Dear Diary,
Breaking Leah's heart was the last thing I wanted to do. I love her I really do, but its just not enough anymore. I wish I could have told her why, that was the hardest part. The life that I was born into, was a life I would have never chosen. Had things been different I would have probably stayed with Leah. Now I had Emily. The girl I imprinted on. I've heard of imprinting from the elders. They had said it was a myth, but I guess they didn't know any better. When I saw Emily on the beach it was like my life was dim and she brought the light. She was the gift I didn't know I wanted. The past two weeks that I didn't see Leah I was with Emily. Yes, I know its wrong but I had to know her. I need her, I needed to make sure she was ok. When I made her laugh and my heart skipped a beat I knew that my life was circled around making her laugh that beautiful laugh of hers. Although we hung out those two weeks I knew that it was killing her to see her cousin hurt. Day after day when she sneaked away and asked me if I was going to speak to Leah, my Reply was always the same "I'm not ready". And I wasn't. I wasn't ready to break her heart, but I knew the day had come when Emily voiced her feelings to me. She had told her aunt that she was going for a walk. When I saw her I knew something had been bothering her. "Em, Whats wrong?" "Sam, I don't know whats going on, but I cant deny there's a connection between us, and that's not right. When your gone I can't wait for the next day so that I can see you again. And then when I'm coming to meet you, I feel like jumping out of my skin with anticipation and when where together I feel..."she stopped for a second looking away from me and then whispered "Complete. I don't want to hurt Leah but I cant go pretending I don't feel anything for you any more." She looked at me again and I saw the tears threatening there way out of her eyes. I knew that even if I wasn't ready to face Leah that I had to do it. Talking to Leah wasn't the only thing I had to do. It was time to tell Emily the secret I had and the reasons behind everything. I had spoken to old Quil and he said that imprinting means you found your soul mate and there was no keeping secrets from a person you knew you were going to spend your life with. "Emily" I began taking her hands into mine "I feel the connection to, but before I go talk to Leah I have to tell you something, and I hope you take it well cause I don't know what im going to do if you leave me." she looked at me stunned. I walked her to the nearest log and we sat down. "Have you ever been to one of the reservation bonfires?" I asked. "Umm yeah Leah took me to one last month but she said you where sick." She answered I nodded my head and continued "Do you remember any of the stories they told you?" she nodded "A little. I remember a story about the third wife giving up her life, And then there where stories about tribe members turning into wolfs to protect the tribe." "Right well how would you feel if I told you those where not just stories, and that to this day tribe members turn into wolves to protect the tribe from cold ones?" She looked at me with those perfect eyes. Her face showed no emotion,but I could tell she was wondering, thinking and I knew it was only a matter of time before the questions started. "I wanna see. If the stories are true and your telling me what I think your telling me, and you can turn into a wolf. Prove it to me and show me." she said. Well if this was the reaction that I was going to get I'll take it! I looked at her. Her perfect beautiful face was glowing with what looked like excitement. I smiled at her. If she wanted to see then I would show her. I stood up with her hands still in mine and told her to come with me in the woods. We walked a little bit before I stopped and turned to her "Wait here". She nodded and looked around a little bit. I walked into the woods a little more so that I was out of her sight but she wasn't out of mine. I stripped out of my shorts, it was better to phase with no cloths on, I learned the hard way that when you phase your cloths get shredded. I thought it was best to have cloths for the talk me and Emily would have afterwards. I started to feel the heat rise from with in me and I let it take over I felt my body burst and then I was on all fours. I heard Jared in my head, but ignored him for now I had to concentrate on Emily. I walked closer to her slowly the branches beneath me crunching. I saw her straining her eyes to see where the noise was coming from and then her face went from questioning to shocked. As I came into view she backed away a little. We both stopped and then I saw understanding on her face. I laid down in front of her putting my head on my legs and stared up at her. "Sam?" She asked. I lifted my head and just looked at her. "Its you isn't it" She laughed. I nodded my head and smiled the best I could in this form. I loved her laugh, so musical. she reached her hand out slowly and closed the short distance between us. She scratched behind my ear and I let out soft purr. She laughed a little and I looked at her. "nothing you just sounded like a real dog" . I let out a little bark she jumped but laughed again. "Can you turn back now?" I nodded my head got up and ran back into the trees. I Phased back put my shorts back on and walked back to Emily. She smiled when she saw me and I heart gave and excited jump. When I reached her she hugged me and said "That's really cool!" I laughed and hugged her back. I pulled away a little to look at her, really look at her -her cute little nose and beautiful mouth, her perfect skin and her amazing eyes- stood out to me like never before. Then I realized there was one more thing I needed to tell her. "Emily there one more thing I need to tell you." She took a step back and looked at me. I didn't know how to tell her that she was my soul mate, the love of my life, the person I wanted to wake up to every morning, have kids with and that she was the person I wanted spend the rest of my life making happy. "I imprinted on you"I blurted out. "What the hell is that?" "Its when a wolf finds their soul mate" I said. She looked taken aback like she was trying to figure out what to feel. she finally settled with an "I don't understand" "The moment we find our soul mate. Its like love at first sight but stronger, that day I saw you on the beach with Leah I imprinted on you. The connection you feel between us that's the imprint. I'll do anything to make you happy Emily." She smiled a little bit and then gasped. I looked at her questionably. she said "Leah" and then the tears fell from her eyes. "We can't Sam this will kill Leah" and she ran, I followed her of course, I called her to her but she didn't listen or slow her speed I could have caught up to her but I let her run. When she got home she didn't stop. I heard her go to her room and slam the door. I listened from outside for a bit. It killed me to hear her crying and not be able to go comfort her. I heard Leah walking to her door and asking what happened, I heard Emily Say that she was sorry. I was suddenly hit with the realization of what I had to do. I walked into the house with a nod from Leah's father up and up the stairs. When I said Leah's name she jumped then threw her arms around me. I winced knowing that what I was about to do was going to be difficult for the both of us. I pulled away and looked at the girl I onced loved. "Leah can we talk?" ~Sam
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InfoLeah Clearwater is a woman consumed by the jealousy in her heart. She walks a dark and bitter path loved by no one and trapped by fate. Leah walks her path determemined to find an escape at the end of the bitter sweet oblivian she has chosen to walk. Leah's diary is written by Amanda Fan PageArchives |