a birthday cake for Bella, while Carlisle kissed Esme on his way out to go to the hospital and Emmett was watching tv with Jasper. I was content with sitting at the window and watching the beautiful scenery. Out of all the properties we have lived in all over the world, Forks was my favorite. I missed Forks, Emmett and I now live in Africa since we both graduated from high school. The only reason we were in Forks today, was because of Bella Swan, Emmett wanted to be here for her birthday. I did not want to come at first, but I missed Esme. The reason behind us moving out was because Emmett and I decided it was time for us to be on our own for a while, one of the reasons why he wanted to move out is so we don't have to sneak out of the house and go all the way to a worn out old cabin to make love or as he calls it "the couple appreciation time." I smiled thinking of Emmett, he was always so cheerful and daring. I considered his attitude, one of his most sexiest attributes. I love the way he talks, the way he is so flamboyant. Emmett and I had of course broken the news to everyone and it was our cover story for the humans. We are going to college in Dartmouth. I have yet to tell you about my relationship with Edward, things have improved slightly between us, what can I say, but distance makes the heart grow stronger. Our relationship is still pretty tense and as usual I do not allow him to see my thoughts. I concentrated on Emmett and our couple appreciation time reflecting on the good parts. Edward shivered and made a disgruntled sound and I chuckled a little. Emmett looked at me and smiled "what's on your mind Rose?" he asked. Edward shivered again and said back "I really did not want to know that." and he left the room, in a flash, Emmett broke out into laughter. "Naughty girl" he said. I smiled and moved from the window side to the couch and sat on his lap. I put my legs on Jasper's lap and he watched me as I leaned in to kiss his lips. Emmett was playful and kissed me French style, Jasper and Alice weren’t as open about their relationship as Emmett & I, they showed their affection behind closed doors. Alice finally seemed to have enough research and closed off her laptop. Edward returned and glanced into the room cautiously looking left and right. I could not help, but smile although I don't approve of his relationship with Bella, I enjoy seeing him happy and full of life. It's hard to believe that he has changed so much. I am also glad that Edward has enough sense to refuse Bella's wish to become a vampire. Since the whole James incident, she is insisting that she become a vampire...stupid child, she wants to throw away her life for this, being cursed with immortality, Bella is such an ignorant fool. I remained on Emmett's lap and turned to see Esme was baking yet another layer for the pink birthday cake. I could not help, but wonder why make one so big considering Bella was the only human who was coming. The rest of us were on liquid diets if you catch my drift. Edward walked into the room as Alice stood up "Alright Edward tonight is going to be magnificent, we will give Bella a night she will never forget right." she asked. Edward smiled that crooked smile of his and nodded his head. "Right." Alice clapped her hands excited, "now knowing Bella she is going to be kicking and dragging her feet, we must endure her complaining and show no waver in our resolve." Esme nodded her head agreeing and I rolled my liquid gold eyes up and snuggled closer to Emmett. I considered their actions to be very foolish. Edward looked at me as I accidently let it slip in my mind that this was completely unnecessary. Edward walked to the tv and turned it off and Emmett complained. "Rosalie you promise me tonight you will be on your best behavior, Bella is a guest in our home and I don’t want to hear a single snide comment from you and no glaring. Today is about Bella, not you, understand." I shrugged my shoulders, "Sure whatever," I answered Edward and then he glanced at me his eyes were cold "Promise me Rose" he repeated, I frowned and looked at Emmett. Iit's just for one night babe, she will be out of your hair before you know it." I heard Jasper complain about wanting to see the rest of the game and I frowned "I promise I will behave Edward." I told him annoyed. Edward turned on the TV and the football game on the cable tv ended replaying the last kick. "YES I WIN, IN YOUR FACE JASPER" Emmett cheered and he kissed me with passion. "I should have asked for Alice's help" Jasper grumbled as Emmett and I kept kissing. The day went by pretty fast as Alice & Edward went to school. Jasper seemed to be missing Alice a great deal, I thought it was cute. Emmett and Jasper went out to play catch ,I remained behind with Esme and we spoke about Edward and Bella and she admitted that Bella being human was a big obstacle in their relationship and it was dangerous, but it did not matter because she already thought of Bella as a daughter and cared for her greatly In Esme's words she said this "Bella is a lovely girl Rosalie, she maybe only human, but look what she has done for this family, she brought Edward from his shell and in all the time I have known Edward I have never seen him so at peace, that alone is reason enough to call her family." I looked at Esme and debated with my point of view about treasuring life and again Esme answered. "Rosalie, I understand where you are coming from, but Bella is of age, she knows what she wants honey, you need to understand that not everyone wants the same things as you do. Bella is walking down the pathway of life she feels that she belongs to. She follows her heart, Rosalie and her heart is guiding her to Edward, I personally support her decision to want to join our family she is just as much my daughter as you are." It was obvious we would come to an impasse and I understood Esme my mother had such a loving heart. Emmett and Jasper returned during the day, both seemed to be in a good mood. I stayed in the kitchen as Emmett came up from behind and wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck. "Did you have fun Emmett?" I asked him and he chuckled "you know it babe." Alice came home from school in her usual upbeat mood, Jasper asked if Bella caved in. “Naturally,” she answered cheerfully, one of the things I like most about Alice is that if someone tries to make her do something she will end up doing things her own way and usually the results end up better than expected. Alice bolted to her bedroom and dropped off her school bag. “Bella and Edward will be here around 7pm this leaves us four hours to get prepared, so here is what we are going to do. Esme you and I will get the decorations’ ready. Emmett you and Jasper, you boys are on yard patrol, now I want you boys to grab the lanterns hung up around the porch, Rosalie..I want you to grab the roses and put them in big bowls lined at the wide stairs at the front door.” I often think that if Alice was born in today’s world she could have had two occupations a party planner or an army general, the way she bossed us around was annoying. I looked at Alice “I have plans of my own.” Alice's face went blank. “Really you are going to spend the next four hours getting ready for the party.” I smiled and she sighed “what can I say, a girl has to look her best.” Esme rolled up her eyes and Emmett let go of me. I kissed Emmett’s cheek and went upstairs to get ready and I could hear Alice speak “she can be so shallow sometimes.” I ignored Alice they were just words, I picked out a black dress and the jewelry to wear and next I did my hair and my nails. I was ready in an hour and went to my old room, it had not changed a bit. I finally heard “she’s here she’s here everyone at your designated spots.” My right eyebrow twitched now she was telling us to stand...forget army general she could be a dictator. I ran down to the lounge room. I had promised Edward I would behave tonight. I looked around to see the dozens of pink candles along with crystal bowls of flowers everywhere. “Oh yeah, real intelligent lets light the entire lounge room with candles with seven highly flammable vampires and a human.” I spoke sarcastically. Carlisle walked in from the kitchen, “such a pessimist my child.” He spoke cheerful and I frowned. I considered myself a realist. I examined the table draped over a white cloth next to Edward’s grand piano with Esme’s pink cake that she baked and silver wrapped presents. I rolled my eyes and went to Emmett’s side and stood beside my man. He told me I looked incredible and I thanked him, Edward and Bella entered and we all chortled “Happy Birthday.” I glanced at Bella and could see something strange on her face, Edward wrapped his arms around her in hopes to comfort her. Carlisle & Esme stood in front of us and he spoke “Sorry about this Bella, we couldn’t rein in Alice.” Carlisle had made a valid point; Alice is like a hurricane, no force on this planet can stop the savage pixie. Bella looked at me and I did not glare and I also did not smile. I kept my face blank as I thought of other matters. Emmett on the other hand had that big beautiful grin on his face, “you haven’t changed at all, I expected a perceptible difference, but here you are, all red faced just like always.” Bella thanked him and he laughed before excusing himself. Bella seemed to have won Emmett over, he thinks she is interesting and he seems to believe with her bad luck life would only keep getting even more eventful. I hoped he was wrong for all our sakes. Alice had given the orders that it was time to move onto the traditional gift giving. I wanted to give Bella a plane ticket. A one way plane ticket as far from us as possible, Emmett wouldn’t hear of it so Jasper, Emmett and I put our money together for a Radio for her sorry excuse of a car. The gift giving continued until things got bad....real bad. Bella got a paper cut and the scent of blood it filled the air and our thirst became extremely bad and very discomforting. Jasper was the first to lose it, he sprinted to Bella intent on making her dinner and collided into Edward. The sound was like boulders smashing into one another and Jasper tried his best to get past Edward, his teeth snapping inches from Edward’s face. Emmett left my side and ran to restrain Jasper. Bella took a fall and the next thing I knew Carlisle told Emmett and I to get Jasper outside. We did as we were told and I helped my poor brother outside once we were far enough from the house Jasper regained control of himself, Emmett and I kept our guard up just in case. Emmett was strong, but Jasper had more experience in combat than the two of us combine. He kept blaming himself and I looked at my adopted twin brother. I went close to him and comforted him, but it did not help. We were eventually joined by Esme & Alice and finally Edward. “We should just turn her Edward, it’s what she wants” Alice started speaking as she hugged Jasper. “No” Edward said out; Esme was quiet, listening as Alice continued to tell of her vision and how this one would not change. I had enough and in these exact words said “whether she wants the change or not it doesn’t matter you all seem to forget about the treaty we have made with the mongrels so long ago. We live on these lands, it is our home provided that we never bite another human again.” “The werewolves are dead babe; the treaty is no longer in play.” Emmett said and I shook my head “NO regardless of the mongrels status as dead or alive, we have given our word, Emmett, we will keep the treaty, we are vampires with honor, we keep our word.” Edward was silent and Alice face filled with horror “No Edward there has to be another way, please.” Alice had seen something and Esme asked what it was. Alice answered “he is going to leave Bella....we are leaving Forks, I have seen it.” Edward went on telling us it was for Bella’s own good that she was in danger with us, I was glad Edward was finally seeing common sense. I said nothing, knowing Edward whatever I would say would probably be an I told you so to him, but I was proud he was finally doing the right thing. Emmett and I talked it over and we both agreed to stay with our family, only until we help them get settled in and then we would return to Africa. I am currently in my room while Edward has gone to drop Bella off home. The girl has no idea the heart break that awaits her. I almost pity her....almost. I need to go now I am going to go help clean up and see how Alice is doing. I know how close she is to Bella, this must be hard for her too. ~Rosalie Hale. Date: March 17th, 2006
Dearest Diary, The war between the Nomad coven and my family is over, thankfully. The end resulted in James’ death…… and the near death of Bella Swan. I have to tell you how everything happened. Alice & Jasper took Bella to Phoenix to try to keep her safe. While hiding her there, Bella called her mother at home and left a message. James was at her home, though, and had heard the message then tricked Bella into thinking he had her mother held hostage by using old video footage of their vacations and playing the audio over the phone. He manipulated the audio to sound like she was begging for her life. I have to admit, I am impressed with Bella. She managed to fool Alice and Jasper, even with both of them possessing heightened senses and, of course, Alice’s ability to see the future. They should have detected the deception that Bella planned, but they didn’t. Bella used a two exit bathroom at the airport to escape from Jasper and caught a cab to a ballet studio near her home. Brave girl. Bella was a fool to think James would release her mother, even if he did have her. James ended up torturing Bella, injuring her greatly, he even bit her arm. Bella was saved by Edward, Alice, Carlisle, Jasper and my Emmett; together they took down James while Edward sucked the venom from Bella’s arm and saved her life… her human life. If he hadn’t, the change would have happened and Bella would have been one of us by now. I don’t know how he did it, but Edward found the strength to stop feeding off Bella, something that is close to impossible. He loves her with every ounce of his immortal strength, that I will never ever doubt. He resisted feeding off her, something that normally causes an uncontrollable frenzy. Carlisle and Edward managed to get Bella to the hospital, while Jasper, Alice and Emmett burned James’ remains and the ballet studio to get rid of any evidence. Alice made sure to take the video camera. Esme and I waited at home nervously for our men to return to us. When Emmett, Jasper and Alice returned they informed us that Bella was going to be fine, that Edward saved her. We were both so proud to hear of Edward’s control. I hugged Emmett tightly and did not let go of him. I missed him so much and I was incredibly worried about him. I was terrified he would get hurt, my reckless monkey man. Emmett and I went off to the old cabin together and we spent some time there alone. I needed to be with him, just him, for a while. I refused let go of Emmett for the longest time. I just hugged him. Emmett rubbed my back in the way a parent would try to soothe their child. It terrifies me anytime Emmett is in potential danger. For us immortals when you lose your love, you have to go on for an eternity without them. An eternity of undying pain. I tend to push those thoughts from my head as quickly as they come, though. Emmett kept his promise. He came back to me safe and unharmed. But still, I did not let go of him. I never wanted to let go of him again. He was the only one that made this way of life bearable. Without him I was nothing. I kissed him passionately and ripped off his clothing. He ripped off mine. When I say ‘ripped,’ I mean that in the literal sense. Our strength is intensified when we’re in the heat of the moment - and it’s hard to help it, we literally tear each others clothes off, shreds of fabric floating to the floor in little piles. We made love in the old cabin and it felt so good to be with Emmett again. Familiarity. I felt incredibly close to him, and I could tell he felt the same. Emmett lights up around me. His grin gets a little wider, his eyes a little brighter. I love Emmett. I love him more than anything. Forever. The days that kept us apart only made our passion more explosive. Lets just say we had a good time in the cabin. Emmett and I spent more time together just laughing and talking before returning home. We crept home naked and ran to our bedroom when we were clear. I need to make a mental note to leave some clothing for Emmett and I at the old cabin. Emmett and I got dressed and when we went downstairs my eyes flickered to Alice sitting outside with the video camera. Jasper was standing inside, giving Alice her space, trying not to hover. I asked him what happened, why Alice was holding the camera with such a confused and hurt look drowning out her normally happy, angelic features. I was blown away when I learned what was happening. I wanted to go and see Alice and try to find out how she was, but Jasper told me it was best that she was left alone for now… and I understood, completely. She needed time to process this. I felt the same way when I learned what happened to my family. Emmett and I returned to our room and we sat on our couch, speechless. After about ten short minutes of not saying anything, I broke the silence and asked Emmett if he wanted to go hunting. He did, but first he wanted to ask Jasper and Alice if they wanted to join us. He thought it might help Alice, keep her a little distracted while she figures out how she feels. So I sit here now writing to you and thinking about the lives that has been changed all because of Bella Swan. The death of James, a nomad vampire. The eternal loss of love for Victoria, she will never again know the touch of her love and must now walk the earth alone. My sister Alice, who has discovered that the reason why she has no memory is because she was locked in an asylum all alone in darkness. Something I’m assuming she would have preferred not knowing. All these lives affected by Bella Swan. I fear that if she and Edward continue this relationship many more will suffer. Such a fragile human, yet she causes so much destruction. So much chaos. ~Rosalie Hale Date: March 13th, 2006
Dearest Diary Edward and Bella’s relationship has grown in such a short time; is it love that the two share? I believe it is. How can Edward love someone who he wants so badly to kill? He has changed so much in the short time since he first met that Bella human. He composes songs without bitterness or darkness. The music he writes and performs is sweet and alluring. He has a natural talent for music, that brother of mine. It’s beautiful. Edward and I have yet to reconcile, if you’re wondering. I blame Bella for the conflict she has brought, but I also blame myself for my own pride. I had the power to change everything, to just give in and accept their relationship, but if I did that I would be betraying my beliefs. I would be disregarding the law. Vampire law. Edward informed us that he intended to bring Bella to our home today. Lovely. I was against it, of course. The girl already knew too much about us. Alice was excited and full of life. She had told us she had a vision that she would be best friends with Bella. So I guess I have been replaced. I, however, am not threatened by Bella. She is only human, after all. A weak, fragile human. Alice and Jasper decided to go hunting to make things easier on Jasper. He doesn’t have the control the rest of us do yet. Esme said she was fine, her eyes still perfectly golden. Carlisle was in his office, working. Emmett seemed excited to meet the Bella girl, but I decided I could not be there. I went to Esme and told her I intended to go out to the old cottage near by. I planned on doing some homework I’d neglected. Esme tried to convince me to stay, and Emmett wanted me to stay too, but I held my own. Edward overheard everything and spoke up. “No it’s fine Esme,” he said. “If she can’t be happy for me, I rather her not be here when I bring Bella over.” I looked away from Edward and excused myself then grabbed my school bag and left the house. I traveled through the forest, running at inhuman speed. I found myself somewhat startled when I saw that Emmett was running beside me. I asked him what he was doing, why he wasn’t at the house. He grinned. “Where you go, I will follow… even if it’s to the ends of the universe,” he said, lovingly. I smiled, shocked by his devotion. I know Emmett loves me more than anything, but I still get surprised when he shows it. After a quick run, we arrived at the cottage. Emmett and I entered silently through the front door. I sat on the old comfy chair and lowered my bag. I was surprised Esme has not redecorated this old place. I did my homework while Emmett talked, trying to convince me to go back to the house. I told him no, I did not want to be around the human and if he wanted to, he was free to go and take part in the illegal activities. “Come on babe, don’t be like that,” he responded. I looked down, then back up at Emmett, who was frowning. His beautiful face he was so adorable when he frowned. I stood up and walked to Emmett and climbed onto his lap then kissed his lips. He kissed me back and wrapped his huge arms around me. I felt so safe in his muscular, yet comforting arms. Like nothing else mattered. Simply being held by Emmett melted away any fears I had… momentarily. I kissed Emmett’s lips again, softer this time, then moved down to kiss his neck. Emmett groaned. “That feels good Rose,” he whispered, grinning. I smiled and softly bit his neck. I enjoyed his scent more than anything. It was intoxicating to me. I pulled out of Emmett’s hug and pulled off his shirt. “Like what you see, babe?” he asked, his golden eyes sizing me up. I nodded my head and smiled as I leaned in and kissed his chest. “My monkey man,” I breathed. Emmett had that smile on his face. You’ve never seen such a beautiful smile, Diary. It’s unbelievable. Emmett….this smile he does…. it’s not using his mouth really, it’s like he’s smiling with his eyes. He gets this look and it’s extremely bold and seductive and really mischievous - way more so than his usual mischievous grin. I can swear my lifeless heart almost begins to beat again when he looks at me that way. Emmett stood up and he carried me to the table, my legs wrapped around his waist. He leaned down and pushed my school books off the table without effort. Emmett and I made love right there in the cottage. The table, needless to say, did not survive our little adventure. Emmett was proud to say it was because of our passion. He always seems proud when we break the furniture. My theory was the termites, of course. But I let Emmett have his victory, not wanting to spoil his good time. Shortly after, Emmett received a text message from Alice. “She says there is going to be a storm tonight, you know what this means,” he said, his eyebrows almost lifting off his face. “Baseball,” I replied with a wink. Emmett Lifted me up and swirled me around in the air holding me close to his chest. “Come on babe. You’re going to play, right?” I looked at him for half a second, then smiled. How could I refuse him. I caved in and told him I was in. I decided to ignore Bella, for my Emmett. She wasn’t going to ruin his fun. We went to the clearing and the thunder was impressive. Loud enough to drown out our thunderous batting. Bella was there, and she was dressed rather plainly. I was surprised Alice did not dress the girl. I mean, since they’re all best friends now. Alice always picked out everyone’s outfits. She tends to know what looks good on people. We played baseball for a short time before Alice got a vision. We quickly gathered around and she told us that there were vampires coming in our direction. Needless to say, things got chaotic, and of course, it was Bella’s fault. The vampires were nice; they even wanted to play ball with us, until James caught Bella’s scent and wanted to have her as a snack. Edward’s hisses were louder than the rain pouring from the sky. His growls gave the thunder a run for its money. After a menacing warning, the clan left Bella unharmed… but she isn’t safe yet. We went back to our home and one of James’ coven members, Laurent, was there. He had a warning for us. He told us all that James is a tracker. The hunt is like a game to him. He wouldn’t stop until he caught Bella. Edward was overwhelmed with guilt for putting Bella in harms way and demanded I help him. “Go upstairs and trade clothes with Bella,” he said, and I knew it wasn’t a question. I looked at Edward’s eyes and saw fear. It was painful to see such fear, and a part of me wanted to help him. I could forget every hurtful word he said, and those loathing looks, but I couldn’t help him. I couldn’t help protect a human… I am a vampire. We don’t protect humans. “Why should I?” I rebutted. “What is she to me… except a menace, a danger that you have chosen to inflict on all of us?” I tried to sound as cold and ruthless as possible. Emmett placed his hand on my shoulder. “Rose,” he tried to sound rational, but I shook his hand off me before he could say anything more. I stood my ground and refused to ignore the law. At least I tried to… The way Edward looked at me after I said that. It gave me a moment to reconsider, but I refused again and then this new look came over him. He looked at me as if he did not know me, like I was non-existent to him. He looked like he saw nothing but a vacancy where I stood. I watched him turn to Esme and ask her to trade clothing with Bella instead. “Of course,” Esme replied, and she was next to Bella in a heartbeat. Esme took Bella upstairs and after they left Carlisle approached me and we got into a small argument. He told me Bella was a part of our family now. He told me that I had to treat her like family, because she is with Edward. I told Carlisle that I believe everything Edward was doing was foolish. I told him that Bella could not be a part of this family. I looked at Emmett and saw him gear up, grabbing a large backpack. I had no intention of helping Edward out, until Carlisle made me feel guilty. I should tell you about my father’s ability. Some say Carlisle is the most compassionate vampire on the planet. I say he is the master of guilt trips, though. When Carlisle went to defend me to Edward, he was sure to make me feel an unrelenting guilt. “I am sure Rosalie has her reasons Edward. Even if she does not want to help the family, who have shown her so much love and support in the past,” he said, putting his head down as if he were ashamed of me. Once Carlisle spoke, I knew I would end up defeated. I should have known Carlisle would come to Edwards aid. I mean, he is the favorite. I sighed… finding it harder to give in than I imagined, and told them that the only thing I would do is take Bella’s truck with Esme to watch over Bella’s father Charlie while they’re gone. That’s it. Nothing more, and nothing less. Carlisle thanked me for helping them out and I glowered at him with obvious resentment. Esme returned from upstairs and was not surprised by all this. Like all vampires, she has magnified hearing that is perhaps a thousand times better than humans. Emmett was going to the front line of this war with Edward to take James down. Emmett is the strongest out of us. He really is my monkey man and I admire his courage. I went to Edward as everyone left for the kitchen and gave him a little piece of my mind. “If anything happens to Emmett, I will never forgive you, Edward. Make sure you take care of him for me,” I said firmly. I was almost shocked by how cold and ruthless my voice sounded. I knew everyone, apart from Bella, could hear. I didn’t care though. I just wanted to make sure Emmett remained safe. I went to the kitchen and joined my family. I refused to make eye contact with Carlisle. I was still angry about the guilt trip card he played. Emmett hugged me tighter than ever. “Relax Rose,” he started. “I promise I am going to be okay.” I hugged Emmett back and asked, “do you promise?” He nodded his head and told me to relax again. I pulled back and looked at Emmett. I knew he saw this as a game. Something fun to do. Emmett is always so reckless. I can’t help but worry about him. I just hope he keeps his promise and comes back to me safely. I can’t function without him. We all left according to the plan, and now Esme and I have begun watching Charlie. I don’t mind watching Charlie at all, actually. I do not blame him for his daughter’s actions. He seems to be a good man. He seems lonely. We are watching Charlie now, at this very moment. He is inside his home, dozing off with the game on the television. I feel for Charlie, he has dedicated his life to upholding the laws of humanity and has done no wrong to anyone, and now, he is in mortal peril without even knowing. The only thing I can say is if I am a terrible daughter for not wanting to help my family out, then how much worse is Bella for endangering her own father’s life. I need to go now, Esme wants to talk and I should be watching for the red headed Victoria woman. Rosalie Hale Date: March 9th 2006
She came to us from the Valley of the Sun, her essence drove my brother insane and now she knows the truth. What next will befall my family & how do we survive the chaos she brings, I wish I knew the answers to these questions, the only thing I know now is we are no longer safe. Dearest Diary I am sincerely sorry for not writing to you Diary. I have been under so much strain that not even Emmett's warm embrace can relieve. Edward and I still are not on talking terms we speak only when needed. I Have even stopped going hunting with Edward. He knew what he needed to do to end this feud. He had to stop obsessing over that Swan girl. Esme of course dislikes how we are treating one another, but I refuse to sell out and trade in my morals and beliefs. Humans should be with humans. Bella deserved humanity. She deserved to live a life of joy. To have children and grow old and die that is the way it should be. Edward's behaviour has become careless and eratic. Exactly seven days ago Edward snuck into Bella's bedroom and watched her sleep. The next day Edward sits with her during lunch...while Emmett, Jasper, Alice and I sat outside, as if I needed more reason to dislike the human. Last night everything changed Edward returned home. I could smell the scent of Bella all over him and I asked him where he had been. He told us he was following Bella and was glad he did it she was almost attacked by thugs. I was shocked when I heard that and I had a flashback to that night where Royce and his friends attacked me. I was glad Edward followed her no one deserved to suffer that ordeal not even Bella. I wondered how was it one girl could gravitate so much chaos to her? She has a talent for inviting death into her life. If I was her one of her human friends, I would be anxious when I was around her. My sympathy for the Swan girl quickly ended when I learned that after saving Bella he admitted not only his identity as a vampire, but all of our Identitys. I was furious with Edward and called him a fool for exposing us. I reminded him about the Voltori and he told me not to worry that if they found out he would take all the blame so "My shallow neck would be safe" I was hurt at those words. How could Edward not realize that it was not just my own safety I was concerned about, but that of our family...of his safety. I recovered from that verbal kick to the stomach and told him "you better." Afterwards I left the family meeting and Emmett joined me shortly after. We went to the clearing and spent the night there and then returned to get ready for school. When I arrived home Alice chimed cheerfully that Edward had gone to pick up Bella and take her to school. So this meant I would be taking Emmett, Alice and Jasper to school in my car. That's fine I had no problem with that and to be honest I did not want to be anywhere near Edward after the hurtful thing he had said. I wondered how could Edward my older brother be so selfish and so pigheaded to not see the truth, to not see how much he was endangering us his family & how much he is stealing from Bella. I know he cares for her I can see it in his eyes and I can see how much he is changing, it's gradual. But I see his humanity being restored and how alive he is becoming. It's a new Edward, but this new Edward comes at much too high a price. Today Edward and Bella went public with their relationship everyone at school is talking about them. Poor Mike Newton looks like he found out his puppy had cancer or something. Eric and Tyler did not take it much better, I wondered if they formed a I hate Edward Cullen club and then decided I was thinking too much about the humans. I had stuck with Emmett today and reminded myself of my own private rule I had made after the whole ordeal with my father's death. Never ever take an interest in the humans and that's what I do. I partake in class, but only when needed. I keep trying to think of a way to stop Edward, but I know I can't he will follow his heart and do what he thinks is right. All I can do is hope, hope that he will come to his senses and let Bella go. Let her go and give her the greatest gift he could ever give her....Life. ~Rosalie Hale Date: January 26th 2005
Dearest Diary This is going to be a short entry as Emmett and I have a lot of plans today, but the important thing is we have survived....our secret is safe for now. Edward followed Bella around the entire day, he can't read her mind for some reason, but he could read the minds of those around her. She told no one. I am thankful for that, but I also know this will not be the last of Bella Swan. She has seen far too much, the human girl will ask questions on how Edward saved her. The real question is, will Bella know what's good for her and keep away from us? I have been watching Edward during school today. It's true I could not watch him in class since I am a senior, but I have been watching him at lunch and I can see his attention is focused on Bella he watches her so intently...I begin to suspect Edward is indeed having feelings of affection for her. Jasper told Edward that it's best to keep himself clear of Bella, but I doubt Edward will listen to that advice. Edward Cullen has never been one to listen to the advice of others. I mean look at his hair, for over fifty years I have been telling him to take pride in his appearance, but he shrugs it off and continues to go around as an untidy man. I have actually stopped giving him advice it's just too exhausting to nag him about something he will never change. Edward snapped at me today on the drive home from school. I asked Edward what his plans were to deal with Bella and he told me in these words "you really should stop obsessing with this Rosalie and mind your own business." I folded my arms and found myself offended by Edward. He later appologised to me, but I shrugged him off, instead Emmett and I went to the clearing and we spent some time together. I was afaid not just for Edward, but for all of us. Edward was too close to breaking one of our laws the law of secrecy. No human can ever learn the existance of vampires. True they know of vampires, but they know us only as a myth, that is the way the Voltori set it up. The Voltori are an Italian coven of vampires that are considered royalty amongst our species. They are the keepers of our law and are unforgiving.....as the Denali's learned the hard way. The Voltori is led by three ancient vampires, Caius a man who is as cold hearted as his skin, Marcus a man who has suffered the greatest tragedy a vampire could ever come across and finally the most dangerous one of all, Aro, the man with two faces. Now Aro doesn't have two faces, but he is fake he acts all friendly and nice, but in reality is a cold hearted collector. He collects talented vampires to increase his guard. He is not one to be underestimated! I have learned about the Voltori from Carlisle's lectures back in my newborn years and from Tanya. The Voltori wanted to wipe out the Denali coven because of Tanya's mother, she broke the law by creating an immortal child. You can never can you turn an infant into a vampire, it will only bring chaos, because their minds will forever be at that age that they are turned and never developed. Caius insisted of Tanya and her sister's death, but they were spared in the end thanks to their ignorance of their mother's action. This happened a long long time ago way before I ever became a vampire. Still Tanya and her sisters suffer the loss of their mother. I don't want to lose Edward he may be a grouch, but he is family. I told Emmett of my fears and Emmett just hugged me and said it would be awesome to get into a fight with Felix. I sighed, Emmett is always a little over energetic, always wanting to fight with someone. I do my best of course to exhaust some of that never ending energy. It usually ends with us needing a new house. I don't really mind and it gives Esme something to do. I really should go now Emmett and I are going Hiking this afternoon and maybe we might thin out the forest if you catch my drift. ~Rosalie Hale Date: January 26th, 2005
Dearest Diary I don't even know where to begin in updating you from the events of the last eight days so as always I will start at the beginning. Edward never returned my calls surprise surprise! He returned four days later and began to go on regular hunts, taking as much precautions as possible to avoid eating the Swan girl. Esme is glad to have Edward home, she was hurt that he left so sudden, she understood why he did it though. I could see now how hurt Esme would have been if I ran away all those years ago rather than return home. I don't hold a grudge against Edward how could I hold a grudge against family, I have accepted him no tact and all. I was glad when Edward returned home, I was worried about him. I know the Denali's would never harm him, but I felt better having him close so I can watch over him. Edward, Emmett and I went hunting the day before yesterday. I did my best to keep my thoughts to myself and avoid placing strain on Edward. He is already suffering so much from the swan girl's presence. Edward returned to school with us the day before yesterday and there it began, the swan girl was eyeing Edward like a moth to a flame. I watched the Swan girl with curiosity, see, humans have this powerful instinct for survival, they may not understand the instinct and will often dismiss it as thinking they dislike people like us, because of our uniqueness, but that is actually their human survival instinct telling them to run for the hills. The point I am trying to make is, normal humans do not approach us because it's their instincts telling them to run the other way. I could see Bella's eyes with my enhanced sight, the distance did not hinder me at all and I saw something alarming..... I saw no fear in her eyes, but I did see something else. I looked into Edwards eyes and I also saw something unusual, I could see he hated the Swan girl, but I saw something else like a spark. This was very unusual, Edward's interest is peeked. I wonder what it means, could it be he has.....no that's impossible it's not that. I need to get a grip, I am seeing things. He sees Bella as a human happy meal nothing else I am sure of that. Edward, however, did something yesterday that is unacceptable he exposed us!. We were at school and one of the humans, what was his name, oh yes, it was Tyler Crowley. He lost control of his van and almost turned the Swan girl into a pancake. Tyler's van was about to crash into Bella and her ugly truck. She survived, your asking how she survived right? Ok I will tell you how. Edward saved Bella by stopping the van with his strength. I don't believe it, how could he be so foolish, he exposed not just himself, but our entire family. I drove Alice, Jasper & my Emmett home, while Edward went straight to the hospital with Bella. I dropped off my family & husband at home so they could tell Esme and I drove straight to the hospital. I found Edward in the waiting room and pulled him up on his actions. he debated this naturally. He claims no one will believe her, if she told anyone and I reminded him this was not just about him, but our entire family. I wanted to continue my point, believe me, I had a lot of good points to make, but Carlisle pointed out we should take our discussion to his office. I looked around and saw her I shot her a threatening look. Carlisle and I went to his office where he tried to calm me down, but I would not hear a word of it . I waited impatiently for Edward to finish his discussion with the Bella. Edward finally joined us he explained the conversation he had with Bella and I asked him about the next time she wanted answers. Carlisle suggested the excuse of an adrenaline rush. That's all very well, but I asked what about the evidence of the hand print left in poor Tyler's van. Edward looked stumped as to what to do about that, I sighed and told him I would clean that up. But it would be the last time. I left Edward and Carlisle in a rage and went to the car lot. I waited until it was clear and then got rid of the evidence of Edward's hand print. Then I returned home to be with Emmett. We went for a walk to the clearing. I enjoyed being at the clearing alone with Emmett we spoke a bit and Emmett told me Jasper's is also furious about Edward exposing us. I asked Emmett what he thought and he told me he did not know what to think, he does know he is not to fond of Bella. Emmett hugged me from behind reassuring me. He told me not to worry about it that our secret is safe. I received a text message from Jasper telling me Edward was home. Emmett and I went home and we went to see what Edward would do about Bella. The entire family was gathered and I asked Edward what he planned to do about Bella. He told us he would follow Bella around for the day and hear the thoughts of everyone around her to see if she would expose us. That seemed to satisfy the family, but I still did not like it. I left Edward and everyone else and went to sit on the roof to calm down. Emmett came and kept me company, not too long after leaving everyone and held me in his big strong arms. I found myself calming down as I sat in his lap and felt safe. I loved it when Emmett held me and kissed me it felt like bliss like cloud 9 as the human's of today's world would say. Emmett and I are going back to the clearing now to spend some alone time together. I want to forget about our problem with the Swan girl at least for a little while. ~Rosalie Hale |
InfoRosalie Lillian Hale In 1933, Rosalie was transformed into a vampire by Carlisle Cullen after being raped and beaten to the brink of death by a group of drunken men, including her fiancée Rosalie's diary is written by Martin. Fan Page
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