Topic: The Tour guide is me, I should be home with my babygirl.
Date: May 22, 2009 Yo Diary Some things you may be interested in, I am still under penalty and I have just realized it may stay that way for the duration of the pregnancy. Sarah has gotten huge and is rather moody too. Jane brought something up and Sarah looked like she wanted to rip out Jane's tongue. Jane's and Sarah's hatred seems to be rather mutual, but from what I saw from Alec and Demetri they don't seem to mind Sarah. The only thing bothering me is Aro's interest in Sarah. I think he still wants her in his guard, but Sarah would never join the guard she has the baby and she has me too. The Voltori decided to stay and help out as much as possible. They were curious about how the pregnancy would work. Aro told me he saw everything from Edward Cullen's thoughts during the whole incident, but still he wanted to document this pregnancy, see how things would work out. I did not mind as long as he did not want my babygirl, our child or me killed. I was fine with them as house guests, it should be fine. Aro came up with the idea of us going hunting in the city, I personally thought it was a bad idea. I wanted to be with Sarah. I was worried about her, but Marcus volunteered to stay behind and Sarah told me she wanted fresh blood and not the stuff in the blood bags. I frowned and reluctantly left with Aro, Demetri and the twins. I decided we should drive to town and look as normal as possible Jane was down right unpleasent as she and her brother sat in the back beside Demetri and asked "Are we there yet" several times I was driving slow for a reason, mainly because I did not want a speeding ticket and get a cop killed. I mostly fed off the criminals and those who smelled nice, I did not like feeding off those who dedicated themselves to bettering humanity. We arrived in the city and parked in the usual parking lot and we left. The day was dark and stormy so there was no chance of the sun coming up. We hunted the streets, Jane moved beside me the entire time. It was not unusual for Jane she is always close to me when I visit the Voltori, people often think of her as crazy. I think of her as a confused child. We hunted in silence moving with inhumane speed and agility through the alleys as we caught suitable meals. We eventually broke off into two squads, Aro went with Alec and Demetri in one direction, while I left with Jane to go in the other. We were hunting for a while and then Jane finally asked me what I saw in the human, as she put it. I told Jane that Sarah was an amazing woman, true she was human, but she was a fighter and stronger then anyone could imagine. I told her that not even Sarah knew her own strengths and it was true Sarah did not see herself with accuracy, there is so much she doesn't see about her self. Jane looked at me like I was insane, she told me that Sarah was still a human and that I should forget about her and stick to my own species. I asked her what about Sarah and my child and jane told me to let Sarah die and give the child to the voltori. She told me I should join and serve Aro in the guard. I told Jane I would never join the guard. I was no man's slave, not anymore and I would never let my woman die or give my child away. Jane went silent after that and we had nothing to say to each other. The rest of the time Sarah was on my mind. I thought about the first time we had sex. The way she confided in me before we got lost in our passion and love for each other, it's one of my favourite moments with her. Another moment with Sarah that I treasure is making love with her under the stars ,the way she looked that night there was no words to describe it. I don't think Jane could ever understand the love I share with Sarah. Jane eventually spoke and asked me what was the one thing I hated about Sarah. I thought about it and told her there was not a single thing that I hated about my babygirl. I loved every single thing about Sarah. Jane looked at me with a sneer and asked another question about Sarah. "Fine what is the one thing you love most about her?" Jane spat out. I could hear the hatred in Jane's voice, but I chose to ignore it and told her, "That is too hard to answer, Sarah is magnificent, I guess I have to say I love her fighting spirit. Once Sarah sets out to do something she will never ever give up, she will keep pushing herself, long after everyone else has quit. She knows what she wants and will go to hell and back to get it." We finished hunting and I grabbed a human for Sarah, knocking the human out and carrying it to the boot of my car with inhuman speed. You would not believe how easy it is to carry around a human, you just need to have look outs and I had four watching my back. We made it home and I spent the rest of the day with Sarah. I watched her feed from the human. I ignored the curious glances of the others, apparently they wern't used to seeing a human consume blood. I did not care I was too lost in Sarah's movements. I just wanted to lay her down and tell her how much I loved her...no, I wanted to show her how much I loved her. An interesting fact I noticed was, the more blood Sarah drank, the stronger she was. Today she actually broke a chair with her hands. I asked her how she felt and she told me she was fine with the exception of always being thirsty and sleepy most of the time. I kissed Sarah's forehead my babygirl was such a trooper. Sarah's mood tends to swing a little from time to time, she actually wanted to take Jane on in a fight and compared Jane to Justin Beiber. Sarah and I spent the rest of the day together, she said she wanted to call the child Brian Junior or BJ for short. I told her "Are you insane woman, come now I will not have my son called Brian Junior or BJ for short, I forbid it Sarah. I will not inflict that name on an innocent child." Sarah wanted to know why and I told her "think babygirl, think BJ....BLOW JOB, do you really want to name our child that?" Sarah was about to say something, but Aro and Marcus joined us and we spoke about the pregnancy, Aro seemed excited and curious to see our child. I finally managed to spend some time alone with Sarah in my bedroom for a change. I laid beside her until she fell asleep. I kissed her forehead and came to write in you and explain how things were going. I will write again as soon as possible. Right now Sarah is my number one priority she is carrying my child and she must be taken care of. Brian jacobson
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Topic: Sarah's moody
Date: May 21st, 2009 It's been two days since I last told you what was going on, well my reason is, I have been watching Sarah like a fat kid watches cake. After I wrote to you I found myself dinner, and returned home with my snack. I found Sarah still on the couch wrapped in blanket watching Anne of Green Gables. Sarah was surprised by the snack and I told her this guy was her dinner. I was joking, I actually got her burger king she liked burgers and I did not want to be away from Sarah for too long. Sarah gave me a skeptical look and I laughed and told her "I'm just fucking with ya." I pulled out the burger king bag from behind my back and I heard her sigh out of relief. She walked towards me to get the bag and I saw something in her eyes, it was confusion. I watched my babygirl curiously and heard her say "tell you what I will give you the burger king and I will get chubby how about that." I raised an eyebrow and told her to forget it this was my meal. Sarah flipped me off and told me she was eating for two now and no hamburger would satisfy her. I told her I got her fries too, but she did not listen. I used my nail to cut into the humans neck and heard him cry out in pain. The human needed to suck it up, Sarah never cried out when I cut her, but then again I never cut that deep into her skin. The blood came pouring out and I held the human down Sarah came and started to drink the blood. I watched her it was exciting to watch her drink the blood, she was Incredible she did not even come up for air. I found myself getting horny and said "damn girl this is really turning me on." I broke one of the humans arms so he could no longer move and used my free hand to push Sarah's head deeper into the blood. It made me extremely happy in the pants watching her. I licked my lips watching the blood run down the sides of her face as she continued to feed. I watched Sarah, she was magnificent she placed her hands on the human's arms as she continued to suck his blood. I found my throat beginning to burn from thirst and I licked my lips hungrily. I asked Sarah to leave me some and she did nothing I asked her again and she stepped back gasping for air. I watched her face the lower face was completely covered in warm delicious blood. Sarah looked so sexy I just wanted to have her right there, but I was still under penalty for lying to her. I licked my lips and sunk my teeth into the human and heard him scream. I ignored the human and let go of my self control and fed off the human enjoying the blood as I drained him until he was empty and I dropped him to the ground and went to Sarah I licked her face clean of the blood and then licked her lips. "That was so incredibly hot, damn babygirl you're the perfect woman." I spoke quietly and placed my hand on her leg and moved it closer to her personal space . Sarah told me no and I stopped and sighed, we began talking about the events that happened. She told me there was no grudge between us for the lies I told her and she did not blame me. I smiled relieved and told her I figured as much. I asked her when penalty time would be over and she asked me if I was like this with all my other girlfriends. I told Sarah she was my first and I was a virgin before we had sex for the first time. Sarah actually laughed saying "I deflowered a Vampire." I felt embarrassed and grumbled telling her to shut up that it was not funny. Since sex was out of the questions, I asked Sarah some questions and learned that she could play the keyboard as well as guitar. I wanted to hear Sarah play the keyboard. I moved behind Sarah and hugged her she rested against me and I asked her to sing a song for me. Sarah was quiet for a moment trying to pick out a song and then she sung like a prayer. Sarah was amazing, she kept getting better and better each day. The only disappointment I found in her performance was she fell asleep while she sung. I had no idea how exhausted she was. I decided to get Sarah a present I would go buy her a keyboard, but first I went to her bedroom and pulled out a blanket and covered her in it. I then went to the city, there was a good music shop I knew of and afterwards caught a human for tomorrow. I wanted Sarah to have something nice to sink her teeth into. I returned home with plenty of time. My babygirl was still asleep. Sarah continued to sleep while I set up the keyboard and stand, it looked pretty impressive I found myself excited I could not wait to see what Sarah's reaction would be when she woke up, hopefully she will be able to play something for me. Sarah slept through out the night and woke up at ten am. She finally woke up, the first thing she saw was the keyboard. I chuckled at her expression, she asked me how I got it and I told her right after she fell asleep, I went to town and bought it for her. I also told her I'd brought her home a meal for today. She thanked me for the gift and I told her it was no problem . I asked her if I was still under penalty and she nodded her head I could not help, but let out a groan of disappointment. Sarah actually giggled and I almost smiled, the reason I didn't was because I was hoping she would feel sorry for me and throw me a get out of jail free card. Sarah surprised me and told me she would write a song for me. I looked up at her excited, Sarah would write me a song. I am so excited to see her creative talents be put to use. I told Sarah I could not wait to hear the song, that listening to her sing was inspiring. I could see Sarah blush and I watched the blood rush to her cheeks. I could smell the scent of her and I moved in closer to get a better taste of her scent and let out a moan. I decided to take Sarah outside to the beach and lifted her up. I walked outside and my skin began to sparkle into thousands and thousands of sparkling light like diamonds were embedded into my skin. I hoped to get Sarah in the mood and lowered her onto the ground while I removed all my clothing and stood in front of her naked. I kissed her neck and smiled before running into the water. The water did not feel cold to me, I felt nothing really. That was until I saw Sarah undress...... I was thankful I was already neck deep in water. She joined me and the entire time I stayed close to her ready to protect her and my unborn child. I find myself still wondering how is it that this beautiful human goddess changed me so much. I continued to stay close to Sarah and hugged her my hands traveled down to her ass, as I held onto her and licked her neck. I stopped and felt something intense it was like a jolt of electricity coursing through my body. I could see things that was before out of my range from touching Sarah. I could literally feel the blood flowing through her veins. I could hear the cars in New York driving on the freeway. I could taste Sarah's scent, but I could not enjoy it because of my sense of smell, I smelled the Voltori as the wind blew against us. I could smell Aro, Marcus, Alec & Jane, I however, was surprised at the last scent Demetri the tracker...I wondered what he was doing with the Voltori. Aro told me it would be just the four of them. Why bring a fifth and why were they coming today when they were due in a few days time with the rest of the guard. I told Sarah that I could smell the scent's of the Voltori. I carried her out of the water and bent over to grab our clothing. I explained to her the abnormality in my senses and did not watch her face. I was mostly concerned with Demetri's presence, I had intended to run with Sarah if things got out of hand, we would have had a head start as Demetri would be in Volterra. The advantage was now gone, I would just have to hope things didn't get out of hand and that Sarah and I would be alright. Sarah and I showered inside and we got changed. We sat down together and I told her I would have to go to town and illegally buy some blood from the blood bank. Sarah asked me why and I told her because the Voltori would be thirsty. I watched her frown and I did not want to go, but I went to town and took Sarah's car. I had refused to allow her to drive her birthday present for two reasons the first she was an insane driver, the second is because she is too fragile at the moment. I bought the blood easily, it only cost me twenty thousand. I think I was overly generous, I don't really care in all honesty, I am so wealthy it won't be missed. I returned home and the scent of the Voltori were everywhere. I entered the house with the blood bags and found the Voltori in the lounge room sitting near Sarah on the couch. Jane watched Sarah with utter loathing on her face. I greeted them quietly and Marcus lifted Sarah into his arms and asked if she had a bed to sleep on. Seeing Marcus hold Sarah I lost control of my thoughts for a moment, I seriously thought about ripping Marcus arms off and slapping him with it. I told her that her bedroom was the first one on the right and Marcus carried Sarah off. I went to the kitchen and placed the blood in the fridge and returned greeting the Voltori in proper fashion as soon as Marcus returned. Aro shook my hand I knew this was only a formality, he wanted information and the fastest way was through contact of the skin. He had seen every single thought that had entered my mind since the last encounter we had. Aro immediately told me not to worry that they had no interest in taking Sarah or the child away from me. I watched him and saw Aro was thinking of something, he must have found one of my thoughts particularly interesting. I wonder which one it was, he eventually spoke and told me he found it interesting that I could smell his scent from such a distance. I told him that I found it strange, that nothing like that had ever happened before. Aro nodded and trailed off he began to tell me about the pregnancy symptoms the Bella Cullen had with her daughter hybrid. The information he had learned through Carlisle Cullen the leader of the Cullen coven. I had informed Aro that I had a few other guests coming over to help and witness for us and he told me that thry would not be necessary and they should not waste a trip here. The translation of that was call my friends and tell them not to come. I nodded and excused myself and called my friends telling them not to come. I did not need to offend Aro. Once that was done I returned and went over with all the information and asked if we should invite Carlisle, seeing as he is a doctor and Aro insisted that we were fine without him. We spent the rest of the morning speaking about Sarah. Aro had so many questions about her. I don't know why he was asking this when he basicly knew everything I knew. I guess it's for the other's benefit, seeing as they could not read my mind. Daylight arrived and to my surprise Sarah woke up before 10. I stood and walked to Sarah and hugged her, I kissed her forehead. She asked me what took me so long and I lied saying something came up at the office. It was only a small lie truth be told traffic was a bitch, but I did not want to talk about traffic with the voltori here. I moved behind Sarah as Aro moved towards Sarah of course Aro was curious about Sarah's thoughts. Sarah seemed occupied with Demetri. I wondered what went on in that head of hers. Aro spoke "don't fret child it's only Demetri a member of my guard." I realized Sarah was afraid . Aro placed his hand out towards Sarah's stomach and asked if he could touch her. I was surprised by Sarah's attitude...well that part is a lie. I knew she would give attitude, after all this is Sarah we are talking about. Sarah attitude was a threat as she replied "only if you want to be called stumpy." I nudged her gently immediately and explained Sarah was not a morning person. Sarah allowed Aro to touch her and I could see Aro's expression he looked shocked and uncomfortable. Jane immediantly ran to her master's side worried and I wondered what was wrong with Aro? Aro let go of Sarah and stepped back the look of shock was worrying. I asked Aro what was wrong and Aro explained his ability to us that he could hear every thought a person has ever had with a touch, but when he touched Sarah not only did he hear every thought Sarah ever but had he felt it too. Aro went on to explain he did not feel that last time he touched Sarah. I started to piece the clues together, first with my senses and now with Aro's gift intensified. I came up with two theories, the first, Sarah's gift, was being intensified by the unborn child she carried. The second theory was it was the child's gift that Sarah was accessing and If I was coming to these conclusions, then surely Aro must be too. Aro asked us to leave so they could discuss the new information. Sarah asked if they were joking and began to go off in a rant. Jane looked annoyed at Sarah. I quickly placed my hand over her mouth and asked them to ignore her, that blaming the outburst on hunger. I picked Sarah up and carried her to her room and closed the door. I let my hand go from her mouth and she continued the rant and I frowned listening to her rant in anger. Normally I found this sexy, but I knew there was no chance of me getting sex due to penalty time and the Voltori in the next room. So I just kept my mouth shut and listened. I eventually had enough of the rant, believe me Sarah was nowhere near the end of her rant, so I stood up and went to the lounge room and overheard Aro speaking "I agree Marcus, she is very interesting and daring might I add." I entered and apologised for interrupting while I grabbed the keyboard and went back to Sarah's room. I asked her to play for me and she told me she was too pissed off, I pleaded for her to play and she caved in. I wondered why she couldn't cave in about the whole no sex issue while she set herself up to play. Sarah told me "I wrote this song for you Brian, it's based on how my life was before you, and how everything has changed since I met you and mostly how I feel about you now." I listened in shock and then she began to play the keyboard and sing, the music was so sweet and refreshing and like always, hearing her sing inspired me and gave me the feeling that I can do anything. Aro was right, whatever Sarah's talent was becoming, it was intensifying. I could feel inspiration course through every fiber of my being. Sarah was so amazing I was completely lost in her performance I watched as She glanced at the door and I took a quick second to look, to see Marcus and Aro watching. I looked back at my babygirl listening to her sing for me. Sarah finished playing and the I heard Marcus speak "your theory is right her gift has grown even more powerful than last time." Sarah looked at Marcus and I turned to look at him, he seemed to be more lively then the last time he met Sarah. Marcus continued to speak "that was a wonderful performance, so inspiring and passionate." The brothers excused themselves and I stood up and went to Sarah. I wrapped my arms around her and did not let go. "Thank you babygirl ,that was an amazing song." I kissed Sarah on the lips and stroked her hair until she told me she was hungry. I left in a flash to go and get her food I did not want my woman to be hungry. I returned and found Sarah writing in her diary. I left her meal for her and wondered what she was writing down. I then decided to come and write to you and tell you of my time with Sarah and the amazing song she wrote about me. ~Brian Jacobson The song Sarah wrote for me Topic: Sarah is just full of surprises
Date: may 19th, 2009 Yo Diary, It's been a full day since we discovered Sarah was pregnant. I have called the Voltori. I trust them to help us. I have in the past done many favors for them by witnessing with the whole Cullen incident they would repay their debt I know it. I returned to my babygirl after I called the Voltori and a vampire decorator I knew along with a few friends. I considered calling Eleazar, but I fear our friendship may be stained as I was a witness for the Voltori, while he defended his extended family. I wonder if he would forgive me, probably not, I know I wouldn't forgive him if he did that. I told Sarah that I had a few friends coming, she was quiet, this was not good, Sarah was never quiet. I asked her if she was alright and she answered "Peechy." I flinched I hated having her mad at me, but I deserved it I could not believe how careless I was with Sarah I only hope she can forgive me someday. I told her that the Voltori would be arriving and I heard her heart beat erratically. I wanted to hold her and get rid of the fear she felt. I told her it was alright, that the twins, Marcus and Aro would be arriving to help us. Sarah asked about the law of secrecy and I tried now to calm her down that Aro would probably forgive us because of our child and him wanting to collect the child. I knew this would buy us some time to find a safe way of getting out of this mess I could hear Sarah hiss and I was surprised and found myself turned on I gave Sarah a dirty look she firmly told me "No." Sarah moved her hand over the baby bump and I told her of the other hybrids in existence. Sarah interrupted me and asked if I knew if a hybrid was possible. I nodded my head and Sarah called me an asshole. I chuckled the way she said it was amusing. I continued the story and she did not interrupt me I went on to tell her of the Cullens and my role as the Voltori's witness and the outcome of the entire mess. Sarah ended up saying "I am not giving our child up to some king, that he could kiss my ass, that It would be a cold day in hell before I gave my child up." I looked at her she was so fearless at this moment, I guess after Jayne she would only become more determined. I told her "Damn straight baby girl, I feel the same way." Sarah held my hand and tried to pull me closer. I moved to her on the couch and placed my hand over her stomach gently. I told Sarah this would be risky and there was a good chance she would die if not careful. Sarah's resolve is impressive, she is a strong woman, a fighter and I knew she would never give up and as long as she refused to give up then the least I can do is stay at her side and fight with her. She asked me about my friends coming over, I had told her about the interior decorator and that the rest were a people I trusted. Sarah wanted to know how I knew what choice she would make and I told her I could read her like a book. I leaned down to kiss her neck and moved my way down. Sarah told me no and I asked why not and she told me she felt hungry. I looked at her I was so in the mood for her I needed to connect with her. I asked her what the real reason was and she told me this exactly "Consider it penalty for getting me knocked up." I frowned and could not believe she was punishing me by withholding sex she was so diabolical. Sarah climbed onto my lap facing me she sat there and kissed me passionately. I found myself getting very aroused by Sarah and at that moment I thought she was just teasing me now. Sarah hugged me and we enjoyed the silence together, sometimes there was no need to speak its like we have an unspoken bond Sarah and I. Sarah eventually fell asleep and I picked her up and carried her to her bed. I tucked her in and licked her neck. I loved her scent it was always so overwhelming. I am just grateful that living as long as I have has taught me restraint. I can control myself well mostly, Sarah now has me addicted to sex and well she refuses to have it now. I feel like a child being punished for doing something wrong. Sarah eventually woke up and we spoke for a while, she asked me a lot of questions about vampires and I told her about the myths, she was surprised to find out I don't sleep. When she brought me up on it I told her I was faking and just feeling her perfect shaped body Sarah threw a punch and I caught her fist and kissed it. I could hear Sarah's stomach growl and I rubbed her leg she pushed my hand away and I sighed asking her what she wanted to eat. She told me to surprise her So I picked her up and put on the tv, she loved pay tv. She ended up watching "Anne of Green Gables" staring Megan Follows, on Hallmark .I looked at Sarah and asked her if she was serious. Sarah surprised me and told me "Anne of Green Gables" with Megan Follows is one of my favourite movies of all time." I never thought Sarah would like something so girly, I guess I don't know everything about her. I contemplated on reading her diary on my trip to New York. I decided not to I enjoy Sarah surprising me, it was fun. I think I will buy her a copy of that movie on DVD maybe watch it with her and get a little lucky if you get my drift. Anyway I need to go now. Sarah's meal is ready now to pay for it and find mine. ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Only Sarah would take the moment to realize she comitted necrofelia when discovering the man she loves is a vampire
Date: may 18th, 2009 She loves me, and I love her and our unborn child Yo diary I had watched over my beloved Sarah, watching her sleep, listening to the sounds of her beautiful heart beat....thump...thump...thump, each drum like heart beat was music to my ears. The scent emitting from her always overwhelming and pleasant to inhale spread across the room. I waited for my sleeping beauty to awaken, but she did not. I listened to her breathing and the heartbeats knowing she was alright, she was alive. I found myself asking questions about Sarah. Why did she attack the human? Why did she look so exhausted? Why won't she wake up? I waited and waited for Sarah to waken and sat beside her. I had my arm under her body supporting her and enjoying the closeness between us. I leaned in to her and kissed her lips and pulled back. She slowly woke up and looked at me. I looked at her eyes they held curiousity and then fear. I was surprised, why was she afraid, I asked her if she was alright, she nodded her head and the fear vanished, she suddenly just pounced on me and kissed me passionately. I pulled back and watched her anxiously she was begging for me to make love to her. I did not know what to do, she seemed off balance something about her was different. Seeing the need for connection in her eyes it was overwhelming. I ripped off her clothing and mine and moved on top of her. I leaned down to kiss her on the lips and positioned my hands over hers. I moved into Sarah and heard her gasp. I wondered if I was too cold for her. I leaned down to kiss her and Sarah noticed dry blood on my chin she asked me what it was and I told her strawberry jam, to my shock she leaned in and started sucking the blood off my chin. I watched her in shock and stopped moving into her when I heard a moan. Seeing Sarah suck blood from me it was a total turn on. I told her how hot it made me and she blushed for a moment and then I saw something in her eyes it looked like she was thinking something naughty. I could not stop myself any longer I needed Sarah. I needed to claim her and possess her and make sweet love to her. I kissed her passionately and claimed what was mine. I allowed myself to get lost in the passion and there was almost no thought left in my mind only instinct. I cut her neck with my fingers again and began draining her blood. I needed her flavor inside me. I felt her blood quell the burning thirst inside my throat. I stopped draining her blood and she leaned up to kiss me on the lips her blood on her own lips she seemed to enjoy it licking her lips and then thrusting her tongue into my mouth. I finally finished unable to hold back any longer and laid down beside her. I found myself staring at Sarah she had the taste of blood now, that much was obvious that must have been the reason why she attacked the human. I wondered why she wanted blood and why she became so savage to try to obtain it. Sarah eventually got up and walked a little stiffly. I guess I went too hard on her. I frowned, hating that I could crush her if I truly let go. Sarah went to the kitchen and I asked her what she wanted to eat Sarah told me she wanted the strawberry jam! Sarah did not want the strawberry jam she wanted blood...human blood. I remained calm and watched my beautiful angel. I told her we were out of strawberry jam and I watched her pout she looked so sexy when she pouted. Sarah instead decided on cooking instant noodle. I watched her, always looking at her checking for signs. I did not know what to look out for, but she seemed to be normal. I gently lifted my babygirl up and placed her on the counter, slowly I rested my arms around her neck and asked her how she felt. She was quiet and she thought about it before telling me that she was hungry, really really hungry. Sarah tried to push me away and I went with the flow not giving away that I could be as unmovable as a statue to her. Sarah picked up the hot noodles and she skulled it down not stopping for air my babygirl finished it in minutes. Sarah's stomach turned and I watched her as her facial expression changed. She ran to the balcony outside the kitchen door and I followed her to see her throw up repeatedly it was disgusting and foul to witness. I heard her curse the noodles, but she was not done throwing up she kept at it and I kept getting grossed out by seeing and smelling the foul thing leaving the lips I had kissed not long ago. Sarah finally stopped and turned to face me she wiped her mouth with her wrist and asked if I wanted a kiss. I told her hell no just being near her at the moment and seeing what I saw makes me sad in the pants....well I wasn't wearing pants at the moment, but it made me sad none the less. Sarah went up and I heard the tap running and the scrubbing of her toothbrush against her teeth and I sighed, out of relief. Next was the taps of the shower and I smiled and went to the bathroom and joined Sarah in the shower. I asked her how she was feeling and she told me "Better now that you are here." I could not help, but smile. I felt less sad, if you get my drift and leaned in to kiss Sarah's neck. I decided to tell Sarah the truth. I loved her and trusted her enough for her to know. She was mine too and it was better that she learned that. We finished the shower and got dressed together. I sat Sarah down in the lounge room and felt nerves consume me. I told Sarah the truth and saw her expression, her jaw opened slowly and I told her my past about my human life and how I became what I am. She seemed to be taking it well, she did not interupt me. I even told her the Voltori were vampires she was calm and silent she finally spoke and asked why I was telling her this. I told her that her behaviour is not normal and that maybe I may have infected her with something. I pointed out the changes and she did not admit to eating blood. I told her that she did and that it was blood not jam. Sarah still seemed to be taking it in her stride, but things began to change when she asked what happened to the jerk who grabbed her ass. I admitted to killing him Sarah asked me why I killed him and I told her "Because he touched you, no one, but me can touch you, you belong to me." Sarah's eyes widened and she was quiet for the longest time. I asked her to talk to me and she said to me "It's a lot to deal with and give me a moment to deal with it" I looked at her wondering what there was to deal with besides me being a vampire. Sarah broke into a rant "let's see the man I love is a vampire, he has just admitted he committed murder because an asshole cupped my ass. I am craving blood. I could be sick with some sort of illness and oh yeah I have committed necrophilia not once, but a few times and unlike Buffy I had no Idea I was committing it at the time." I smiled as she spoke she had just admitted to loving me. Sarah THE most beautiful and most talented woman in the world loved me. I could not help, but smile again I felt so good. I did not care Sarah broke into a rant I thought she was so sexy when she was pissed off. Ok, I found myself a little confused when she talked about some Buffy chick. Sarah told me she was going to her room and wanted some time alone. I frowned, but let her go I was in bliss at discovering that Sarah loved me. It was the first time she said that. Ok she was ranting, but ranting still counts. I let my babygirl have her processing time and went onto google and typed in Buffy and went to wikipedia and read up on it. After reading about it I looked it up on youtube, and found an episode and watched it. I found myself insulted Vampires don't turn into dust at sunlight.....WE SPARKLE. I shook my head in disbelief and shook it off, the humans had to believe these retarded myths, it was for our own safety. I finished my research on Buffy and sat outside Sarah's room. I waited outside her room all night waiting for her to come out, waiting to find out what her next move would be. I heard Sarah scream and I jumped onto my feet and went into her room. I looked at her in shock when I saw a bump on her stomach, it was big and it stuck out. I walked to her and sat next to he,r we were both in silence for the longest of time. I eventually stood up and told her that I needed to call one of my contacts. I walked out of the room and went to my office, sat in my chair and brought out my phone I had two choices I could call my friend Eleazar of the Denali Coven or I could do the right thing and call Aro of the Voltori. I picked up the phone and dialed the number ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Sarah snapped, kind of made me hot to see it though
Date: may 15th, 2009 Yo Diary I don't know what to say or think after the events of today. It seemed like it would be a good day. Iit started off in a normal fashion. I watched Sarah sleep through out the night and left her room at five am. I went to get ready for work and time went by. It was ten am. We should have been at the office already, but Sarah was still asleep I went to wake her up and failed, she just slept like she was dead to the world. I nudged her a little and she told me she was tired. I asked if she wanted to stay home today but she got up and got ready. We left home at 10:30 the drive to my office is usually an hour long. We got there at 11:00 thanks to my driving, we were late and I needed to catch up to salvage what was left of today's plans. I asked Sarah if she was alright and she insisted she was fine. Sarah thanked me for the good time last night. I told her I enjoyed myself just as much. I of course am addicted to Sarah. Everything about her drives me wild. When I look back on all those years of my cynicism towards love, I realized just how childish I was and thank the stars that Sarah came along and made me grow up. I asked Sarah if she wanted to go out again tonight and she told me that she wanted a quiet night in, maybe get an early night if possible. I raised an eyebrows as we entered my office. I wondered if Sarah was coming down with the cold . I locked the doors and hugged Sarah, my hands cupping her sweet ass and looked into her eyes. I was shocked to see how lifeless they looked, she looked so exhausted. "Sarah are you sure your ok?" I asked her worried and she reassured me that she was. I kissed my babygirl and we got down to work. I had an important client coming in today and I needed to get things sorted. Sarah did really well until the client came. I told Sarah to go make some coffee for the client while I got the last of the preparations ready and she did so. She went to give the client his coffee and something happened. Sarah instantly became distracted. I watched her as the client took an interest in my woman. I wanted to rip his eyes out of their sockets and stomp on them for the way he was looking at my babygirl. I had forgotten something in my office and when I returned the bastard had his hand on Sarah's ass. I was surprised to see Sarah did not knock the fucker over. I faked a cough and Sarah snapped out of her daze. Sarah moved away and called the guy a sleaze the guy told Sarah to bite him. I watched him come towards me, my attention suddenly shifted when Sarah went ape shit and ran towards him and tackled him and bit down into his neck. I watched in horror and I was not the only on,e my secretary Kayla was shocked too. I went to Sarah and grabbed her in a bear hug being really careful not to harm her. I held Sarah tightly and she was kicking and hissing. Sarah's behaviour reminded me of that of my newborn years craving blood and nothing else, but blood. I called Sarah a few times trying to calm her down and she finally regained her senses she looked up at me curiously. I fired Sarah on the spot and she was confused. I told Kayla take Sarah home, Kayla seemed a little frightened and I told her to expect a bonus in her next paycheck. I let go of Sarah and told her to go, Kayla put her arm around Sarah's back rather timidly and helped Sarah out. I was worried and frightened what had made my babygirl snap like a twig. I helped the client up, his fate was decided the moment he cupped Sarah's ass, he was a dead man. No one touched my woman like that and gets to live, Sarah IS MINE! The client decided not to do buisness with me, that was fine with me. I don't play with my food. I followed my victim around right after he left ,it was late already. I followed him home and stormed into his house. I killed his wife first and then killed him leaving no witnesses. I drove home fast speeding which resulted in a speeding ticket for me. I knew something was wrong with Sarah I had yet to figure out what. I found my Sarah sleeping on the couch. I picked her up and put her in the bedroom and went to my room and called one of the officer managers. He had been on paid vacation but I told him to get into the office. He would be taking my place until further notice. I needed to spend time with Sarah and find out whats happening to her. Brian jacobson Topic: Some say the only thing to fear is fear itself, they obviously never drove in a car with sarah
Date: may 14th, 2009 yo Diary Things with Sarah have been rather difficult the last few days she keeps insisting on going out and about she is so smitten with the beach that's in the back yard. She told me she always wanted to live on the beach and see the sun set over the horizon. I noticed Sarah was kind of poetic about these things even though she tries to act like a bad ass. I would have taken Sarah out and walked with her along the beach the problem is the damn sun if I go out I am going to sparkle in the sunlight and I am pretty sure Sarah will notice that. So I have been telling Sarah that I have been busy with work I was grateful today was a rainy day Sarah and I went out this morning and I asked her about her birthday and she told me it already passed. I went off into a rant I wanted to spoil her rotten and buy her a car. I decided to get her the car anyway and asked her about her favourate color. She told me and when we returned I went to my room and bought a car for Sarah, I have previously bought many cars from the place and the owner knew me well enough to know that he delivered fast he would get rewarded well. The car came before eleven am I was pleased Sarah did not want to accept the car and I frowned it made me sad, until she decided to accept it I was happy she chose to accept it. I allowed Sarah to drive the car to the city I must say in the first time in my immortal life I was afraid Sarah drove like a manic I thought I knew aggressive drivers I knew nothing until she drove. I asked her who taught her to drive and she told me no one, that she did not even have a drivers permit my eyes widen and I told her to pull over. Sure I could survive a car crash, but Sarah was really fragile she was only human. Sarah reluctantly pulled over and we swapped seats I drove us to the city and we parked in the parking lot I paid for the entire day and the security at the parking lot was good so it was worth it I did not want Sarah's present to get trashed. We walked around the streets Sarah seemed to be happy with just my company that's one of the things I loved about her she was just happy being with me, she did not want anything just my company. I would have to teach Sarah how to drive and I needed to figure out how to tell her what I was and when to turn her. I had so much to figure out and it all would affect Sarah. I am scared she will run away its one of the things stopping me from telling her. We walked in silence and I decided to be bold and try and snatch a small victory if possible. I told Sarah she should quit and let me support her she would have no word of it. I frowned and told her I would fire her then, she told me she would sue for unfair dismissal. I smiled she was so stubborn and such a fighter. I told her I would settle and she resorted to pleeding with me she told me she enjoyed working with me. I lost that battle my Sarah who knows what's going on in that pretty head of hers. We walked forever and once I notice her slow down I gave her a piggy back ride. Sarah told me people were looking at us and I told her who cares as long as were were together and happy nothing else mattered. Sarah rested her chin on my neck and told me I was right I teased her and asked if I could get that recorded onto my Ipod. She kissed my neck and told me only if she got to destroy the Ipod afterwards. I carried Sarah on my back as we strolled in the park and we laid in the grass together and talked about a lot I asked her if she could have any job in the world what would it be. She told me she would want to be a stay at home mother that nothing was more important to her than being a mother. She also told me like any other mother there is nothing she would not do to protect her family I believed Sarah when she said that, the strength she carried inside me never ceist to amaze me. Sarah was indeed the strongest women I will ever know the way she refuses to give up. It was nine pm when Sarah and I walked through town seeing her face light up when she saw all the lights in the world it was a joy to watch, she told me seeing New York it was beautiful I guess it was, but I found the joy on her face even more beautiful She has suffered so much I just want to see her happy now and I would dedicate eternity to make her happy. Sarah and I walked past a karaoke bar and she wanted to go in. I allowed her to go in and followed I would not allow her to drink anything I did not want my babygirl drunk. Sarah was happy listening to the people sing. I suggested she go up and sing and she became really shy one of the girls who just finished singing a song by some Hannah Montana girl, overheard Sarah and mocked her. Sarah became bold her fighter side came out with a vengeance she made a bet with the female. I was surprised when Sarah opened her wallet and put four hundred dollars out on the table it seemed she was saving up her pay I wonder why. The girl put the money on the counter, it was obvious she was not a smart girl, but then again she was arrogant. She had never heard Sarah sing, she had no idea of Sarah's talent. All I had to do now was wait and see what song she would sing and watch the money. She chose Say a little prayer by Dianna King it was an interesting choice indeed. I listened to her sing, her voice had changed it. I could see the pain, but it had decreased, what I saw tonight was attitude and defiance. it was like she wanted to defy the pain she had gone through, but the voice it was also loving I may be paranoid, but I think she is singing about me. I watched her and felt inspired. She was amazing, her gift only kept getting stronger. I wondered how it was happening. Sarah walked off the stage and approached the girl and waved the money she had won in front of the girl. "You just got served bitch" she said. I smiled loving Sarah's attitude. She put the money away in her wallet and she took my hand and dragged me out. We returned to the car and I drove her out to where we could get a view of the lights. Sarah and I watched the stars & the lights of New York City. Sarah surprised me by climbing onto my lap and she kissed me on the lips. She hugged me tightly and rested her head on my chest. I asked her about her song choice. She kissed my lips softly and told me that she chose it because she used to be numb, but slowly she felt like she was changing. I asked her what she meant and she told me she did not figure that much out yet. Sarah sat on my lap and watched the stars she was enchanted with the beauty of the stars and lights. I did not look up to the stars. I saw her and that was all I needed. I looked at Sarah and felt myself get aroused by her beauty she looked down at me and raised her eyebrow and said to me "is that a flash light in your pants or do you just want to play?" I chuckled and Sarah kissed my neck and we moved to the back seat of her car and we made love under the stars. Sarah seemed to be so horny recently, not that I mind, it was great I have gotten very addicted to Sarah in that way. When we were done we got dressed and Sarah looked satisfied and I of course could not complain she was a firecracker. We watched the stars until Sarah fell asleep. I drove home and put her to bed. I watched over her for a while and then went to my laptop. I did some work. I have a long day at work tomorrow....well today I should probably return to work and then I can get back to watching my Sarah. -Brian Jacobson Sarah singing Topic: My little nympho
Date: may 7 th, 2009 yo Diary I have been having a lot of fun with Sarah. I plucked up the courage to ask her out on a date. It was my first time asking a girl out so naturally I was nervous and went on the internet to see what I should and should not do. I took Sarah to the movies and we went to see Terminator Salvation. We sat in the back seats and I held her hand. The movie was pretty dull it had some action scenes which I enjoyed, but I could already predict the ending. I was starting to get bored so I put my hand on Sarah's leg and moved it up slowly. I was greatful she actually chose to wear a skirt today. I was feeling very mischievous today and as I moved my hand up her leg Sarah went quiet as I moved my fingers past the underwear and began to explore a little deeper. Sarah gasped for a moment. I was lucky there was an explosion at the moment she gasped so no one noticed. I chuckled seeing her beautiful red cheeks and sniffed the blood in her cheeks. I leaned in and complimented her on her scent. After the movie Sarah and I hit the arcades. We played air hockey together. I had to be really careful not to break the table and when shehad beaten me for the tenth time we left and went to have dinner. One of the things I like about Sarah is she has a healthy appetite! Many of my female employees always only seem to eat salads. Sarah goes for the steaks and wants it as raw as possible. The way she eats is just really a turn on, I love the way she just shreds the thing a part. One thing that turns me off is the scent of the food, I mean to her it must smell and taste nice, but in my opinion it's just revolting. Sarah and I returned to the holiday house for our last night there and after she brushed her teeth, I kissed her deeply and she kissed me back. I pushed her onto the bed and ripped off my clothing and undressed her carefully like she was a wrapped up present I licked her neck, the scent so overwhelming it was delicious. Sarah and I made love all evening. Afterwards Sarah and I spoke until she fell asleep. I watched her sleep, she was so beautiful.l She talked alot in her sleep too. Nothing that made any real sense once she said "Die Beiber!" I chuckled, she really hated that girl.... boy. Sarah also has this most beautiful smile where her bottom lip overtakes the top just a little bit. I caressed Sarah's breast just because I wanted to. I pretended to wake up and we kissed and got dressed. Sarah packed her bags while I just got my laptop ready, it was the only thing coming back to New York with me Sarah had her bags packed and I placed them in the boot of the car along with my laptop. We got into the car and drove around town. I parked in the street and we walked the shops to look around a little. It began to rain and Sarah hugged me. I chuckled and was greatful for the rainy weather. I asked Sarah if she still had that picture of her and Jayne and she told me she threw it away, she was unable to stand tormenting herself I guess thats understandable. I wondered if she regretted that choice. I actually toyed around with the idea of offering Sarah to find Jayne for her, but the problem is, I want to turn Sarah...if I turned Sarah she would want to eat Jayne. So I can't really make her that offer. When I think of spending an eternity with Sarah I smile and am thankful to have found her. I want her more than anything I have ever wanted today. During our walk around town I lifted her up into my arms and carried her naturally. Sarah put up a bit of resistance, she is a fighter that girl. She eventually gave in and let me give her a piggyback. The people looked at us strangely and Sarah flipped them off. I rolled my eyes and we continued walking. I wanted to buy her a necklace, but she refused saying she would go "ape shit" if I spent money on her. So we went to the park and laid on the grass together. It was raining, but Sarah did not care she enjoyed the rain. I wrapped my arm around her and held her close to my chest she seemed comfortable and for longest time we lay like that it was so comfortable snuggled up, we had no need for words. Sarah surprised me when she brought up the Voltori, she asked what Aro meant by joining the guard. I gave her an excuse telling her that Aro's english skills was poor...the only thing poor was my lying skills apparently. I told her that the Voltori work was goverment based company which was true....sort of. I asked Sarah to drop it and she did. We went to the airport and we boarded our plane without any hitches. Sarah was acting strangely, she grabbed my hand and whispered "I am going to the bathroom, count to five then come check on me." I watched her go and frowned, seeing her use the bathroom or hearing her use it was not something I wanted to witness. I did as was told and went to check on her she opened the door and grabbed my shirt and tried to drag me in. I went in and watched as Sarah closed the door and locked it. She unbuttoned my shirt and my jeans. I asked her what she was doing she shushed me with a kiss. She rubbed my chest up and down with her hands and told me we were joining the "Mile high club". I told her I was confused and she told me to shut up and take her. I shrugged and pinned her to the wall and took her. She was incredible and she could do amazing things with her tongue that much I will say. Sarah was mine and mine alone I would share Sarah with no one and would kill any who even thought about touching her. Sarah told me to hurry up that she did not want to spend the entire flight in the cubicle. She's a horny little minx. I nailed her good and we got dressed in the small cubicle. She told me to follow her after I counted to ten. I did as she said and joined her at our seats. Sarah threw the blanket over us and we sat together talking. Sarah placed her hand on my leg under the blanket and her hand wandered into my pants and down my underwear. I gasped and looked at Sarah and she had this mischievous grin on her face. I smiled she was the perfect woman for me. She was just as daring as I was in some ways. Sarah also knew how to make me happy. Eventually she exhausted herself and fell asleep. I thought I would take the time to fill you in on what we did together since the Voltori....Well I am going to go now I want to watch Sarah, ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Into the Lion's Den
Date: may 5th, 2009 Yo Diary I stayed with her through the night, my arms wrapped around her tight in a bear hug. I did not want to let her go from my grip, I needed her. I breathed in her scent and my throat burned with fire. I did not care. I could hear her breathing patterns change, she was awake and I smiled, today was a new day for us. I did not know what it would mean now that we had sex, but I would find out soon, I could feel Sarah struggle to get free and I tightened my grip for a moment not wanting to let her go, eventually I loosened my grip on her. She was trying to sneak out of the room, but I could hear each and every step she made. I heard her shuffle about as she got dressed, and went to the kitchen, and turned on the tap, I heard the water hit the sink. I sat up naked and smiled remembering the time with Sarah yesterday. I felt so good, it was one of the best feelings I had ever had and I was hopeful it would not be our last time having sex. I eventually walked to my bedroom and got dressed. I knew today would be a risky day. I was going to meet with the Voltori brothers. I had to prepare myself and prepare Sarah. I knew she could handle it. I began to wonder if she could handle the truth that I was a vampire. I had to tell her sooner or later...if I intended to keep her. I began to doubt myself, but the doubt vanished as soon as I heard some sounds coming from the guitar. I smiled hearing her play it, I was glad she enjoyed it and when she hummed I felt inspired again. I found it amazing the arousal of my mind, the sparks of life that coursed through the veins of my frozen body. I kept wondering how she did this ,how did she impact me so greatly? I walked out soundlessly and kissed her neck and breathed in her scent. I told her a good morning and was surprised to see she was all natural no crappy dye or clown makeup. I asked her where her makeup was and she told me that she did not feel the need for it anymore. I was in awe of her beauty and the fact she was trusting me with such magnitude to be herself around me and not a painted goth clown. I complimented Sarah on her singing and told her she inspired me...how I felt when I was listening to her play and sing. I watched Sarah's cheeks go red as she blushed and she thanked me. I excused myself to get ready for work and returned to my bedroom and licked my lips her scent was so amazing I called a repair man and offered him a $20,000 to come and install a new door for Sarah's room I am so rich that money means nothing to me. I hung up the phone and wondered why Sarah did not bring up last night up...not even the fact that I sucked her blood. Most people would probably be asking questions, but she wasn't why was that? I left my room and went to see if Sarah was ready and then I noticed the bruises on her wrist I called myself a fucking bastard for what I did to her, but then I saw she did not complain she did not even seem to care. I decided that if she did not care...then I shouldn't get worked up over it. Sarah and I left and I told her about my company and that it was located in New York City. I decided that we would be going home in two days. Sarah had asked me about the place where we were saying and I told her it was my vacation home. I looked at her and she seemed a little overwhelemed. We arrived at the underground parking complex and as soon as we got out of the car I noticed that Aro's guards were there waiting. They escorted Sarah and I to the lift and we went underground. On the way I told Sarah that if Aro wanted to touch her that she was not to hesitate. I made up an excuse calling the Voltori eccentric people with a lot of money. I also told Sarah to speak only when spoken to and never wander off with anyone no matter what they said. The last thing I needed was for some young vampire stud to lure away my Sarah and turn her into a snack. We arrived and I saw the twins Alec and Jane. I did not mind the twins Alec was my favourate without a doubt, he was also known as the good twin while Jane was known as the sadistic bitch twin. I nodded at the brothers and offered my respects to Aro. I told Sarah to open the case and then I gave the rings to the Brothers to show my respect. Things seemed to be going smoothly until Sarah sneezed. Everyone noticed her the brothers and the twins were eyeing her and they were thirsty too. I could see death in their black eyes. I stood besides Sarah nervously ready to protect her. I was willing to die for he'r. Aro approached Sarah slowly and stroked her cheek. I watched him and he chuckled. He looked at me and asked if he could have her. I instantly declined telling him no. He told me Sarah would be gifted if she was turned into a vampire. I knew what that meant Sarah had just gained a marked target on her back. Aro and I walked to Caius and the twins and Caius accused me of insulting the voltori by not giving Sarah to them. I told Caius I did not mean any disrespect, but Sarah was mine. I had claimed her and she is my mate. Aro was sad to confirm it and mentioned that it was true he had seen into Sarah's thoughts and she indeed loved me even if she had yet to realize it. I heard humming and the surge of inspiration hit me again. We all looked at Marcus surprised as he gasped. I watched how close he went to her and he kissed her hand. I surpressed a snarl of rage but held my emotions in check. I could see Sarah blush and Aro left my side and I went after Aro. I could hear Aro and he made an offer to give Sarah her hearts desire and I knew this was it. I had lost there was no way she could resist an offer like that, but Sarah surprised me she declined and said she was happy with me. I smiled and felt a surge of joy. We left the Voltori and I stole glances of Sarah when she wasn't looking, she was happy....she was happy with me.... I felt so alive and it was all because of Sarah. Being alone in the car with her I felt my thirst become more powerful. I dropped her off and told her I was going to get her dinner. I waited till she went inside and looked around I sniffed the air making sure no one from the voltori was around to steal my Sarah. Once I was sure she was safe I left and picked up a female and fed off her before I discarded the body and went to order her food at a take out place Sarah liked. So now I am waiting for Sarah's dinner and still in bliss that She chose me over the Voltori. I had found my other half. -Brian Jacobson Topic: Answers to my questions
Date: may 4th, 2009 Yo Diary I have given Sarah her present when she returned she was really touched I could see the small smile on her face, it was small, but beautiful, she thanked me and I told her it was no problem...I called her babygirl it was not something I planned, it just happened I was surprised once it left my mouth and instantly kicking myself I was scared it would frighten her away thankfully it didn't. I had asked Sarah to play for me and she did the music was amazing, the melody's were fantastic, but what I loved even more was her voice hearing her angelic voice it was alluring it inspired me literally, all the problems I had faded away and I felt motivated. I sort of felt addicted to her singing I wanted more. I told her that she was good and I found her inspiring. Today was an intense day I learned everything about Sarah my questions about her were answered. As per to our agreement I gave Sarah the day off, well she haven't start work yet, I thought it would be bad for her to start then have a day off only after such short time working. I wanted to get her into a routine. I looked at the clock on my laptop and saw it was 10am. I wondered why Sarah was still in bed normally she was up and about at 7am. I went to check on her to my surprise she had locked the door. I knocked on the door and heard no answer. I knew Sarah was awake, I could hear her breathing, it was actually slower than normal, but her heart was still beating normally so I shrugged it off and resumed checking my finances. I wanted to buy a night club it was a random idea I know, but it was something new and I still felt inspired to try something new. I checked back at the clock and it was 2:30 pm. I began to worry, I know she said she wanted to be alone, but I couldn't bare it I needed to see her and I needed to know that she was alright. I started banging on her door and finally I had enough... I kicked down her door not even using a fraction of my true strength. I walked to her, swearing too fast for her weak human hearing to hear and pulled off the blankets. I looked at her in shock she was huddled up with her hands over her stomach like she was trying to hold her insides together she looked pale....almost lifeless for the longest moment.... I was afraid she was dead until I snapped out of my state of shock to hear her heart beating and her shallow breathing. I could see she was alive, in body, but she was near dead mentally...I had to snap her out of this. I picked Sarah up from the bed and carried her to the bathroom, lowered her into the shower and turned on the cold tap, I watch her snap awake as she got soaked in the cold water. I watched her worried, I did not know what to do if this did not bring her back, did she take any drugs? How did she sneak them past me? I don't know, I haven't been near humans in over two hundred years, should I have taken her to the hospital. Sarah awoke from her catatonic state with a vengeance, as the blond dye slowly washed out. She cussed at me and I climbed into the shower and sat beside her, I did not care that I was getting soaked by the water. I wrapped my arm around her and decided the only thing I could do was be there for her try yo show her she is not alone. She told me to leave her alone and she even tried to push me away, I would have laughed, if I didn't notice the pain in her eyes. They looked broken, like they would never sparkle with curiosity and mischief again. I asked her what was wrong and why she was hurting so bad? She finally broke down into tears and the goth makeup washed away faster from the shower water and her tears. She told me everything, how she never knew her father, that much I knew from the other day. She told me about her mother, her mother the waitress who had consumed too much liquor to the point of being drunk, Sarah told me this in her own words. "I wasn't always this fuck up that you see before you, I used to be one of those sweet and innocent girls. I did my homework, avoided drugs and liquor, I made the honours roll and even made the golden promise. I never intended to have sex until marriage, but then there was this guy who I thought I loved he was older and well not that smart...turns out I was even more of a retard, than he was . I did his homework for him and we went out and one night we went all the way. So my first use of contraception was prayer, turns out it did not work so well. I got pregnant and I managed to hide it for a while, I eventually told my mother. She called me a slut, tramp, a no good whore that put out for any guy that came my way." I hissed hearing the foul things her mother said, I did not know her mother, but I do know this I wanted her dead. I hugged her tighter just a little, the last thing I needed to do was kill this poor fragile girl. I listened as she continued her story. "So my mother kicked me out she said "a whore belongs on the streets." "I was homeless and I went to see the father but he denied the child of course, silly me to think there was such a thing as love." "I had one last place left to turn to. My aunt's and uncle in-law. They were nice enough to take me in. My aunt was a teacher so she told the education department about my situation and got me into this distance education program." "My aunt took real good care of me during the pregnancy. She asked if I was giving the baby up for adoption. I told her no, I wanted my baby. I wanted to give her all the love and support I never got I had plans...they were good plans." "During the childbirth it was hard, they doped me up good, I was so stoned on and I was greatful, because it was agony, but she was worth it the Nurse helped me hold her...I don't even remember it" Sarah broke down she was crying and seeing her in this agony it hurt me too....I did not like seeing her suffer, I leaned in closer to close off the distance "I was so stoned my memory is hazy from the drugs. I remember my aunt coming in after they took my baby away, she told me I wouldn't be a fit mother. I was just a child, that I could never give this baby anything but misery and if I loved her as much as I said I did then I should give her up for adoption for the baby's own good. I signed the documents at least I think I did...I don't know anymore." "All I know is I woke up the next day asking where my baby girl was and the nurse told me." "I asked my aunt and uncle and they said that they did me and Jayne a favor that we both deserved a normal life. I did not want a normal life, fuck being normal, I wanted Jayne..." My uncle told me the documents were signed and that I should just move on, he told me I was welcome to stay with him and my aunt." " The day I left, the nurse gave me a photo of Jayne, she was beautiful, she had the most amazing eyes any baby ever had. After the hospital I was dead inside...I tried to kill myself so I could be dead on the outside too." She removed the glove from her right hand and showed me her scar. I traced my hand over it softly she did not move. I looked at her and saw the hurt in her eyes it was almost unbareable. I wondered why she got under my skin, why is it I fell in love with her, why did she affect me so deeply and change the core of my existance? She continued with her story "My aunt and uncle placed me in a mental hospital. I was locked up there for six months. I kept trying to kill myself, hell they even had me in a straight jacket. I attended therapy and I hated it..... like talking would help me..it woulden't bring her back." "What made me stop trying to kill myself was the bars. I felt like a caged bird and so I stopped." "I was in the hospital for six months before finally being released. I returned to my aunt's, seeing as no one else wanted me." "I threw out all my old clothing, dyed my hair and just made myself as ugly on the outside as I felt on the inside." "I started drinking and taking drugs, trying anything to forget...nothing worked." "My grades were pretty fucked up I was barely passing. It was that way for two years until I entered this competition. Whoever wrote the best essay would go to Volterra and study as an exchange student. I won and knocked those dumb fucks out of the water and here I am now. Brian do you feel better now that you know what a total screw up you took in." She stood up and her voice was full of pain it was heartbreaking and she was looking at me with eyes full of sadness it. I stood up towering over her and wrapped one arm around her hugging her and I looked at her beautiful face the goth makeup was gone and I saw her real face for the first time, It was beautiful and flawless she was perfect. Sarah's hair was no longer a crappy blond dye, but brown it was beautiful and natural. There was so much I wanted to say to her, but all I said was "I am glad to have met you babygirl and I am glad to finally see the beautiful goddess behind that clown makeup." She continued to weep, but this time she was not holding back she unleashed it all and she leaned her head on my chest. I rubbed her back, comforting her as best as I could and before I knew it I leaned down and kissed her passionately. She was still crying as she kissed me back and I wondered if I was bad at kissing. I felt something I never felt before this urge, I found myself needing to connect to Sarah, to show her I would never betray her or hurt her. I ripped off all my clothing with no effort and threw it to the side out of the shower and I pulled Sarah closer and ripped off her clothing and saw her naked body. It was beautiful, I had never seen a naked woman before. I was glad she was the first one to see, I felt hard and we embraced tightly and kissed. Sarah's scent was amazing, the spices were still there and I felt my throat burn from thirst. I pulled back and used my nail to cut into the flesh on her neck, I needed a taste, I just had to taste it, her scent was too much to resist. I knew if I bit her then I could not stop myself, I was too thirsty, at least this way the bloodloss was slow and would stop after a few minutes since it was small. I had no intentions of draining her dry. I bent over and started sucking her blood. I pushed her lightly onto the shower wall and moved her hands on the wall. My hands were over her pinning her there and I continued to suck her blood it was the best blood I ever tasted. No words could describe the sensation. I could hear her heart pound and then I inserted myself into her she was so tight...it felt amazing and we made love. I tried to be gentle I did not want to hurt her, I eventually stopped draining her blood, but found myself getting lost in passion. twenty minutes passed and I could no longer hold back as I unleashed all the pent up joy and passion inside me. Sarah stole my heart and virginity. I looked at her and pulled myself out her legs were trembling and she fell on her knees I broke her fall as best as I could and to my shock she passed out the poor girl went through so much. I turned the tap off and did not worry about the water bill, money is no object to a vampire. I put her to the side and grabbed a towel gently drying her body and once I was finished drying her, I dried myself off and picked her up carrying her to her bedroom. I laid next to her we were both naked and I smiled reflecting on the day. I had learned so much about Sarah and she finally had someone to open up to, and we even made love. I came up with this theory, maybe my mind told me I did not need love, but my frozen heart was just waiting for this human girl to come and melt it and revive me. Yes I am sure of it now, It was Sarah, I was waiting for her and I will court her and make her mine....she will belong to me and me alone, I needed her, she was my drug and I had no intentions of quiting this habit. Sarah's breathing shifted she started to wake up and I pretended to sleep. I did not know how her reaction would be and I was afraid...kind of stupid to be afraid of a human. I could hear her scribbling down and I realized Sarah had a diary too....I wonder what's in it, I wondered if I was in it...maybe I should read it when she is not looking....No I think I will respect her privacy. I mumbled her name while I pretended to sleep just to show her I had her on my mind. She finished her writing and went back to sleep. I waited till I was sure she was asleep and did not wake up again. I watched her sleep and finally decided to tell you what happened. I feel so much better having you to confide in....that sounds girly, but it's true. I am going to go I want to watch her sleep I never tire of watching her sleep ~Brian Jacobson Topic: Interesting
Date: April 29th, 2009 Yo Diary I have been watching my human house guest very carefully and modifying my behaviour around her. I have stopped myself from lifting the couch with one hand to do the cleaning, stopped myself from using my enhanced speed to also do the cleaning and let me say being a human must suck ass, it takes forever to do anything. I most of all have stopped myself from drinking blood around her. I had an interesting time with Sarah when we went to collect her things. I examined the inside of the house and Sarah was indeed correct about the people she was staying with, they are cultist, there is a fucking cross in every room and a photo of Jesus in the hallway hanging off the wall. I raised an eyebrow and poked it. I don't understand those religious nuts honestly. I don't I have any faith in a higher power because it's completely fucked up. I mean you hear people saying God gave me the strength to overcome my drug problem, God gave me the strength to recover after getting hit by a bus. If there was a God do you really think he would let you get hit by a bus, well, probably, it all depends on how much of an asshole you are. I mean it's those types of people that annoy me the most, if there is a God, they're implying that they are somehow special. That God has chosen to help them, while there are many out there suffering. The people who are getting raped and abused, those who are suffering from illnesses like cancer and aids. Those who are living in third war countries starving and those who aren't loved and have no one to suport them. Those humans are implying that they are greater than the rest, here is a spoiler for them all there is no God and no one is listening to your prayers and even if there was a God ,and I say IF, then what sort of sick fucker who created the universe and all its glory and created humanity make it so his own creations to suffer from illness, death, injustice pain and loneliness hate and slavery....what sort of sick fucker would allow that. That's something I probably would have said to the cultist if I saw them. You can probably guess religion is a touchy subject for me. In my human life I was a religious man, my parents raised me to have faith in our lord and saviour. They told me one day everything would work out if we were good and had faith that we would have our freedom and be happy together. I lost my faith the day I killed my family in a blood frenzy. The only thing I believe in now is myself, because what else is there to believe in....nothing. I helped her and examined the cross that was super glued over the bed I shook my head and rolled my eyes. Afterwards we went home and she unpacked, I sat on her bed and laid on it she looked at me in a strange fashion and I shook it off I asked her if she believed in god and she told me this exactly "Fuck god, Fuck the entire world, the only one you can trust and depend on is yourself...trusting others will get you fucked up the ass faster than a priest on an alter boy so you have two choices..... your doing the fucking ......or your the one to be fucked. I learned that the hard way." I was surprised at her statement, she was full of rage and I could see pain in her eyes. Seeing the pain behind those beautiful eyes, it shocked me and I found it nearly unbearable. I asked her why she felt that way and she told me this... "none of your business." I told her that was fair enough. That evening we went out food shopping and I kept her distracted so she wouldn't ask why I wasn't taking anything for me. I asked Sarah about her real parents and she froze for a minute she told me she was special because her parents were special. I asked her how her parents were special. Sarah told me her father had the power of invisibility, that she never knew him so she "did not give a flying fuck" what happened to him. I pressed on about her mother and she did not say anything, she changed the subject....asking how much my car cost me. I took the hint and it pass, something had gone down between Sarah and her mother, I wondered what went between them what could be so bad. I guess she would tell me when she was ready....at least I hoped she would. I asked Sarah if she played the guitar and she nodded her head "music is my passion," she told me, I nodded it was good she felt passionate about something. I told Sarah a little about me the stuff that I liked. The types of movies I enjoyed, my conversations tools were pretty much limited. It's not like I could say..... "Hey im a vampire, I was around when the titanic sunk oh and yeah the man walking on the moon, big load of horse shit." I did not want to lie to Sarah so I stuck to the trivial stuff and by the looks of it she did not care. She had dinner and I made up the excuse of having business to attend to in my room for work. I turned on my laptop and placed Sarah's name in the search engine again I wanted to know everything about her and her mother now. I sighed and closed the laptop and decided again to let her tell me when the time was right. Sarah went to bed and I waited until she was asleep I snuck into her room and watched her sleep. I noticed she was huddled up in the fetal position, I just realized she was huddled up like that the first time I watched her sleep. I continued to watch her for an hour or two more and I looked at her painted face and came up with a theory on Sarah. I think she is in serious pain, she has made herself so ugly and given herself an attitude of rage and hate to keep others out. I wondered why I paid such close attention to her, why did I even care about her. She was a human nothing more...nothing less thats what I told myself, but still I did not believe it. I walked closer to her and her scent entered my nostrils I found my throat burning with thirst and I left the room. I went out hunting and found myself a human that satisfied my thirst. Once I killed the human and cleaned up after myself I went to the music store and bought the best guitar they had. I returned home and placed it in my room I had no idea why I did it why I bought her this gift. I went back to watching her sleep my eyes widen as I heard her speak "Don't leave me....I don't want to be alone." her voice was so fragile. I watched her the entire night something inside me changing....I think it could be love. I was taken by surprise I did not think I had it in me to fall in love. I think this is insane, I haven't even known her for a week and I love her....I have been tricked by nature, but I don't care I don't care at all that it's a trick its a blissful and empowering trick. Watching this beautiful girl with the face of an angel....a goth angel. I knew that it was true and it was the sole reason why I did not kill her, I loved her since the first moment I saved her from becoming a pancake on the road I was in love.....Love at first sight I always thought it was bullshit huh. I watched her for the rest of the night and left her room just before she woke up. We went shopping today to buy her some office clothing I told her she looked hot in her new outfits and she flipped me off....she actually flipped me off I chuckled and smiled ,I loved her attitude. I approached her and told her she would look even better once she removed the goth makeup. She told me she had no intentions of removing her makeup and i told her no emploee of mine would look like a clown. She laughed in my face she is so daring so confident i love the way she laughs. She told me there was nothing I could do about it since it wasn't in the contract I made her sign. I checked my Ipad and fuck me dead... she was right. I Admitted defeat, she had won this round ,she told me it would not be the last time she would win and I grumbled "we will see about that." I insisted on paying for the clothing as a work expense, but she would not allow me to do it. She payed for everything and climbed in my car. I told her she looked frightful with the makeup, she told me the only thing frightful was Justin Beiber singing. I asked her who that was and she told me about him, she really hated him she told me if she was at one of his concerts she would be screaming "OH my god it's Justin Beiber" with all the other fans, then she would yell "quick someone hand me a shot gun." I chuckled, finding it humorous she really hated him. I said her "no one could be that bad." Once we got home she looked him up on youtube .....I heard the music and I hissed, I felt like I was dying on the inside...... I thought nothing could hurt worse then the change to becoming a vampire. I was wrong.... listening to the boy forgotten by puberty sing was Agony. I told her whoever gave that child a singing contract should suffer in his own personal layer of hell. Sarah smiled and she looked away from me. She told me she needed some time alone and left the house. I wonder what was wrong? I went to my room and gift wrapped her present and came to write in you, So here we have it All this strange emotions in the short time of knowing the human....she is a special one and I am starting to understand the Cullen who fell in love with a Human. When Sarah comes back I am going to give her the Guitar I hope she likes it...maybe she will play for me if I ask her to. ~Brian Jacobson |
InfoBrian Jacobson, Born as a slave fled from his cruel and evil masters who owned a mining company, after fleeing his masters Brian wat bitten by a vampire and made the change to becoming a vampire. In a newborn rage Brian killed his masters, fellow slaves even his family. After the newborn years Brian kept the mine and other lands of his masters and made it his own. Brian became cynical and did not believe in love, until he met Sarah Frost. Brian's Journal is written by Martin. Click here to read first entryArchives |