Chapter 7
"Edward do you think ...."
"He's bluffing? I don’t know" he finished her sentence.
The drive back to the house seemed to take longer than usual; Edward parked up in the Cullen’s garage, Jasper held back as they made their way up to the house.
"Edward could I speak to Bella a moment" he asked, he nodded
She stopped and waited for him to speak,
He exhaled "Bella I have always been amazed how welcoming this family has been to me, but you have a reason to dislike me, and yet you have been nothing but sincere and loving towards me...” he broke off trying to find the right words
"Jasper, are you still feeling guilty over my eighteenth, you were new just as I am now, maybe not in years but in the way of life you had decided to choose, of course I love you.
"I need you to do something for me Bella only you can do, but it’s difficult I can’t tell you until I have DECIDED to tell you" he smiled hopefully the penny would drop soon.
"Alice?" he nodded
"You can shield this from her"
"Erm ok" she was getting slightly worried and he could tell.
"Let’s go for a walk" he smiled he led her out of the garage and began to run she followed and they stopped in the clearing,
"Ah I see are we close enough to the pack to blindside Alice here" she smiled
"Yes I think so”,
"Bella I want to renew my vows with Alice unlike my brother and sister we have only married once it was obviously a quiet and small affair"
Bella raised her eyebrow "Small and quiet with Alice " she chuckled
"Actually yes and we weren’t as settled as a family as we are now so I want to ask her again and do it like she deserves" he smiled
Bella walked over to Jasper and pecked him on the cheek, "That would be wonderful Jasper" she smiled "And don’t worry I will organize everything"
"Thank you Bella, for everything" "But are you sure Edward won’t mind you closing your mind to him" he asked
"Na, he's used to it now" she laughed and they ran back to the house.
Edward looked puzzled as they arrived back, he concentrated then sighed, "Not again" he shrugged she walked over to him and kissed his soft lips.
"You don’t need to read my mind to know how much I love you" she smiled
She decided to think of as many bad ideas for Renesmee's party as she could, that should really keep Alice busy.
Alice jumped up from sitting between jaspers knees,
"Bella you can’t be thinking of doing that for her, honestly do I have to arrange everything around here" she snapped smiling a little
Bella quickly glanced over to jasper and he smiled.
So Alice was so busy organizing the party, Bella had made it completely impossible for her to focus on anything else.
Bella organized Mr. Webbe and the gifts for the naming ceremony, the girls had a pendant with a rose on it and engraved into the back was ' My heart is yours forever’, the men had the sane only on id bracelets.
Finally the day of the party came,
"Happy birthday angel" smiled Bella kissing her daughter,
"Happy birthday baby" sighed Edward his face glowing he still found it hard to believe he was so lucky having a family, something the rest of the family had always dreamt about.
Alice, being Alice had covered the house with teddies and butterflies and ribbons on every surface.
Bella and Edward brought her up from the cottage; their way was lit with twinkling lights and roses.
"Oh Alice I love it" she squealed,
"Alice it’s beautiful than you" Edward smiled and hugged his sister,
Everyone was having a wonderful time, Renesmee was dancing with Carlisle and they played party games, from a passerby’s point of view it looked they any children’s birthday party a big cake and loads of presents.
Rosalie had bought her an antique dressing table with mirror and brushes, Emmett a catcher’s mitt, from Alice and Jasper boxes of clothes and shoes, although hidden away in a box was a pendant which read ' to a precious angel' Bella guessed that had been Jaspers contribution, and from Carlisle and Esme well she was puzzled because they gave her a pair of scissors with a pink bow on them.
"Erm grandfather what are these for" she smiled not wanting to sound rude, Carlisle looked at Edward and he smiled, Edward nodded and a large grin appeared on his face.
"Come with me sweetheart" smiled Carlisle and he grabbed her hand and they were gone , Bella looked at Esme who just shrugged she wasn’t going to spoil the surprise , a few minutes later Renesmee came bounding in with Carlisle on her heels,
"Mommy, daddy, Esme and grandfather gave me my own library, the scissors were to cut the ribbon oh thank you Esme" she threw her arms around Esme and kissed her cheek.
There came a knock at the door and Edward answered it, Alice’s head snapped up and she smiled at Bella who just shrugged, ok so Alice now knew but it was still a surprise to her and Bella liked that.
"Good afternoon Mr. Webbe won’t you come in" smiled Edward
He walked into the living room with Edward and cleared his throat.
"I have been asked here today to perform a special naming ceremony for a Miss Renesmee Carlie Cullen" he smiled
"That’s me" she jumped up and everyone laughed,
"I'm sorry Mr. Webbe I don’t understand" smiled Carlisle; he ignored him and turned to Edward
"Who are the honorary guardians please?"
"Everyone" Edward smiled, he took his daughters hand and stood her next to him, Bella joined her.
"Today you are all to become honorary guardians of our daughter" he glowed with pride and brushed Bella’s cheek with his free hand.
"Oh Edward" cried Esme
"Thank you my son, Bella" said Carlisle hugging them
To say everyone was overwhelmed was an understatement, Jasper just beamed it made him feel almost euphoric with all the emotion in the room.
Angela’s father continued, "I hereby make Carlisle and Esme Cullen honorary guardians of Renesmee Carlie Cullen to watch over her and protect her forever, do you agree2
"Yes we do" they hugged one another
"Rosalie, Emmett Alice and Jasper the same question?"
And before any of them could answer Emmett boomed out "Hell Yeah" they all laughed "What he said" smiled Jasper
"Am I missing something" came a deep voice behind them, Bella stiffened and Jasper and Edward hissed.
"Sorry Mr. Webbe, carry on" Bella spoke slowly breathing between each word
"I name all of you Honorary..." he didn’t finish as Jacob pushed his way into the front,
"Honorary what?" he jibed and his eyes snapped to Renesmee who was struggling to free herself from her father.
Bella looked up with a smug look on her face "You’re early Jake we were just in the middle of Renesmee’s naming ceremony everyone in my family has been named honorary guardians of OUR daughter" she smiled
"Mr. Webbe thank you for everything you have done today sorry it was cut short" smiled Esme ushering him out of the door.
"What!" screamed Jacob "You have no right" he hissed beginning to shake
"Oops someone let the cat out the bag, or shouldn’t I mention cats round a dog" sneered Rosalie
"Rosalie please could you take Nessie to play with Henry" whispered Carlisle,
"Henry? you mean to say you have another one in this house" he growled
Rose stopped and turned "Yes he's my son and he's just like Renesmee, so no need to worry" she snapped as she walked out of the room with Renesmee.
"Another half breed" he jibed at that moment there was a blur and Jacob was on the floor writhing in pain holding his jaw.
And Bella was gone!
"Keep still and let me take a look" said Carlisle impatiently
"Doc I'm fine" Jacob stood and was about to leave when Esme blocked his path,
"You say you love Renesmee and yet you are constantly causing her pain and hurting her parents , how dare you hurt my family like this Jacob black, leave my house and never step foot back into it" she spat , looking dazed her slumped off into the trees
"Alice?" asked Edward pacing up and down,
"She's in the cottage" and with that he disappeared
Bella sat on the floor in her daughter’s room clawing the floor; she had dug so deep her nails were soiled with dirt.
There came a soft knock on the door, "Go away" she whispered, she knew he would hear her.
"No" he replied opening the door slowly, her throat burned she had not felt thirst like this since she woke into her new life.
"Leave me alone" she hissed, and she thought of the disappointment in his face when she lost her temper.
"Is that what you think, when you lose control I'm disappointed in you" he shouted, this startled her but she shrugged.
"Bella look at me please" she shook her head; she couldn’t make eye contact with him.
"Damn it Bella I said look at me! " he hissed she couldn’t not obey , she slowly lifted her eyes , his hands were folded across his chest , his rugged jaw tense his lips in a thin tight line , she sighed then her eyes met his , they were solid with pain not anger.
He knelt down in front of her and held her face in his hands.
"Do you remember when Jasper told you his story, and how newborns were completely uncontrollable for decades?"
She nodded
"But you were all so proud of me in the beginning and amazed on how much self-control I had" she sighed
"And what you think we are disappointed in you now?" she tried to pull her face away but he held it tight so she didn’t fight it.
"Bella you haven’t spilled one drop of blood , do you know how amazing that is for a newborn , we were all there in that room just then and you didn’t attack any of us"
"Of course not you’re my family how could you think I would do such a thing" she snapped
"Your eighteenth?" he sighed "jasper would have killed you, not because he was a bad person but because the thirst took over" he smiled.
"But what’s happened to me, why do I keep losing control now a year on?"
"Carlisle thinks he may have come up with a theory of why you are so emotionally unstable almost human like" he said
"And?" she pleaded she wanted answers theory or not she needed to know.
"You’ve heard all the stories of when we were changed all different circumstances but all with one thing in common"
She tried to think what it was but she shook her head,
"How did we react to the venom" he caressed her cheek with his fingers.
"You all said it was excruciating and you screamed for death to take you" she still didn’t understand
"Yes, now what did YOU do" he exhaled
"I, I can’t remember" she began to play with her fingers; she didn’t want him to know how much it had burned how she had wished for death.
"You can’t or you won’t remember" he asked pulling her face up. She shrugged,
"Carlisle thinks because you didn’t scream and you held it all in, your mind hasn’t been able to vent out the emotions of it all so it’s still stored up".
"He's bluffing? I don’t know" he finished her sentence.
The drive back to the house seemed to take longer than usual; Edward parked up in the Cullen’s garage, Jasper held back as they made their way up to the house.
"Edward could I speak to Bella a moment" he asked, he nodded
She stopped and waited for him to speak,
He exhaled "Bella I have always been amazed how welcoming this family has been to me, but you have a reason to dislike me, and yet you have been nothing but sincere and loving towards me...” he broke off trying to find the right words
"Jasper, are you still feeling guilty over my eighteenth, you were new just as I am now, maybe not in years but in the way of life you had decided to choose, of course I love you.
"I need you to do something for me Bella only you can do, but it’s difficult I can’t tell you until I have DECIDED to tell you" he smiled hopefully the penny would drop soon.
"Alice?" he nodded
"You can shield this from her"
"Erm ok" she was getting slightly worried and he could tell.
"Let’s go for a walk" he smiled he led her out of the garage and began to run she followed and they stopped in the clearing,
"Ah I see are we close enough to the pack to blindside Alice here" she smiled
"Yes I think so”,
"Bella I want to renew my vows with Alice unlike my brother and sister we have only married once it was obviously a quiet and small affair"
Bella raised her eyebrow "Small and quiet with Alice " she chuckled
"Actually yes and we weren’t as settled as a family as we are now so I want to ask her again and do it like she deserves" he smiled
Bella walked over to Jasper and pecked him on the cheek, "That would be wonderful Jasper" she smiled "And don’t worry I will organize everything"
"Thank you Bella, for everything" "But are you sure Edward won’t mind you closing your mind to him" he asked
"Na, he's used to it now" she laughed and they ran back to the house.
Edward looked puzzled as they arrived back, he concentrated then sighed, "Not again" he shrugged she walked over to him and kissed his soft lips.
"You don’t need to read my mind to know how much I love you" she smiled
She decided to think of as many bad ideas for Renesmee's party as she could, that should really keep Alice busy.
Alice jumped up from sitting between jaspers knees,
"Bella you can’t be thinking of doing that for her, honestly do I have to arrange everything around here" she snapped smiling a little
Bella quickly glanced over to jasper and he smiled.
So Alice was so busy organizing the party, Bella had made it completely impossible for her to focus on anything else.
Bella organized Mr. Webbe and the gifts for the naming ceremony, the girls had a pendant with a rose on it and engraved into the back was ' My heart is yours forever’, the men had the sane only on id bracelets.
Finally the day of the party came,
"Happy birthday angel" smiled Bella kissing her daughter,
"Happy birthday baby" sighed Edward his face glowing he still found it hard to believe he was so lucky having a family, something the rest of the family had always dreamt about.
Alice, being Alice had covered the house with teddies and butterflies and ribbons on every surface.
Bella and Edward brought her up from the cottage; their way was lit with twinkling lights and roses.
"Oh Alice I love it" she squealed,
"Alice it’s beautiful than you" Edward smiled and hugged his sister,
Everyone was having a wonderful time, Renesmee was dancing with Carlisle and they played party games, from a passerby’s point of view it looked they any children’s birthday party a big cake and loads of presents.
Rosalie had bought her an antique dressing table with mirror and brushes, Emmett a catcher’s mitt, from Alice and Jasper boxes of clothes and shoes, although hidden away in a box was a pendant which read ' to a precious angel' Bella guessed that had been Jaspers contribution, and from Carlisle and Esme well she was puzzled because they gave her a pair of scissors with a pink bow on them.
"Erm grandfather what are these for" she smiled not wanting to sound rude, Carlisle looked at Edward and he smiled, Edward nodded and a large grin appeared on his face.
"Come with me sweetheart" smiled Carlisle and he grabbed her hand and they were gone , Bella looked at Esme who just shrugged she wasn’t going to spoil the surprise , a few minutes later Renesmee came bounding in with Carlisle on her heels,
"Mommy, daddy, Esme and grandfather gave me my own library, the scissors were to cut the ribbon oh thank you Esme" she threw her arms around Esme and kissed her cheek.
There came a knock at the door and Edward answered it, Alice’s head snapped up and she smiled at Bella who just shrugged, ok so Alice now knew but it was still a surprise to her and Bella liked that.
"Good afternoon Mr. Webbe won’t you come in" smiled Edward
He walked into the living room with Edward and cleared his throat.
"I have been asked here today to perform a special naming ceremony for a Miss Renesmee Carlie Cullen" he smiled
"That’s me" she jumped up and everyone laughed,
"I'm sorry Mr. Webbe I don’t understand" smiled Carlisle; he ignored him and turned to Edward
"Who are the honorary guardians please?"
"Everyone" Edward smiled, he took his daughters hand and stood her next to him, Bella joined her.
"Today you are all to become honorary guardians of our daughter" he glowed with pride and brushed Bella’s cheek with his free hand.
"Oh Edward" cried Esme
"Thank you my son, Bella" said Carlisle hugging them
To say everyone was overwhelmed was an understatement, Jasper just beamed it made him feel almost euphoric with all the emotion in the room.
Angela’s father continued, "I hereby make Carlisle and Esme Cullen honorary guardians of Renesmee Carlie Cullen to watch over her and protect her forever, do you agree2
"Yes we do" they hugged one another
"Rosalie, Emmett Alice and Jasper the same question?"
And before any of them could answer Emmett boomed out "Hell Yeah" they all laughed "What he said" smiled Jasper
"Am I missing something" came a deep voice behind them, Bella stiffened and Jasper and Edward hissed.
"Sorry Mr. Webbe, carry on" Bella spoke slowly breathing between each word
"I name all of you Honorary..." he didn’t finish as Jacob pushed his way into the front,
"Honorary what?" he jibed and his eyes snapped to Renesmee who was struggling to free herself from her father.
Bella looked up with a smug look on her face "You’re early Jake we were just in the middle of Renesmee’s naming ceremony everyone in my family has been named honorary guardians of OUR daughter" she smiled
"Mr. Webbe thank you for everything you have done today sorry it was cut short" smiled Esme ushering him out of the door.
"What!" screamed Jacob "You have no right" he hissed beginning to shake
"Oops someone let the cat out the bag, or shouldn’t I mention cats round a dog" sneered Rosalie
"Rosalie please could you take Nessie to play with Henry" whispered Carlisle,
"Henry? you mean to say you have another one in this house" he growled
Rose stopped and turned "Yes he's my son and he's just like Renesmee, so no need to worry" she snapped as she walked out of the room with Renesmee.
"Another half breed" he jibed at that moment there was a blur and Jacob was on the floor writhing in pain holding his jaw.
And Bella was gone!
"Keep still and let me take a look" said Carlisle impatiently
"Doc I'm fine" Jacob stood and was about to leave when Esme blocked his path,
"You say you love Renesmee and yet you are constantly causing her pain and hurting her parents , how dare you hurt my family like this Jacob black, leave my house and never step foot back into it" she spat , looking dazed her slumped off into the trees
"Alice?" asked Edward pacing up and down,
"She's in the cottage" and with that he disappeared
Bella sat on the floor in her daughter’s room clawing the floor; she had dug so deep her nails were soiled with dirt.
There came a soft knock on the door, "Go away" she whispered, she knew he would hear her.
"No" he replied opening the door slowly, her throat burned she had not felt thirst like this since she woke into her new life.
"Leave me alone" she hissed, and she thought of the disappointment in his face when she lost her temper.
"Is that what you think, when you lose control I'm disappointed in you" he shouted, this startled her but she shrugged.
"Bella look at me please" she shook her head; she couldn’t make eye contact with him.
"Damn it Bella I said look at me! " he hissed she couldn’t not obey , she slowly lifted her eyes , his hands were folded across his chest , his rugged jaw tense his lips in a thin tight line , she sighed then her eyes met his , they were solid with pain not anger.
He knelt down in front of her and held her face in his hands.
"Do you remember when Jasper told you his story, and how newborns were completely uncontrollable for decades?"
She nodded
"But you were all so proud of me in the beginning and amazed on how much self-control I had" she sighed
"And what you think we are disappointed in you now?" she tried to pull her face away but he held it tight so she didn’t fight it.
"Bella you haven’t spilled one drop of blood , do you know how amazing that is for a newborn , we were all there in that room just then and you didn’t attack any of us"
"Of course not you’re my family how could you think I would do such a thing" she snapped
"Your eighteenth?" he sighed "jasper would have killed you, not because he was a bad person but because the thirst took over" he smiled.
"But what’s happened to me, why do I keep losing control now a year on?"
"Carlisle thinks he may have come up with a theory of why you are so emotionally unstable almost human like" he said
"And?" she pleaded she wanted answers theory or not she needed to know.
"You’ve heard all the stories of when we were changed all different circumstances but all with one thing in common"
She tried to think what it was but she shook her head,
"How did we react to the venom" he caressed her cheek with his fingers.
"You all said it was excruciating and you screamed for death to take you" she still didn’t understand
"Yes, now what did YOU do" he exhaled
"I, I can’t remember" she began to play with her fingers; she didn’t want him to know how much it had burned how she had wished for death.
"You can’t or you won’t remember" he asked pulling her face up. She shrugged,
"Carlisle thinks because you didn’t scream and you held it all in, your mind hasn’t been able to vent out the emotions of it all so it’s still stored up".