Hunting with Emmet was good for me. Sometimes the fact that Emmet takes nearly anything seriously is good. He managed to get me out of the whole “doom and gloom” mood I was in that day. I know we shouldn’t play with our food but since I was with Emmet we fought with a few grizzly bears and I was able to get my mind off things a bit. Poor bear, with Emmet around, bears should immigrate to a safer place, with no playful vampires around.
We've had no visitors for a week and I was hoping that Aro would back off a notch, I didt hope he would forget Alice and stop dreaming of her joining his coven that was just waste of time. Aro had to get Alice in his Volturi guard even if this meant he would have to kill us all. I believe we were still alive because of the Volturi not wanting immortals to question the Volturi’s good name. They wouldn’t want to dirty their hands. I made plans, I knew I was acting insanely but I couldn’t get out of my head the image of Alice next to Aro and Felix, her eyes a bright piercing red, I would do anything so Alice wouldn’t have to be forced to join their coven, I would even join the Volturi if I had to. I was thinking about it while all the Cullens were gathered in our living room, doing nothing special, we were just hanging together. Edward was composing another song, Nessie near him at the piano chair enjoying the sweet music. Emmet was watching another football match, his arms wrapped around Rosalie’s waist. Carlisle was lost in his book; I think even with the vampire abilities he could barely hear us. Esme was making small notes in her notebook about redecorating our house. My Alice was scolding Bella for her lack of interest in fashion, Bella was rolling her eyes. And I was pretty sure Jacob was patrolling with Leah and her brother. But I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t notice that everyone slowly left the living room, except Edward, I was so used to him playing the piano I didn’t question why he was playing so long. After a few minutes he stopped abruptly, I looked up at him, this wasn’t natural when Edward was playing he always stopped, somehow smoothly. “Jasper, stop thinking about it!” He snapped at me. “You’re overreacting” He continued. Of course I should have considered that he would read my thoughts, why didn’t I think of that? Too late now. “Look Alice can’t see it yet, because you haven’t decided anything, but how do you think she will act if she sees that? She will do the same thing you want to do." I immediately froze, I hadn’t thought of that. “I will warn her if your plans get any more specific, be sure I will.” he told me. I tried to talk but I couldn’t. I hadn’t move an inch since Edward stopped playing and I felt that my bones would smash any moment. Again the image of Alice was stuck in my head. Motionless, Cold, her eyes a bright red. I tried to convince myself, she wouldn’t join the Volturi, that’s when I felt Alice -who had come in too silently even for me to hear-kissing my neck. We eagerly moved to our bedroom trying not to destroy the stairs. Alice would never leave me, she loves me and I know that, I can see it when I look in her eyes, I can feel it, with all that’s in me. -Jasper
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How stupid we were to think that there was the tiniest possibility that the Volturi would not find out? Very stupid. I'll start from the beginning.
Today before even Nessie woke up the Denali clan came and Eleazer started banging on the front door. luckily Carlisle let them in before they broke it down. "Carlisle, we are so sorry" Tanya said. Edward's hands balled up into fists. I stared at him, alarmed, grabbing Alice's hand, anxious now, maybe my idea of running away wasn't such a bad one after all. "Isn't anyone going to explain what going on to the rest of us" said Rosalie. "Its okay Tanya, you can all go home, I'll explain it all to them" Edward said "Are you sure?" she asked. I nodded. "Carlisle we are extrmemly sorry, we should not have visited the first time, I wish I could change that but it's too late" she said. "It would be clever of you Tanya to return to your home now, Aro will be returning to Italy soon" said Edward emotionlessly. I noticed that Tanya's eyes filled with guilt as she looked at Edward. I didn't pity her I could see something bad happened clearly in Edwards face. We all looked at Edward expectantly waiting for him to explain. He looked at Bella protectively and then he finally began to speak. "Aro, Jane, Alex, Dimitri and Felix were taking care of a few immortals who were hunting conspicuously a few miles away from Tanya's house and when the Denali clan returned home Demitri sensed that they were very close." "Aro was waiting for them and so now he knows everything too" he said, through his clenched teeth. I sighed, Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder. "There wasn't much we could do son, we couldn't avoid it" he said. I wasn't used to Carlisle being fatherly, he and Esme were always closer to Edward, because he was their first "adopted" son. I didn't mind, I wasn't as close to my family as my other siblings. "Of course, they won't do anything for now, we haven't broken any rules, they have no reason to come near Forks" Edward added. Bella looked at me, her eyes full of worry. but I couldn't compare them to my Alice. Alice had gripped my hand and didn't relax until I started to use my gift. Even Rosalie looked at me with sympathy. She probably pitied me, but she didn't like or trust Aro either. They all felt the threat of losing their love, their soul mate, the reason for their existence and they were all feeling terrified. We are going to hunt with Emmet, he wants to distract me, I appreciate it. -Jasper Dear Diary,
Now that I know about Alice’s past and she knows about mine, we got even closer, if that’s even possible. I love my Alice more than anything. I never found a chance to tell you. We did a small party to Carlisle for father’s day, we decorated his office,and when he came in we all wished him happy father’s day and thanked him for all the great memories he gave us. Also Nessie put Bella to borrow Edward’s crest and they carved “best dad ever” behind its leather. Nessie tried her best to hide her thoughts, but what I can tell from Edwards excited mood, I assume he saw it. I was in our bedroom, writing this in my diary when I heard a familiar sound: the slowing of an engine on the freeway, the tires moving from pavement to soft dirt. I was instantly alarmed but then Alice called from the bottom of the stairs, «It’s the Denali’s, they came to visit». Everyone gathered around the corner to stand waiting by the door,-except Rose and Emmet who where hunting somewhere near “Goat Rocks”-Jacob moving slowly with less enthusiasm to stand by Nessie. “Carlisle!” Tanya’s voice enthused. “Hello Tanya, Kate, Eleazar, Carmen” Carlisle greeted them. Eleazar shook my hand, and then Alice’s but a second after he touched her hand, he froze. “Wow, Alice” Elezar mumbled and took a few steps backwards. Edward sighed. “He knows.”Edward said unwillingly. Oh no. “How?” Alice asked eagerly. “Eleazar’s gift is powerful too.”Edward answered, while Esme was calling Rose and Emmet, to tell them to return as soon as possible. “Eleazar, what happened?”Carmen asked her mate who was frozen to spot for the last few minutes. “ Esme what’s wrong?”Rosalie demanded with Emmet a few paces behind her. “Nothing’s wrong”Carlisle replied trying to calm everyone down a little.”Why don’t you come inside and we’ll explain everything” Everyone followed Carlisle inside, though I liked better the idea to take Alice and run as far away as possible from Aro. After we explained the Denali’s everything they promised not to tell anything to Aro and be as invisible as possible from the Volturi’s guard. They left apologizing, they blamed themselves for knowing, but Carlisle assured them, that they couldn’t have done anything to avoid this and that they shouldn’t feel guilty. Eleazar looked at me and Alice, and nodded apologetically and the Denali’s left. “Well, it could have been worse» Alice tried to joke. Well I knew it was going to. -Jasper Dear Diary,
Now that I know about Alice’s past and she knows about mine, we got even closer, if that’s even possible. I love my Alice more than anything. I never found a chance to tell you. We did a small party to Carlisle for father’s day, we decorated his office,and when he came in we all wished him happy father’s day and thanked him for all the great memories he gave us. Also Nessie put Bella to borrow Edward’s crest and they carved “best dad ever” behind its leather. Nessie tried her best to hide her thoughts, but what I can tell from Edwards excited mood, I assume he saw it. I was in our bedroom, writing this in my diary when I heard a familiar sound: the slowing of an engine on the freeway, the tires moving from pavement to soft dirt. I was instantly alarmed but then Alice called from the bottom of the stairs, «It’s the Denali’s, they came to visit». Everyone gathered around the corner to stand waiting by the door,-except Rose and Emmet who where hunting somewhere near “Goat Rocks”-Jacob moving slowly with less enthusiasm to stand by Nessie. “Carlisle!” Tanya’s voice enthused. “Hello Tanya, Kate, Eleazar, Carmen” Carlisle greeted them. Eleazar shook my hand, and then Alice’s but a second after he touched her hand, he froze. “Wow, Alice” Elezar mumbled and took a few steps backwards. Edward sighed. “He knows.”Edward said unwillingly. Oh no. “How?” Alice asked eagerly. “Eleazar’s gift is powerful too.”Edward answered, while Esme was calling Rose and Emmet, to tell them to return as soon as possible. “Eleazar, what happened?”Carmen asked her mate who was frozen to spot for the last few minutes. “ Esme what’s wrong?”Rosalie demanded with Emmet a few paces behind her. “Nothing’s wrong”Carlisle replied trying to calm everyone down a little.”Why don’t you come inside and we’ll explain everything” Everyone followed Carlisle inside, though I liked better the idea to take Alice and run as far away as possible from Aro. After we explained the Denali’s everything they promised not to tell anything to Aro and be as invisible as possible from the Volturi’s guard. They left apologizing, they blamed themselves for knowing, but Carlisle assured them, that they couldn’t have done anything to avoid this and that they shouldn’t feel guilty. Eleazar looked at me and Alice, and nodded apologetically and the Denali’s left. “Well, it could have been worse» Alice tried to joke. Well I knew it was going to. -Jasper Thankfully, the week past peacefully, the Volturi didn’t visit us, -as I expected- but I was sure, we would be as careful as possible. I didn’t want that giddy gift-collector nowhere near Alice.
Now that she can see the past she uses her gift all the time because she thinks that if she doesn’t, it’s going to get weaker soon,and slip away. She had a vision of the Denali’s coming to visit us-Nessie was excited- but we weren’t going to tell them about Alice’s new gift. The less people know about it,the better, as we had more chances of the Volturi not knowing it. She had so much fun seeing Bella’s past,-watching her fall down a million times, blushing every time she was looking at Edward’s direction and hearing how her heart used to race when Edward was getting near her. Me, Emmet and Edward went hunting together and from what Edward told me while I was finishing my deer, she hadn’t had so much fun going through my past and she was thankful that she found me. “Jasper…”she told me dolefully, when we were alone in our bedroom. And I was grateful I went hunting with Edward. “I know Alice, I’m so sorry I kept you waiting for so long» I told her, hopefully she would forgive me. “Well I’m sorry, too for your past, but if there’s one thing I’m not sorry, is for you keep me waiting” She told me, trying to smile. “Why?”I asked her, she wasn’t joking. “Because if our past didn’t develop that way, we wouldn’t be together, right?” She told grinning. Alice is more than all I could ask for, she was, is, and will be my life, my everything. She also had a chance to thank me for the dresses, poor Edward, he didn’t want to be any near us at that point, and luckily none of her new dresses were ruined. Dear Diary,
“What?”I asked eagerly while I X-rayed the woods to see any trouble coming. She remained calm so I tried to relax myself. “Come inside, I’ll explain everything» she told me as I followed her inside, everybody was excited-even Rosalie-. “I was showing Nessie how to much her clothes and I was thinking how my life used to be and how it was going to be if I didn’t got my gift…so I was searching the little things I knew about my past, my family, when they put me in that horrible hospital, the vampire who saved me from James». She stopped to grimace when she said his name. “And suddenly my memories were completely blank, I couldn’t see anything, I tried to see if the dog had something to do with that, if he had planned something for today-I just hoped he wouldn’t cause us any more trouble-and that’s why everything disappeared, but then a blurry vision just popped into my mind-they were human thoughts, no doubt, every one of us can see clearer than that-of a vampire telling me to hide here, try to stay still and don’t make any noise because I was in great danger. And then the house shuddered, as if a meteorite had hit it. I realize now that they were fighting, after a few moments of unbearable agony the vampire who saved me came and told me everything was fine. Then he asked me to close my eyes, I did, but I couldn’t see how everything was fine because something cut into my neck burning like a blade coated in acid. And then everything was on fire, I was surprised with myself because I didn’t mind burning to death I just wanted the pain in my neck to end. He sat with me for hours and I couldn’t understand why we weren’t burned yet then I heard a roar full of anger, I was left alone in the dark room with the pain in my neck spreading through my whole body. He was the one I’ve seen in that video when James was after Bella’’. Edward growled at that point but Alice continued. ‘His name was Ethan, he saw that I was in danger-when James came after me, they fought and he was about to kill him but he escaped at last, then James saw the new me, my vampire self and killed my vampire-so Ethan changed me, then James found him and killed him’’-she said in a lower voice, then she turned to me. “I can see what happened now. Do you remember when Victoria was tracking Bella?” she didn’t wait for me to reply, of course I remembered. So Alice continued «Then we thought that my gift was getting weaker because I couldn’t see stuff’’-she threw a playful glance at Edward’s direction-’’but Carlisle said that those things tend to intensify over time, not slip away.” She went on with a more exciting voice now, and I knew that the preface was over, “I could see the future and now I can see the past too, somehow maybe now I’m more mature ,so I had a way to extend my gift «she added. I smiled but I couldn’t be as amused as her. Edward read my thoughts and shook his head slightly, agreeing with me, he had already made that thought. We knew, maybe even Alice had already thought that, if Aro learns about her new gift he will be mad, he would die to get Alice in his coven. Perfect. -Jasper Dear diary,
Wow this sounds weird, Emmet will laugh for eons if he learns that I keep a diary, I just hope Edward keeps his mouth shut. I know, it’s crazy why would any vampire would want to start writing a diary, it’s not like we forget stuff. Anyway I figured out it would be a good thing, I might be able to hide any weakness, or disappointment- ha-ha that’s sounds a bit ironical, me wanting to hide my emotions, when I can control them-from my Alice, I don’t want her worrying about me, I love her too much. Anyway, today I wanted to buy Alice a present-it’s her birthday-so I wanted to buy her a dress (Soon she’ll run out of new dresses since she gave them all to Bella for her nineteen birthday) Anyway I had spotted a great purple satin one in a shop in Olympia, I tried to be indecisive about what I’ll buy her but there’s no doubt that she saw it, she looks appreciative, to me at least. Edward confirmed my thoughts and told me he would call me if he read something relevant in Alice’s mind. I’m grateful to Carlisle and his different lifestyle, if he wasn’t so unselfish and human Alice wouldn’t have a family she deserves and I the best brothers I could have ever asked for. I told Alice I would go on a hunting trip on my own, she didn’t look like she believed me, at least I tried. So I headed to Olympia and when I got to the shop the shop assistant greeted me warmly but I couldn’t ignore her, not for the obvious reason, I wasn’t attracted, her scent was so mouthwatering, so sweet, I managed to control myself and I succeeded shopped silently as far as possible away from the girl, ignoring her disappointed expression from my sudden coldness. I tried to make a new decision in which dress I would buy. I was lucky; I came up with another dress, a great black long dress with white flowers shaped at the end of the fabric. So I figured out I would buy both and I would try really hard not think about the purple one. Then Edward called me-it had worked-.Great. I returned home with the dresses and I found Alice at the porch. She jumped up to me “Jaz you’re not going to believe what happened today!” |
InfoAfter becoming a major in the Confederate Army, Jasper Whitlock was bested upon by the vampire Maria, who proceeded to turn him. After the transformation, Jasper aided Maria in her creation of a newborn vampire army which successfully conquered the feeding grounds of Texas. However, Jasper became tired of this violent and bloodlust life and eventually became a nomad. Fortunately, he was eventually found by Alice, the love of his life and with her began a life with the peaceful coven of the Cullen family. Jasper's Journal was previously written by Aggeliki. Jasper's journal is written by Halle O'Neil Click here to read first entryArchives |